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sad--tree · 2 years

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saw some old instructional/promo cadet videos i was in back in like 2013/2014 (the glory of being "volun-told") and holy shit i cannot stop thinking like literally ALL DAY i have been fixated on the fact that

i think i had (have????!!?) a very minor speech impediment and NO ONE TOLD ME????? out there sounding like some owo motherfucker and no 1 thought 2 mention it??? jesus h christ ive always known Rs are a hard letter for me but i didn't realize i sounded like that!!!!! i just. can't stop thinking abt how this slid under the radar my /whole entire life/. come 2 think of it i DID get a LOT of comments from a LOT of different ppl abt some supposed accent i always had 2 insist i wasn't putting on. hm.

#genuinely feeling blindsided a bit. ive always known certain R sounds are awkward but i uhhhh really thought i managed it better wtf #eternal damnation 2 minor inconveniences 4 my parents 4 'gifting' me both a first&middle name with that R sound on top of my last name too #in other news u have not seen true peak Teenage Awkwardness til u have seen some of the terrible vids i got stuck being in #2 promote various activities at the sqn like mess dinner of ftx. SUCH bad videos but also u can see CringeTM in my eyes.....#somehow its a mix of deer in the headlights and also Im Dead Inside So How Does This Keep Getting Worse #2 say absolutely nothing of the like 20ish wholeass minutes of content of me explaining (awkwardly) how 2 lace and polish ur boots &#&style short 'female' hair aka too short 4 a bun.#listen i know cringe is dead but. i am cringing. i am cringing SO HARD. i am cringing myself back in2 the Paleolithic era no wait even #earlier crawling out of the ocean was a goddamn mistake Put Us Back #still cannot BELIEVE !!! no 1 said SHIT abt my fucking ''''''accent'''''' gahhhh #that 1 bit in that recent taylor tomlinson netflix standup special retroactively hits much closer 2 home #oh my god do i still sound like that? is that still how i talk????? like im 24 i know my voice has changed at least A LITTLE since 16 but #what abt my actual speech???? pls god dont tell me i still sound like that 🙏 ig if i wanted 2 ask any1 id have 2 #show them the videos 2 compare against first tho........ *shudder*

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