#sorry for the long reply lol

[mewvore]

I came across you via your post about (shortening for readability) "HRT being a last minute option that could be taken near the end of all possible solution to life's most pressing woes" And I tried to understand, but I do not fully, so I try and ask you directly. Sorry if I don't have the proper vocabulary to use the "correct" terms in my questions I thought HRT was... well, something against body dysmorphia in people who felt misplaced in gender-related questions (purposely being vague in order to try and include all intersex etc people) And in that interpretation, for HRT to help in any way, there must have been some... mismatch of sorts. Is the word dysmorphia, dysphoria, dysplasia? Idk. I'm not a scientist, just a confused rando on the internet. Whatever the word, if such a thing were to exist, should it not be possible to pinpoint it and target it specifically, long before you would get to the end of possible solutions? Your phrasing sounds a lot more like someone saying "I have issues. Let's just shotgun a random treatment for a random issue that other people have and hope it works". How and why would it work? Why is HRT the last-ditch attempt that did work?

the most important part about what I said, in regards to that entire twitter post and my explanation, was that it was about me, only me, personally. whether that ended up resonating with people is completely based on their own experiences and interpretations, and it is definitely not universal. none of it was meant to describe the trans experience and HRT in its entirety for everyone

In regards to calling HRT what amounts to as a final effort, I called it that as a way to consolidate years and years of things that happened in my life which lead to that point. a baseball game doesn't get to a 9th inning randomly, and a pokemon battle doesn't get to the last 1v1 immediately. a lot happens to get to those points where a solution eventually presents itself. I apologize but I simply do not wish to lay out EVERYTHING that happened in my life to explain the EXACT reason why transitioning ended up being my personal solution.

for the most part you are correct in what you understand HRT to be and what it addresses, and its something that requires a lot of thought, a lot of discussion with professionals and peers, and its most definitely not something that one picks haphazardly. The brevity I used wasn't due to any lack of care, it was to aid in the nature of internet posting and making clever jokes. I apologize for making it confusing for you

[swee7dream]

I'm gonna be so honest your blog always makes me slip and low-key it's making me want to tell my bf so badly about my regression <33

aaaa thank you ! i'm glad my blog can be a safe space of sorts for you.

it's a big step to open up to someone about your regression so i totally understand any holding back you're feeling at the moment. unsolicited advice, a good partner is a partner that loves you at your strongest and weakest (or smallest !).

if you feel like words fail you, remember there's a whole community on here, not just on tumblr (actually, stay off this site as a whole .. /hj) but generally on the internet. it's the first link on my pinned post to help non-regressors and cgs, but this video i feel helps explain agere better than i could. it talks about it from a psychological perspective and also goes over all the usual pushback points non-regressors have abt the community.

if you decide to do it, i pray it goes well for you! if not, that's also fine. it's important to do things at your own pace and not anybody else's.

[tatangadragon]

what are you watching right now? are you liking it?

thanks for the question! always fun to answer asks

anyways, lately I've been mainly watching two shows: Venture Bros [first time ever seeing it] and 31 Minutos [sort of a rewatch?never fully finished the show but this time I intend to]

venture bros is a very fun adult swim show that parodies a lot of old sci fi and stuff along the lines of johnny quest, and the concept of supervillains

31 minutos on the other hand is a chilean puppet show about a news station. its one of my favourite things of all time and its very good !! also I've been showing it to a friend from the US and that's been fun

ohhh wait I've also been watching the Dungeon Meshi anime!!! that's been really fun. i like it a lot. really good adaptation imo and I'm excited to see the rest

[aphel1on]

the longer i look at this panel the more deranged i feel about it. this is environmental storytelling at its finest.

the eodio stand-in doll in particular makes me crazy. where did it come from? did thistle just pop into the village like "hey ungrateful wretches, one of you needs to make me a life-sized mannequin, For Reasons". did he make it himself? seems quite unlikely, yet the possibility haunts me. i mean, i guess there could've been one just lying around the dungeon somewhere. it's the act of replacement itself that really gets to me. (edit: it's been pointed out to me that the eodio doll also could have been left behind as part of delgal's escape plan. slightly different kind of madness but tbh, just as funny-sad to me if that happened and thistle went Ok, Guess That's Eodio Now.)

