#sometimes that really nice girl you enjoy spending time with is a big fan of ultimo. such is life

[i9messi]

Lovers — Ollie Bearman

You and Ollie are very close and historians would say you are only friends, but in reality, everyone (fans and the whole paddock) thinks you two are dating.

(smau and narrated)

note — reader is a female driver!

MASTERLIST

yourusername

last weekend 🖤

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kimi.antonelli why the heart? you want to tell us something lady?

yourusername it's a black heart. I'm a black cat I have no feelings for anyone, I just tried to be nice I guess

yourusername and don't call me lady

kimi.antonelli sorry big girl

olliebearman ❤️

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user1 ollie and y/n content, thanks ma'am

user2 I just want one of them winning the next race, so they can hug and share a cute moment in front of the cameras

user3 I NEED TO KNOW THEY'RE TOGETHER, like actually dating

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caption: olliebearman you preferred Kimi over us, so we invited Arthur instead 😁

yourusername posted a story

caption: Arthur made cookies for me. Lucky me I got a new bff!

yourusername posted a story

caption: Oliver got jealous and abandoned Kimi 🙃 that means I have a lot of food now

kimi.antonelli

A day in the sun with my girl and my friends☀️

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olliebearman 🥰

georgerussell cute double date!

kimi.antonelli next time you should come with Carmen 😁

user1 ARE OLLIE AND Y/N IN THE LAST PICTURE?

user2 "just friends" yes, of course. I totally believe them

user3 now they have double dates, stop

yourusername Just to clarify, it wasn't a double date. The four of us are friends and we like to share time together, nothing else!

kimi.antonelli olliebearman come here to justify yourself, because the picture talks by itself

olliebearman we are just friends, I swear!

You had spent the afternoon with your friends, having a picnic in the park. You were young and loved to spend your time doing silly things, even when you had a car race this weekend. You really enjoyed breaks more than anyone else and being with your friends was the best part of all.

Sitting next to you, Ollie was with his phone, while you drove to your hotel room. Luckily you, he was also staying in the same hotel, just a few rooms away. Sometimes you thought your teams were doing everything on purpose to keep you close to each other, as if you were a pair that could not be separated under any circumstances.

Where you were going, Ollie was walking behind you. The same happened with you.

“My phone is ringing like crazy.”

“Mine keeps vibrating in my purse.”

Kimi thought it was a good idea to post pictures from your picnic date, where you and Ollie were very close. That had caused the world to react and to start with their theories. Even your own family had asked you several times if something was going on between the two of you, to the point where you started to doubt whether you ever did anything to make them suspicious.

You were just friends.

“Do you think they’re right?”

“About what, Ollie?”

Your eyes stopped seeing the road for a second, to put them over him.

“About us. I know we’re not dating, but sometimes I think maybe they’re noticing something that we’re not.”

“We’re just friends.”

“We are.”

None of you insisted on the subject, acted as if you had never spoken about it in the first place. When you arrived at the hotel, you went to your room and Ollie went to his own.

Not ten minutes passed, when you felt a knock on the door. Barefoot and in your nightwear, you opened the door. Ollie was there, his hair all messed up.

“I need to talk to you, it’s urgent.”

“Is something wrong? Is your family okay?”

“Everyone’s fine, it’s not about that.”

“All right, come on in.”

You let him in and Ollie walked into the middle of the room. It was a big space and his presence never made you uncomfortable.

Before you could talk, Ollie spoke.

“I think they’re right.”

“Ollie…”

“There’s something more between us, we’re not just friends.”

You were silent, thinking about his words. Ollie spoke again, so confidently as he said his insecure words. Confident and insecure, he was a mix of both.

“I feel things for you and I’m tired of pretending that it’s nothing and that we’re just friends.”

It wasn’t until you heard those words that everything suddenly started to make sense. You started to remember the way your heart used to beat when you were around him, the way you felt incredibly happy when he won races, or the way you constantly posted photos of him to your social media. You always found a way to make Ollie present in your life.

It wasn’t the same feelings you had for Kimi. What you felt for the English was much deeper, romantic.

You smiled at him. You loved to spend your time with him, and when something good or bad happened to you, you ran to his side because you knew no one else would understand you the way he did.

You were in love. And you were in love with nothing else than your best friend, Ollie.

“Do you have feelings for me?” asked him, looking anxiously for an answer from you.

“I have feelings for you and I’m terrified.”

Ollie smiled and walked one step towards you.

“I’m terrified, too.”

olliebearman

she made me a cake 😍

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yourusername who's that chick? I bet she's cool

olliebearman she's cooler than me and so beautiful

yourusername mmm I think I don't now her

olliebearman silly, I really like you ❤️

yourusername I like you too, bear boy 🖤

user1 WHATTTTTTT STOP

user2 THIS IS A HARD LAUNCH

user3 I know there were signs but nothing prepared me for this

kimi.antonelli me? fan of this couple since day one

arthur_leclerc yesssss, finally. I was so tired of being used by her to make Ollie jealous

yourusername I wasn't trying to make him jealous 🙄

charles_leclerc what a lovely couple

georgerussell63 love to see young love!

[headcanonenthusiast]

Simon Riley NSFW headcanons

Ladies, gentlemen and everyone inbetween, here he is. Here's the extremely popular man himself, Simon Riley.

I know how much people thirst over Ghost, and even though I personally don't he's a character I absolutely adore. Hoping I can do him justice with this one ❤

(I completely understand that this type of content is not everyone's cup of tea, and that's ok! But, please scroll and ignore if this type of content isn't your thing as opposed to leaving any sort of negative comments.)

Enjoy!

Nsfw under the cut

-Don't really think he has the highest libido in the world.

-When he is in the mood, though, you're not sleeping that night.

-Have you seen the way this man talks? He's pretty confident in his looks. And he totally sprinkles that confidence into intercourse.

-"Look at tha', not even in you yet and you're already blushin."

-This is so random, but I feel like rainy nights get him in the mood.

-Its probably because you're less likely to go anywhere while the weather's bad. In his mind, as long as the weather isn't the best, he's got you glued to the bed for the night.

-"Where you goin, luv? Weather's nasty today."

-And no matter what excuse you give, his head will tilt slightly and he'll give the smallest smirk imaginable.

-"But it's so cold out. Wouldn't ya rather spend some time with me? The bed's nice n' warm."

-His grip on your hips is tight, so tight he usually leaves marks on accident.

-4 inches soft, 6 inches hard.

-Not the most vocal in bed, but he does grunt a lot.

-Not much of a talker, either, but depending on what you're into, he'll throw out the occasional praise or degrading word.

-"There we go, atta boy/girl. Hold still f'me."

-During sex, his eyes are locked on you, but not specifically on your face. He keeps his focus on your cock/pussy as he touches it.

-Expects your eyes to be on him the whole time, however. Does not want you to look away, even for a second.

-"Eyes on me, darlin'. Don't you look away, now."

-"Good girl/boy. Much better."

-Good with his fingers, and he knows it.

-Will totally finger/jerk you off with your back against his bare chest, his lap as your very own seat while he does so.

-"Christ, your legs are shaking. My fingers feel good, don't they?"

-His strokes are deep, and usually not terribly fast nor too slow. It's a good middle-ground that doesn't tire either of you immediately but is still satisfying.

-A big fan of pulling your hair if it's longer (consensually ofc, consent is important af yall).

-Something that really turns him on is the way his hand is able to completely cover yours. Enjoys moving a hand from your hip to your hand, giving it a few tight squeezes.

-And those squeezes aren't just him doing them because he wants to, he actually uses it as a non-verbal way to say "I love you", because like I said earlier, not very vocal.

-And he always does that at least once during sex. But sometimes he'll forget to do it, so he'll squeeze your hand as you're falling asleep, just to remind you of the fact he loves you.

-Is obsessed with painting your dick/pussy/ass with his cum. Your lips, too, when you give him a blowjob.

-When he's finished, you can see the way his body relaxes. It's like he's suddenly won the lottery and he no longer has back pain after sex.

-Aftercare isn't anything extraordinary, but he figures you need alone time after sex, so, unless requested, the shower is all yours for however long you want it.

-Also, he's not an asshole. Its not like he'd suddenly act distant after sex or anything, it's just that he knows you can take care of yourself. That's why he waits for you in bed, allowing his chest to become a pillow for your head to rest on.

-Now, Simon has never really been able to fall asleep super quickly, but after sex he passes right out.

-And it's not even because the act exhausted him, either. He just has this odd sense of contentment after being with you that lulls him into a more eased mindset, which is very difficult for him to get.

-In other words, he feels much more fulfilled with you by his side. And he'll be sure to thank you the next morning, chin on your shoulder while he gently squeezes your hand.

That was fun to write! Even though I'm not attracted to Ghost like everyone else reading this post is, he's still up there on my fav COD characters list.

Let me know who I should do next!

[judeswhore]

i’d kill you if i loved you less hard - jude bellingham | instagram files

summary: your relationship with jude is complicated but that doesn’t stop you both from wreaking havoc online

pairing: situationship!jude bellingham x singer!reader

face claim: gracie abrams

notes: you can find my masterlist here. this is based on an ask i got in my hey jude :) tag and i just had to do it. pictures are not mine, credit to the original owners

yourusername

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yourusername thank u to the fan who gave me this hat u made my night🤠this has been an incredible few weeks!!

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user1 so so pretty

user2 I HAD THE BEST TIME TONIGHT

judebellingham u wearing that tiara so everyone knows ur a pillow princess🤨

↳yourusername i work for it

↳judebellingham i’ve seen socks move more than u

↳yourusername maybe u just bore me

user3 please please sing 21 at the next tour🫶🏻🫶🏻

bestfriendsuser u slayed as always

judebellingham save a horse, ride a cowgirl

↳yourusername u saying u wanna ride me?

↳judebellingham i mean if ur offering🤷

↳user4 JUDE??

vogue 🩷

braedenlemasters cowboy hats on stage is my thing.

↳yourusername but i look prettier :)

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judebellingham

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judebellingham huge game, huge win. enjoy the break❤️

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yourusername okay whore

↳judebellingham pot meet kettle

↳yourusername kinda mean :(

↳judebellingham thought u liked being my whore

↳yourusername more delusional than ur fans

user4 ^^^very weird

gioreyna my brother❤️

user5 🥰🥰🥰

user6 thighs🤤🤤🤤

↳yourusername exactly what i’ve been saying

↳judebellingham get a grip

jackgrealish come to city x

yourusername be honest what will it take for u to yell at me like this

↳gioreyna u have no shame🙄

↳yourusername if you’d have taken me on that date i wouldn’t have had to lower my standards like this

↳user7 girl stick to singing these boys ain’t shit

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yourusername

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yourusername it’s supposed to be fun turning 21 or wtv

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jobebellingham wonder who that could be

↳yourusername it could possibly be ur dad

↳jobebellingham fuck off u worm

user8 happy birthday favourite girl

user9 HAPPY BDAY❤️

user10 are we gonna just ignore the boy in her bed?

