#so yeah tl;dr i want a cat but i cant have one >:[

[lizard-dumbass]

I had a dream where my family had a cat and it was a really nice and friendly cat and i got to pet it but then i woke up and now i remember that i don't actually have a cat and now i'm sad

[wulvert]

SHE'S SO ELEGANT,,,PICTURE PERFECT GRACE. THROWING UP GARLIC BREAD LIKE A CAT HACKING UP A HAIRBALL. she looked so comfy in that one panel being held (🏳️‍🌈) i think thats her peak. i wana be as sleepy as her,,,snnnnzzzz

ALSO IM LOOKING THROUGH THE COMMENTS TO SEE IF I MISSED ANY DETAILS. WHY DO SO MANY PEOPLE THINK AVERY IS A MAN. ITS BEEN 53 PAGES????? I LOVE ROTATING GENDER CODED AVERY IN MY BRAIN AS A SILLY SELF-PROJECTION HEADCANON BUT THIS IS BEYOND ME. WHAT DO THEY NEED TO MAKE IT CLICK. "HI ITS ME, AVERY, WOMAN FROM HIT LESBIAN (NOT HETEROSEXUAL) VAMPIRE SERIES PAPERTEETH"??? theres somethign deepr 2 be said about this tht pisses me off nd im too tired to express it correctly. im goign insane sorry. anyways

scarlet's t-rex hands at the end mean so much 2 me!! thnak u,,,i have seen them in ur comics before nd they r so important as someone who does them 24/7. this may also sound weird but i like the extra detail u put into the legs. i do NOT mean this in a strange way oh god. um. u get it i hope.

awesoke page in general im gnna eat it.!!!

literally so sleepy and is held. sure she passed out from fear but thats irrelevant now bc shes unconscious I want to be that cozybut i dont think i ever will be

yeah! uptick of ppl who think shes a man this page- Ig it got featured on a banner again the other day so a few new ppl probs skim read past the part where shes outright referred to as a woman idk. I think the reason it bothers me a bit is bc avery is a character im rly overly attached to bc shes pretty pathetic like me and shes the same flavour of girl as me, which i dont rly relate 2 a lot of fictional women as someone whos kind of a struggle, so its like nice to make them for myself i guess? idk having her makes me feel better. is that a comfort character. i dont know. i care her.- so i feel like ive failed a little when ppl just look at her and go oh, this character is clearly intended by the author to be a man.

I cant rly b mad at ppl who honestly just dont realise though, I'll admit i commit the crime of mistaking cartoon men for cartoon women sometimes- I am a little mad at ppl who say things like its hard to believe shes a girl when they find out .like. shes a vampire. you can suspend ur disbelief far enough to believe shes a vampire. but not enough to believe shes a girl... interesting ...hm ....funny how that works anonymous webtoon commenter.......................

TL;DR: Averys my bbg and im too attached to her.

& no of course! i like giving characters raptor hands, I am for serious when i said i injected the autism myself. & ITSNOT WEIRD DW i like drawing legs even if i make them far too long.

&thank you!!

[acaciapines]

Just read the new chapter of Flightless Dove (I LOVED it btw!) I'm really curious about Aspenfeather and the kittens in the Dark Forest. Could you tell us more about them and how they ended up there?

im glad u liked it! ivyshade's story is. it is really wild it is Not what i had planned for her but here we are i guess.

and yeah! i cant tell you everything bc it will be touched on in later chapters/fics (or: a better way is 'the pieces will be there for you to put together n im not gonna give you all the pieces now) but i can tell you some things!

aspenfeather was a windclan cat, like...a really long time ago dfgknfg i dont have an exact set-in-stone date for how long the clans have Been A Thing but i usually default to ~100 years or so just so there's a lot of time to play with. she was around in that first half of things, and she was...sort of the ivyshade of her time? some of this will make sense next chapter where we'll learn a lot about windclan religion/traditions, cause ivyshade knows jackshit about that. but apenfeather (then paw) was very, VERY specific about what she believed in, and back then...starclan wasn't the main religion? again we will touch on this later. but she was like, anti-starclan even for her time period, which is saying a lot, bc they weren't as much of a thing. she was a runner, and she really looked up to wind (the first windclan cat). she died young in a border skirmish due to bloodloss, but took out a shadowclan warrior before she went, which is how she earned her name in the dark forest. probably windclan also honored her with her warrior name in her death ceremony, but whether or not they gave her the same one is up to you.

as for the kittens...the reasons why they're in the dark forest is, again, going to be revealed a bit later. but. hmmmm. next chapter we're going to hear another story from hawkfrost. just kind of keep that in mind when you think about the kittens. why might someone like hawkfrost end up in the dark forest? (you can also go read my hawkfrost-centric fic it doesn't pay to be a good son if you dont want to wait for chapter 4, and just sort of think on that. he believes similar things in both fics).

another thing i will add: you can leave starclan, but if you do, you can't enter it again.

and: that rouge ivyshade killed believed in something. where do might they go?

the tl;dr is that more about the dark forest and how it works will be revealed eventually, but a lot of it is like--a puzzle you put together.

[hey-hamlet]

BNHA AU Ideas : Shins-bro

Also on AO3!

TL;DR: Izuku and Shinso are best buds. Thats it. 

shinsou has a terrible mum and he's complaining about it "ironically"

like : "lmao my mum is gonna beat my ass for this shitty mark" and he's shocked when izuku is like 3 seconds away from tears

izuku drags shinso to his house and his mum is home and shinso is Spooked bc,, adult?? friends???

hes so scared that inkos gonna yell at him for doing something stupid but as soon as he walks in the door izuku trips over his own feet taking off his shoes and tackle hugs his mum

so izuku and inko are laughing and like, half-fallen over bc izuku is a chunky boy and shinso is so lost??? at the door and inko uses her quirk to pull him over by the shirt and join in the hug

udhihdsf she!!! picks both of them up and squishes these good heroes in the best mother hug

izuku is laughing and shinso is sh o o k bc this is the nicest hug he's ever had???

inko puts them both down and flushes a little, says sorry for hugging shinso but she hasn't seen her boy in so long! and he must be a lovely young man if he's friends with izuku

she bustles off to go stir dinner on the stove and izuku just grins and looks at shinso

"isn't my mum great?!"

