#sorry I'm meant to be writing a creative journal and I guess I got into the mood

[mocknerd]

Creating characters to insert into the world of Durarara!! has been fun. Like so much of it is just done by messing around with doodles, what if's and further additions to the story puzzle, trying to see what fits. Why is one colour in the colour spectrum missing in this gang war? I dunno, lets insert it. What's a common strangers reaction to these people who fuck with everything? Let's find out! Is there baby? Is there enough dilfs? Who cares lets fuck around and find out. And the funny thing is, the more they last the more in debt we go into their characters. And often it's by complete accident or by chance. This character made a joke? Well lookie here now this canon character has a very deep attachment to this person now. I doodled this character in military clothes? Guess there's part of the backstory decided. Don't get me started on the ones that never made it. Many of them are lost to time, couldn't fit into the portrait. Some just straight up don't appear until much later on in these lives and very few are going to look into that window. So many buddy groups, mothers and children have disappeared now. But they make the survivors stronger and dammit if it wasn't a great time toying with them. No I'm not going to specify on any of this.

[timelessshipperdaily]

Timeless: The Miracle of Christmas (Reaction & Thoughts) part 1

WOW!!! It looks like in this future Lucy's timeline the team is no longer in the bunker. Like an abandoned apartment building or factory???

Lucy is ALREADY making me emotional... and it has only been 30 SECONDS!!!

RUFUS'S DEATH.... IT STILL HURTS!!!!

I'm LOVING the recap through future Lucy as she is writing the journal. VERY CREATIVE!!!

I'm CACKLING!!!! The present team's faces are PRICELESS!!!!

Mason. LET THEM TALK!!!

LMAO!!! I AM DYING!!! LOL Present Lucy reaching out to try to touch Future Lucy. Obviously unsure if this is real.

WOW. Without Rufus everything went to HELL!!!! I mean future Wyatt and Lucy look like they just stepped out of the FREAKING HUNGER GAMES!!!

Just to be clear in this timeline we are still fighting Rittenhouse... 5 years later. Yes Flynn in 2023.

Jiya only caring about getting Rufus back. THANK YOU!!! Straight back to the point. Why future Lucy and Wyatt are there in the 1st place!!!

AHHHHH!!! THE JOURNAL!!!

YES!!! Figure it out TOGETHER!!!! I see what your doing there future Lucy...

WYATT THERE IS NO BABY!!! JESSICA LIED ABOUT BEING RITTENHOUSE. OBVIOUSLY SHE WAS LYING ABOUT THE BABY!!!!

And future Lucy's face while talking about the fake pregnancy.

Awwww Wyatt. I HATE TO SEE HIM HURT!!! BUT I'M ALSO SO HAPPY JESS WAS LYING. SO MANY EMOTIONS!!!

Wyatt... my poor PUPPY!!!

AWWWW!!! The future Wyatt is still concerned about future Lucy when experiencing the side effects!!! But very subtly...

THEY KNOW HOW TO PILOT THE LIFEBOAT!!!!

Present Wyatt reaching out to Lucy pulling her to a safe distance!!!!

Lucy and Wyatt looking at each other like DID THAT REALLY JUST HAPPEN!?!?!?

Tis' the season... (indeed Emma. It is.)

"No more bloodlines or any cult crap"

That guy was stupid. HE REALLY THOUGHT HE COULD JUST WALK AWAY!?!?

When Emma said "Mahogany desk".... did anyone else think of Effie Trinket from the Hunger Games!?!? ( sorry for all the hunger games references LOL)

Jessica doesn't even flinch or hesitate after saying that they were going to kill the TimeTeam!!!!

"I'm so sorry Wyatt..."

EVERYBODY CALM DOWN!!!! MY LYATT BABIES ARE HAVING A MOMENT!!!!

The way he is looking at her.... I'M GONNA CRY!!!!

JIYA I LOVE YOU!!!

Agent Christopher giving Jiya the credit she DESERVES!!!

And Mason I'm sure you played a role in making the upgrades too!!!! LOL

"If Lucy and Wyatt are willing to risk their lives for Rufus, then so am I."

THIS IS LOVE!!!!!

OMG!!! THE WAY WYATT IS LOOKING AT LUCY!!!! I AM DYING....

"I never meant to hurt you."

MY HEART HURTS!!! He is so sincere!!!!

You and Flynn??? EXCUSE ME WHILE I GO VOMIT!!!

Same Wyatt... same

THEY WAY LUCY LOOKS AT THE DOOR AFTER WYATT LEAVES!!!! **Sobbing Uncontrollably**

OH SNAP!!! JIYA HAS HAD ENOUGH OF THIS CRAP!!!

AWWW POOR JIYA!!!!

"Rufus always told me. There was no puzzle you can't solve"

I'M LOVING THIS WYATT AND JIYA EXCHANGE!!!

