#song: keep me novo armor

[grailknightmonty]

i know there's gotta be something, that I could say in time, but I can't find the words.

to unspoken feelings, to shared space, to coming home

[rain-lavender-rain]

"Keep Me"

Pairing: Bucky X Reader Drabble

Warnings: None. Use of Y/N, female reader

Words: 400 words

This drabble is based on the song below-- "Keep Me" by Novo Armor

The rain fell softly. A summer rain that was a much needed reprieve from the dry heat, as it mixed with the juniper and pine scented air, wrapped the house with natures hug.

There she stood on the porch of the place the two called "home." He knew she was upset, and thanked mother nature for calming her with the gift of rain. Rain was something Bucky knew his lover was fond of.

Without anymore hesitation, he followed Y/N out the door, and her eyes met his, filled with tears threatening to drop to the ground, just like the rain.

The shattering of a heart through unspoken words was as painful as being stabbed. His heart's golden flames turned to embers.

"Love, why are you so upset?" He asked, setting a gentle hand, his right one, on her shoulder.

"Because, you keep pushing me away when things get difficult. You keep pushing me away. And I see it your eyes, you think I'm going to leave. To give up on you. You hope that I give up because you think that you don't deserve me, but you do."

Bucky wouldn't meet her eyes. He knew that every word tumbling out of her mouth was filled with nothing but honesty, and laced with passionate love. It was the kind of love that wouldn't give up. She wouldn't give up.

His heart began to flicker brighter as he met her eyes.

"But I won't Bucky. I won't give up, because I love you."

The flames were burning now, keeping his heart warm, softening him from the inside out till all he knew was that she loved him, and Bucky loved her back, with everything he had.

The string that mended their hearts together pulled Bucky closer, until his lips met hers in a kiss full of pure love. The flames of love coming together, creating an inferno who's flame would never die out.

"When all of the rain came down

In the shape of everything

So keep me, keep me on fire Keep me, keep me on fire Keep me honest, keep me kind Keep me as your finish line

Keep me, keep me on fire."

Credit to @saradika for the dividers

[bl4z33467]

Annnnnd ill do the questions for Altilis too

Are they a human, ghoul, synth, or something else?

Human

Are they a canon main character? (Lone Wander, Courier Six, etc.)

No, but an AU of Vulpes Inculta

What is their SPECIAL?

S 5 P 5 E 2 C 8 I 10 A 2 L 4

What perks or tagged skills do they have?

????

What is their highest skill? Lowest?

???? Bruh idfk

Were they born pre-war or post-war?

Post war

Do they wish they lived before the war / could go back to life before the war?

Hell no! Well, maybe the roman empire...

Did they live in a vault? If not, have they been inside of one?

Nope never been

Where did they grow up? Where do they currently reside?

Grew up in The Fort, Still sitting pretty

What languages do they speak?

English and latin fluently, some spanish here and there

What type of education have they received?

Lots of diplomacy, leadership, political science and cartography, the best legion can give

Can they read, write, and/or do math?

Very well at all three

What is the most frightening experience they have endured?

Trying to kill himself

What is their fondest memory?

Being told he would be the next leader of the legion

What is their proudest moment / accomplishment?

Being SO FUCKING SMART!!

What is their biggest regret

Being too fat, lazy and ass at fighting to keep the legions repect

Do they have a job? How do they make a living?

War strategist and cartographer

Do they have any disabilities, mutations, or implants / enhancements? Do they have any chronic illnesses?

Ugly and autistic because all my characters are

Who (or what) are they emotionally closest to?

No one. His maps probably

Who do they consider to be their family?

Begrudgingly Novos

Do they travel alone or with a companion?

Alone

Do they have any pets?

Turpis the Centuar

How do they feel about physical touch / affection?

Dont TOUCH ME PROFLOGIT (needs a hug)

Do they have a romantic partner or partners?

No but he wants one 😏

Are they quick to trust others?

No

How would others describe them / their disposition?

Egotistical, cantakerous, needs to prove hes the best

What faction(s) are they a member of / allied with?

Legion, duh

What faction(s) do they despise?

Everyone else

What is their moral alignment / karma?

Evil

What decisions have they made or actions have they done that affect their canon wasteland? (Did they blow up Megaton, have they killed/spared any major characters, etc.)

Organized the nipton lottery

What is their goal in life? What impact would they like to leave when they're gone?

Lead the legion to greatness and world domination

What is their go-to weapon or weapon class?

None/throwing rocks

What is their fight-or-flight response?

Flight

What armor / clothing do they typically wear?

His rancted cloak, uwu tail and skirt, his coyote hood that wears goggles (like his fursona)

Do they have power armor training? (° j°)

no

Have they ever saved someone's life? Have they ever killed someone?

Killed alot of people

What is the worst injury they have

Getting stabbed while training (multiple times as a child)

What is their favorite radio station?

None, doesn't trust them

What is their favorite song?

Uncanonically California rose by duncan lawrnace

What is their favorite type of weather?

Overcast

What is their favorite time of the day?

Night

What is their favorite wasteland creature?

Centaurs but wont say it (he loves his stinky little turpis

What is their favorite meal and drink?

Canonically fancylad snack cakes, uncanonically poptarts

What is their favorite smell?

His own "manly musk"

Do they have any specific hobbies or talents?

Amazing with maps, furry (dressing up and making stories) likes to read, playing dress up with Turpis

Do they play any sports? How about board games or card games?

Him??? Sport?!?!? Loves a good game of chess (will cry himself to sleep if he loses)

Do they enjoy reading?

Alot

Do they collect anything?

Maps

What items) do they always have on their person?

Maps maps maps maps

Do they travel by foot or by other means?

Begrudgingly by foot

Do they own a Pip-boy? If so, how did they get it?

Yes, a gift from ceaser at a young age

Can they swim?

Yes, but causally

What do they think of the ocean?

Whats that?

Do they prefer showers or baths?