both the wives are there too. we know very little about them, which makes me tend to assume thistle wasn't all that close to them, but they're still included. when did they end up here? did he kick their souls out of their bodies at some point, or were they among those who left their bodies voluntarily to try and escape? when did yaad become an effective orphan, delgal an effective widower? women in the margins of the narrative, tell me your stories!

and the fact that they're surrounded with the living paintings, which thistle habitually wanders through to relive the past. this truly is his inner sanctum, his place of utmost comfort... and it may as well be a tomb.

that panel is so creepy when you first see it. just a sense of "ohh jeez, there's a lot to unpack there".

and actually, yeah, it remains creepy from pretty much any angle, but the more you think about it the more it's also tragic.

this is where many of thistle's happiest moments took place. everything he had in that picture is now gone. first he lost their warm regard, then one-by-one their bodies became hollow shells. before the end, none of the people here needed or enjoyed food anymore. the dinner table, as a center of both family life and nutrition, became obsolete.

a line from someone else's excellent post about thistle has stuck in my head ever since i read it: "to eat is to live, but to eat together is to be loved". to me, this is the sentiment and symbolism at the core of everything that happens in dungeon meshi.

it makes this bit all the sadder and more disturbing.

there's several things to note here:

thistle has gone from seated and eating with them as part of the family, to a lonely and ominous figure hovering over delgal's shoulder

eodio is conspicuously absent from view, and his body would have been a husk by now, but yaad says parents, which forces me to assume that they are sitting at the table with eodio's soulless body, hidden under yaad's speech bubble

they're not actually eating anything.

those plates are empty. you could assume that they've already finished eating, maybe, but yaad refers to it as sitting around the dinner table. in fact, he compares it to what he's currently doing; sitting at the dinner table watching the touden party eat, not eating anything himself.

it paints a pretty grim picture. for some time even after the fantasy had fallen apart, even after there was no need or desire to eat, they kept gathering around the dinner table. at that point, i'd guess only so as not to provoke thistle's wrath.

but even that last happened a long, long time ago.

this is a callback to what senshi said in the golden kingdom: the reason the people keep maintaining their fields and silverware and so forth is that they need to do so in order to stay sane.

paradoxically, the dinner table is the most striking evidence of thistle's insanity, and at the same time, it's the only anchor to sanity he has left.

he kept enforcing the ritual of dinner together long after it lost significance. when even that was impossible- because almost everyone's souls were gone- he kept their bodies at the table anyway. it's fine. it's fine! he's protected them, physically, just like he set out to. they're all still breathing. at a glance it looks like they could wake up and resume dinner at any moment. like this, it's easy to pretend.

isn't that what being a dungeon lord is, at the core of it? rejecting reality, staying in the prison of one's impossible desires. it's just one long game of pretend.

thistle did all this to protect his loved ones. no matter how obsessive and twisted he became in pursuit of that over the years, his core motivation never changed. this is all he has left of that dream: his loved ones' bodies gathered around the locus of their happiest memories together. like this, he can tell himself he's succeeded.

when eodio's body vanished with delgal's soul in it- when he couldn't even have that anymore... well.

i want to reach through the screen and shake him. no, they're not, thistle. THISTLE, NO, THEY'RE NOT! the doll of eodio is the closest thing to him in this panel, underlining the point. when that final illusion was shattered, he became completely unable to cope with reality.

therefore casually forgetting the creepy eodio doll isn't real.

thistle isn't stupid. eodio's body vanished at the same time as delgal's soul. shortly after, more adventurers came pouring in than ever before. deep down, he knows what happened. if he didn't, being confronted with the truth by mithrun wouldn't have made him panic so hard he summoned chimera falin to the first floor.

yet still...

he absolutely can't admit that to himself. he is clinging to the last scraps of the illusion with everything he has.

this is a dungeon lord at the end of desire. this is a lotus-eater machine left running long after its conclusion. this is mithrun lying listlessly in his bed, his replica lover having given up any pretense of being human. the illusion is all that's left. (an illusion is all it ever was.) thistle and the citizens of the golden kingdom- they're ghosts just as much as the ones who wander the dungeon floors. and if it weren't for thistle sealing the lion away, he would've been eaten by it long ago.

all of this encapsulated by that single panel of the dinner table.

