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#I've been wanting to draw something like this#thank you for giving me the excuse#nuziv#vuzin#murder drones#my art#I'll get to the other requests eventually!#(except for the crossover and oc requests i'm so sorry but I don't do those right now)#again there are 3 requests that I really want to combine#I'll probably draw other things in between though#okay i'll just tag all the ships#nuzi#vuzi#envy#they give me so much joy#!!!#both uzi and v are going to die of embarrassment later btw#especially uzi
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this may be a weird-ish thing to ask but I was looking for some cool official art of Colette and stuff on here and found a post of yours with official-looking art, but it wasn’t the full image. do you have/can you find the full image of this? this is an entirely voluntary request you do not have to answer this ask!
Not weird to me :> This is that picture in its entirety!
And, I feel like I should make this a Coke master post while I'm at it! Because once I made an incomplete compilation for Fang and someone liked the fact that all the neat Fang pictures were in one spot.
So here you go! Colette may not be the focus in all of these, but she's in every one! I'm not completely sure if it's all of them though.
💝 Bonus:
A lil loop with her buying stuff!
#Colette#Brawl Stars#Master Post#BS#this was fun!#I think I'd like to do this again. ;0 I'll accept requests for other characters but I cannot guarantee getting them out too fast.#Also sorry but no Carl. ;0 You'll have to find someone else for that.#I know you didn't ask for the compilation directly but like I said I've been considering doing so anyway.#So I hope you don't mind being the ask i used to do so!#If more Colette pics crop up I'll probably just reblog this and go from there. I didn't include screenshots where she's in animations.#but I don't think that's necessary anyway. just go to youtube <3#this is also like. a tribute to my Bestie. the Colette Kinnie themself. <3 Hii Bestie hi! Surprise! Lol. Hope I got 'em all :3#Also this girl is fruity and this is all the proof there is lol
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WAIT A SECOND I THINK I DID HIT 300 FOLLOWERS (had to remove some of the spam blogs, but I still ended up with 300)
I'm very happy about this... thank you all for the support!!!! :D
.....any ideas on what on earth I should do for this
#I'd open up art requests again BUT. but. they'd only be for mutuals/select followers#sorry hillbilly bears anon#I could do a DTIYS but again I don't know how I'd do that either#artsandramblesandstuff#300 followers
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latenite revamp
#ocs#original#if you recognize this character no you don't....... do not perceive my old art 🙏#once again my conundrum of loving to draw flowy hair but all my faves have short hair LOL#i need more masked/obscured eye characters so bad.....................#also to the 2 people whose requests i still haven't drawn: sorry it will happen!!! someday!!!!#EDIT: added alt text
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Someone needs a Rev Up.
#fanart#sketch#Fear and Hunger 2: Termina#Kida Tanaka#can you tell that I am OBSESSED with this character?#waiting for the update that will make him playable#was supposed to be a Tanaka dump but I think I'm hitting burnout again#probably just need to take a break for a little bit but I'm always open for requests and suggestions#sorry if I don't do all of them#stress about Election Day has got me down big time#always hate this time of year and tje presidential ones always have me on edge#scared of the outcome and the backlash that might follow if something doesn't go someone's way#I worry about a LOT of stuff tbh#stress and anxiety 24/7 just about
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if any of you are still feeling weird about that infamous interview, here is what alex said about it (and why that ashley girl doesn't like him). i really want to point out that what alex says here is the exact same thing us, miles fans have been saying since forever. so, if you are a fan of alex, but throw shit at miles, just remember that your favourite also supports him. and maybe think twice before starting arguments with miles fans and keep in mind that alex has the same opinion about it all.
Alongside Arctic Monkeys, Turner has a long-term side-project called The Last Shadow Puppets with his best friend, the Birkenhead singer-songwriter Miles Kane. During the promotion for their last album, the two did an interview with a female journalist from the music webzine Spin. Turner was being his usual unforthcoming self, so Kane attempted to break the ice with some groan-inducing banter. This included inviting the journalist up to his hotel room when she asked what he was doing after the interview, which, in hindsight, was pretty stupid (he realised as much the next day and emailed her to say sorry). The result, though, was a lengthy op-ed calling out Kane’s unprofessionalism and the misogyny of the music industry at large. Personally, I found some of her complaints against him a tad flimsy — holding eye contact for too long, high-fiving her, “yanking” her in “for a not entirely consensual kiss on the cheek” as she said goodbye, and not least the idea that interviewing a rock star is ever supposed to be an exercise in professionalism. What did Turner make of it all? He sighs. “I think he made a joke he shouldn’t have made and realised he had misjudged the situation.” I thought it was a bit OTT, I tell him. “Yeah, I’m not sure it was deserving of that response honestly, but you just can’t make a joke like that.”
