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Lost in thoughts, endure a little more word vomit (emotional) if you will.
I received the news that a much beloved instructor of mine from the institute that won't be named passed away recently. I had the honor of taking her intaglio and relief/monotype/woodcut printmaking classes. They were the bright spark in a fog of dread, stress, and overwhelming feelings of inadequacy. They were what I looked forward to every week.
You really don't understand how much an impact someone has had on you until they're gone, sometimes.
I may not have the tools at my disposal to do a proper intaglio piece, but I can still make a book or a linocut, in her honor.
Jody, you left a bright spot in the heart of a jaded cynic who had no real business going to school for art. You were a real one. And everyone who ever met you knew it.
#april rambles#text post#grief#i feel awful that i didn't keep in touch but she was always busy and such and you know me#didnt diminish the effect she had on me#a genuine positivity and encouraging nature that was so needed and so welcome#while also being critical and helpful#she was the ultimate no judgment zone#I'm genuinely tearing up I was hoping to cross paths with her again#its been so long and I still have notes and projects from her classes#she was so loved by everyone#I'm naming a hoya plant after her that's how important she is#sorry I'm sobbing
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top 10 moments before disaster (dazai is about to step on his toes)
#day 9547860367 of drawing them in the hopes that the next chapter will be ada reunion. we will see.#ALSO HELP slamming my head into a brick wall i'm gonna get cancelled for glasses erasure one day istg. i'm sorry kuni#watch me once again exaggerate a barely visible height difference in canon bc idgaf dazai should get to be short for once in his life#anyway i hope skk eats shit i want knkdz back i miss them so fucking much#i pray and beg and sob every night kneeling at my bedside for dazai to go home and see his husband and son again#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#kunikida doppo#doppo kunikida#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#lotus draws#uughhhhh posting at ungodly hours AGAIN this is gonna catch up to me one day istg
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ryomina demons are winning
#does anyone here like them idk. theyre funny#putting off finishing p3re to draw these so i don't have to be sad just yet#cat’s art#ryomina#ryoji mochizuki#makoto yuki#minato arisato#p3#persona 3#p3re#p3 reload#sorry for traditional sketch stuff... idk i just feel like i do better on paper even tho its literally the same style#like i can just get the lines better on paper. i think my brush is probably too thick digitally if i'm having this problem lol#makoto makes me so emo u guys have no idea. i didn't quite get this guy in the beginning but now...#full force understanding of a character. hes. he :( (incoherent sobbing)#tag ramble again SORRY I UEBRO4Y39NRMFMT#oh yeah the period thing going around is so funny. PERSONA 3 PERIOD SIMULATOR
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HYUNJIN ✧₊⁺ SKZ CODE EPISODE 61
#hyunjin#hwang hyunjin#stray kids#skz#bystay#skzco#staydaily#hyunlixsource#hyunjinsource#dancerachasource#mine*#mine: hyunjin#gifs*#OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG#HE IS SO DEVASTATINGLY CUTE#HIS LITTLE HAT AND THE WAY HIS EARS STICK OUT 😭😭😭😭😭#AND HIS LITTLE BEAR BAG 😭😭😭😭#SOBBING CRYING THROWING MYSELF OUT A WINDOW#violently shaking my monitor screen rn#was literally supposed to play overwatch with my friends tonight and then I watched the skz code ep#and was like OOP SORRY GUYS I GOT SUPER IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO 🏃♂️🏃♂️🏃♂️🏃♂️🏃♂️#i'm just a girl!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Chapter One, Two, Three, Four, Five, Six.
"I know I ruined your life, I suffer for it every day."
#the way he gets pale and his cheeks are sunken and his eyes redden I'm going to start sobbing#I always kept him at an average weight but after his diagnosis he's permanently underweight <\3#but it's lovely to see how his hair has grown#it wasn't deliberate but the way he gets further away from the camera breaks me#oh arthur don't look at me like that please#i'm so sorry#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#mick squeaks#arthur morgan#red dead redemption community#red dead redemption 2 spoilers#oh arthur#i'm going to cry#micks pics
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do you deserve to be loved?
