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I wish I could hold myself up as an example of how aro adulthood isn't lonely, but sometimes it really is staring at a blank emergency contact form and not knowing who you could ask.
Loneliness is an emotion but often it's in the logistics that it hits me the hardest.
When I walk into a store mid-February and am met with displays of roses and chocolate-covered strawberries, I don't begrudge the people who buy them; it's not about the individuals, it's about the infrastructure.
I walk into that store and it's a physical manifestation of a society that's not structured for me. A day dedicated to emotions I don't experience and the fallout thereof. It's not just in the missing out, but in the practicalities.
A heart-shaped box of chocolates doesn't bother me because I've never been kissed. It's because what housing can I afford on a single income? And who is there to tell about my burial preferences? And with whom can I discuss my health?
I do not and never will have The Person expected to fulfill these roles. And it hurts in a way that is sharp and emotional, but also in a way that is cold and logical, each radiating into the other.
I see a dozen roses and I see that at end of the day, my friend can put her husband as her emergency contact without a second thought, while I'm left staring at an empty form.
#aromantic#after years of toying with the idea I'm finally starting an aro-centric side blog#I often struggle to express my thoughts on aromanticism because it's not something I really talk about with anyone#it's all just within the confines of my own head#so when I try to put fingers to keyboard it's difficult to put together something coherent#and I get frustrated and delete my draft post#because it doesn't express what I want it to how I want it to#but I've realized it's never going to get better if I don't try#so this is my space for trying
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I think one of the kindest things you can do for people with various mental health struggles is just... let people back into your life after they've been absent for a while.
Making friends as an adult is so fucking hard already and isolating yourself from other people is a very common symptom of depression, anxiety, burnout, ocd, trauma, grief, etc. Which means that someone will do the hard work of recovery/healing and resurface back into a world where their previous friends have written them off because they stopped showing up.
So if you know someone where you're like "yeah we could have been better friends but they fell off the map a bit" and that person suddenly reaches out, or starts showing up to events even though you kind of forgot they were still in the group chat... well they may have been Going Through It and you don't actually have to punish them for their absence you can just be glad that they're back.
#forever grateful for friends that let me disappear for a bit because I was too sad for everything and just held space for me to come back#so I'm trying to pay it forward by holding that space for other people#my nonsense
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do skully have pokemon?
Pumpkaboo is the obvious one, but y'know, sometimes the obvious one is the right one! (we'll say SUPER SIZE Pumpkaboo, just for fun. big pumpkin for big skeleton boy.) and another person actually also suggested Greavard, which I somehow hadn't considered, but feels so perfect that I feel like I should have. dangit.
(they can also have little Nightmare Suit costumes :D)
#art#twisted wonderland#pokemon#poketwst#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#(sorry for leaving anon off for a while! i've gotten a rash of spam and i'm gonna wait it out a couple days before turning it back on)#also apologies for the rest of this not really being pokemon related#i don't have anything right now for part 4 of the event so i'm gonna use this space to go off about it#because. oh man.#a sad lack of the scullsman but a FEAST of everyone else#gotta love malleus and leona uniting in the common goal of hunting trey down for trying to game their whiny pettiness#(trey doesn't know what to do with someone he can't easily distract with cake)#also further confirmation that malleus WILL kill a small child and leona WILL point and laugh the whole time#also sebek's plans revolving around what he knows he's good at: screaming extremely loudly and hoisting nerds#and let us not forget what i consider to be the crowning jewel#which is jamil figuring out IMMEDIATELY where scully has taken his prisoners#only for everyone else to just. literally refuse to do anything about it.#jamil just standing there and going 'WE KNOW WHERE THEY ARE! WE CAN JUST! GO GET THEM!!!! WHYYY AREN'T WE GOING'#visibly losing his entire mind and it's beautiful#top 10 twst event moments honestly#also some delightful character consistency from jade being all#'actually my dicking around is a sign of my immense trust in your abilities to get things done :)'#'but also consider: there are currently two housewardens chasing a child'#'alternately angrily screaming poetry and begging them not to sue'#'and if you will pardon my city of flowers...there is no fucking way i'm missing that'#lock shock and barrel did not sign up for this. how did these idiots turn out to be somehow weirder than the three of them.#twisted wonderland must be a frightening place indeed
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Hello, Gordon!