(from 2018, this interview)
#also he didn't exactly invite her; just joked about inviting her (which was still wrong)#also pointing it out that i also think that his 'jokes' were wrong. i also would've thought he's a dick. but alex said it brilliantly.#there was a misunderstanding between the two of them; he made the joke; realised he shouldn't have and that he misjudged the situation;#apologised; never did anything similar to this again#let. it. go. he's proved countless times ever since then that he is a decent human being. open your eyes; look it up; do your research#or if you don't want to then don't interact with him/his fans at all#btw this interview is absolutely horrendous#only read it if you want to lose your mind a bit#imagine getting alex turner to let you into his home and then only ask him questions about his gf; bf; taxes; what he spends his money on;#etc. my god.#also he talks about not being in taylor's ig posts: and says he#“doesn't recall submitting that request; but he's not sorry about it if he's not on there.”#makes you think#(and then the fact that this is from may and he talks about being 'settled down'; then they 'break up' in june. smh)#alex turner#miles kane#ashley reese#tlsp
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i'm gonna be real i have been struggling to edit recently and i can't tell if i'm just finally hitting burnout after 3 fucking years or if i'm just too busy to settle into the groove. hoping it's the latter
#not edits#i don't rly wanna actively advertise it yet but i take edit commissions for commercial use and i have one rn and i have just been like#staring at the muse for the entire week and it took until tonight to actually find something that i liked and felt fitting#i sent it off for review so i hope they like it -- and if they see this i'm sorry again for the delayed response LMAO#i wanna take more commissions but i need to finish some like infrastructure-level stuff before i can do that#so like for rn i don't suggest asking. i do take requests for non-commercial uses tho like if anyone wants a specific edit#i need to grind out the backlog of requests cuz like they're at least concepts i can work with right. i'm gonna do that later today i thin
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finally introducing the other character who also occupies a part of my brain:
Meet Giewont!
while the creator of it, Maria Leszczyńska, originally intended to make a war machine, she struggled a lot with finding resources then. however, with her and her family's life deeply affected by both world wars, the idea never left her mind. inspired by utopian idea of glass houses from a novel "the spring to come" ¹, she created her machine from glass. it would be cheap to make, yet durable, available as help to those in need, able to do hard work in times when it was needed - but if fragile peace was in danger again, it could fight alongside other soldiers. as if to set that role of protector in stone, she named it Giewont ². to test her creation, she gifed it to her brother Andrzej, who owned a small farm near the seaside.
Giewont worked as much as four men, not needing to be paid or fed like people would. it was a perfect solution for everybody, the new industrial revolution. that was, until about half a year into her work, glass started to shatter. it turned out not to be as durable as the utopian story made it to be, especially in contact with rough farm tools. small cracks also started to appear after they worked outside in winter, with low temperatures on the outside and hot steam circulating inside. with her fingers and edges getting sharper every day, Giewont was forbidden from taking care of animals anymore, as she would injure them. she was given the only task with no way to injure others - they recieved a showel fully made from metal and was ordered to dig. she did as she was told, even though the work put strain on her already-falling-apart fingers.
but when one day, when returning home, she noticed daughter of Andrzej, Aniela, swimming too far away from the shore and having trouble coming back, long forgotten wire snapped into its place as she jumped into the water to save her. while Giewont did bring her back home, carrying her in their arms, the girl had severe cuts on her body from coming in contact with robot's sharp hands. furious with his sister creation, Andrzej took it outside, desperate to destroy it. blinded by anger, he didn't even notice the storm gathering over the horizon
Andrzej took the metal showel and struck Giewont on the side on their head, then again, until her body fell and crumbled to pieces. He covered it with sand and raised his hands to deal the final blow.
that's when the lightning struck.
and the man fell to the ground, dead.
the sand melted from the heat around Giewont, filling the empty spaces and connecting the pieces back together. raising from their shallow grave, with body more rigid than what she was used to, she took her shovel and decided to bury the man, with what respect they had left for him. that was, after she dealt the final blow herself.
