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fridayyy-13th · 27 days

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i had so many things to do today, but i only wound up doing two. the two simplest things on the list, in fact. putting tabs on my sheet music and writing dates in my planner. no actual homework. (or more accurately, late work.) now a week of three classes' worth of work all has to be done tomorrow, and i already made plans with my friend for that afternoon. it's 1:32 in the morning. what am i doing anymore.

#friday chats #friday vs post-secondary school #tw vent #one of my assignments not actually due monday (from a t/th class) is to write a poem using a technique in one of several poems showed to us #had to pick a poem and technique in class; i hadn't read the textbook excerpt so i picked a poem and talked right out of my ass #i wonder if i could use extensive personification and allusions to human society to describe the mess that is my brain #something something a city with horrible infrastructure where traffic sucks and it's hard to even get from place to place. or something.#bc Good Fucking God #this time around i've been honest about the fact i'm behind when people ask how i'm doing #i thought maybe if i were open for once instead of fibbing that i was on top of everything i'd be met with assistance #but i've just gotten hollow ''oh you'll be okay! you'll catch right back up''s #(y'all online have been lovely. i'm talking about my family)#for God's sake i want HELP. ADVICE. ANYTHING but platitudes #i don't know how to make myself DO this #literally the fucking meme of the drowning person reaching for help and receiving a high five for their troubles #...i need to go to bed. i'm gonna do that. maybe i'll feel less like a sack of pain and misery in the morning.#in the meantime if y'all have any advice for combating still-trying-to-find-the-right-medication-dosage ADHD pls share it #i'm fighting for my life rn. and losing. badly #(though kind words would be nice too i won't lie. it's just the way my family says them makes it sound like they aren't really listening)#or you could just scroll past this post idk. do what you want. it's your dashboard

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