#so much nasty angsty gayness

[mentallyillastrophelfreak]

dudes. i think my fight with my "best friend" became a confession. which then reminds me of...

jegulus.

J: I'll keep forgiving you.

R: how long till you lose patience? forgiveness?

J: I will never lose my patience and forgiveness, I'll just give you some space if you need it.

R: I don't need space, I've had enough of space, I'm alone

R: I don't know what it is I need to hear from you to feel that you do care

J: then maybe you don't need to hear anything from me, maybe you need a hug or a kiss on the forehead to make you feel that i do care. If words can't express it then actions will

R: Maybe I just need someone to be sad with; someone to understand me

R: But I want it to be you.

J: what do you mean?

R: I want to love the worst part of you. Maybe the reason why I can't seem to trust you is because you're not showing the real you.

J: I amm

R: Am I asking for too much?

....(note: this is the ACCURATE convo we had)

[liyazaki]

Every Month of 2021: Popular/Fav Posts

Share your most popular and/or favorite posts from each month of 2021 (it’s okay to skip months)!

I was tagged eons ago by @jaehwany & @musicdramalove - thank you so much! 💖​ I started this lil blog/GIFFing in April, hence the start date. I'm hypercritical of everything I make, so taking a minute to look back and appreciate the progression was wild!

not sure who’s done this already but no-pressure tagging: @pranparakul @ohaewpanwa @spicyvampire @smittenskitten @pranpat @florenzim @tipnaree @badbudddy @lovepattranite @nattawins @sunsetandthemoon @ahysopae @pranpats @oswlld

april: I posted my first-ever GIF set (an ITSAY one, naturally). No, I will not link it and yes, I will consider it a personal betrayal of the highest order if y’all reblog it in response to this post 🥰#toprivateornottoprivate #thatisthequestion

may: most popular: the genius opening scene to IPYTM- P'Meen really said 'safe sex but w/ BKPP crackhead energy'. My fav: Oh + his memories - it was the first time I played with blending GIFs and black & white to color transitions.

june: most popular: IPYTM finale kiss. My fav: Teh & Oh Broken Things/kintsugi- I still love how the coloring turned out, and how the continuous line flowed through the set.

july: most popular: Shinwoo short-circuiting (yikes, that nasty old font...) My favs: What Oh's Notebook Might Look Like Today (this took about three weeks to make) and the IPYTM MV monster set.

august: most popular: Cherry Magic- A Study In Touch. My favs: Cherry Magic: The Musical playbill set, and when PP Krit blew up my whole life with sheer beautiful gayness in "It's OK Not to Be Alright", so I made a monster set in response #alegend

september: most popular: my one (and probably only ever) lil nas x set, and when I finally figured out how to mute post notifications 🤪 my favs: IPYTM: Tarot Edition & this BL cassette tape playlist.

october: most popular: Aoki x Adachi: Meltdown Kings. My favs: ITSAY: Tarot Edition and this angsty AF PatPran lyric set I made before ep. 1 even came out 😙 Honorable mentions: ITSAY: Where Their Eyes Linger and ITSAY vintage postcard sets for taking approximately 100,345 years to create (this was a crazy active month)

november: most popular: PatPran: Why can't I say it? My favs: I decided that Troye Sivan's Blue album was clearly written for PatPran and made several lyric sets to further my agenda.

december: most popular: Aoki x the complete inability to can. My fav: 2021 BL Characters That Gave Me Serotonin- I made this one purely for myself and just low-key love looking at it #rainbowvomitftw

[jikook-is-soft]

JIKOOK FIC REC

I made this whole thing once before and accidentally deleted it and had to do it all over so RIP me. This time there will be less oneshots but that’s because I’ve read a fuck ton of chaptered fics this year so get ready. 

ONESHOTS

The Arrangement: Jikook are roommates in the BTS dorm and often find themselves sleeping in the same bed. the problem is Jungkook keeps waking Jimin up with his morning wood. Jungkook is in denial about his gayness and Jimin is hiding his until they come up with a little plan. Jimin will help him get rid of his boners so that Kookie’s sexual frustration will go away and stop waking Jimin up in the morning simple right? This is low-key really hot but I wish it was longer. 

A Knight’s Duty: Who doesn’t love a little porn with a plot am I right? Jungkook is in charge of guarding the crown prince Park Jimin, and it’s no secret that Jimin likes to get up to more than inappropriate things with the pretty knight. Read it read it read it

Thigh Highs: This one is super cute and super hot all at the same time. Jungkook comes home to find Jimin wrapped up in blankets and christmas lights. When he asks Jungkook to unwrap him he finds that Jimin is only wearing a t shirt and some thigh high socks. I swear this is some actual shit that Jikook would do, it makes me giddy. 

