#sorry coming from house of the dragon and interview with the vampire like totally altered my brain chemistry about dynamics

[hakunoknight]

no one is awake so now i can talk about hornet and motherhood, that being that i hate the idea of her having kids but also do think it's not impossible for her to have kids.

i am someone who has always hated endings where female characters marry and have a family (very few exceptions to this) - the pairing being a lesbian couple does not make me like this trope more. i probably dislike it more tbh. so part of my hcs for her will always be that i don't think she wants kids. one because she has so much trauma and baggage to deal with and heal and of course those things are never totally gone, and also bc i just don't think she's got the personality nor space for it.

she can care for others and describes herself as stern but not cold, but none of that points to maternal or wanting to be a mother. she's got complicated relationships with both her parents and probably has a lot of thoughts in general about parent & child bonds, but i do think with being with partners who do want kids + the influence from whatever society she aligns with COULD lead to children. it would just suck.

I've always hc'd herrah as having many miscarriages before hornet and i think this would be hornet's fate, too, on top of postpartum depression which would make it borderline impossible for her to have a normal relationship to her children. on top of everything else!!!

this of course would make her having kids as a sad and tragic event in their lives and her own so in that way it interests me a lot as someone who thinks about those things a lot (and who loves this aspect in series like ASOIAF/IWTV) where such relationships are complicated and fraught. but end goal is i never write her as wanting kids and if she did it'd be for reasons outside of her and it would be very sad.