#something about the fae in 14 makes my brain juice go

[impossible-rat-babies]

not the titania leitmotif playing during the pixie quests like I’m crying chief

[hag-lad]

Digging Deeper

Thank you to my radiant wonderful friend @alienfuckeronmain for sending me EXACTLY the type of self indulgent wind-down activity I wanted on this otherwise depressing weekend! If anyone else wants to answer FORTY-NINE QUESTIONS about themselves, I’m super nosy and will read it all! @fight-the-seether @ptolemyofchaos @butchwizard @metalbutch @nyndelion @comrade-ziltoid @leatherdear @kristalknobb Enjoy, friends!

1. Do you prefer writing with a black pen or blue pen? I prefer black, but I always feel like I write neater in blue??

2. Would you prefer to live in the country or city? The city, but only if it has breathable air, green infrastructure, and decent public transit. So like... definitely no city in America lmao

3. If you could learn a new skill what would it be? The ability to quickly become fluent in another language! I’ve been struggling with Spanish for literal YEARS and it’s honestly pathetic. My brain is so stuck on English.

4. Do you drink your tea/coffee with sugar? Look pal. If I wanna drink sugar, I’m gonna have a soda, not herb water or bean juice.

5. What was your favorite book as a child? I was OBSESSED with The Wish List, by Eoin Colfer (of Artemis Fowl fame). I remember being so fascinated by how dark it was?? It’s an afterlife adventure, where the main character has to escape purgatory by atoning for her crimes of robbery and fraud and whatever. I had a crush on her, so basically this book made me want to pursue a life of crime, even though it explicitly condemns crime and depicts Hell as a very real and horrible place. I was in like fourth grade and was super morbidly curious about Hell and the possibility of going there! Lol

6. Do you prefer baths or showers? Baths... but only when I’m not actually dirty going in. A bath is leisure, not hygiene.

7. If you could be a mythical creature, which one would you be? 100% fae! I would build my dwelling within a sidhe mound, steal shiny things in the middle of the night, make bastardly little contracts for no reason, and cause harmless mayhem and mischief because mortals really are fools (go off, robin goodfellow!) Also I love mushroom circles and dancing in the moonlight.

8. Paper or electronic books? Paper all the way! I read much more content electronically, but it’s usually in the short story or article format. Books are much better in print, I think.

9. What is your favorite item of clothing? Probably my rust-brown overalls.

10. Do you like your name or would you like to change it? I’ve always hated my name but no alternative has ever stuck, unfortunately. My name is Amy, and I don’t think it fits at all. If I knew I’d never have to correct anyone on it, I’d probably just change it to Amelia?

11. Who is a mentor to you? My little brother! He’s this genius musician, and he has taught me so much about song structure, polyrhythms, guitar technique, production tricks, all kinds of trivia that really deepen my appreciation for music and the LABOR that goes into it.

12. Would you like to be famous and if so, what for? No, never, not for anything. I cherish my anonimity so much, I don’t even put searchable tags on this blog cuz I get an adrenaline spike from anxiety if too many people interact with me. I also just think fame is a fucking hideous construct. I don’t think it’s even slightly cool or desirable.

13. Are you a restless sleeper? No, I’m a fucking log. I can easily sleep for 12 hours straight. Thanks, depression!

14. Do you consider yourself a romantic person? No, actually. I’m very much in love, and it brings me lots of joy to do nice things with and for my partner! But romance feels very difficult for me to connect with. I’m super domestic, like, I love the idea of marriage but not necessarily a wedding, or a moonstruck romance or whatever. Those dramatic gestures feel very awkward for me.

15. Which element best represents you? EARTH. Specifically, like... dirt, or soil.

16. Who do you want to be closer to? I want to be geographically closer to my family. We’re thick as thieves, but we all live like 50 miles apart from each other. I miss my brothers and my parents so much, I feel so incomplete and depressed without them to hang out with, especially since quarantine.

