#soothing monthcramps. preventing pregnancy. stabilizing the cycle for concieving. soothing pregnancy-aches. helping milkproduction.

[hunting-songs]

Ask my muse “Have you ever ___” questions!

Kurapika sat behind her with his legs stretched out to her sides, using the large blanket over his shoulders to cover her as well. The bonfire in front of them turned the night a warm orange as stars adorned the dark sky. "Have you ever thought about having this life?" Kurapika's voice was soft, low. His hands rested on her grown belly as he caressed it gently. Kurapika was doubting, not about having a child, that was one of the best news for him, but if Senritsu was really comfortable with the idea, especially knowing the bone pain and discomfort that she now felt more than before, and he was afraid that she was regretting the decision they had made.

When Senritsu had been around nine years old she had, as all her siblings, helped her mother taking care of the members of their group whenever they were sick. On this day she had spend the early morning roaming hastily, almost panicky through the meadows near her camp, collecting those deep green, yellow blooming plants on which the dew was shimmering like goldpearls. And when she had returned to the camp, with her short arms so full of the herbs she was almost unable to walk, her mother had cleaned the herbs and then cooked them in a bath into which Senritsu and her mother had helped one of the groups woman to sit down in. The water had been as green as emerald, a stark contrast to the womans grey hair and by the waters heat turned pink face. She had sat leaned back in the old, wooden battub with only her head and her massive round belly sticking out like a iselands in a tropical green sea. The womans face, before twisted by too early cramps the bath was suppose to ease to avoid the birth until a few more weeks in the future, had softened a little wih relaxation but there still stayed a certaine sharpness in her features, a certaine grim line around her wrinkled mouth and grey eyebrows. The cramps had eased and were gone, but this sharpness stayed as if chisled into her face. Senritsus mother, with from the waters heat sweatbeads on her temples now visible with her knotted up dark hair, had asked worried if the woman did not felt relieved even after they had stopped the cramps. And the woman, frowning and a deep line between her eyebrows as deep as a scar, only said sternly: " I will only breath and sleep calmly again when it lays crying on my chest."

Now, years later, Senritsu sat leaned against Kurapikas chest like the woman had sat in the wooden bathtub with her swollen belly looking much too big and much too round and a face that was mildly crumbled into a grimace from aches- not because she had much too early cramps, but because she was kicked mercilessly whenever she tried to find a position to sit in comfortably. Kurapikas question made her open her eyes tieredly and she blinked like a confused bird: one time, two times, three times. "No. Never." Senritsu words fell so surely and hard into the quiet night like stones thrown into a deep well.

"But there is not much in my life that went as I had imagined it.",The mans heartbeat seemed a little startled over her short, blunt answer and the Musician smiled exhausted up to him as she searched for his hand under the blanket and squeezed it:

"When I was ten I thought I would spend every coming year traveling along my parents with out group but than two years later Kotone left and showed me that I could just do the same. When I was twelve I was sure that I would spend the rest of my life as a Hunter traveling the world with Ask. Nine years later when I was twenthyone, I thought I would be mancando before I turned thirty. Two years later I met you and still thought i would die in a few years." "Eighteen years later I am still alive and one very abandon bassist kicks my spine like Bass -pedals," Hidden under the warm blanket she gently took the mans bigger hand and lead it to the left side of her belly, Senritsu was laughing softly in all good humor even if her next words were pressed out beside painfully sharp pulled in air :"- there, feel it? How about you give it a lecture about the fact that I still need my spine, mhmmm? I tried this morning, but I was feroce ignored." Her laughter was as melodic as a song, dancing along the cracking of the flames. Carefully the woman skidded a little more forward now laying with her back nolonger against Kurapikas chest and instead against his stomach as she tried to find a position that was not in some way uncomfortable, yet the child was as restless as she was and eventually Senritsu just leaned back with a too long, too tiered and too defeated sigh. Kurapikas hearbeat was so close to her ears it was as loud as a scream. "It does not matter, Kurapika.",She said eventually and in the warmth under the blanket around them her hand gently squeezed his so carefully as if he was made of crystalglass, trying to sooth what she had heard in his question from a few moments before. Trying to sooth him thinking that she was regretting making that decision. She had turned her head up, her big eyes with that worried, deep line between them searching for his face as she reached up with one hand to touch his face, caressing the others jaw. Against the pale starlight above his head Kurapikas eyes looked as black as the contactlenses he wore in Yorkshin : "It does not matter what I had been thinking ten or fifteen or twenthy years ago my life would be. I am alive now. I am gioioso now. And I will never regret any decision I made in the past." But also, I will only breath and sleep calmly again when it lays crying on my chest.In contrast to the woman Senritsu did not said this out loud. [ @skarletchains ]