LEAVE IT TO RITTENHOUSE TO RUIN THE MOMENT!!!

ALSO. This divide between focusing on saving Rufus and chasing Rittenhouse has me STRESSED OUT!!!

Update: I have already went through several tissues!!!! I'm almost on my 2nd box!!!!

My jaw dropped when I saw the inside of the Lifeboat!!!!

"Makeup can only cover so much." TRUTH!!!

"I guess future me built the dalorian out of the lifeboat.... that's a joke Rufus would have made"

AWWWW JIYA!!!!

He will!!! WE WILL GET OUR CINNAMON ROLL BACK!!!

**man whistles** "HAS ANYONE EVER RESPONDED POSITIVELY TO THAT!?!?"

YOU TELL THEM LUCY!!!

WYATT HOLDING LUCY BACK!!!! OMG!!!

HE'S HOLDING HER ARM!!! AND KEEPING HIS HAND ON HER BACK!!!!

Oh.... wanted posters. NICE TOUCH!!!

**3 seconds after getting clothes**

Lucy: We need to change.

She isn't fooling anyone in that outfit. BUT IT WAS SMART!!!!

"Oh so you finally got to the good part. Huh."

Ughhhh.... REALLY FLYNN!!! Please excuse me while I go barf....

"I must have seen a different side of you... Guess I already have."

(Someone please make this stop....)

"Well then stop. Because if you read the rest. The affair we have. It ends badly because.... you're heart always belonged to someone else. "

THANK YOU FLYNN!!!!

SHE LOOKS AT WYATT!!!!!

There is Joaquin Murrieta!!!! Who I didn't know even existed until now....

IT'S A STANDOFF!!!

LOOK AT JIYA!!!! I'M SO PROUD!!!!

HE INSPIRED THE LEAGEND OF ZORO!?!?!?

"I was a little more focused on the fact he was trying to kill us."

Ok to be clear I HATE JESSICA. But I am impressed with how she stood up for herself and was a badass. (That will be the ONLY positive thing i will say about Jessica.)

Wow... Joaquin is just a broken man. Seeking out justice.

I am LOVING the arch between Flynn and Joaquin!!!

POOR WYATT!!!!

He NEVER intended for any of this to happen. Now he will stop at NOTHING to get Rufus back.

"I'm gonna make sure Jessica never steps foot into the bunker" - Wyatt

"How does it help us save Rufus if it means sacrificing you!?!?" - Lucy

"Because Rufus didn't deserve what happened to him.... you didn't deserve what I did to you." - Wyatt

THE EMOTIONS. MY HEART.

WYATT IS WILLING TO SACRIFICE HIMSELF FOR RUFUS!!! NOOOOOOO

LUCY AGREES WYATT CANNOT SACRIFICE HIMSELF!!!

OMG!!! LUCY'S NOT LETTING WYATT DO IT ALONE!!! NEITHER IS JIYA!!!

"Santa's got one last chimney to shimmy down" - Emma

FLYNN WHAT THE HELL.... OMG!!!!

HE'S GOING TO ELIMINATE JESSICA!!!!!

GUYS!!! THE BUNKER PARENTS ARE FIGHTING.... I don't like it.

POOR MASON!!!!

Wow... Mason has opened my eyes!!! When someone else makes a time machine... how would we protect what we have been fighting for. FOR SO LONG!!!

THE GIFS ARE NOT MINE. But if they are your gifs and you would like credit please let me know.

[bytheangell]

what does writing means to you? I see that you are so passionate about it and are constantly doing it even in small doses, almost everyday, etc. What does it means to you? Do you ever get stressed about it? How can you juggle that and alongside life in general? I'm curious about you, Elle. Where do you get all this motivation, inspiration? Do you consider yourself disciplined about it?

Alright, so to start, I love that you sent this in, Anon! I can’t imagine I’m interesting enough for anyone to be genuinely curious about?! But I appreciate that you are and I love getting personal asks as much as I love rambling about Shadowhunters, especially when they’re about writing!

Writing means everything to me, at the risk of sounding dramatic. It’s always been that One Thing I knew I was pretty good at. I love to read and write from a young age, always writing little stories or keeping a journal, and I guess it’s been a constant in my life for as long as I could remember. I joined fandom forum RPs and wrote there even when I wasn’t doing original short stories, but I wrote those on and off growing up, too. It’s always been an escape, cheap and easy to turn to whenever I need it, or a way to vent, or a way to sort through thoughts muddled in my head. I love writing. It is, by far, my favorite thing to do in my free time. 