17. Do you miss someone at the moment? See above! Lol

18. Tell us about an early childhood memory. When my little brother was a baby, he had this grey car seat with a folding mechanism which held his legs in place. It made a very satisfying clicking sound when the mechanism moved, AND when it was fully unfolded, it looked a lot like a Klingon battle cruiser. (Or so my five year old brain thought.) So! My older brother and I would take this seat out of the car CONSTANTLY so that we could unfold it and “sing” the Klingon theme music from Star Trek: The Motion Picture while we scooched our car seat battle cruiser across the living room floor, pretending to shoot phasers into the TV or the dining table or whatever else got in our way.

19. What is the strangest thing you have eaten? Gifilte fish, maybe?

20. What are you most thankful for? My family, including my wonderful partner and all the cats in our lives!

21. Do you like spicy food? Yes! But my tolerance for extreme spice decreases every year, unfortunately. So I can’t handle as much heat as I used to, but I do enjoy a good kick.

22. Have you ever met someone famous? Lmaooo I made the regretful decision to PAY FOR a meet&greet with Fall Out Boy in like 2006, which was so fucking awkward and painful, I vowed to never approach that level of lame again.

23. Do you keep a diary or a journal? TONS! I’m an obsessive record keeper. Some years I journal more than others, and I’ve found that it is super difficult to keep up with it while working full time. But it’s absolutely one of my favorite hobbies.

24. Do you prefer to use a pen or pencil? Pen for writing. Pencil for drawing, and math.

25. What is your star sign? Virgo sun, Aquarius moon, Scorpio rising 🙃

26. Do you like your cereal soggy or crunchy? Crunchy! A shallow bath in that milk is key.

27. What would you want your legacy to be? My artwork. I go through these aesthetic phases every year that I become super obsessed with/ focused on, and I’ve always meant to catalogue them in annual art journals, but I’ve NEVER FINISHED ONE! They always get pushed aside by the need to work, and I hate that so much. If I could just take a year off work and backfill all of my missed concepts into completed books, I would be so happy. But I literally have NO WAY to pay for that, absolutely none. I fucking hate capitalism.

28. Do you like reading, what was the last book you read? I love to read, but finishing a whole book has been A STRUGGLE lately! Right now I’m chipping away at Tending Brigid’s Flame, which is a quaint lil devotional for the Celtic fire goddess. Very new agey, like cheesy Wiccan vibes. I love that shit!

29. How do you show someone you love them? Quality time!

30. Do you like ice in your drinks? Only if I have a straw. Ice touching my teeth kinda makes me wince.

31. What are you afraid of? Incompetance, doing a bad job, letting someone down, taking up too much space, being a nussiance, etc

32. What is your favourite scent? Incense! Especially cinnamon, dragon’s blood, and amber.

33. Do you address older people by their name or surname? I always call people, regardless of age, by the name they ask me to use. Sometimes it’s a surname or title, usually it’s a first name. I’ll ask their preference if I’m unsure. But I definitely don’t default toward a surname, that’s weird.

34. If money was not a factor, how would you live your life? COMPLETELY DIFFERENTLY!!!!!! The need for money rules literally every single hour of my entire life, and I hate it so much. I’m naturally nocturnal, but my job requires me to get up super early and sit in a car for 11 hours a day. I wake up at 5am, come home front work at 5pm, spend an hour or two trying to unwind, then go to bed and do it all over again. I hate my life! Really! I never see the stars, I never exercise, I am completely exhausted and burnt out all the time, and I barely get any quality time with my partner. If money were no object, I would sleep til noon or 1, make art and hike all day, ride my bike and stargaze all night, stay up til 4am reading and playing with my cats, and sleep like a baby. My partner and I would cook dinner for each other and watch Star Trek and collaborate on art projects and I would be so happy.

35. Do you prefer swimming in pools or the ocean? Here’s my hierarchy: Private pool > ocean > public pool

36. What would you do if you found £50 on the ground? I’d look around to see if anyone obviously dropped it and try to give it back. If I couldn’t find anyone, I’d exchange it for dollars and deposit that shit into my account!

37. Have you ever seen a shooting star? Of course!! Hundreds!

38. What is the one thing you would want to teach your children? America is evil and needs to be destroyed.

39. If you had to have a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it? Lmao this is so cute. If you HAD TO HAVE a tattoo! I really wanna finish my damn sleeves, they’re literally 9 years in the making and barely half finished. But I’d also love more art on my legs! I DESPERATELY want Ziltoid in a lacy valentine heart on my thigh.

