#softcitrus rambles

[softcitrus2345]

Just having late night Thoughts about Forrest and Sid

They know just how to push Sid's buttons and turn him on, they would order a shit ton of food and make him feed it all to them, saying "I like it more when you do it for me~"

Making it really hard for Sid to keep it in his pants when Forrest is constantly moaning and asking for more, teasing him about how excited he's getting from feeding and watching them get fatter

o///////o

Sid's a really shy feeder and sometimes when they see Forrest struggling to finish something he'll slow down, not wanting to push them too far but Forrest notices and tells him he can keep going, that he won't break them, that they can take it, and if they slow down, to make them pick up the pace-

Cue Sid going red in the face and needing a minute before locking tf in and stuffing every last crumb into them and finishing them off with a pitcher of shake and a couple liters of soda >:}

Forrest is a pretty quippy person and usually has something snarky to say but you know Sid did good when they can't even get a word out between moans and burps and shallow, panting breaths-

They're stretched to their absolute limit and just beached there, their gaze unfocused while they're blissed out

All they can think of is what all these calories will do to them and how much more they can stuff in next time

Sid stopped worrying once he noticed how much Forrest was enjoying this kind of treatment and just didn't hold back anymore >:3

They definitely like being played with roughly, and Sid LOVES getting to see this side of them

They're both so horny and gay and I love them LOL

SOMEBODY SEDATE MEEEE I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE I NEED THIS IN MY VEINS RIGHT N E O W. 💥💥💥💥

[softcitrus2345]

GRRRR. TUMBLR DELETED THE ASK THAT THIS WAS MEANT FOR. >:(

The anon was just asking if I had any early encounters with media that influenced my interest in certain kinks, as well as what my favorite kink trope in general is, and this was my response- Oh boy, there are so many instances but I can only really remember/find a few of 'em- But these were the main ones that stuck with me for years-

I grew up watching MLP. Like, it was my SHOW for years, so it was the main source of media/fandom that I sought out this kind of content in my early days of unsupervised internet access-

I remember watching these scenes and having a neuron activation moment but I didn't know why. Then a few years later I got access to the internet and I'd find myself looking up shit like "fat mlp characters" and even I didn't really understand why either- 💀

I guess I know now XD

There was also this one scene from some Disney thing where Mickey and Minnie were in a sorta Hansel and Gretel situation and got fed a ton of food (I remember being disappointed when they didn't get fat from it for "some reason" XDD)

But there was also this book. From when my age was still in the single digits I feel like had at least a part of the blame for these kinks snowballing into what they are today-

It was called "The Very Greedy Bee"

Basically this one bee drinks so much nectar that it gets really big, eventually SO big that it can't even fly

I remember rereading these pages a lot on my own- ⬇⬇⬇

So ye, this is one of the earliest instances I remember feeling "weird" from a piece of media.

But ALSO-

I VIVIDLY remember this one toy I used to have that I can't remember what it was called FOR THE LIFE OF ME-

It was this big dog-looking thing that was advertised as a fun way for kids to put their things away. You'd put your things away by "feeding" your stuff to it and it would fit a pretty good amount in there

I remember when I would play with it, I would always take all of my stuffed animals and try to stuff as many as I could into its mouth and make it as big and round as I could- I guess this counts as both an introduction to stuffing and soft vore huh-

But yeah, those are all the main things I can remember-

As for your second question, I'd say my favorite trope has got to be stuffing paired with instant weight gain, it's just really fun and I love drawing stuff of that nature

Usually the instant weight gain/extreme stuffing would go hand in hand by using some kind of potion/enhancer kind of thing with it, but ye >;3

I just like when characters get really big really fast from eating a lot- O/////O

Hope this answers your question, anon XP

[softcitrus2345]

I've finally started feeling the motivation to draw, so hopefully I can get back to my commission queue soon, and then to replying to all the great asks yall have sent in over the past.... months 😬😅

I'm still kind of in a weird mental place but I've been trying to keep myself busy with other things, plus working retail 5 days a week tends to keep your mind and body pretty occupied so there's that too-