That said, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t ever get stressed about it. I write for fun, yes, and I write the things I want to write because I love them. But sometimes the words just won’t come, or I’ll let myself get distracted and not write as much as I want to that day, or not finish things as quickly as I’d like after I start them, and sometimes I let that get to me no matter how much I try not to. I just hit the one year mark of writing fanfiction. I’m still getting used to the idea that there are people actively following what I put out there, or waiting for the next bit of a series. That anyone might specifically like my writing. Sometimes I let the prompts sit too long and I feel super guilty about it. Or have more ideas than I could ever reasonably get to, but feel unreasonably upset over not just having unlimited writing time. Sometimes I have to remind myself I’m allowed to do other things like watch tv or nap after work, that I don’t have to be writing every free second, even though there’s always something I could be working on. And OOF the stress of something not going over well. Is it me? Is it my writing? Or a poorly executed concept? Or bad characterization that’s missing the mark and failing? What am I doing wrong? 

Thankfully, those sorts of moments are definitely in the minority for me, and far less common now than they were when I first started. I’m more confident in my writing now, but more than that, I’ve stopped focusing so much on writing what I think other people want to read and just started writing what I want to write, even if it’s not a popular character or expected pov. And honestly? I think that shift has made all the difference throughout the past year. (Of course, that doesn’t apply to prompts, which is obviously writing exactly what someone else wants to read xD Which I LOVE getting, because someone out there specifically wants me to write a thing they’re interested in? What?! That’s like the ultimate compliment

I’m glad you called it ‘juggling’ writing with life in general, because it sure isn’t ‘balancing’ fhdas;fj;askl. There’s a lot of sleep deprivation. I never end up having a job with normal hours, so I’m either working weird swing shifts or tons of overtime, but to fit in the spurts of writing I’ve gotten used to lately I pretty much average 4-5 hours of sleep a night. #Priorities. I’m not the most social, so coming home and writing for an hour or two a day after work is a great way for me to unwind. I wish I was more disciplined about it, but really it just comes and goes in spurts. I try to write every day when I can but sometimes I’ll go for days without writing anything new, and others I’ll end up with a few thousand words in a couple of hours. I keep meaning to get into more of an proper habit of it, but I’ve never been good with things like ‘I’ll write from 6-7 am every day’ sorts of writing schedules. It always just happens when it happens  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

As far as inspiration, obviously right now a lot of the coda and scene fill/povs I’m writing are taken directly from the show. I can’t help but hit the end of an episode and immediately think, ‘what would I want to happen next?’ or ‘I have a lot of feels about that one particular moment let’s elaborate on that’ or ‘what can I picture -insert character here- doing next’, and playing with things from there. A lot of it is also things I wish I saw more of in canon and willing them into existence. As far as AUs, a lot of it comes from bouncing random ideas off of friends, off of discussions on twitter or tumblr, or seeing something in a show or movie and going ‘THIS DYNAMIC, YES’.  I pull some stuff from real life, too. I did a Malec oneshot recently set with a literary magazine that stopped allowing anonymous submissions, totally a thing my lit mag did in high school. Most of it just sort of… happens. It’ll just be a random idea out of nowhere. I wish I had a better explanation. I’ve always been good at making up stories on the spot, taking one small idea, or sentence, or feeling, and turning it into something more. It almost never ends the way I meant at the start because I have a very fluid writing style and almost always just have the vaguest concept to start with and no solid ending, leaving the things I work on entirely adaptable or changeable along the way. 

And last but not least, the motivation. A lot of it is just the desire to get the ideas in my head down on paper (or, you know, google docs). I like to share ideas I have with friends because their excitement over them is a huge motivator. The positive reactions I get on the writing I post time and time again is always amazing, and while I don’t write for the kudos or likes, knowing that what I’m doing is something others enjoy is always a great motivator to create more. I’ve also come across some amazing writer friends in the fandom since I joined. Chatting with them about the ups and downs of writing fanfic, seeing the amazing content they create and being inspired not just by their writing and ideas but also their attitudes and encouragement has made all the difference over the course of this year. The Shadowhunter Fanfic Nexus is an amazing group of talented writers that was kind enough to take a chance on adopting me pretty early on. They’re always willing to help with details or to run ideas by or listen to me keysmash in frustration when things aren’t working. There’s nothing like a group of writer friends to listen to you go ‘WHAT ARE WORDS WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER I’VE NEVER HAD A CREATIVE THOUGHT IN MY LIFE’ and meet you with both understanding and the reassurance that you’re always your own worst critic and you’ll get there in the end. 

And there you have it! A little glimpse into my writing mindsets, I guess? That got more than a little rambly, sorry! I hope it was even remotely the sort of things you wanted to know and that you aren’t full of total regret for ever asking in the first place now that I wrote a small novella about myself here, xD. But you’re definitely right, I’m very passionate about writing, and I never imagined it’d be something so well received by others and I’m thankful for the opportunity to share it with so many other people!