[fishfingersalad]

i have three freelancer ocs! or four if you count an ai fragment oc? Michigan aka Mitch, strong close combat fighter but she really doesn't know how to talk to people, she likes rifles and has a tendency to be a bit more questioning of her orders than a regular soldier. Minnesota aka Mentos/Soda, espionage and infiltration specialist, not exactly physically strong so he relies on speed and dodging more than most freelancers. Hes also just the kinda guy who gets hit with stuff a lot. he'll be chilling in the mess hall and an apple just bonks him on the head. He later gets some issues (post traumatic epilepsy) due to an unstable ai. Missouri aka Missy, chemist/bio warfare specialist and sniper, shes very outgoing and hates her job with a passion. her main weapon is a modified sniper tranq gun. She probably could be higher on the leader board if she followed orders. and then theres the ai Zeta! who is just a silly little guy and the fragment of hope, hes a bit unstable which leads to their 'aspect' sometimes being inverted and turning to hopelessness.

I also have two other freelancers who i havent planned out that much (kansas and arkansas) and a group of chorus ocs who are just a group of runaway kids who hate the war and use scavenged armour and materials.

hey rvb fandom!!! tell me about your freelancer (or other) ocs!! im curious

[dresshistorynerd]

this might be the silliest question you’ll be asked. As someone who enjoys period dramas and studied history (though not fashion) so notices inaccuracies like fasteners and availability of dyes etc, I nonetheless can dive into the world presented.

I notice the wearing of outerwear the most. In a program set in Regency England, in outdoor scenes, a) you rarely see more than a Spencer jacket or a cape, and b) in a group scene the coverage varies wildly from lady to lady. As if I was out walking with friend wearing a tank top while I had on a turtleneck and fleece vest.

I get costumes tell a lot about the characters but wouldn’t a person look daft and either cold or hot and out of place?

This is not silly! This is actually a very good question! Regency media is often very much confused and inconsistent about what was appropriate in the given situation to wear, but to be fair, it was actually very confusing.

I have seen a lot of people, and I have repeated this before as well, perpetuate the idea that Regency Era had the same concept of casual and formal wear - split to morning, day and evening wear, where the earlier in the day it was the more the dress covered. However, the Regency concept of casual/formal wear followed much closer to the previous era of 18th century. Instead of morning, day and evening wear they had undress, half dress and full dress, which had a bit to do with how much was covered but not much. They were much less formalized than the equivalent concepts of the socially rigid Victorian Era. Which also makes it much more confusing. Undress was usually worn at home or during morning walks and it had long sleeves. Usually it was a pelisse or dressing gown, or could be a simple round gown. Though most garments were not inherently undress, half dress of full dress, since it was much more relevant simple or flashy the garment in question was. A simple redingote could also be undress for cold morning walks. Hair was often covered in undress as well, usually with a cap, but this wasn't necessary for young unmarried ladies. Full dress was basically ball gown - so the most formal dress, short sleeves etc. - and there fore easiest to grasp. Though sometimes other occasions besides balls were as formal and then full dress would be used as well, but not all evening occasions were as formal as balls. Half dress is basically everything else and easily the most confusing and unclear category. Half dress could have short sleeves or long sleeves, used outdoors or indoors, used for less formal evening occasions and promenade walks and visiting casually a close friend and picnic and so on. Basically half dress was anything more formal than the casual home wear and less formal than the fancy ball gown. It was a collection of several different types of gowns really, but the reason they were in the same category was that there was no hard rules on how they should be worn.

At some point I'll make a post on the Regency casual/formal wear etiquette where I go deeper into this.

What specifically sort of half dress someone wore had more to do with age, marital status and weather than the specific occasion (though that could still matter as well), since most garments could be styled in multiple different usages especially by combining them with different garments. Married women and older women were expected to use more covering clothing, while younger women and girls could use less coverage even on a more casual occasion. So for example on a summer outing an older married woman might wear a long sleeved round gown or a light pelisse, while their unmarried daughter might wear a short sleeved gown. But these were not hard rules either. It was sort of closer to how etiquette works today, much more vibe based than rule based. Here's couple of examples from art depicting different scenes, where women are wearing quite different sort of half dresses.