I've seen all the asks and replies you guys have sent me, and I haven't forgotten about the few of you still dming me about commissions, I promise I'll get back to you all, as soon as I can

Thank you to everyone who has continued supporting and sharing my art even during this month when I've been practically radio silent

I'm sad I couldn't celebrate pride month with you all, but hopefully I can eventually make some kinda post for pride, I really have been wanting to ;;w;;

I'm still healing but this blog makes me happy so I'm gonna try to get back into the groove.. yall are the best for sticking around and for all your sweet comments and condolences, it really does mean a lot to me, even if I can't always find the right words to respond with

I'm gonna head to bed for now but I'm relieved I'm feeling motivated to create again, even though I'm still grieving

My wounds are still pretty fresh but I'm trying to give myself grace, grief isn't something you just "get over", especially not this quickly, baby steps, baby steps..

Anyway, this is a kink blog, but I wanted to at least share this, if nothing else. I'll try not to bum yall out too much in the future, no promises though /hj

Take care, everyone, and I wish you all a very happy pride month TTuTT

[softcitrus2345]

Currently working on making a youtube account to stream some art whenever I'm working on it, I thought it would be a fun way to interact with yall while I'm actually drawing Lord help me I have no idea what I'm doing XDDD

[softcitrus2345]

I just found this acc and I find it sooo comforting… I’ve struggled with accepting this kink for a long time and you are so kind and helpful in your responses that it helps a lot ! I do have a question though - I’ve always wanted to post my chonky art but I’m scared of being recognised on my artstyle alone… do you change any part of your artstyle when posting or do you just put it out there and hope for the best?

AWW ;;0;; It's so nice knowing my rambles have done some good and have been helpful to you in some way!!!

As for the art style thing, I don't change anything about my style or characters when I post them here, which is a bit risky, I know, but honestly, if people go out of their way to find me here when I haven't said a peep about it on my main acc with all my other art mutuals (not on Tumblr so don't go lookin' XDD) then it's none of their business what I do on my silly little kink account >:[ I do get nervous about being discovered here by people I know outside of this space, but I don't think it's worth changing my art style that I've worked so hard to develop over my whole life just for the chance it might reduce the risk I post the same ocs I do on my main account on here, same names and everything, and luckily I haven't had anyone find me here yet, but that's because I made sure to do everything I could beforehand to prevent my mutuals from finding this account (again, the block button is your best friend in this case)

I wish people were generally more accepting and neutral about this kind of art, so we wouldn't always have to worry like this about sharing the things that we like, it's not fair so many people (myself included) feel forced to hide their interests out of fear of alienation or shame from others We all deserve to just have our own cozy little spaces where we can share our ideas and interact with each other, I wish you the best with your art, I hope you can feel comfortable sharing it one day! But please don't force yourself to bend over backwards to make your style unrecognizable, you deserve to create and draw in whichever style you prefer!! Have a wonderful rest of your day, Poppet, I'm cheering you on!!

[softcitrus2345]

Am YouTuber :3

(not really tho-)

These past couple months have been pretty sparse with art posts, I know, but I've been wanting to focus on the commissions I've gotten before getting back to doing art for myself again I don't think it would be fair for me to just put those aside when my clients are waiting for their art, so I've been chipping away at that It's definitely hard balancing work and art stuff but I've had a lot of fun streaming whenever I get the chance!

I used both yesterday and today to clean up my YouTube channel where I stream my art, and I even made thumbnails for all my streams to really take it to the next level! >:p Yall are more than welcome to come check out my streams, if you miss seeing my art posted on here TTwTT

I made a playlist with all the videos so far in chronological order too!

Here it is!!

