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cq-studios · 10 months ago
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I’m actually obsessed with the idea of Brain just ending up in Scala and having to learn about how to use the new tech (just like he had to figure out MoM’s computer), and I was bored so I wrote a little snippet of him sneaking into a kitchen (and away from Sigurd) and figuring out appliances lol
Brain entered what turned out to be the kitchen. It was cramped, at least compared to the one in the Clocktower. Hardly enough space for more than, maybe 4 people. It had a very distinct smell, not necessarily a bad one, but a strong one. This confused him considering it was alarmingly clean.
There was a counter running along the wall, strangely made of some sort of stone instead of the wood he’d expect. He couldn’t see a stove, which was strange, but even stranger was the contraption on the counter— four little metal prongs supposedly to hold something up and some knobs along the edge. At the end of the counters was an unusual cupboard also made out of metal for whatever reason. It was out of place even compared to the other cupboards in the room, which were made from a purple wood reminiscent of home.
Curiosity piqued, he walked over to investigate, the counter contraption first on his list.
He seemed to be right about the metal prongs being used to hold something. Each of them stuck out above a circular dip, which had a slightly raised cylinder in the middle, rife with tiny holes. That most likely had something to do with the knobs so he twisted one, as a test.
It took a moment but a familiar sharp smell brushed his nose. It was the same scent that came right before an explosive spell. Panic lighting up inside him, he twisted the knob back to its original position, using a swift aero spell to disperse the gas. Why would they even have that?!
Unless…
On a technical level, explosion spells were really just out of control fire spells, and it took a bit for there to be enough gas for him to smell it, so even if fire spells don’t have that smell, they must use that same gas, and if that’s the case then maybe…
He tried the knob again, only slightly twisting it this time, and shot a small fire spell at the dip underneath the prongs. The cylinder in the centre caught, controlled, consistent flames spitting out of each of the holes.
He was right, this was a stove then, just a very weird looking one.
With that mystery solved, he turned the stove off and moved on and over to the metal cupboard.
It was a similar purple to the wooden cupboards with a silver handle and as he got closer he noticed it was letting out a low hum. Interesting.
He opened the cupboard and was greeted by a variety of raw meat, some drinks, and a waft of cold air. This was a refrigerator then? He closed the door, stopping any more of the chill from escaping and gave the outside of the fridge a quick scan for the ice compartment. There wasn’t one.
Then where did the ice go in? Where did they cast blizzard?
Had they figured out a way to imbue the fridge with magic so they wouldn’t need to refill it? He couldn’t say he’d blame them if they had. It was a horrible feeling, losing all your food because it slipped your mind.
But if they had, how? He supposed he’d never really tried to imbue an object with elemental magic before. They were generally one off, quick firing spells. He just assumed it wouldn’t last long enough to work, not unless you changed the whole base of the spell. Which he thought might do it, if they could break down the magic enough to isolate the properties then combine-
“Oh, there you are,” an exasperated mutter came from the doorway, “Master Brain, you really should tell me if you’re ever going someplace”.
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cq-studios · 7 months ago
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Starting an askblog for my Daybreak Cult AU.
Would appreciate any asks or attention you could give it ^^
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It's 1941 and the Dandelions have just been relocated from Daybreak Town (an experimental orphanage turned cult). They not only need to adjust to the modern society but are also determined to find each other again.
This blog mostly serious and the way I've decided to try and tell the story of this AU (since its a bit more slice of life-y). With that said though, feel free send silly and random asks (as long as it is for one of the characters), I think they can help flesh out the AU a bit.
(Please keep in mind I do have the right to not answer a question if I don't want to. I'll do my best to answer everything but there will be exceptions)
(I'll do my best to mark anything potentially triggering with a tw)
The current month in universe is November 1941 (a week or so after relocation)
Current major events:
Just recently relocated, getting to know new families/situation, starting school
(And, of course, there’s nothing stopping you from asking them about the cult)
Asks are open for:
Skuld, Ephemer, Brain, Ven, Lauriam, Player, and Elrena
(Please specify who you're asking, if you don't I choose)
Run by @cq-studios
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nights-flying-fox · 2 years ago
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✨️ Hi hi hello, welcome!! I'm Nighty, and I reblog a lot of stuff*, sometimes draw and write too. Both fanart & oc art!! 💖
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💜 AU Tags:
🐀 Animaniacs: Toons (Storks AU) • There's a Beast in There • Pirates AU
🐢 ROTTMNT: Dimension Hopper Leo AU MASTERPOST • Where You Belong (Separated AU) • Let's Grab a Slice Together • Hopelessly Surviving AU (Resurrected Leo AU) • A Turtle Like Me, A Turtle Like You Masterpost • GENERAL AU MASTERPOST
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🪶 Some of the stuff that I find myself thinking about them 7/24: tmnt/rottmnt (rise leo is the blorbo), hazbin hotel (alastor & rosie friendship aaa), warrior cats (longtail, hollyleaf, hawkfrost my beloveds), kingdom hearts (khux & days), the legend of zelda (miphvali & botw zelink), linked universe (legend is fav), animaniacs, pokemon (unova ftw)...
tLoZ - Breath of the Wild
Art - Fics:
-Warmth (Zelink / One-shot) AO3
-Christmas Together (Multichapter Modern AU Xmas Fic / Ongoing / Includes Zelink and Miphvali) AO3 [currently on hiatus]
-Following the Silent Princess (Modern AU / includes Zelink and Miphvali / multichaptered ongoing) AO3 [currently on hiatus]
Zines: By Your Side Zelink Zine
tLoZ - Hyrule Warriors: Age of Calamity
Art | Fics:
-Mountain Walk (Miphvali / One-shot) AO3 | Chinease Translation (AO3)
-For You (Zelink / written for Fated: Through Time digital zine / one-shot) AO3
Animaniacs
Art | Fics:
-Welcome Back, Doc (Space Jam: New Legacy crossover fic / multichaptered ongoing / Dad Bugs) AO3 [on hiatus but might finish it before the end of may <3 ]
-Years Ago, A Winter Night (Wakko's Wish fic / a lot of angst & hurt/comfort / multichapter & completed / XMas fic) AO3 | Playlist
-Happy Allergies Dot!! (one-shot / Dot centered) AO3
-Guilt Is Eating Him Up (one-shot / lots of angst & hurt/comfort / Wakko centered) AO3
-Toons (Storks AU / multichaptered ongoing / kinda on hiatus??) AO3
-There's a Beast in There (Beauty and the Beast AU but without any romance / multichaptered ongoing / *holds it gently* this one is my fav) AO3
Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Art | Fics:
-A Friend Against Dark (Raph centered / fluff / pre-series / one-shot) AO3
-Finish the Tale, Ven, Please? (Where You Belong AU / fluff / one-shot) AO3 * tumblr
-finding your stellar association (for @/ashwii's Celestial AU / one-shot / fluff) AO3 * tumblr
-so I dive straight back in the ocean (hurt/comfort / post-movie / Leo centric / one-shot) AO3 * tumblr | playlist
-Little Talks with a Big Robot Turtle (for @/somerandomdudelmao's Cass Apocalyptic Series / Raph centric / fluff / one-shot) AO3 * tumblr
-Deep (Purple) Thoughts (and Realizations) (Donnie centered / post-movie / angst & hurt/comfort / multichaptered ongoing) AO3
-Last Resort (Mikey centric / bad future timeline / Let's Grab a Slice Together AU but you don't have to know about it to read it / angst (with a bit of comfort??) / one-shot ) AO3
Warrior Cats
Fics:
-One Last Night (Leafpool x Hawkfrost / one-shot) AO3 | Turkish Translation
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starlightwayfinder · 1 year ago
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🤩🦋🦈?
🤩 What led to my interest in the fandom?
I first learned about Kingdom Hearts was when I was looking at one of those ‘Disney Wikis’. I decided to see what it was, so I watched the cutscene movies on YouTube. (I didn’t know what I was getting myself into! Haha) I did get the games eventually, but for a while I only had KHUX, so I played that one a lot!
What piqued my interest in the series the most were the beautiful opening movies and stories about characters who were separated. I couldn’t wait to see them reunite! 
The mysteries and theories are also really cool. I’m a pretty curious person, and I like to look for clues and piece things together. (So it’s no wonder I like characters like Ephemer and Brain so much…)
🦋 Favorite character to write?
(KHDR) Eraqus!
Eraqus brings a lot of humor and charm to the (otherwise grim) story of Dark Road. He’s mischievous, enthusiastic, and a bit more clever than he acts. He’s also fun-loving and wants to make his friends smile. (If there’s fun to be had in my DR fics, you can usually find him right in the middle of it!) 
I like to have him interact with Bragi, Vor, and Brain, but of course he’s best to write alongside Xehanort. I think Xehanort brings out a more serious, sincere side of his personality. (Conversely, Eraqus is the only one who can get Xeha to lighten up a little!)
I also wrote Eraqus’ dialogue in Brought to Light, which is an AU where he finds out Bragi is possessed by a ‘lost master’. I got to highlight more of his negative traits in this one. He can’t let go of his friend, but can’t tolerate the darkness either, and ends up running away from the whole situation…
He’s definitely my favorite, so if anyone ever wants to collaborate, I’d be happy to write him again!
🦈 Toughest character to write?
Xehanort… Uh, well, Master Xehanort, I mean. He’s in a handful of my fics, but his dialogue can be tricky. Fortunately he’s mysterious, so sometimes he’s more like a… presence. If that makes sense? I try to make it so you can get an idea of what he’s up to from how the other characters act, before he actually makes any appearances. 
Remember that scene where Braig says it’s hard to know what’s going on in his head? That’s too true, haha. Consequently, I think I end up giving him a slightly different personality every time I write him (that goes for YX as well). I wish I was more consistent, but maybe it’s okay, since there really are so many different versions of him to begin with. 
That’s actually kind of what I was hinting at with this line in I’m Not My Season:
“He was desperate for a constant, clinging to anything that kept him from feeling like a single shard of shattered glass; a tiny piece of an irreversibly fragmented original.”
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MY KHUXDRML TUMBLR TAGS MASTERLIST
Notes: Tumblr is a big dumdum when it comes to tags and formatting, so I’m sorry if this doesn’t work that well. Shoot me an ask if you’re having trouble looking for anything in particular and I’ll try to find it for you!
GENERAL TAGS
my posts - Almost every post I’ve made; encapsulates a majority of the posts found in tags below. Includes both khux and non-khux stuff. Will update if I ever create a specific khux posts tag.
my art - Like above, includes both khuxdrml (mostly khux) and non-khuxdrml stuff
my fics - Posts that include my fics + info and sporadic posts about them. Alternatively, you could go straight to AO3. I’m very proud of these, thanks in advance if you decide to read anything! And feel free to ask me questions and stuff!
kh fics - Other people’s fics. Great stuff in there~
kh aus - (from the entire series)
my headcanons - Lots of juicy stuff that live rent free inside my brain at all times
shitposts - Every meme, joke or just plain weird thing I’ve said. This is a fun one to look through!
key kids - Stuff that has people’s key kids (not my own) in them
Roadie the key kid - Stuff of my own key kid, Roadie
khux liveblogging - All the stuff I’ve said while playing khux! I dropped out at some point in Wreck-It Ralph’s climax before picking it up again just before the shut down, but you can see a lot of stuff all the way back from the app’s global release date in 2015!!
khux jp - Raw reactions to unofficially translated cutscenes
khdr liveblogging - same deal as khux except I gave up physically playing it once the hiatus hit lol (I watched the cutscenes)
khml liveblogging - where are you bestie 🥲
business in the back cover - My liveblog of Back Cover
SPECIFIC POSTS
my Ephemera character analysis essay
Overmorrow (spoilers!) - The tag for my magnum opus, an Ephy-centric khux and khml interquel ficverse! (Alternatively, you can go straight to my Dropbox folder to avoid getting spoiled :))
chi infodumps - Various posts where I just ramble on about something from the chi saga, mostly food for thought. [in the process of trying to add more older posts to this!]
