#sometimes I think 'I should make a [fursona/gnomesona] just as an easily simplified standin for silly doodles' | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

blujayonthewing · 28 days ago

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I've realized that the problem with fursonas is that trying to engage with the concept feels exactly the same as when I was a little kid trying to have an imaginary friend; it sounds like fun, it looks like the other kids are enjoying it, it lowkey feels like something I, personally, should have, but whenever I try it just feels forced and fake and like I don't know how to do it, or that I'm doing it Wrong

#'there is no right way to do it!' opposite of helpful actually #I appreciate the sentiment but it just makes me uneasy :')#is a sona meant to be an avatar of my actual self or an OC I project onto and/ or allow to be my representative or??#'oh it can be any or all of those things or something else' okay BYE that's too broad for me dhksfksldjk I am UNEASY #I AM DAUNTED BY THE COMPLEXITIES AND UNKNOWNS #just feels fake when I do it. I dunno.#sometimes I think 'I should make a [fursona/gnomesona] just as an easily simplified standin for silly doodles'#and even THAT I so badly overthink that I get stressed out and can't do it even though I know what the intended usecase is ahdjflshsks #.... there's also a...... fear of 'portraying myself wrong' here I think.#okay if it's supposed to just Be Me then how much am I Allowed to deviate in character design #(and how much would I even want to before it feels like that's not me anymore)#DUMB. STUPID. HOW COME THE OTHER KIDS CAN DO IT #I have a good imagination in general but I ALSO... am very detail oriented and literal-minded I fear :')#me@ my brain cmon play in the space.... you love playing in a space.......#about me

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