#sorry for the long reply lol

[mewvore]

I came across you via your post about (shortening for readability) "HRT being a last minute option that could be taken near the end of all possible solution to life's most pressing woes" And I tried to understand, but I do not fully, so I try and ask you directly. Sorry if I don't have the proper vocabulary to use the "correct" terms in my questions I thought HRT was... well, something against body dysmorphia in people who felt misplaced in gender-related questions (purposely being vague in order to try and include all intersex etc people) And in that interpretation, for HRT to help in any way, there must have been some... mismatch of sorts. Is the word dysmorphia, dysphoria, dysplasia? Idk. I'm not a scientist, just a confused rando on the internet. Whatever the word, if such a thing were to exist, should it not be possible to pinpoint it and target it specifically, long before you would get to the end of possible solutions? Your phrasing sounds a lot more like someone saying "I have issues. Let's just shotgun a random treatment for a random issue that other people have and hope it works". How and why would it work? Why is HRT the last-ditch attempt that did work?

the most important part about what I said, in regards to that entire twitter post and my explanation, was that it was about me, only me, personally. whether that ended up resonating with people is completely based on their own experiences and interpretations, and it is definitely not universal. none of it was meant to describe the trans experience and HRT in its entirety for everyone

In regards to calling HRT what amounts to as a final effort, I called it that as a way to consolidate years and years of things that happened in my life which lead to that point. a baseball game doesn't get to a 9th inning randomly, and a pokemon battle doesn't get to the last 1v1 immediately. a lot happens to get to those points where a solution eventually presents itself. I apologize but I simply do not wish to lay out EVERYTHING that happened in my life to explain the EXACT reason why transitioning ended up being my personal solution.

for the most part you are correct in what you understand HRT to be and what it addresses, and its something that requires a lot of thought, a lot of discussion with professionals and peers, and its most definitely not something that one picks haphazardly. The brevity I used wasn't due to any lack of care, it was to aid in the nature of internet posting and making clever jokes. I apologize for making it confusing for you

[swee7dream]

I'm gonna be so honest your blog always makes me slip and low-key it's making me want to tell my bf so badly about my regression <33

aaaa thank you ! i'm glad my blog can be a safe space of sorts for you.

it's a big step to open up to someone about your regression so i totally understand any holding back you're feeling at the moment. unsolicited advice, a good partner is a partner that loves you at your strongest and weakest (or smallest !).

if you feel like words fail you, remember there's a whole community on here, not just on tumblr (actually, stay off this site as a whole .. /hj) but generally on the internet. it's the first link on my pinned post to help non-regressors and cgs, but this video i feel helps explain agere better than i could. it talks about it from a psychological perspective and also goes over all the usual pushback points non-regressors have abt the community.

if you decide to do it, i pray it goes well for you! if not, that's also fine. it's important to do things at your own pace and not anybody else's.

[tatangadragon]

what are you watching right now? are you liking it?

thanks for the question! always fun to answer asks

anyways, lately I've been mainly watching two shows: Venture Bros [first time ever seeing it] and 31 Minutos [sort of a rewatch?never fully finished the show but this time I intend to]

venture bros is a very fun adult swim show that parodies a lot of old sci fi and stuff along the lines of johnny quest, and the concept of supervillains

31 minutos on the other hand is a chilean puppet show about a news station. its one of my favourite things of all time and its very good !! also I've been showing it to a friend from the US and that's been fun

ohhh wait I've also been watching the Dungeon Meshi anime!!! that's been really fun. i like it a lot. really good adaptation imo and I'm excited to see the rest