although miraculous, the lightning didn't return her to the previous state of being. their motions were stiff and some parts of theirs got lost forever among the sands of the beach. the part of her head where the first blow was dealt never worked properly again, rendering Giewont deaf in one ear (or whatever was left from it). however it did some good as well, as it widened the space around her mouth, finally making them able to talk - even if it was simillar to a whistle. determined to help people but with a body that kept hurting everyone around her, Giewont set off into the world, trying to find a home and piece herself together, leaving parts herself and a dead body behind.
footnotes below the cut:
1. "During one pause in their journey, the elder Baryka tells Cezary of an entrepreneur who, along Poland’s Baltic coast, devised an ingenious method for manufacturing durable glass from the vast reserves of pristine sands that had lain for eons beneath coastal peat fields. By a massive Rube Goldberg-type arrangement of channels and a creative method for harnessing the westerly winds (the storytelling here is a literary engineering feat in itself), an incursion of the sea provides power for converting the extracted sand into glass. From this vitreous wonder substance, prefabricated houses of glass are built inexpensively. The houses are strong as steel, hygienic, and easy to heat in winter and keep cool in summer. Whole villages are built with houses of brightly colored glass. Life becomes less of a struggle for mere existence, more civilized, and without the need to toil incessantly. People eat less meat or no meat at all, and begin to revere farm animals as sacred beings. For the reader, the digression serves to freshen the mental palate. For Cezary, however, the story is altogether beguiling, raising the utopian prospect of a more wonderful life, reunited with a homeland that might have been his to begin with and a father he has just rediscovered" - via neh.gov
wow thanks for skimming through footnotes as well! as a reward, here's the first ever design of both Janka and Giewont (which proves they were both created around the same time :] )
2. "Those knights had been in a deep sleep for hundreds of years and they only would wake up if it is time to fight on a great battle. When this day comes, the earth will move, there will be thunders that would shake the sky, many trees will fall and break, and there would be noises when the Border Mountains will break. On that moment the knights will take their horses and they will gallop to fight for Poland once again." - the legend of the sleeping knights
a lot had changed since that time :]
#i hope it wasn't too long :')#sorry if tge drawings vary in between them i kind of drew them in way different times#AND BTW i know all of them have cracks but yellow cracks were supposed to apper after they got almost killed#i just never did the drawing of original giewont. huh#me when i try nkt to give my oc a backstory the lenght of do you love the colors of the sky post -> 😰😰#OH AND ALSO she doesn't have to be purple. thats just what i went with because of my pens but. shes glass#they can be blue. they can be green. they can be yellow or rainbow or whatever. she can be see through. so if i draw her again and the colo#is different don't yell at me alright? the cracks stay yellow tho#spg fanbot#<- i mean. technically it is the same case as with janka but im even less sure now. can remive the tag at request#oc#original character#giewont spg#<- gotta remember to put spg there or mountain fans of tumblr will come for my blood#welcome to the family giewont :D
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Me panicking because i have 9 missed calls and 5 emails talking about my absence and how "a colleague could take over for me" vs. Me knowing it's really not that important no matter how pushy a client is and that on top of it I'm underpaid and have way to much overtime so i shouldn't even care
#i have 14 hours overtime#collected within 2 weeks lol#you know how it's apparently mandatory for companies in germany to have a way track employees working time? yeah we're#the only company in the whole fucking country who doesn't do that (obviously that's not true there's probably plenty more but it's#still not right.) so we don't get paid overtime nor does it get acknowledged in any way#so technically we're not allowed to even it out (which most people try to do anyway because tf do they think they are asking us to work for#free) but I'm dedicated to not collect any more unpaid working hours so i take the liberty to leave work early this week#so today i left at 12pm (and then got home 4 hours later because another person decided to kill themselves by train. they should call me#first. or anyone else taking the train. I'm sure there'd be plenty of volunteers to do the killing if it means not another miserable day#stuck in a disgusting train). and i logged in again at 6pm today to see if i have anything important messages (stupid i know)#and i saw the missed calls and that there had been an email exchange with me in the cc talking about the 'changes' made in one of the#articles and that someone else could do that for me since i couldn't be reached and at first i felt ashamed and scared#but now it's honestly just pissing me off. that asshole can't write emails and communicate requests like normal people can he#he already called me last week about something completely stupid and acts like his matters are the most important shit in the world#fuck you if you can't wait one day you should have sent this a month earlier because i won't stay online everyday#just to see if there might be an 'important' change you want me to make Immediately. bitch.#also missed two calls from my colleague but she didn't send any messages about what she wanted so i asked her because i felt bad for not#being online and turns out she wanted Nothing. just hear how i was. JUST TEXT ME THEN???? I HATE IT HERE FUCK YOU#seriously i don't get paid enough for this to bother me so much. she probably gets 12-15€ more than me per hour#of course she doesn't care about her overtime as much as i do. i get minimum wage which is less than what I'd get if i still worked at uni#as a student assistant so fuck this shit it's really not important or worth it. from now on i'll only put in minimum effort too#sorry got carried away. rant over now i guess#void screams#work stuff
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gonna adjust my character list for future prompts/requests.
