#so yeah....let me know if you want to do dbd stuff because eventually i might play the game lol

[cfgcdsandmcnsters]

I know very little about DBD to be honest. BUT my muses that I think would fit into a DBD verse are as follows:

Killers:

Brenda Bates

Mallory Morris

(Chucky Possessed) Nica Pierce

Hanako Ishii

Survivors:

Helen Shivers

Chloe Hu

The Janitor

Vanessa Rue Santos

Tatum Riley

Jennifer Jolie

Mindy Meeks-Martin

Daphne Vance

[monstarparker]

Since neither god nor anime can let me sleep, I’m gonna ramble. Specifically about Kim Petras and her album Turn off the light.

Okay... Okay. I am so unwell over this album. But of course I am?! It’s scary and creepy and edgy in all the best ways. Songs written by the gays usually slap. But you add a scary vibe in there? I’m in! Now, I could go on about how the gays love horror. The drama. The camp. Etc. I know a drag queen has made a quote about it before, but I can’t remember who or what words she said, but it’s correct. That’s why the community is so big in dbd. I do sometimes wonder if there’s a little of that troupe we connect to now where censorship made gay representation have to be ‘evil’. Like Ursula based off a drag queen. Lots of villains being a little gay coded. Etc etc. but that’s not what I’m talking about I gotta stay on track.

Anyway! Kim’s album is just so good. I had previously known her from Unholy with Sam Smith, but I didn’t really look more into her stuff. Then we went to fnaf at Fred’s and the trailer for Lisa Frankenstein played and I’m so hopeful for that movie. Zelda Williams?! Robin William’s daughter is working on it. I have hope. But Kim’s song, In the next life, is in it and since I’m drawing a thing (I hope to eventually post) I wanted to listen to that song… But drawing takes a while and I don’t want to listen to one song TOO much, so I found the whole album and just. Wow. I love it.

They all have spooky sad or spooky dance vibes to them. So I’m jamming out. No thought. Until I have a bit of the weed and I’m like Jimmy Neutron’d into it. And I might have been too high, but it’s so fucking GAY! I mean, one song is TRANSylvania, so duh. But it’s more. It’s all about the gay experience. Like ‘wrong turn’ has a couple horror movie refs and stuff, I mean there is a pretty graphic movie called wrong turn, but it’s also like honestly a gay worry. But she also twists it in a ‘no you should worry’ way? I think? Idk I can’t re-listen (not a word, can’t think word) right now.

‘Everybody dies’?! Shit. This one is very be yourself. ‘Not everybody lives, but everybody dies’. All the people that don’t live as their genuine self because of homophobia. -shakes you the reader who for some reason is still going and you’re probs Caz- This song breathed so much relief in me. I’m living my genuine self. She’s reassuring us of this.

Then of course there are other songs in there. Ones that are people demonizing and dehumanizing the lgbtqia+ and some songs are like: yeah I’m leaning into it. If you’re gonna keep that shit up, I’m gonna fucking terrify you. I know there’s so much more I could say about this album, but I’ve only known her for a few days.

And honestly idk if I’m making sense or if I processed the songs I’ve listened to so far. But I just love the album. I do hope Caz reads this, listens to some songs, and adds them to a car playlist. 🤲

[lucifers-horror-harem]

Are you a Dead by Daylighter / Player? lol If you are, who do you main and whats your overall opinion on the whole mess the game and the fanbase is?

LOL That’s a very loaded question anon and while I don’t usually like to make negative posts or indulge in any “this fanbase is terrible” nonsense cause every fanbase has that issue, I will share my experiences with the game mostly because while I don’t play anymore I’m really upset that I haven’t played cause it used to be a fun game for me.

The main thing that got me to quit were the Pinhead NFTs but that was kind of the straw that broke the camel’s back situation. I’m not sure exactly how that whole situation got dealt with/solved other than the studio seemed to be under contract to let this NFT company use their Pinhead assets for their NFTs so I won’t talk too much about that.

My main issues started when they “fixed” the matchmaking so you were SUPPOSED to match with players that were your skill level. I don’t know how well they changed this system currently but playing when it was first implemented absolutely ruined my love for the game. I’m not a great player by any means but I would say I was average. I knew my way around the map and how to dodge certain killers and stuff like that. And although I didn’t play much killer because of the long ass queues (understandable as it is way easier to join a lobby as a survivor than a killer) I was about average there too as I slowly kept leveling up the characters I did enjoy playing as.

But once matchmaking got changed? It didn’t matter. As I understood it you were supposed to match with people of similar skill level based on their new level system for matchmaking but I was NEVER with people my skill level. I was constantly dying or losing every single match. We were told if we lose enough times the system will eventually match us with similarly leveled people. Fucking NOPE never happened for me. Matches went from being challenging and every once in a while coming across a baby or god tier killer, and now I was constantly feeling like I just wasn’t a good enough player for ANY of it. Basically feeling shut out because while I was better than newbie players so the system decided I needed a harder level, the system would match me with a killer who rocked our shit within like 10 min. It was a nightmare and made me lose my love for the game.

It was even worse with killer. I liked to main Freddy and played as other killers when the dailys wanted me to and it was a fun experience, I would usually at the very least get one survivor. Nope. Now it didn’t matter how many rounds I played as killer with the long ass queues to entry, I would essentially wait sometimes up to 10-20 min just to lose in 5 min. And the survivors were NASTY like I never matched with these sorts of people on my own but they would bully you, like I assume these were play with friends people because they were always super coordinated and would huddle around me and use flashlights and tea bag me any time I tried to even hook someone.

Which kind of leads into the fact that while I mostly play games alone, most multiplayer games are way more fun with other people and unfortunately I don’t have a dedicated group of people to play with. I did at one point but everyone had their own lives and their own things which is understandable. The most I know is like one or two people but because at the time (again it might have changed) the system is so fucked that unless you’re able to talk to your partners which you can only do in play with friends you’re kind of fucked.

So yeah I could give less of a shit about the “fanbase” because most casual players doing the toxic gameplay aren’t the people creating the fan content. I used to buy every DLC when it came into the store and I bought a few battle passes or whatever the fuck dbd calls them lol But it just felt like such a punch in the face after buying and supporting the game so much when the bugs, glitches, toxic players, and just all around fact that the game constantly broke with every new update (I played for a while after Pinhead released and I still hadn’t played against him ONCE when usually every time a new killer came out a ton of people would be trying them out but again the new matchmaking basically deters you from trying anything new cause unless u go in with your a game you’re getting fucked over before u can even try anything) it just made me lose interest entirely. Which sucks cause for a while it was my go to game. Now I’m just back to my solo games cause I’m shit at any sort of pvp set up until overwatch 2 comes out cause that’s the only game my irl friends want to play. Sighhhhhh.

Maybe I will try again soon cause even though I’ve just written out a novel of my grievances because I still really liked the game and I want to play it again. I keep seeing new killers and characters being added and being like oh they look so cool it sucks that the game is such shit. Like I hope this post doesn’t come across as being butthurt because I sucked and stopped winning, but when every single game you lose with no hope in sight because you keep getting matched with people beyond your skill level, it really does ruin your enjoyment for the game.