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Whew, we're so close to the finish line -- Chapter 6 of Lives Etched on Our Palms is out now! It comes with some fun new tags, namely psychological horror, existential horror, eldritch horror, and cosmic horror. Hope people enjoy! :)))))))

Next chapter will take a bit, since I mostly just have plans and an outline, but not much writing in it like I did for this chapter.

[solarsong-writes]

Chapter 5 of Lives Etched on Our Palms is finally out! Definitely took longer than expected, and is by far the longest chapter too! Turns out writing two distrustful characters developing a sense of camaraderie in a harsh world takes time. And words.

Next chapter update may take a little while, just because things are getting busier.

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Sneak peek of Chapter 5 of Lives Etched onto Our Palms, a reincarnation AU for Kanamafu using the 2024 Kanamafu prompts!

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Face smudged with grime, dirt buried underneath fingernails, and dust coating her lungs with every breath; Mafuyu trudges along a jagged broken path, the withered plants crumbling beneath her boots. It’s unfortunately reached the time of year where the heat becomes sweltering, and the only relief from the unforgiving sun are the dust storms that blot out the pale grainy sky. 

Sometimes when she closes her eyes she dreams of a blue world, a forgiving world. A world where each breath was not labored, where every step was not pained.

But Mafuyu only knows the dust filled yellows and browns, the harsh oranges, and the charcoal gray of dark clouds. 

Rumbles sound in the distance, and Mafuyu quickly searches for shelter, spying the ruins of a giant statue. She can make out another figure hunched beneath it, however. There’s not enough time to be picky though – she’ll have to take the risk. 

Mafuyu slows her fast paced steps down to a cautious walk. Raising both hands in surrender, she ducks under the overhang. “May I share this space with you?”

[solarsong-writes]

Can I just say how much joy it gives me to hear from other Project Sekai peeps that I'm referred to as the "egg writer"? Mostly because I wrote that one "egg Kanamafu fic" with three egg scenes that blew up waaaayy beyond my imagination. I haven't written any more egg scenes (as far as I remember) in my other fics either. I've even gotten some of my research published, but this is the thing that sparks the most joy.

It's now my leggacy.

[solarsong-writes]

Chapter 2 of Amongst Flowers Without Names, a Kanamafu hanahaki fic where I may have gotten carried away with some worldbuilding, is out!

I will most likely post Chapter 3 at some point in the near future, and then switch to focusing on my Kanamafu week fic!

[solarsong-writes]

I'm alive again, and Chapter 4 of Lives Etched onto Our Palms is out!

Oops for being away for so long, I did not think it would be almost three months between updates. Between making a cosplay for Otakon, prepping to teach classes, research, research, and more research; I got progressively busier over the summer. D:

I may or may not start alternating between updates on this fic and Amongst Flowers Without Names since it's been a while! Chapter 5 of Lives Etched onto Our Palms will be coming out first for sure -- it already has 1100ish words written for it!

[solarsong-writes]

It's KanaMafu Week and that means I have a fic for everyone! Lives Etched on Our Palms is a Kanamafu reincarnation AU where I had the idea to combine all of the KanaMafu Week prompts into one coherent fic!

Summary:

The wheel of time spins on and on, centuries after centuries, millennia after millennia. It’s said that ‘history repeats itself’, that mankind will inevitably commit the same mistakes over and over again. Some protest that the choices people make matter, that not everything is predetermined. Regardless of the truth, the Goddess watches over all.

Or

Of past lives, of countless partings and reunions, of two souls clawing through fate and finding one another again.

Or

The author’s ambitious (and mildly unhinged) project to combine all the 2024 Kanamafu Week prompts into one coherent story.

The first three prompts are done and will be posted in a timely manner, 4-7 are still in progress and may be delayed.

[solarsong-writes]

Chapter 3 of Amongst Flowers Without Names, is now out! For those of you unfamiliar with the fic, it's a hanahaki AU fic where Mafuyu has no clue who the hanahaki is for. :)

This fic is also going to be on hiatus until I finish my 2024 Kanamafu week fic (working title: Lives Etched on Our Palms) -- I'll see everyone then! :D

[solarsong-writes]

It's crunch time right now for the semester, so it will probably be quite a bit before I can update again (and hopefully I don't get hit with writing burnout either). So here's a deleted scene from To Walk Where the Light Shines, a Kanamafu fic that takes place right after Saying Goodbye to My Persona and was written before the next N25 event. It's the canon contents of Mafuyu's dream in one of the chapters towards the end:

There’s a black bunny and a white bunny. 

