#sometimes I worry that my f/os wouldn't really want me around

[theheroand]

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[beach-him-off-until-he-kens]

what are your favorite sexy scenarios with your Ryan F/Os?

Oh what a fun question 👀!!! Thank you for asking!!!!

♡ Officer K being very grabby while making out on his couch in his apartment, mainly when I'm wearing a midi knee-length skirt. I LOVE thinking about this man's hands bunching the material of my skirt, glittery fabric spilling between his fingers as he's pulling and tugging. Feeling the petticoat adding extra layers of volume/texture and it just makes him wanna bunch it in his hands even more, clawing at it when we start getting really into it. Him pulling me onto his lap, leaving the skirt on while he undoes the buttons on his pants, and we just do it right then and there on that uncomfortable ass couch with his face buried in the crook of my neck, groaning like a starved dog.

♡ Driver being SO fucking horny out of his mind. When I drop into his dimension and it's been too long he just does his usual prolonged eye contact but with More Intensity silently saying let's get out of here. He gets us alone somewhere and it doesn't matter where, we're gonna fuck. Shannon's Garage after hours. His '73 Chevy Malibu (malibuuuu). The LA River. On top of the hood of some old race car he's fixing up. His living room floor. The shower. The kitchen counter. Oh, and I guess the bed works too... it's almost like a sleeping predator jolts awake within him and he just has to pounce immediately

♡ Sometimes when I leave Driver's dimension, he thinks I might not come back. He tries not to worry, but the fear is always in the back of his mind. Sometimes he's worried that I'll have another nightmare about him and I'll be too scared of him and I won't visit his dimension anymore. I tell him I'm fine now and I've never felt better and I haven't had any nightmares about him in a long time, but he still gets anxious. So any time we fuck, if the position allows it, he's hugging me. Arms wrapped around me and he tries to make me feel as secure and safe as possible. One hand cradling the back of my head, thrusting at a quick but steady pace that wouldn't hurt me but his little groans and little huffs sound almost heartbreaking when he hugs me tighter and tighter. Like I'll disappear if he lets go. I think about that a lot ;u; it's comforting to think about being hugged during sex and especially if it's with him

♡ Driver masturbating to the thought of me in his car -- I have doodled variations of this one hundred thousand times and I'll do it one hundred thousand more!!!! Sitting in the driver's seat, putting on some Charlie Puth songs on the radio (that dude has some horny asf lyrics and in interviews he's said he wants his music to sound fuckable in the most literal sense so I think it's perfect lol) reclining his seat back and going to town. I like thinking about him putting on "Smells Like Me" bc the lyrics seem fitting for us. He's missing me while I'm in Ken's dimension but he isn't worried bc I'm the one wearing Driver's scorpion bomber jacket. I could be getting action from any other guy or gal but I've got Driver's scent on me as long as I'm wearing his jacket and he likes that little sense of ownership over me, a bit of possessiveness... not in an extreme way but he just feels such an overprotective urge to make sure a part of himself is always with me. I DUNNO I don't care if that's in character or not, it makes me feel really good hehehe////

♡ Wait god I need to bring up K again..... I know it's a little out of character but I love daydreaming about him being sooo comfortable with me as our relationship progresses. You know how in canon, he comes home from retiring replicants, nearly getting killed, and he roleplays with Joi that he is just a simple human man who is coming home from a 9 to 5 shift at the office? He'd do that with me; he can come home from a long day and find me waiting for him on his bed - I'm wearing a skirt with a petticoat underneath bc I know he'll enjoy the texture of the folds between his fingers as he slides the fabric up my legs. Him doing the little "tsk tsk" click of the tongue while shaking his head, leaning over me with his hand snaking between my thighs, saying "oh, you poor thing, you've been soaking wet for me all day, haven't you?" and suddenly his stress of the day is gone. He forgets the dried blood on his face, the bruises on his neck, the stab wound in his shoulder. He crawls into bed and guides my hand, sliding my palm down his pants, tilting his head... "you feel that, sweetheart? feel what you do to me? I couldn't concentrate on my reports today, all I thought about was you..."