Thank you to everyone who comes to the streams and talks in chat, it really brightens my day and gives me a little boost of motivation to keep me going ;;w;;

Also, thank you to all of you for sticking around and sending in asks! I genuinely can't wait to reply to them, I've got some responses cooking but they're not quite finished yet~ Stay tuned!! ;P

[softcitrus2345]

Alright yall, it's PURGE TIME

I'm gonna be blocking anyone who doesn't have their age in their bio or a pinned post cause it's LONG overdue-

[softcitrus2345]

Rereading all the asks I have in my askbox and smiling, yall are all so sweet, I seriously can't wait to answer them all, I think about the stuff you guys send all the time ;;w;;

To everyone who sent me an ask and still hasn't gotten a response, thank you so much, I promise I'll get to ya eventually TTwTT 💖💖💖

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thinking about maybe kinda sorta sharing some blueberry-related stuff that I've drawn/written involving Barley and Ambrose....... I know most of yall aren't really here for that so idk if I'll go through with it but I've had it sitting around so I figured I could share it but we'll see.. maybe

[softcitrus2345]

Hey three questions?

Are requests open besides commissions?

Do you have any female ocs?

Will requests solely be for your ocs?

Three answers!

1. Unfortunately no, I don't have requests open. I can't afford to do art for others for free, and now that I just got my first job I'm gonna be a lot busier than I used to be, so finding the time/motivation to draw is gonna be harder for me to navigate

Also I feel like it defeats the purpose of me having commissions open while also making art catered for others for free, I gotta make money somewhere yknow

And from what I've seen in this community a lot of the requests artists get are for one-off prompts or characters, which just isn't my cup of tea. I can't get invested in a character or a drawing that is just like a one-time thing, if that makes sense?

I don't want that to snowball with me getting flooded with requests from people for random prompts they wanna see drawn out

I hope that makes sense, and please don't see this as me being upset at the question, I just like to be thorough with my answers and explain why /gen

2. I do! Unfortunately not a whole lot that I draw, my main female oc is Vanessa, and I just love her to bits. Her and Damien are stuck like glue so most of my drawings of her also include her lovely hubby~

If you're wondering about me drawing female weight gain, I'm just not really into that, for a number of reasons, but the main one being my feelings towards the female weight gain community, and how it treats women mostly just as an object for pleasure. As an afab person, it just makes me really uncomfortable how I see women portrayed in the feedism community, since from what I can tell most of the people that create/seek out that kind of content are cishet men just looking to get off.

I know that's not the entire female wg community but it's unfortunately the majority of what I've encountered, and it's just turned me off from the subject completely. There are *very* few times I'll see female weight gain portrayed in a way I can appreciate, and those few are like little gold nuggets that I gotta find by sifting through all the shitty stuff, it's just not worth it for me

It just feels dehumanizing, idk

As a fat person who has always been fat, and who is (unfortunately) still perceived by the general public as female, I've seen first hand the way society treats people like me, the backhanded comments and fatshaming and diet culture, and the horrible things I've been called before.. I see it all too often in the female feedism community, it's just a big no no for me overall

Sorry, I kinda went off on a tangent there, hope I didn't derail this post too much-

3. If I were to ever open up requests, I would say yes, they would only involve my ocs. I use this blog sort of as a public sandbox, where I can just kinda play around with my ocs and share my art with you all. I want the focus to be on my ocs and my own original content, with the exception of my friends and mutuals ocs which I do enjoy drawing from time to time

TLDR, yes, if I hypothetically opened requests they would only be for my ocs, just to keep my blog clear of clutter and random prompts I'm not interested in. I don't want to add another layer of stress to my life with requests and stuff that I can't keep up with

Maybe someday TTwTT

But yeah! Thank you for your questions, anon, it's always nice to have a prompt like this so I can share my thoughts, however messy they may be TTwTT

[softcitrus2345]

Hiiiiii! I'm glad I finally got to following you! Idk it sounds kinda dumb but I always visited your page and stuff and not followed because I forgot but I always came back to look at stuff because it's so fluffy and cool and awesome and it just feels like such a nice space you've cultivated here :3

Anyway question: How do you feel about fanart for your OCs?

Oh, dude, I don't think that's dumb! The fact that you weren't following me means you had to take extra steps to look at my art and idk why that warms my heart a lil bit that you still sought out my posts before you began following me!! ;;0;; Whenever people compliment my art it always makes me feel all warm and fuzzy ACK yall are so sweet TToTT I'm so glad to hear so many people say that my account has been a safe space for them, it genuinely warms my heart and motivates me to post more often TTwTT Also, as an answer to your question

OH MY GOD PLEASE I WOULD DIE AND CRY AND KICK MY FEET AND FLIP A TABLE AND TAKE A SHARK BITE OUT OF MY COMPUTER IF SOMEONE DID FANART OF MY OCS

If you wanna, GO FOR IT!!