Live in Osaka: oh boy I LIVE for this oneshot. It’s based on the iconic vlive where Tae cock blocks Jikook by coming into Jungkook’s hotel room. you know the one “Jungkookie isn’t wearing any clothes” and Jimin hiding in the bathroom, yeah that one. Anyway this fic does a good job of describing the gay chaos that was this vlive. 

The Adventures of Jikook boyfriends: Okay this is precious. It’s a series of 12 oneshots in which Jikook are domestic as fuck. It’s so cute and fluffy (with the tinniest hint of smut) and definitely worth the read. 

White T-shirts and Brown Timberlands: shit. yes. okay. I swear this is an emotional rollercoaster. It made me laugh and cry and smile. Jimin and Jungkook have been together for eight years and Jimin realizes that it’s finally coming to an end as he holds the divorce papers in his hands. YOU GUYS, if this doesn’t hook you right away I don’t know what will. Don’t worry it has a happy ending, but that doesn’t mean it won’t make you cry. 

Okay those are the only really good oneshots that I’ve read in a while so now on to the juicy stuff, the Chaptered fics. There’s actually so many of these that I’m not sure I’ll even have time to put them all down but I’m going to try my darn best. 

CHAPTERED FICS

Comfort in lies: First things first TRIGGER WARNING there is rape and non consensual activity in this fic so if that bothers you in any way this may not be the one for you. That doesn’t dominate the whole story though. It’s canon compliant and is mostly about how Jungkook and Jimin come to terms with their feelings for each other. It made me cry big time just a warning. Their relationship in this is so pure and precious and not toxic like a lot of fics. Highly recommend this one (36 chapters)

Like Fire, Like Stone:  YES YES YES. This is yet another fic that made me bawl like a little child. It’s a shadow hunters AU but don’t worry you don’t need to know the show to enjoy this (I’ve never seen it and still love this fic). Jimin and Jungkook are childhood best friends that become each other’s Parabatai which is a bond made between two soldiers that connects them spiritually in order to help them in battle. The thing is parabatai are forbidden from being anything more than platonic, which is very hard for Jungkook when he starts to realize he may feel more for Jimin than he should. Please read this, it’s so good. (12 chapters) 

High For This: It’s easy to grasp. Jimin is a stripper and a certain young Jungkook starts to pay for all his time. It’s here that Jungkook convinces Jimin to be his BDSM sub. This is cute and sexy and also angsty. But still good check it out (18 Chapters)

All Your Glory: Fucking yes, this is so great. Jungkook and Jimin are both from rich powerful families that also happen to be sworn enemies. The two are supposed to hate each other and they somewhat do when they aren’t fucking each other’s brains out. Fuck buddy AU meets enemies to lovers AU meets business men AU. it’s fucking good okay? Read it (11 chapters) +a second part to the series. 

Whiskey: out of all the fics I’ve read in the past couple months this one stands out in my mind a lot. All I have to say is that if you read this please please listen to the music that goes with it because it’s an experience. Jimin is an omega cam boy but even with all the thirsty alphas watching him Jimin won’t ever succumb to his natural instincts, he’s independent and doesn’t need an alpha. However that changes when one of his viewers sends in his shirt and his smell sends Jimin into heat. this fucking hot and Pyscojimin has a twisted little mind that I love. (15 chapters)

crushes are the plague (and I caught your fever): Jungkook is the school bad boy and everyone knows that he has a reputation. However what people don’t know is that he’s dating the school angel and class president Park Jimin. this is so freaking cute but also really hot and I love it so much. (30 chapters)

Longing: a yearning desire: cry’s in Jikook. This is a soulmate AU in which the first words that your soulmate says to you appears on your wrist when you turn 18, unless your soulmates has already died. When Jungkook turns 18 his wrist is blank. This is really beautiful and Jimin is so soft here? I love love love this one so check it out. (11 chapters) 

Cherry: AAAHHH. Good old ABO fic. This is actually the sweetest thing it gives me butterflies inside. Jimin and Jungkook are childhood neighbors and best friends. When they are young they can’t help but sent each other and nuzzle into each other’s necks even though their parents get angry and try to stop them. Jungkook likes that Jimin smells like cherries. This is so freaking good you guys. there’s fluff and smut and angst and everything nice. (25 chapters)

Where you Belong: if Daddy kink makes you uncomfortable do not read this fic. I personally find this one absolutely adorable. Jimin thinks that he may be a little and decides to sign up for a website in order to find a daddy where he meets Jungkook. (There isn’t really any age regression here it’s mostly just Jimin being fragile and soft). It’s very sweet and soft (30 chapters)