[fishfingersalad]

i have three freelancer ocs! or four if you count an ai fragment oc? Michigan aka Mitch, strong close combat fighter but she really doesn't know how to talk to people, she likes rifles and has a tendency to be a bit more questioning of her orders than a regular soldier. Minnesota aka Mentos/Soda, espionage and infiltration specialist, not exactly physically strong so he relies on speed and dodging more than most freelancers. Hes also just the kinda guy who gets hit with stuff a lot. he'll be chilling in the mess hall and an apple just bonks him on the head. He later gets some issues (post traumatic epilepsy) due to an unstable ai. Missouri aka Missy, chemist/bio warfare specialist and sniper, shes very outgoing and hates her job with a passion. her main weapon is a modified sniper tranq gun. She probably could be higher on the leader board if she followed orders. and then theres the ai Zeta! who is just a silly little guy and the fragment of hope, hes a bit unstable which leads to their 'aspect' sometimes being inverted and turning to hopelessness.

I also have two other freelancers who i havent planned out that much (kansas and arkansas) and a group of chorus ocs who are just a group of runaway kids who hate the war and use scavenged armour and materials.

hey rvb fandom!!! tell me about your freelancer (or other) ocs!! im curious

[askthisfishprince]

Wwell if you insist, I certainly wwont stop you…

[d4ggerfish]

Just saw your dnd character art and I want you to know I would crawl through horse of gelatinous cubes just for the chance to have her give me a head pat. She could literally steal all my money and I would thank her.

thank you so much !!!!!

[bandsandwristbands]

UR SO GOOD I LUV U SO MUCH🖤 & motivated to draw when people IM asking for it rig h t n o www

I LUV YOUUUUUU if I'm drawing for you that's enough uwu 💕💕🫣✨✨✨

all I have left to offer for now is a quick gaaleesbians 👉👈

[peanutbutterandbananasandwichs]

what are some of ur random/casual sam hcs

Eee yuss love to think about this :)

Sam eventually ends up self-diagnosing as autistic after school flags up that they think DJ might be autistic and they end up getting him assessed and diagnosed. Sam does a ton of reading because he wants to do his best to help DJ and asks him what would help too. And one day DJ is just like "you know it tends to run in families dad?" and just kinda gestures at Sam's meticulously organised bookshelves and plate of the same food he's eaten every day for the last week and Sam is like "Oh!". He decides he doesn't really feel the need to get a formal diagnosis but it does help him feel closer to DJ and like he understands himself a little better and occasionally cut himself a little more slack for things he struggles with.

Sam's magic phase when he was a kid lasted two whole years and started with a tattered old magic tricks book he found in a second-hand shop he and Dean visited one afternoon when John was out of town. John came home and Dean was immediately like "dad its not my fault!" when Sam had a whole table set up with tricks he'd learnt ready to show John, but John couldn't even be annoyed because it was actually kinda cute. (Took about two weeks before that wore off and he was on Sam's case for practising his tricks instead of his shooting skills.)

Sam and Jess read The Lord of the Rings together, they would alternative reading a chapter each out loud each night. Jess went full ham with the voices.

Sam only started sleeping mostly on his stomach after Jess died.

His second favourite sandwich (after peanut butter and banana obviously) is a veggie BLT.

Sam hates wearing socks and takes them off literally the first opportunity he gets (sensory issues).

Soulless Sam experiences an even greater level of sensory awareness than Sam did previously, but he finds everything much more tolerable despite that because none of it bothers him.

When Sam was a kid (until about say 10 or 11), he used to collect library reading scheme cards (do they have those in the States idk?) from every library they visited in the hopes that they might come back and he’d eventually be able to complete one!

Jody looked after Sam for a few days after he showed up at her doorstep when he was looking for Dean between S9/10 - it was just after he'd injured his shoulder and she insisted he stay and heal up a bit (wrote a long version of this here).

In the weeks after A Very Supernatural Christmas, after Sam has found out about monsters he becomes stuck to Dean like glue. He grips onto his hand extra tight as they walk to school in the morning, he insists they sleep in the same bed at night, even if there are two beds there (and he always, always checks very thoroughly under the bed before they are allowed to go to sleep). John and Dean both assume of course that he’s freaked out about the monsters and worried that they are going to get him. One night when they are left in the motel room together on their own, and Sam is being particularly clingy, Dean get’s fed up and tries to storm out, telling Sam to leave him alone for 5 minutes. It’s then that Sam jumps up and blurts out “but then I can’t protect you from the monsters”.