The black bunny lives together with her family. 

The black bunny has an overbearing mother, who tells the black bunny what is best for her. The black bunny is grateful for the guidance, but feels uneasy sometimes. The black bunny wants to go outside and play, but her mother won’t let her because it’s too dangerous. Her mother tells the black bunny that there are so many scary things outside – the hunters, foxes, and only bad things that want to hurt the black bunny. Her mother tells her many terrible stories of other bunnies getting hurt because they wandered outside. Her mother tells her about scary awful things all the time until the black bunny wants to cry from fear. Her mother tells her that it will all be okay as long as the black bunny listens to her. As long as the black bunny is a good bunny. The black bunny learns to stay inside. 

The white bunny lived together with her family. 

The white bunny has a loving mother and father, who want what makes her the happiest. But then her mother became terribly sick and passed away. The white bunny lived together with her father. Then her father… her father got injured and taken away because of the white bunny. But it’s okay, the white bunny is not lonely. The friendly shiba inu living nearby occasionally visits to bring her gifts and food. The white bunny goes outside. The white bunny frolics in the grassy fields. The white bunny listens to the whistles of the wind on the grass. The white bunny collects flowers, arranging them into patterns. The white bunny isn’t lonely at all, there’s so much to do each day. The white bunny learns to be alone.  

One day, the black bunny couldn’t sleep. She tried counting dandelion seeds. She tried pacing around the cramped space. She tried and tried, but nothing could stop her from feeling like the walls of her home were closing in on her. The black bunny runs away to the outside.

One day, the white bunny couldn’t sleep. She tried playing with one of the gifts she received. She tried eating a midnight snack. She tried and tried, but nothing could stop her from feeling like the loneliness was crushing her. The white bunny runs away to the outside. 

The black bunny and white bunny meet each other under the gaze of the moon and stars. They are both surprised.  

‘Another bunny like me alone outside at night?’ they think. 

‘This bunny must be like me’ they think.

They become friends. They fall asleep next to each other in a hollow tree stump for the night. They wake up before the sun rises to return home, but not before promising to see the other again.  

They meet each other when the moon is high in the sky and play in the field together, eat together, and nap together. 

The black bunny realizes the outside isn’t as scary as it seemed.

The white bunny remembers what it’s like to be with someone. 

The black bunny and white bunny are inseparable from each other until the sun rises and they have to return to their respective homes. 

The days pass by peacefully, uneventfully, blissfully, like this. 

But one day the black bunny’s mother discovers this. The black bunny’s mother is furious. The black bunny is scared. But no longer scared of the outside. The black bunny runs away from home. 

The black bunny doesn’t know where she’s going. The black bunny finds herself with the white bunny –   

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My original intent with this was to reflect on Kanade's and Mafuyu's dynamic from a somewhat more outside perspective -- the fic is written in 3rd person limited POV so it's rather difficult to pull back the perspective onto the bigger picture. I had actually planned a more objective reflection from Kanade in Chapter 9 for this purpose, but my hand slipped and you guys got all the fun stuff there instead. :) I also wrote this as an attempt to flesh out the picture book from Mafuyu's colorfes card given how important it is to Mafuyu.

I decided to remove this from the fic because 1) it was a sizable tonal shift 2) people typically don't remember the contents of their dream perfectly 3) the dream sequence felt too contrived and 4) it didn't add any new information -- it was rehashing something that the reader could already see demonstrated throughout the fic.

It's a cute scene though.

[solarsong-writes]

I'm most definitely burnt out of reading and writing things for now, so Amongst Flowers Without Names probably won't get an update for a while. I'm still determined to see the fic through until the end, and all the main plot beats have long been planned out already. Just currently doing so much research and writing that the last thing I want to do in my free time is more writing. D:

[solarsong-writes]

I promised deleted scenes from my fics as goodies, so here's one that didn't make it into Consume the Shape of My Dreams (a Mizuena soulmate AU fic):

Mizuki hums a little tune to himself, swinging his arms as he walks besides his mom and sister at the mall. The mall is Mizuki’s favorite place to be. 