↳user11 it’s jude it’s a common occurrence tbh

judebellingham happy birthday ig

judebellingham suppose u look kinda fit

↳yourusername i distinctly remember u telling me this morning that i’m the prettiest girl you’ve ever seen

↳judebellingham i say daft things when my dicks in ur mouth

↳karim_adeyemi there’s other people on this app u know

bestfriendsuser happy bday girly looking as hot as always ily <3

bestfriendsuser im gonna act like that third slide doesn’t exist for my own sanity

↳yourusername probably shouldn’t open my snaps then

user12 this feels like a relationship announcement

↳yourusername it’s not.

user13 spending her birthday together but they’re NOT dating🤨

↳yourusername we just hang out sometimes🙃

↳trentarnold66 hang out🤣🤣

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judebellingham

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judebellingham views were nice

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user14 wtf??

user15 is she his girlfriend

yourusername don’t tell anyone but u look really pretty rn

yourusername why’d u post the pic where u can’t actually see my arse

↳judebellingham because i don’t want people looking at ur arse

user16 so much for not dating

reecejames u two are foul

bestfriendsuser is someone gonna explain how this happened

↳judebellingham when two people really like each other they do nice things together

↳bestfriendsuser i really fkn hate u

user17 my girls getting corrupted :(

gioreyna 🥰🥰🥰

↳judebellingham 😘😘😘

gioreyna mr and mrs “it’s not serious”

↳yourusername it’s not serious🙄he’s just got a big bank account

↳judebellingham tell him what else is big babe

user18 ^^^ i hate seeing this stuff

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yourusername in this weeks news

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masonmount GO MARIO

↳yourusername thanks 4 being my luigi🫶🏻🫶🏻

↳judebellingham mason’s like 4ft shouldn’t it be the other way round?

masonmount 🍒🍒

↳user19 MASON?? WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN

↳user20 i’m sure they’re just friends

↳user21 i really don’t like her

masonmount i still feel a little sick and my ears won’t stop ringing

↳judebellingham aren’t u too old for go karting??

user22 i swear she was with jude

↳user23 she’s got a type apparently

bestfriendsuser this i can get behind

↳yourusername shhh🤭🤭

user24 i am so in love with u

oliviarodrigo girl how are u so HOT

↳user25 collab soon🙏

jobebellingham that sunburn looks painful

↳judebellingham bro why are u here

↳jobebellingham she’s upset with u not me🤷

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judebellingham

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jobebellingham give it a rest🤣

yourusername first shirts ugly

↳judebellingham really? cos it got me laid

↳yourusername did it fuck u were in my dms all night

user26 u look SO good omg

user27 him using the same caption as y/n they’re definitely fighting

↳user28 i think they broke up tbh

↳user29 they were never together😭

erling.haaland good looking fella

↳judebellingham all u big guy❤️

bvb09 the coldest🥶

user000 the best week with u

↳judebellingham u know it🤪

↳yourusername oh?

↳bestfriendsuser oh??

↳yourusername but he was “missing me”

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user30 ^^ these two are so messy

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yourusername

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yourusername hot girl healing

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judebellingham gorgeous😍😍

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judebellingham ur arse looks good in these jeans

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judebellingham answer ur phone bro

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jennaortega obsessed with the first pic

↳yourusername me when i kiss u

user31 we all saw jude’s comments

user32 so so pretty u deserve the absolute world

user33 y/n heartbreak era??? new music coming???

↳user34 i don’t want her to be sad but we NEED new music

yourusername liked this comment.

masonmount nice jeans

↳user34 not again🙄🙄

judebellingham liked this comment.

gioreyna can u heal a little faster i’m getting bored

user36 u are my idol <3

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judebellingham

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judebellingham good to be back😁

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bvb09 Let’s go!!⚫️🟡

user37 y/n still liking his pics👀

karim_adeyemi cute

user38 i wanna give him a rose :(

kalvinphillips most i’ve seen u smile

gioreyna should give that rose to someone else

↳bestfriendsuser she needs a lot more than that

↳gioreyna it’s time he started breaking bank

↳yourusername i wanna date u instead🤭

↳judebellingham you’re off limits.

↳yourusername mason didn’t think so

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sanchooo10 big things to come🙏

↳judebellingham come back dortmund bro

↳sanchooo10 👀👀

adidasfootball ⭐️

user39 petition for u to come to everton

yourusername ur beard looks like pubes

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yourusername

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yourusername big girls don’t cry🙃

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yourusername ps. new music is cooking

sadiesink HOT girls don’t cry

sadiesink especially over mediocre men

↳yourusername especially not men who use bunny ears to tie their laces

user40 new music new music new music

user41 show us ur tattoo!!!!

↳gioreyna it’s a portrait of me

↳yourusername a nude portrait🤭

user42 the way jude is nowhere to be seen

trentarnold66 can i get tickets to ur next gig?

↳yourusername will u hook me up w aitch?

↳trentarnold66 suppose so if u play nice

user43 prettiest and sweetest girl ever <3

user44 u were too good for him anyway

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gioreyna @.jobebellingham stop being a little shit🤣

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three weeks later.

yourusername added to their story!

↳ judebellingham replied to your story!

jude:

u wanna show me

what’s under that top?

you:

not particularly

jude:

don’t be mean

u don’t miss me?

i missed u

you:

missed me or

missed fucking me

jude:

both

i wanna see u

no one’s home

you:

i’m busy

jude:

with mason?

you:

no

jude:

so come over

i know u need me to fuck u

you:

i can’t think of anything worse

jude:

oh really?

i remember u were

begging me two weeks ago

to fuck u in that club

bathroom

seemed like u really

needed it

you:

no idea what ur

talking about

jude:

come over and i’ll

jog ur memory

c’mon pretty girl

let me show u how

much i’ve missed u

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judebellingham

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judebellingham call her easy

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yourusername too far

↳judebellingham i’ve got a list of other things to call u but my mum follows me

↳yourusername 🤨🤨

user45 no fucking way

yourusername why would u post that last pic

↳judebellingham so everyone knows how good u are for me

↳yourusername just gagged🥴🥴

↳judebellingham come gag on something else

reecejames surely not bro

↳judebellingham i don’t see what’s wrong

user46 she does seem kinda easy tbf

↳user47 and jude doesn’t?

jobebellingham mate u could’ve kept these private

bestfriendsuser poor barnaby😢😢

↳yourusername dw i cleaned him :))

↳bestfriendsuser i literally cannot stand u

↳judebellingham i left u a little present for next time ur in him

↳bestfriendsuser ur fucking VILE man

↳judebellingham THAT’S NOT WHAT I MEANT

gioreyna u can take that virgin ring off now

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yourusername stream i should hate you, out friday!

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user48 ur so beautiful… and he’s there

judebellingham tell me ur joking

judebellingham i can sue u for defamation

↳yourusername baby that’s such a big word for u🥺

↳judebellingham i’d be more annoyed if u didn’t look so pretty

↳bestfriendsuser embarrassing👎

user49 FINALLY NEW MUSIC

user50 so SO excited i can’t wait

judebellingham can we talk about how fit i look here tho

↳yourusername no we can’t

jennaortega oh i’m SEATED for this

gioreyna i don’t think u understand how badly i regret introducing u two

↳yourusername you’d be terribly bored without our drama

↳gioreyna yeah but i’d still have my sanity

user51 i just know this new music is gonna top anything else this year

user52 u look gorgeous!! i hope you’ve found happiness

↳jobebellingham don’t count on it

masonmount cant wait to listen💙

↳judebellingham bro have some shame

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one year later.

judebellingham

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judebellingham so proud of you angel🤍

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user53 OMG???

user54 is this the official announcement

yourusername i love u ig

↳judebellingham c’mon u can do better than that

↳yourusername why don’t u come home and i’ll show u just how much i love u

user55 oh she’s gorgeous

user56 jude we want ur girlfriend

reecejames congrats man

gioreyna ur punching clearly

jobebellingham u lasted a whole 12 hours before telling everyone

↳judebellingham ur acting like everyone didn’t already know

user57 this is actually adorable

user58 i want what they have🥺

↳jobebellingham trust me u don’t

masonmount happy for you two!

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↳yourusername do u have to be so petty

↳judebellingham yeah he tried to fuck my girl

↳yourusername MOVE ON

[gyalwtf]

it's been a while.

sorry if i got the city that kai lives in wrong but i'm more of a fan of beta squad and i just searched up where kai lives 🙁

details ; sharky x fem!reader, reader is an actor, angst to comfort!!

warnings ; cursing and insults, reader has a boyfriend, cheating but not on your end dw, slapping, arguments, alcohol, sex is mentioned but nothing spicy happens

you used to hangout with the beta squad a bunch, like a bunch. being niko's friend from middle school, you were there when niko first met sharky and the rest is history.

ever since you were a kid, you always loved acting, to an extent. you wanted to become an actor and all that and you started your career in your early twenties.

it was maybe two thirds of a year after the actual beta squad channel was made and formed that you got hired for a major acting job over in the u.s, and there was even an acting agency willing to help pay for you to live over in america.

but before that, you used to feature on a lot of beta squad early videos, and you honestly enjoyed it a bunch, and you also enjoyed spending time even more with a certain guy in the beta squad named sharmarke. ever since you first met sharky at that event thing, you just felt drawn to him. little did you know, he felt the same way.

anyway, as much as you didn't wanna leave everyone, you had to for the sake of your career. you could always visit once in a while, right?

over in america, you moved to the house your agency provided which was on the city where your agency was stationed at, but you of course travelled across america for your roles.

one time, at a premier for one of the movies you starred in, you met this guy at the event. he seemed sweet and handsome and you liked him a bunch. maybe his personality reminded you a bunch of sharky, but who cares. sharky was all the way over in the u.k, and this new guy was better. right?

this new guy, he was also an big-name actor. you thought he was so nice, and charming. after a while, you moved in with him in the city of atlanta. which thankfully didn't make you transfer over to another agency just to move to another city.

life was great, but you missed home a lot. despite your earlier belief, it was really hard to get time to go home. when you weren't filming, you were attending events, when you weren't doing that you were filming auditions, and if you weren't doing any of that and working? you were resting and having alone time.

in said alone time, you enjoyed watching your old friends' videos on their channel. you missed them a fuck ton. you talked to them sometimes but it didn't ever feel the same, or even right. you honestly just wanted to skip over to the time that you could meet them again.

you were dissatisfied with life and felt incredibly homesick, it didn't help that in your current 'home' it was always empty as hell. your so called 'green flag' of a boyfriend was never even home, and yeah he was busy, you were both famous actors after all.

after tolerating his bullshit insults, there was this one night where a photo started circling around that was taken from a club, — that your boyfriend of course lied about even going to, and he was caught kissing another girl. not even a peck, a full on fucking make out session was photographed.

you were beyond insulted and hurt, what the fuck is this? the same night that photograph reached the public, was going to be the night you finally confronted him. about all those nights he went out without telling you where, staying out until the early hours of the morning, rumors that he didn't love you anymore. you needed to confront him.

that night, when he got home to the club, and thank goodness he didn't go over to that random girl's place. he walked into the door still drunk, but mostly sober. “ babe?” he called out for you.

“ oh hi! where'd you go?.” you told him, fake happiness in your voice, walking up to him. he looked you with that stupid fucking smile on his face. apparently, he didn't know that the photograph was taken, and he thought he got away with cheating once again. " oh, just to my friend's place, drank a bit and played video games." he lied, going to hug your waist.

you felt the anger rise at hearing his response. how many times has he said something similar to that and you believed him? your tone suddenly switched and you replied, hatred and hurt laced in it now, “ no you weren't. you fucking liar!" you yelled, pushing his arms off of you.

he seemed confused now, " huh? what are you on about, baby?" he asked you, praying that you hadn't found out. you scoffed at his audacity, “ don't call me that. what, did you call that other girl at the club that you kissed baby as well? did you call other girls the sweet shit i thought you only said to me?!” you exploded at him, done with it.

you were in a mess, hair messed up and crying from the hurt you felt. he was speechless, and then he tried to defend himself, “ b-baby n-nothing happened between me and that girl! i swear—”

you looked at him, not being able to believe what he just say. “ be so fucking for real right now! i'm not blind! how long has this been going on, huh? did you fuck another girl too?” you yell, not caring about your volume anymore. you were hurt, and he was over here trying to play all innocent.