♡ That opening Bangkok party scene in The Gray Man, except put my self insert in there wearing a red dress to match Six's red suit, with white flowers and stars to match Dani's flowered suit. I know Dani isn't a Ryan F/O but I wanna think about her pulling me away into a private corner of an empty room and eating me out. Same with Suzanne oh my god please I need that woman to eat me out so BAD PLEASE ughhhhh. okay okay this was a Ryan F/O question... I'm sorry. I got Keri'd away

♡ The opening Bangkok party scene in The Gray Man and YES it makes NO SENSE for Six to be horny enough to need to pull me into the closet to fuck me, and that miraculously there wouldn't be cameras or mics in any of the rooms, but hear me out: you can do whatever you want forever and nothing in life matters. I'm working on a fic where mayhaps, against all odds, the Lord has given this horny desperate gentleman seven minutes where absolutely nothing bad will happen to him; he sees me in that red dress and he's like "Jesus CHRIST I missed my glittery wife. Baby please get over here." I have been in other dimensions for what, two weeks, maybe even two months, and this man has not only missed me so fucking bad, but he is starvinggg. He pulls me into a storage closet and we don't have time to Properly Fuck™ but I wanna give him a handjob just to give him some relief. His hands shaky while undressing me just a little bit so he can touch me wherever he wants, his head buried into my shoulder while he's groaning as quietly as he can. I think about this all the damn time and I really wish I had the time/energy to draw it. Maybe someday.

♡ Dean kissing me while straddling me on his bed, then slowly backing up and sliding his palms under my mini skirt, being very gentle and making eye contact with me the whole time he's slipping off my underwear, checking that I'm okay. Going really slow when he puts his head between my thighs, the whole time our song is playing in the background. Yes this is just me 100% self projecting over Cindy but that is exactly what canon love interests are for !!! and I like to think about him reaching out one of his hands and intertwining our fingers while he's eating me out 🥺🥺

♡ Ken eating me out and laughing into my thigh every so often. Licking his lips and saying "sweet girl..." giving that nickname a whole new meaning. I also think the image of him being completely oblivious to giving me an orgasm during our first time after eating me out and he's like "wow you're so yummy 😋 I want some more" while I'm gasping for air and shivering and saying HOLD ON GIVE ME A SECOND. Same goes for when I give Barbie her first orgasm after she becomes human and I'm just sitting there like "damn was my head really that good 😳"

♡ Sebastian not even bothering to undress, just unzipping his pants and bending me over the piano (consensually ofc) bc he's so pent up after a long night. Or sharing that tiny tiny tiny bed together in his little apartment, snuggling... we're both too pent up to sleep, and one of us starts grinding against the other and it just escalates... while he's wearing that tight white t-shirt and then his hair gets messier bc he's so lost in the moment.... yeah

♡ Laughing with Jacob during sex to the point where he's snorting and I'm wheezing and we have to stop for a few minutes. You know that cute couple thing where you pretend you're meeting for the first time, like, one of you pretends to be flirting with the other in a public space? And then you "go home together"? I think it's so funny to think about doing that with him. So we're at a bar, he's doing his thing, does the whole "let's get out of here" line, drives me home, we start going at it -- but I make a joke about something and he's losing it. He fires back and I have to cover my face and laugh. Out of every Ryan F/O, I like thinking about him saying "hey girl" just to make me laugh. He doesn't know the meme, he doesn't get it, but one time I asked him to say it and it made me laugh. and he's like "I don't understand what's so funny" but that doesn't stop him from saying it at the perfect moments. He's undressing me on his bed and it's all slow and sensual ooo and aaa... and after some sexy prolonged eye contact he mutters "hey girl" and I start losing it, and then he starts losing it because I'm losing it. and then he snorts and it makes me laugh even harder and then he's laughing harder. This may not necessarily be a "sexy" scenario but I really do love tender stuff like that in intimate settings... loving knowing my romantic partner is also my best friend.

♡ Luke is intimidating and he knows he looks scary but he tries to be rly gentle. He's slow and when I'm nervous he whispers reassurances until I relax. He's my guardian angel, he's my bodyguard, he wants me to feel safe with him. This isn't a "sexy" scenario I guess but I do think about this a lot, him just being very careful with me despite his outer appearance making him look like he'd be very rough. And maybe he would be! But with me he knows he's gotta go slow. and he's okay with that.