He likes putting on all the different clothes at the clothing stores, and his mom would always buy them a large fry to share on the way back. 

Going to the mall is the best!

As they walk into one of the stores, his sister instantly goes off on her own into a sea of bland grays. Still looking at the direction Yuuki disappeared in, Mizuki tugs on her dress. “Mom, why do the clothes for adults always look different?”

“It's because many adults can see colors,” his mom explains.

“Colors?” All Mizuki can see is that the clothes for adults look boring. Maybe adults like this kind of stuff.

“Hmm. It's hard to explain.” His mom touches a long dress. “This looks different to you than it does to me and Yuuki.”

“Why can't I see the same thing?” Mizuki asks. Are my eyes wrong? 

Mizuki feels a gentle pat on his head as his mom speaks, “Because you haven't met your soulmate.” 

Mizuki frowns. “What about my clothes?”

Do they look different to Mom and Yuuki too?

“No, your clothes look the same to us,” his mom reassures.

“But are they cute?” Mizuki asks.

“They’re cute. Let's find something for you to wear tonight,” his mom says.

“Okay!”

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Originally I wrote this to parallel it later with Mizuki's mall outing with Ena and also to hint that Yuuki didn't have a soulmate (because she's aromantic) before it gets heavily implied in a later scene. That and I wanted to throw in a little more worldbuilding on how fashion worked in this AU.

I decided to remove this scene in the end because it pivoted the chapter a little too much towards the fashion aspect for Mizuki's character arc. It was also a scene that could be summarized in a few sentences instead, and I knew I could explore some of the aspects later in a one-shot if I really wanted to.

[solarsong-writes]

Hiii I'm so glad u made a Tumblr! I love picking knmf authors' brains hehe. Here's a question! How do u get ideas on what to write for knmf? :3

-mascfuyu anon

Awww thanks for the warm welcome!! My brain also likes being picked and this is a fun question to answer! :D

For me so far, my story ideas come from something triggering brainrot (To Walk Where the Light Shines, Sinking Into A Summer Night) or simply writing the AUs I love (Blend My Song Into Nonexistent Love, Consume the Shape of My Dreams, Amongst Flowers Without Names). 

I think To Walk Where the Light Shines is self-explanatory because of the Saying Goodbye to My Persona event and knowing I would go crazy from simply waiting for the next event – but to give a little more detail on the other ones (brace yourself): 

Sinking Into a Summer Night was directly due to the full version of Kimi no Yoru Wo Kure coming out (and has quickly risen to becoming one of my most favorite N25 commissioned songs). It was the perfect blend of bittersweet I like in my music and I got so many feelings from it that I needed to express it in some manner. So I thought about how I could stay true to the song and keep that cozy but bittersweet vibe in a fic.

Blend My Song Into Nonexistent Love was because of my great love for soulmate AUs, and as I was making dinner one night I thought “Haha, the Empty SEKAI is gray so if there was that seeing color soulmate thing going on then the characters would probably get really confused” – followed immediately by that very vivid scene where Kanade and Mafuyu make eye contact for the first time popping up in my mind. I knew at that point I wanted to write a fic around that one scene. Consume the Shape of My Dreams naturally followed from this fic too. 

I’ll skip elaborating on Amongst Flowers Without Names for now due to potential spoilers, but feel free to ask me when I'm finished with the fic! 

For how I come up with ideas for my Kanamafu AU fics in general though, it really all boils down to one question: 

“What would it mean for the world, society, and the characters if X exists?” 

For example, we take something like being unable to see colors until you meet your soulmate. What would happen if 50% of people couldn't see color by the age of 25? They'd have to find some way to navigate the society without color vision and this is a substantial population we're talking about. So there are some things that would become more accessible. Traffic lights would probably change to be both color and symbol based. Does that mean that people will not be allowed to drive until they can see colors? Probably not, because people will still have jobs and they do need a means of transportation. I essentially trace the ripple effects of one change, as well as how my own worldbuilding decisions would impact things further. I repeat this type of thought process for anything else I think may be relevant in the AU and the story kind of writes itself at that point. 

