#sorry for the spelling im just stressed and exhausted and hungry and dehydarated pls kill me

[witchofeindor]

I sent it and I'm shaking I’m not gonna check my mail till like tomorrow night

It’s a prof in whose courses I always got a 100 and I feel like such a disappointment now bc I know she told my friend that my seminar sounds really interesting from what I’ve consulted with her

I got a 100 on both presentations I did for this seminar, got 98 on a presentation I did for another course I took with her, in whose the final exam I scored a 100 (which was my final grade in that course, too), and not only that I scored a 100, she actually wrote on my graded exam that she really *enjoyed* reading my analysis.

And while exams are anonymous, she knows my way of thinking and she knows my final grade so I assume she figured out it’s me plus in my first year I made it into the chancellor’s list (=מצטיינת רקטור, the highest rank of excellency in BA) and she was the head of my department then so like...I feel like I'm such a disappointment and Ii’ll be even a greater disappointment when she actually reads my paper bc while I’m great at analysing things and coming up with my own creative ideas, I’m terrible with backing it up if it’s a socio related study so I am fucked and ashamed