Baths but never takes them

Are they past, present, or future oriented?

Past

How do they feel about robots? (Eyebots, Mister Handys, Sentry Bots, etc.)

Dont trust em

What is a sensation / texture they cannot stand?

Being around NOVOS. Grass hater, the itchier the worse

Do they believe in luck? Do they have a good luck charm? No, and no

Do they idolize anything / anyone?

Ceaser

Are they religious? Spiritual?

He believes Roman mythology more than most

What are their thoughts on chems and alcohol?

Bad bad bad bad bad

Do they have any weaknesses or struggle with any vices?

Food, his own ego

Do they need / wear glasses?

No

How / where do they generally sleep?

On a hammock

Describe their living space. (How do they decorate it? Does it have running water and/or electricity? Etc.)

Tidy, full of things he loves, dirt floor but not dirty

Describe their eyes.

Light blue

[puppy-phum]

RULES: we’re snooping on your playlist. put your entire music library on shuffle and list the first ten songs and then choose 10 victims.

thank you so much for tagging me hanyi @leonzhng ♥ I love these music games so much every time ^^ I’ll listen to your list soon too, I promise!

am using my biggest playlist on spotify for this bc I don’t have any other “Music library” available lol. this just unfortunately excludes some stuff but we’ll make do. also am adding my fave lyrics to all of these as extra so placing under cut now! (sorry not sorry)

TXT - Can’t You See Me? x “Bad bad, hope it’s just a painful dream. Sad sad, return me to your side again.”

Taylor Swift - this is me trying x “And my words shoot to kill when I’m mad I have a lot of regrets about that.”

Landon Austin - Armor x “We’re only alive if we bruise So I lay down this armor.”

We The Kings - Ally x “And sometimes it feels like we're going nowhere fast For every step forward take two steps right back.”

Maldito - My Forest Fire x “The nights we spend until the end, Bring sunlight way too soon.”

Sabrina Carpenter - Paris x “If you show me too much love, it makes me leave.”

keshi - onoffonoff x “We lost in, emotion I'm sorry, unspoken.”

NF - My Stress x “I wonder when this all disappears and they forget me Will I feel like I found who I was or be more empty?”

Novo Amor - No Plans x “Here's to betting I spend my life wrong Sitting at home, staring at the wall.”

015B ft. Bigman - Joshua at Metro x “Just keep going your own way Don’t you ever give up.”

I bet several of these songs have already appeared in other tag games I’ve done bc well, spotify tends to throw the same songs at you lol. but I had fun with this and thank you if you looked into it despite it being a bit long ^^

I’ll tag: @i-am-just-a-kiddo @cross-d-a @jockvillagersonly @mejomonster @humanlighthouse @kholran @ashenwren @lzswy @zuyilong and @manhasetardis ♥ no pressure but have fun if you decide to do this ^^ am curious to see what you got!

[spacebell]

Thanks for tagging me @infp-with-all-the-feelings 💜💗

playlist shuffle rules: hit shuffle on your media player and write down the first 20 songs, then tag 10 people, no skipping!

Feelings - Lauv

Parachute - Jaymes Young

peace - Taylor Swift

Magnetic - Seafret

Your Love - The Outfield

Más De Lo Que Aposté - Atiana ft. Morat

Fade - THE DRIVER ERA

Sue Me - Sabrina Carpenter

Cherry - Jungle

Wanted - OneRepublic

Human - dodie Ft. Tom Walker

quiet motions - mxmtoon

Todo - Giorgio Siladi

Anchor - Novo Amor

La Jolla - Wilbur Soot

Float - HARBOUR

White Noise - Coasts

The End - Armors

HONEY - LUNA AURA

if this is the last time - LANY

10 songs i’ve been listening to lately:

Devil’s Advocate - The Neighbourhood

Easy - HARBOUR

Hot Rod - Dayglow

Self Care (with COIN) - Louis the Child

Keep the Faith - Overcoats

Slow Dance - Saint Motel

seriously just stop - somegirlnamedamanda

Be Around Me - Will Joseph Cook

The Anchor - Bastille

Red Dessert - 5 Seconds of Summer

post my 9 most influential albums:

Doom Days - Bastille

Human - dodie

dawn - mxmtoon

ley lines - flor

Fine Line - Harry Styles

This Life, Vol. 1  - Coasts

Fuzzybrain - Dayglow

Feel Something - Jaymes Young

Melodrama - Lorde

Tagging (no pressure)/ saying hi: @zavens @nefarioustortellini @pendragaryen @peterstarkss @griffinsbi @eatsleepandsing @igotbellarkeforthat

[geminus-disparibus]

RULES: share five songs that represent ur muse! just repost, don’t reblog. CAITY

1. Aha! - Imogen Heap

Golden boy boots, pocket pedal-stool Picking sharp, smart moves Plastic, tin can and paper separator A busy bee wave, wave 'save the planet' flag But sneaky in suburbia A-ha! Candid camera! Hook, line and sinker For the four-wheel drive Cost you to keep me quiet!

2. Trouble Is A Friend- Lenka 

He's there in the dark He's there in my heart He waits in the winds He's gotta play a part Trouble is a friend Yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh

3. Undun- The Guess Who

She's come undone She didn't know what she was headed for And when I found what she was headed for Mama, it was too late It's too late She's gone too far She's lost the sun She's come undone

4. Shark In The Water- V V Brown

High in the sky, the song that I'm singing A sweet little lie, I cry wolf, cry Rabbit in the hat yeah, so that's why I'm bringing Some tricks up my sleeve, for noticing me I wouldn't cause you any harm, I just want you in my arms I can't help, I can't help myself

5. Silvery- Novo Armor + Ed Tullett 

We're your daughter We're your ornery teeth We're your author We're your quarterly leave They're your daughters They're your artery thieves Prima donna Run your pain to your teeth

tagged by: @theseancekid​ tagging: you! if you haven’t already had the chance to :)

[angsty-nerd]