“ did you fall out of love with me? couldn't ypu have broken up with me instead? instead of cheating on me with who knows how many girls—” you continued on, before barely even being able to finish your sentence as you felt a harsh sting on your face. he had slapped you?

you looked up at him, surprised. and he just seemed just as surprised at you. “ don't speak to me, ever fucking again. we're done.” you mumble, voice seemingly gone, before pushing past him. the only thing you had with you was your phone. no charger, nothing. thank goodness your phone was at 70% though.

there was a park nearby your house, more like that bitch's house and you went there. unsure of what to do, you couldn't go back. you walked on over there to that park, eyes all puffy and a mess from crying. you went over to the first bench you saw and immediately sat down.

you wanted to talk to someone, you needed to even see someone you loved dearly. you didn't wanna call any of your friends from here in america, you just wanted to go back home at this moment. see your family, see your friends, the people from the beta squad, and sharky too.

until you remember, earlier that day you saw sharky post that he was here, in atlanta. he also was there to surprise a mutual friend of yours — well you haven't talked to him much, but still friend, kai cenat.

you needed to call him, right now. and that you did. you waited, and waited as you called him. hearing the ring tone, you felt like you were waiting endlessly although it was only a few seconds you had to wait.

he picked up and said, “ hi y/n! what's going on?” he asked. your name. you haven't heard him say it in so so long. “ y/n?” he called out to you, as you weren't responding.

you had calmed down a bit but now were sobbing again as you cried, “ s-sharky— can you pick me up? i-i didn't know who else to call!” he immediately got concerned when he heard you crying, his next words were filled with worry, “ y-yes of course! where are you?" he asks quickly and you send him your location.

he books it out of the hotel you were staying at, got a taxi and went over to your location immediately. when you saw that taxi car, you were sat on the bench, knees up, crying so hardly into them, all alone. you looked up from your knees and saw sharky hurriedly exiting the car. you were shaking when you got up from the bench, is that really him? were your eyes just playing tricks on you?

once he saw you, all crying and stuff, he didn't know what came over him. he never quite got over you honestly, no one outside his family and the beta squad knew he liked you, ever since you first met. he immediately ran over and gave you a hug tight, proving he was real. after a moment of shock, you quickly hugged back, crying into his arms.

he wanted to see you as soon as he got to atlanta, but he was busy and so were you, and he really wanted to savor this moment. he hugged you tightly, soothing your hair and comforting you as you cried into his chest. soiling his shirt with tears, which he didn't mind at all.

he wouldn't have cared if you both stared there at that park the entire night, he didn't care if anyone saw, he just knew he needed you, and you needed him even more. you missed him embrace, you missed his voice, his face, you missed everything else, and missed him even more.

you tried to explain what happened, you really did but you kept stuttering and everything. “ shh, calm down. you can explain to me later, i'm not going anywhere.” he told you, as you hugged him the tightest you could. he was right, he was not going anywhere. no chance. he was going to stay there with you until you didn't need him anymore, which meant, that he wasn't gonna ever leave you. and he didn't mind that either.

haha i think this is the longest i've ever wrote for a oneshot! i enjoyed writing this, despite how low i look as i was not really finding motivation to write for beta squad as of late! i hope you enjoyed! this isn't proofread though, i'll check over in a bit and fix any mistakes!

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be my angel | two - still august 1991

Pairing: Nicholas Ruffilo x Teddie (OFC) Warning: Swearing, alcohol consumption, brief mentions of drugs, men being a little misogynistic  Word Count: 5k

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The fan whirrs in the background as Teddie stirs her yogurt. The apartment has been so awfully quiet since Angie had left. It’s been two weeks, but somehow it feels eternally longer and shorter at the same time. It’s been a good two weeks, Noah had stopped making fun of her New Kids On The Block tapes and instead had decided that he would “educate” her. He’d made lists of albums for her, made tapes for her to take on the go. And in a way, Teddie was thankful that he’d somewhat taken her under his wing. She’d started to get a little tired of the same old same old pop tunes and so far, what Noah had provided her with had not disappointed. It was nice to have someone who would show her new things, and Noah had been so incredibly helpful when it came to that. In the month that she had known him, she’d already learned more than in the entire year that she had already spent in New York. 

Not being confined to the wall of her dorm room with people she couldn’t stand the sight of was a relief. And although Teddie still found herself questioning if she had even made the right decision in coming here in the first place, she was starting to feel a little more at home. 

She turned the crystal case over to check the name of the album once again. Isn’t Anything. The washed out, over exposed photo on the cover stared back at her. The music is noisy, distorted in a way that Noah assures her is intentional. And even though the vocals are quiet and sometimes indistinguishable from the noise surrounding them, Teddie feels as if she understands all of it. She makes a note of the song that plays in her little notebook, so that she can come back to it again later. Noah will want to hear what she enjoyed about it and what didn’t work for her. It’s a fun little evening activity. 

The album continues to drone in the background as she cleans up her breakfast. It’s nice to have a quiet morning for once. She’s gotten so used to having to rush everywhere over the summer that it almost feels wrong to have nowhere to go. Having a day off work is a real luxury, one that she’ll miss dearly when the semester really picks up again. She’s already dreading the long nights in the studio again, but maybe she can arrange her times in such a way that she can get her work done together with Noah. Teddie has come to enjoy working with him. They’ll spend their evenings silently working next to each other, and really she likes knowing that she could always ask him for his opinion on what she’s working on. 

She has different plans for today, though. Teddie has been pushing this call off for long enough now, and the sooner she gets it over with, the better. Her momma had not been impressed when she’d first told her that she would move into an apartment with a man. Teddie knows that it’s mostly out of concern for her safety, and really she’d love for her to meet Noah at some point. Noah induces about as much fear in people as a little baby bunny, she thinks. He’s a darling, and Angie wouldn’t have suggested this if Noah wouldn’t be a good person. 

Teddie slumps down in the armchair next to the landline. Knowing her mother, she’ll be here for a while. In the dormitory, she’d have to sit on the ground next to the phone while her mother prattled on about the goings-on at home. At least now, she can curl up in the slightly stiff armchair Angie had apparently dragged up the stairs all on her own one day. She dials the number out of sheer muscle memory, and a small part of her still expects to hear her daddy's voice on the other end. It still surprises her when he’s not the one that picks up. 

He’d been so very proud of her – so excited to see his little girl moving to the big city. Her father had been her biggest supporter from day one, he’d marvelled at every little crayon drawing she’d presented him with. Not that her mother hadn’t given her that excitement, but he’d always made her feel extra special. 

A brief tinge of disappointment fills her when she hears her mother’s voice instead. 

“I was just thinking of you, honey.” the warm twang in her voice instantly makes her feel at home again. 

“I have the day off, thought I’d use the chance to call.” she explains, twirling the cord around her finger, “How’s Brian?” 

And that sets off a thirty-minute long tirade about her brother’s shenanigans. While older than her, Brian was by no means more responsible. Brian had always caused more chaos than good – none of it had been malicious, but he quickly made a name for himself as the local daredevil. And apparently it had not gotten better since she had left. 

“Michael, on the other hand – he’s been talking to Gracie a lot recently.” her mother adds finally, and that makes Ted perk up. 

“Grace?”

She’d gone to school with Grace, they’d been friends for the longest time. But about a year before they’d graduated, she’d decided that Teddie wasn’t good enough company any more and had turned her back on her. It had been fine for the most part, but hearing that she now talks to her brother – because Teddie knows what her mother means when she says talk — makes her question things a lot more. 

“Tell me about you, though. Are you well? How is this new place you’re living in now?”

Teddie tells her about Angie's farewell party and conveniently leaves out the amount of drinks she’d had or the looks one of the boys kept throwing her way. She tells her about how kind Noah and his friends have been to her, how welcoming they've been. The conversation quickly steers back to Teddie and her absence from home. She says that it’s because of work and all the assignments, but that’s only partially the truth. Going home hasn’t been something she’s looked forward to since the funeral. The house is still her home, but the distant ache in her chest still makes it feel so empty. It’s been just under eight months since she’s been home, and in a way she does feel bad. But the truth is that home hasn’t felt like home since that day. When she’d stepped foot into that house, it had suddenly become the place where he had passed and not the place where their height was marked on the door frame in the kitchen. 

She tells her mother that she’ll come home for Christmas, that school is keeping her too busy to visit. Between her work for school, the babysitting and the café, she barely had time to sleep over the summer. The city turned out to be a lot more expensive than she had anticipated. 

She promises her momma that she’ll call more often, that she’ll send pictures of the apartment and of Noah. The call ends when Brian falls into the door, yells something about how Mikey almost crashed the car – again. 

Ted sets to cleaning up their dishes, Noah has a tendency to leave his cups scattered all over the place, and it feels a little like the egg hunt at Easter. She takes her time, going through her little routine for once. She’ll get through more of her work before she’ll head out to get an early dinner with Noah. In a few short hours, she’ll have to take pictures of a band she knows nothing about, and her insides are already rioting about it. 

By now, Ted feels somewhat comfortable navigating this part of the city. She doesn’t feel entirely out of place any more, but even then Noah still manages to show her new shortcuts. When they’re not working on their little projects, they spend their evenings in the various bars of the neighbourhood with a constantly changing cast of friends. 

Her feet find their way to the record store on their own. And soon the hanging sign comes into view. 

Teddie pushes her way into the store. The bell above the door dings, but as always it is almost drowned out by the music they’re subjecting their customers to. She’ll have to ask Noah what this one is called later. 

She spots Noah sorting through one of the displays, although his focus seems to be on something – or rather someone – else entirely. When she follows his eyeline, she finds Jesse leaning against the counter as he talks to another customer. Noah appears to be entirely entranced by the other man, and there’s a brief moment of curious confusion in her mind before Ted comes to the conclusion that Noah has been nothing but kind to her. It’s only right that she extends that same kindness to him now. And really, she doesn’t even know if that is what’s going on between them. And if it is, why should she get upset about her friends' happiness? 

She’s only ever known of one boy in her class who’d been into boys. To this day, Teddie wishes that she’d been a little bit braver when she’d seen how cruel the others had been to him sometimes. 

Ted is shaken out of her trance when Jesse claps his hands and throws his head back in delighted laughter. She chances another glance at Noah, and the dreamy look on his face tells her everything she needs to know. 

She makes her way across the floor towards him. He jumps a little when she places her hand on his shoulder. 

“Jesus, Ted.” he gasps, “You can’t scare a guy like that.” 

“I’ve been in here for five minutes.” she replies with a laugh, “You’ve just been preoccupied.” 

A faint pink fluster grazes across his cheeks. Noah quickly shakes himself out of it, though. 

“I still have thirty. Have a little browse, I’ll hurry up.” he says curtly before returning to the CDs he must have been sorting through before Jesse caught his eye. 

Maybe she shouldn’t have said something after all. 

Ted spends the spare time she has been awarded browsing the well-stocked inventory. She still doesn’t know who actually owns the store. She knows for sure that it isn’t Noah, and she’s sure that it’s not Jesse either. The owner appears to be conveniently absent, though. The pair of them do a very good job with the stock, she thinks. Most of the titles she thumbs through are entirely new to her. 

She finds herself digging through the cassette tapes, searching for something that’ll catch her eye. Teddie’s halfway to giving up when she spots it. 

Ladies of the Canyon. 

It’s the exact same one her dad had played for them. She hasn’t played it in years. The tape had stayed with him in Brevard when she had first left, and when she had come back for the funeral, she had avoided it like the plague. Finding it now feels a little like fate. If she wouldn't know better, she’d think that it actually was the tape from home. 

She decides then that it’ll come home with her. It’ll be nice to immerse herself in it now that she’s a little older. 

Noah is still busy with his tasks when she comes up to the register. Jesse quickly slides into the view in front of her, both hands posted up on the counter. 

“Found something?” he asks. 

Ted has found a good chunk of comfort in the familiar lilt of his accent. 

“Just this.” she slides the tape across the counter. 

Jesse flips it around so that he can inspect the cover. He makes an affirming noise before pushing it back to her. 

“Excellent pick.” he concludes, “Noah’s getting you into the good things, huh?” 

She scoffs, shaking her head, “My dad’s favourite. Haven’t listened to it in ages.” 

He seems somewhat amused by her brash response, “I’m only joking, Ted. Joni isn’t his style. If anything, you gotta get him into her.” 

They talk for a moment longer, mostly exchanging the gripes with Noah’s occasionally pretentious choices in music. 

“He’s a rich kid from the city,” Jesse concludes, “He has to compensate his lack of edge with something.” 

Ted tries her hardest not to laugh out loud.

Not a moment later does Noah appear from the backroom with his painted on cotton bag slung over his shoulder. He’d made her leave her mark on it, too. After agonising about it for a while, she’d settled on a little bundle of daisies, painted in thread, in the bottom left of it. 