",,,yeah"

he and shinso go to his room and izuku pulls out his old console

admits he used to make his mum play this fighting game over n over when he was little, and that she always used to pick this female hero with a big white cape because she liked her hair. he giggles and tells shinso that if he wants izuku can maybbbeee let him play allmight

he picks endeavour for a sec and asks shinso if je just wants to beat up endeavour for a minute before they really start

it turns into them setting like 6 AI to level 9 endeavours and them both playing allmight to beat the crap out of them

inko walks in w tea and little cakes she made and gasps happily bc she loved that game! so they restart the round with 2 allmights + 1 nana plus all the endeavour AI

izuku and shinso keep protecting inko's character from all the fire bc she doesn't deserve this

izuku shoves a cupcake into shinsou's mouth when he goes to ask izuku something

shinsou like, lights up bc he's never had home-baked stuff before and its sooooo good so he just kind melodramatic puts his controller down and says "i guess this is kamino ward 2.0" as all might gets crispy fried by the AI and shoves the cupcake into his face

izuku c a ck l e s

izuku and inko, melodramatically "we can't let allmight 1 fall!! protect him!!!" and they try to save this idle allmight as shinso watches w icing on his face

inko and izuku save idle allmight and shinso cheers softly. inko shoves a cupcake into hers and izuku's faces and hands another to shinso in celebration

she then ducks out to go take care of the dinner again. izuku giggles and puts dollop of icing on shinsos nose, who sneezes then looks offended that his nose dared to sneeze

shinso tries to lick the icing off he nose

but like

it's not working

and izuku is losing it laughing but shinso is stubborn and won't stop just bc what he's doing is v stupid. they end up w shinso's legs on izuku’s bed w his back on the floor, izuku leaning against the bed. shinso isn't really sure why he thought this was a good idea

and they run through English homework and shinso and izuku are both shockingly good and both refuse to admit its bc they spend too much time on tumblr/youtube

shinsou: gee izuku why are u so good at english

izuku, who has been reading self insert all might x reader fics for like 50% of his life: no reason :)))

fdguhdfghufh shinsou, who has been reading angsty fics of all his faves instead of going to therapy: wow same ,,,

also im sorry but, izuku def reads allmight self insert that isn't like "uwu dating you" but its like "what if allmight was ur best friend" or "allmight is your secret dad??? uwu"

u know all those old ass watt pad fics where one direction adopts u, that but all might and all the chapters are just

all might tucks u into bed after a hard school day and tells you he’s proud of you

all might fucking detroit smashes ur class bully into the concrete

u and all might attend the premiere of his latest docuseries and u cry bc there’s a whole preface abt how u changed his life for the better and he could not ask for a better child

izuku and shinso go through their old tumblr/wattpad/deviantart accounts and cry laugh

its all in terrible english and one of the comments is "are you 10 or can you just not speak english"

6 years later, izuku responds

"both, actually"

izuku writing vent fics but they’re like

“all might punches my classmate bc he stole my fuckign apple juice kacchan i hate u”

"all might tells me i don't need my fuckign dad i haven't seen since i was 4 and he becomes my new dad"

“all might tells me i have no bedtime and makes my mom dinner bc she’s stressed and she needs a nap”

"all might adopts me and marries my mum and has a kid who becomes my brother and best friend"

he wrote them all between 6-12 he started writing better shit when he was 12 and made a new account (better, not good.)

his first round of fics were like all in first person and shinsou’s w h e e z i n g like why’d u think this was a good idea. izuku s cryign bc hE WAS SIX HITOSHI STOP IT. its like really terrible english too

izuku is mad but then he realizes he was hitoshi's deviantart open and he g r i n s (its all shitty drawings of cats and his OC Hero ) there are like twenty pictures of his actual cat taken on a shoddy ds camera

also as like, a soft dumb thing izuku is like speed typing on his laptop and shinsou is like??

izuku shushes him n tells him he wants to finish it before dinner

what hes done

is he wrote one of the shitty self insert fics, intentionally shittily but w allmight as izukus dad and eraserhead and shinsous and they live together for no reason at the "hero apartments" and can be brothers

shinso is laughing and crying at the same time and izuku is like

",,,, im gonna send it to present mic"

"nO"

"do you think ill get extra credit?"

"nO DOnT DO IT"

izuku in retaliation sending in some of shinsou’s oldass oc comics and mics just

“i mean

it’s in english,,,”

they get extra credit but it's not really helpful bc they both had As now they both have A plus' but dont wan them

(mic sends it to all might and eraserhead but like, redacts shinso and izukus names and aizawa is twitching w either rage or laughter, all might is bright red and giggling like an idiot)

pls the teachers gc is just “all might and eraserhead tuck u in and call u a Good Boy” for the next three months

as a running joke, whenever they can, that's what izuku and shinso write for English

like in german we had to write plays and act out little skits in german. in english, they do that but like, izuku is eraserhead and shinso is a cat stuck in a tree 

they have to write sentences w different words? and they get "comfort" "rescue" and "light" and its all shit like

"my dad eraserhead rescued me from homework because mic is terrible"

"all might's fatherly love lights up the hole in my heart"

"the fatherly aura of allmight and eraserhead brings me comfort on my darkest days"

izuku gives the ol puppy dog eyes to aizawa who begrudgingly lets them sleep over at inko's house

and there is only one bed! and they cant decide who gets it

so

neither of them sleep in it and they both stubbornly lay on the floor. it takes like 5 seconds for them to start laughing

[mothpile]

OK IM GOING TO TALK ABOUT SMOKEWEED AND THEIR CHARACTER ARC AND STORY AND SHIT. ERINS WISH THEY WERE ME WITH MY FANTASTIC STORY TELLING.

smokeweed starts off as a rogue named smoke, who was kicked out of their home by their mom when they were around the apprentice age bcoz that’s just the way rogues seem to work. Anyhow, Smoke ends up finding the clans. They quickly become fascinated by the fact all these cats seem to work together so well, a contrast to the cruel “only help yourself” world their mother taught them.

One of their days of observing in thunderclan actually gets them caught by a patrol, where they are then brough back to the base to be questioned. A bit of talking happens here, and the clan offers to let Smoke join them as they seem curious and r also like. just an Apprentice this is a Three Year Old theyre not gonna kick them out and stuff. So Smoke becomes Smokepaw. Smoke views this as an example of how nice the clans are, and feel genuinely accepted among their ranks. 

Over the span of their months of training though, Smokepaw’s perfect view upon the clans begins to .... shatter. horribly. It begins a bit with their confusion over why the clans seem to want to guard their borders so much. Smokepaw thought that they all worked together, no? But the explanation for this they get is that “Everyone has an equal amount of land to hunt in, and it’s important to make sure no one tries to... break that boundary. If others start coming into our territory to hunt our stuff, we won’t have enough food for ourselves!” which to Smokepaw...makes enough sense to them. at the time. 

It’s when Smokepaw gets to go to their first Gathering, a real moment to interact with other clans. They immediately start getting friendly with other clan apprentices, specifically one from Shadowclan named Patchpaw. (Patchpaw is ... curious about Smokepaw’s friendliness, which gets her to think maybe Smokepaw’s trying to use her for information about her clan, but... quickly realizes Smokepaw is just being nice). Anyhow, smokepaw ends up leaving the gathering believing they have properly made friends with alll the other apprentices. 