Echo-inspired Season 1 Playlist

So I’ve been meaning to share this for… a really long time.  But I’m kind of glad that I waited so long because I found a bunch more songs to add and ended up doing an edit on this playlist this weekend, so this is where it landed.  It’s a bit of a beast—40+ songs. (And it’s my shorter Echo playlist… I have another one I’m still playing with that has all of these, plus the show’s soundtrack songs, plus recommendations that I’m still considering for future Echo use…so this is the reasonably lengthen one…haha).  If you just want to go to Spotify and check it out, here’s the link.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/14ZIHN2MwjfgFbA6yF3RAO?si=5vPkiahyQw-voaZjqMLWsw  

If you want to read my rambles about the progression of the songs and why I picked them, along with some lyrics from each one that make me think of Echo, that beastly monstrosity is below the cut for you!  Here’s just the track list:

1. Armor - Sara Bareilles 2. People Need a Melody - the Head and the Heart 3. A World to Explore - Joshua Radin 4. Missed Connection - the Head and the Heart 5. Summer Years - Death Cab for Cutie 6. It’s OK - Natalie Taylor 7. Something American - Jade Bird 8. Anchor - Novo Amor 9. Harvest Moon - Neil Young 10. Crash Into Me - Dave Matthews Band 11. Silhouettes - Oscar Blue 12. The Storm - The Airborne Toxic Event 13. The Space Between - Dave Matthews Band 14. Walls - Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers 15. Ruins - Jade Bird 16. The Last Time - Taylor Swift feat. Gary Lightbody 17. Run No More - the Talbott Brothers 18. Wild Heart - Bleachers 19. Dream - Bishop Briggs 20. Lullaby - Lord Huron 21. Watch Me - Labi Siffre 22. Grew Up Fast - Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers 23. 17 - Jade Bird 24. Your Hurricane - Death Cab for Cutie 25. Lose that Light - Folly and the Hunter 26. Such a Simple Thing - Ray LaMontagne 27. Make These Colors Real - Hush Kids 28. Surrender - Natalie Taylor 29. I’ll Be Your Mirror - Clem Snide 30. Courage - P!nk 31. Easy - Camilla Cabello 32. Day Too Soon - Sis 33. Truly Madly Deeply - Yoke Lore 34. Side by Side - Layup 35. Electric Love - BØRNS 36. Duet - Penny and Sparrow feat. Stephanie Briggs 37. Atlas: Two - Sleeping at Last 38. Another Story - the Head and the Heart 39. Come to this - Natalie Taylor 40. Six Feet Under - Billie Eilish 41. Hello My Old Heart - the Oh Hellos 42. Poetry by Dead Men - Sara Bareilles 43. Recovering the Satellites - Counting Crows 44. The Chain - Ingrid Michaelson

PRE-SHOW

1. Armor - Sara Bareilles

Stolen from Carina’s Liz mix, and obviously heavy on the Ortecho vibe in general. I might associate it a little more with Rosa back in the flashbacks, being proud of Liz and protective of her.

You think I am high and mighty mister Wait til you meet my little sister

2. People Need A Melody - the Head and the Heart

This song just gives me images of Max sitting at home over the years, listening to music, and then Bright Eyes comes on and it just takes him back to that day in the desert when he was lucky enough to be openly in love with Liz for one day before everything went to hell. 💔

All those books in your head, Is that all this really was? Just a role you play that you could hide behind Is it what you want? To bury yourself away Before your time goes I don’t want a love that holds us back I don’t want a life that I can’t have

Cause people need a melody to open their eyes Like a key to a memory frozen in time Holding onto everything, you’re stuck in the past Boy, when you gonna learn the world moves fast?

3. A World to Explore - Josh Radin

Liz leaves on her road trip, pushing the past away, and moving forward into her new life.

Yesterday rains came Everything’s changing The past has closed its door Well I know there’s something more I know there’s so much more So far to go On this open road, a world to explore So far to go On this open road, away we go

4. Missed Connection - the Head and the Heart

Somewhat self explanatory, I think. Mostly I just think of Max staying in Roswell haunted by all of the what ifs, and how close he and Liz came to being something real.

Did you find what you were looking for? Had to open every single door I get the feeling you’ve been here before From a missed connection Don’t tell me I lost a step Criss-crossed in the wrong direction Found myself in a conversation From a missed connection

5. Summer Years - Death Cab for Cutie

This is, like, my #1 Max over the 10 year gap song. I just hear him all through it, haunted by Rosa’s death and the coverup, heartbroken by Liz’s sudden departure, and trapped in his life.  

Sometimes I’m overcome by every choice I couldn’t outrun… And I wonder where you are tonight If the one you’re with is a compromise Cause we’re walking lines in parallel That will never meet and it’s just as well

6. It’s Ok - Natalie Taylor

You know in the pilot, Max says he used to think about what he’d say if he ever saw Liz again. Meaning he didn’t really anymore. Meaning at some point he let go of the hope of her returning to Roswell. That’s kind of where my mind goes listening to this song.

It only hurts me to live this way Holding on to yesterday… Close my eyes, you’re gone And I’m the only one still holding on It’s ok I’ve got to let you go

7. Something American - Jade Bird

I have an old-school song fic just waiting to come out inspired by this song… I hear a lot of different things in it. Mostly I hear Max and the memory of Liz and Cameron in it. With a little bit of Kyle thrown in too.

In my dreams I find The stars align and they all collide And it’s you and I back in time It feels so right But you don’t call me now And I don’t think too much about you When she’s not around I can feel you’re lonely

PILOT

8. Anchor - Novo Amor

Max’s reaction to Liz finally coming home & hoping she’ll stay.

I hear your ship is coming in Your tears a sea for me to swim I hear a storm is coming in My dear, is it all we’ve ever been Anchor up to me, love

9. Harvest Moon - Neil Young

Max gets that brief smile on his face when he’s watching Liz dance in the Crashdown, before he lets her know he’s there. And this is what I hear going through his head in that moment.