Daybreak Town culture - A mix of canon lore, cool fan worldbuilding, and general vibes that make me think of DT
Scala culture - see above
kh tumblr - KH + Tumblr posts
ranking best to best - Ranking images/appearances of characters, from best to best
khux inspired asks - A list of asks you can ask your buddies inspired by khux things/characters
veterans discount chi saga edition
aisno - “astra inclinant, sed non obligant”, my series of brainplayer / plain comics
CHARACTER TAGS
Notes: Aside from Ephemera’s tag, all of these are kind of inconsistent, so apologies in advance.
timeless child - Ephemera
timeless nort - Ephemera but uhhh having a Bad Time
timeless familia - Ephemera’s canon family :D (sometimes non-canon/speculative stuff may be mixed in here)
the ophiuchus family - Ephemera’s family but the version where I make everything up and have lots of fun with it
the destiny weaver - Skuld
khx player - A very inconsistent tag that mostly includes my own drawings/interpretations of the character that is “the Player”
khml player - Player2’s tag. I’m trying to do better with them :)
sweet wind child - Ven
knight in gothic armour - Blaine / Brain
girl of paradise - Strelitzia
the pink pursuer - Lauriam
larxene 2 electric boogaloo - Elrena
chibi chi sibs - Lauriam and Strelitzia (and Elrena too when we thought she could’ve been the sibling)
dandy kids - Union Leaders as a group
fearsome fam - Foretellers and Luxu and MoM
sewer squad - The group of friendly npcs you venture around with for a while
they walk a lonely road - general Dark Road tag
family feud scala edition - general Missing Link tag
SHIP TAGS
Notes:
I enjoy multishipping. I don’t condone any kind of ship hate. You are not obligated to look through any of these if you do not want to.
Yes I know things can be interpreted as platonic (and some of these posts are indeed platonic but I just tag them all the same regardless of the specifics of the relationship), I’m just here for a good time.
I love the ship names I came up with. Does that mean they’re good ship names? Not necessarily 😅
This is not a comprehensive list of all the ships I ship. Please shoot an ask if you have any questions :)
skulmera - Skuld/Ephemera (aka epheskul)
ephelayer - Ephemera/Player
skulayer - Skuld/Player
skulmerayer - Skuld/Ephemera/Player my pride and joy ❤️
blauriam - Blaine/Lauriam
strelaine - Blaine/Strelitzia
plitzia - Strelitzia/Player
ephelauri - Ephemera/Lauriam
epheven - Ephemera/Ven
ephelaine - Ephemera/Blaine (aka braineph - Ephemera/Brain)
ephelaurain - Ephemera/Blaine/Lauriam
brainplayer - Brain/Player(2) (aka plain)
xehaqus - Xehanort/Eraqus
xehabaldr - Xehanort/Baldr
urdvala - Urd/Vala
hovidar - Hoder/Vidar
gulava - Gula/Ava
iraced - Ira/Aced
invira - Invi/Ira
avavi - Ava/Invi
friendly attitude - White-haired male npc/Green-haired male npc
skandra - Silver-haired female npc (Skati)/Curly-haired female npc (Leandra)
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eevee-and-the-fandom · 3 years ago
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It’s about time that I talk more about the second fanfic story that I’m working on!
WARNING: KHUX ENDING SPOILERS AHEAD
This story takes place immediately after KHUX, or at least, it takes place after Ephemer wakes up in the the flooded remains of Daybreak Town. And we all know he built Scala, right? So this story follows his journey to build Scala, among other things.
This story will also include the first Princess of Heart and all the new lore that comes with it (in fact, that’s what inspired this story in the first place), prototype Keyblade armor, learning about the importance of world order, world resets, sad key kids, lots of angst, attempts at architecture, and much more, not exactly in that order!
Of course, a fic like this requires some OCs, especially OC key kids. So I created a few to start off with and their designs are up above! Lemme tell you about them because I love them so much now and they’re all actually pretty cool and they’re a big part of this story anyways so yeah
I’ll go from left to right!
First up is Jamie! One of my friends wanted an OC in here based off of a few ideas he had, but of course, this character is so much more than that. Jamie is from Radiant Garden as a middle-class citizen of the fabled City of Light. He doesn’t have a lot of connections to people; he’s mostly busy working at his job and just trying to make ends meet. But when a chance at a better life comes in the form of a Keyblade and Ephemer, he takes the chance and leaves his world.
Jamie is usually an easy-going and confident guy, and he’s also one of the older people in this initial group of key kids. However, he also is quite short-tempered and can get angered at others easily. When in battle, he’s more of the strong, physical attacker type. So he’s a bit slower than some of the others, but of course, he’s a quite a bit stronger too. He doesn’t have much magic skill, but he’s capable of using weaker spells in a pinch. He’s definitely one of the least experienced in the group when it comes to using a Keyblade.
Next up on the list is Rand. He’s a somewhat flirty guy, who’s also kinda cocky. Sometimes, intentionally or not, he gets on other’s nerves and can be a bit of a pain to be around sometimes. And of course, he’s always teasing someone about something or another. However, deep down, he’s really not that bad of a guy, he just likes to rile people up sometimes and likes attention. He never goes out of his way to actually hurt anyone, at least on purpose. He actually really cares about his teammates and friends. I’m still working on his backstory though, especially since I’m not sure if I wanna make him an original Dandelion or if he would be a new wielder like Jamie.
Besides that though, in battle, Rand likes to use strong attacks of all varieties. Whether it’s physical or magic attacks, he likes to hit as hard as absolutely possible. Unfortunately, that does mean that his attacks take much longer to charge compared to his teammates’ attacks, but at least they can hit extremely hard. He is pretty balanced when it comes to attack and magic stats. And his specialty more specifically lies with non-elemental or more physical magic kind of attacks, such as earth and attacks similar to Ragnarok or Ripple Drive.
After Rand is the elegant Glacies. She’s well-respected among her peers, and is not only a capable warrior but is also rather good in social environments. She’s basically second-in-command—behind Ephemer—due to her capabilities. She’s also an extremely hard worker, always trying to be better and stronger on the face of her peers, but also for the sake of the worlds that she knows that they all have a duty to protect. Due to this, she sometimes snaps at her fellow teammates if she thinks that they aren’t taking their duties as Keyblade Wielders seriously, which can lead to some tension. However, she always apologizes later, and as the story goes on, learns to respect her teammates a little bit more. When not in battle, she’s honestly a pretty chill person and tries her best to help everyone else be at their best too. Glacies is a Dandelion.
Glacies specializes in elemental attacks, though of course her favorite element to use is ice. She’s also more skilled in magic attacks than she is at physical attacks, but she’s trained enough that her physical attacks can hurt if she needs them too. Her magic attacks do tend to be on the stronger side, but they aren’t as strong as Rand’s magic attacks. However, she’s very skilled at finding an enemies weak point and exploiting it with her elemental attacks, and she also casts relatively faster than Rand can.
Selene is up next! She’s a Dandelion who was in the same Union as Ephemer before the Keyblade War happened. She’s also who I have planned to be the first official Princess of Heart. Selene is a quiet but kind girl who finds pressure difficult to handle. At first, she seems a bit aloof and shy, but honestly she feels a lot of social anxiety. Even so, she’s very good at working together with her teammates, and she’s also pretty knowledgeable about the more practical uses of magic, like for teleportation and levitation and even for stuff like cooking or structures.
Selene’s combat capabilities are more attuned to the magic side, more specifically to light and status attacks. So attacks like faith, slow, haste (yes, I do mean FF haste), magnet, KH1 Aero, or cure. She’s also pretty good at physical attacks, since her status moves don’t do a lot of damage, but she’s not particularly strong in the realm of physical attacks either, so she usually has to stay back and act as more of a support role to her peers.
Last but not least is Nadia, another key kid who survived the Keyblade War. Sadly, Nadia came out as on of the most mentally scarred of the group, and she’s very cold to the others at first, even though she agreed to come along with Ephemer. Nadia does not take shit and is not here for friends. She almost believes that Ephemer shouldn’t even revive the art of the Keyblade because she doesn’t want to have to experience yet another Keyblade War, and she’s afraid that the more people know about the Keyblade, the more likely it is that something terrible will happen. Later on though, after some character development, Nadia turns out to be a good friend who isn’t afraid to give criticism or snide remarks if she feels it’s necessary. She’s jaded and scarred, but she’ll eventually do her best to heal.
Nadia is a swift physical attacker. Her attacks don’t hit as hard, but she hits fast, and she moves fast too. Her smaller stature allows her to maneuver through the battlefield with greater ease than most, and if a distraction is needed, she’s the best person for the job. She also doesn’t have as much of a defense as the others, but as mentioned, her speed more than makes up for that. She’s also surprisingly strong with really good stamina, and so she can jump higher and climb farther than most of her teammates as well.
Anyway, that’s all of the OCs! Ephemer himself is an all-rounder, able to play any kind of role that he needs to, but of course he’s not a specialist in any of them. But if one of the others is down for the count or if there are only a few of them on a mission, he can take any role that would benefit the team the most.
That’s all I’ll share about my story for now! The working title name is “The First Heart,” but I’m still trying to find something a little better lol.
I’m honestly super excited to write this story!
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serenedash · 3 years ago
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I started rambling about my experience with kh and then it turned into khux and then it just turned into me rambling about Ryou and my art journey????? enjoy I guess,
it’s very long but there’s art in there :)
It’s funny to think about my kh journey as a whole tbh, I grew up watching my mom play video games, which included kh1 and 2. I wasn’t allowed to play the playstation2 we owned BUT I did have a gameboy so the first game I played was CoM (after my mom finished it ofc,) so I guess you could say I’ve always been passionate about kh “””side games””” lmao but I did fall off of kh very quickly bc again, I wasn’t allowed to play our PS2 and also I Am A Terrible Gamer I’ve Never Finished CoM I’m sorry you all had to find out like this, but then 358/2 came out when I was in middle school and!!! I didn’t care and I didn’t play idk why lol
Anyway, fast forward to high school I’m like 15 and my older sister, who HAS been keeping up with kh, has a wallpaper on her phone of roxas and ventus. And bc I haven’t kept up I say “nice roxas wallpaper” and she says “thanks but it’s roxas and ventus” and I proceeded to get so mad that I was determined to prove to her that her wallpaper was just roxas twice and then I fell down the BBS rabbit hole and suddenly I was reading about vanitas and then I’m reading the fan translations of the BBS novel and I’m crying??? I am sobbing???? and that’s how I actually got into kh for real lol we are vanitas stans before we are people,
It’s so funny how I thought I was some kh super fan, knowing all this stuff that I spent so long reading and rewatching cutscene movies, but I never once, SOMEHOW NEVER ever came across khx. It’s so absurd and bizarre I seriously have no idea how I never once encountered khx prior to khux. I suppose that has to do with the fact I wasn’t involved in the fandom? In early high school I had stepped away from fandoms as a whole and I didn’t have any interest in really posting content or interacting with fans anymore bc of how burnt out I was from a previous fandom,
but khux released! and I was so hype and excited for it! on launch day I was a senior in high school, I had ran around to every “nerd” and weeb I could find in school to ask them to join my party and fun fact about me is I have crippling social anxiety I literally refuse to start conversations irl so holy shit I was OUT HERE doing the MOST
My player just originally had my name (Matt) but everyone in my party had fun names so Ryou was born! High school was one big yugioh phase for me and ryou bakura is one of my favorite characters ever so it was just the logical name choice lol I quickly started creating Ryou, the character, as well. I was also leaving my homestuck phase and that + vanitas obsession made This character design (art circa 2016)
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If y’all are familiar with my kh oc’s you might notice that keyblade now belongs to my kid Monty LOL
Anyway that got scrapped quickly for the chip and dale outfit (which is where Ryou’s trademark goggles are from <3) Goggles have been a staple of my character designs for a LONG TIME so like, it had to be done, (that’s a separate ramble about a separate oc tho)
OG Ryou was an interesting guy; he was a young party leader with this overwhelming responsibility on his shoulders bc of his status as a party leader. In his original story, he also struggled heavily with darkness, much like Terra but for Ryou it was more that the darkness was controlling him and not like a source of power like it was for Terra
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A big part of early Ryou I kept, however, was the crushing awareness of loss. One of my party members (the strongest one at the time,) had left without saying a word and I was very confused and hurt. This was around the time the ephemera plot was happening so I decided to incorporate it into Ryou’s story; having him experience losing a friend to darkness since it’s so normal for wielders in Daybreak Town to just disappear, and this would unintentionally become a theme for both me and Ryou as khux friends would just randomly disappear.