The first one here is from 1815-1820. I'm not sure what the setting is for this harp playing, since the women seem to be wearing outdoor clothing (all are wearing bonnets and one of them is wearing a redingote), maybe they are playing outside? Anyway, the two ladies have short sleeved gowns, one of them has open neckline, the other a chemisette covering her neckline, while the third has a covering redingote.

First image here is a painting named "A young person hesitating to play the piano in front of her family" from 1805. Here's a casual gathering among family on a terrace, perhaps after the dinner (the sun seems to be setting), where the young lady is dressed in short sleeved gown, while presumably her mother and grandmother are dressed on gowns with longer sleeves and covered hair. The second image here is painting of three teenagers preparing to play music on a casual musical evening from c. 1810. The girls are roughly the same age, yet one of them is wearing long sleeves and covered neckline, while the other is not, demonstrating how there was no exact rules with half dress.

The first image below is an illustration "In a cafe" from 1810. The ladies are out, two of them are wearing short sleeved and decollete revealing dresses, while their third (likely married) friend is wearing long sleeves and covered hair and decollete. The second image is an illustration from 1814, and depicts a casual gathering where young people are playing party games. Again there's a mix of long and short sleeves.

So it would not be inherently inaccurate to have Regency women in a group wear garments of varying sleeve length, but Regency media very rarely does it in a way that follows the nuances of the Regency social norms, because it very much depended on the situation. For example no lady would wear long sleeves in a ball. I don't remember every scene but what I do remember of the 2020 Emma they do the whole etiquette really well. And of course Pride and Prejudice 1995 nails it. Still after trying to figure out the nuances of Regency etiquette myself and still quite not getting all of them, I'm much more understanding of movies and tv shows for fucking it up. It really is very hard to pin down. Not that it prevents me from getting annoyed by very obvious mistakes.

[asksteverandle]

show the cat! show the cat! show the cat!

she ain’t very good at takin photos :,)

(she also ain’t very good at bein nice. I’m pretty damn sure Dally trained her to be like this -_-)

[askthisfishprince]

Wwell if you insist, I certainly wwont stop you…

[kalivasquezart]

Does marbles sibling have a name?

yes, but i can't reveal it yet

[regheart]

Do you have any fic recommendations that are jily but also have a jily critical tone to them (like it isn’t bash-y, but just something that doesn’t depict them as perfect and shows some flaws in their relationship)? Thank you!

anon, i think you might suffer from the same anguish as me. i love jily (i really do!) but sometimes i get tired of romcom plots and enemies to lovers and school sweethearts and i wish instead that i had something to explore the gruesome reality of war or the suffocating boredom of hiding. or even, maybe, something that is more honest about the obstacles of their get together, that doesn't ignore snape or the different social standing between lily and james or the war

fluff and yearning are essencial to the ecosystem of a fandom, i just want to get the other stuff half as easy

so i picked a few fics that diverge a bit from the genre conventions of your typical romance fic, and instead deal with the more human aspects of lily and james as characters and realistic troubles they might have faced during the war

morbid little game by darkbluedark has james and lily discussing how all of their friends would die before voldemort got to them, which is the bleakest pillowtalk ever, but a darkly funny fic

i desperately need to reread like a rabid dog by emerqldv and catch up with the sequel, but i remeber being so captivated by the messy of being essentially a child soldier and just learning to live a life as an adult. beautifully written!

the art of dying by the_wig_is_a_metaphor takes some creative liberties with a brand of dark lily, and because james is the narrator there's a huge dissonance between the two of them. unexpectedly, this is probably one of the funniest fics i've ever read

pretty white smile by clarewithnoi is a story about jily getting together in school but there's so much about what lily faces as a muggleborn that just makes it more realistic and more interesting

one thing (or the other) by rougeatre is another lily centric work, this time focusing on her relationship with other women. the section on bathilda has the most interesting jily commentary imo!