When we were strangers I’d watch you from afar When we were lovers I’d love you with all my heart… Because I’m still in love with you I want to see you dance again

10. Crash Into Me - Dave Matthews Band

It honestly took me a long time to get on board with adding this one, because it’s such an important OG Max/Liz song.  But a while back in one of her Q&As, Carina said that if she could give the pilot a title it’d be this, and even with this different version of Max and Liz it still is the perfect song and perfect metaphor for their experience in the pilot.

Lost for you I’m so lost for you You come crash into me

11. Silhouettes - Oscar Blue

I mean…. 

Do I need to say anything more?  Okay, well here are some lyrics to emphasize my point.

She’s a diamond in the coal Something that enchants my soul Graceful and captivating Just one glance and my mind is invaded… So should I try really really hard Or just keep loving you from afar… Oh can we walk into the sunset Until our bodies are silhouettes Cause busy days cause busy lives And maybe you’ll just keep on walking by Are my hopes just gonna suffocate in my doubt Or am I being my anxious self drowning my chances out

SO MUCH FOR THE AFTERGLOW

12. The Storm - the Airborne Toxic Event

I definitely stole this from someone else’s Echo mix…but take it as a compliment! I definitely see a little bit of Liz coming home in this song, both from her perspective and Max’s. But in my playlist’s narrative I also see this as being kind of like the end of 1x02, when Liz makes the decision to stay and investigate Rosa’s murder.

I surprise myself sometimes The way the days unfold and this road unwinds You tell me you see it too And the miles seem like inches when I think of you It’s been 25 days since I’ve been gone 25 weeks since I’ve seen my home I spent 25 months chasing this song and all of this time I’ve been alone Then you walk right through the doorway You tell me you’re here to stay

TEARING UP MY HEART

13. The Space Between - Dave Matthews Band

So if the last song was the end of 1x02, that means now we’re in the awkward, heartbreaking period where Max is pouring his heart out, and Liz is pretending to feel nothing because she doesn’t trust him. 💔 Which is basically the running theme for the next few songs…

You cannot quit me so quickly There’s no hope in you for me… The space between the wicked lies we tell And hope to keep safe from the pain… We’re strange allies with warring hearts…

14. Walls - Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers

My brother played this song while we were driving from Phoenix to the Grand Canyon in February.  It was the morning after Smells Like Teen Spirit aired, Liz had just told Max that she never wanted to see him again, and I heard this song for the first time and said to myself, “YES.”

All around your island there’s a barricade That keeps out the danger that holds in the pain Sometimes you’re happy sometimes you cry Half of me is ocean half of me is sky But you’ve got a heart so big it could crush this town But I can’t hold out forever even walls fall down

15. Ruins - Jade Bird

Just…I think about Max and that painful scene between him and Liz at the end of this episode, and how much her accusations throw him off.  And the resulting explosion that caused the blackout.

How do we have to do this again? I’ll tell you how I’m feeling You’re like a cryptomaniac trying to connect the dots and the facts How do we have to be here? ‘Cause these hotels, I just can’t relax The more I bend, the worse that I snap I feel like a goddamn maniac

Tell me what did I do to deserve somebody like you? It’s too hard to tell the truth nothing’s real and nothing’s rude I’m just a product of my emotions and they’re all setting off again… You sure you wanna do this now? Oh, you sure you wanna do this now?

'Cause I mean it when I say that I don’t understand And I mean it when I say that I’m not sure who I am 'Cause one minute I love you and the next it’s all in ruins One minute thinking of you and the next my mind’s in ruins

WHERE HAVE ALL THE COWBOYS GONE

16. The Last Time - Taylor Swift feat. Gary Lightbody

Very much the Crashdown “how do you truly feel about me” scene.

Find myself at your door just like all those times before I’m not sure how I got there all roads, they lead me here I imagine you are home in your room, all alone And you open your eyes into mine and everything feels better And right before your eyes I’m breaking No past, no reasons why just you and me This is the last time I’m asking you this Put my name at the top of your list This is the last time I’m asking you why You break my heart in the blink of an eye

DON’T SPEAK

Don’t Speak is one of my favorite chunks of this playlist. I love the pre-pilot set of songs, this set, and then the Recovering the Satellites to the end set the most out of all of this whole thing. Just thought I’d share. Also 3 of my 4 favorite episodes. Hmmm… 🤔

17. Run No More - the Talbott Brothers

So, this is kind of my interpretation of Max’s POV after learning that Isobel sent Liz away. I feel like that knowledge and the realization that Michael and Isobel had manipulated the biggest heartbreak of his life, and lied to him for a decade about it, kind of freed him in a sense.  And for the first time he felt like he could stop hiding and release his guilt.  If Liz hadn’t been in trouble, I think he would have gone straight to her and confessed everything.

It doesn’t get easier the further I run It gets harder to carry the weight of what I’ve done I am speaking from experience I don’t wanna run no more

18. Wild Heart - Bleachers Pretty much same themes as above.  These two songs to me are kind of the combo of that determination in Max.  Above is more focused on his guilt and wanting to reveal the truth.  This one is more about his love for Liz and his determination to find her and protect her and love her.

As I sat with the echoes of lies that I told I felt young, never changed by crooked hearts… Well, everything has changed And now it’s only you that matters I will find any way to your wild heart

19. Dream - Bishop Briggs

I don’t remember who did a fanvid to this…was it Mo? It was wonderful and it’s perfect for the end of this episode.  Max running to save Liz from Wyatt Long and wanting to come clean to her, even though he knew it would likely still make her turn away from him. Liz breaking down at the end…sniffles.

