#songgg... i have not updated my caleb songs in a while so idk if i have anything new but!

[spottedenchants]

Let's try a weird one and see if I've double up on it too XD

Joshua by Simon Curtis for Caleb.

now this is some PRIME amv potential for Caleb's self-loathing and longing...

many words, so see under the cut for Thoughts :3

I'm so tired of people always saying that I'm a good person, 'cause I'm not It's like, if they could only see what was in my head

So our intro is Caleb's standing conclusion of his character and backstory c. ep 18 when he tells Beau and Nott the story of how he killed his mother and father:

"But you didn't know what you were doing--"

"So what?"

"You were brainwashed."

"So what?!"

"Programmed."

"Doesn't matter, I should have-- I'm a disgusting person. It doesn't matter."

[Instrumental]

Backstory time! Titles over pleasant shots of Bren and his parents and Frumpkin :3

Little boy's coming to his own He's gotta make them big decisions 'cause he's grown He's gonna get a rude awakening if he don't realize Who really loves him, who lies

This bit could covers the beginning of the Caleb origins comic pretty well, I think. First line, a smiley Bren heading into Rexxentrum, getting settled. Second line: excelling in his classes and getting picked by Trent alongside Astrid and Wulf. Third line is the haircutting and 'endurance training' with residuum. Fourth line starts with blumendrei cuddling up in the tower and then the 'lies' hits with Trent's grin as he sees them the next morning.

Do you ever stop to wonder if they love you When you look into the mirror do you see the truth Or do the voices in your head still got you confused Do they make you wanna say

More Caleb origins. First line: blumendrei teamwork torture and bath. Second line: blumendrei going home (good end) and then 'do you see the truth' goes with Trent's Modify Memory. Third line: back to Blumenthal, murder time. Fourth line: fire, screams, yowling.

I-I'm not who you think I am I-I-I-I-I'm not who you think I am I-I-I-I-I'm not who you think I am

1: Bonk -> in the Sanatorium 2: Aging/beard growing 3: Mind cleared + escape -> Trevor Albrecht

Who I am Who I am Who I am

1: Eren Angermeier 2: Colin Krämer 3: Philip Sommer

I'm not a good boy

In jail (Max Degenhardt) -> Caleb Widogast

Wonder if you ever stop and think About whatever happened to me Did you ever maybe think that I was victimized By those who said they loved me, they lied

Line 1: Trauma response in the manticore cave -> Molly's slap + forehead kiss. Line 2: Party's on the road! Line 3: Victory Pit Trent sighting + High Richter house Fjord sword moment. Line 4: Nott saying her fake name is Bren.

Do you ever stop to wonder if I love you When you look into the mirror do you see the truth Or do the voices in your head still got you confused Do they make you wanna say

Line one is totally this moment: "You should just go. You have told too much. I am going to go. It's time to go. He sits there for a solid five minutes. Then two hours. Wait for everyone to wake up."

I-I'm not who you think I am I-I-I-I-I'm not who you think I am I-I-I-I-I'm not who you think I am Who I am Who I am Who I am I'm not a good boy

Pirate arc montage maybe? (<- is in desperate need of a rewatch)

Ooh, do you know that you broke me down-down-down Ooh, and I'm letting it go, I'm breaking it down-down-down-down

Would be fun to flash forward and back here

1: "You made vulnerability look so easy" 2: "Light them up, pretty."

Ooh, forever I know you've broken it down-down-down-down Ooh, I just want you to know you can turn it around

this time back and forward

1: "Your people were doing experiments and trying to find out and harness the power of-- What? It's your people! It's the people that you know and trained with." 2: "Maybe if I could talk plainly with you and see one inch of change, then I wouldn't believe we're all damned."

[Instrumental]

This bit from ep 49:

"I'm not a very good person."

"Well, I don't think our actions define who we are all the time. Good people do bad things sometimes. Even bad people do good things. I think you're a good person."

And then Fjord and Jester with the one-two punch of:

"Also, I don't think a very bad person would care about us."

"I don't think a very bad person would care that he was very bad."

I-I'm not who you think I am

Cut to Caleb offering the beacon and Essek being all 😒

I-I-I-I-I'm not who you think I am I-I-I-I-I'm not who you think I am Who I am Who I am Who I am I'm not a good boy

Xhorhas arc + traveler con mayhaps

I-I'm not who you think I am I-I-I-I-I'm not who you think I am I-I-I-I-I'm not who you think I am Who I am Who I am Who I am I'm not a good boy

aeor montage

and then the outro getting staggered like so:

"You're a good person."

This isn't about you It's about me

"(sighs) I... could be."