privilege and prejudice by acciosalmon explores a landmark on jily's relationship affected by the bigotry of others "and a well-meaning fiancé ignorant of his privilege", a likely fault for james to have

and my last rec is an ongoing fic that has just started and i only finished the last published chapter this morning but i'm very very excited to see how it goes. an ever fixed mark by thestralsofspinnersend is a portrait of a complicated relationship in complicated times. lily and james both feel very human and the secondary characters (remus, mary and snape being my favorites so far) are rich and complex on their own

[haruniki]

i would like more venture content if u would 🤲 anything would be okay, a drabble? sure, headcanons? also sure. i will consume whatever u give me pretty please

a/n: spent longer on this than i would like to admit so sorry for the lateness of this ask hehe includes general headcanons and some dating/romance ones. These are in no order and are very much random! All hcs are just ones that i thought of on the spot and went yeah this is them. this might get updates to it and i'll try to make an announcement of some kind if/when i do cw: none, maybe ooc?, not proofread!

General Headcanons:

I think a very common head canon everyone has for Venture is that they're autistic and have ADHD and I very much agree with that notion

once tried to smoke a cigarette only to choke and cough after taking one puff of it, refuses to ever try a vape or cigarette after that

was not popular in high school. Venture was a part of the 'weird kids' but was friends with a few of the more 'popular'(the students that were in AP classes and most people knew vaguely of)

was one of the students who came to school in an inflatable dinosaur costume for Halloween

had an emo/skater phase! Venture's grandmother still has pictures of their phase and shows them to Venture like 'remember when...' Venture definitely has a look of absolute terror on their face every time it happens.

Doesn't mind their name Sloan but I definitely feel they prefer being called Venture more (more on this in the romance section)

Really good with makeup. like Venture is so good with makeup that it's a little alarming

with the makeup hc in mind, Venture was an art kid in middle school who would draw characters from musicals

Piercings, so many piercings. Venture loves getting piercings! Their ears have a few and they definitely plan on getting more!

Rocks aren't the only thing they are obsessed with. Fugglers are also an obsession of theirs!

they don't collect them heavily but won't pass up the opportunity to get one or two if they happen to see them in store. Venture just can't help but think their cute and silly looking!

Also in case it wasn't already obvious; Venture is a big history buff! Has multiple history books and history related merch/memorabilia around their home/room.

Will not get that damn tooth fixed "If it ain't baroque, don't fix it!" "But it is broke..?" "Not that broken!"

doesn't have their driver's licenses, the most they have is a learners' permit

goes to the gym but it's very infrequent visits and sometimes they forget they have a gym membership in general

Firm believer of top surgery scars Venture

Romance Headcanons:

THE BIGGEST BRIGHTEST GREEN FLAG TO EVER GREEN FLAG

Sends you the coolest photos ever after they climb/hike in different places. It's always captioned with 'wish you were here'

Let's you paint their nails to match yours and while they forget to let it dry before doing something, they still get all giddy when someone points it out or just when they look down at their hands

Both their lockscreen and wallpaper are some kind of photo of you with an edit of a rock/crystal that reminds them of you on the photo in some way

Cuddle bug x1000 and not picky on big spoon or little spoon

If you're lying on the couch, Venture is joining you and flopping right on top of you

Best of luck trying to get them off of you, their kind of like a cat. Once they're on you, best not to move for a bit.

Biggest cheerleader for you! If you play a sport or maybe you're just trying on a new outfit, Venture is cheering you on and being your biggest fan

Venture has bought a shirt with you on it that has the saying 'I love my hot girlfriend/partner', wears it to sleep and wears it on Valentines' Day

Loves dancing with you in the kitchen while cooking or cleaning

Circling back to the name thing, Venture doesn't mind being called Sloan by you or close family members. They will ask that in more public spaces that you use Venture

Pet names aren't serious and are usually whatever sounds more funny in the moment, but Venture does use babe a bit frequently

Kisses are always quick and plentiful. Running out to get groceries? Venture is trailing after you and quickly peppering kisses to your face as you walk out the door.

If you go shopping together, Venture is more than happy to carry the bags. Definitely not because they want to show how strong they are to you.