They’re quickly taught this is not the case when they bring it up once to another thunderclan apprentice. The apprentice tells smokepaw that “no, you’re not really friends with them. you can never be! what if we go to battle against their clan? would you fight them then? how would you remain loyal to us if you think your enemies you’re supposed to be attacking are your friends?” . This sends Smokepaw into their first big dilemma spiral. They cant understand why the clans would fight each other. They cant understand what’s why having friends outside of their clan would be such a big deal. So, for the first time, Smokepaw finds themself questioning the way the clans are running everything.

It’s during a hunt they were on near the shadowclan border when smokepaw runs into Patchpaw again. They talk, and Smokepaw ends up asking if they really are friends. Patchpaw is caught a bit off guard by this, but. well. when she hesitantly says “i... dont know? im pretty sure youre not supposed to be that with other clans” . which gets smokepaw to ask Why. patchpaw gives the same answer (well. what if our clans Fight eachother). smokepaw asks Why would that happen. patchpaw goes . um. well. over prey i guess? and smokepaw asks again Why. why would there have to be bloodshed over that. there’s enough prey for everyone, isnt there? patchpaw replies “i mean. sometimes theres not? so maybe cats would go try and steal from other clans for food.” and smokepaw asks “wait but wouldnt it make sense to all work together at a time like that? why would you compete at a serious crisis like that. wouldn’t it be more logical to get everyone to work together to make sure every cat who needs food Gets it rather than fight over scraps??” and. This Is The First Time Patchpaw ends up questioning the code. Unsure of how to respond, Patchpaw finds herself Agreeing with what smokepaw has just said. The two agree to meet up again sometime, and , well, friendship. and gay rights. but we’ll get there a bit later i think

Time goes on, Smokepaw ends up nearing the day they become a full on warrior, but time and time again the clans have proved themselves to be dumb as all shit. Their enthusiasm and energy has drained away, leaving them tired and bitter. They still meet up with Patchpaw and stuff. At this point smokepaw rlly does love her. One day, while smokepaw’s hanging around other fellow thunderclan apprentices, one of them asks if smokepaw Likes anyone. yknow. just fun Banter. smokepaw, who doesnt Know at this point you’re not supposed to like cats from other clans that way, lets it slip that they like 1 of the apprentices in shadowclan. this. Does not go well. really it’s just home of phobia at its finest. Obviously the apprentices snitch to the higher ups, and Smokepaw receives a whole lecture about the ‘Importance of the warrior code’ and how ‘yeah you’re not a Real clan cat so of course you cant understand how IMPORTANT the code is’. this is something told to them by the LEADER. a scolding from the Big Boss. and this ends up bein the Final Straw for smokepaw. they fucking go ham and SNAP. yknow how ive gone off about the Issues w/ warrior cats? yeah they do That basically. 

So they have their mini-revolution moment, dragging out all of the clans faults in the form of speech. Obviously other cats end up hearing their rant, and are all...unsure about what to do about this. Smokepaw ends their rant by now rejecting the name the clan has given them, and swears that the clans will all tear themselves apart by their own claws. or smthing like that. smthing over the top and Dramatic along the lines of ‘ouroboros eating itself” and whatnot. 

Smoke quits the clan and runs away. Before leaving the territories though, they do try to find patchpaw. at this point, patchpaw has been promoted to patchpelt. Smoke tells patchpelt about everything that has happened, and how theyre leaving. They ask if patchpelt wants to run away with them. Patchpelt is too conflicted to answer this, and ends up saying she cant leave behind her life like that. Smoke is obviously a bit.... saddened. Devastated if you will by this. But they understand, and leave patchpelt behind.

Patchpelt, who was a warrior, quickly finds herself getting tired by the clans bs. She tries to switch her path to become a medicine cat to fix the problem, hoping now she wont have to tag along with the whole “fighting eachother over nothing” shit, but it doesnt work. She..... regrets not running away with smoke. practically everyday. 

Smoke, while away, goes on a series of journeys and what have you. to TL;DR it, they end up meeting Midnight and become a bit of an apprentice to her and learn. a LOT. smoke Super Woke now. They also find a kit/apprentince along their journey, a 3 legged bastard of a gremlin cat named Three, who they end up taking care of. There is also another kid Smoke adopts named Rattail, who. as her name implies, has a... rat tail. Rattail is a bit scarred all over so they have a lotta bare patches of skin and what have you. Somewhere down the line, smoke decides to name themself Smokeweed out of a funni ‘haha. like Weed the drug’ and in a bit of a spite move against the clans.

Some More Time down the road, Smokeweed actually comes back to the clans to see what’s going on. It happens to be they’ve stopped by at a time all the clans are at each others throats. They have a reuinting moment with Patchpelt, who now is like “oh god please for the love of god get me out of here” . so they run off together for Realizies now. 

This lil family ends up settlin down at the Church place in that. Tigerheart Superedition book. personally i like thts a Nice Place and think it’s a fitting and sweet end to let the 4 all get to.. settle down. be happy and safe away from the clans and all their bs. they just Vibe..... and life is good for them. thats the End. <3

[sunflowerroland]

My Nygmobblepot Dream

Since some people showed a bit of interest in this I’ll share what went down in my weird dream a couple weeks ago where I got to interact w Nygmobblepot.

But bear with me because it was a dream so obviously a lot of stuff is kind of nonsensical but basically here is what went down.

(I remembered quite a lot of it so I’ll put everything under the cut)

So the dream started off with me and some people I knew being at this charity awareness meal for some cause I can’t remember and I for some reason I decided to take my shoes and socks off, I put my socks into a shoulder bag I had on and the shoes under the table I was at. Then at some point, as I’m sure other gays have experienced, somebody set up the perfect opportunity to make a gay joke and so I did. The problem was, I wasn’t out to the people at the table and they didn’t take kindly to my joke so I decided to leave immediately.

I wasn’t really paying attention to where I was going as I was kind of in a daze and I ended up walking over rooftops and going through back alleys, when suddenly I realised it was snowing and so I said to myself, out loud, “hey, when did it start snowing?” 

Just as I said that, a random man happened to walk past me, looked at me like I was an idiot, and said, “like 5 minutes ago..." in a very derisive tone.

It was at this point I remembered that I had left my shoes at the restaurant the charity event had been held at and I thought to myself “I cant walk through the snow without my shoes and socks on so I'm going to have to walk all the way back to the restaurant to get them!”, the most logical plan of action I could take clearly. 

As I had no idea how I had actually got to where I was, I decided to ask for directions back to the restaurant. I turned to a random person nearby to ask him for help and, lo and behold, Oswald Cobblepot stood before me in all his glory. I asked him for his assistance however, he decided to give me a route that made absolutely no sense whatsoever, saying things like “take a turn around the cat/cow” (I can’t remember which one) and to be honest everything went in one ear and out the next, so I thanked him and turned to another person who was less than a meter away from Oswald, and asked him for directions instead.