“Come on, I’m starving.” he says, throwing an arm over her shoulder, “Are you coming to eat with us?”

Jesse thinks for a moment before he shakes his head, “Still have to do some bookkeeping,” he shoots Noah a half-serious frown, “I’ll catch up with you at the show.” 

Noah gives him a curt nod, “I see how it is. You don’t want to hang out with us.” 

Their banter continues for a while longer, and Ted feels like an intruder in a private moment. Eventually, though, Noah steers them towards the door. She lets him walk her out of the store and back out onto the streets. 

They’ve been to this diner plenty of times before, usually when she picks him up from work or when Noah drags her out of the studio at what he claims to be a ludicrously late hour. It’s a nice little family run place with cobbled together decor and friendly faces behind the counter. In the bustle of the city, it feels like a small slice of home. 

The two of them find their usual booth by the window. And they’re barely seated when the waitress comes to take their orders. 

One pastrami sandwich, 

One cheeseburger - no tomatoes

Fries to share

One vanilla milkshake

One chocolate

The usual things. 

And it really dawns on her. The show is only a couple of hours away now. She still knows virtually nothing about the band. Noah has told her the name – Hollow – and that there’s three of them. Teddie has tried multiple times to get Noah to tell her more, but he’s always brushed her off with the same blasé answer. 

She won’t give in so easily now.

“You have to experience them on stage.” Noah offers. 

It’s the same unsatisfying answer as always. 

“This isn’t painting them in the best light, you know?”, Ted replies, tossing a fry into her mouth.

Noah shakes his head, “I just think that you need to meet them. What if what I tell you gives you a wrong impression?”

“These people are your friends, right?”

“That’s the problem!” Noah exclaims, “I want you to like them. And if I tell you that Nick is a grumpy asshole on occasion, it sounds as if she’s like that all the time. He’s just y’know. Matt has a fucked up sense of humour, but it’s just that. He’s actually a good guy. And you’ll like Jolly any way. I haven’t met anyone who doesn’t like him. He just is a little protective of the band sometimes.”

“See, that wasn’t so hard.” Noah throws a fry at her, “Matt is on drums, right?”

He nods, before he repeats the line-up of the band yet again. Ted feels a little more prepared for the evening. She’s still full of anxiety over it, but she doesn’t feel terrified of it any more. 

The walk from the diner to the bar where the show will be isn’t that long. Noah takes the time to tell her about how he and Nick met in the first place. He tells her about the time Nick had rushed into the record store almost two years ago, asking if there was a space for the band's very first demo. Not even to sell, just for people to take it. Noah had to call the number on the back of the tape three days later because they’d already run out of CDs. 

They turn a corner onto a different block. Ted spots the bar immediately. There’s a group of people gathered in front of it already, and even from the distance she can smell the cigarette smoke. As they get closer, the thumping noise starts to turn into music. The buzzing in her ears grows with every step they take. This crowd looks nothing like the people back home. There’s more tattooed skin on this stretch of road than she has ever seen at home. 

Noah wraps a hand around her bicep, stopping Ted dead in her tracks. 

“Some people in there look a little scary. They’re all great, though. Stick with me and you’ll be fine.” Noah says soft, “We’ll go straight to the dressing room.” 

Teddie only manages to give him a nod before he’s practically speeding them towards the entrance of the bar. As they pass people, various shades of hello are thrown towards Noah. Once again it feels as if everyone knows him and she still doesn’t understand how he manages to be so social.

As soon as they’ve trudged down the narrow stairs, a waft of what Teddie knows to be beer floods through her senses. The place reeks of it. Something sweet and bitter mingles in between it and the cigarette smoke. Teddie doesn’t know what it is, and she isn’t sure that she likes it. Her shoes stick to the concrete floor with every step. The conversations and music around them are almost overwhelming. She clings to Noah’s arm as if she’s a toddler trying not to lose her momma again.

The further they get into the bar, the more crowded the place seems to become. She wraps her other hand around the strap of her camera bag, although it’s far too crowded for whoever would try to grab it to get very far. 

Noah looks back at her and shakes his head, “Loosen up a little, everyone here is cool.” 

He steers her towards a door on the far end of the long, rectangular room. He knocks twice before shoving the door open just far enough for them to squeeze through. 

“Don’t let anyone give you shit. They’re great most of the time.” Noah says with a wink that makes her want to shove her fist into his gut. 

The room Ted finds herself in is just as cramped as the bar it’s attached to. It’s tiny and stuffed with furniture that seems to be third-hand at least. The same sweet-bitter smell fills her nose, and she has to bite back a cough. 

“Gentlemen,” Noah claps his hands, “Gentleman.” he corrects himself when he notices that only one person is in the room, “This is your photographer.” 

 He moves to stand behind her, holding her by the shoulders. 

The man on the sofa looks up at her. The grim look on his face makes her take a step back, making her bump against Noah’s chest. 

“I thought you said you had someone with experience and not one of your little friends.” he speaks with an accent she can’t quite place. 

“Ted knows what she’s doing.” Noah sounds actually upset this time, “It’s not like you can afford to be picky.” 

The man shakes his head, “You can explain this one to Nick. I’m not getting you out of this one.”

Teddie feels awfully out of place. There’s an uncomfortable sting in her chest. This almost rejection feels terrible, and it makes her want to head right back home. 

“You don’t have to get me out of anything at all.” 

Noah fixes him with that stubborn glare that she’s been subjected to a few times already. She observes the staring match for a moment longer, before she clears her throat. 

“Are you done?” Teddie finds herself asking, as if she has any kind of authority here, “I can go if you don’t want me here. But Noah made it sound as if you need someone, so make up your mind.” 

“I’m gonna go find Matt.” he mumbles then, before pushing past them and out into the main space of the bar. 

Ted assumes that this has to be Jolly – despite what Noah had told her about the guy. She tries to push this first interaction to the side for now. Tempers seem to be high tonight, and she’s willing to give him another chance. 

Noah slumps down on one of the sofas. Ted remains rooted to the ground for a moment longer. She doesn’t get to ask Noah what’s in the water today, as the moment she opens her mouth to ask, a door she hadn’t noticed yet creaks open. It stops at the halfway point. A quiet curse sounds from behind, before another stranger pushes into the room. He curses when one of the pins on his denim jacket gets catches on the door, and somewhat clumsily tries to force his arm through the door to release it. Ted notices the bag lodged in front of the door and rushes forward to move it out of the way. 

“Shit. Thanks.” his voice sounds a lot softer now. 

He’s all kind eyes, and it takes her a moment too long to tear her eyes away from him. 

“Noah!”

The way his face lights up when he spots the other man across her shoulder is truly delightful. Noah is up and next to them in no time. She isn’t sure who pulls who into a hug, but watching them embrace eases the ache in her chest just a little bit more. Ted feels as if she’s witnessing a long awaited reunion. She decides to take a step back, to give them a little bit of space. 

They part a moment later, still remaining fairly close to each other.

“Glad to see that you made it.” he holds Noah by the shoulders so that he can inspect, “New ink looks good. Who is your friend?” 

“This is Ted.” Noah takes a step back, “Ted, this is Nick.” 

He gives her a more conscious once over, stops here and there before he breaks into a small smile. 

“So you’re our photographer, huh?” she nods, “We’ll see if you’re as good as Noah made you sound.” 

It’s not malicious, more laced with curiosity and genuine interest. There’s a glint in his eye that Ted can’t place yet, but she has a feeling that he’s going to be trouble. She doesn’t know what it is about him, but she knows that it won’t end well. 

They talk for a while and Ted forces herself to push the thought that she is intruding away, so that she can actually do what she was asked to do. She manages to snap a couple of pictures of Nick and Noah catching up, before the door to the bar flies open yet again. 

“Dumb if you ask me.” who she assumes to be Matt says as he marches into the room. 

He pauses when he spots the two newcomers in the room and gives Noah a curt nod. But when he turns towards Ted his brows crinkle in confusion. 

“Who’s that? Groupie?” 

A sharp smack lands against his back. Noah lets out a half snorted laugh when he stumbles forward a little. 

“Did I not just tell you about her.” Jolly sounds genuinely exhausted with him, “Talk about dumb one more time.” 

There’s a little more catching up, before the band is informed that it’s almost time for them to go on. Ted takes a final moment to gather herself before she braves the bar again. Noah is hot on her heels when she steps outside the dingy excuse of a dressing room. 

“I’ll be at the bar with Jesse if you need me. You’ll be fine, watch out for the crowd surfers. I love you, make me proud.” he rattles on before he presses a slightly too wet kiss on her forehead. 

A second later he’s gone from her view. 

It’s not long before the lights dim down and the crowd roars with yells and applause. In the dim light, she can make out the shape of Jolly strumming a first tentative chord. And then she hears him. Teddie hadn’t thought about what his singing voice would be like. She gives herself a moment to adjust, take in the sights and sounds of this comparatively slow beginning. 

When she finally snaps out of her trance, Ted pulls her camera up to her face. She works her way up to the stage, capturing – or rather trying her best to – the band as they slip into their second song. Noah had told her that they’d just put out their first full album, but it still feels as if everyone in the room knows the words to the songs. Even though the guitars sound harsh at first, Ted quickly finds herself infected by the energy in the room. The almost shy demeanour Nick had exhibited earlier in the dressing room is nowhere to be found now. And in a way, she now understands what Noah meant when he said that she’d have to experience them like this. If all she had seen of Nick had been the boy in the dressing room, she never would have thought of him as the frontman of a band like this. But seeing him here, bathed in warm lights, she can’t imagine him anywhere else. He seems to be entirely lost in the music, dedicated to nothing but the sound and the roaring the crowd awards him with in return. 

They switch between songs so effortlessly, and the crowd eats every moment of it up. All the while, Ted tries to get as many angles as she can. She manages to make her way to the front of the stage eventually. She’ll have to find a way up somehow so that she can get Matt on some of the pictures as well. She finds herself right in front of Nick then. He has one foot propped up on the speaker in front of him as he belts the words into his microphone. He glances down at her just as she gets ready to take her picture. She snaps one of him looking directly into the camera. The look sears right through her. He has the audacity to shoot a wink at her way, but moves away too quickly for Ted to react in any kind of way. Instead, she stands dumbfounded for a moment. She shakes herself out of it and shoves her way through the crowd towards the side of the stage. Whatever that was can be dealt with later. She’s here to do a job. 

The show is over much quicker than she had thought, and by the end of it her ears are ringing and her blood buzzes with adrenaline. Teddie pushes her way through the crowd to find Noah and Jesse again. She finds them entirely engrossed in their conversation, leaning against the bar. 

Noah perks up as soon as he spots her, though. 

Ted tries her hardest to contain her excitement, but the words won’t stop bubbling from her mouth, much to the boys' amusement. 

Half an hour later, their group files into the still packed Bell Tower. Apparently, Nick works in the bar while the band is not on tour, and she’s sure that she heard him complain about Noah’s choice of bar when they rounded the corner. Hanging around Nick also awards them one of the better tables in the very back, where it’s not as loud and crowded any more. Ted lets herself drift in the noise for a while. Everything that had happened tonight is slowly flooding back into her mind, and she suddenly feels awfully overwhelmed. The ringing in her ears still hasn’t worn off and to make things even better, her head is starting to pound with the beginnings of a headache. She almost doesn’t notice Jolly sliding into the booth next to her. Only when he slides a glass of something in front of her does she look up at his face. 

“Drink.” he nods towards the glass, “Just water. You’re pale. Don’t need you passing out.” 

She feels herself nodding and empties most of the glass in one go. Jolly lets out a low chuckle next to her. 

“I was too harsh with you earlier. We have a lot riding on those pictures, you know? Noah’s right, we can’t afford to be picky, but we need this to work out.” he explains, “And him bringing an obvious newbie – no offence – didn’t make me very hopeful.” 

Ted suddenly feels even worse about it all, if Noah had told her how important this was for them, she would have told him to find someone with actual experience. 

“But I also know that Noah wouldn’t just show up with the next best person, so I’m going to assume that he knows what he was doing when he asked you.” 

