#sometimes I feel ancient on this hellsite guys

[twilight-owl]

Some people are not available to be convinced. It is not my responsibility to spend energy on a thankless task.

Instead I will simply say. I see your anger, and I see you lash out at those around you in hurtful, unhelpful ways.

I just hope for your sake that someday you'll see how you're hurting everyone with your actions too. No one wants to be alone, and I don't think you do either.

It's hard not being angry, especially right now. You're allowed to be angry! (God knows I certainly am!) But that doesn't mean that purposely going around and hurting others is appropriate either.

[azems-familiar]

this is a pinned post i guess

Welcome to my blog!

My name is Liadan or Lee, but I'll respond to various shortenings of the urls I've had over the years, so don't feel fussed to change how you think of me in your head if that's the case. I'm in my mid-20s and have been on this hellsite since 2016. I use either they/them or xe/xem pronouns and am a trans, bigender, ace butch, happily engaged to my qpp @ipreferfiction. I am proship, anti-censorship, and not afraid to use the block button if you start causing me problems.

I don't have sideblogs so all content I find interesting or relevant will be here on this blog. Ask to tag if there's something you'd like to filter out - I can't guarantee I'll remember it, but I do my best. All politics go under #politics. Big current events will usually go under #current events if I remember. I try to tag fandoms but that doesn't always particularly work. My personal textpost tag is #ramblings. For things I create, look under #my edits (screenshots/virtual photography), #my writing (snippets and whatnot), and #my fic (full-length fic posts or links). My ask tag is #asked and answered; my tag game tag is #things i'm tagged in; any ask games I reblog will be tagged with #ask me thiiings. Ultimately, this is my own personal space; I will do my best to adjust for other people's comfort but I won't completely put myself into a box for it.

If we're mutuals, I will politely ask you to tag posts with bug pictures/etc in them with #bug - I have a bug phobia and while I do my best to curate on my own, sometimes i still get images on my dash and that's definitely not the most enjoyable thing.

My current main fandom is ffxiv, but there will be occasional posting about star wars (especially swtor and kotor), dragon age (especially with the new game coming out), mass effect, and other various things I find interesting. I have ocs in most of the above fandoms, and tag them all as #oc: [name here]! Just in case you'd like to go looking for them.

There will be Lalafell/Non-Lalafell shipping on this blog. If that bothers you, unfollow me/block me/hit the back arrow now. I will not tolerate harassment for it. This is your only warning.

FFXIV OC Directory

Links will be added here as I write actual posts for these guys! First name is their current incarnation as of the Seventh Astral Era, second is their original, Unsundered, ancient self. Any in-between reincarnations will be in bulleted lists beneath the main headings.

Lelesu Lesu // Seleukos (MAIN)

G'lyhhia Heleh (Third Astral Era)

Rhaya Wolndara // Kyriaki

Savvel // Athanasios

Seika Valeriant // Psyche

Fic Directory

I use various pseuds on AO3 to separate by fandom. That said...

FFXIV fics:

your boldness stands alone among the wreck (series): Catch-all series for everything related to Lelesu's and Corrain's shared universe. Childhood friends Helios and Seleukos rise to prominence in their society, building a home for themselves, only to watch it all come crashing down during worldwide calamity. Lelesu and Corrain, both chosen by Hydaelyn, struggle to navigate the life of a hero among personal griefs, world-ending threats, far too many politics, thirteen-thousand-year-old pasts returning to haunt them...and the trials and tribulations of crushes.

in the shadow of the sun (series): Broken by grief inflicted during the Final Days and tempered to Zodiark besides, Azem - an Unsundered Ascian - discovers the fragmented soul of their lost best friend in Corrain, the Warrior of Light. Unable to stay away from him, Azem slowly learns how to live again among the loss, and how to look to the future instead of stay mired in a nostalgia- and pain-tinted view of the past that never truly existed.

Both the above series are cowritten with @sunderedazem, and Corrain and Helios belong to him.

All Star Wars fics can be found here

MDZS/The Untamed

[terrania]

The masked figure leading you has stopped here. Before you, there’s a small temple. It looks ancient, but not unknowable, because of its’ size. Shrugging, you head in.

This temple is kind of disappointing. There’s nothing here. All you see is a couple dilapidated walls and ivy, illuminated by sunset. Just when you’re about to ask that guy with the mask “hey what the fuck”, you spot a small hole that looks like you can barely fit through, and a ladder in it. Obviously, you go in. Why wouldn’t you?

When you finish climbing down, you feel some sense of dread. I don’t know what your specific phobias are, but there’s definitely either one of those, or some weird wall art of one of those. Still, you keep going, because uh either you want to loot this temple or you want to like do a museum with it or some weird spiritual third thing. You notice a stack of pamphlets on a table, and take one.

You start walking through the halls. The walls here are made of wood, but yet it somehow didn’t rot, which is weird given that this temple is, uh, -450 years old? that can’t be right, but it obviously can’t be 02E- either. You’re also pretty sure that this pamphlet says that the top part is 200 years old, so honestly either you or the person writing these things needs to check their sources more often.