The person I asked for help next was turned out to be Ed Nygma, dressed head to toe in green, his usual Riddler garb. He seemed to take slight offense to me not following Oswald’s directions and said ���It’s exactly what he said!”, repeated the same instructions and then he told me to “figure it out!” 

Miraculously, I figured out their frankly ridiculous instructions and made it back to the restaurant. As I was picking up my shoes I looked up and saw Ed approaching me and I thought to myself, "oh GOD this cant be good" because he definitely looked like he meant business. 

So, I tied the laces on my shoes together, put them over the bag strap on my shoulder bag and turned to face him as he stormed the restaurant. He then began to taunt me a bit, although he said that I was not completely stupid and also congratulated me for beating his puzzle (despite the fact that it was Oswald who actually said it first).

I’m not exactly sure why, but he suddenly decided he had it in for me, he wanted me for something and so he started chasing me with this mob he had gathered during his tirade. I ended up stuck in this school parade with some cheerleaders, as they were making their way through the streets, trying to get away from Ed. However, it seemed more like Ed was trying to herd me somewhere instead and so I was falling into whatever plans he had for me no matter what I did.

Suddenly, I saw this grassy side path off the side of the road, away from wherever Ed was trying to lead me so I ran down it. There were two ways to go; the path straight ahead was empty but I was worried Ed would still be able to see me running down it if he looked down the turning; and then there was a little overgrown path to my right. I turned to go down the overgrown path and there were goths everywhere, turns out there was a little graveyard, completely overgrown, and I thought it looked cool as hell. I thought to myself "hell yeah, my people." 

But it was not to be. Suddenly, they started saying like "get away from here you aren’t welcome" and generic satanist sayings, turns out it was this big demon grave site. So I decided to promptly get the heck out of dodge. 

I turned to carry on running straight ahead but somehow Jervis Tetch and Johnathan Crane were there blocking my way. I panicked and decided to double back on myself, I turned to run back the way I came from but unfortunately Ed was there, waiting for me. 

He caught me. 

Next thing I knew I was being held in this fancy house, with massive windows. I was held prisoner on the second storey with Ed and a couple of his goons. 

All of a sudden, the phone in my pocket started to ring. I picked it up and the dulcet yet panicked tones of Oswald Cobblepot’s voice rang out, he was saying things like, "are you okay?!”, “Where are you?!?!” and most notably, “Does Ed have you?!"

I tried to talk to him to calm him and tell him what was happening but Ed snatched the phone out of my hand and put it on speaker and started talking to Oswald.

It’s at this point I remembered/realised that I was actually Oswald’s best friend and that Ed was mad for some reason at Oswald so he kidnapped me to get back at Oswald. 

Ed stood there arguing with Oswald over the phone when suddenly Oswald went quiet. Ed began to worry and asked “Oswald?” very hesitantly.

Out of nowhere, a door next to me burst open and Oswald’s strolling through, it turned out he was playing for time until he could bust in and save me. 

Ed was momentarily stunned, so Oswald took this chance to grab my hand and we go to run down the stairs. But Ed lashed out and pushed us over the banister.

Oswald managed to hang on but I had nothing to hold onto and I plummeted downwards. All of a sudden, I appeared to come out of my body and I was just floating in a spirit form of some sort as I watched this unfamiliar woman crash on top of this car that appeared to have been being showcased on the first floor. 

I then looked to see Oswald glaring up at Ed who, in turn, was looking over the banister at Oswald and the woman in shock.

Everything turned to black.

Then illustrations appeared showing what happened after, together with a nice voice over to tie it all together. 

Essentially, what was said was that everybody thought the woman was dead but she wasn’t, as she couldn't die. The illustrations cut to a shot of the car, it was dented but there was no body; it then cut to an illustration of a woman running through the woods. The voice over spoke of how the woman quietly made a life and name for herself. A couple years after this she moved into a new house. She had new neighbours. Everything then faded to black again.  

I then found myself in control of my actions again, I took note of my surroundings; I was standing in a house, a nursery, but I knew I was invisible, like I was just an observer. 

I watched as a dark haired woman, whom I recognise to be the woman who couldn’t die, sorting out a baby. The door to the nursery opened and Ed looked in, the woman looked up at him and told Ed something along the lines of "your daughter needs you to [do something]." I can’t remember what she said the child needed. 

But what I do remember is watching Ed in wonder and also knowing that this was Ed and Oswald’s house, that they ended up getting together even after everything. I also knew that this woman was the surrogate mother for the child, Ed and Oswald were raising the child as their own. It also appeared that Oswald was at work at the Iceberg Lounge and so I was slightly saddened to know I wouldn’t see him this time.

Ed did whatever the woman asked him to do and then he went downstairs and sat on the couch and watched TV.

I decided to approach him, even though I knew I was not a physical being, and I tapped him on the shoulder. He shifted like he felt it and then he looked around but he saw no one so he settled down again. Then I tapped him on the shoulder again and he sat up and said "is someone there?"

I walked around him and knelt on the other side of this glass coffee table that was in front of the couch. I lent forward and tapped him on the knee again. 

He jolted forward and seemed to realise something. He whispered, "is it you?" Then he lent forward and rested his elbows on the table, holding both his hands up as if waiting for a high ten.

I moved forward and placed my palms against his. I stared him right in the eyes. He stared at his hands for a moment in surprise before looking up again, right at me, and in an awe filled voice he said, "this is fascinating, you're not actually gone are you?" 

Just as I was feeling jubilus in this discovery, the woman from the nursery returned from looking after the baby. Ed lent back toward her to talk to her and tell her what was happening. The woman placed her hands on his shoulders, looked at him sadly and she mournfully told him, "you know that's not actually her, it cant be her, it’s Polly (which I now realise was his daughter’s name, who apparently has powers) playing a prank." 

Ed seemed to accept this and I got up to try and get his attention back because it wasn’t Polly and I was right there, I was so frustrated and angry that that the woman had said that and that Ed had believed her so easily. 

And then I woke up. 

TL;DR Ed accidentally killed me and then in the next couple of years he and Oswald got together and raised a kid. And then maybe Ed could see me as a ghost or something.