Teddie takes another sip of her water. She’s not feeling as woozy any more, but this whole evening still feels a little like a dream. 

“I didn’t know how important this was for you –” 

Jolly shakes his head, “Noah could have told you. I assume he didn’t so that you wouldn’t pull out. Either way, we have to deal with it now. And if it makes you feel better, you looked professional enough.” 

“What d’you need the photos for anyway?” she asks finally. 

He takes a sip from his beer, “Contest from a magazine. Winner gets a spot on a festival bill over in Europe.” 

So just a small thing, Ted thinks to herself. 

Jolly must have noticed the wash of fear rushing over her face, as he places a warm hand on her shoulder, “If we win this, you’re coming with us. I hope you know that.” 

As if that’s supposed to make her feel better. 

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I know you’ve talked about other characters who act and their relationships with Diantha. Do you have any headcanons for Diantha’s potential relationships with any other characters in the entertainment/art world that aren’t actors? Characters like Elesa, Nessa, Roxie, etc. (These are just examples you don’t have to share thoughts for these specific characters if you don’t have any.)

Firstly, I am so so so sorry for making you wait so damn long. Thank you VERY much for the ask, and additionally thank you VERY much for your patience.

I'll go through a few that I can think of. Im gonna skip the ones ive already spoken about to some extent in the past, such as Brycen, Viola and Alexa, and Malva. everything going under the cut bc it got Long

Fantina: I would love to see this interaction. Fantina would be SUCH a big fan. again, i see this being some diva worship on fantina's part. diantha is used to it and is courteous, and fantina is overjoyed that diantha can handle her enthusiasm and eccentricity and not get overwhelmed. there is so much they can bond over. dancing. contest performance. queerness. their respective ghost types. nevertheless, i dont see diantha really going much deeper than "interacting with a fan." she does however immediately clock that that french accent is fake and. its like nails on a chalkboard to her. fantina artfully sidesteps any questions about her true origins.

Argenta: argenta is a fashion designer right. i dont really see them having interacted much in person. i wonder if frontier brains would go to league conferences despite not being formally a part of a league. i do think perhaps diantha would have commissioned her on one or two occasions. and there are some stellar photoshoots shes done showcasing some of argenta's work. i havent mulled argenta around in my head enough to have a feel for her character so im not sure how they would interact.

Elesa: i can see them getting along great. in my head, i have this entirely self indulgent scenario that i enjoy where i feel that elesa, diantha, marley, and cheryl would get along SO well and tbh i just want them to all have a fun lil Girls Night together. apart from me being entirely biased about each of these characters, i just think theyd all vibe together really well. ghhh tbh i wanna expand more on these four characters spending time togehter at some point. again, elesa probably is a big fan of diantha's and sees her as a role model, and i can see a hypothetical situation where diantha would be able to tell elesa in person that she finds elesa to be extremely inspiring and LOVES the way she sparkles (why tf are both of these characters so weird about shining and sparkling. whatever. gay shit) and i think that would take elesa right the fuck out.

Roxie: twerp. diantha tries to exercise patience bc they are technically coworkers and also roxie is beloved by a couple of people that diantha cares very much for. but roxie pushes her buttons. in fact, roxie jabs at her buttons. roxie is irritating as all hell. i think i mentioned it once before that i think roxie would push diantha to a breaking point and diantha would snap at her. roxie would get to learn first hand just how scathing diantha can be, i think. roxie's music isnt diantha's first choice to listen to but i think she would recognize skill for what it is.

Burgh: let me be biased. this is so self indulgent for me. they would get along sooooooooooo well. so so so well. they would never get to see each other but they would be the kind of people where when they do get to see each other like at conferences and stuff, they immediately make plans for lunch and yuck it up together like they get to see each other all the time. oh id love to expand on this more sometime. this makes my heart so happy.

Shauntal: diantha has probably read some of shauntal's stuff and not even realized it was her's. shauntal probably thinks diantha is intimidating to some degree, id think. very nice, but intimidating. loves diantha's gourgeist probably

Siebold: ok, maybe this feels like a bit of a shoehorn, but for whatever reason i see siebold being like. an anthony bourdaine-adjascent celebrity chef. i dont super see him being terribly fixated with being on camera, but enjoying traveling all over to enjoy what other places have to offer and trying to educate and expand people's understanding of food from around the world and also being very outspoken on his thoughts on humanity in general. he and diantha vibe so well. im definitely ganking this from fics ive read but they may as well be besties.

im gonna have to cut it here bc my brain has reached its limit for now, im so sorry, but there are other characters i want to talk about too and i will make a separate post for them later

[drtyelvisfantasy]

Pink Cadillac ౨ৎ

Parings: austin!elvis x reader

*50s austin!elvis

Summary: Elvis invited you to his house for a joyful ride around town in his Pink Cadillac, where the two of you enjoy each other’s presence

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It was a sunny day in Memphis, Tennessee, and you found yourself standing in front of Graceland, the iconic home of the legendary Elvis Presley. Elvis had met you at Club Handy one night on Beale Street, that night he ended up inviting you to his house the next day. Little did you know that this visit would turn into an unforgettable day.

As you entered the gates, you couldn't help but feel a sense of awe and reverence. Graceland was even more magnificent up close. When you arrived Elvis was waiting for you on his front porch. “Hi there darlin’, how are ya?”, Elvis greeted you. Elvis took your hand gently in his and led you inside his house, you were in awe of how big Graceland was and how many rooms there were. Elvis gave you a tour of his house, he showed you his kitchen, his TV room, and the jungle room.

“And here is where I spend most of my time”, Elvis said in his southern drawl. “Wow this is beautiful”, you said in awe. You and Elvis decided to sit and relax in the living room for a little bit and chat. Elvis and you were taking about each others childhoods and interest, and what dreams you would want to accomplish.

After the tour and a small chat, you decided to explore the grounds a bit more on your own. As you wandered around, you stumbled upon the famous pink Cadillac parked near the front entrance. It was a beauty, and you couldn't resist taking a closer look. Just as you were admiring the car, the front door of his house swung opened and there stood Elvis.

“There you are, satnin', I was looking for ya" Elvis greeted you with a charming smile. “Oh hi, I didn’t see you there”, you said with a small laugh. "I see you couldn't help your fascination with my ride. Fancy a cruise around town?"

You blinked, unsure if you were dreaming or if this was really happening. "Really?" you managed to stammer.

Elvis chuckled, slipping into his flirty personality effortlessly. "Well, darlin', what kind of man would I be if I didn’t give a beautiful girl like you a ride around town. And you, my dear, are my special guest."

Heat rushed up to you cheeks causing you to blush as your heart raced with excitement as you climbed into the passenger seat. The Cadillac's engine roared to life, and you set off on a ride around town with the one and only Elvis Presley.

As the pink Cadillac glided through the streets, Elvis serenaded you with his golden voice. You couldn't believe your luck. The wind tousled your hair as you sang along, feeling like the luckiest girl in the world.

As the ride continued, Elvis shared more stories about his life, his music, and his fans. You listened intently, hanging onto his every word. His passion for music was contagious, and you found yourself falling even more in love with him.

Hours flew by, and you eventually found yourselves parked near the Mississippi River, watching the sun set over the water. Elvis turned to you, his eyes filled with genuine warmth and love.

After a couple more hours near the Mississippi River, the sky got dark indicating that it was time to head home. You and Elvis hoped back in the pink Cadillac heading home, Elvis decided it would be a good idea to drop you back off to your house.

As you arrived at your house, Elvis walked you to your front door. "You know, darlin', this has been a nice day. Thank you for spending it with me and keeping me company."

Touched by his words, you smiled. "No, thank you, Elvis. This has been a dream come true. I'll cherish this day forever."

Elvis leaned in closer, as his face is getting close to yours, Elvis pressed his soft pink lip’s against yours. After the passionate kiss the two of you shared, Elvis then looks at you with his voice softening, "I’d love to do this again sometime, darlin', maybe a date?.” You were stunned that one of the most famous singers in the world asked you out on a date and kissed you!. “Of course Elvis, I’d love that!”, you said with excitement.

With a final, heartfelt goodbye, you watch Elvis as he steps into the pink Cadillac, watching as he blew you a kiss and drove away into the night. As you stood there, knowing your life had been forever changed, you couldn't help but feel so giddy and excited. You knew that you were definitely going to dream about him tonight.

[ketastore]

poly flower and ruby and you

gender neutral, 2nd pov

headcanons

i love these two lesbians

✩

- oh my god they love you SO MUCH!!

- these two girls love spending every damn minute of their time with you. they both have very creative hobbies and they would be so happy if you could join them!!

- ruby and flower are into cute and girly things. fashion, glitter, flowers... they love to look pretty and often do tiny makeovers for each other. you're not into such preppy stuff? too bad bro. get ready for HOURS of shopping, with ruby and flower putting you into cute outfits and rating how good they look on you. they love dolling you up

- flower definitely made you three AT LEAST a dozen of matching sweaters (each suited for a different occasion, duh!!)

- very very supportive and protective of you. they're your number one fans!!! they both have very unique ways of hyping you up too. ruby relies on small gestures that ease any nervousness or anxieties you might have, like holding your hand or gently reassuring you. flower on the other hand is very aggressive (in the best way possible ofc) she literally just grabs you by the shoulders, shakes you and yells how much she loves you and how you're the best, coolest, smartest, prettiest, etc hehehe

- also yes they stand ZERO hate against u. someone talking behind your back, bullying you or otherwise making your life miserable? your girlies have no mercy. either ruby beats them up or flower spreads some nasty career-ruining rumours about them

- these two love to gossip. nothing bad of course, that'd be below their level. but sometimes you are quite impressed by the amount of knowledge your GFs have on a random person you barely know lol... and of course they love to share all the recent tea with you >:) also don't worry if you have no idea what they're talking about, i don't know either!

- flower and ruby are very confident and don't feel any shame for whatever they do! be it how they present themselves, their hobbies, their style, their love for you, anything really! they're both quite loud, literally and metaphorically. if you don't have this attitude yet, they will definitely try and pass it onto you somehow. it's totally fine if you're more of a reserved person of course, they just don't want you to have any self doubt or low confidence :( you're literally the most amazing person in their eyes!

- they both flaunt you a lot in public. they love talking about you with others and always say the nicest of things. they're just so proud of you!! ruby and flower get so happy when all three of you go outside, holding hands and being all lovey dovey. they're like yes!!! everyone look at my awesome partners!!! they're the best!!!

- lots of PDA. nothing crazy or sappy, just some small kisses, hand holding, affectionate words... they won't do anything if you tell them to, of course (they would be SO sad if they ever made you uncomfortable! >_<) they just enjoy showing everyone how much you mean to them!!

- depends on whether or not you're a fan of physical contact in general, but after a long day of looking slay and pretty the girls just love to cuddle until they fall asleep. if you're up for it, they will totally invite you into their cuddle pile! it doesn't matter what position you prefer, it changes pretty much every night since none of you can sit still for too long

- because you guys sleep on one king sized bed, lots of shenanigans happen during the night. you might fall asleep sandwiched between the two, dozing off and feeling all nice and cozy... but then then you wake up hours later, cold and on the other side of the bed. flower is now sleeping on the floor (probably got kicked out) and ruby is hoarding all the blankets for herself. sometimes the roles switch though..

- ALSO, obviously, just one bed isn't always big enough for three people, that's why you guys sometimes make huge blanket forts that end in brutal pillow fights (flower usually wins, she's vicious)

- lots and i mean lots of gifts between you three. ruby and flower both like those simple homemade ones, as long as there's a good meaning behind them. and yes flower gives you sweaters all the time, what else did you expect?? ruby on the other hand likes giving you small trinkets that she's found :D

- overall your relationship is very cute and girly and spontaneous!! the girls have a lot of energy, so i feel like in a way it's ideal for them to have more than just one romantic partner y'know? :O

- it depends on what your personality is like, but you can either balance their chaotic energy with your calm composure OR you can further magnify it and thrive in this girly madness with them... it's all up to you!