I get it man, sometimes you look at the void too long and become a little murdery it happens
#hlvrai#dr. coomer#i hate his name so much what duh hell#but i love him hes my dad#bubby in the corner excited about space#gordon in the corner trying to sleep#tommy's jsut happy to be here
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help me move out of my tiny car and into a vehicle like this!
i'm disabled and homeless, and while i'm in the process of getting approved for disability, i need more safety and stability.
with a larger vehicle like these, i could have enough space to install a kitchen, bed, electricity, shower, etc, and essentially make a home out of it. if you've ever wanted to help house a homeless person, please consider donating to my fundraiser!
the goal is 10k, but vehicles like this sell for much cheaper! as soon as i can, i'll purchase a suitable vehicle and start the project immediately. i'll use whatever i don't spend buying the vehicle for maintenence it might need, the tools and materials i'll need to convert it, plus the legal stuff surrounding registration, first year of insurance, etc. anything still left after that will be used to just allow me to live longer and have a safety net while i get income.
this is something i've been dreaming of for a long time, and as the housing market gets crazier i've realized it's probably the only way i'll have a stable home. i've been researching this project for years and i'll have some helping hands, so your money will be used well to create a home for me.
we're on pace to get me into a van by the end of summer or early autumn, and i could finish the conversion before it starts snowing! this is way sooner than i ever expected. please consider donating, and/or boost this post to keep up the momentum!
GFM
$733/10k
#boost#donation request#mutual aid#homeless#homelessness#fundraiser#gofundme#i'm still trying to decide between a box van and a camper or smth like a sprinter#theyre all about the same price but the insurance might be different#i might need to register a box van as a mobile home rather than a camper which might make the insurance more expensive#the conversion on a box van will be more expensive too#but! ill have so much space itll be luxury for not that much more money#it depends how much money i can get selling my car#technically i know i can survive winter in my car but itd be really nice to have insulated walls
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i hate them so much
#holy shit it's late i lost track of time#bonus points to whoever translates the totally not code on the neck chain#anyways they've been on the mind i fear i won't be over this soon#they're so awful for each other i'll take 14 of them right now#also decided to try my hand at a human bill#think he looks neat#billford#bill cipher#stanford pines#ford pines#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#s0up1tart#guys you can reblog this with fun tags don't worry this is a safe space
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was doodlin today… the new train attendent collab art goes hard
#seri built like a BRICK in those pics like HOO WEE#i was supposed to color mob but i ran outta time… *cries*#trying to switch up how i paint cuz i don’t have the time to be rendering like i used to… i need my own space to work on things…#also i wanna be more… messy and free with my art… i get so caught up with stuff looking clean#my art#mp100#mob psycho 100#serizawa katsuya#reigen arataka#serirei#shigeo kageyama#ekubo
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once more around the sun!! :3
#mine#cats#happy new year!!! a little late but alas#i didnt like th colours here but now i love them hehehehehheheh#i hope everyone had a good holidays life development for me is i now like ice hockey#in my sports fan era...these greasy sweaty bloody white men...intrigue me#also i got a new diary!! im using th hobonichi cousin in kinda alarmed by it ngl a5 is a lot of space to fill#i tried the hobonichi techo a couple years ago n found it a rlly weird size 2 work in but now.........big page scawwy#im trying not 2 b too insane about it . like relax who cares#if i do cute spreads i will share them :3#also in th same vein im not setting a book goal this year !! tbh i surpassed my goal last year by a lot and wasnt stressed about it at All#but i get so guilty about not reading sometimes like girl . guilty to who? god? are we catholic now? get a grip#anyway anway im going to toot on my flute and then eat my weight in mac n cheese#love how i had to get a new cork in my flute bc i didnt play for like 10 months n th guy was like play regularly! n i was like yeh will do!#and then did not do that#alas...time escapes me
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"What have they done to you,
Old friend."
Trapped in the fade, Solas comes face to face with the remnant of his spirit.
The Dread Wolf was his wisdom, mirror to his pride. In the wake of the wrathful Evanuris, it too, has succumbed to their taint.
Or, where I'm making wild plot speculations surrounding Solas trapped in the fade. while turning my brainrot into art pieces and gifs. I'M PACING MY ENCLOSURE. Looking for crumbs and scrabs of Veilguard. Please Bioware I'm begging, feed me. 😭
#I made like 3 different versions of this lol#Anyways the first sketch is the best#Trying not to over complicate my artworks#When working on my iPad I just keep zooming zooming zooming untill I can give Solas a kiss on the nose#But then I also lose the space for gesture so now I just wave from a tragic distance to my boy#Beautiful bald headed boy#Can't wait to see what new plot the developers have devised to torture him even more. Here is my two cents. Face confrontations to the past#Hell yeah#the veilguard#veilguard speculation#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age theory#da: the veilguard#Da: the Veilguard artwork#Dragon age fanart#Solas#Solas fanart#fen harel#The Dread Wolf#The dreaded husband#art#Daze Chroma#Dazechroma#My art#da:tv#da:v#datv spoilers#datv speculation
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7-s footage (drawn over this tiktok)
#AUGH#there was no goddamn reason for me to make this its SO DUMB#i really wanted to try rotoscoping bc i havent before#it was so annoying ...#v1s wings are inside their back pack thing.#no way i was rotating those things in a 3d space without reference....#look at v1 go theyre so polite cleaning up their mess#v1#ultrakill#ultrakill 7-s#v1 ultrakill#my animation#animation
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help needed for bills & food
venmo
kofi paypal
cashapp
I owe my roommate for three months worth of utilities now, and it's to the point where I'm anxious to leave my bedroom again. I'm too anxious to double check the amount due but it's about $280 I think.