Asks questions like would you still love me if i was a sedimentary rock or something similar to that

Can't sleep without feeling that your next to them, like you both have to at least be touching hands or something in order for them to be able to sleep properly.

[cryptid-doodles-212]

like how Caroline and Glados acted different due to being in a machine. Is it the same for Stanford and how different are those changes.

anon how did you know i spent my day digging through Ford character analysis posts?? currently under a huge influence of this one, as i believe it's the best explanation of Ford's character complexity and was recommended by a friend

tw: non consent procedures (Caroline)

☆ Main difference between Caroline and Stanford is that Caroline was forced into Glados - Cave says outright that he knows she would refuse to partake in this and would need to be forced

Stanford, I believe, has uploaded his conciousness/connected to Aperture willingly. He is no longer in his human body with polydactily (which despite being a physical trait, reflect his entire identity of not fitting in), he is no longer "weird", he feels at home in the machinery. He can do experiments with his new tools and limbs, he can see through massive amounts of data in nanoseconds, he is thriving.

Where Caroline was trapped, Stanford was set free.

☆ Second, Modesty versus Ego - Caroline was described as modest, concerned about ethics; Stanford here pushes through, not because he is evil or lacks ethics, he simply has a goal that requires a thing to be done and he will do it. Not out of active malice and harm, but because it needs to be done, to progress the knowledge, for progress itself.

The main characteristic is his desire to Know. Means to an end. Most often, it's his own hybris, he is the victim of his own "lack of ethics" as he doesn't perceive himself as a human who ethic applies to (we go back to the Weirdness and Othering aspect here). Ford makes another deal with Bill to save his family - but a concept of saving himself out of "this is bad for me" doesn't exist.

This absolutely amplifies in the au - he begs Stan to leave (human, is unethical to harm him via tests - Ford uses turrets and other robots for these) but he wants to stay (belongs there, ethic doesn't apply to him)

Where Caroline loses her humanity unwillingly, Ford latches onto his otherness.

☆Third and final, Stanley Pines.

I understand Ford is neglectful of Stan in many ways in the show, but I also refuse to believe he doesn't love him. Ford like Stan has complexity to him.

When Glados hears Caroline's voice, it triggers her memory - she calls Caroline her conciousness and possibly deletes her (there are some very contradictory infos on this on wikia - either way she sets her free if she did, or made peace with her if she did not delete her)

For Ford, this is Stan. Stan who loves him no matter what. Stan who came looking for him, who never stopped looking for him. Stan who always saw him as he is and, despite their bickering, accepted him. This is why he tries to force Stan to leave, not by forcing him out (bitter reminder of their Flop Father), but by begging him; before Stan gets hurt.

Ford ran far, beyond this realm, to feel at home, to belong and not feel othered.

Where Caroline reminded Glados of humanity, Stan reminds Ford that he belonged the entire time, with him.

TLDR: Ford softens when he becomes a part of the Aperture - he is free and he enjoys it - not in a Wheatley ecstatic way but from genuine enjoyment - he is closer to his child self than grown hardened Ford

[fycoren]

Okokokok your eaten time au 👀 Sonic doesn’t/can’t remember Shadow. Were Sonic and Shadow in a relationship pre Time Eater? Or does it happen after? Bc listen I saw “Sonic can’t remember Shadow” and then “in a relationship” back to back and my first thought was “Sonic gets to fall in love AGAINNNN” quickly followed by the lyrics from Epic “I will fall in love with you over and over again”

Sonic & Shadow were together pre-Time Eater, yes! So yes, he does get to do just that, lol. His timing may not end up being ideal, though..

[d4ggerfish]

Just saw your dnd character art and I want you to know I would crawl through horse of gelatinous cubes just for the chance to have her give me a head pat. She could literally steal all my money and I would thank her.

thank you so much !!!!!

[bandsandwristbands]

UR SO GOOD I LUV U SO MUCH🖤 & motivated to draw when people IM asking for it rig h t n o www

I LUV YOUUUUUU if I'm drawing for you that's enough uwu 💕💕🫣✨✨✨

all I have left to offer for now is a quick gaaleesbians 👉👈

[picnicbask3t]

Imagine

lgts AU photobomb

im imagining. do u see my vision

+ parsley version bcz whynaut