I was desperate for khux at this point and I decided to watch the fan translations for khx and GOD, god, was I obsessed. I couldn’t stop thinking about the foretellers. And I’m not going off about that here bc I already did that, but I actually started entering fandom again! I did it slowly, I started on tumblr before this blog was made altho it was me sending anons to the few khux related blogs I could have lol a friend convinced me to get twitter where I got involved with the ffxv fandom, which led me to the kh fandom and eventually the khux fandom there which is what REALLY got me going on khux.
I joined discord servers, most of the servers I’m in are khux related, and from there I joined the khux oc rp (shout out to anyone there who might be reading this lol here’s some art from the beginning of the rp,)
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It’s SO FUNNY how the RP influenced me so heavily. I hadn’t RP’d in YEARS, I used to have a strict no oc rp policy, but here I was? And the funny part is, I had barely developed Ryou. I had scrapped his original story and all I had was POST WAR Ryou so I literally had to reverse write him; I had only ever written him as a depressed, guilt ridden adult, but it was a fucking blast and I have such fond memories of this rp when it was active,
But anyway, this encouraged me to get more serious about art! I started drawing, writing, cosplaying, and roleplaying when I hadn’t done any of that stuff in a very long time. The first time I ever drew a background was for a deviant art khux competition actually LOL
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also! I always think extremely fondly of the drawing I did of Aced in the keyblade war. It was also one of the first backgrounds I ever drew and it felt like my real starting point in the khux fandom. It got a ton of notes on here and someone wrote a tiny fic in a reblog which just made me SO HAPPY like it really felt like people were noticing me :) I was going to draw a matching Ira but!! I just never did!! One day tho, it’s on my art bucket list to redraw this along with Ira,
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Aside from my personal growth, khux was great for my social life ngl, I made SO MANY friends online and got to meet a ton of people irl over the years! It’s crazy to think about all the people I now know and talk to? It honestly makes me really emotional. I’ll never forget taking the train into NYC and meeting up with discord friends. Going to conventions and talking with people about the latest khux update? Absolutely insane and those were some GOOD TIMES, if I thanked every khux friend or even just person who made an impact on me then we’d be here for a LONG TIME,
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Fun fact, for my Lauriam cosplay all I needed to buy was the wig I just owned his outfit LOL also? Probably retiring that cosplay ngl people treated me like absolute garbage when I wore him and it led to a lot of confidence issues for awhile ngl. That’s probably one of the only memorable negative experiences I have with khux; it was great when khux people recognized me but for kh fans that weren’t in khux? They were FUCKING MEAN??? fuck kh fandom at large, I only care about khux fandom,
This leads me to another huge part of my experience in khux fandom: THEORIES!! I used to write SO MANY and oh my god my brain was so full all the time. It was a huge appeal for me in the fandom; I had been previously writing theory posts in the RWBY fandom and it just migrated over to khux for me lol I had done a ton of theorizing around Lauriam tbh, it was really the only reason I liked his character at all bc initially I did not care about the dandelions, anyone who wasn’t Skuld I was like “please leave Now thanks”
A funny part of khux fandom I never intended to be apart of is the MEMES, I really only started doing memes as stress relief bc college had me so busy all I had time/energy for was these quick little shit post drawings.
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The first meme I made, file name “invi despair” LOL we need to get her a girlfriend smh anyway, I think in my senior year of college I did a bunch of rapid fire memes all in one month bc the stress of finals was getting so bad afdgfhdgf as far as I know my impact on this fandom will be my memes bc all I do now is enter a kh/khux server and introduce myself and I go “yeah I draw art. here’s a meme” and everyone goes OH YOU, honestly I am nothing if not a clown
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I’ve talked so much idk where I’m going with this. Khux is just a good game even if the gameplay actually kind of really sucks yknow lol but it was the first game I played where I like, REALLY got into the meta and the mechanics. I used to read so much on the mechanics and watch youtube videos on which medals were worth pulling for. I was never a whale or a top player exactly, but I could rank well if I tried lol I’ve made it to the top 100 for solo rankings, my party has made it to top 10, and in pvp I’ve made top 300. I’m not the highest level in my party but FUCK do I know how to manipulate this game LOL
And with all that hard work, the strategies, the theorizing, the content I’ve made-- it’s been my life for 5 years. I’ve logged into khux almost every single day. At the end, I have logged 1820 days in khux out of 1910 days. Kinda crazy. Crazier I’ve never spent money on khux either lol the only “money” gone into it was one time my mom gave me a google play store gift card and I used it on my birthday for a VIP xemnas medal which eventually made it to regular pulls anyway but it was nice and a little treat :)
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I’m not a gacha fan, I don’t care for it, so I don’t think I’ll be touching another gacha again. But for kh? This was pretty fucking awesome, even if it sucked a lot sometimes LOL It was worth it for the people I’ve met most of all I think. I would honestly be a completely different person without khux and that’s REALLY insane to think about.
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revengerevisited · 4 years ago
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Maddie talks about depression.
Talking about depression is kinda hard because every time I do, I start to feel guilty because I know there are so many other people who have it worse than me. It’s not like I’m starving or abused or homeless. All my problems are just in my head, and a lot of it is my own laziness.
My depression comes from my anxiety and stress. While certain stressors are no longer part of my life —school was hell, and I’m very glad I don’t have to be there anymore— there are still many things which stress me out. First is my general incompetency and fear of never accomplishing anything.
Truth be told, I kinda suck at... everything. I can’t cook anything complicated, I don’t know how to pay taxes or bills, I can’t learn to drive because I’m terrified of death, I suck at social skills, and I’ve never had a job. In other words, I’m not independent, and it’s honestly really embarrassing and makes me feel guilty.
While I could learn how to do those first two more easily than the others, I really am genuinely scared of driving and I don’t know how to fix that. Quick candid run-down, I’ve tried antidepressants and therapy, but the only thing that’s helped is anti-anxiety medication (buspirone, for the curious). Even then, it’s not a magic fix.
For social skills... That’s a tough one. I have trouble making a keeping friends. Just a couple months ago I had a falling out with a friend, and it’s really bummed me out. I feel lonely a lot of the time. I don’t really know if social skills are something that can be learned. It doesn’t help that I have social anxiety on top of everything else.
As for a job... Just thinking about it causes me anxiety. I know it’s both a social obligation and (supposed to be) a point of pride, not to mention the money, but I’m terrified of feeling trapped again in the same way I did at school. Plus, to have a job I need to drive, which brings us back to my fear of death.
I’ve realized the only thing that can partially help that fear would be having children, but I don’t know how I’m going to manage that either. I’m not attractive, my personality isn’t that likable, and what’s worse I’m running out of time to find a husband. If a woman is over thirty, chances of her children being born unhealthy start to increase. That’s only five years away for me.
Of course before I can even start thinking of marriage and kids, I have to get my own life together, because how am I supposed to care for kids if I can’t even care for myself? Which brings me back to getting a job. The only thing I’m really good at is writing. My art is still too lacking for me to rely on it. I’m both a perfectionist and a procrastinator, which makes me feel even more guilty for being lazy if I’m not constantly working on something.
My greatest accomplishment in life is a half-finished rarepair fanfic featuring a character who— Well. I don’t even know if I know him anymore. For years I poured everything I had into Vanitas, and... I don’t think it’s an exaggeration to say this whole KHUX situation has broken my spirit.
I know that it’s ‘just fiction’ and I keep trying to tell myself that, but I know the truth is that Vanitas means so much more to me than ‘just fiction’. I’m not sure I could say exactly why he’s so important to me —though I have tried— but he just... is. 
I’ve already gone over my stress from online harassment. In some ways that, combined with the TOS on every website telling me that my art isn’t allowed, has really worn me down. Overall, everything combined makes me... not really want to create Kingdom Hearts content anymore. Which isn’t something anyone wants to hear. Trust me, I don’t want to stop, either, but... sometimes I wonder if I need to stop.
I feel like I need to stop thinking about Kingdom Hearts, about Vanitas, and focus on my own original writing, since thinking about what’s happening to him is making me so miserable. With original writing, there wouldn’t be any stupid retcons because I could control the characters. I could make all the characters 18+ to satisfy the stupid antis and TOS. I could sell my work and maybe that could become my job. I wouldn’t need to drive yet because I could do it in my own home.
But...
But if I abandon my fanfics, even just to go on a hiatus, then I’ll disappoint everyone. That’s my rock and my hard place. That’s guilt.
My mom paid $120,000 on my college tuition, and I wasted it and four whole years in a tiny dorm room on an animation degree that I’ll never use. That’s guilt.
Guilt is stress and stress is anxiety and anxiety is depression.
Everything, everything here, is just too much for me to handle and my mind gets overwhelmed and collapses and swirls into this abyss of grey. I just feel stuck in one place that I can’t get out of.
For the last couple weeks I’ve been a depression blob. That is to say, laying around and not doing anything. Not working because it’s too much effort. Not doing anything fun, because it’s too much effort. Not getting up to eat until I’m starving, because it’s too much effort. Just typing this all out is almost too much effort.
And this is where I come across as lazy and a complainer, because as I said, it’s all just in my head, and the guilt from that just makes me feel even worse. Other people handle life just fine. Why am I so bad at it?
...My biggest stressor right now is finishing this Venqua fic and making sure it’s perfect. It’s supposed to be funny and sexy but I feel like neither right now. But I really do want to finish it, and as soon as possible, because I know everyone’s excited and waiting on me.
I want to be able to have fun when I write. I don’t want it to feel like a chore. I think if I could just get through this one fic, then I can start on my original work and learn the life skills I need. But even then, chapter thirteen of A Heart and a Half would be next, and then fourteen, and so on. I don’t have time to do all these things at once.
I just don’t want to feel trapped.
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bluntforcefem · 3 years ago
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1, 18, 20, 23? :3
1. tell us about your current project(s)  – what’s it about, how’s progress, what do you love most about it?
i'm currently working on a neo:twewy au fic centered around the idea that all of the reapers are ghosts tied to a haunted house and fret n rindo are dumbass teens who get themselves in way over their head about it. i have the first chapter rough draft done and i'm working on the second? beyond that i know where its going but i havent outlined it fully. i probably wont! im having fun
my favorite bit about it is like... ultimately it is more of a comedy fic than it is a horror fic despite having horror elements because fret & rindo as protagonists are: like that, and also. the cast of the reapers are also just like that. sho calls you a factoring hectopascal and gets extremely offended if you ignore him on his trash heap. susukichi is a vaguely malicious frat bro. shiba and hishima are: extremely divorced. genuinely half the fun for me is writing the dialogue for these stupid fucks because they all Talk Very Uniquely (affectionate)
18. do any of your stories have alternative versions? (plotlines that you abandoned, aus of your own work, different characterisations?) tell us about them.
the kingdom hearts 12x100 i wrote was originally gonna be very different in like... tone? tone and content. i didn't originally plan on focusing on one organization member at a time, and was instead going to pin the focus on braig and brain exclusively; i realized like. 400 words in that i didn't like how that Framed the story. braig & brain are haunting the castle but the easiest way to see that is to look at the haunting from the view of the People Who Are Haunted
they did get one scene though because i do love writing them interacting. braig is a bitchy motherfucker and brain is extremely (that one khux cutscene vc) i'm going to become the virus that breaks this simulation. originally marluxia was going to remember brain as well! but i wanted the fic to stay somewhat canon-adjacent, so that was thrown out (another time, maybe)
20. tell us the meta about your writing that you really want to ramble to people about (symbolism you’ve included, character or relationship development that you love, hidden references, callbacks or clues for future scenes?)
i talk about axel & robbins to fucking death at this point but like. the slow reverse of the dynamic wherein robbins becomes the one who is connected to some sort of god and letting it change kit instead of it being axel. except robbins is in an infinitely healthier situation for it. drives me bonkers. it's also important to me wrt their avoidance of saying "i know" (in axel's case) / "i hate you" (in robbins' case) ESPECIALLY since the latter is just shit kit says to kits friends all the fucking time when they're pulling shit on each other but. the words have Too Much Weight And History when it comes to axel
and then axel generally just avoids saying "i know" because (gestures vaguely) he Doesn't and also he doesn't want other people thinking of him as the sort of person who is always Saying That (derogatory)
i have a lot of implicit dialogue rules for these two esp in convos with each other that i will occasionally break on purpose but like Man The Intricacies Sure Can
23. what’s the story idea you’ve had in your head for the longest?