[larksinging]

do you have any plots you wanna do with some of the more Specific denny locations like… the vr thing in auriga or the blind date hotel or anything like that?

oh this is a good one because i love the new locations

once i get a character who like, would feasibly sign up for blind dates i 500% want to plot a few encounters with that. just because rping out casual flirting is something i havent gotten a chance to do much but thats been really fun. obviously it COULD always lead to a longer plot, but. i think temporary or brief romance plots are really fun too. so id love to jumpstart something off of the blind date hotel 

the vr thing is another really good one... im trying to think if any my current characters would use it. id say warrior cats (esp like, cats from the lake showing cats not from the lakes/non warrior cats) but when are cats gonna end up in AURIGA. other than that i cant think of many of my characters who would want to/have an interesting enough world to share, or be good for seeing someone else’s world... like maybe laurel and dolores? but theyre pretty good at communicating without that thing, so im not sure. maybe someone in the future! but yeah itd be a really fun situation for a.... really emotional private rp, and im always fond of those so. 

you mentioned camille and laurel going to the siren’s lake in avalon, and i really like that idea because they both have a lot with loved ones theyve lost. buuuut id also like to do it with a dynamic where like, one person would be Really Really tempted to follow the call and one character isn’t as much and has to talk them out of it a bit. (we haven’t planned camille and laurel but im not sure thats the most accurate to their reactions). especially, itd depend on the dynamic, but i feel like i havent had a good “rping the character trying to snap someone else’s character out of it” moment so that would be fun... though huh if you have canonmates that are close couldn’t the sirens mimick one of them and you could have a “who’s the real x” moment?? THAT’D be really fun too

i also want to do stuff with london. a LOT of stuff. but thats more general because that translates to “i want to do supernatural horror stuff” which wow shocking coming from me, i know. 

also the night folk in the southwest swamp. though against thats mostly just zombie stuff. actually though id love to do some stuff with characters besides cats in the southwest, the southwest is just... such a fun zone. 

oh london again: the wishing well is a neat little thing and i thought it might be fun someday to facilitate one of those “i need to find my important object from my canon for my powers, but it’s missing” kind of plot. or at least something meaningful? like if maria was earlier in her arc maybe we could have it bring out mary’s letter, though now would be weird timing. that kinda thing

since the stables in avalon are mentioned to house more than just horses, i want one of my characters to adopt a griffin steed or something. thatd be cool. come on, margot!, 

oh at some point id want to do something with port royal’s treasure/mystic water, as part of an abduction plot. because i do want to do one of those at some point! but yes thats pretty straightforward 

but ummm in general i love how the diverse new locations add some way more atmospheric for characters to live that really.... spices up the options. like if i apped laurel now she’d totally chill in the shady parts of auriga (actually she might take a job doing security there, i havent decided). and i have GOT to get a nonhuman character who lives in the great valley. i just need it. who wants to go on a journey to the great valley with me

also i love the prehistoric wilds having a badlands section. i dont think? i ever mentioned it but maive’s pack’s territory was in a badlands kind of area and so its just. perfect. prehistoric representation!

anyway tl;dr i actually have quite a few ideas for little plots but i just need to wait for the right characters to come along for it

[all-i-wanna-write]

🎃 Wanna One as supernatural creatures  👻 - Hyung Line

[ Masterlist ] [ In honor of just making this blog as well as spooky spooks fest coming up in a few days, here’s a Halloween inspired Wanna One imagine! It’s lengthy for a first post so it’s under read more. 👻 Maknae line will be posted tomorrow! 

- Admin V ]

Yoon Jisung 

a very gentle vampire

you wouldn’t think he would be a vampire upon first glance

like he looks so happy and sunshine-y all the time that it doesnt seem like it

but then you know guanlin saw him sipping blood from a coffee mug labeled “#1 sucker” and that was that

he also had to convince guanlin that he didn’t go around randomly feeding on people

no one knows his age

“a wise man never reveals his age.”

“isnt it secrets?”

“shh daniel, go eat your red meat.”

he may be a creature of the night but he is literal sunshine

he works as a doctor 

ha ha vampire as a doctor how generic

he genuinely likes helping people with his vast knowledge that he collected over the many many years hes been here

he lives in the little home above sungwoon’s shop

he drinks the packets of blood he gets from work that no one uses and is generally good about his feeding

he only ever needs to feed once every two weeks or so 

when he’s missed out on a feeding session due to something he secludes himself from other people until sungwoon is able to make a replacement blood supplement for him

when he goes without blood for a prolonged period of time his eyes turn red 

he tries to maintain his manners but he can only hold back the urges so long

don’t hurt his children he will bite

literally

hes very protective of those he has deemed as family

because he didn’t have a family for as long as he can remember

so the members are his family

Ha Sungwoon  

he has everything

tonic for sickness? 

got it

potion to make someone fall in love with you?

he sells those

Pepsi?

yes, but he keeps it in a vial for some reason and no one knows why

he is following in the footsteps of his previous master and is running the old shop

which has been altered to look more like a store to blend in with society more

“people were looking at the place weirdly hyung”

“i liked how it was daehwi!”

“get with the times hyung! :(”

sungwoon didn't really grow up in society when he was training so he doesn't really get why he cant just rant about rabbits feet and troll leather and its magical properties in public

or why you cant just have this hut looking thing be inbetween large corporate buildings

the place where a lot of the members actually live is above his store 

but yeah he is a potion maker if you want to be real about this and he sells potions that generally are just used for pranks and makes the big money.

but he also is the one to help jisung when he cant get blood in time and never charges him.

actually he never charges any of wanna one.

he denies any statements about being soft as “i owed you a favor im just repaying it”

“you made me hot chocolate hyung”

“you didnt trip me that one time thats why”

don’t let that tsundere attitude fool you hes soft for the members

overall him as an alchemist doesn't change much

he just has much more stuff

which = mess = angry minhyun

but overall he is a very smol potion maker who helps his friends with their ailments and cares a lot despite denying such 

Hwang Minhyun 

a literal Angel™

no really hes actually an angel

you can literally almost see the halo above his head

and he does have wings! 

he just hides them

because he knows that walking around with large hulking wings is not normal in society 

he came to earth a long time ago and is mostly done with humanity but still tries

its just hard sometimes

he came upon jisung a long time ago and despite,,, beliefs he had at first about what jisung was

(he literally tried to throw garlic at him and jisung just stared at him and laughed so hard he cried

minhyun was really confused)

he came to understand jisung and the two are close friends

nowadays he volunteers at local community centers and pounds

he says that he is a very responsible being but no one believes him

especially when he came home drenched wet holding a kitty in his jacket

“why didnt you just use your wings to cover you and the cat?”