- just know that you will never have a boring day in your life with these two girlies by your side >:)

[ivanajpeg]

ODESTA WEEK (DAY 4 THROWBACK)

Where Finnick helps Annie collecting seashells (After Finnick's games/ before Annie's games)

Note 1: this was mostly inspired in the AO3 fanfic "where soul meets body" where it says that Annie before her games used to sell jewelry made of seashells

Note 2: English is not my first language, I swear I'm trying my best

Hope you enjoy it <3

After his games, Finnick didn't had true friends. The only person that was there for him was Annie.

They met before Finnick's games. It was when their families ran to each others on a fishing point. Finnick saw that Annie was struggling with fishing, so he decided to help her. from that day on they became good friends.

Annie was a bit shy at first, the normal thing when you meet someone new but as time when on she was more confident arround him.

Annie wasn't a fan of fishing, so she diced to make jewelry with different types of seashells, ropes for nets and all kinds of sea stuff, even fishing gear.

Finnick thought that was relaxing. Sometimes he would be next to her while she was working. His favorite part was collecting things with her, it was a perfect excuse to spend more time with her.

Also in his free times he would collect thing by himself that she could use. Almost everytime he would sell them with her. It wasn´t a secret that whe Finnick was there, she would sell more, just because there was "Finnick Odair". Finnick would always tell her how talented she was and that the whole world should see her art.

At the moment, Finnick was walking by the shore. Annie was still on school, because he was a victor, he didn't had to go to school anymore. During his walk he found a shell really big and pretty, he placed it in a special place to keep it safe, he knew Annie would love it. Together they had found a special and secluded place on the beach, they would spend their afternoons talking and enjoying their company.

Finnick was there first, obviously. The day was beautiful and he was really exited. Mags had prepared for them some pastries, he would always talk about her, and he always dreamed of taking Annie with him to meet her.

Shortly after, Annie arrived.

"Finn! Hi!" she said excitedly

"Annie! you're here! I have some things for you"

"Really? For me?" she said even more excited

"Just for you" he pulled out the shell and gave it to her

"Wow! Finn... thank you, you didn't had to"

"Is my way of thanking you" he said with a smile "besides, Mags knew I was coming so... she baked us this" he pulled out the pastries.

"They look so good! I got hungry by just looking at them" she looked at them "Mags must be really nice and she must love you a lot"

"She's been like a mother to me since... well, you know. One day I'll take you home for dinner, she also wants to know the pretty girl i always talk about"

"I'll be honored" she laid her head on his shoulder.

Finnick laid his head over Annie's, he would give anything to stay in this moment forever.

"Finn... I brought something for you too" she started looking through her things "I hope you like it, I worked really hard on it"

Annie pulled out of her bag a very beautiful necklace. it was made of different stones, ropes, and complicated knots, it aslo had really pretty shells.

"Annie... this is..." it left her speechless. he was used to receive expensive, fancy and superficial jewelry from capitol people, but no one compared to this. Just knowing that Annie made him especially for him, that no one else would had anything like it made him feel special and loved "thank you... really. no one has ever give me something this special"

"Don't thank me. You've been the best friend ever and I really wanted to make something special to you, you deserve it" she said smiling.

"I swear I'm never taking it off, this is gonna be a way to have you always with me, no matter where I am" he smiled back "I think... I think I love you, Annie"

"I think I love you too, Finn"

Finnick didn't broke his promise until the day he died, he never took it off. In that moment he realized that Annie had stolen his heart completely.

[dedskum]

i’m hereeeee!! hi love <3

🧨 DYNAMITE - a random angsty headcanon.

❤️‍🔥 FLAMING HEART - what are their turn-ons / turn-offs?

💙 BLUE HEART - what is / are their love language(s)?

🪞 MIRROR - do they like the person that they are? do they have any regrets?

🎂 BIRTHDAY CAKE - when is their birthday? do they like to celebrate it?

these are for both seid and leone please :33

hurray nene! hi baby <3 let’s see

🧨 DYNAMITE

seid is a very quiet and lowkey person, he doesn’t get upset very easily at all— nor does he like conflict, he’ll just go quiet on you. no argument or nothing but at the very least somewhat of a heated debate, no raising of voice involved at all. on his part at least, but best believe if you get a little too loud with him he’ll ask you to lower your tone, in that deep rhythmic voice he got.

leone is the type of girl who thinks she knows everything, she’s stubborn as fuck and she’ll tell you something like it’s a fact. will sound so sure of herself you’d think she knows what she’s talking about. of course she’s not always wrong, she’s smart like that. although there was this one time where she was just talking shit and was kissed to shut her up. she kinda liked it.

❤️‍🔥 FLAMING HEART

seid is a fan of anything sensually inclined.. such as slow kisses, on the lips, on his neck, without tongue, with it (preferred). he likes to take his time when it comes to sex, foreplay is his favorite part. he also reaally likes body worship, having photographic memory makes it twice as fun. enjoys making a mess too. turnoffs for him is anything that’s rushed into.

leoné is a pleaser. she loves to please and be pleased in return, like a reward. a big turn on for her is watching as someone goes down on her.. disappearing between the gap of her thighs, she really likes being choked too and kissed after. turnoffs for her …? n/a. she’ll try anything once, and there’s much to discover.

💙 BLUE HEART

like i said seid is very quiet, therefore he’s always shown love through ways that don’t require a lot of talking. a big one for him is gift giving, will just paint you something or buy you something random that reminded him of you. funnily enough, he’s good with words due to his creative nature. his mom has a box full of birthday and mother’s day cards engraved with poetry from her youngest son.

leoné has a look. she’s shy in certain aspects of things, especially when it comes to her true feelings. but eyes don’t lie. she’ll look at you with a glimmer in those big brown eyes and you just know. i think that’s a love language in itself, you just gotta pay attention.

🪞MIRROR

seid has never disliked himself. he hates the things he does sometimes. but for the most part he finds comfort in who he is, and what he believes in. but sometimes, he finds himself sometimes regretting not speaking up when he should’ve. or reaching out.

leoné likes herself but she thinks she could like herself a little more. she’s confident about a lot of things, she knows when she looks good. she’s comfortable. her regrets….? so many.

🎂BIRTHDAY CAKE

seid was born on august 24th, 2001 (virgo). he enjoys spending his birthday with his family, doing the whole cake, candles and song. he’s not a big party person.

leoné was born on nov 06th, 2003 (scorpio). on her birthday she likes to ride around the city to different restaurants and get her little freebies, treat herself to nice things whether that be with friends or just by her own.

[spookfished]

kades big media roundup (august)

hiii! like i said in my last post i spent a big portion of august being sick :| which involved spending like a Lot of the time sitting around playing pikmin 4, going "oh i think im thinking so hard about pikmin that its making me more tired?" and then playing more pikmin anyways. i 100%d this game guys it was so serious

books/comics/written media: paladins strength by ursula vernon: this is part of the saints of iron series, but i dont think context from the other books is really needed! romantasy/murder mystery about a nun and a paladin travelling together to the city by chance… they both have their own agendas but something draws them together 0///0 i found this really fun!! may have too much blood and guts for a pure romance fan but its very sort of pragmatic and down to earth in that ursula vernon way. nice dynamic between the leads, had a delightfully creepy (and sad!) antagonist and wrapped up threads from the previous book very nicely. would recommend 👍

in other words by jhumpa lahiri: semi autobiographical literary fiction about a (pulitzer winning) author who decides to move to italy and start writing exclusively in italian. (its translated!) hmmm as someone who also really loves languages but also doesnt really have the resources or desire to do something like. move to a different country (i mean maybe!) and only speak and write in that language from now on (probably not), it was a really interesting perspective. i was sort of put off by her attitude towards bengali but the whole "triangle of languages" theory makes sense… the writer is very straightforward and honest feeling in a way thats almost irritating sometimes but i think thats how a lot of artists are. and the concept alone is still very interesting.. lol anyways its a very short read so id still recommend 👍

the twisted ones by ursula vernon: horror. a woman is tasked with cleaning out her late hoarder grandmothers' house, located in rural north carolina. this was ursula vernons first horror book, i think! i was a little disappointed bc this wasnt very scary, exactly--but i feel like ive also been learning that even if i startle easily, my horror threshhold is actually very high……? i ended up liking what moves the dead more (it was scarier!) but this still had a fun cast of characters. still worth a read though :3 i enjoyed it

dungeon meshi by ryoko kui(catchup): manga about a group of adventurers looking for their lost friend. stuck in the dungeon for months on end, they resort to eating monsters! ohhhhh my god drags down myface dungeon meshi is literally one of the best manga out there and im glad everyone recognizes this. its about desire and need and the way unfulfilled desires is what propels our lives forward and gives them meaning and also how its SUPER IMPORTANT TO GET 3 NUTRITIOUS MEALS AND SLEEP 8 HOURS and all that. lol. phenomenal art i cant help but think that ryoko kui draws women as only a lesbian can..? highly recommend 👍

witch hat atelier by kamome shirahama(catchup): coming of age/fantasy manga--a girl discovers the secret behind the magic that powers her world. she's determined to use it to save her mother, but it may bring a heavy price--or maybe not at all…? like vita nostra (which i read last month!), this is also a book about learning magic that focuses heavily on pedagogy itself (which in this case is also a direct parallel to learning about art/drawing!). however, unlike vita nostra the characters are more like 10-11, and so it also takes a much more gentle and compassionate approach to how we should learn. but it also tackles some really interesting themes about restriction of information, and if said info should be restricted and why! and sort of digging deeper into the idea of "a secret hidden from the normal world". the art is soooo gorgeous i think its all done by hand? looks like a picture book can honestly get a bit overwhelming. highly recommend 👍

bloom into you: f/f manga about a girl who has never fallen in love, and a girl who never wants to be loved. bloom into you is one of those Yuri Classics that i enjoyed a lot as someone who has complicated feelings about romance :3 theres that really interesting quote thats like "love isnt about wanting someone to change or stay the same. when i say 'i love you,' its an expression of faith that even as you change, youll always be the person i adore"….. very interesting! also the sort of idea that you cant 'no true scotsman' love--you can just decide that you love someone, and then you do? kind of? anyways i thought it was pretty interesting :3

beastars: coming of age manga, set in a world kinda like zootopia but if someone thought about it way more. legosi, a large grey wolf struggles with distinguishing between his carnal desires and his, uh, carnivorous desires. ok EYE really liked it but also i think it handles a lot of themes really weirdly… maybe this is because legosi is just really fucking weird (this is definitely part of it) but in many ways beastars portrays the split between men and women as being even more uncrossable than the split between herbivores and carnivores.. which to me was surprising since the manga itself is written by a woman? definitely look up a TW list if youre planning on reading lol. it definitely has some of the best "what if animals lol" worldbuilding out there. i had louis/legosi/haru ot3 in my heart the whole way through LOL but i, uh, dont really think legosi and haru work as a couple just by themselves .. also the gaybait in here is crazy. i think past the midway or maybe 3/4 point it kinda starts to lose focus, but it still had a lot of compelling drama. yayyy louis beastars i think more theater kids should go through unbelievable self-inflicted pain

beast complex: anthology about the surrounding stories of the ppl of beastars. SO fun many people agree that the best part of beastars was the worldbuilding and this was basically all that. very fun :3

surviving romance: horror/adventure? chaerin wants nothing more than to live her fated fairy-tale life--so much so that people other than her love interest appear as nothing more than extras. one day ZOMBIES ATTACK!!!!11! very fun :33 maybe this is just me but is meta stuff getting more popular because of orv…? its not doing it as well ngl but still entertaining. chaerin trying to gain the trust of ppl that she originally didnt gaf about is fun

video games: pikmin 4: pikmin 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its a game about being 1 inch tall and controlling your hordes of small creatures (pikmin) to gather things like fruits. i think i bought this when i was sick because i saw a post that was like "pikmin cured my executive function" lol everyone who plays pikmin doesnt fucking shut up about what an indie gem it is but theyre kinda right………pikmin is really good…. its all about finding beauty and joy in the small intricacies of this wide world……i know some people were annoyed by the story parts but i thought it was cute idk :] and oatchi was there . recommend if you like games like starcraft or if you like watching ants carry around a giant caterpillar

movies: farewell my concubine: coming of age/literary/tragedy/historical/??? its a wong kar wai movie. dieyi has nothing in his life but the stage, where he plays as the faithful concubine to a doomed king. his life offstage is much more fraught. i would dearly love to read any articles or things about this movie so if you got anything come find me? ALSO if you have the forbidden cancelled broadway adaption script please let me know. im so curious. ok so its a wong kar wai movie so everyone knows its crazy good already. did watch it when i was sick so not super coherent ideas about it but its like omggggg dieyiii hes so doomed. the way it integrated with history was also interesting (i kinda cant believe someone made a rakugo-based adaptaiton of this. bro it doesnt WORK like that) its really interesting that like dieyis single point of friction between himself and consort yu is his gender.. but that constant emasculation is also what allows him to be so unique in theater and have a special bond w xiaolou.. man well it really was a movie. i want to see it again in a couple months maybe..? its about performance and gender and Performance of Gender and sexuality and cyclical violence and art during a time of strife and art as apolitical and also art as very political. and also a lot of other stuff. very awesome

we are the tigers: thriller musical about a terrible group of cheerleaders coming together for the first meeting of the year. and bad shit happens!!! omg i love girls who kill. and girls who kill each other i dont think this was particularly deep or anything but i enjoyed it :3

nope: horror movie about oj and em, two siblings struggling to keep their stunt horse business running after their father dies. ok well like above its a jordan peele movie so of course its very good. scary as well! i loved the themes… i went back to when ppl were talkingabout the movie to see what people said! ngl i kinda thought jupe was going to have a bigger part in the movie but he was cool as he was. idk it was just very enjoyable and had a lot of things to think about. the idea of spectacle and like.. tragedy-voyeurism are something thats really important to examine closely in times like these i think?