(deep sigh) here comes ocs. i think i've talked about j pantheocide and hir whole deal enough but (strained) video killed the video star fucking haunts me. i started the concept up like 2?? years ago and the entire plot is what if twitch streamers could make their Bits happen in real life and started committing atrocities about it. sometimes you trap someone in a tv thats fine. sometimes you turn a guy into a bug thats fine. every single character i made for it is a complete asshole which tracks EXTREMELY
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snowflake-of-destruction · 4 years ago
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Naminè and Dorian Pavus!!
Naminè
Why I like them:
1)The mysteries about her. Why does she have a different voice than Xion or Kairi? Why does she look different from Kairi? Where does she get her powers? Does it mean something that her star charm in Re: CoM now, in retrospect, looks like it is the keychain off the Starlight keyblade? Why does she talk about being alone for so long in Chain of Memories and invoke  the feeling of long standing loneliness and solitude (for real, take a shot every time she says she waited/was alone “so long”), and have a fine tuned grasp of not only self but of powers that the Org probably couldn’t have taught her (though maybe Zexion could have helped a bit since he commands illusions), and,aside from power knowledge, personal knowledge on how exactly how to deconstruct Sora’s past when she had, supposedly, only been created at the same time as Roxas who was still figuring things out in general and barely had any Sora dreams at that time? Even Xion took longer to tap into Sora. Can we trust what we are told about her origins that answers some of these questions or has Kairi also been sheltering more people in her heart? 2) That she’s the embodiment of don’t confuse kindness or softness with weakness 3) That she retains a kind, trusting nature and wants to help despite what her life has been like
Why I don’t: Both not enough and too much done with her at the same time, if that makes sense. She shows up a lot of places, has a deus ex machina feel in some of them, and yet she doesn’t truly add anything in a lot of them or what she does do (like the Coded messages) then needs to be redone/re-explained from other sources, and I say that as someone who loves the character.
Favorite scene: I can’t think of a specific right now, though, a lot of her wistful drawing lives she thinks she can’t have scenes stick with me. Nerdy answer, but some of her explanations of how memories and her powers related to them work and what exactly she is doing to Sora. Lore and characterization implications
Favorite game: Chain of Memories
Favorite line: When she’s telling Sora that one day his light will be what brings everyone together and makes things right.
Favorite outfit: A few of the fandom blue dresses, but alas, there is only one canon outfit. 
OTP: The one part throws me off with a lot of characters because sometimes it just depends on the day. Is this a Namishi day or a Ventus/Naminè day? 
Brotp: Naminè and Sora 
Head Canon: Naminè would be able to fight the same way Relm does in FFVI. There’s a reason that Arrowny is my go-to last name for her 9/10 when I need one. To explain: Relm is an artist and magic user and her signature technique is to do a quick sketch of the monsters which then comes to life and attacks them (Doodle Bob before Spongebob existed). This would be obviously difficult to implement in a game unless it was turn based (though they could make it a special triangle action command ability), but this isn’t strictly for a future game, just something I think could/should be possible in universe and I might implement in a fic sometime. Honestly, every time someone says they want Nam to fight, but not be a keyblade wielder and start debating what she would do, I want to say this, even if I think the fact that she could be/already is a spellcaster is pretty much a given too.
Unpopular opinion: I don’t think evil!Naminè or, at the very least pushed-too-far-and-having-an-outburst Naminè is that much of a leap. IDK, the few people I have talked to about Naminè snapping and going off the rails, even if they were all for it, seemed to treat it as an alien concept, but nobody is arguing she doesn’t have power enough to be immediately dangerous and screw things up to the point where people are not easily fixed. We know, at least in the beginning that she can go morally questionable to be self-serving even if she regrets it/wants to reverse it/has lines she won’t cross later (at least in canon). We know she has potential to have an angry moment and lash out (see: her telling Repliku to stop and immediately taking him out with magic). Even though we see her subservient and pliant with the Org and then DiZ most of the time, that doesn’t mean that’s all there is, and if we want to talk Nobodies and Somebodies… Well, let’s compare  Roxas who demonstrates Sora’s repressed anger more easily but still has all his other traits, such as positivity and caring for friends to the point of...well, there’s no limit to it, nothing he wouldn’t do. Naminè is Kairi’s hidden insecurities and fear sometimes but she would also have Kairi’s desire to just fuck things up/fight/not get left behind just fighting to get out. Just my take. Cute and terrifying could be a thing. Almost anyone who has gotten me to talk about Naminè at length has seen the topic wander to Naminè murder spree or something like it. Aren’t you tired of being nice? Don’t you just want to go ape shit? 
A wish: Well, now it’s the previous answer, but, on a more serious note, I want to see Naminè getting to travel to see all the beauty in the worlds firsthand, to know people like her and she is not just a shadow, to help Ventus regain his memories of KHUX, and to make her own decisions.
An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: Making her into a sacrifice, her personhood only affirmed so she can make the decision to give life up for the greater good (again)
5 words to best describe them: dreamer, longing, witch, artist, enigma, 
My nickname for them: Nams or Nami, mostly so I don’t need to worry about the accented e.
I absolutely love Dorian Pavus, but I got long here, so you’ll see Dorian in a separate post and probably tomorrow.
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cq-studios · 7 months ago
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Would you like to share anything from or about your Ventus (& Strelitzia) fic ?
Sure, I’m in the midst of rewriting it right now (doing that technique where you write it again but only the parts you remember) and the original fic was never finished but I can give some snippets.
Untitled “everyone thinks Ventus has a crush on Strelitzia but he actually can’t stop thinking about her because he killed her” WIP below the cut
Sora had finally made it back. After a whole year of searching, Riku was able to guide him back to the Realm of Light. Ven, like the rest of them, was smiling so wide his cheeks hurt.
The thing was, they weren’t alone.
A girl stepped out of the portal behind them. She wore a white dress and red bows in her hair. Something in his heart itched.
She scanned the people surrounding her, giving everyone a glance. Then her eyes landed on Ven. And on Ven her eyes stayed, alight with fear.
Ven’s stomach sank with familiarity. His breathing quickened. The itch turned to a jackhammer, rattling his core.
He took a step back. Then another. Then another.
It’s her.
Who’s her?
He broke eye contact.
“Are you alright?” Xion looked up at him with earnesty.
Through the fading dread, Ven managed a shaky grin and a nod. The girl’s brow furrowed but, thankfully, she didn’t push. He wondered if he and Roxas made similar faces when they lied.
“Come on, introduce yourself,”
“H-hello, I’m Strelitzia”.
Strelitzia.
The name rang in his head like bells. A cacophony just like the end. Like a new beginning.
It’s all my fault.
What is?
“Aren’t you going to say hi, Ven?” Aqua asked, concern not even hidden as she passed by.
Everyone seemed to be introducing themselves now. Strelitzia looked a little overwhelmed by all the attention.
“Uh, maybe… I don’t want to be rude but she, uh… makes me feel” he grappled for a word, “weird”.
“Weird?”
He wasn’t sure that was a good enough word.
“Nervous?”
That didn’t feel right either.
Aqua paused for a moment, Ven could see the gears turning in her head.
“Alright”
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And then here’s a couple of scenes from the older version
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(This is a scene that takes place after poor Ven digs himself deeper into a hole lol)
Terra and Aqua shared a knowing look and big amused smiles.
“Wha-? What’s that look for?”
“It's just cute”
“Huh?”
“You like her, don’t you?”
“I-I guess,” why is this important? “She seems nice, bu-” He paused mid sentence when he realized his friends’ smiles were growing even wider, “wait. You mean-” his cheeks were on fire in an instant, hands flying to cover his face, “Ahh! No! Gross guys”.
“You are around that age,” “Past it even”.
“Lalala! Not listening,”
“‘I can’t stop thinking about her’,”
“Guys, seriously, stop. It’s not a crush!” His confidence faltered, “At least… I-I don’t think it is”.
Maybe crushes did feel this way. He wouldn’t know, he’d never had one. But if they were supposed to feel like this he couldn’t imagine why anyone would want the feeling. It was just so... so suffocating.
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“Kairi?”
“Hm?” The girl turned her head and eyed him expectantly.
Ven’s mouth suddenly felt like a desert. Was he really going to ask this? Was he even close enough with her to ask this? It’s a personal question. Maybe he shouldn’t bother.
No. He- He had to know.
He steeled his nerves and the question fell from his mouth, “do you have a- a crush on someone?”
The other wielder blinked in surprise and awkwardly, almost sympathetically replied, “Uh, yes, I do… why”
Ven felt so incredibly sheepish. In a voice barely louder than a whisper he asked, “What does it feel like?”
“Oh,” Something that resembled relief flashed in her expression, leaving Ven to wonder what she thought he was going to say, “(she’s supposed to describe it here but I don’t know how and I felt too awkward to ask someone lol)”
“So you don’t feel sick?”
“Feel sick?”
“That’s how I feel around Strelitzia…” “Aqua and Terra think I have a crush on her but-”
“But you aren’t sure”.
Ven shook his head
“Well, everyone’s different, but that doesn’t sound like a crush to me”
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theskylarkin · 4 years ago
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TheSkyLarkin’s Whumptober 2020 Completionist Post
Link to Ao3 Series
Specific Warnings/Trigger Information available at each link.
