#sometimes because it has too much milk but theres a pill for that

[pinkniz]

Leon OCD hcs but they gradually get worse

Leon is often seen closing doors a couple of times or straight up avoiding closing doors altogether because he normally doesn't like how it feels to close them, he feels like he either closed them to hard or too soft

Theres some foods Leon can only eat with an specific complementary drink. For example he can drink milk by itself but he simply CANNOT eat a cookie without milk

Its very rare to see him without his riffle, its not just for work but to him it feels like a NEED to always carry his riffle, if he doesn't feel it he repeatedly checks if he really is carrying it. If you manage to make him leave it behind he will eventually get anxious

Leon is not as tidy as you would expect when it comes to where he sleeps, he's conventionally organised with other stuff and places but his room is..strange. To others it may look messy but to Leon everything is where it is for a reason

He hates being barefoot but he doesn't like socks either. One one hand the mere idea of his foot touching the floor BARE makes him extremely uncomfortable

On the other hand he hates how he feels when he puts on socks and his toes touch eachother, its not terrible but he takes the socks on and off a couple of times until it feels right or he goes sockless

Leon is always expressionless and cold BUT the most expressive thing he does is a weird full body goosebump he gets when he gets surprised by a sensation he didn't like.

Freddy discovered this goosebump response because one day he wanted to annoy Leon when his back was turn and blew air on his neck and Leon was just

Leon has debilitating intrusive thoughts, he already has lots to be depressed and gloomy but sometimes his brain will flash him with awful images and ideas so terrible that he physically feels ill and to deal with this he counts numbers until the thoughts leave

Leon has periods of time where his intrusive thoughts get particularly bad and he gets insomnia for days because of this, he normally doesnt sleep much normally but in these periods he doesn't sleep at all

Hall always knows when Leon is going through this because instead of being his normal robot self Leon behaves more angry and might even be more impulsive. So when Hall notices he always does his best to comfort Leon and getting him things like tea or pills to help him sleep

This doesn't affect him that much anymore but as a kid he was prone to randomly attack people or reacting explosively when someone upsetted him. When he and his brother were little and for example another kid tried to tease him by throwing a ball of paper at them Leon would instinctively react and throw a rock at their head. He didn't really mean to react that way but as kid he had much less control of impulsive behaviours like these

As an adult Leon no longer reacts like this BUT if you get him anxious and upset enough he genuinely considers punching you (Freddy definitely tries to trigger this on purpose so they can fight)

[sinnahsaint]

The way I understood OP was similar to how my friend group says “do science to it”.

(Backstory interlude: I am an autistic person with adhd and cptsd. When I went to a therapist I basically told him I wanted to dump my brain out and have the professionals sort the problems I’m having into labeled boxes because I did a lot of my own sorting but I didn’t have the perspective and experience to look at the whole pile and maybe say “I see where you’d get adhd but no it’s all the cptsd.” Now the therapist has DID help me find the labels so I could find the information and resources I needed to continue on my healing journey… but I eventually grew past that.)

I can “do science” to a headache by checking on my water, food, caffeine, dirty glasses, posture, sleep schedule, new stressors, etc. I can also decide I don’t care what caused it and brute force it gone by downing pills with a large glass of milk or juice and taking a nap.

I had been brute forcing my way through life. Can’t get going for work? Survive off energy drinks and chocolate bars. Get super irritable at work and don’t know why? Get a new job and quit(hopefully in that order but not always).

Finding out what was wrong was a great first step in understanding… but eventually I realized “I am annoyed because it’s too noisy in here and I can’t focus(adhd)” and “I am annoyed because it’s too noisy in here and I can’t focus(autism)” have the same or similar solutions.

Learning to register when something is going wrong is the first step in catching ptsd triggers too so I used that skill to notice when I was unhappy with other things too. I have found that approaching instances of “I am not content with this situation” with curiosity as to your current state and possible solutions, yields better longterm results than routing through diagnostic criteria.

Situation 1

Option A : “I feel hot -> It is not physically hotter in here than usual -> I don’t recognize this as a symptom of my diagnosis’ -> Guess there’s nothing to do but ignore it and get crankier at everyone around me.”