40. What can you hear now? Our fish tank water bubbling and my fan on full blast.

41. Where do you feel the safest? Home alone, doors locked, windows covered, lights low. I absolutely LOVE to not be seen or perceived in any way.

42. What is the one thing you want to overcome/conquer? My fear of discomfort

43. If you could time travel to another era, which one would you choose? I feel like I’d want to be a teen in the 80’s and an adult in the 90’s. Does time travel work that way?

44. What is your most used emoji? 😭 or 😎

45. Describe yourself using one word. Defeated

46. What do you regret the most? Convincing myself that math was too hard or boring (or something?) when I was in middle school. I feel like I’m actually a pretty intelligent person who could’ve totally overcome that difficulty and gone on to understand all kinds of patterns and concepts which have eluded me to this day! It’s so frustrating to try and fight that formative self-concept, which now comes naturally but ultimately sabotages me. 💀

47. Last movie you saw? I made my partner watch Troop Beverly Hills, one of my childhood faves. It’s so fun! I love chick flicks so much.

48. Last tv show you watched? Deep Space Nine. Getting through the first season has been harder than expected. It’s actually my favorite Star Trek show?? (Orrrr maybe that’s TNG, ahh! It’s so hard to choose!) But season one is so baffling and awful! Why is there so much space capitalism??! And racism? And war? And drinking alcoholic beverages? #notmystartrek

49. Invent a word and its meaning. I used to call a single strand of curly hair a “curly quink” when I was a child. Therefore, a “quink” is a section of hair, usually a particularly cute or iconic one.

[nekoabi]

I am rubber, you are glue, do all 100

Let’s freaking do this...

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? - Lmao, what’s milk?

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? - completely! it’s one of the best feelings ever...

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? - pieces of paper usually

4: how do you take your coffee/tea? - I don’t!

5: are you self-conscious of your smile? - Always... 

6: do you keep plants? - Never tried tbh

7: do you name your plants? - I probably would, but then I’d forget their names...

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? - Singing or doodling

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? - yes, a lot

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? - side mostly, but i seem to wake on my stomach sometimes

11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends? - Ukanlos and Kapi ;)

12: what's your favorite planet? - Earth... because we live here...

13: what's something that made you smile today? - being with friends

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? - a mish-mash of fandom things and theatre stuff everywhere

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! - The hottest planet is not the closest planet to the Sun. Apparently, Venus is.

16: what's your favorite pasta dish? - tomato and basil pasta with cheese and chicken dippers.

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? - NEON PINK.

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. - “Oh no, there’s people here!!!!1″ aka the reason I never touched League of Legends since...

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? - I wish I did, but I don’t

20: what's your favorite eye color? - dark brown, practically black

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. - it’s checked black and white, with the pattern changing a bit. It has some pins in it, has a voodoo doll keychain

22: are you a morning person? - pffffft nah

23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? - chill on tumblr, listen to music and chat with friends

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? - Cedric

25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into? - I haven’t broken in, what?

26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit? - Trainers that used to be my mum’s. They’re dying, but they’re so comfy

27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor? - Strawberry

28: sunrise or sunset? - Sunset, every time

29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? - They laugh, it is honestly precious!

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? - yes

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. -  i love socks, but no sleeping in socks... that’s just not right and makes me think about Waitrose

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. - um, i had a huge laughing fit because of Memerald and “Your name is... Disappearance”

33: what's your fave pastry? - I... honestly don’t know...

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? - Lotus. She’s a bear, her midsection has been replaced and I love her.

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? - Oh. My. Fucking. God. Yes. As an SM, yes. I love to use them to do anything; note-taking specifically

36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now? - I... don’t know... I wanna go for FoB?

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? - I kinda like an organised mess, tho cleaning is so therapeutic for me omg

38: tell us about your pet peeves! - chewing with mouth open, talking shit about stuff you don’t understand, being mean to animals..

39: what color do you wear the most? - Black (likemysoul)

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you? - An old friend gave me a necklace watch shaped like the riceball from Fruits Basket. It’s pretty special because we don’t talk anymore... even tho we’ve said we should...