I could go super in-depth about the worldbuilding behind my soulmate AU, but I'll save that for another post if people are interested! (I could gush all day about soulmate AUs) 

Tl;dr: My fic ideas spawn from either me about to go crazy if I don't express/write it or because I love a certain AU and then examine how the one premise would alter the world as well as how the characters would navigate it. 

[solarsong-writes]

Kanamafu Hanahaki Fic!

Read here on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/54503935

Pairing: Asahina Mafuyu/Yoisaki Kanade

Tags: Hanahaki AU, Emetophobia, Unreliable Narrator, Self-Acceptance, Domestic Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Requited Unrequited Love, canon-typical suicide ideation, Bad reaction to medication

Summary:

A strange sensation overcomes Mafuyu as she continues to stare down at the wet petal laying placidly in her palm. Her body feels tingly, but in a warm fuzzy way.

Mafuyu frowns. She should feel sad right now, shouldn't she? Mafuyu has been handed a potential death sentence, however unlikely.

Hanahaki disease. A fearsome disease during older times, due to lack of treatments. Back then, there was no such thing as medicine for Hanahaki, no safe removal procedure, nor Hanahaki-specific therapy. Nowadays, Hanahaki disease is about as common as pneumonia with none of its deadliness. It’s a mild inconvenience at worst and a motivator for romantic confessions at best. Hanahaki disease is used as the driving force of romance books or movies, in worlds where the only choices are to have the character’s feelings reciprocated or get a surgery lest they die. ‘Love me or I’ll die’ – the pinnacle of romantic ultimatums.

All pointless melodrama.

Anyone who managed to die from Hanahaki disease these days, was frankly – in Mafuyu’s opinion – an idiot.

Or

Mafuyu gets Hanahaki disease. She has no idea who it’s for.

[solarsong-writes]

Hi, I'm SolarSong, although people like to call me Solar for short!

I like to write Kanamafu on AO3. I'm a bit of a boomer with social media, and this is the only social media thing I own (unless you count Discord).

Since people seem to be interested in things aside from just my writing, I've finally decided to make this master post. Onto tags!

General:

#solarsong writes - anything related to my writing, includes chapter updates, extra content, deleted scenes, and sneak peeks

#solarsong rambles - me rambling about the meaning of life, why pouring milk before adding cereal is the superior option for non-soggy cereal, and everything else in between

#solarsong stories - things that I experienced

#ask box - asks

#me - about me or my life

Fics:

#to walk where the light shines - a post-Farewell My Mask fic that is now canon divergence. Be prepared for eggs and gut punches.

#sinking into a summer night - a comfy melancholic general N25 fic inspired by the song Kimi No Yoru Wo Kure

#blend my song into nonexistent love - Kanamafu soulmate AU, somewhat a deconstruction of the trope alongside extensive worldbuilding.

#consume the shape of my dreams - Mizuena soulmate AU, set in the same universe. What happens if you're an aspiring artist and you can't see color until you meet your soulmate? :))))))

#amongst flowers without names - Kanamafu hanahaki AU, a deconstruction of hanahaki AUs and Mafuyu has no idea who she has hanahaki for :)

#lives etched on our palms - Kanamafu reincarnation AU examining Kanade and Mafuyu's relationship through different circumstances, roles, and time periods. Also uses all the 2024 Kanamafu week prompts cause I thought it would be funny.

Asks:

Honestly, I'm open to pretty much any question. I just reserve the right to not answer them (or answer vaguely) if they get a little too personally identifying since I want some separation between my personal, professional, and writing life. If one of my students find me, I will perish.

I also like hypothetical scenarios! If you give me a set of circumstances and variables, my brain will spit out some ideas or possibilities.

If asked, I will ramble about any writing or worldbuilding aspect I've done in my fics. I will likely ramble about these regardless of whether or not I get an ask.

Please send me all the silly puns.

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me: what is a social media

me: *googles 'what to put in a first tumblr post'*

me: .

Anyway, I'm SolarSong, an AO3 author. I spoke the words "What if I made a writing Tumblr" out loud in front of my friends and was swiftly encouraged to create one. I don't really know how this will turn out, but I thought it would be nice to have a space to interact with people beyond the AO3 comment section!