#so then i was gonna cool down my coffee with ice cubes but we're out of ice

[elprupneerg]

hate when i'm having a bad day but also having trouble keeping from expressing it much. cuz my gf wants to help make it better but there's not exactly a concrete thing to do to make "i have no control over my upper lip cuz the dentist numbed my mouth and i'm thirsty but drinking means making gross slurping noises while i try not to spill on myself and i still end up spilling a lot anyway which is embarassing" better. like the only solution is to wait until i regain feeling/control in my lip and cheek.

but she wants to help! and i'm walking around a bit upset cuz its warm and i'm thirsty and less caffeinated than i'd like to be and there's nothing to be done for it for at least a few hours. so she starts getting scared and sad. so then i'm feeling worse cuz now i'm making her day bad. and she notices that i'm feeling worse, blames herself, and gets even more scared. so then i apologize for scaring her, and then she feels worse cuz now she's Behaving Incorrectly(TM) which makes her close in on herself even more. and then i feel worse cuz i'm Behaving Incorrectly(TM) and scaring her more when i'm trying to do the opposite. et cetera et cetera forever and ever until we both go to sleep.

i can't wait until today is over.