OR

Option B: “I feel hot -> It’s not physically hotter in here than usual -> I’m going to take off my sweater and sit down with a glass of water and ask my body wtf”

Turns out that after doing option B only TWICE I found out that I had be en trained to ignore my own pain for so long that it sometimes registers as overheating if I don’t treat it when it first makes itself known. Ignore a headache, get overheated. No advil for cramps? Overheated.

Situation 2

Option A: “I detest microfiber cleaning cloths -> this is a symptom of autism so I’m stuck with hating them -> guess I’ll avoid them when I can and suffer through using them at work because they’re required for the windows because we just use water”

Or

Option B: “I detest microfibre cleaning cloths -> I don’t have to touch things I don’t want to. I use gloves to protect my hands from chemicals and slimy stuff, they would probably work for scratchy stuff too -> I’m going to wear gloves all the time at work”

They thought I was a germaphobe but it worked.

Every person is different. We are not robots with helpful error messages……. Well lets just say the error messages are often vague.

A hungover person probably got that way because they drank too much… that info might help them avoid a hangover in the future … but it doesn’t help them deal with the hangover right now. Theres’s no time machine and no magic un-drink pill. Right now they need water, electrolytes, some food, and if possible, some more sleep and pretty much every hungover person is drawn to these things in different ways. Some swear by some unholy orange juice and hotsauce and egg drink, some want a big salty/greasy breakfast, some chug a gatorade and sleep til noon.

Practicing the skill of sitting with yourself and asking what’s wrong will lead you to something to try faster and more helpfully than deciding what diagnosis is causing the upset.

depathologizing your own responses to things means no longer worrying about which symptom matches which diagnosis matches which branded treatment model and instead practicing gentle non-judgmental curiosity about what you’re going through from the perspective of someone who wants to fulfill one of the most basic and primal needs for you which is the sensation of being seen and heard

[shinozaki-ayumi]

Please answer all the things from the ask thing I can't decide what I want to know most :'''(

omg thats ok!! this’ll be a long one then lol

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

its my boyfriend, so i’d probably be just like… “oh hey, that’s cool”

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

he’s my boyfriend lol

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

yeah mostly because i don’t want to associate myself with it and i’d also just be really concerned about their health too? like weed isn’t bad but anything else is a no

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

nope. exactly 6

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

sober bc i don’t drink lol

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

the only person i’ve ever had a crush on is my current and only boyfriend so no 

7. What does your last received text say?

“pack up your stuff”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

too many times over the past three years to even begin to count

9. Where was your last kiss at?

about 20 mins ago at my boyfriend’s front door

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

i don’t have a sister, but i have a brother and i saw him 2 minutes ago

11. What do you drink in the morning?

tea or milk

12. Where did you sleep last night?

in my own bed 

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

not really because if you are really meant to be with someone you both will put in the effort to make sure you are respectful of each other. i do think it’s probably difficult to find a partner though, especially in high school bc those almost never last. 

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

not really honestly lol. this year has been pretty decent.

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

nope. it would prooobably be pretty awesome actually

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

rainy! i love rain so much. it’s so relaxing to listen to and watch.

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

no. my middle name is Jean, so i don’t know many people with that as a middle name. i don’t think it’s very popular.

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

pajama pants :D

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

hell yes. my boyfriend and i have been together for three years already and are more stable and loving than we ever have. 

20. Does anyone like you?

not at the moment i don’t think, but i have known about several guys who have liked me. aside from the current bf, they were all… gross….

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

my boyfriend’s name is Stefan lol

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

nope, he’s straight as can be

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

SO MANY. SO SO MANY.

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

absolutely! i want something simple (like a triforce or something) on my wrist or ankle. 

25. In the past week have you cried?

this morning lmao

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?

mutt/mix/hunting dog thing. idk what she is. her name is hazel and she is my boyfriend’s dog.

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

mix of both? lol

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

no none of the football players at my school are even remotely attractive to me 

29. Do you think you’re old?

…im 16, so no

30. Do you like text messaging?

it’s ok. but honestly, in comparison to the past few years, i just prefer talking in person or on skype

31. What type of day are you having?

GARBAGE but its ok because its getting better as it goes :)

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

no… the only piercings i want are more ear piercings.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

cold. like, mid fall weather. 