“ill be honest, i didnt think of that at the time.”

he cleans the home they all live in because they are all such messes

well not all of them

actually its really only jaehwan

which he doesn't understand cause jaehwan is literally a ghost

he sings whenever he cleans and its the prettiest thing to hear 

it enamors all of the residents of the humble home

tl;dr don’t hurt this precious man you’ll have a horde of angry supernatural after you

Ong Seongwoo

actually he’s just fully human

,,,

with a catch

he hunts down demons

not the ones who try to live peacefully like jisung

the bad ones that cause harm to people and other beings

a Good Demon Hunter ™

he doesn't necessarily live in the home with the rest of the gang 

mostly due to the fact he really cant put any of his equipment there without giving minhyun a heart attack

who wouldnt get the scare of a lifetime when you see someone casually polishing a large katana that had blood on it

but hes basically there 24/7 when he doesn’t have a job to do

like it’ll be three am and daniel would be getting up to get a drink and nearly go wolf and attack in surprise at seongwoo casually sitting on the couch watching tv eating some ramyeon 

daniel does help him with his job sometimes! but seongwoo doesn’t let him go to the dangerous ones

a. cause he cares about daniel

b. jisung would actually kill him

hes still a jokester and plays pranks with the others

tells spooky stories about demons hes hunted to rile up the kids

is then told off later by jisung who had to deal with daehwi nearly shooting his head off with a spell and woojin setting fire to his bed in alarm

“whoops”

when hes on the job tho

hoo boy

he turns so serious, a complete opposite from that jokester persona he puts on around the gang

there are a lot more jobs around halloween than any other time because hallow’s eve is when demons are at their highest activity rate

so that means he gets no sleep as he hunts down demons

he doesn’t stop until his job is done

so you could not see him for weeks

then all of a sudden hes just there eating corn flakes like

“sup, how ya doing?” 

and he’ll have his arm in a cast, multiple limbs wrapped up, and be limping

but is just so casual about it

save this man

Kim Jaehwan

so funny story

hes dead

no like

he died a while ago but

hes a ghost now

hes learned how to manifest his energy in a more physical being though!

but this is also a bad thing because

he plays pranks

all the time

and he haunts sungwoon and minhyun so imagine how fun that must be for them

everyone jokingly calls him a banshee and says to move on already but they don’t actually mean that

he knows that too

so he just blows a kiss towards them and laughs as the cringe away

when he does become a more physical version of himself, he likes to play the guitar when minhyun sings

the combo is lovely

he lays on the other members who complain

and he just goes 

“i’m a ghost you cant push me off thats disrespecting the dead”

they threaten with salt and its like wow suddenly he has to go water his roof

one time someone managed to break in and he scared them so bad by floating through the doors

he didn’t actually know that there was a burglar he was going to go try and get one of those vials that sungwoon made that lets him eat food so he can eat something

hes now the guard dog for the house. 

he doesn’t remember how he died, no one does, and he doesn’t like to talk about it

overall, he’s a very mischievous ghost who does care about the people he haunts. 

Kang Daniel

alright i think a lot of people saw this one coming

our boi is a wolf

actually, he’s pretty young for a wolf

he still has a hard time actually turning and prefers to just stay human to eat his food and do other things

he’s getting the hang of it don't worry

he has his hyungs and friends to help him

when he is able to turn he is just a big fluffy dog to be very honest

one time when they were having a picnic at the local park and daniel was in wolf form for the day, seongwoo jokingly threw a ball for daniel to catch, thinking he wouldn't

daniel chased it all the way into the forest and brought it back

needless to say he won’t be able to live that down

ever

“so pup, did you eat dinner yet”

“hyung stop, it was one time”

he cant really eat a lot of produced stuff well

it doesn’t sit right with him

he cant have chocolate either

which really bums him out

que sungwoon to the rescue again with a potion for everything

so he lives off meat and vegetables

but he is somehow able to eat gummies just fine

which he is scolded for but he still does it anyways

he dances in his free time when he isn’t in school

or you know hunting

he doesn’t hunt often, and when he does it is only with small creatures

he feels bad afterward and doesn’t come out of his room for a while

poor wolfie

a living heater v.2

helps seongwoo with his hunts 

as in he tracks them but isn't allowed anywhere near the site for his safety

he complains but begrudgingly goes back 

he’s just a big ol dog who wants to eat what he wants and dance in peace 

[carinareviews]

Steam/PC: The Charming Empire Review

He’s a cutie <3

Final Grade: D+/C- TL;DR: Not great. OST was very mediocre. A little above average visuals. Storytelling was terrible. Voice Acting (VA) was the only saving grace for this game. UI is terrible/no improvement from the mobile version. Characters were great but development was non-existent in many of the routes. Couldn’t stomach the game to play through everyone’s Good ending…I just did Happy Endings which were still just mediocre ends.

Route Order I followed: Yoshimine, Togawa, Tanba, Sera, Soshi.

Route Order I recommend: Yoshimine, Tanba, Sera, Togawa, Soshi Though it honestly doesn’t matter since none of the storylines are that closely related anyways….I’d say Soshi for the beginning or end since his has the most “answers” in it. His route is pretty painful to save for last though….

Here are the route reviews: Ratings for the routes in this game will be actually higher than expected. I'm not saying these are "good" routes but the overall game is pretty kusoge (shit-game) so I'm rating them based on the low standards the overall game has set already. That being said, if you're use to fully fleshed out otome games, which I'm spoiled with...since I tend to play console based ones and not mobile based games, this game is pretty garbage. However, if you just want some light fluffy writing with tolerable visuals and a simple UI, this game is perfect. I originally played this game cause Tsuda Kenjiro VAs onii-chan... but holy shit after the first route I wasn't sure if I could make it through all the routes.

Luckily all the routes are pretty short....thank god. I didn't bother with the Normal ends cause the lackluster CGs with the shitty auto mode really made me want to kill myself while playing. Without further ado.. Here are the individual route reviews. Each written after completing the Good end.

Yoshimine 6/10

Angry Tsundere Shota >_> Uhhh def not my type. So I chose this to be my first route cause I saw the character pictures and this looked like no.1 not my type I tend to play the routes I don't think I'll like first then end with the best. He's an okay tsun-shota type. He def has some cute moments but it was really hard to get into his character since the kusoge didnt really give him good character development His idle sprite also looks really awkward too so that didn't help. Overall his VA really made up for the shitty character writing he had and semi brought his character to life. Oh yeah... the plot "twist" at the end...was so obvious.... holy shit.

Wtf is this idle..... something looks off....

Togawa 7/10

Okay... from what I see so far... this game is mainly a setup for the Soshi route at the end... I'm kinda okay with this. This route was sweet due to the bachelor being such a sweet cinnamon roll. Luckily his sprite wasn't as awkward to look at. His CGs were pretty weak as well. I think there was like 1 good CG. Augghh this kusoge with the shitty character development. I'm glad this character had some "history" with the MC though that made the lack of character development better. There were some interesting translation differences IDK were meant to be in there like switching black tea to just Earl Grey tea.

Tanba 8/10

So I really like Tanba Toki's design and the fact that his VA is also Prompto from FFXV's VA is even better.The VA suits him really well and his character development is on point. There was some questionable OST choices for certain scenes... there was "happy" music when you were helping the rebels... like whhaatt? THEN THE MAIN THING THAT MADE ME UPSET. NO CG FOR THE CONFESSION PART HOLY SHIT IM SO PISSED. THIS GAME IS KUSOGE WTH D: Then after the confession scene theres an awkward Kiss CG which look sssoooo weirrdd >_>

Overall though, this is my favorite route so far. He had the best writing so far. I think the fact that the MC doesn't get to be with him all the time really helps. There was def. slight character development written in for both the MC and Tanba. The trend of setting up for Soshi is still very prominent in this route...anddd still no connection to any other characters expect for Soshi. I really hope Soshi's route is good to make up for all the rest of these mediocre to shitty routes. (Spoiler…it didn’t) Sera's route next.