#I'm considering accepting general requests again soon but like it should be known that they DO take me a long time + i don't do all of them#for prompts i try to do all of them (even if it takes me significantly longer than planned sorry)#but general requests i'm more picky
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#I feel. like I get too worried about putting my stuff in the tags LOL#or just too worried about ants in general#but to be fair I've come from some really infested fandoms#where people got reported for this stuff so hard they were removed from the site#idk if tumblr changed it though. maybe they did. where if someone hit a certain number of reports on their account they got removed#whether they were breaking TOS or not#I think that could have been changed because I don't see it happen anymore#but the more I cared about this tumblr acc the more scared of that I got LOL#it's been super peaceful though???#this could just be because I blocked like half the fandom before posting anything here#but I haven't received any hate mail & haven't had any sort of callout like I was expecting#and I guess mallesil isn't really SUPER controversial#it's leaning off the gray area lately but it is still in the gray area#I just feel like I'm cheating with how easy it is to ''get away'' with having HEY I LIKE INCEST front and center on my pinned and all#when I've seen someone get reported off the map for making one singular post saying they don't mind people who ship child characters#and I've just gotten away with posting sooo many mallesil posts in the main tags lately I'm like huh??? Did I ever actually need to worry?#it's kind of embarrassing I guess having several things in my Posts That Do Not Go Into The Main Tags#that I'm just now realizing were probably totally fine to put out there lol#like damn maybe I can just talk about lilia kissing silver with tongue and get away with it????#anyway#while I am on the subject of things I am embarrassed about for no reason#I feel especially bad lately for not posting like ANYTHING about sebek or lilia most of the time lol#I made a point to draw all the twst characters at least once a while ago but I don't think I've actually drawn sebek more than that?#sorry sebek I love you sebek :(#sebesil is such a good ship and I just have absolutely zero passion for it I DON'T KNOW!!! It just isn't there for me!!!#I like it a lot I love all the ship art for it I like seeing it pop up in fics#but if you leave me to my own devices I'm. not going to think about them even a little probably lol...#I do think about mallesebe sometimes though. I wrote about them once for the request. they're so fun they're so awful#and yet. most of the thoughts I have for mallesebe I'm just like hrmmmm this could be mallesil instead#sorry again sebek I love you sebek 😭
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Say, if you're still taking requests, can you draw Saria and my oc, Candor sharing a joyful/tearful embrace, not wanting to let the other go? (They have a crush on one another, and also Saria is an inch taller than Candor)
https://www.tumblr.com/kbluetoons/742464282470514688/i-made-a-slight-tweak-to-my-oc-candor-i-decided?source=share
https://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=https%3A%2F%2Fstatic.wikia.nocookie.net%2Fzelda_gamepedia_en%2Fimages%2F0%2F0f%2FOoT_Saria_Artwork.png%2Frevision%2Flatest%3Fcb%3D20240303185827&tbnid=-9sxtGJz-DZRKM&vet=1&imgrefurl=https%3A%2F%2Fzelda.fandom.com%2Fwiki%2FSaria&docid=VNebbChwARHn2M&w=1018&h=2836&source=sh%2Fx%2Fim%2Fm4%2F2&kgs=85872598afbfe053&shem=abme%2Ctrie#vhid=-9sxtGJz-DZRKM&vssid=mosaic
I'd say this is too complicated, sorry. I could draw both characters separately, if you want
#I don't think I can handle any more complicated requests#Not after the last disaster#Nearly got into art block over that#I'm open to doing the characters tho!#Request#Ask Chips#Ask#Sketch#Sorry again#Lol
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i am going to cry
i have requests on for you but they never go through
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i just want to he notified when you post, dammit
Send me a message and I'll just let you know directly when I post 👀 (to the best of my ability)
It's been a long time since I've posted here but I'm trying to fulfill some requests behind the scenes so I can post them together when life smooths out a bit
#I'm sorry i haven't been around fr#this blog brings me so much joy and it's what i want to be doing with my time and it brings me closer to the kind of people i enjoy interact#ing with#there have been a lot of life changes for me recently and i haven't been doing well#i might try to post some censored stuff here so i don't have to do the extra steps through the word press#i can't overstate tho how much it means to me that people continue to submit requests and message me#i want to make more stuff#i want to have fun with my art again#not art#maybe i should do a stream sometime soon
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HELLO gamers 👋
as of right now i have 4 SPULPAL (special pulp) drawings left to do so if any of you haven't sent in your ocs and you still want to, feel free! i'll be back at my Computer tomorrow so i can pump the rest of these out faster 😁
thank you to everyone who's sent in a req so far!!!!!!! i think i'll keep taking them until sunday!!!
