#sorry about ventposting AGAIN im goin through it rn

[pixelkip]

I totally understand it should be a pretty normal and reasonable thing to do to just be ok with a relatively small thing you feel passionate about and disagree with someone on and that sort of thing should Not hurt a very close relationship. I so badly wish I could do this. However this causes me actual physical pain and I have no idea how anyone simply decides not to care. Actually ok I worded this to sound funny and ironic bc I will sound fucking nuts if I don't but im not even exaggerating in the slightest. I want so bad to be able to simply not care bc I don't wanna be a dick but I can't stop my brain from being deeply upset about these things. How does this not cause anyone else probably unhealthy amounts of resentment.