when harry met sally: ROMCOM YAYY about a man and a woman meeting each other across multiple periods of their life. literally one of the only romcoms i can remember my dad openly admit to liking it really deserves the hype. its so heartfelt and sweet and genuinely funny and the character development is so good. its like gay people for straight people

how to lose a man in 10 days: romcom about a guy who thinks he can make any girl fall in love vs a girl who is trying to give the worst dating experience possible. um well it was ok? i only really felt the chemistry between the main leads in a couple of scenes (like when she visits his home) it wasnt really funny or romantic enough..? especially given that most of the humor was predicated on LOL LOOK HOW SHITTY AND CONTROLLING GFS CAN BE which is like ok fine. whatever. idk it was ok

annihilation: horror about a group of scientists who go into a unsettling area to see whats wrong with it.. um well i read the book first and i had heard that this was a pretty good adaptation ? a la howls moving castle book vs movie. i thought it was pretty good? but WAY more focused on the horror stuff than the book, and also (bc its a movie) not really able to focus on the characters interiorities as much..? and also like the way the characters slowly lose it in weird ways and their dynamic frays was one of the cooler parts of annihilation (book) to me. i think at the time having queer characters and characters of color and a cast comprised almost entirely of women was a pretty big deal though i think i heard a lot about it on tumblr lol. its hard not to nitpick on lots of details but i thought it was pretty good overall! a lot of the differences that i didnt like that much made sense as a migration from book->movie--like for example if theyd made the mc as cold and unfeeling it would have been harder to have her be a sympathetic movie protagonist. i thought the infidelity plot w the professor was kind of a timewaster though . anyways still recommend 👍

blue beetle: action movie about a guy whos blue and a beetle. i liked this a surprising amount but i also saw it with friends. the first half of the movie is kinda better than the first also being a tokusatsu fan makes me go "wow this would be so much better if it was with suit actors" lol but the first half of the movie was sooo fun i think also had a really good depiction of a genttrifying city which i enjoyed

oppenheimer: historical drama about that one guy. copy pasting my thoughts from discord: even my dad who liked the movie more was like wow… this movie was kinda too long idk i think it was like technically cool in terms of like imagery and sound and actgin and stuff. but i like wasnt really moved LOL. christopher nolan is playing a little game where i have to recognize as many white men in sequence as possible and im going to be real i can manage maybe like 3? also the whole outer shell plot with strauss and misha collins (EDIT: it was not misha collins) who literally unironically said "youre the god of shadows now" (????) was like. um well this is really intricate but also i dont really care…? like am i supposed to have a stake in this…..? and sort of the intertwining of that story combined w the creation of the atomic bomb was like kinda so-so (my inability to tell faces didnt help w this) it was fine but not really my kind of movie. omg i did like the part with like all the thundering applause and stuff but it blows up there was this part where they kept on being like omg the X incident. all this stuff happened with X and i was like wow what is it….. turns out it was literally referring to a recurring character that i neither remembered nor could recognize. sad

us: horror movie about doubles. YESSS SO FUCKING SCARY i watched this on the airplane to school and the old lady sitting next to me had to watch me hyperventilating and clutching my chest and the whole nine yards. definitely the scariest jordan peele movie. man and the twist at the end was so freaking good. i think its the scariest because the danger is so there, and so immediate, but the beginning part of the movie actually succeeded (for me?) in getting you to be invested in the characters as well. i was wondering if maybe the doubles were also supposed to be connected to like ideas of caricature about black people..? it leaves just enough unanswered that youre still scared. and the questions that do get answered leave you with………THE HORRIFYING TRUTH!! god what a good movie

moonlight: coming of age about a boy who struggles with being black and gay during the crack epidemic of the 80s/90s. < sorry if this isnt a good summary i remember this was a pretty important film when it came out.. i watched part of it a couple years ago and then just remembered to finish this month. its a good movie… you kinda just sit with it yk. hm i (obviously?) dont have a lot of experience with black masculinity but i thought it was interesting how vulnerability can be like taken away from you or you can withhold it from yourself..and that can feel or even be really powerful! but its also like never too late to do that until youre dead. waves my hands around

thanks if you got to the end of this :3 stg ive had like 5 books on loan that ive had on loan for several months by now? idk if ill be able to get to them now (its the beginning of the school year..) but hopefully. i will do that soon. me n neil are sort of planning to get into "film bro movies" were watching the shining soon im very excited. see you later!

[thatautisticlesbian]

rant about everything

I love my girlfriends i cant wait till i move down to their state. but i am really going to miss my irl friends, spend 24 hours with 2 of them split across the weekend in 12 hour chunks 2 of my other friends were there for one 12 hour chunk too. lot of card games mostly grand archive tcg drafting. i need to go to bed but like i could just watch youtube and porn till morning and just not sleep. not the worst idea i do like my mid-day naps. my play some balatro or mtg had a really good game a bit ago. Love playing my imoti deck on arena cause like all ramp and big guys is so good, like what is good deck building and removal and shit nah boss, just cheat out ulamog and win or anything else sometimes you dont even need a wincon drawing 15 and having 100 damage on board is enough for most people to scoop but like thats not fun let me take my extra turn. also listening to a mix of slut emo and faggot music. why did life have to get good as the world is ending? like i barely got a chance to live before we started to die. being to young and shit for the era of fucking around and being an adult at the start of the finding out era is a bitch and a half like god damn but that depressing. my chest hurts. i should stretch. god damn are my girlfriends the most cute and perfect girls in the world i love them so much so very much. I want to kiss each and every one of them and have a wholelife time to devote to each of them so i can be the very best i can be for them. I love this song heavy metal is so fun sometimes like realizing you can understand what the twink is saying is fun. and god damn is the twink cute. i really need to get this job im going for lol starting to rack up a debt already owe 85 bucks to a friend for covering a few things, like i have cash but only like 300 bucks that isnt savings and i really hate having debt especially with friends. i want my girls here with me to convince me to go to bed and cuddle up all nice and close with them and just hold whoever is warmest close to me, in my arms forever. i just love them so much. im suprised with how few typos i am having that, normally when im dumb tired i make a few billion typos but like grammar yes and using commas like periods yeah, but hey. i think i will go to bed soon i dont care enough to keep my eyes open much longer. that's what my whole life is i dont have the willpower to do x or i dont have the means, but i guess that is just about all of us aint it. I need to watch like a million things and read a couple books. i love how i can just type like this on here, like i enjoy bluesky but it has the bullshit word limit which i hate so much that twitter has too. like there is no good reason for it i have never heard a good word towards it or anything. but here i can rant forever but a cut at the top and call it good and like tagging is so amazing when used right. i dont trust people who capitalize i when used as like i do. like do you dont value your time my love. idk i dont even know where my fingers would go to do that and rather be shoot then figure it out. my tongue feels weird no clue why i love how my body does hey we doing this now but jokes on you dumbass we aint telling you why. I used to hate the words aint and yall when i was 7 boils down to not liking my cosins who lived in the south and used those words but fuck that weird ass shit not really a fan of those kids still but like the words are hella useful and its a silly reason to strip words out of my lexicon i will whatever i want thank you very much speaking in a way to make myself understood is useful but also like aint nobody care. ok i'm gonna say goodnight to the pookies and my girls, then stretch then eep. I'm an eepy little princess. goodnight to the zero people who got this far.

[daffodiels]

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Name: Clementine Doth

Nickname: Amy

Age: 22

Zodiac: Gemini

MBTI: ISFP

Love Language: Words of Affection, Quality Time

Daily Language: Indonesia, I speak English a little, and a full time Javanese speaker.

Hello there, sweet soul! How's your day doing? Meet me, Amy. Or maybe you can call me by anything you want as long it is nice. A little about me, just like my name, Clementine that represent orange. I have a fun and sweet personality. Maybe a little sour and bitter just for the taste. I believe that my existence is a mission to bring cheer and smile. No frowny, sad faces around me. Those feelings are valid, but lets turn the moods to something better! You have me when the days dont happen well. I'm all yours. Eyes, ears, you have all my attention to make you feel better.

I do talk a lot, I'm a certified yapper. I have lot of things to talk so you won't be bored when you spend your time with me. I like to know new things to fill my curiousity. Trying new experiences is my hobby. I adore rom-com and scifi movies, FYI. I also watch some horror movies but I dont really enjoy gore-thingy. That is why sometime I cant survive Indonesian horror.

Oh, one thing that I really enjoy is having fun. Sometimes it can be the polite-fun, or a little mischievous. If there is fun mentioned, you will definitely find me there.

Eventho, I am talking much but when it comes to love, I became a coward. Not like losing the ability to speak kinda coward. More like, in the name of love, I kneel down kinda coward. I adore you as much as I adore the beauty of the universe. You are my universe. There is nothing I will not do to make you feel my love. I have my eyes only for you. You dont have to worry about anything. You are with me so you are safe.

So, please, will you let me love you?

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Hal yang Menarik Perhatian Sang Bunga

Musik: KPOP; a big fan of GFriend and IVE, Eaj, Reality Club, Wasia Project, Elephant Kind, 92914, Sunset Rollercoaster, Conan Gray and many more.

Film: The Hunger Game, Harry Potter, Beautiful Creatures, Guardian of The Galaxy, 5CM, Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck, Sherman and Mr. Peabody.

Series: How I Met Your Mother, Twenty Five Twenty One, Gilmore Girls, Glee, Our Beloved Summer, Twinkling Watermelon, The Summer I Turned Pretty, One Piece, Bridgerton.

Buku: Supernova (Dee Lestari), Ayah (Andrea Hirata), White Wedding (Ziggy Z.), The Full Moon Coffee Shop (Mai Mochizuki).

[littlegirltacos]

New Groups, Old Groups: They’re All the Same

And before anyone comes after me (not like anyone would on here, Tumblr seems to be one of the safest places for people to just kinda speak their mind without any repercussions), I mean this in a good way.

With the debut of Zerobaseone in the midst of all these current groups having their comebacks, I’ve noticed a lot of unnecessary hate going towards the group. Which, in my opinion, unless it’s an actual issue that directly involves a member of a group, criticism and hateful feelings should not be blasted on social media. The fact that they’re breaking records as a newly debuted group, are reaching audiences other groups have not been able to, etc, that doesn’t give anyone the right to badmouth them just because they’re doing a bit better than someone’s favorite group.

