#sorry idk what this is i’m going trhu something

[francolapintogf]

himym was actually such an insane show like… my dads dead but i’m not ready for this. you can tell me the brightest days of my life are ahead of me but i know that at one point that just stops being true. sometimes i wish i wasn’t a mom and i want to pack a bag in the middle of the night and leave. you can’t cling on to the past because no matter how tightly you hold onto it it’s already gone. i broke up with my girlfriend because i’m in love with you and you promised you’d do the same but you didn’t and now i’m here stuck in this moment at maclaren’s. i’m all alone. i would do anything to have 45 more days with you. what mother is gonna miss her daughters wedding. if you were gonna be some lame suburban dad why couldn’t you have been that for me. you don’t want kids and you don’t want to get married but i still love you. are marvin and i and any other children we’ll ever have just some consolation prize. i love you and i’ve just asked you if you love me and you said no. everyday i believe a little less and less. i hope the universe has better things to do than give me signs. every time i look at you it hurts. i would do anything to make you smile and that’s not a good way to feel about your best friends fiancé. i love you but fate intervened