I'm really struggling to pull in commissions and having an incredibly rough time getting myself in a good spot to seek employment. working with my psych and therapist to try to get myself there but between scheduling issues and anxiety and a general Very Hard Time Doing Anything Ive been unable to make any real progress.
any help at all is super appreciated. donations and the occasional commission are the only way I've been able to stay afloat. thank you so much.
#mutual aid#signal boost#struggling mentallyyyyyyy#my psych says were about maxed out on meds and have to pull back on some and try a stimulant holiday before we can make more changes#and my therapist hasnt had space to fit me in again so I'm slowly looking for a new therapist#dysphoria and dysmorphia have been incredibly bad#just having a really hard time
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tears of the prophets 👁⚪️ (prints) here's a little wind-down paint from this week!!!
#i noticed i shy away from deep deep shadows a lot so i did this little practice to try and get more comfortable with em so uuuuuh shrugs#anyhoo i am love kira nerys#deep space nine#deep space 9#ds9#kira nerys#major kira#star trek fanart#digital art#illustration#my art
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i don't really post my art on here but i'm learning how to do digital art so that's cool ig
#mash#m*a*s*h#my art#don't look too closely at the hands lol#i wanted to fill the empty space so i ended up putting text there idk if i like it but#i am primarily an oil painter#but i don't really have storage space for canvases in my new apt so trying this out
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i love your riddle design so much, he's so pointy and british. so gracious. do you think he would enjoy a brazilian goiabada
thank you! ❤️🖤❤️ it's just. important to me on a level I can't explain that Riddle have an extremely pointy nose that he can stick into everyone else's business.
also goiabada is sweet and fruity and red, I think he would like it very much indeed!
not me stealth-editing because I forgot his antenna whoops
#art#twisted wonderland#me: riddle's nose is important to me (draws him without a nose)#a study in contrasts?#regardless it is my power as a fanartist to let riddle eat sweets and by god i'm going to use it#i also love british riddle. briddle. it's just RIGHT.#i think about how someday the anime will come out and get dubbed and riddle is going to have Generic Anime Boy Voice#instead of the most over-the-top prim little benedict cumberbatch accent like he does in my HEART#and the world shall be poorer for it. alas.#i also think it would be VERY funny if malleus had a super exaggerated french accent because something something french fairytale#i am probably alone in this however#(sorry still trying to catch up on everything!)#(all of my focus has been going towards Deadlines so hopefully i will have space to think...eventually :')#(i still have some main story things cookin' and i JUST finished tsumsted 3: the squeakquel so uhhh)#(there may be a bit of a flood at some point. you've been warned.)
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A bitter sweet memory ❤️
Pre-Calamity flashback panel from my Zelink comic. Work in progress.
#my art#zelink#cue Muse's “Endlessly”#breath of the wild#loz fanart#legend of zelda#pre calamity#zelda fanart#zelda#tears of the kingdom#princess zelda#botw#the ANGST#They were both under so much pressure#unrequited love#link x zelda#Link secretly loving Zelda in silence while she “hated” him hdgsjsgjds#Link accepts being Zelda's punching bag. He understands her anxiety...#If he can be a safe space for Zelda to lash out#so be it T_T#Obviouly he wished things could be different hjdhjknhsjscu#sheik fangirl is making a Zelink comic#I'm trying to finish it but i want it to be perfect and special#sheik fangirl
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Still trying to find how to draw them ✨
#the umbrella academy#viktor hargreeves#ben hargreeves#allison hargreeves#diego hargreeves#five hargreeves#klaus hargreeves#luther hargreeves#my art#those are the design for an au!#I am trying to find them too#the faces and hair at least#they all have strange eyes too but it's on purpose#I need to inject the 'oh something is strange about them' on their design directly too#I mean they are litteraly born from space particles gbtrbhryh#I want something like it's not obvious af but if people look at them too long it becomes uncanny and they don't know why#impossible to show on design but I think it could be cool#once again half au/half hcs so it's not canon don't take it too seriously yay#umbrella academy#the hargreeves#the umbrella academy fanart#tua fanart#tua
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