#*smashes thru the wall like the kool aid man* im fucking back#we're so back. it's joever. i'm screeching into the sun i'm ILL i fucking sobbed last night i cried during work#i sat and drew during my lunch i finished the lore drop at 7am and didnt sleep and drew until work started at 9#i. um. i dont even know where to start for making shit. i feel adrift i feel lost in the sauce of misery#the way he screamed at his baby self that he didnt deserve to cry. that he didnt deserve to be loved. im fucking ILL#ive talked before abt his bad relationship w his own mortality but ngl i REALLY underestimated how deep this ran...esp w the new dad knowle#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#silver vanrouge#ch7 spoilers#book 7 spoilers#he got a new rigged expression!!! all the new animations!!!!!! as a rig animator by trade i was v impressed and pleased#silver nation. fuck every other book like im sorry this one wins u cant deny it#suntails
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pls tell me im not crazy and nami indeed had a horrible character assassination post-timeskip. the new chapter of her whining like a baby actually has me baffled. who is this???? this is not the nami i loved!! she was never the "sakura stereotype", give her back!
Ty for the spoilers anon idk how many times I have to say I only read the officials and you will know when I've read it because I stream the chapters.
And yes you are going crazy she has literally always run away, whined and cried at danger ever since she's been allowed to open up and stop having to pretend to be brave after Arlong Park. She's literally close with Usopp (and Chopper) for that very reason, she's complained and sobbed to Luffy multiple times due to Luffy pulling them into danger she wanted no part of. I strongly advise you to go back and re-read One Piece if you think Nami sobbing or whining at any sign of danger or peril is character assassination lmao
#sorry i don't mean to be rude but I'm genuinely baffled by this#majority arcs open with Nami sobbing cause the idiots around her are threatening her life#this literally happens after Vivi reveals Crocodile's name in Whiskey Peak#op spoilers#one piece 1127#ask#melon ask
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I'm not sobbing into my breakfast now.
#sleep token#sleep token old#sleep token live#does he “sob sing” you weren't there?!#idk...I am so sorry Vessel...anything I can do? I'm serious btw.....
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I'm begging you, BioWare... Learn from the mistakes of Baldur's Gates past...
#please accept this low effort meme while i work on Emmrich-inspired creative pursuits#hoping and praying and sobbing and crying#BioWare i'm on my hands and knees begging you to GIVE THE SWEET NECROMANCER A SOFT TUMMY#emmrich volkarin#dragon age emmrich#okay now im gonna start complaining in the tags so this is your warning#i just don't think im strong enough to withstand ANOTHER RPG with companions that Should Not Fucking Have Abs#like sure i could MAYBE suspend my disbelief that the vain wizard would use some illusion magic to give himself abs (still cringe)#or MAYBE he got really into crunches while he was depressed for a year (HIGHLY doubtful)#BUT THE EMACIATED VAMPIRE!?#like come on bestie#did cazador have some really rigorous workout routines that were conveniently never brought up???#im going insane sorry#i just have a lot of opinions on diverse body types in video games#and dont want them to do my man dirty like that#[insert joke about how getting down and dirty with him is my job]#okay sorry i think i got it all out of my system#if anyone actually read this far please know i love you with my entire serpentine heart
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|| masterpost || previous || next ||
yeah i wasn't kidding about the new update schedule, lol.
but finally, we get to go get into the meat of this story i've been looking forward to for so long! oh but i don't know where to even begin-- oh? what's this? a poll?
you have one week to choose what - or, rather, who you'd like to get to know better first~
#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt donatello#rottmnt casey jr#rottmnt future leo#live life au#lee's art#me when i'm indecisive and the story is a smidge too flexible#also YEAH SORRY I GOT TOO FUCKING ANXIOUS AND MENTALLY ILL TO POST THIS ANY EARLIER#YALL BETTER SHARE THIS AROUND BECAUSE I WILL SOB IF THIS ONE PERFORMS AS BAD AS THE LAST ONE--
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no thoughts. head full of buttonblossom
#buttonblossom#pomni x ragatha#sorry i'm just. very emo about them#that heart is my attempt to create a symbol for this ship#half red half blue heart with stitching [maybe the stitching is purple?]. yknow?#i like little things like that. ships that have symbols are the coolest#the anatomy is really fucky wucky sorry :sob:
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there are just so many ways to say "i love you"
#i'm so emo about them i'm so sorry#THEY'RE JUST SO...#few3h#fe3h#edelthea#yes i had to sneak in that one quote from edelgard bc i can#i will always point it out that in the jpn ver of their a support edelgard actually says “you are irreplaceable.”#AND IM SUPPOSED TO BE NORMAL ABOUT THEM? sobbing crying throwing up#i need them to leave me alone blease it's been five years i cannot go on like this#shut up val#dorogard#dorothea#edelgard
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i rewatched the persona 3 stage plays and i'm insane about shinjiham all over again. what do you MEAN she had a dream where she talked to him before the final battle and they promised to see each other again? what do you MEAN he speaks the last words in the whole entire play, "I'm here, Kotone. Just like we promised," implying that it was a SHARED dream???