I'll stop there or I'll never stop

[picnicbask3t]

Imagine

lgts AU photobomb

im imagining. do u see my vision

+ parsley version bcz whynaut

[maythedreadwolftakeyou]

Hi! Cause you forced me to acknowledge how many damn WIPs I have (rude) I shall now send you an ask about yours 😌 So I'm gonna be super shameless and predictable and ask about that one Spite Lucanis x Rook fic I spy in there 👀👀👀

from this tumblr game thank you!! :)

ahahahaha well. this was indeed a character exploration about Spite's involvement in Rook/Lucanis' relationship but uhhhhhhh taken to the logical and less favorable conclusion than i have seen in fanfic so far, hence the word "interruption" in the title 😂 posting a longer snippet because... really i've just been writing random scenes for their relationship and am not sure if/when/how i will structure it into fanfic yet (handful of one shots? a longer thing? i am so low on free time though 😭 idk)

timing is after the romance lock-in but before the act 3 romance scene, so Rook & Lucanis are together as a couple but haven't slept together yet... though they may have been heading that way before Spite decided to get involved. under a readmore for length!

STOP, Spite suddenly roars, surging forward from the back of Lucanis’ awareness. The demon’s wings burst forth, their first downward stroke hard enough that it sends him reeling backwards, away from Rook. “What?” he cries, and “—what?” Rook echoes in sudden alarm, as their bodies tumble apart, Lucanis barely managing to throw out an arm to brace his fall as he crashes to the stone floor of the pantry. His feet tangle in his discarded waistcoat and trousers as he leaps back to his feet, nearly sending him to the floor for a second time.

He looks around wildly, for the attackers or whoever else is responsible for Spite’s sudden disquiet. But there is no one. No demons, no Antaam pulled into the Fade, not even one of their companions wandering too close on accident. He fumbles at the table for one of his knives anyway, trying to listen, to figure out where the danger is coming from. “What’s going on? Spite, what happened?!”  There, Spite says, all calm satisfaction now. If you kept going. She would have come. Now she wants more. “She—excuse me? Spite, what are you talking about?” Lucanis demands. She will think about you all night now, the demon replies happily. If you kept going. It would have been over. “I—why would you do that?! That’s not how it works!” “What’s he saying? What’s going on?” Rook stands in front of the bed, frantically staring around too, searching for enemies that clearly never existed. Her hair is still rumpled from where his hands had tangled in it, her breaths still coming fast and heavy.  He cannot believe he has to not only sit here, disgraced and ashamed, but he is left alone in actually explaining what’s happened. “Mierda. He did it on purpose. He thinks it’s—fun. To stop us.” He presses a hand over his eyes, taking a deep breath. “Spite—ohhh. Oh.” “I’m going to kill him,” Lucanis says flatly. “I’m going to take myself out back and—” I’m RIGHT, Spite howls in defiance, baring his teeth inches from Lucanis’ face. Despite himself, he flinches back. You wanted. Her to think about you. MORE! “No, stop that, it’s fine,” Rook tries to soothe him, her hands scrabbling to re-fasten her tunic around her waist. As though this catastrophe is something she can just brush off. “I guess we should figure out, uh, how Spite—how you and he—” “I can’t talk about this,” he mutters into his palm as he drags his hand down his face, dropping to sit back down on the cot again.. “This is not happening.” He knew Spite was a part of him. He was resigned to his presence, was growing used to the new precautions his life involved. He even, though he hated to admit it to himself, enjoyed the extra momentum and power the demon brought when they fought against enemies. What he hadn’t considered was the demon barging into the personal, intimate—   You did it BEFORE, the demon sulks. And it WORKED. She wanted to kiss you more because you stopped. “That was different,” he snaps in response. He ignores Rook’s baffled expression at his half of the conversation.  “I mean—he is Spite,” I guess, Rook acknowledges. “Uh, maybe I should leave you two to talk about this together?”