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Links to All Fanfics/Fanfic Chapters, Sorted By Day and Prompts Completed:
No. 1: “Let’s Hang Out Sometime” “Waking Up Restrained” “Hanging” – Fear Death by Water (ITV Endeavour)
No. 2: “In the Hands of the Enemy” “Kidnapped” – Roadkill Drive (Ant Man, MCU)
No. 3: “My Way or the Highway” “Manhandled” “Forced to their Knees” “Held at Gunpoint” – Roadkill Drive
No. 4: “Running Out of Time” “Buried Alive” “Collapsed Building” – What Lies Beneath (NNK2, The Gap in the Doorway AU)
No. 5: “Where Do You Think You’re Going?” “Rescue” “On the Run” “Failed Escape” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 1 (NNK2)
No. 6: “Please…” “No More” “Stop, please” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 2
No. 7: “I’ve Got You” “Carrying” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 3
No. 8: “Where Did Everybody Go?” “Abandoned” “Isolated” – I Know About the Human Heart (I Have Been Watching Yours) (KHUX)
No. 9: “For the Greater Good” “Take Me Instead” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 2
No. 10: “Blood Loss” “Internal Bleeding” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 4
No. 11: “Defiance” “Struggling” “Crying” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 5
No. 12: “I Think I’ve Broken Something” “Broken Down” “Broken Bones” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 5
No. 13: “Breathe In, Breathe Out” “Oxygen Mask” – dream as if you’ll live forever (NNK2, The Gap in the Doorway AU)
No. 14 -> Alt. 5: “Stoic Whumpees” – Shadows in the Looking-Glass (KH BBS)
No. 15: “Into the Unknown” “Magical Healing” “Science Gone Wrong” – Objects at Rest (Half-Life, Black Mesa Remake)
No. 16: “A Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day” “Forced to Beg” – Roadkill Drive
No. 17: “I Did Not See That Coming” “Wrongfully Accused”  – In Which History Repeats Itself (KHUX)
No. 18: “Panic Attacks” – Objects at Rest
No. 19: “Broken Hearts” “Grief” “Survivor’s Guilt” – A Thrice Broken Heart (KH3)
No. 20: “Toto, I Have a Feeling We’re Not in Kansas Anymore” “Lost” “Field Medicine” – Objects at Rest
No. 21: “Hypothermia” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 4
No. 22: “Drugged” – Perpetual Motion Chapter 1 (Half-Life, Black Mesa Remake)
No. 23: “Exhaustion” “Sleep Deprivation” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 7
No. 24: “You’re Not Making Any Sense” “Forced Mutism” – Perpetual Motion
No. 25: “I Think I’ll Just Collapse Right Here, Thanks” “Disorientation” “Blurred Vision” “Ringing Ears” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 7
No. 26: “Migraine” – In Which History Repeats Itself
No. 27: “Earthquake” “Extreme Weather” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 7
No. 28: “Mugged” – Career Day (NNK)
No. 29: “I Think I Need a Doctor” “Emergency Room” “Reluctant Bedrest” – dream as if you’ll live forever
No. 30: “Wound Reveal” “Ignoring An Injury” – When Nella Wasn’t There Chapter 3
No. 31: “Today’s Special: Torture” “Experiment” “Left for Dead” – Perpetual Motion Chapter 2
By Individual Fic:
Fear Death by Water (ITV Endeavour) - No. 1: “Let’s Hang Out Sometime” “Waking Up Restrained” “Hanging”
Roadkill Drive (MCU) - No. 2: “In the Hands of the Enemy” “Kidnapped”, No. 3: “My Way or the Highway” “Manhandled” “Forced to their Knees” “Held at Gunpoint”, No. 16: “A Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day” “Forced to Beg”
Career Day (NNK) - No. 28: “Mugged”
What Lies Beneath (NNK2, TGitD AU) - No. 4: “Running Out of Time” “Buried Alive” “Collapsed Building”
dream as if you’ll live forever (NNK2, TGinD AU) - No. 13: “Breathe In, Breathe Out” “Oxygen Mask”, No. 29: “I Think I Need a Doctor” “Emergency Room”
When Nella Wasn’t There (NNK2)
Chapter 1 - No. 5: “Where Do You Think You’re Going?” “Rescue” “On the Run” “Failed Escape”
Chapter 2 - No. 6: “Please…” “No More” “Stop, please”, No. 9: “For the Greater Good” “Take Me Instead”
Chapter 3 - No. 7: “I’ve Got You” “Carrying”, No. 30: “Wound Reveal” “Ignoring An Injury”
Chapter 4 - No. 10: “Blood Loss” “Internal Bleeding”, No. 21: “Hypothermia”
Chapter 5 - No. 11: “Defiance” “Struggling” “Crying”, No. 12: “I Think I’ve Broken Something” “Broken Down” “Broken Bones”
Chapter 6 - None
Chapter 7 - No. 23: “Exhaustion” “Sleep Deprivation”, No. 25: “I Think I’ll Just Collapse Right Here, Thanks” “Disorientation” “Blurred Vision” “Ringing Ears”, No. 27: “Earthquake” “Extreme Weather”
I Know About the Human Heart (I Have Been Watching Yours) (KHUX) - No. 8: “Where Did Everybody Go?” “Abandoned” “Isolated”
In Which History Repeats Itself (KHUX) - No. 17: “I Did Not See That Coming” “Wrongfully Accused”, No. 26: “Migraine”
Shadows in the Looking-Glass (KH BBS) - No. 14 -> Alt. 5: “Stoic Whumpees”
A Thrice Broken Heart (KH3) - No. 19: “Broken Hearts” “Grief” “Survivor’s Guilt”
Objects at Rest (Half-Life) - No. 15: “Into the Unknown” “Magical Healing” “Science Gone Wrong”, No. 18: “Panic Attacks”, No. 20: “Toto, I Have a Feeling We’re Not in Kansas Anymore” “Lost” “Field Medicine”
Perpetual Motion (Half-Life)
Chapter 1 - No. 22: “Drugged”, No. 24: “You’re Not Making Any Sense” “Forced Mutism”
Chapter 2 - No. 31: “Today’s Special: Torture” “Experiment” “Left for Dead”
Stats:
Fics/Fic Chapters Completed = 18 (10 One-Shots, 8 Fic Chapters)
Fandoms Written For = 6 (ITV Endeavour, MCU, Ni No Kuni 2, Kingdom Hearts, Half-Life, Ni No Kuni)
Days Completed = 31
Days Posted = 18
Individual Prompts Completed = 53
Themes as Prompts Competed = 20
Prompts + Themes Completed = 73
Approx. Word Count = 58.k+
This was my first month-long creation challenge ever and I managed to finish on time, yay! Thank you to the mods for putting this challenge together! Thank you to @apollosvotive​, @figureofdismay​, @1blackstar2​, @spiraling​, @a-cup-of-unrealitea​, @frelioan​, @memoriesofthealhambra​, @chaosintheavenue​, and @cherryslibrary​ for beta reading for me! And thank you to everyone who reads my fics!
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eternal-reverie · 5 years ago
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Lauriam/Marluxia for the character ask thing if you're still doing it? ^^
I had to scroll through my archives to find that post again sorry
OK. *cracks knuckles* Prepare for a really, really long answer ^^; 
First impression
For Marluxia, it was like this:
Sister: Hey look! *shows me 358/2 days opening*
Me: Whoa I guess everyone looks cool*sees marluxia for the first time ever*
Me: wow she’s gorgeous :D
Sister: No, that’s a guy…I think o_0
Me: :0 ???
I had the experience of seeing Marluxia in Days first, so hearing his voice for the first time in re:CoM was…a revelation. Then seeing his part of the story, my impression was while he was definitely one of the most wonderful looking characters I ever seen, he still was a bad guy that shows up once and with vague ambitions at the time. Back then, his motives were hard to pin down in the overall grand scheme of things. (There was a time when CoM felt irrelevant after kh2, besides the whole castle oblivion/land of departure thing)
Lauriam on the other hand, was a bigger whirlwind of impressions for me: 
Why is there kid Marluxia in khux??? 
Wait he’s a murderer now??? 
He’s just a kid though??? 
There’s no proof??? 
Why is everyone so mean???
*signs adoption papers* 
During the early updates, it was hard to gauge his personality if it was more arrogant and calculated or rather just formal and resolute. What gave me some hope was his smiling at Ven bounding into Foreteller’s room for the first time, and his words of comfort to Ven’s self doubt in that same scene. That, and Nomura asserting that Lauriam is simply Lauriam.
Impression now
Marluxia, after learning all the new information from khux and seeing him now post-kh3, I definitely appreciate him a lot more now. The mystery in figuring out how Lauriam links back to Marluxia is what caused me reexamine obsessively all his past scenes, and actively care more about his role in the story. Giving a character a solid backstory does wonders for intrigue lol
That extends over to Lauriam. I love him so much more to the nth degree. His concern for Strelitzia is really relatable to me since I grew up being the oldest, and also having had that harrowing experience of losing a younger sibling that was under my care. 
Favorite moment
I have so manyMarluxia: His final monologue in CoM, I feel like it’s a pretty defining moment for his character, baffled by these children willing to give up so much for each other despite the deceptions and strife that led them together in first place. That scene is now open to more interpretation too considering his backstory. It feels like it’s coming from a subconscious place.
In kh3, there’s two moments in particular. The way he just strolls into the tower in his first scene like 👀he has a very confident power walk.
Then there’s this moment when he’s asking Sora for a favor, and says “Please hear what I have to say.” The way he says it so amusing, like there’s a hint of him losing patience but gracefully recovers to keep propriety. I enjoy seeing his polite traits being pushed. He’s a pretty refined fellow.
Aaannnd I lied there’s a third moment. Seeing him at the end remembering his real identity was one of the best things I ever seen. His smile while thanking Sora broke and repaired my heart.
Oof I typed all that and I still didn’t get to Lauriam. Ok Top 3 moments: his making Ephemera laugh, Elrena pointing out he must really love his sister and him sheepishly confirming. Andddd him running inside that abandoned house, desperately yelling out Strelitzia’s name :DDD Honorable mention: Lauriam telling player to keep Strelitzia in their heart.
Idea for a story
…I have so many ideas for comics and fics that I have no time for atm because of school. 😞I really want to make a simple zine of Marluxia’s time in Corona exploring his thoughts about the past and future. The segment in the kh3 novel about him remembering but not fully grasping the memories motivated me even more. Also, it’s an excuse to illustrate the beautiful environments from the Corona world level. Like I wish we could take the camera and take pictures of him in that flower field??? *-*I have a historical au in the works too that has Streltizia and Lauriam as the main characters but I still have to plan it out more.
Unpopular opinion
He’s not really that flamboyant?? His appearance definitely pushes that impression but his manner in personality is a lot more subtle. Though he can be melodramatic in speech sometimes.🤔 My opinion of that isn’t hard and fast though.
I don’t think I have unpopular opinions about Lauriam. If I answered this last year, my unpopular opinion would’ve been that he’s a nice kid who would never commit murder in cold blood. and look what happened >:D
Favorite relationship
This section is making me wish we seen more interactions between characters and not just told they worked together in the background.
On Marluxia’s side of things, I definitely find his interactions with Vexen and Axel to be entertaining. They have these distinct, loud personalities and they contrast with his almost serene, cultivated person. If only we saw more interactions with Larxene 😩
Lauriam working together with all the union leaders and Elrena is a joy to see. I’m hoping one of these days they will give us the long awaited flashback scene of Strelitzia interacting with Lauriam. We see how much Lauriam cares for his little sister, deferring his union leader activities to search for her, but I wonder how she felt about him?
Favorite headcanon
Again I’m going to put multiple ones 
I have this headcanon of Marluxia, prior being appointed to lord of CO, as this real go-getter in the organization, trying to gain favor as much like Saix who was trying to do the same. Which sparks off a slight rivalry between them, but Marluxia hardly notices because he’d considers his real rivalry is with Xemnas who also barely notices him… (I think an interview segment from Nomura explaining how Marluxia got the CO position inspired this but it’s hard to find/confirm???)
Marluxia has some eye for interior design since his floor in CO is just FLOWERS. Everyone else finds this superfluous but he asserts he’s in charge. lord of the castle so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
and that’s why the pod that sora sleeps in flower shaped because Mar insisted to Vexen to match the aesthetic much to his irritation.
For Lauriam:
Strelitzia was the first to gain interest in tending plants and Lauriam casually joins in but is very bad at it. (All the plants he tends end up dying. He sends the poor things to Strelitzia to recover from his care.)
And so he prefers having cut flowers in his room instead
He has a sweet tooth and since he’s growing, he usually eats more than his fair share much to Strelizia’s frustration.
Strelitzia likes to practice nail art and Lauriam lets her practice on his nails. He returns the favor by giving her manicures too.
His waistcoat got one tear, and rather than repairing it or getting a new one, he decides to rip more tears to make it all have the same semblance. (I feel like he would apply that sort of thinking to a lot of other things. He’s a teenager.)
prior to the union leader thing, he probably was in a very active party that ranks high often with enforced lux quotas in order to do that. He’s quite successful in keeping up.
And due to being high ranked and visible, he’s pretty popular but he’s too cool to focus on that.
I have more but I’ll stop now. I made this way longer than it needed to be…
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oveliagirlhaditright · 5 years ago
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Defining Perfection - A KHUX Fic
Summary: A request by a user who chooses to remain anonymous. They wanted me to write a fic where the Foretellers used darkness instead of light, and Ava became the Master of Master's second over Ira: this is what I did with that idea. AU.