41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving? - Does a Sonic comic book count? Because Sonic Boom comics are amazing!

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! - Nope!

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? - I think @laurenjillard, walking back to our student house

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? - I’ll get back to you on that...

45: do you trust your instincts a lot? - Sorta? I mean, it depends on the situation

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. - Oh shit... I’m terrible at puns! I have failed Cardigan Bab! 

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? - Brussell Sprouts.

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? - Spiders. Yes.

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? - Currently, yeah! I last bought two Bullet for my Valentine albums, and a Sum-41 album!

50: what's an odd thing you collect? - I get plushies? I have far too many...

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? - Freeze Your Brain.

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? - Oh crud... I forget... which memes happened this year? I guess, “if you play this at...”

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? - I mean... I’ve seen the musical of Heathers and some bits of Rocky Horror/Pulp Fiction? Does that count???

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? - My dad, at a funeral.

55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point? - Told someone I liked them... 

56: what are some things you find endearing in people? - Their small habits that are fairly minuscule; usually playing with hair 

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? - It makes me feel real active, I wanna move. I always want to lmao

58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? - Vodka Aunt would be Powie, and schmutz as Wine Mom.

59: what's your favorite myth? - Tbh any, tho I do love fae

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? - I can appreciate poetry...

61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received? - Umm... I’m not even sure, for either... I mean, I gave some silly little toys once?

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? - Sometimes, orange to be precise

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? - Yes, organised. Alphabetical. 

64: what color is the sky where you are right now? - Black. It’s 2:40am.

65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with? - Yes, so many. 

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? - Black roses, with white, purple and red flowers interspersed

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? - Mystified, intrigued... I want to go out in it

68: what's winter like where you live? - Cold and rainy! Shoutout to the UK!!

69: what are your favorite board games? - I mean, we played this Murder/Traitor game a few weeks ago and that was really fun!

70: have you ever used a ouija board? - Nah, but I’m kinda down...

71: what's your favorite kind of tea? - I DON’T!

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it? - Most things, yeah...

73: what are some of your worst habits? - Biting nails, chewing/licking lips, not making eye contact, shuffling...

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. - American, amazing SM, wonderful sewing, creative, takes on everything at the same time, doesn’t know when to let something go, confident and bold

75: tell us about your pets! - I wish I could...

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't? - My assignment lmao

77: pink or yellow lemonade? - Yellow, I guess?

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? - Hate for the terrible memes, also memeyhate for everything else

79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? - Give me anything ever

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? - Soft purple, I did pick it. Soon to be a light and dark pink.

81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. - like deep dark holes that you could endlessly fall into...

82: are/were you good in school? - I got good grades, and I’m passing uni so far!

83: what's some of your favorite album art? - honestly idk

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? - I would love to, but lmao pain! Planning for first: something kingdom hearts related, nothing too big...

85: do you read comics? what are your faves? - I do sometimes, Sonic Comics mostly. I’m slowly working through all the Archie ones :)

86: do you like concept albums? which ones? - Uhhh whut

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? - At least the first Harry Potter? Beauty and the Beast/At least one disney film.

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? - lol art

89: are you close to your parents? - Yeah, kinda... I mean, it gets a bit complex due to my anxiousness, but yeah...

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. - So big and sprawling, central is what everyone thinks about, all these places to see and experience.

91: where do you plan on traveling this year? - For the rest of this year, I’m just gonna go up to the shops in MK :)

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? - Closer to a pinch

93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most? - Natural, so straight and boring

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? - @juliettenotjuliet #loveyoubabe

95: what are your plans for this weekend? - To chill and do nothing

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? - I procrastinate a lot, on everything...

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? - INFP, Gemini, Slyth

98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? - I’m okay with hiking if it’s pretty and we can break a lot lol

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. - Simple and Clean; Beauty and the Beast; What A Catch, Donnie; Not Alone; 3am; Nerdy; Loner in Love...

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? - I’d love to say future, but I know I’d go to the past... because I’m a nostalgic freak who can’t deal with going forward because lol i’m scared of going forward...