oh and don't even FUCKING get me started on this
#shinjiham#persona 3#shinjiro aragaki#kotone shiomi#persona 3 the weird masquerade#persona#foolmoon#did i really forget to tag foolmoon? i'm a dumbass#the way he fucking looks at her i can't 😭😭#bitch he reached out to her and she grasped his hand and then i 😭#ray fujita & kana asumi amazing fucking job i'm sobbing#also ray fujita fine as hell!!! they could not have cast shinjiro any better#sorry persona 3 just makes me go crazy#mine#persona 3 spoilers#i guess??? portable is 15 years old but i guess people are getting into p3re so. there#RAAAGH THEY DRIVE ME CRAZYYYYY#ok sorry. normal again#FUCK why didn't i post this on october 4th#shinjiro posting#update: now with better quality!#i have another post captioning what they said but like just Look At Them
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hey jercy fans :D have a little doodle of the sillies that i made <3
The digital doodle
And the original doodle!!
#edit: YALL MY FRIENDS JUST CALLED THIS B4KUD3KU WHEN I SHOWED THIS TO THEM I'M SOBBING#(censoring it cause i don't wanna clog up the tag)#sorry for the unfinished look lmao#cant figure out how i want to render my babies so yall get the unfinished ver#maybe I'll reblog w the final render idk#its not a promise but. maybe#anyways sorry for rambling#here are the official tags#max creates a post!#percy jackson#pjo#jason grace#percy jackson fanart#jason grace fanart#jercy#jason x percy#heroes of olympus#heroes of olympus fanart#percy jackon and the olympians
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Fall Unto Me (part three)
Part one, part two
I said I was on break but then a lot of things immediately fell out of my brain cause of stress so now I feel silly... sowweeeeee 🤡 Part four WILL be the last part I swear. If you see more Angel!Angel and Demon!Ren from me after that (and da infodump if i get to it) genuinely tell me to shut the FUCK up!!!
yes i am probably writing the NSFW version it'll be in my compendium post if it happens
cw// religious themes
14 Days With You is an 18+ Yandere Visual Novel. MINORS DNI
Your resolve was getting harder to hold on to, but you kept it. This would be the last time. You couldn't part from heaven again after returning. Atonement was waiting for you, eternal devotion to your duty right after.
Another few weeks went by as you stayed with Ren a little longer, the sea of flowers outside your bedroom window changing little by little each day. So many of them were already fully blooming, most of their petals stretched open to show off a myriad of colors while others curled inwards to hide from you. Practically a taunting mockery with how they took their time. As if insulted you would dare leave once they painted the horizon with their beauty.
It made it all the more painful that you'd never see them again. Or the companion that now felt like a piece you'd been missing.
Something about that encroaching deadline had affected the devil, too. Ren was calmer in some ways. They still brought you gifts and knowledge like usual, but he seemed to be taking his time just like the flowers. Simple answers to your curiosities became thorough while he held you close and urged you to ask more questions about whichever object took interest.
He'd offered to revisit trinkets you loved as well. Until you were as familiar with using them as he was. You couldn't understand it.
Your time together was draining away by the second. Didn't they want to make exciting memories? No matter how much you enjoyed it, mastery over human instruments or crafts served no purpose. Heaven wouldn't let you bring those things home, nor could you ask a higher power to recreate them for leisure.
Maybe your love was in denial of your departure. Or maybe spending little mundane, quiet days and nights together like this was their way of coming to terms with it.
Today, you chose to fiddle with one of the oldest gifts while chatting with him. The sun was just beginning to set, casting the room in the faded, flaming gold hue you'd only now gotten used to.
“—Love?” He was calling you, the end of his tail swaying gently in front of your face to get your attention. You’d missed a few words.
“Hm?”
“You've gotten much better at this,” the pink haired devil hummed above you. His chin was resting atop your head as they cradled you in their lap on a frayed rug, his back against the bottom of the couch.
You looked over your work. The woven red string wrapped around and through your fingers took the shape of a pointed star. You knew real stars looked differently, but the human interpretation was interesting.
“Truly, it’s better than before,” you said with wholehearted agreement. The first time you'd tried—only on the third day of your visit to earth—had simply tangled the string to a knotted mess stuck upon your fingers for Ren to deal with while you apologized, embarrassed beyond belief.
The patterns they taught you were almost easy thanks to your afternoon of trying. You unwound the string and painstakingly wound it again into one that often graced your practice: an angel. He'd been particularly smug about teaching you the motions of that one.
“An impressive self portrait,” Ren joked and squeezed you tighter in their embrace. “Although it'll take more than some thread to capture your divine beauty.”