♡ COLT SPEAKING FRENCH Colt speaking French Colt speaking FRENCH Colt speaking French THE ENTIRE GODDAMN TIME in my ear while his arms are wrapped tight around me hugging me close. I have no fucking clue what he's saying to me but it sure sounds sexy. He could just be saying "omelette du fromage" lmao. but jokes aside maybe he'd say something like "my beautiful falling star" in French or 🥺🥺 something like that... and I think about being super careful with him bc of his back injury and double checking that he's okay all the time too. This man suffers from chronic back pain and he appreciates I am looking out for him and making sure he isn't hurt in any sort of position we're in. also did I say COLT SPEAKING FRENCH. Wearing a collar for me too maybe... with "therapy dog" on the tag... maybe he'd like being tied up too I dunno....................

♡ With Julian I don't have any "sexy" scenarios but goddd I sure do find myself thinking about having really, really, really gentle slow sex with him... I'm a top 99% of the time, but I wouldn't mind allowing him to have full and complete control, so he feels safer. He's straddling me while we're drowning in those neon red lights. His hands shake a little too much to undress me at first so I gotta hold them until he's calmer. Him kissing my neck and hearing his soft, short breaths in my ear when he's inside me. He's a SA victim too, so he'd understand that I prefer going slow, and tbh maybe he'd also prefer that ;v; I think he could still be rough if he wanted to, but he just. he gets it. he knows why I'm so scared and hesitant, so he's gonna be so, so careful. I'm precious to him, he wants me to know that, wants me to know he doesn't want to hurt me. would rather cut off his own hands than ever lay a hand on me. wants me to know that, to feel that, when we're making love. I'm gonna start openly weeping over him for the 100th time today let's move along

♡ I've written having a threesome with Driver and Six where they both try to make me feel as comfortable and safe as possible. Regarding the nightmare thing, Driver gets emotional and a little sniffly when he hides his face into my tummy and says "I don't want to hurt you" and I tell him "I know." Six isn't as vocal about his fear of me getting too scared of him either but he definitely feels it and it shows through how careful he is when we're being intimate to the point where he almost treats me like porcelain. More of an angst scenario than a sexy scenario BUT LISTEN. I LOVE THE HURT/COMFORT and my ace ass finds emotion so much sexier than anything else.

♡ Speaking of emotion. Ken getting weepy and sniffly while I'm riding him for the first time (just pretend he has a dick for my sake ok) bc he's never felt so loved before and especially not in a sensual way. Cradling his face in my hands and kissing his tears away while he hugs me and when we finish we just sit there for a while and hold each other until he calms down. Maybe I'd get weepy too bc it would be my first time feeling safe in a rly rly long time

♡ Actual sexy scenario: Stephen fucking me hard in his office, me laying on my back on his desk, his face between my legs drinking his fill until he stands up and places his hands on my hips, pounding me -- no no listen I KNOW his office walls are see-through but let's just pretend that he has some... other... office somewhere with normal walls.

♡ I think about pulling Steven's hair sometimes...... or him sitting up in his bed, his back resting against the headboard, me in his lap, while he fingers me and whispers in my ear, kisses my neck.

♡ OH I FORGOT WEREWOLF DRIVER I need him to fuck me so lovingly in a forest somewhere please god. or werewolf colt I don't care who just please god I need a werewolf to fuck me tenderly while we're surrounded by wildflowers. I'll pretend bugs and dirt don't bother me. Getting fucked by werewolf Driver WHILE wearing his JACKET. OOGH. god. can someone please teach me how to draw werewolves so I can draw some good ol fashioned monsterfucking

Thank you for letting me ramble 🥰🥰🥰

[huntinglove]

❤️‍🩹😔🫶 I see you have multiple f/os so choose which you want to talk about!

Hi hi!! Thank you so much for the ask!!

❤️‍🩹: How do your F/Os react to you being affectionate towards them?

Alma was overjoyed about me being kind towards them when we first met, and after the ritual that would allow them to possess my body and move freely, they were a mess...