#germaphone#spulpal#I REMEMBERED what i wanted to say#the funniest thing about me doing this is that before i started being active on this blog again#right before that i was telling my friend hey man i'll probably open commissions so i can give the money to you because i want to 😁#and my friend was like no don't do that but whatever i can't stop you#and i ended up Not opening commissions because i'm lazy and i don't have a large socmed presence besides some of my blogs#that i wasn't able to access due to a tumblr mishap#and then the other day i was like yay !! check it out i opened requests!!! and my friend was like awesome! and i was like#Sorry I Didn't Open Commissions.....#and my friend was like it's FINE. i don't care#but TLDR was supposed to open commissions. did not. opened requests on a completely different account
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-Hey🌹
(also- read the tags please..)
#I went back? perhaps...#I wanted to make this post to clarify some things and also..#I wanted to apologize for my “bad mood” last Friday.. I already wasn't doing well some days. so...#yeah. I know it was very wrong of me to say some things and well. that's it. I'm so sorry..#I also wanted to say and apologize to the people who gave me art ideas and I didn't do it.#as I said before. I've been pretty bad. and even more full of things to do and think about..#I know I should have told you guys this earlier but unfortunately I couldn't...#so- I won't be able to make them anymore. but... I'm open to art ideas now for christmas!#without being crk characters and also without being other people's characters (like- art requests if you guys know what i mean)..#maybe yes it could be with other people's characters but- I don't want it to be an art request for example. as i said#sorry for anything again if I said or did something wrong. I swear it wasn't my intention. and if it was. I apologize more for that#so... that's it. I don't have much to say-#just wanted to clarify a few things and wanted to ask for christmas art ideas so I can get back to posting..#sorry again for everything and hope y'all have a wonderful day/night with this wonderful art of mine that i did for you guys💛#hello kitty is one of my favorite characters. love her <333#hello kitty on my style#hello kitty fanart#hello kitty art#hello kitty#art#i'm mel and this is my blog✌️#my art blog#my art#my art <3#art mel#my art style#fanart
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AHHHH you're back!! this makes me so happy because i loved coming across your breakdown of her trailer and then sad when seeing you had left. i just really love kafka and i loved reading your opinions on her! so i've been meaning to ask you about something that i hope you don't mind! but what do you think about her path being nihility? i was reading into ix and found that they are tied or represented by laziness, meaningless behavior, and was kinda surprised. do you think that ties in with her? hope you don't mind this! have an awesome weekend!!
Smiling from ear to ear?! // Unprompted asks.
Oh my goodness, this is literally one of the most heartwarming things to receive (and in my case, I got to wake up to it) and so I'm really, genuinely smiling from ear to ear over here. This is one of my favorite things, and it's been years. I'm thrilled that the little meta about her trailer found its way into her tag, because I've enjoyed feedback, even if it's criticism. I live for people trying to poke holes in my logic (to see if it stays upright, as I endeavor to be as canon-strict as possible), or to simply add to it. But I'll also say that I'm the first to plead guilty to praise, who does it not improve the mood of significantly, honestly? But truly, I'm honored that you found details in it that piqued your interest, resonated with you, or even had you look into her with a bit of a specific eye; that's why I do it. And also, character analysis is part of the joy of writing for me, after all! So thank you for this, and choosing to come to me with this, my gratitude is endless! As for your question, forgive me, because I need to give a little bit of background (or scroll down to find my bit about Kafka, I'm just in a rambling mood lately):
Sad as I am to admit it the paths in HSR are not quite as high in lore accuracy as for example, Genshin Impact's visions, are. Where visions are directly tied to a character's ambitions, drive(s) and/or passions and are thus heavily tied to their personalities and actions; paths are a little less simple, as there seems to have much more of a gameplay (the 'type' of RPG role, things like DPS, debuffer, healer, and so forth) tied to them, that counters lore to a degree. Keep reading though, as I have opinions! A good example of this for starters is Jing Yuan, he was given the path of the Hunt (and from the wiki: "Those who follow the "Hunt" Path admire determination, ruthlessness, and tenacious behavior") but his gameplay fits into Erudition's gameplay role perfectly (which is explained as follows on the same page: "Deals remarkable amounts of multi-target damage. The main damage dealer against groups of enemies") though I would also argue that his personality seems to befit Erudition much more as well (again, as per the same page: "Those who follow the "Erudition" Path admire thinking, logic, and strategic behavior"), though I don't write him, so I do not proclaim to be an expert by any means. But in essence, the difficult part becomes the fact that there can be a mismatch between a character's lore and their gameplay, which will often account for a bit of a discrepancy. I also believe some characters have been tied to a specific path, but it seems more likely from a lore standpoint, that they would be part of another but it is still unplayable. So yes, MiHoyo has made this a little complicated, for it doesn't seem common that lore and gameplay overlap one another in terms of paths.