Oh, I had a dream that you couldn’t hear me screaming Trying to tell you everything but it wouldn’t stop you leaving I wanna wake up where your love is 'Cause your love is always waking mine

I wanna break down where your heart gets So torn it’s almost breaking mine I wanna lay here, lost and bitter So long, I feel like I could die I wanna tell you what my truth is But it’s buried down inside

20. Lullaby - Lord Huron

I heart this song… and I think it speaks to Liz in this episode so much.  The danger she puts herself in, Wyatt!Noah coming after her, Max desperately wanting to protect her… 

You arrive along with the sun Where have you been darlin’? What have you done? You were out finding trouble again There’s a fire in your eyes and there’s blood on your hands Come inside and lie down to sleep You ain’t gonna run and you know that you’re beat Rest awhile, they’re coming for you There’s a price to be paid for the things that we do

Fall asleep and forget all your troubles Dream of laughter and old friends and lovers Dream of when you were innocent

SMELLS LIKE TEEN SPIRIT

21. Watch Me - Labi Siffre Early in the episode, when they were happy and innocent. I feel like this song just kind of captures that young love, high school vibe.

Watch me when you look my way See me smiling, be my night and day Touch me in your own sweet way Feel me tremble, you take my words away All of the time I love you Make you a rhyme, I love you

22. Grew Up Fast - Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers

Here’s another Tom Petty song from my brother’s playlist that we listened to on the way to the Grand Canyon on the day after this episode aired.  I heard it, and immediately thought of the Pod Squad (and Liz) and how the incidents surrounding Rosa’s death kind of forced them all out of their youth and into a traumatic adulthood.  Also I think it kind of bridges back to the present with Max telling Liz the story of Rosa’s death and her reaction towards him at the end of the episode.

We grew up fast when lies were just a fact of life We grew up mad cause we never had a home… Hey, my brother I’ve got no fight with you, I just can’t lie down Hey, my brother I’ve got no fight with you, I just can’t lie down No, I just can’t lie down, I just can’t lie down Well, you know who I am So don’t treat me like I’m someone else… You never talk like that to no one else You never scream like that for no one else

23. 17 - Jade Bird

This…just…the look on Max’s face when Liz runs out after telling him she never wants to see him again. It’s like his heart is breaking all over again.

You asked me to be yours, well you’re tempting fate How I left a promise but it’s one I can’t make Lord knows it’d kill me if you walked away But darling my lies, they hide you from the pain Stay, let me explain why I act so mean Don’t look away, baby, it’s not all that it seems I’m so afraid that you’ll just get up and leave My heart will break like I’m 17

I SAW THE SIGN & BARELY BREATHING

24. Your Hurricane - Death Cab for Cutie

“Liz Ortecho is my hurricane.”  Max is such a ball of anger and angst in this episode.  This song may lean a little more on the anger side than really played out in the episode, but I still think it works, considering that Liz spends much of this episode creating the serum.

You used to be such a delicate kid A lonely fish in a sea full of squid So I can’t blame you for leaving how you did You just fell off the grid 'Cause heaven is a hole in the sky The stars are cracks in the ceiling of night But you can’t be your own alibi As hard as you try It’s a tired refrain you’re singing over and over again As you try to explain who’s at fault for your mistakes But I won’t be the debris in your hurricane

25. Lose That Light - Folly and the Hunter

I don’t recall where I got this song from…it may have come from someone else’s playlist.  But it makes me think about how rough of a go Max has it in Barely Breathing and how Liz is, like, the light that kind of guides him through it, that he has faith in to save his sister.

In my arms you fell, after fighting tooth and nail. The convictions you have are all gone now. You followed that trail, just to take a chance and fail. Do not let that dark voice call you out Even if it gets hard, don’t lose that light…

26. Such a Simple Thing - Ray LaMontagne

I see this as the end of the episode, when they are so close to being on the same page, but Liz is still afraid and still puts up that wall.  Max sees how amazing she is, how she’s willing to fight to save Isobel for him.  And Liz is beginning to feel it as well, because the drive to do it for Max, to comfort him, was so powerful.  “My heart is like paper” = Max, “yours is like a flame” = Liz.

Tell me what you’re feeling I can take the pain Tell me that you mean it That you won’t leave again Tell me what your heart wants Such a simple thing My heart is like paper Yours is like a flame

SONGS ABOUT TEXAS

27. Make These Colors Real - Hush Kids

This song just makes me think about that vibe all through Songs About Texas prior to the kiss.  The heart eyes looks, the touches, how close they are to going there, even though it hasn’t happened yet.  This is also the only song I couldn’t find lyrics for online so I transcribed as best I can, but I couldn’t figure one line out, so I just left it off the post! Sorryyyy… 

I guess you win, I guess I’ll see you around again Locked eyes, brushed hands. I’ll lie and say we’re only friends Yes I want you but I don’t want to Cause I can’t hold you when I want to So maybe I’m selfish, maybe it’s reckless Maybe I’m out of my mind

Ooh you make me weak you, you make me seek you You’d make me dive down to the depth of your ocean Ooh if I could hold you… I’d make these colors real

28. Surrender - Natalie Taylor

Throughout this whole episode I feel like there’s a general sense of Liz giving up her fight against Max.  She can’t hide how much she loves him anymore.  She hasn’t quite decided to be with him yet…but throughout the episode that wall thins more and more until she finally does give in to him.

No one will win this time I just want you back I’m running to your side Flying my white flag, my white flag… Whenever you’re ready, whenever you’re ready Can we, can we surrender I surrender

29. I’ll Be Your Mirror - Clem Snide

I’m pretty sure this came from another Echo playlist…because it’s the perfect song to represent Max’s speech to Liz to reveal how well he sees her.

I find it hard to believe you don’t know The beauty you are But if you don’t let me be your eyes A hand to your darkness, so you won’t be afraid When you think the night has seen your mind That inside you’re twisted and unkind Let me stand to show that you are blind Please put down your hands 'Cause I see you I’ll be your mirror, reflect what you are

30. Courage - P!nk

That split second before Liz decides to grab Max and pull him in for the kiss…

See, I let the light in the darkest places Let the sun shine, pain goes away Nothing is permanent for me Have I the courage to change?

