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rubiatinctorum · 8 months ago

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it's going on two years since the horrors kicked in. mid-august 2022 the thread came loose and by god it's unraveled so much the garment just isn't what it was anymore. it's strange looking at posts coming up saying 'here's what you posted two years ago!' and looking back in on some of the last good times before it went to shit. i'm starting to have good times again without also carrying just like, a terrible amount of dread or anguish with me, and i wish it didn't take nearly two years of waiting to get back there. even still, i'm not fully back. the grief is still a wound that's easy to knock open. but i'm trying.

#rubia speaks #it just all kind of hit in rapid succession right #someone made me feel insecure + new program and lonely at school + bad short internship + problems at home + transportation problems #+ strife with supervisor on long internship + back into isolating classes + technical problems starting my new job #+ last grandparent dead + student i cared about dead + part time job getting worse and quitting + sometimes treated bad at work #+ grief + grief + grief + grief + grief #so. it's been a hard couple of years. i miss just sitting in the sun in the garden near the music building at university.

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