They cried a lot the first time they got to experience touch again, and having that burning sensation in their chest, knowing that that happiness they were feeling was just my soul pouring it's love straight into their very being made them very emotional

Mychael doesn't feel like he deserves the affection he gets, but I'll keep on loving him until he ends up loving himself as well, no matter how long it takes! He usually gets very blushy and silent, just purring and feeling his hands tremble while I caress his cheeks or play with his hair

Gyokko gets absolutely full of himself whenever I show him any and all forms of affection... He immediately begins bragging about it or being overly clingy himself, I don't mind him being affectionate back, but it can get very overwhelming sometimes

Kyogai gets extremely flustered and needlessly apologetic, worrying about his claws being too sharp, having a grip too tight on me and so on. He treats me like I'm made of glass and he's always very grateful for any and all affection I give him

Enmu usually ends up making things a bit perverted or being overly enthusiastic about getting physical. Sometimes he'll pop one of his hands off and let me keep it around me if we have to be apart for long periods of time!

😔: If someone told that you're weird for loving/liking them, how would you react? How would your F/Os react?

I'm not a very confrontational person in general, so I'd most likely just shrug it off at the moment, then comment about how that person is a dumbass when me and my darling's are by ourselves

Alma would be a bit grumpy about it but would mostly just roll their eyes at the rude comment, then seek out some extra affection and praise for reassurance, which I'm more than happy to provide!!

Mychael wouldn't have a reaction while the person's around, but he'd get really upset and silent once we went back home... He'd start saying self deprecating things and question if I actually love him, and I'd do my best to make sure he knows just how cherished he really is!

Gyokko would be extremely whiny about it, trying to argue, cuss out and intimidate whoever disrespected him... I'd either have to carry/drag him away or quietly sneak away until he sorted things out

Kyogai would be angry with whoever was rude towards us and most likely kill them if he's able to, then he'd take some time to reflect on their words and either vent it out through writing or silently seek some reassurance and loving words

Enmu would most likely put the person to sleep before they could finish their sentence, give them a soul shattering nightmare then eat them. He wouldn't really be affected by their words and would be reassuring towards me instead

🫶: Is there something about your F/Os that makes them more "human"? Feelings?

Alma was human, so their personality and mannerisms make them feel very human, despite being a ghost! Honestly, the only things that make them seem less human are their forms in-between shifting into their actual appearance, because it makes them look like a sleep paralysis demon

Mychael is in a similar position, his physical appearance is more unique and interesting than a human's, but his personality and behaviors are almost identical as other humans!

Gyokko's pride makes him flawed like a human, it distracts him from his current objectives and constantly puts his life at risk. The fact he's able to make art also humanizes it a bit, it's a shame that it's only a monetary source for Muzan...

Kyogai is also an artist and his writing and drum playing are both absolutely wonderful and full of passion! He doesn't value his work and efforts as much as he should because of some belittlement he's had to deal with before, which also makes him even more humane

Now for Enmu... I suppose his loyalty could make him seem more humane, even if it goes to extreme lengths. He wants to better himself and earn the trust and admiration of those he looks up to, which feels like a very human-like behavior to me

[canongf]

hi liv! you dont have to answer this if you dont wanna, but i just wanna ask for some advice possibly! so im having trouble with really letting myself feel all my feelings for this f/o i have because of our age difference. i tend to not change my s/is much, but i feel like id have to age myself up and be different to love him. i am a young adult but i feel like someone could judge me for loving my f/o. hes in his 50s and its like a 30+ year age gap. and its hard to imagine he could even like someone like me. not just the age gap but me being much less capable and 'tough' like him.

and ive tried to not feel like this, but also dont want to stop loving him. i dont want to like open up to it and then realise that he wouldnt really want to be with me or that we're too different. so im just sort of conflicted and stuck not being happy about it but also not knowing what to do, sorry if this is confusing!

on another note, thank you for being the presence that you are in the community! you have a very beautiful energy that really shines through. seeing your posts and the positivity you spread is really encouraging. anyway, i hope youre doing well, and thank you again! <3

hi anon!!! 🖤

first!!! the compliment about my energy is so beyond kind and so beyond special to me and i have been holding it close to my heart since the first time i read it. being here is one of the best thing to ever happen to me and it means the world that i have even the tiniest presence in this community!!! i can't tell you how much this message means to me!!!