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

i would literally die to save my boyfriend from suffering

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

relationship; flings/one-time things are not appealing to me. i like friendship and emotional bonding.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

complicated, but i don’t think anyone is really “simple.”

37. What song are you listening to?

none, my computer just decided to turn volume up to 100% for some reason without me pressing the buttons and now my ears are ringing. nice.

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

depends who i’m talking to and whether or not they deserve it39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

a girl? ya, but only one. i only have a few female friends. most of my friends are boys lol40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

i had a dream that they were sleeping in my room and the next day at school i almost threw up when i saw them. good times.41. When did you last receive a text message?

about an hour ago42. What is wrong with you right now?

TOO. MUCH. HOMEWORK. 43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

she’s my mom, so pretty well i think lol44. Does anyone disgust you?

a variety of people. pro-life people especially disgust me. also any religious zealots and closed-minded people in general. 45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

no, way too dedicated to my actual boyfriend.46. Are you in a good mood right now?

i’ve been better but my current mood is far better than my mood yesterday/this morning!!47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

my mom48. What color shirt are you wearing?

black49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

yeah… it’s pretty personal though. not gonna talk about it.50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

not currently but in the past year or two, many people51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

not in the slightest

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

not sure if this means in a relationship or not but platonically yes. that friendship ended in far shittier ways though, so sometimes i sort of regret it. don’t think it could’ve ended any other way though.53. Do you like rain?

I LOVE RAIN 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

yeah because if they are a huge party animal who wants to drink all the time and loves being drunk all the time i am NOT compatible with them. casually drinking once in a while would probably be fine though.55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

the only person i’ve ever liked is fully aware that i like him lol56. Do you like to cuddle?

YES. SO MUCH. I LIVE ON CUDDLES.57. Are you shy?

yeah but i’m growing out of it a bit!!!58. Do you get along with girls?

not really59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

currently dating60. What do you carry with you at all times?

phone, pencils, sketchbook61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

I’D DO IT FOR FREE 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

it’s been three years in my current one, so yes lol63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

you all know the answer to this64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

yes i love when he does this. its gentle and reassuring65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

idk. not cute, but i had some nice moments with my bf. mostly just laying on my bed and talking about “deep” stuff while playing fire emblem

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

theres only been one and he’s 17 

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?

do them myself but i haven’t done my nails in years    68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?    

can i say neither69. Do you have any stickers on your car?    

i dont have a car but my family does not70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?   

….can i say neither?  71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone? 

iPhone   72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?   

ages ago because my town’s only Pizza Hut closed years ago  73. Do you like diet soda?    

no those cancer-inducing chemicals can stay 5000000 miles away from my body74. What color are the walls in your room?    

dark yellow-y tan 75. Are you 16 or older?    

i’m 1676. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?   

no, tried, not a fan 77. Do you have a job?    

no and i am dreading it. i’d like to take commissions instead lol

 78. What are your initials?  

EJC  79. Did you ever have braces?    

yes and they are long gone. i am grateful80. Are you from the south?    

nope, upstate New York! best state 

81. What does your last status on facebook say?    

i don’t use facebook82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?  

lol  83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    

my mom84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?  

neither  85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?  

i genuinely do not remember. i think Rogue One  86. Do you smoke?    

HELL no 87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?    

flip flops88. Is your phone touch screen?    

yes89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?    

straight90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?    

no91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?   

pool 92. Have you ever made out in a car?    

yes93. …Had sex in a car?  

no lol  94. Are you single or in a relationship?  

in a relationship  95. What were you doing last night at midnight? 

sleeping   

96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks? 

fourth of july on Saratoga Lake    97. Do you like the camera on your phone?  

its much better than my last one, but still not the best. i have a 5s   98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?   

nope 99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    

never drank 100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?  

not on facebook, but on instagram yes  101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?    

yes even though it was 99.9% irrational. i’m tokophobic lol. thank god for the pill 102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    

i cant even name one 103. Do you have any tan lines right now?  

HAHAHAHAHAHA i’m of british and german descent (aka about as white as they can come) so my skin burns, never tans   104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?  

absolutely not