Panic surges in his chest, as he bites back his urge to shout No! at the suggestion. But she doesn’t deserve to half-witness the mess of the argument he’s already having. He was an idiot. He should never have assumed something might be going right in his life for once. “I don’t even know what to say to him,” he can’t help saying in exasperation. “He doesn’t listen, just does—whatever he wants.” What YOU wanted! You SAID it! I was only HELPING. “Well. You said you didn’t have much experience with, um, relationships—” “I don’t think this counts as the kind of experience anyone has, Rook,” Lucanis responds, dropping his head into his hands again, elbows resting on his knees. “I can’t exactly stop him from—he sees what I see. What I… feel.” Admitting it fills him with shame. He should have told her before this. Whether or not she’s guessed, there’s no avoiding it now, or pretending anything in his life could ever again be normal. Simple.  “No, I just meant—maybe try to explain it to him, is all.” Rook sighs, and he can hear the shift of fabric over skin as she tugs her clothing back into place. He wonders if she can see the bright flush of shame to his skin behind his hands. “He’s only got your memories for how to interpret the world,” she continues. “Maybe he… misunderstood something.” He doesn’t want to tell her that Spite probably understood more than he did himself. Lucanis certainly hadn’t realized just how close she’d been to—he shakes his head to clear away the thought.  “You two will figure this out,” Rook says, with a firm conviction he does not mirror. She leans forward and kisses the top of his head, but he can’t bring himself to raise his face to meet her gaze. “I’ll see you at dinner later.” He hears her soft footsteps pad to the door, and slip away, out of the kitchen and back to the other parts of the Lighthouse. Maybe if he never leaves the pantry, he won’t ever have to think about this again. Maybe she’ll forget the whole thing ever happened.  Won’t forget, Spite cackles gleefully. Definitely. Won’t forget.

[aninonimosstuff-blog]

its like 5 in the morning im tootired to draw rn BUT

*cue filbo vandalizing fasts carwith a bunch of filipino swear words after her previous attempt of vehicular manslaughter*

Filbo is owned by @so-i-macedup-abit

[acetier]

will you be drawing any more of torin and varre? no rush at all, but i am lowkey obsessed with them now 👀

ask and you shall receive, anon :^)

[angelxxhunter]

describe your ideal mommy domme situation?

hmm want mommy to love me and take care of me, hug and kiss me aaaaand also to use me as her fucktoy and my cock as a dildo whenever she pleases <3 i wanna make her happy bc when she is happy i am happy too

[ganondoodle]

someone who has made one charatcer their single personality trait but is an absolut shithead sucks so much, i keep seeing people say the new transformers movie is good but its got a character rather giant on the promo stuff that i associate with someone who actively wanted me dead when i was young (seriously) so i dont think i can watch it

[magexii]

Hi!!

Okok first of all, I love your art! It makes me feel like there are tiny suns inside my chest! 🫶

I humbly come to you with an art request of Bingqiu as Sylvanian Families (aka Calico Critters) dolls?

(If you are not taking more art requests, then may I ask your opinion on which element SQQ's and LBH's visions would be in a Genshin Impact AU?)

May the winds of inspiration always blow in your favor, xoxo and best wishes 💖

hi hi! thank u so much!!

me and my girlfriend argued over what animal binghe would be, but border collie won. the other top contender was a black sheep. sqq is a white persian cat.

ONTO THE GENSHIN,

my immediate thought was binghe pyro and I went between sword and claymore for him, but landed on claymore. for sqq I couldn't decide originally if he would be dendro or anemo but I think the wind symbolism works more for shen yuan's story. I imagine he uses his fan as a catalyst. they would both be from liyue and I am NOT good at designing outfits.

[delborovic]

can you draw Rellik x Karl