#somehowmags back at it again with the stellar c!jack posts

[piningpebbles]

god and in the same conversation that niki, with the softest voice, said "i started baking again" with a hope we haden't seen in so long - jack said, voice tired and strained "i told him everything he did to me and he just shrugged it off as if it were nothing".

they both just wanted the other to be happy. she invited him to her city, she told him about the second chances that had treated her so kindly after so much hurt, she wanted him to let go of what she thought was the same misdirected anger that had just caused more pain.

but their anger wasn't the same, and the second chances that brought her people who valued her voice only got him hurt again and again and again, he couldn't let go. he desperately wanted to, he needed that closure she had, but no matter how hard he tried he couldn't grasp it.

and as the ties strewn between them (born in anger and pain) grew thin with promises made to visit turning empty, with notions of second chances going fruitless, they both ended as far apart from each other as they could, one safe (healing) and the other gone (never able to heal).

crocket duo codependancy lets make eachother worse swagger (which is literally what they wanted so whats the matter? why would we get better when the objective is to be worse? but what if i want to get better, i started baking again) rips pillow with my teeth

[HITS THEM WITH A 2X4] this is also why it makes me feel insane in the membrane when people say that the syndicate was a bad choice for cniki bc like. she didn't spiral in the same way that jack did BECAUSE of the syndicate she had a support system that helped her grieve and process her grief but jack was alone!! he was alone!!! she literally managed to escape the narrative with the syndicate and he destroyed it completely. what if i died