31. Easy - Camilla Cabello

It’s almost ridiculous how Echo’s first kiss this song is. Like, seriously, Camilla? Do you watch RNM? Are you an Echo shipper? Is this your own personal fan song?

You really, really know me The future and the old me All of the mazes and the madness in my mind You really, really love me You know me and you love me And it’s the kind of thing I always hoped I’d find

Always thought I was hard to love 'Til you made it seem so easy, seem so easy Always thought I was hard to love 'Til you made it seem so easy, seem so easy Touch me 'til I find myself, in a feeling Tell me with your hands that you’re never leaving Always thought I was hard to love 'Til you made it seem so easy, seem so easy All I know is you, heal me when I’m broken, heal me when I’m broken All I know is you, saved me and you know it, saved me and you know it

32. Day Too Soon - Sia

Liz making the choice that it is finally the right time for her to stop running. Okay, Max has been waiting patiently, but for Liz everything has finally perfectly collided.

Pick me up in your arms Carry me away from harm You’re never gonna put me down I know you’re just one good man You’ll tire before we see land You’re never gonna put me down You’ll risk all this for just a kiss I promise I will not resist

Promise you won’t hold me down And when we reach a good place Let’s be sure to leave no trace Promise they won’t track us down

Now I’ve been running all my life I ran away, I ran away from good Yeah, I’ve been waiting all my life You’re not a day, you’re not a day too soon

33. Truly Madly Deeply - Yoke Lore

Awesome cover of 90’s song? Check! Super romantic to the point of almost cheesy? Check! It’s got Echo getting together written all over it.

I’ll be your dream, I’ll be your wish, I’ll be your fantasy. I’ll be your hope, I’ll be your love, be everything that you need. I’ll love you more with every breath, truly madly deeply do I want to stand with you on a mountain I want to bathe with you in the sea. I want to lay like this forever. Until the sky falls down on me

I DON’T WANT TO MISS A THING, CHAMPAGNE SUPERNOVA, CREEP

34. Side By Side - Layup

Sadly, I don’t have a lot of songs for this chunk of episodes for Echo. But they’re finally together, on the same team, being awesome, so that’s pretty much all I’m getting at with this song.

And so, now I go down all these roads with you, my home And now, I’ll keep you close I hope you know - I love you most So here I walk by your side, oh, on our own time Oh, we’ll be alright, as long as we stay side by side From the coldest nights to warmer degrees we’ll get by You and I, side by side

RECOVERING THE SATELLITES

35. Electric Love - BØRNS

I mean… Alien!God Max channeling all that lightning to get the job done is fucking sexy. And then he just marches home to worship his love the way Liz deserves. *nods firmly*

Baby you’re like lightning in a bottle I can’t let you go now that I got it All I need is to be struck By your electric love Baby, you’re electric love Electric love Rushing through me I feel your energy rushing through me…

36. Duet - Penny and Sparrow f/ Stephanie Briggs

Echo love scene. Just ignore that Liz is not wearing a dress. Everything else fits. And the chorus? *chefs kiss* “Because I’ve seen you and I know you”...ties right back to their first kiss and Max proving to Liz that he isn’t holding onto some high school fantasy.  “And I’m not going anywhere”...it breaks my heart because it was 100% true in that moment…but hours later Max is dead. 😭

I bet your shoulders can hold more than just the straps of that tiny dress That I’ll help you slide aside when we get home I’ve seen 'em carry family and the steel drum weight of me Effortless, just like that dress that I’ll help off I bet your back can carry more than just the weight of your button-down One by one, they’ll come undone when we get home I’ve seen you carry family and all my insecurities One by one, they’ll come undone when we get home

Because I’ve seen you And I know you And I’m not going anywhere

37. Atlas: Two - Sleeping at Last

This is, like, the most Max song ever. Especially where his head is at right at the end of Recovering the Satellites after he and Liz make love, when he is straight up in worshipful puppy mode.  It makes me both 😍 and 😭, because I love how much he loves her, but I know how unhealthy his devotion is, and that it leads to him dying. 

Sweetheart, you look a little tired when did you last eat? Come in and make yourself right at home stay as long as you need Tell me, is something wrong? If something’s wrong, you can count on me You know I’ll take my heart clean apart if it helps yours beat It’s okay if you can’t find the words Let me take your coat and this weight off of your shoulders

Like a force to be reckoned with A mighty ocean or a gentle kiss I will love you with every single thing I have Like a tidal wave, I’ll make a mess Or calm waters, if that serves you best I will love you without any strings attached It’s okay if you can’t catch your breath You can take the oxygen straight out of my own chest I know exactly how the rule goes put my mask on first No, I don’t want to talk about myself tell me where it hurts I just want to build you up, build you up ‘til you’re good as new And maybe one day I will get around to fixing myself too I don’t even know where to start Already tired of trying to recall when it all fell apart I just want to love you, to love you, to love you well I just want to learn how, somehow, to be loved myself Like a force to be reckoned with A mighty ocean or a gentle kiss I will love you without any strings attached What a privilege it is to love A great honor to hold you, love Like a force to be reckoned with A mighty ocean or a gentle kiss I will love you with every single thing I have Like a tidal wave, I’ll make a mess Or calm waters if that serves you best I will love you without any strings attached I will love you without a single string attached

38. Another Story - the Head and the Heart

In my head this is another afterglow, Max manic on love & power and it pushes him to do something crazy song...I both see he and Liz happy together in his bed in the morning sunlights and flickering firelight...and Max deciding to heal Rosa. 😍😭

These are just flames burning in your fireplace I hear your voice and it seems as if it was all a dream I wish it was all a dream I see a world, a world turning in on itself Are we just like hungry wolves howling in the night I don’t want no music tonight

Every time I hear another story Oh the poor boy lost his head Everybody feels a little crazy But we go on living with it

39. Come to This - Natalie Taylor

Liz crying over Max’s body 😭😭😭. There is no heart eyes here.  It’s all just paaaain. 😭😭😭

How can this happen? How can this be? There is no ending, there is no peace The darkness is so close The light so quickly goes And now it’s all gone Now it’s all gone Will you hear me when I speak? Do you feel the pain with me? I’ve tried to be so strong I thought that hope would come But you’re not here

Oh, the darkness keeps its grip Oh, how’d it come to this? Oh, please come back Please come back

40. Six Feet Under - Billie Eilish

More Liz crying over Max’s body…and just love and pain and death and sadness. 😭😭😭

Retrace my lips Erase your touch It’s all too much for me Blow away Like smoke in air How can you die carelessly? Our love is six feet under I can’t help but wonder If our grave was watered by the rain Would roses bloom? Could roses bloom?