Anyway, on each wall, there’s a whole bunch of graffiti, but it’s, like, weird graffiti? Each wall, regardless of length, has a phrase and some strange and meaningless words and pictures. Also, there’s a weird way that they’re writing, too- the best way that I can convey it, given that I’m writing that very same way, is to say that there’s a strange sense of order, and order in strange places. Not going to elaborate on that.

As you walk, you notice two things. The first is that the walls are becoming more and more reflective which probably means you’re going through this maze correctly, and the second is that some of these walls have graffiti from other walls. These are usually reactions, but sometimes they’re just placing the things here without adding anything else. This strikes you as strange, but everything here has struck you as strange, so it doesn’t count.

While you’re thinking that, you bump into a large and tall stone door. Obviously, you open it, because what else would you do? Not open it? Then what would the point of going into this stupid temple be? Anyway, I digress. You head through this door.

Inside, there’s nothing but a pedestal with a strange device. Since you’re still from the renaissance or whatever, you don’t know what to compare it to, but if you were from the 21st century, you’d identify it as, like, one of those laser pointers with out any mouse symbolism, and also the laser part is larger and doesn’t do a laser????????????

You just sort of leave the room with the loot, as there’s nothing in there. After walking back for a cool 20 seconds, you realize that this thing might work with some of the things in this temple? There’re a whole bunch of circular images next to those unique phrases, so maybe you could just place it there and press the button? You then do that.

There’s a flash of light, and you open your eyes in a tall, circular room, with windows on each wall. In the center, there’s a giant coffin. With nothing else do do in this room, all you can do is open this coffin. So, like, you do that. That very second, some unknown force pushes you back. as you just sort of sit on the floor I guess, a large, horrible, giant silloette rises out of the ground.

“white hot chocolate”

He then does everything that I said he did again, but in reverse.

And here you are. Still in this room. Fully surrounded by windows, cold, alone, and tired, while the coffin slowly lowers into the ground and the floor closes. 

A door opens behind you.

You exit, uh, the room where you found the strange machine again? Now you’re back in the maze with a shit-ton of graffiti, except for two things- 1, the graffiti is glowing now, and 2, occasionally, you’ll find a new bit of graffiti that’s a reply to the phrase “white hot chocolate”. While you ponder this situation, you find a third difference: there’s no exit ladder now.

All you find is a white, glowing circle.

Obviously, you do the circle thing again, because who wouldn’t? That’s pretty much all you can do here. That same flash of light appears again, and this time you’re in an empty version of that same tall, strange room. The only thing in this room is a large stone tablet.

Your strange device turns into a pen. It is very quirky.

All you can do here is write a new name for yourself, summarize your personality, and do that again but longer.

Once you’re finished with that, the stone thing turns around, and it seems that you can write anything there. Before you do that, however, you go out of this room again, and see that someone has organized the things that people wrote linearly.

You stay here, In this massive echo chamber, for hundreds of years- just unable to die, like the hellsite you’re in. You sort of make friends here, but mostly stay quiet, until eventually you wake up in reddit, which my next creative writing piece will be on.

Would that be fucked up or what?

[fromwentzicame]

questions containing the number 2

alright let’s go

2) if you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?

my weight next question

12) is there someone you have mixed feelings towards?

I have a lot of conflicted feelings about some of my former classmates because they were nice to me but I didn’t like what they would do in their free time

20) do you believe in god(s)?

not really! i don’t really know, so I’m just gonna try to be the best person I can be and try to do what I think is right

21) is there a song you can’t handle listening to, even though you like it?

no, I don’t think so. at least not one i can think of right now

22) what ex do you miss the most, if you have one?

i have one that i do not miss whatsoever!

23) do you like soft, fluffy blankets or rough/smooth blankets?

soft and fluffy, i think, but my favourite one that I’ve had for like 11 years is neither “soft” nor “rough” so... medium

24) what is your favorite thing to learn about?

i like to learn about a lot of different stuff, but one of my favourites is mental illnesses, like narcissism and schizophrenia, the more severe ones

25) what country’s history do you find the most interesting?

really good question. I’d say Greece or Italy--Greece because of Ancient Greece, and Italy because of the Roman Empire & the Renaissance 

26) what do you think about genderbent ____ (insert someone here)?

I’m not really a huge fan of genderbending any character, EXCEPT the Adventure Time genderbent episodes w/ Fionna & Cake and all those guys. love that

27) what breakup was the hardest, if you had one?

i’ve only had one, so i guess that one was the hardest

28) do you have someone where you can’t decide if you like them romantically or just as a friend?

nope!

29) what do you think about tumblr discourse?

I think discourse specifically confined to tumblr is pretty dumb and/or irrelevant. If there’s an issue regarding racism, homophobia, sexism, or pedophilia, I consider that to be a societal problem or a problem on a larger scale, not restricted to tumblr. When I imagine “tumblr discourse,” I think of like, that one tumblr post about the CGI bird in Jack & Jill, or like, people fighting over kin or something. sometimes there’s even discourse about how to treat children and basic decency and ugggh. still lov  this hellsite tho

32) do you have any strange interests?

oh yeah for sure! it sounds weird, but i like to learn about medieval instruments of torture. (please do not be concerned) I also like learning about more niche stuff, not necessarily “strange,” like the language of flowers

phew thanks for the ask tahj