#sorry for the rant oopsies. in my unlovable era ✌🏻 | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

doqqy · 2 years ago

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i’m genuinely soso scared i’ll never be able to actually date. like i barely ever like anyone, and the only thing i find consistently attractive in people is them liking me. the more someone is into me the more i like them, even if i didn’t care about them at all before they liked me. it’s the only thing i find attractive and there’s like no upper limit to it, like even to the point of the person being obsessed with me. and i *know* that isn’t healthy but i can’t seem to do anything about it, it’s the only thing i’m reliably attracted to. and another problem is that i get scared anytime someone actually wants to meet, idek why but up until they wanna meet it’s like yayyy hypothetical romance, but then it gets real and i get scared.

#also pretty sure i’ve never felt real romantic love before. and i’ve had like 2 crushes ever and they were both when i was like. 12-15 #so idk what to do. i’m a lovergirl i know i am. it’s all i want but i seem to be completely unable to obtain it #my ‘girl who only wants love but it is always just out of her reach’ slay 🫶#sorry for the rant oopsies. in my unlovable era ✌🏻#i’m joking about it bc i feel helpless but i genuinely do not know how i’m supposed to go on. like it’s not funny it hurts real bad #lilith.txt

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