Author’s Note: So, a quick warning now: at the end of this fic—though only in the last little bit—the Master of Masters has feelings for Ava (she also has a bit of a crush on him, but that’s harmless). I KNOW that it’s problematic and messed up, but that’s sort of the point: the Master of MASTERS is problematic and messed up. But even while this is here, nothing inappropriate happens between them. He only tells Ava this to try and sway her from a suicide mission, and then tries to save her when she’s dying. That’s it. But still… if that’s too much for you, and you don’t want to read this, I understand. But the story just developed this way via the prompt: if the Foretellers are using darkness, something opposite of what they did in canon, that means a lot of other opposites that you wouldn’t expect from them should be happening with the characters. And since the theme of this story is darkness, go figure that it got a bit darker. But Gula and Ava is still the center pairing in this, if you can even say there is one here. And Ava does refer to everyone in her life as her new family—so sorry if it seems weird, then, that she has feelings for Gula and arguably the Master—but as no one’s actually related… and this happens in other media, I went with it. Also, once again, they’re dealing with darkness. So this is kind of a dark fic. Also, I know I sometimes write Sora as the Master of Masters or Gula in fics, and Kairi—as Ava—but I’m not doing any of that here. The Master of Masters, Gula, and Ava are all their own characters in this. And Gula and Ava get into a sad confrontation in this, because of a misunderstanding and the darkness but I swear it gets better! But enough yammering from me… Defining Perfection Ava’s PoV The Master of Masters sat stood before his Foretellers, in the tower that they called home, telling them what was presumably the truth of the land: a truth that Ava was having a hard time digesting. She supposed it made sense what he was saying now—that what they actually needed was a balance between light and darkness, since some of the medals from the future had darkness in them and apparently the world survived in some form by partly residing in the Realm of Darkness… And since the Master was now saying that since the Keyblade wielders had the light covered, that then meant that the Foretellers needed to be the darkness now. Aced was deeply upset by this, begging the Master of Masters to take it back. And while Aced was clearly the most vocal about his displeasure, it was clear that the others were unhappy, too: Gula was pacing back and forth, Invi was biting on her lip, and Ira had a hand reached towards their dear Master. But Ava, breathing a quick sigh, decided to be brave: this was what the world needed in order to survive, and she'd always choose that. "We'll do it, Master!” Ava said, in a far more chipper tone than she thought she had any right to. “We won't give up on our light entirely, but we'll work on the darkness." And this was how Ava became the Master of Masters' second-in-command. … In the end, giving herself over to the darkness—even just somewhat—ended up being harder than Ava thought it would be. But since she had been the first  to agree to this, she threw herself into her research to be a good example for her fellow Foretellers (especially Gula, who meant so much to her)… but it was still too much. Though Ava was loath to let it show. …She hated how cold darkness felt when one used it. If you used it to attack anyone—as she’d learned when she’d sparred with her adopted siblings, or whatever they were—the target would feel like you were freezing them to death. And even though heat hurt, Ava missed the burning effect of light much more. Warmth was everything good in the world, wasn’t it? Sometimes it was actually hard for Ava to think back to the perfect relationship she’d had with her friends and family, before they had been taken away from her… but she was glad that she had those memories (recollections of scrapbooking, jest skiing, and video editing with the family she chose, that was). And they made Ava glow, the way a star did—as one was supposed to feel—and made her even moreso think she’d maybe made a mistake in giving up on the light so easily… But the Master of Masters had insisted… And no matter what, Ava listened to what he had to say. So what was Ava trying to do right now? To create a barrier of darkness that would keep her from being harmed by anything, such as an icy feeling… something that felt somewhat ironic to Ava, because she still thought that darkness did the harming. But it was what it was… “What feeling?” the Master of Masters asked now, as he came into their gym to inspect her form, “do you think of when you draw upon the power of darkness, Ava?” And while everything else in her life might not have been easy anymore, this answer at least was. “…Selfishness,” Ava admitted, just as some hair fell loose from the bun she’d put it into, and it landed on her face. “…My brother, Atom’s, selfishness when he convinced me that he and I were aliens when we were little, just for fun… And my own there, for believing it—and wanting it to be true—and dreaming of leaving our perfect parents for something ‘better’. Not even caring how it would hurt them.” Ava was certain that her Master was staring at her now—though this was never an easy thing to tell, of course, because his face was always hidden beneath his hood. But Ava could still gather this by how he stood facing her, without moving or saying anything—and she thought she knew why… Even what she was “complaining of,” was still near perfection: so unlike the other children the Master of Masters had taken in. She had had it the best out of anyone in Daybreak Town… So did she really deserve to teach others about darkness, then? And she also guessed he was staring, because… this was arrogance on her part, she knew—another bit of darkness in her heart, so perhaps she had more to her than she knew—but Ava imagined that most people wouldn’t have even thought how such a dream could hurt their guardians… or give thought to anyone else at all, when it came to their passions. "Ava, I think you should go back to the light," the Master of Masters said out of the blue, just like that. And Ava knew that he sometimes used reverse psychology to get them to do what he wanted them to, so maybe that was what he meant for here… Except that he didn’t. He actually meant it. And it completely took Ava aback. "But... wouldn't that ruin all your plans?" Ava asked helplessly. Her respect and trust for the Master of Masters was one of the only constants she still had in this life. And she was doing what she now was—even against some of the other Foretellers' own ideas about it--for him. So to have the Master hinting that what she was doing was maybe now wrong, she didn't know what to do. And seeming in deep thought about the words he had just said himself—not at all like the always joking man that Ava knew—the Master finally voiced, "…Then I guess for now, just do what you think is best, Ava." And so she did... And since she hated quitting anything, and feeling like she was falling short, Ava threw herself went even further and nearly submitted to the darkness completely. …It would be the greatest mistake she had ever made. ... "…I like your pink dress, because it looks like your skin," Gula blurted out to Ava—rather ungracefully one day—when they were holding each other’s hands, after Ava had nearly fallen on Gula when they’d tried to get a box of keychains from the storage shed for the wielders. Gula’s outburst wasn't completely unexpected, because she and Gula were perhaps moving closer to taking the next grand step in their relationship: the physical, probably. And Gula was a guy, so of course he wanted her…. But for whatever reason, even though there was a part of Ava that wanted every part of Gula like nothing else in the world, she somehow couldn't help feeling hurt by what he’d just said: and that his mind seemed to be more on her body than her heart. So that was why she even blurted something out herself, "Gula, I’ve got to ask… do you think you’d want me so strongly, if we weren’t all experimenting with darkness now?" Ava instantly regretted this—especially when she took in the look on Gula's face—because lust was an emotion everyone felt. And though it could lead to darkness (or be caused by it), it didn't always. Wasn't that exactly what they were learning now? That emotions that they'd once associated with that element didn't have to go hand-in-hand? And as the own darkness in her heart called her many things here—for being so cruel, and probably a hypocrite—Ava found herself accepting that she deserved Gula’s harsh rebuttal, as he pulled away from her as if she’d burned him: "And because I was the loaner of the Foretellers--the dark one from the get-go—I assume you just think all I feel for you is lust. And that I felt it early, because I’ve always had darkness in my heart, huh?” But what Ava knew she didn't deserve, was Gula summoning his lightning bolt Keyblade to try and attack her with it. He aimed for her head. "Well, then, I’m ending the insulting idea that I want you in any shape or form right here!” "Gula, what is this?!" Ava cried, as she easily parried his blade. A hurt, lost part of her wondering if he was acting this way just because he thought he wouldn’t let him touch her… even though she knew that wasn’t the case at all. He must have just thought she was saying he’d always been evil, or something. But even that wasn't enough to warrant this overreaction in her eyes. "Gula… I swear I'm not just jumping to conclusions and hating on you here. I know what partners feel for each other. I’m just wondering if darkness could increase that… and am worried if you’re really yourself here. Gula, please! See reason!” But apparently Gula didn't believe Ava and didn’t want to see reason. He hit her Keyblade, with his own so hard, that he almost broke it. And he sent a thunder spell her way, that she thankfully easily blocked with water… and kicked her legs in, so that she toppled over and now couldn’t follow after him. She needed a cure first, but she was out of ethers and magic at the moment and she knew that he wouldn’t heal here. "Gula!" Ava exclaimed, tears streaming down her eyes now. Why- why was this happening?! She loved him! And things had been speeding up between them so much lately—in a good way—that they should have been getting close to saying their vows. But now- "It's over, Ava!" Gula growled out. "And since it's over with you—the only Foreteller I actually cared about—it is for me and the rest of them, too. I'm on my own now, like the Master originally wanted, so don't come near me!" But even with his bizarre spiel, Gula turned around once—to kiss Ava on the head one last time, it seemed—and then he was gone. And Ava wasn't at all surprised when she heard the next day, that he was trying to get more lux than anyone else was. ... On said next day, Ava went to see Invi in a secret room of the Foretellers'. And Invi was sitting in the throne that was stationed there and trying to summon a dark fire to her hand.: since they'd all realized they could somehow use the power of darkness better in this seat. Especially dark fire. “Inv…, do you think the Master made this dais to help us learn how to use the darkness better, when he eventually leaves us? Like he said he would?” Ava demanded, eager to know the truth. Because if she was now going to lose the two people most dear to her in her life… she honestly didn’t know what to do. Invi breathed heavily at the question, and Ava knew why. She, perhaps more than any of them, hated the idea of the Master of Masters leaving them. “…I don’t know, Ava,” Invi finally sighed out, willfully getting up from where she’d just sat and striding towards the room’s exit. Ava followed her. “It seems to me that he just made it for himself… which concerns me a bit. Because if that’s the case, what does it mean that he was always using the power of darkness? Ava… what if Superbia was never trustworthy, and we were fools to trust him?” At Invi’s complete and total act of betrayal here, Ava almost wanted to summon her own Keyblade and fight Invi, the way Gula just had her. But she kept herself from doing so, because she was better than that…for  she was the one the Master of Masters had once tasked with the idea of “Dandelions”. But she did still have it within her to question, “what are you saying, Invi?!” The two girls were in Invi’s favorite place in the world right now: the tower’s kitchen. And it actually grieved Ava, to know this because it seemed to her that Invi was almost getting rewarded for saying sacrilegious things. “If that’s the case- then what? He wanted to destroy the world?! Why would he do that? He lives in it, too!” Clearly, Invi had just been completely consumed by the darkness or something. That was the only thing that Ava could figure here—perhaps via the place they’d just been in, that  better connected them to the darkness. And if this was the result of that, it just had to be an oversight on the Master of Masters’ part… right? As Invi pinched the bridge of her nose, looking as though she had a migraine coming on, she only had this answer for Ava: “You haven’t been through what I have, so you probably don’t know how good parents can go bad. But since I do, let me tell you-“ But Ava wasn’t taking this patronizing tone. She knew well of what Invi had been through. They all did: her parents had essentially disowned her for allowing her racehorse to get injured. And that was horrible, it really was. And Ava had nothing but sympathy for Invi because of it… but Invi had no idea what she’d been through. And to say that the Master of Masters was anything like that- Ava wouldn’t believe it. Couldn’tbelieve it. Ava’s Keyblade had come to her hand now—since she was clearly so agitated—but it kept blinking in and out of existence, since it was as lost on what to do as she was. Ava could barely hear her own voice when she talked next, because she didn’t want to remember any of this… but at the same time, she did… and needed to, and that was that. “Invi, I do have an idea of your situation… I’ve never told anyone how I came to live here with you all… I had a golden life… I really did. With all walks of life—and things—in it, since my parents were always bouncing back and forth from middle class to higher class. But even when we were in the middle class, it was still higher middle class… But this was because my aunt, but mainly my uncle—my real legal guardians, after my real mother had me out of wedlock and wasn’t ready for me—was doing some illegal things: fraud, not paying his taxes. You name it. And all of that really isn’t so bad, right? …Except he did this to keep my brother—who- who now has died—and I at higher class, thinking it made us better that way. That we would end up being hellions, as I guess ‘all other children are’, if we got a taste of the lower-class life. My ‘dad’ went to jail, my ‘mom’ killed herself because she couldn’t handle it, and my brother was murdered by someone who hated my ‘dad’ for how he’d robbed him: the