However, I'm not someone who likes to just write off the concept of 'for gameplay purposes' too easy, I'll over-analyze before I simply dismiss anything. Now it's worthy to note that I've been away from HSR for quite some months now, and am not caught up with the story, so take what I say with a grain of salt, and anyone's always free to add to this, or help elaborate!
I wonder how the narrative paths (can?) influence each other. To keep up with Jing Yuan as an example, does he pray to Lan so that he keeps these 'Lightning Lord' powers that he has? To what extent do you need to follow a path to gain any of the powers tied to it? Do you simply take its tenets and 'hold them in your heart', do you progress your faith and live out its virtues in any capacity? Does this then vary from person to person, is it different across each path, because it depends on the temperment of the Aeon tied to it? Or does it go beyond that, and there is inherently a tie to its beliefs that stems from your heart or belief? If we're speaking of how human beings work and their nuances, nothing states that you couldn't 'pledge' yourself to one path, while still adhering to virtues and tenets of another, they simply wouldn't overshadow the former. Yep, it's complicated.
As for Kafka and Nihility/IX. Yes! I do think it ties in with her perfectly. See, while IX's description ("Those who follow the "Nihility" Path admire laziness, exhaustion, and meaningless behavior") is very clear in its message, we need to keep in mind that there are actually primarily two approaches to the concept of Nihilism as a whole. One is simply admitting defeat and falling into the belief system where one believes, just like IX, that all existence is meaningless and so there's no value in life to speak of, so why live? But then if you look into the factions tied to Nihility, you can see the Doctors of Chaos and their caption says the following: "Ponderers who inadvertently encountered the Nihility. They attempt to resist the destiny of Nihility, and try to prove to the Aeon of Nihility the meaning behind the existence of all things." And this matches with what you read when you first meet IX in the Simulated Universe, where you're presented with two options to proceed:
1: You can hate that life has no meaning, turning inwards, sink into gloom and eventually become a Self-Annihilator of sorts, which is kind of, basically, the equivalent of the antimatter legion for IX. 2. You create your own meaning in life. IX presents a belief that there is no meaning, but that does not mean that you inherently need to believe the same thing, and so you find your own significance and value in life. And this seems to be paramount to all of the characters that follow Nihility to one degree or another, including Kafka. For starters, let me remind you of some lines from her SQ to prove it:
Trailblazer: Are you sure you don't follow the Aeon of Nihility? Kafka: Do I sound that negative? No. We believe that existence has meaning, but that meaning is bestowed by ourselves, not by choices.
Kafka's entire involvement in the Stellaron Hunters originates from the fact that she seeks to feel what she's never felt: fear. And this is something that, arguably, makes people value life more than anything: knowing that it's precious, fragile and fleeting. Kafka makes an immeasurable amount of references to choice (and is surprised when it indeed counters 'fate'), and then also vulnerability, which is so tightly tied to the concept of something being able to be lost (something as seemingly trivial as the coats that she collects). You don't need fear to understand the concept of importance, or value, but it inherently strengthens it. But if you wanted a stronger motivation behind it: look at how ardently she follows Elio's script, and it's because he promised her that in the future he chose, she would have what she seeks. Is that not passion within itself? Is fighting and being part of something entirely blindly, not inherently the strongest evidence of craving, a longing for something? And is that not vehemently human? Is that not... the meaning of life itself?
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