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stellarphileistic · 4 days ago

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Ruined one of my favourite songs by listening to “All I need” whilst they lifted the cakets’s top off so we could view my uncle one last time (he passed a month ago, so they didnt prepare an open casket funeral ) and he unfortunately has already started decomposing. I can’t get the image of it out of my head despite being able to handle gratious gore all my life. It’s like a haunting image in my head. Bonus point that the end part of “All I need” was playing when they took the lid off so now anytime I hear it on TikTok the sight haunts me.

#to be clear I only listened to music because I cannot regulate mt emotions correctly due to bpd and didnt wanna make the funeral abt me #collapsing from crying #so I had my earbud in one ear only so I could still hear #I’m starting to look more up to Luigi Mangione #I lost my uncle due to medical neglect #he was a type 1 diabetic and he had been preciously almost killed in the a hospital a month prior to his death #he was also my only family member who also suffered with bpd #and I felt like he was the only one who could get me #he suffered all his life and had a terrible death #grief is just such a funny thing #but also his death made me never ever want to commit suicide #bc of bpd I always deal with suicidal ideation but seeing myy grandma sobbing so hard she is almost falling over hugging the picture of my #uncle so tightly #I could never let my mother go through this #I hate death and the hubgarian healthcare system #and how much money it costs to be able to fucking live with diabetes #sorry for venting my gf also broke up with me tow days before the funeral😋👍#cw:gore

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