POST-SEASON 1

These are just kind of my headcanon songs of various post-S1 reactions from Liz at various different dark moments.

41. Hello My Old Heart - the Oh Hellos

I see a lot of people attribute this song to Liz at the beginning of the show, but I think it’s more appropriate at the end of the season. I’d love it if they use this song in Season 2.  I see it more as Liz putting the walls she had at the beginning of the show back up again after loving and losing Max, which would break my heart. But I think it’s how she would cope while he’s gone and then those walls would come back down.

Hello, my old heart It’s been so long Since I’ve given you away And every day, I add another stone To the walls I built around you To keep you safe

Oh, oh, don’t leave me here alone Don’t tell me that we’ve grown For having loved a little while Oh, oh, I don’t wanna be alone I wanna find a home And I wanna share it with you

42. Poetry By Dead Men - Sara Bareilles

I can see this scene in my head. I can see Liz and Max both longing for this scene in their head. Just the simple domesticity of drinking coffee together in the afterglow, while Max reads poetry to Liz.  Except that he had to go and die first and that just fucking sucks.  So I hear some anger and a little bit of “don’t let the door hit you on your way out” in this song, and I could see Liz occasionally just having moments of anger in her grief where she feels this way. Briefly.

By the time you hear this, who knows where I might be Singing about another near-miss love that ended incomplete I was ready, but you weren’t So jump with your net from this bridge you’ve burned I wanted to tell you things, all the secrets I’ve been keeping I saw it in front of me, but then you just kept disappearing A good dream, almost, now I tell your ghost

I wanted to be your girl in a white T-shirt Over coffee, stirring in the cinnamon While you read me poetry by dead men I wanted to be your girl with your hands on my skin Stirring in the cinnamon While you read me poetry by dead men

43. Recovering the Satellites - Counting Crows

This is one of the few episode titles where the lyrics actually get to me, like in a plotty way. But not necessarily from what happens in the episode, so much as the idea of Liz questioning later whether the brief moment of love she had with Max was worth all of the accompanying pain. 😭😭😭😭

So why’d you come home to this sleepless town? It’s a lifetime commitment, recovering the satellites All anybody really wants to know is When you’re gonna come down, when you’re gonna come down But we only stay in orbit for a moment of time And then you’re everybody’s satellite I wish that you were mine, I wish that you were mine

44. The Chain - Ingrid Michaelson

Definitely stole this from someone else, but it’s perfect and I love ending with it, because even though it’s loaded down with all of the pain we’re feeling at the end of the season, it also has a little twinge of hope and possibility for that future day when Max comes back (which we all know he will)!  So in other words, it’s 😭😭😍😍

The sky looks pissed The wind talks back My bones are shifting in my skin And you my love are gone My room feels wrong The bed won’t fit I cannot seem to operate And you my love are gone

I’ll never say that I’ll never love But I don’t say a lot of things And you my love are gone

So glide away on soapy heels And promise not to promise anymore And if you come around again Then I will take, Then I will take, The chain from off the door

[curioussouls]

A Playlist for ACOTAR/ACOMAF/ACOWAR/ Feysand

I just finished the ACOTAR series earlier this week and decided that I should make a playlist to share with all ACOTAR fans out there. Here are the songs that I listened to while I was reading. I listed the corresponding scenes in order (i think, pls don’t kill me) which I thought fit best and included the links to the songs too. Also please DM me if you want to discuss anything ACOTAR related, i’d LOVE someone to talk to! I hope you all like it! x

P.S. I may have missed out a few songs so I will still be adding to this playlist :)

Also, this is just my personal opinion, you may not like the songs and that’s totally ok and I totally respect that!

“Night Triumphant—and the Stars Eternal.”

Alone by Alan Walker - Rhysand helping Feyre Under the Mountain.       “It took me a long while to realize that Rhysand, whether he knew it or not, had effectively kept me from shattering completely.”                  “Because I didn’t want you to fight alone. Or die alone.”  

Little Did You Know by Campsite Dream - When Feyre was haunted by what happened Under the Mountain and Amarantha in her nightmares

You Found Me by The Fray - Mor saving Feyre from the Spring Court when Tamlin locked her up

Hey Good Lookin’ by Blonde Tongues - When Feyre first arrives at the Nightcourt

All Night by Trashcans Sinatras - Rhysand teaching Feyre to read and write

Starlight by Muse OR A Million Dreams from “The Greatest Showman” - “To Velaris — the City of Starlight.”

Carry You (Matthew Heyer Remix) by Novo Armor - Feyre flying together with Rhysand for the first time

Baudelaire by Angus and Julia Stone - “You say the word tonight, and we come back here, no questions asked. And if you can’t stomach working with me, with them, then no questions asked in that either. We can find some other way for you to live here, be fulfilled, regardless of what I need. It’s your choice, Feyre.”

Talking in Your Sleep by The Cinema - Feyre starting to come to terms her relationship with Tamlin and starts letting go.  “I’m thinking that I was a lonely, hopeless person, and that I might have fallen in love with the first thing that showed me a hint of kindness and safety… and maybe that worked for who I was before. Maybe it doesn’t work for who—what I am now.” 