start of evil darkness in the world, probably. I was on the street for a week after that… that’s when the Master found me. “So, Invi: I know all too well what it’s like to be betrayed by an adult. But I swear the Master of Masters isn’t like that at all. He-“ “But what if I am?” came a sudden voice that seemed very close to the girls, but nowhere near them all at once… It was the Master of Master’s voice, no doubt. And since it was, Ava absolutely dreaded what he’d just said. The women looked around this way and that, trying to find their beloved Master. They even summoned their Keyblades to hand (it no longer blinking away from Ava now), thinking that maybe them doing so would make their senses more alert. And they closed their eyes, just trying to listen. But nothing. Though out of the corner of her eye, Ava thought she saw a white version of the Master’s robes billowing out the window. But if she had, the image was gone in a flash. But Invi must have seen it too, for the next day she was completely against the Master of Master’s ideas and stopped doing anything at all—thinking that perhaps he had died, and that had been his regretful spirit telling them he’d been wrong. … “Ira… do you think we did the right thing in trusting the Master of Masters, and deciding to use the power of darkness?” Ava asked, when she couldn’t stand the silence anymore… Not that it had been an uncomfortable silence in the slightest. But the weight of everything that had happened recently, with Gula, and Invi leaving (and Gula had taken her heart with him), was clearly heavy on their minds. And Ava hadn’t wanted some sort of disaster to happen between them, too, just because they were choosing to remain silent about these hard topics. At first, Ira seemed to have the same kind of mindset that Ava had had. He actually pricked his finger on a thorn—when Ava so greatly shocked him—and looked at her accusingly for it… Or so Ava thought he was, anyway, even though she couldn’t see his face from beneath his mask. “Ava… I would rather not believe anything heinous about our Master… But then again, hindsight does exist. And since the Master just disappeared, it’s impossible to know. “But… I feel like no matter what, we had to try something. If we had stuck with our original idea of gathering light as the Keyblade wielders are, would that have ended any differently? Or could we have eventually fought over lux, as noble as our intentions were, and doomed ourselves that way? …But we learned that the future has darkness and needs it, so we would have been fools to not try and created it now. Right? So even if that ends up destroying us, or our method before it would have done the trick, no one can say we didn’t try to find a peaceful solution or to weigh out our options. And if a world still manages to exist after our own one here, surely history will remember us for that.” It was a moving speech. And maybe in some way, Ava attempted to tell Ira just that as she put some of the dandelions into a flower crown around his head. It even made Ava believe that maybe she could avoid hating herself, and dreading everything, if the worst should come, and she raised a Keyblade against a fellow wielder herself. But she still couldn’t help feeling that too little was happening here. “Ira… I mean this with complete respect towards your character, of course, but it seems like you’re as willing to be inactive as I am now… and Invi is. Me, the person who started all of this, is now rooted to the spot because I don’t know what’s best or who to trust… and I despise having to say that. But I am just keeping a sharp eye on everything—so I’ll hopefully know when to intervene, if I have to—and praying for the best, I guess.” Ira, as her curled his lips in a look of disgust, definitely seemed insulted by Ava’s words at first. And Ava thought she knew why: before she’d risen as leader, in agreeing to use the power of darkness before anyone else had, there had been rumors of Ira being the one chosen to be the Master of Master’s right-hand man. So of course, it would kill him that Ava was saying he wasn’t being proactive. But thankfully, Ira swiftly recovered and told her with a rather shy smile, “Well, with Gula and Invi already flying off the handles—and us losing them that way—maybe staying calm is actually for the best.” And when out of the corner of her eye, Ava saw Aced essentially curb stomping new recruits to choose whoever was best for his new “power brigade”, or whatever it was called—his version of the Dandelions the Master of Masters had once tasked her with, but that hadn’t happened after he’d changed their roles—she couldn’t help but agree. “…Also, Ira… I actually don’t know if Gula’s out of the count yet. Yesterday, he sent me a letter—telling me he’s somewhere else and has figured everything out—and it had smiley faces all over it, which isn’t like him at all.” And as both Ava and Ira exchanged a look at this, she knew they were both confused… but Ava was also so very grateful. … Aced was the one who approached Ava the next day, when she was trying to be zen in clipping her Bonsai Tree. The situation that was growing between the other Foretellers now was horrid, it was, but you only lived once. And if it was true Ava was going to lose her life soon, she was going to make sure this little plant could survive even beyond her. “Ava,” Aced said, as he came into her room uninvited and slammed the door—almost hitting her—as he did so. He was completely unperturbed. “Since it seems like this War is inevitable—with Gula collecting so much lux before he ran away, that it’s ridiculous… and how I want to beat him for that, and Invi for skirting her own responsibilities—I want to at least be fair and tell you that all of my Key Kids, even the ones in a different Union than mine, will wait at the fated place on the morrow… and if none of you show up there, I’ll hunt you down here.” Tears stung Ava’s eyes, but she didn’t let them show. If this was the kind of person Aced had really chosen to be, he didn’t deserve the luxury of seeing her emotions. But she couldn’t believe Aced was doing this! Sure, some of the other Foretellers had had bad things to say about him—and even Ava had had her own issues with him, when he’d wanted to kill any Dark Chirithys before they’d opted to use the darkness—but he’d still held one of the purest and most beautiful hearts she’d ever known: that she might have even once said was brighter than any of theirs. So… why? Why did it end up like this? But seeming to see Ava’s feelings on the subject, despite her best effort to cover them up, Aced smiled at her sadly and even seemed near tears himself. “It’s just inevitable at this point, Ava. Deep down, we all knew that it was. But I have a plan here: I’ll make sure I win and summon Kingdom Hearts. Whoever opens Kingdom Hearts is said to be revived as a god. I’ll then use those powers to, perhaps, rewind time and make certain we don’t end up like this again. I’ll find a way. That’s a promise.” Ava wanted to slap him—or hug him, even—and explain that there were a lot of “what-ifs” in this scenario, so why was he trying to egg things on now? But she didn’t. Because as messed up as it was, Aced was the only one who’d deemed to give Ava any sense of hope through this inevitability. And if that was all she had, then she would heartbreakingly take that over the alternative: that eventually they had the Keyblade War, anyway, but with absolutely no promise there. So Ava was certain she’d try and help Aced and his pupils win the Keyblade War… but a returned Master of Masters, wearing the white robe that she and Invi had seen before, would try and stop her. … It was when Ava was suiting up for the Keyblade War—thinking of trying out this armor that she’d just heard about—that the Master of Masters approached her by grabbing the end of her coat sleeve… something that was so unlike him, that it instantly took Ava’s breath away. The Foretellers were the ones who usually hugged him in adoration. Or if he did touch any of them, it was usually a hard clap on their shoulder or something. This act of… love definitely seemed off somehow. Ava would have been lying if she said she hadn’t had a crush on the Master of Masters in the beginning—as messed up as that was—and though Ava had lied to herself about their being signs between them back then… only now—as he actually showed her his face and gave her an imploring eye)—was he really giving her one. “Ava, don’t do this.” She was shaking right in front of where her Bonsai Tree was now. And Ava fell into a deep depression, when with those movements she knocked it onto the floor and shattered the vase… Was there no chance it would survive now, either? Sure, she could probably have replanted it, but she didn’t have a vase or time! Which was why she began to sob, when she whirled around on one who she loved so much. “I- I have to, Master! Maybe you could’ve stopped this if you hadn’t disappeared… but it’s too late now! If we don’t go to the fated place, Aced will bring the War here… and I don’t want that. I’ve allowed those who are too afraid to fight, to bow out of going to the Keyblade Graveyard. But if Aced comes here, they might still get swept up in-” “I mean don’t fight in this War at all, Ava! Find a way to avoid it! And don’t listen to anything I ever said in the past. Kingdom Hearts above, don’t listen to any of that… I’m the villain of this story, Ava. I wanted Kingdom Hearts for myself… to turn the world to pure darkness. And I decided, in the end, that turning you guys to darkness would speed that process up and probably give me the X-Blade to open it, when you clashed with the light-wielding Keybearers… “But it was seeing what darkness did to you, how it turned those I did care about—despite myself—into completely different people… you especially, who was always too good for any of this… it made me change my mind about all of it. So stop it now, Ava. I’m begging you.” Tears probably streamed down Ava’s face in a torrent here, and she was humiliated because she was sure her face must have just looked like waterfalls—and the part of her that had once wanted to be the model specimen for this man, hated her lack of poise here—but she couldn’t care about that now. Instead, she had to go up to the Master—no, Superbia’s—face, and try to cover his mouth as he spoke because she couldn’t hear any of this. Because if any of this was at all true, then it meant Ava’s entire life was a lie… and actually, maybe in that lied the answer. She couldn’t livelike this anymore! And when she began laughing hysterically, as her life completely fell apart all around her, that she should have taken a step back and realized that she was in trouble. “Ava… the look in your eyes right now is one of craziness. And that’s coming from someone who’s fruitier than a fruitcake. What are you planning?” Was Ava imagining it… or was Superbia—no, the Master of Masters—trying to hug or restrain her now? No, that couldn’t have been it! Hadn’t she already established that none of this could be happening with him? Not when the Master was aloof with everyone who existed, even her… So that could only mean one thing: surely that was it, because her life couldn’t be this bad. It just couldn’t. “This must be a dream,” Ava whispered rubbing her eyes, largely to try and stop herself from seeing her fallen tree again and her Master’s handsome face. “Or it’s a trick of the light—perhaps our true enemy, like maybe you were getting at before--because you… you left, like everyone I’ve ever loved has done. You left us for good, for some reason… And you being here now is too good to be true. So that must mean nothing has changed, and I must go fight in this God forsaken War to keep to your ideals now. Goodbye, Dream.” “Ava, don’t.” This man, whoever or whatever he was—because he wasn’t the Master of Masters, he wasn’t—grabbed onto Ava’s wrist again to halt her. But it wasn’t enough… Because this thing didn’t want to hurt her, it seemed—which meant she could get away from him far too easily, whereas the Master would have made sure to leave a mark on her if he hadn’t wanted her to move. Ava escaped with her wits intact—or were they?—and headed towards the fated place with her Union members instantly understanding and following suit behind her…. and Ava swung, swung, swung her Keyblade there on autopilot: not really knowing or seeing anything. She did think she must have been bleeding a lot, though, and perhaps others were, too… how she missed Gula: perhaps the only ray of sunshine that she’d ever had in her life. And Invi and Ira’s logic. It was only as she laid down dying, that everything came to Ava with sudden clarity and she could greatly regret her actions. The “dream” hadn’t been that at all. That had really been the Master of Masters, looking for her to repent him of his sins… and she hadn’t listened to him, because she was too afraid to… and now the world was ending, with all these hearts going up to Kingdom Hearts, for no reason! None at all! During the battle, the Master of Masters did show up on the battlefield—completely unarmed (Luxu, too, surely under the Master’s command. But he didn’t do much)—and he did more than just try to stop Ava. Like, he tried to halt Invi—who had come back with a vengeance—but eventually he did get to Ava. And of course he would—a now cynical part of her thought—he “loved her”, whatever that meant… And that was disgusting, as everything else he’d done was disgusting. So when he was hovering over her, looking for a pulse, she found a last bit of strength within herself to rise up and stab him in the heart. So, in the end, they would die in some vein of Romeo and Juliet… So perhaps they had some sort of star-crossed lovers’ thing going on between them, after all. …Or moreover, she and Gula did. Because Gula—unlike what she’d thought with Aced—was the only good thing she could cling to as she died. Gula cradled her body and apologized profusely for the way he’d treated her in their last encounter together. He said he’d actually realized right away that he’d been wrong to treat her as such, since in his own words “she was always right”. Gula had then found pages pluralmissing from the Book of Prophecies, that spoke of the only one who could have saved them from all from his catastrophe: Sora. So Gula’d actively looked for a way to get to the future and reach to him—and he’d only pretended that he was after lux, to throw off the Master of Masters who Gula had begun to doubt—and he had gone and gotten Sora and brought him here… but it was too late. He’d gotten back too late. But Sora was needed to see the world to a better future, and now that he was here with Gula… they would make sure that happened and see to the survivors. Ava was sure of it. So maybe she could rest in peace, after all. Ava closed her eyes, squeezing Gula’s hand like she had always loved doing, and wished that she could get a millionth chance to do it. But she didn’t. But from the final resting place, Ava saw that Gula reaching his hand out to where she was in the sky—clearly, he’d understood her last wish and felt the same—and Ava was able to smile in perfection again.