All I ask is that it doesn't involve stuff that I've mentioned I'm uncomfy with before, but I trust ya! I'd genuinely be so flattered and honored if anyone took the time out of their day to show their love for my characters, who I love very dearly, by making fanart of them oh my gosh 🥺💖💖💖

[softcitrus2345]

Ur streams r so lovely and chill!! HELP I don't have much more to say but it is such a good idea and such a cosy vibe, yippee

OH YAY :DDD

I'm so glad you had a good time, man!! I also really enjoyed it, I loved reading everyone's comments in the chat while I was drawing, it was such a treat :3

Yall were so sweet, even though it was only a few people I still had a really nice time, and I'm glad I could show yall a peek into my creative process!

As I'm sure you could tell, I have no clue what I'm doing and just threw shit together on the spot XD

Luckily, I was able to come up with something I was satisfied with, that's the power of having eyes on you I guess XDD

Hopefully, once things get settled a bit more at my new job, I can stream again!

[softcitrus2345]

do you ever think you'll make chat bots for your characters

Ehhhh, I'd say no, for a couple of reasons 1. I have no idea how to even start with that, I'm not tech savvy by any means XD

2. AI stinky, no. 3. I wouldn't feel comfortable making an AI chatbot of my characters.. they are all so important to me and mean the world to me, and I know them inside and out. I know how they would react to certain scenarios and how they talk and carry themselves, and what they would or wouldn't be into. The idea of someone just being able to interact with their character and mold them into something for their own scenarios and entertainment just kind of squicks me out.. Think about it like this.. would you rather spend time with one of your close friends, or would you want to spend time with something pretending to be your close friend? Idk if that makes any sense but yeah XDD I just don't want people misinterpreting my ocs and using them in that way, I don't wanna hand them off for other people to "play" with- like I don't want people shipping themselves with my ocs or whatever, or worse- They've all got pre-established relationships, and I wouldn't want people breaking the "canon" I've built with them all, yknow? I hope that made SOME sense at least, I appreciate the interest in my characters but that's just not something I personally am comfortable with TTwTT

[softcitrus2345]

It's so nice to see someone taking care of their health and taking a break when needed! More people need to make a habit out of that methinks

Well thank you!! I completely agree, I always hate seeing artists burn themselves out because they feel the need to force themselves to create and post all the time I know firsthand how shitty that can be for one's mental health, so I appreciate yall for sticking around while I get my bearings TTwTT

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I have a valentines day post on the way, that's gonna start off with an illustration and then continue in a simpler comic format I already finished the illustration but I'm just barely starting on the comic, but I don't wanna post something valentine's related super late, should I post the illustration first and then the comic once I finish it? Or should I wait until the whole thing is finished and post it all together?

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hey, I know I don't know you personally or anything just wanted to pop in and say I hope your doing okay 💙

Aw, thank you so much! That's really sweet 😭

I've been alright, mostly just busy and kinda stressed with all the commotion that goes on around the holidays, and until last week I hadn't really felt at ease since I had so many different things going on but now that I've finally gotten over that big hill, I can breathe a lot easier TTwTT I've really missed posting here, but I've been pretty drained socially and artistically these past few crazy months so I haven't been able to post much I'd rather wait until I've fully recovered and post things I can actually be satisfied with rather than just doing half-assed art or responses to my asks yknow? I can't wait to get back into it, I've had so many ideas and such little time to execute them, thank you all so much for your continued support throughout this lull in my posting, it truly makes my day when I get an ask or someone comments on my post or gushes in their tags when they reblog my content.. TTwTT My birthday is coming up on the 19th, that's THIS FRIDAY HOLY SHIT- It'll be the first and only time in my life that the day of my birthday matches with the age I'm turning, I just think that's neat :3 I might try to make some kinda birthday related post to share on the day of, we'll see XP Thank you all for sticking with me! I look forward to posting more often again!! :P 💖💖💖💖