Dusk Till Dawn by ZAYN, SIA - “So I’m your huntress and thief?” “You are my salvation, Feyre.” AND “You sent that music into my cell. Why?” “Because you were breaking. And I couldn’t find another way to save you.”

Rise Up by Andra Day- Rhysand wrapping his wings around Feyre when she broke down while training with Cassian

Heart’s Content by Brandi Carlile - “To the dreams that are answered.” “To the huntresses who remember to reach back for those less fortunate—and water-wraiths who swim very, very fast.”

Lost Boy by Ruth B. - Rhysand having a nightmare

Shot in the Night by The Killers - “You are good, Rhys. You are kind. This mask does not scare me. I see beneath it.”

Space Song by Beach House - Feyre and Rhysand at Starfall

Colour Me (Mowe Remix) by Juke Ross, Mowe - “There, in that hole in my chest— I saw the image there. At first interpretation, he’d look terrifying, vengeance and wrath incarnate. But if you came closer..the painting would show the beauty on his face, the wings flared not to hurt, but to carry me from danger, to shield me.” “The painting—I could see it; feel it. I wanted to paint it. I wanted to paint.”

Everglow by Coldplay  - When Feyre shape shifted and had Illyrian wings.        “You look good with wings,” he said, and kissed my brow.

Love by Lana Del Rey - When Rhys and Feyre confessed to each other in that small cottage (after Lucien tried to bring Feyre back to the Spring Court)

Lost Stars by Adam Levine - “I painted the night sky. I painted the stars and the moon and clouds and just endless, dark sky. I wonder if, even in my despair and hopelessness, I was never truly alone. I wonder if I was looking for this place — looking for you all.”    “I was looking for you, too.”

I Need My Girl by The National - When Rhysand got shot by ash arrows

Wait by M83 - When Feyre locked herself in the cabin after she found out that Rhysand is her mate

The Scientist by Coldplay - Rhysand’s entire confession at the cabin

Bed Peace (feat. Childish Gambino) by Jhene Aiko OR Slow Dancing in a Burning Room by John Mayer - When Feyre and Rhysand made love at the cabin

Wolves by Selena Gomez, Marshmello - When Feyre summoned water wolves to fight and also when she stabbed the Attor

Lucky by Jason Mraz, Colbie Caillat - Rhysand and Feyre making jokes through the bond

I Don’t Wanna Live Forever by ZAYN, Taylor Swift - “The longest day of the year. I wish I could spend it with you"    “I wish I could spend today with you, too.”

Wild Country by Wake Owl - When Feyre was leaving the Spring Court to go back to the Night Court

We’re Going Home by Vance Joy - When Azriel and Cassian arrived to rescue Feyre and Lucien from Eris and his brothers

Stargazing by Kygo - “We will keep planning for the future, war or no war. I will keep planning for our future. We deserve to be happy,” he said. “You and this city helped wake me up—helped bring me back to life. I will fight with everything I have, too, Rhys. Everything.”

I Follow Rivers by Lykke Li - Together, we stared at our reflection. Lord and Lady Night. "Ready to be wicked?” he purred in my ear.

Sky Full of Stars by Coldplay - “Night Triumphant—and the Stars Eternal. If he was the sweet, terrifying darkness, I was the glittering light that only his shadows could make clear.”

Saturn by Sleeping at Last - When the Suriel dies (i thought the Suriel deserved a song, I was so sad when it died *sobs*)

Never Say Never by The Fray - Azriel: “I’m getting her back.” Elain: “You came for me.”       Azriel scooped up Elain, looping her bound arms around his neck. “Hold tight,” he ordered her, “and don’t make a sound.”    (ya I ship elriel) 

Work Song by Hozier - When Azriel gave the Truth-Teller to Elain.    "This is Truth-Teller", he told her softly. "I won't be using it today, so I want you to".

High Hopes (filous Remix) by Kodaline - “The great joy and honor of my life has been to know you. To call you my family. And I am grateful—more than I can possibly say—that I was given this time with you all.”    “We are grateful, Rhysand. More than you know.”                               “Then let’s go make Hybern very ungrateful to have known us, too.” 

Same Love (feat. Mary Lambert) by Macklemore & Ryan Lewis - Mor on her sexuality

Torches by X Ambassadors - Feyre retrieving the Ouroboros

As Long As I’ve Got You by Ki - Rhysand and Feyre revealing their tattoos to each other from the bargains that they made before the battle broke out. “Here’s to a long, happy mating, Rhys.” “Here’s to family reunions,” was all Rhys said. Then the Weaver, the Carver, and Bryaxis unleashed themselves upon Hybern. 

Everybody Knows by Sigrid - When the Cauldron is leeching on Feyre and she couldn’t do anything but watch her loved ones suffer

Science and Faith by The Script -  “…we’d have an eternity of nights to do this, to see everything together… A gift. All of it.”

[nobucksgiven]

Somebody asked me to make a list of my favourite current songs, so here it goes:

-“I Want To Break Free”- Queen -“Sweet Transvestite”- Tim Curry from The Rocky Horror Picture Show (if you haven’t seen it do it now, it’s just perfect) -“Drive It Like You Stole It”- Sing Street (also every other song from this band) -“Lola Montez”- Volbeat -“We Don’t Have To Dance”- Andy Black -“Friday I’m In Love”- The Cure -“Apocalypse”- Sleeperstar -“Cherry Bomb”- The Runaways -“Faux”- Novo Armor & Ed Tullett -“Broken”- Jake Bugg -“Anchor”- Novo Armor -“Alps”- Novo Armor & Ed Tullett -“Trumblr Girls”- G-Eazy & Christoph Andersson -“Affection”- Cigarettes After Sex (also all their other songs) -“Back In Black”- AC/DC -“Nancy Mulligan”- Ed Sheeran -“Bibia Be Ye Ye”- Ed Sheeran

I also added some of my all time favourite songs and I will probably keep adding and changing the list. Give them a listen if you like and send me songs so I can also find new artists ❤