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so hey.......y’all remember when i said that sometimes, just for fun and the hell of it, i make lists of “endgame” ships in my fandoms? bc yeah, that’s a thing that i do sometimes. XD
having now finished kh3, i’ve finally finished my endgame ship list for kh, and i figured that it might be a fun thing to share!
the actual list i’m gonna put behind a cut, bc it’ll be hella long (bc seriously.....i put about 95% of the characters into ships, and this includes all of the humanoid-ish disney characters too (barring most of the villains, bc....well, those characters are dead)), but before that, i’ll give you some....idk, context behind this list. 
keep in mind, this entire affair is just like........gonna involve a fuck-ton of indulgence on my part. and most of this is fairly light-hearted. most importantly of all, this is pretty much a self-challenge: i paired up the majority of the characters just to see if i could, with the additional challenge that i could only pair them with characters that actually, canonically, have appeared in kh (this means that i couldn’t substitute in other final fantasy or disney characters); i did this to see how creative i could get with my ships, really. 
idk if i’ll ever actually get around to writing fanfic for this verse (tho i do have a lot of headcanons, and i’ve actually put (probably far too much) thought into how i think these ships would work/come about, and my long-suffering friend Ip, bless her, has been an incredibly good sport about being a sounding board for all this), but i tend to refer to it as my “Healing Vision”, and it’s basically a post-kh3 AU, that presumes that everyone but xehanort (and also eraqus) got to live happily ever after. and this verse is so named bc, apart from everyone being able to heal and be happy after the traumatic canon, i also wanted to do my absolute best to put them in.....idk, healthy ships, and not ones that i think would be more toxic. everyone had redemption arcs, is what i’m saying (even if they never did or would have gotten them in canon).
y’all don’t understand, at this point i probably have over a hundred pages in various word docs of notes about this verse, so please feel free to ask if you want to hear more about it, i need validation of my madness---
anyway, here we go!
just so that there isn’t just a massive wall of text, i’m gonna break this up into roughly 2 sections: square/original kh characters, and then the rest of the disney characters.
Square/original KH characters:
Olette/Xion/Namine/Sora/Riku [OXN, SoNami, & SoRiku], Shiki/Kairi/Selphie, Axel/Saix, Hayner/Roxas, Terra/Cinderella, Aqua/Larxene/Yuffie, Repliku/Vanitas, Ven/Beat [more friends w/ benefits], Xigbar/Luxord, Aeleus/Even, Ienzo/Demyx, Sora’s Mom/Dilan, (Cinderella’s) Prince Charming/Marluxia, Geppetto/Ansem, Tidus/Wakka, Zack/Cloud/Leon, Aerith/Tifa, Cid/Auron, Fuu/Tinker Bell, Seifer/Rai, Jack Sparrow/Setzer, Boo/Vivi [platonic], Rikku/Paine, Yuna/Elsa, Neku/Joshua, Rhyme/Snow White, Hiro/Pence, & Eraqus/Xehanort [together in death]
i have no idea what’s going on with the khux characters going forward, and atm they don’t really have anything to do this AU, but assuming they’re alive and they’re all their own characters, at least for the time being, those ships would be: Skuld/Strelitzia, Ava/Ephemer, Invi/Ira/Aced, Gula/Brain, and Sephiroth/Master of Masters (but again, these are more tentative, and i don’t actually care about these characters, really)
Disney characters:
(again, keep in mind that these are only the humanoid or really anthropomorphic characters; ones that are straight up animals, like simba for example, were not included)
Mickey/Minnie/Daisy/Donald/Goofy [M/M, D/D, MinDaisy, & qpt Donald/Goofy], Horace Horsecollar/Pete, Clarabelle Cow/Clara Cluck, Hercules/Meg, Tarzan/Jane, Aladdin/Jasmine, Ariel/Eric, Belle/Beast, Lumiere/Cogsworth, Will/Elizabeth, Quasimodo/Phoebus/Esmeralda, Kristoff/Anna/Rapunzel/Eugene, Maleficent/Aurora/Mulan/Shang/Phillip [Malora, Philora, Mulora, Mulan/Shang, Phillip/Shang], Alice/Wendy, Peter/Wendy [qpt], Peter/Tinker Bell [qpt], (BatB) Chip/Pinocchio, Anastasia/Chien Po, Yao/Prince (from Snow White), Ling/Drizella, Merlin/Yen Sid, Hades/Genie, Mrs. Potts/Flora, Merryweather/Triton, Hook/Smee, Doc/Grumpy, Blue Fairy/Dopey, Fairy Godmother/Happy, Fauna/Bashful, Slightly/Cubby [platonic], Calypso/Barbossa, Sam Flynn/Quorra, Queen of Hearts/Agrabah Merchant, (BatB) Wardrobe/Gibbs, Emperor/Sleepy [his cuddle-cubine, if you will], Grand Duke/Sneezy, Mike/Sulley, Woody/Buzz, Honey Lemon/Go Go, Wasabi/Fred, Baymax/Tron/Baymax, & Phil/Zeus
Assorted Notes:
- should probably mention that all the worlds are just vaguely All Connected Now
- ven and hercules dated in bbs (then the Plot happened, ven pretty much vanished, and eventually herc moved on. they’re a bit awkward with each other now, but they agreed it’d be too weird to even attempt to date now, bc herc outgrew ven while he was in a magic coma)
- zack’s alive bc they forced hades to resurrect him like he did with auron (my hc is that the deal he made with cloud in kh1 was to bring zack back to life, but hades reneged on this; when cloud finally shared this info with sora, a Quest was undertaken to get hades to honor the deal)
- repliku’s name in this verse is Kiru (he decided to go along with the Theme, minus the sigil); sora’s mom is named Hikari; and i’m going with henry and florian for the real names of prince charming and snow’s prince, respectively (marluxia will probably still call henry “charming” as a sort of affectionate and kind of joking nickname (bc in this verse, henry is the definition of a Disaster Gay))
- goofy and pete dated in the past, but broke up with goofy came out as aroace; pete’s still kinda bitter about it
- aqua/larxene/yuffie is 100% a thing bc i feel that aqua deserves to be able to have fun and not be the responsible mom friend for once; aqua and cinderella also have some playful flirting, but it’s never really serious
- terra’s getting a staycation with his girlfriend, and aqua’s getting a vacation with her girlfriends 
- olette/xion/namine/sora/riku is Peak indulgence for me; i love namixiolette, sonami, and soriku too much to want to choose between them? fuck it, they’re all smushed together in a poly pile now. this is my indulgence fic, i can do what i want, and none of you can stop me XP (the other sub-ship combos, riku with any of the girls, and sora with the other two girls, are more queerplatonic, ftr)
- there’s like a whole soap opera behind mickey/minnie/daisy/donald/goofy coming to their current arrangement, mostly bc the idea of giving all the Drama to these characters in particular amuses me; same with past goofy/pete
- a recurring Theme in this verse is that compulsory heterosexuality is the true darkness, and pretty much no one is straight (and so, light = gay) (this is how the final confrontation in kh3 truly went down: sora: kingdom hearts, is gay! / xehanort: shit...u right, bro. kk, lemme just fade into the light of gay with my bf then)
- sephiroth in this verse is mostly just a vehicle for me to be able to mildly punish terrible lightside mentors, so this ship with the MoM is kinda a cracky spite ship (before kh3 went all in on xehaqus, this was eraqus’s original fate XD)
- i will admit, gula/brain is mostly just me going, “you both really annoy me, and i don’t care to find you better ships, so you two can deserve each other”; to be fair to myself, this attitude was on the rarer side during this process
- hiro totally builds a robot body for tron to use to visit the outside world, tho he still chooses to live in the computer most of the time; tron’s besties with baymax 1 & 2
- i’ll be honest: scrooge, huey, dewey, louie, chip, dale, and possibly jiminy, by my rules, should have been put into ships. they’re not bc i couldn’t find any that worked for me *shrugs*
- phil is more like zeus’s on and off again boyfriend; he’s really fucking annoyed that he keeps having to train a lot of zeus’s offspring, and that he kinda, in a way, ends up doing more parenting for them than zeus does; currently phil is kinda claiming herc away from zeus (”i’m his dad now, so there”) (so at this point, their relationship is more of a hatemance than anything else) (i guess in my hc, zeus skews more towards being like his myth self than the disney version)
- the total number of ships, if you’re curious, is 75
- i’ve actually got queer headcanons for the square characters (excluding the khux squad), and some of the disney characters, figured out (as an example, namine is a demiromantic asexual)
okay, i think i’ll stop here for now, tho of course i might tweak or add things later XD
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my personal good things of 2018 list
told ya I would get it done today
I did myself a favour and dropped this really tough philosophy class after 3 weeks of pain. It felt so good to let it go
we got Chikai/Don’t Think Twice!! I listened to it throughout the entire year
I started writing my self-indulgent fic Steadfast. It’s…still not done but I made a lot of progress in a year. Maybe I’ll upload the first chapter soon…..
I had a bunch of kitchen classes in which I got to make food with a lot of really nice people
addition to that: I skipped out on a class assignment in the kitchen with a stranger like a rebel (and we didn’t get caught). We got iced cappuccinos and just talked for like an hour, and it was one of the most unusual but amazing things that happened during the school year
After that, in April, things went bad.
“But Roadie,” You question, “I thought this was supposed to be your good things list.” and yeah, it still is, since the bad lead to the good.
That being said, things like losing sleep, being alone for several weeks, and even outright sobbing on the floor didn’t stop me from getting back up afterwards. I have my friends to thank for helping me through it (even if they don’t know they did) but I’d also like to give myself some credit for not giving up despite being so close to doing so
okay! now that the depressing stuff is out of the way, my summer was great!! I got to spend more time with people I care about, and even tried some new things, which mostly involved traveling downtown with a friend for a little adventure
one of those little adventures was to the art gallery, where we got to see Yayoi Kusama’s Infinity Rooms (after lining up for an hour or two), which were absolutely stunning
this has been a good year for art in general, since I learned how to make string bracelets, and I feel like I was also able to improve on my art style a bit, especially by participating in my first inktober!
but back to the summer stuff
I also took a class during the summer about comics. Since it was only that class, it was really nice to have my focus entirely on it, and it was a very interesting class too
I also got my first job! A temporary one, but I feel like I learned a lot and even met some great people there
then it was my birthday, and I got more birthday asks than I knew what to do with, and it filled my heart with so much joy. Sometimes I reread them just because they were all so sweet. Thank you again, everyone! ❤️❤️❤️
KH ORCHESTRA!!!! For most of it, I was just sitting there with my jaw dropped because it kept blowing me away
I passed the written test for a driver’s license and even drove my dad’s car a tiny bit…..we’ll see if I have the courage to do some actual driving next year 😳💦
I watched Tangled the Series and Deltora Quest with @aqua-phoric!!
Classic Kingdom was released! I got addicted to it immediately and finished the objectives for Starlight a few days after it came out 😅
I received an award for my food history class from the previous semester (the one where I would sometimes have classes in the kitchen)
the semester I just had was actually pretty pleasant. Of course I got stressed a few times but that was just because of deadlines, and never about the classes themselves
KHX NOVEL REVEAL YEAH BABEY!!!!
I got into watching The NyanCave, and seeing them play through the entire kh series was just really awesome and I’m glad I found them
I met so many fantastic people this year and I’m forever grateful to all of them for making my days so much brighter in their own various ways, but I’m gonna give a shout out to @stresslitzia for being a sweet snazzy cat and especially for appreciating my bad puns like the good friend she is 😌👌
KHUX FINALLY UPDATED THE MAIN STORY AFTER SO LONG……and snatched us all by the neck with the siblings reveal
I binged all of She-Ra, loved it, and I’m in the middle of working through RWBY right now, which I’m also loving so far
I didn’t make a post about it bc I didn’t really want a lot of attention and whatever but I now own a PS4 for the sole purpose of playing kh3 on it (though I might still watch cutscenes at some point whenever someone uploads them bc I’m impatient and need to consume the story immediately)
KHX NOVEL COVER REVEALED AND MY KIDS LOOK SO CUTE
I watched Into the Spiderverse and it was soooo cool. I’d love to watch it again sometime
and…..I think that’s a wrap! Hopefully I didn’t leave anything out!
may 2019 be good to us all ⭐️
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