Just like any idol out there, these guys have gone through hell and back to debut and to make their dreams come true. 99% of the time, these people are actually in this industry because they genuinely enjoy what they do, which is performing. As someone who had dreamed of being a performer, whether it be through dance or singing, and not being able to make it in my home country cuz I wasn’t the right skin color, nor did I have a sob story to share to the world, I feel for these guys (and girls, I’m just focusing more on the hate that I’m seeing on the twitter timeline currently). We all know how brutal this industry is cuz it’s not just talent for them either, it’s whether they know you can sell or if you look good and fit into their standard of beauty. They all get their taste of hate from people who feel like they shouldn’t have debuted and what not.

I don’t understand why so many people have so much hate to spew out at these people who they don’t even know. Sure, I don’t know them either, but, like I said, I’m someone who can empathize with how they must feel. These people are clearly talented and have the ability to make it big. To be honest, they’re all very well-rounded performers and it blows my mind how talented they are and can be. This also goes for current groups as well. But to blame groups for being nominated for things, their fans for buying a certain number of albums, etc, that’s all out of these members’ control. Blame the company they’re under, blame the fans for spending their money on all these albums (honestly, you can’t even do that cuz every fandom has done that, and most of the time, it’s just to get a higher chance of getting a photocard, not even really for pure sales). The marketing behind all that is beyond what the group has control over.

This really can go for any group, too. I see this every time one of my favorite groups has a comeback. Of course they’ll be going at the same time as some other groups and of course there will always be a competition for music shows, and ultimately award shows at the end/beginning of the year. It makes sense. But to put the blame on the group is something I will never understand. They don’t control how many streams they get, how many people buy their albums, watch their MVs or fancams. That’s all the fans doing. And the push behind all that? The company! You think the group has a say in this stuff? More likely than not, they don’t have time to even think about that.

And that’s not to say that you can’t have an opinion. Everyone is entitled to their environment. Not everyone has the same music/dance taste and that’s ok. You don’t like the style of one group? That’s fine. But to say that a certain group doesn’t deserve an award or a win or a record breaking title? Now that’s crossing a line, don’t you think? You can have your opinions, but there is no need to project that as hate towards a group or artist. They all worked hard. You don’t know what goes on behind the cameras. An artist may have this glamorous looking job, but not many can handle the pressure. Sometimes I feel like working a corporate “normie” job is easier. Sure the pay isn’t as nice, but there’s not much pressure to do a good job y’know? But that’s just me.

I don’t even think I’m making sense at this point. But I just hate seeing the fandoms I’m a part of fighting each other and bashing on other groups just cuz one isn’t getting the attention that they should and all that shit. All of my favorite groups have been doing well this year and the hate that I see being throw at them just hurts a bit. I can see how they genuinely are happy that people consider their art to be worthy of listening to and earning awards. All artists work hard regardless of if you like them or not. Sometimes I feel like these Kpop artists deserve these awards more than when I see a western artist earn awards. These people worked hard. Rarely is there a case of getting in just due to connections.

Anyway, I’m just rambling at this point. TLDR: stop hating and blaming groups for things that they can’t control. Don’t send hate just cuz they’re doing better right now.

[whispers-of-tea-and-tales]

What they are like in a relationship

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part 2

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Characters: Bakugou, Midoriya, Todoroki, Kirishima, Kaminari, and Shinsou

Story type: Headcanon

Reader: G/N! Reader

Warnings: fluff, PDA , and  possibly minor spoilers

A/N~ Hi it's Tea-And-Tales this one is just the heros in training I am planning to make four more, the LOV, pro heros, The big three and the girls, ANYWAYS I hope you enjoy. ^^

💥🧨Bakugou

♡This man is a full on tsundere and we all know it, but he would most definitely spoil you although he would bevery subtle about it like leaving a small present on your desk or a little note.

♡Now Bakugou is not for PDA  he would probably say something like "Those people need to get a damn room " though he would hold your hand, just no kisses.

♡ The pet names he would call you would be "Dumbass ", "Idiot ", "Babe ", and "dork " and of course he means it in a loving way just he likes to tease you, if you tell him that you don't like him calling you that he'll stop and come up with some cute ones.

♡Though Bakugou isn't big on PDA that doesn't mean he doesn't love cuddling with you, as long as the both of you are alone he'll give you all the cuddles in the world, and if you don't give him cuddles for a while he will pout, but if you ask him if he likes cuddles he will deny it immediately.

♡Bakugou gets jealous very damn easily though he may deny it sometimes, but other times he'll just confront the person talking to you and tell them to back the hell up and that you are his.

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💚🥦Midoriya

♡ This baby bean is very shy when it comes to romantic stuff but he would try his best to spoil you, he would probably ask one of the girls in the class what he should get you, but on his own he would probably give you flowers or some sweet treats Inko baked.

♡ As we all know Izuku is very shy so he would most likely just hold your hand or give you a quick hug, but if it was a special occasion he would give give you a quick kiss but right after he'd probably just be apologizing.

♡ the pet names he would give you would probably be stuff like "Honey ", "Angel ", or "Sweetheart " just some cute a simple nicknames.

♡ Izuku is definitely a fan of cuddles just the thought of having you in his arms makes him smile like a three year old on Christmas morning, he'll discreetly ask for cuddles like he'll call you in the middle of the night saying "Honey, can you come over I can't sleep ".

♡ Izuku tends to get kinda overprotective when he gets jealous, but he's really nice about it he'll just pull you away from who ever your talking to.

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🔥🧊Todoroki

♡ This man would absolutely spoil you no doubt about it, he would take all of endeavors credit cards and probably spend all the money on you he would be buying fresh flowers for you every week, and leaving you sweet little notes on your desk.

♡ Shoto love showing everybody that he has a stunning human being for a partner so he'll hold your hand hug you and kiss you in public but if you tell him not to he'll fully understand and and stop.

♡ The pet names Shoto would give you would be something like these "Darling ", or "Baby " he keeps the names short, sweet and simple straight to the point though he might throw some random ones out there.

♡ Shoto Todoroki is the biggest cuddle bug after finding out what cuddling is he'll be asking you daily if you could cuddle with him, If you tell him you can't he'll pout and a turn into a huge brat about and say stuff like "Baby please,  you can do that later " or "Pay attention to me y/n, come on ".

♡ Now Shoto get jealous easily but hides it decently well say for example, you get carried away talking to Fuyumi talking about whatever it is but Shoto would pop up out of nowhere and hug you from behind resting his head on your shoulder, he would be trying to pry you away just so he could have you to himself.

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🦈🪨kirishima

♡ This human rock most definitely spoils you, Eijiro would stop by a breakfast shop on his morning runs just so he can see your face in the morning and to make sure you eat , he would leave little notes on your desk just to tell you how much you mean to him

♡ Eijiro is kinda big on PDA loves hugging kissing and holding your hand in public to prove he has the "Manliest" partner .

♡ The pet name kiri would give you would most likely be stuff like "Pebble ",  "Boulder ", or "Jewel " and of course it's rock related.

♡ Yes, Kiri adores cuddling with you physical touch is his love language just cuddling you after a long day, he would definitely make a pillow fort for the both of you just a bunch of pillows and blankets.

♡Kiri doesn't get that jealous that often but when he does he tends to be really possessive just pulling you away from any person somewhat flirting with you.

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⚡️🔌Kaminari

♡ Pikachu here doesn't spoil you as much as the others but he will every once in a while by giving you a bunch of snacks and sweet treats or leaving little letters saying how much he loves you.

♡ Denki is kinda big on PDA just loves kissing hugging and holding your hands in public he loves you too much to care what people think you mean the world to him and he'll prove it but of course if you don't like PDA he understands.

♡ The pet names kami would give you would be "Jolteon ", "Babe ",or "Cutie-patootie " he would mainly give you a bunch of dorky nicknames.

♡ Kaminari love cuddling with you just snuggling up to you is the best feeling to him just the warmth of your body makes him smile but the main reason he loves cuddling with you is because he can hear your heartbeat.

♡ Now denki doesn't really get jealous he's really loose, he knows you hot as hell so he understands if people would flirt with you but if someone whent a little too far he'll just tell them to just back off a bit.

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💜🐈Shinso

♡ Shinso only really spoils you on special occasions, but when that happens he goes all out with a nice dinner, flowers, a sweet letter, some sweet treats, ect.

♡ Hitoshi isn't really big for PDA he'll most just hold your hand nothing more to be honest.

♡ The pet names he would give you would be "Kitten ", "Kitty ", "Honey ", or "Baby " just some cute and simple nicknames for you.

♡ Now Shinso may not be big on PDA but man does he love cuddling any chance he'll get he will cuddle you, cuddling with you at the end of the day us the only thing that helps this sleepy boy fall asleep after a long day of school and hero training.

♡ Sleepy boi over here doesn't get jealous easily, but when he does it's the one time he'll use his quirk on a normal person and pretty much just tell them to go away.

Hi I hope you enjoyed reading this now please remember to go drink some water and eat a quick snack go take care of yourself anyways have a good day/night ~Tea-And-Tales

[lavender-at-heart]

Poe dating a Jedi would include:

*not my gif*

Pairing(s): Poe Dameron x gn!Jedi!reader

Warnings: mentions of war

Genre: fluff , romance

Notes: requests are open! Sorry the fics have been so short recently

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When he first met you he was totally fan-girling

"hi! I'm _____"

"I know."

Asked you all the questions he could think of

"so are you like a wizard?"

Would beg you to use your lightsaber

"not if you wanna keep your fingers"

When you'd first met you thought he was a arrogant strong headed pilot that you didn't pay much mind to

But even when you first met you felt a pull. A pull to him that got even stronger the longer you knew him.

At first he thought he'd be out of your league, super cool magical and pretty/handsome Jedi and a pilot? Ya right.

But then he started thinking that you might like him too

you never got angry or ticked off at him, even when he did something really stupid.

You'd blush when he'd grab your hand or give you a hug

And you'd offer him to sit in with you during your meditation time, your sacred alone time.

He didn't even know how to meditate but he enjoyed sitting with you in the silence of your room or the forest.

He was absolutely smitten by you, you were everything he wasn't : calm , calculated, and wise.

So one night, one late night, he worked up the courage to ask you out

"hey- hi! So...um- I really like you. Like really really like you and uh yeah- maybe just maybe you'd wanna go out with me?"

You had never seen him so nervous , and I mean how could you say no to him?

Since then you've both been having the time of your lives

He taught you how to better your piloting skills and would take you for rides and show off all of the fancy tricks he knew

And you taught him that blowing things up is not always the answer

You taught him how to meditate and keep in check with his emotions

Told him everything you knew about the force

You loved going on walks with him in the forest, all you could feel was just you, Poe and the trees

Ok and maybe- 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 , you'd let him try out your lightsaber

You'd have to go to a big empty place so he doesn't end up decapitating someone

If you wanted to get married , the wedding would have to be small and short cuz ya know- w a r.

But that doesn't mean it would be any less amazing

You'd set up a small wedding area in the forest near the base

✨sci-fiforestweddingcore✨

Invite everyone in the resistance

This mf would show up in a leather jacket/hj

Finn would be the best man

And Rey would be the bridesmaid/other best man

General organa would marry you

When the war was finally over at first you and Poe didn't know what to do

You had been exposed to war your whole life, there has never been a time without it

You settled on Poe's home planet of yavin 4 , even built yourselves a nice little home with a garden and pond , a place you could spend the rest of eternity in

You'd make sure to live somewhere quiet so you could meditate and study but close enough to the hanger where Poe's x-wing lay sleeping

Poe remained a resistance pilot but didn't have to leave home so much

And you decided to continue your Jedi studies , trying to learn as much as you could . You also helped people in the town as much as you could , even started teaching some of the local children about the force and Jedi

Sometimes Poe would let you read some of your Jedi texts to him.

You knew he couldn't comprehend them very well but you still felt grateful that he wanted to learn , and he saw how much you loved it.

Honestly you never thought that after all you've been through that you would be able to have peace , settle down and maybe even start a family.