(my heart beats) for you: Oh my God this one is so freaking cute. Jungkook becomes friends with Park Jimin who gets bullied at school. He thinks Jimin is the most adorable boy he’s ever laid eyes on from the day they meet and well into their older years. This warms my heart. There’s fluff and smut here which is a perfect combo. (4 chapters) 

Times Six: Okay I am SO SORRY. I know this is utter filth and completely fucking crazy but I HAD to add this fic. I don’t want to go into too many details and keep you from being surprised. Jungkook gets chosen for a super secret scientific project. As it turns out, super genius Park Jimin has succeeded in human cloning. When I say this is udder filth I really don’t say it lightly so please be cautious and good fucking luck to anyone that reads this one. (5 chapters) 

Falling for you again: Okay I remember reading this but I don’t actually remember if I liked it or not. I think I might have? who knows I read too much fanfiction. Anyway Jungkook gets into a car accident that leaves him badly damaged and erases his memory, specifically the memories of his boyfriend Jimin. The tags say happy ending so I assume that this one won’t make you cry too much....(4 chapters)

Into You: I read this a long time ago but I do remember liking it. Jimin is a very famous model and Jungkook is his bodyguard, but the fans don’t have to know that they are actually much more than that. There’s fluff and there’s smut and there’s angst so what more do you want. (7 chapters)

Expiration Date: Yes yes yes, a million times yes. I’m just going to add part of the actually story summary because they can put it into words better than I can “The age old story of two people that love each other so much that they are reincarnated because their bond is stronger than death. Take that, multiply it by 20, and switch the word love with hate.” Basically Jimin and Jungkook are like the opposite of lover soulmates. They are reincarnated and in every life they find each other, but the thing is once they meet all their memories of their past lives come back and they only have three months to live before they die and have to start it all over. THIS IS SO GOOD READ IT (30 chapters)

Appetite For Stars: Okay so you’re going to read the summary for this one and go “what the fuck”, but hear me out. The first chapter is defiantly uncomfortable so let’s get that shit out of the way. The second chapter is the reason that this fic is on here and don’t worry their is no pedo shit or underage sex. The second part to this fic is something I find very interesting so don’t get turned off by the first part. I”ll let you dive into this one alone (2 chapters)

Redo: Gonna be honest don’t remember this one too well, it was pretty far back in my ao3 history. Jungkook tries to get over his ex by having a one night stand and soon finds out that that one night stand just so happens to be his new roommate. (7 chapters)

Mono no aware: Ah the old “We were married and got a divorce so I haven’t seen you in years but suddenly you show up in my life again trope”. I think you can probably guess how this one goes, I highly recommend (10 chapters)

Tastes like victory: Why are there so many fics where Jimin is like a fragile stripper? Where does that even come from? But this fic is still really good, Jungkook is an underground fighter that meets Jimin, he teaches him how to defend himself from some nasty clients. (13 chapters)

Twelve: A New Chance: This one has a very interesting concept. For every person that you fall in love with it leave a mark on your skin. Gold is the most rare meaning that person is your soulmate. Black means mutual love, you may not be destined for each other but you’ll love each other none the less, and red means unrequited love. So far Jimin has 11 red marks. (13 chapters)

Coconut Head and McThiccens: Holy SHIT. Okay this might be my favorite fic on this list. I kid you not this is one of the softest and cutest jikook fics I’ve read in my life and I can’t believe I only found it recently. Jungkook is super boring and emotionless, almost like a robot. Jimin is the asshole of the school that everyone avoids because they know that he’ll tear the shit out of them if they get too close. However, Jungkook seems to be immune to anything Jimin does no matter how hard he tries to get a reaction, it frustrates Jimin. please please please read this oh my God you won’t regret it. It’s not finished yet there are still two chapters to go, but the author is updating soon (33/35 chapters) 

Alrighty I think that’s the end of this Jikook fic rec. There are more chaptered fics that I didn’t add to the list just because they weren’t special enough for me to remember/recommend. Enjoy all the jikook!

[mentallyillastrophelfreak]

But, like, can we imagine an au where regulus is a serial killer, and everytime he kills someone, he always plays army dreamers with his own vinyl record because that's the same song that played when sirius died from murder (right in front of his eyes but he got spared)?? then james becomes his next target because he reminds him too much of sirius but before james lets regulus kills him (he's become suicidal and depressed from Sirius' death), he asks for a one last dance.

[annegrey]

And it’s going to be hist gentlest kill, kiss to the forehead and all

But, like, can we imagine an au where regulus is a serial killer, and everytime he kills someone, he always plays army dreamers with his own vinyl record because that's the same song that played when sirius died from murder (right in front of his eyes but he got spared)?? then james becomes his next target because he reminds him too much of sirius but before james lets regulus kills him (he's become suicidal and depressed from Sirius' death), he asks for a one last dance.