Sera 7/10

Alright, I'd be lying if I was going to say that I didn't enjoy this route. ITS STILL A TERRIBLE FUCKING ROUTE. Writing is very mediocre and storyline/development is downright garbage. BUT I fucking love Sera's character trope. Stoic quiet big guy who's actually a fucking cinnamon roll inside. He also holds the knight card as in he must protecc. Seriously, if he had glasses he would be perfect for me. HOWEVER, the VAing in the beginning was a little forced. I think Takuya (the VA) was trying to force himself to have a deeper voice at times and it didn't sound good. Then there was the sprite of Sera... wtf is this hand shit going on his idle sprite?!??

Besides that shitty idle hand...I love his character design. A LOT of the scenes (including the ending) were not satisfying at all....they could've done so much more with his scenes. The sewing scene pissed me off the most....WTF IS THAT "he said thanks" end scene. The best part of this route is that Kagamitsu Togawa actually exists in this and Yoshimine Kei is hinted at...finaaaalllly other characters being shown. I'm also glad of Soshi's end in this route compared to others. Lots of good but lots of bad in this route.... Soshi for last bois.

Soshi 6/10

I'm. so. sad. I was super hyped for this last route cause there Soshi was the only route that was hinted at in ALL the other routes. This route was a whole lot of disappointment though :( In fact... Togawa was kinda the only saving grace of this route. Arrgggh I tried so hard to like this route I really did but the story telling was soooo bad. I mean after playing the other routes you kinda are just waiting for the "twist" that was shown before...so the precursor to it is literally like WHY?! WHY YOU GOTTA BE LIKE THAT SOSHI KUN?!Also there was some fucking weird ass development or something messed up in the translation.... WHERE THE FUCK DID THE TEA PART COME FROM!? DID I MISS SOMETHING!?!?!AS IN (Spoiler alert)

WHY THE FUCK DID SHE TRY TO KILL HIM?! I'm sorry this is the only major spoiler I had to mention cause I was so confused when it happened. Then the writing got even weirder when the "Happy end" scene played where she literally started to call him "Onii-chan" and she's been calling him Soshi the whole time.... even Soji at some point IDK why....top of that...why the fuck was Soshi allowed to do what he was allowed to do at the end like no you were still the ruler howwww?....This route was just full of weird plot holes and shit that just didn't make sense. Since the route was very shitty to begin with the CGs were equally lackluster. Boring scenes got boring CGs except for the last CG but by then I was just so sad and done with the game. Tsuda Kenjiro's VAing talents were wasted on this kusoge and kuso-chara.

The Pros:

Artstyle/Character Designs- I really enjoyed a lot of the Character Designs. In fact it was the VAing and Character designs that made me eventually pick up this game. The art is vibrant is really nice to look at. Sadly some of the CGs weren’t the best of quality and some sprites could be improved. However, overall the art is very pleasant and well suited for the time period it is set in.

OST- OST was decent too. For a mobile game that ported to PC. I was decently surprised that even after trudging through so many routes the OST didn’t get annoying or repetitive. Granted there were some questionable timing on when to play certain tracks but the songs themselves were still pretty good.

VAing- So many good voice actors involved in this game. Tsuda Kenjiro is literally my favorite VA and they had the voice of Prompto too? Man good shit. The VAing did not disappoint. They def. made the game 100x better. If this game didn’t have VAing I would’ve been so sad and I don’t think I could’ve played through it all.

The Cons:

UI/UI Functionality- My BIGGEST GRIPE about this game. I get it shitty story/development, budget art, etc. BUT WHEN YOU CANT EVEN GET YOUR UI TO FUNCTION/LOOK GOOD?! COME ON! The UI is directly a port from the mobile game so it looks clunky and jenky. Not only that Auto doesn’t work as auto normally does in otoges. It acts more of a skip button which was SO FRUSTRATING. I sometimes multitask when I play otome games like check my phone/send messages to people, so I love having it on auto especially with VAing. Additionally I don’t know if it was only a bug on my game but my settings would NEVER save when I would start a new route… holy that pissed me off.

Development of Characters- Do I even have to touch on this? There was little to no development of the bachelors at all… Most of their characters were just thrown together and you were to just nod your head at some of their “developments” as in they would say “I’m partially a cat” and your character would go “Oh cool”. End of story sequence. I wanted to just punch the screen sometimes…

Tasteless CGS- Artstyle==cool. CGs==terrible. The CGs were at really weird timing and sometimes I wished there was a certain CG at a certain time but there wasn’t. I don’t know if its because there wasn’t enough memory to put in CGs for the mobile release or what not, but regardless the game did not have CGs at good times. Leading the CGs to be at awkward moments, except for the “core” CGS aka the “meeting” CGs and the “ending” CGs.

Main Character- She’s weak willed and not a fun character to follow. She just takes things as is, except maybe in Tanba’s route. I hated “being” her… I wanted to make choices at times when the games doesn’t give you a choice.

Bottom Line:

This game is just pretty garbage. I just want to move on my life and pretend that Tsuda Kenjiro wasn’t VAing in this game. If you’re thinking of buying this game..buy it on sale…like 50% or more sale or some shit. The routes are short and not fun to play through. There are def. better choices of otome games out there for PC. Of course not a lot of them are voiced by cool Japanese voice actors but this one is pretty shitty you might as well pass. I would highly recommend Nightshade on Steam or if you’re looking for something more comedy-esque and risqué… Fashioning Little Miss Lonesome. For good artstyle I’ve heard good things about OZ-Mafia too. Or just save your money up for a PSTV for those sweet sweet PSVITA games. ;)

[datingadviceonreddit]