and second!!! i get how you're feeling and i'm sorry you're feeling it!!! it's a hard place to be!!! but i want you to know a couple things!!!

anon, you don't ever have to be different to be loved by your f/o. you are loved exactly as you are and you are deserving of being loved exactly as you are. yeah, some people are uncomfortable with age gaps and they're allowed to be. but this ship isn't about some people, it's about you. you're an adult and he's an adult, and you're allowed to do what feels right to you.

and i know it's really easy to get in our heads about this kind of thing, but have you ever tried getting into his? sometimes it really helps to put things in perspective! because in your mind, you're young. you're not as tough, you're less capable. you wonder how he could love you. but in his mind, he's old. he's not as lively and bright as he once was. he's rough around the edges now. and he can't imagine how someone like you could want to be with him. he's not worrying about your insecurities, he's worrying about his own.

we've all got reasons why we wouldn't work out with our f/os, but ultimately the only things that matter are the reasons why we would. who cares about being different from each other. who cares about what people might think. it sounds like you've got a real special connection and a real genuine love for him, anon. and that's enough!!! 🖤

[starseverance]

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(I’m a sucker for f/os taking care of of their partners)

Oooh, both of these are going to be so fun to answer! They'll definitely get long though, so answers will be under the cut!

Ask game link for those who wish to send me more asks! (Please do! I love asks!)

1 -> You’ve fallen ill! How do your F/O’s take care of you? Do they each have different ways of approaching the issue? Do they argue over whose methods are better? How does it play out?

When I'm sick I tend to deny it and try to keep going as usual (it's a family thing, and something I'm working on unlearning,) which often leads to it getting worse before it gets better.

💫 knows me very well and surely tries to encourage me to rest, I most likely don't listen. I don't listen to her as much as I should.

I'm 99% sure that unless my sickness directly affected my ability to do whatever it is he wants me to do, 🪙 would not care. 🪙 would definitely encourage my unhealthy tendency to "tough it out" even if I need rest, because that's what he has always done.💫 is a lot like that too in terms of toughing it out, but that's just for her, that doesn't apply to me.

The two of them would definitely get into an argument over it. They're both workaholics to an unhealthy degree, but the difference lies in how much they care for me.🪙 would argue that I clearly don't want to take it easy (not that he would care.) 💫 would point out that what I want isn't always what's best for me, and that if I don't rest, I'll feel worse.

I don't even know what I'd do. Tbh their arguing would probably just upset me, and I'd feel guilty not listening to either of them... Eventually I think 💫 would trick me into taking a nap.

10 -> You’re stuck at a cabin in the woods. There’s a murderer on the loose. How do your F/Os handle the situation? Is the murderer perhaps one of your F/Os?

To begin, I'd be terrified. Perhaps not even because of the murderer, I'm scared of so many random and sometimes irrational things. As confident as I'd feel being protected by BOTH of my F/Os, I'd still be afraid.

🪙is incredibly arrogant- but he does have the personal power necessary to back it up. It's unlikely he'd see said murderer as a threat... but let's say he did, that makes it more interesting. 💫is more realistic. Despite his formidable martial skill, he'd be concerned for both my safety and his own (he doesn't care for 🪙 much lol.)

Despite their differences, both are quite tactically minded. While 🪙 is more inclined to be on the defensive when facing a potential threat of unknown capabilities, 💫 is more inclined to hunt them down and make the first strike. They would agree to set up a number of traps in the cabin, combining their talents to do so. 🪙and I would barricade ourselves in the most secure room in the cabin, while 💫 would hide near the various traps to attempt to pick the murderer off while they were weak.

I'd be worried sick about her, especially how I know she'd put herself in danger to keep me safe... Gods, yeah. She knows that 🪙 could protect me if she wasn't around to do it... and that he makes me happy. 🪙wouldn't get how I'd feel, but I wouldn't expect him to. But I have faith in 💫, he didn't get where he did in life by not being good at what he does. Doesn't stop me from worrying though- hah, I guess that's how you know you really care for someone...