Naturally, you rolled your eyes even though the soul it was meant for couldn't see it. A mortal gesture you'd gotten the hang of quicker than anything, as he so favored innocent teasing before expressing his deepest sincerities.
You untangled the string and tossed it to the side, then turned in their lap to make a face this time for their benefit. “I’ll do a painting, then. I’ve had enough of this toy.”
He relaxed his hold long enough for you to wander across the room in search of new distractions, but innocently called after you, “We’ll have to light quite a few candles for you to see well. Unless you plan to have me mix paints for you in the dark.” A second passed before he spoke again. “It’d be a pleasant surprise, I’m sure.”
“Something else?” you replied, making a swift turn towards the bookshelves. You came back with a couple of novels and sat beside them with your treasure. “Is this really all you want to do? You’ve read every book here before.”
Even the books he’d bought with strange, flimsy paper currency for you, Ren had said so casually, were already familiar territory. Tedium hardly described how boring you thought these weeks must be for him. But he never objected to anything you chose, as long as you both stayed close to home during the day.
And you always kept your wings hidden in case a human roamed nearby. You'd never seen one come close to the cabin, or even the field of flowers, but he insisted your safety—and proximity to them—was of utmost priority. It was hard to remember the last time you let loose your wings at all after walking on the beach with him. They interrupted your thoughts once more.
“My sweet, delicate angel, I’ve had all the time in the world to do anything I want.” Their blue eyes narrowed with a smile as they spoke and you knew more teasing was coming. “We could even sit here in silence all night, if you asked me nicely.”
“How kind of you, my darling demon,” you teased them back.
Another jesting response in his gaze faded to something different as you pulled him down for a kiss, gently at first. The books you’d brought over lay forgotten, soon shoved under the couch in favor of your new activity.
Kissing the demon you called yours felt like second nature now. There was no sting that ever came, no homesick aching in your back anymore. Only the flood of tender emotions he gave you, tainted by your own guilt and fears of parting from him.
You needed more. A stronger distraction. Your hand on his shirt tightened, determined to keep him. To stay in this moment as long as possible.
Ren exhaled, a muttering of blasphemous praise you dare not repeat whispered from his lips to yours, along with one word. A word that sounded odd to your ears.
You'd heard it countless times over the months, but it didn't feel strange until after the first kiss you shared. He must have said it earlier, too, when you were occupied with that damned little red string. Demonic language was much different, it certainly wasn’t that at all. And the sounds of the word did feel similar to mortal languages, but nothing came to mind. So naturally, you could only assume it to be another of their pet names, but…
The thought fell to the side as you focused on him. He was all that needed to matter right now.
Their comforting warmth that called of your sacred home, your nails curling into the bottom of his shirt just to fall lower, an iron, almost nectar-like taste that flowered on your tongue—did you bite him this time? It felt good.
Desperately, you brushed your hand over his thigh, getting dangerously close to where you knew things risked going further. You caught yourself and froze. You wanted him, you’d known since that day in the rain. In every way a being could yearn for another’s love. And of course he felt the same. But could you really go home if it happened?
“Before I…” The words hung in the air and what remained weighed in your throat. Before I leave. Departure was looming on the horizon, sure as the sun would rise tomorrow. You dare not mention it to the one you loved again. You opened your eyes to meet theirs, cautiously as you wondered, “Is this alright?”
“Yes,” they answered, longing clear as the evening sky in his voice. “I couldn’t bear—or ever want—to deny you. Little angel, all you desire of me is yours to take.”
Without another word you did just that. You thought nothing of the faint, staggered line you felt under your fingertips that seemed to start somewhere along his shoulder blade as you lifted the shirt away and pushed him to lay on the rug. Your hands pressed their ink-stained arms flat next to the disheveled mess of pink hair and horns. Ren grinned at your audacity to pin him, but held still for your much needed exploration.
Eyes half lidded with patient lust, mouth parted to show off pointed fangs, the devil looked to be the very picture of your sinful desires.
To be one with them, even just once, was a memory worth making. No matter what punishment waited for you at heaven’s boundary. You skimmed your fingers from the base of his collarbone, down over their stomach, and began to undo the buttons that concealed what you’d been waiting for.
#14 days with you#14dwy ren#14dwy redacted#cw religious themes#momo writing#cannot gush about the story in tags bc spoilers </3#i must contain myself#sobbing and crying#but p4 queued for next week#maybe my brain will shut up about it once everything is posted!!!#<- hopes and dreams right here#so sorry this AU is all u get out of me for a while...#I'M ON BREAK!!! I AIN'T LYING!!!
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