I don't think there is a "one" for me. I'm 24 black F, and i've always been single. I don't think I would even know how to act if i've ever gotten in a relationship. When I think about my future, I can't picture myself getting married and I don't want to have kids. I've never planned my life around having a family, just education and career goals. When i think of my future, i see myself in a condo in a big city with a cat and small dog. I see myself as educated and successful and 100% self reliant. I cant picture a man in my future, i just don't think it's in my cards. Yes, i would love to share my life with someone, but I think i'm just in love with the idea of it, but I've never been in love, so how can I love the idea of it? I see all my guy friends talk about their relationships, and how they are so 100% in love with the girl, and I don't think i'll ever have a guy love me like that.​I will say, i do keep everyone at some type of distance. i'm terrible at letting people in, so how can i possibly share myself? It makes no sense, yet here i am. I've learned that letting people in too soon is self destructive, so it's easier to keep my walls up. Some people go their entire lives without ever finding a partner, and i honestly believe that i will be one of those people. Going through these dating apps and i swear it drives me up the walls, but i cant stay away from them. I like having conversations with people, and some dates are fun, so why not go? But i honestly think that i am one of those people who are not meant to be in a relationship. I haven't had genuine feelings for a guy in...6 years now. To be honest, i am a slow burn. I cant look at someone and think "oh my god, thats the one". I cant just jump in with someone i dont know that well. I have to be snuck up on, and the strongest feelings, for me, come from when me and the guy were friends first. Obviously they didn't work out, turns out people are good at hiding who they are until they get what they want. Oh well, lesson learned.​Yeah, i have friends, a healthy social life, i have sex when i want to, and i try to be a decent human being. I am actually trying to focus on my self improvement this year. Dare i call myself selfish? i'm always the one who takes care of other people, but i have to care for myself first now. I'm going to the gym, (don't get me wrong, i'm cute, but i can lose a good 10 pounds), eating healthier, and managing my finances, trying to be a real adult, so its not like i have the time or energy for another person anyway. I will say, i'm content with my life, and i am more well off than other 24 year olds that i know, hell, i work hard for what i have. I am, content, for the time being at least. That "he came out of nowhere and into my life" storytale is true for some people, but its not for all of us. I know one thing, i'd rather be single my whole life than be with someone i hate.I Think more of us chronically single people need to be happy with who we are first, then go out and meet someone, if thats what you want. I cant spend my life waiting on someone who may never come though.Thanks for reading my ramblings.​TL;DR : Single and just accepting myself via /r/dating_advice

[jiohenzewy]

Stream of Consciousness #1

tl;dr: I find myself. Any feedback/advice is appreciated. Also, if you actually read this terrible thing, you have a much hardier disposition than I and I love you forever.

Stream of Consciousness #1

I really like analyzing pieces of art and I don’t really understand why, maybe this will help me ralizae that why, I don’t really know. I don’t know how to spell consciousness.i relaly don’t get it.

Like a month or two ago I watched a videe essay or two about ghost in the shell and those videos led me to realize that GITS was one of the best anime I’ve ever seen, which isnt saying much since I don’t watch a metric fudge ton of anime like iive seen people like my friends do. (side talk to chris about froyo). But yeah I like analysis. Its fun.

Just fucking fuck I don’t know how to word  this. Like this is just for me idk what to say. Like that is what the problem always was with spleaking my thoughts is that I had to make palatable for who the audience of my words was but now the audience of those words now is me,, but also future me, so I guess I need to make this as clear as possible. But fuck that shit. Why do I need to be required to be anyone els but who I am right now. Fuck you future me. I cant even be true to myself to myself. I really just need practice expressing myself and practice in you know the work. I need practice in creating something and right now this is that something which to be honest is kind of shitty cuz this is just a bunch of words but just keep writing keep writing keep writing

I really like that show sequlitis but tons of other stuff too. When I think of hypothetical influences to my hypothetical works I think vsauce, pbs idea channel, nerdwriter, lots of nerdwriter, mrbtongue, casey neistat (but hes more inspirtation in that a inspirational cat poster inspires you) others that im forgetting, mr plinkett obvi, fucking fuck other ppl that I forget? Who are these fucking ppl fuck.

I don’t even know anymore

Before that gits analysis shit I was also planning an essay/video essay where I discuss how darth vader lost his mojo in the rouge one movie and I was gonna cite some shit. I then believed that a lot of that argument when down the crapperwhen I was reminded that there was simply someone else behind the mask in said movie but Ive understood and know for what seems like forever that an argument can always be made if u find the evidence for it and a compelling thesis. And what is a feeling you feel in a movie or any art piece than the impetus for a thesis in an analytical work. With that In mind im gonna straight copy/paste the work ive done on that subject down here right now:

“Darth lost his mojo

-mysticism

             -force

             -name

-cool factor, mascot factor, mickey mouse factor

             -Lightsabers

             -promotion for star wars merch across the ages

I was prequel era, not here to judge, star wars is many things with many audiences, ideas of what star wars IS, all ideas equally valid”

So yeah that was some stuff. That conclusion is kinda weak though I need to express my love for some prequel shit a lot more and how It kept the flame going albeit shittily, how both clone wars series can be argued made the prequel series worth it

The thing with the prequel series is that the concept behind it was always worth it. I really resound (?) with the idea that any idea is totally worth it, that any thought/feeling is completely worth it, you just need an excellent execution to make that idea worth it to other ppl…

OH GOD THE MASK

But yeah right now ive included a lot if ideas here that are totally worth it but the execution is bat shit insane. Idk if im going to go back and edit this shit into (a) more cohesive work(s). I kinda don’t want to cuz im lazy but one can never know.

I said a few enter hits back that ive understood forever that an argument is always worth it as long as you find the evidence but that isn’t necessarily true. I mean that feeling was always within my core but the people who brought it out of me were my mentors in my career endeavor, my high school teachers. Andrews and mostly Williams laid down the skeleton and the technical work behind bringing that idea out of me by teaching be the structure of paragraphs and essays and arguments and debates and what not. Gleason and yeah most definitely MOSTLY OUR GOD IN MORTAL FORM ON THIS EARTH REYNAGA brought the feeling and emotion and passion as to why that technical stuff matters out of me. They extracted that passion out of my core and said “you know that shit Andrews and Williams gave you? You can use that shit to be a fucking artist” “be an artist” reynaga told me. Be a fucking artist. Shout out to Andrews again though for teaching me world history and showing me a documentary that completely redefined how I saw myself spiritually and religiously. But yo reynaga definitely extended that spiritual side of me as well, showing to me how I responded so viscerally to the symbols and metaphors used in catholicism and catholic mass.

And yon now that I think about it, my religion probably explains a lot as to why I love analyzing shit.

I need to go back and edit this I really fucking do.

Like I feel really good about myself right now but the thing is this is where I usually stop in writing my thoughts out. I don’t go back and do the hard stuff and edit for a generaller audience. I do this shit for me and me only. Which is fucking fair to do, if that you, you do you, boo boo. But that’s not me, I wannna communicate myself to an audience, I wanna create a really good work and share it, yes to eventually make a living off of, but just to accomplish what I want to accomplsuh. To realise my passion in creating analytical essays or analytical video essays or analytical whatevershit.

I don’t really fucking know to be honest I don’t really know

Could I post this is on tumblr? If I do will I put tags on it so ppl will find that shit? Probably

Yo If youre reading this it means appriximatelyu 2 things, maybe more we’ll see:

1)      That I actually posted this on tumblr

2)      That I probably put tags on it tagging shit like “#ghost in the shell” or “#star wars” or “#analysis” or #analytical essay or some shit

3)      That you have a really fucking strong mind to deal with my bullshit, go fucking you I hope you have good days for eternity

Any and all feedback would be fucking amazing

Especially feedback on how to end streams of consciousness

The end, I guess?

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