#so maybe ill try drawing those outfits for some of my other ocs

[offorestsongs]

Lysander got a New Years outfit too! i love my sad pink hare boy so much

taglist (ask to be added <3): @thehollowwriter @tixdixl @scint1llat3 @s-t-y-x

[daaziscoolbesties]

i yearn for one(1) thing only, and that is to have a nice, simplistic, cartoonish artstyle. an artstyle that doesnt rely on anatomy, but the "movement" of the drawing, if you get what i mean.

i dont want realistic proportions and traditional colors and basic poses and gradient shading, i want funky lil dudes in funky poses with funky styles littering my sketchbook :( but alas i havent figured out how to develop that kind of style yet, my brain wants anatomy to look nice but also i dont want to draw eyes. i dont want to take time out of my day to learn how to draw lips i want to draw a line that extends past the characters face. i dont want all my characters to have pointy chins with curved cheeks i want their heads to be round and friend-like or full of sharp edges depending on their personalities and styles. i want to give them all not-quite human ears, blob feet, simple faces, but at the same time i want enough detail to convey the story or emotion im trying to tell.

ive spent so much time recently agonizing over how to use 3d model websites, using real-life references and tracing over them for practice, color-picking from real images to try and do realism and failing miserably, but you know whats easier than that? funky little dudes. little dudes who do not care if their legs are too long or their hair is too bouncy. i dont want my characters to look human.

ive spent enough time on the artfight website to realize that most people who classify their characters as "human" have the most basic ass designs (no offense to people who like basic human designs its just not my thing) or its like dnd-medieval style outfits which i cant draw for the life of me (ive tried). again no offense to people who actively enjoy and draw characters like that. i just need my dudes to have that certain,,, off-ness to them. tails are cool. wings are swag (especially if they arent even like,, fully attached,, ), elf ears are so wonderful to me no matter how much theyre overused, horns are so much fun to draw, and colors!! i have no knowledge in the color theory department so this works great for me!! the only thing i really know is dont shade with black, other than that i just colorpick from references usually but i dont want to do that!! i want the colors to hurt people's eyes but in a satisfying way. like the character's design is so nice to look at that you dont mind your eyes hurting a bit. like how im enjoying writing this post even though its 2 am and the brightness on my computer wont go any lower.

and then another thing ive noticed from being on the artfight website is that a lot of people classify their characters that are anthro/have anthro features under humanoids/monsters. like i made a google form to find some people to attack and someone sent me in a character with some sort of animal (wolf? idk) arms and legs. like dude!! peak character design i love her. but me personally? i cant draw that shit, its so hard for me. i tried a while back and its just Not my thing. nothing against furries i just. cant. and i dont want to either.

and i got another submission that i accidentally deleted that was like full anthro/wolf-like like my comrade,,, i cannot draw animals what makes you think i can draw an animal who acts like a human lmao. i can do like. very basic tails, and also animal ears but i cant do the arms and legs and such i just dont know the anatomy, and i know i was talking about how i dont want to care about anatomy but i feel like for anthros you really do need to know at least basic animal anatomy so you know how the limbs look and shit and i dont have that knowledge and dont feel like gaining it.

and then there were some submissions that i absolutely adored. there was one that like, was vaguely human shaped but definitely was not a human. they had a dark-ish lavender colored skin and horns and tusks and like goat ears and a sorta fluffy tail with spikes on it and they had wings and such and they were such a pleasure to draw i love them. and they had a fairly simple outfit too, nothing too complicated. and then i also enjoy object head characters, theyre so neato to me. i got one of those and i really wish i had the motivation to work on it cause it looks so fun.

i want to make funky characters but id have nothing to do with them because the only book i ever tried writing (key word tried - never got past planning it out) had strictly human characters in it, and most of the books i read are humans/humans with powers in situations specific to them so id have no idea what lore to make with the dudes. assuming i have the motivation to make lore and backstory because honestly i just really enjoy character designing its super duper fun.

(side note a song about trucks doing the deed came on just now and its interrupted my flow, apologies).

i only have three actual characters right now. one is an original roleplay oc whos design is literally athletic shorts, an oversized long sleeved grey sweatshirt, long purple hair, and demon horns. the second one is my persona whos design some sorta medival knight outfit kinda thing? but not ugly it looks really cool (idk one of my friends designed it bc i won some contest from him but the drawing was on a super small scale so idrk the details,,,) with a plague doctor mask and crown, and shoulder length wavy brown hair, dyed bright pink at the end. and then my last one im not too comfortable using other places because theyre a character my friend is using in the story hes writing, and thats really the only place theyve been used. but theyre easily my favorite and im already writing a ton so ill talk about them too.

they're a sorta elf species thing from another planet, with pale green skin and pointed ears. they also have a tail, its like,, super thin, but with a feathery bit at the end. probably not the texture of a feather but i dont know how else to describe it. they have short, curly, almost-draco-malfoy-blonde hair that when it gets too long they can put in a man bun. their eyesight is kinda shitty so when they got to earth, they were exploring some supply closets around the airship. drop off area. thing. like airport but for rocketships and also fancier. yeah. they were exploring that area and found a nice big pair of round glasses with grey frames. and they also found a cowboy-style hat and a sharpie so they wrote their name on the underside of the brim of the hat and stole the hat and glasses (but left the sharpie in the supply closet).

yeah theyre my favorite, my absolute beloved, my child, so cool. i want more characters like them but with maybe a bit more snazzier designs. theyre super cool and all but they could have more pizzazz if they werent in a story where its too late to give them more pizzazz. i just want to be able to give my characters thigh-high boots with a bunch of buckles and fluffy hair with tons of accessories crammed in and abnormally large and long ears that can harbor many piercings and horns that can hold rings on them and special little details on their outfits like who knows what but i dont have any characters to do that too, so i have to make them from scratch, which is always hard especially when you have artblock.

and i also have like 17 characters i need to fully draw, line, and maybe color for artfight before august 1st. so i dont know. i have many things to do and plenty of time to do it but instead i spend my time halfway watching repetitive youtube videos that get boring or sleeping all damn day because i stay up too late doing things like this or i just do nothing at all and its tiring and frustrating but i also feel nothing about it like theres no consequence if i dont do it besides you know. not doing it, not gaining that experience, not making something i enjoy.

so i should do it but i dont for whatever reason, i think its called executive dysfunction but im not sure. this post started out very differently than it ended and i said somewhere up there that i was writing this at 2 am but now its almost 3. this is so many words why couldnt i have put this energy into something productive

[neil-is-awkward]

Dbh rp oc

I'm in Detroit Become Human fandom since some times and so, I decided to try to create an oc for this fandom. It's the first time I'm doing it. I'm not a writer, I really don't know if this character is too cliché or no or even if I'll be able to write any good shit... but I want to try anyway, I hope you'll be understanding and kind with the dumb and shy person I am... Also, I'm not a lot on Tumblr, dealing with my real life. I really hope you'll enjoy this boy... (Thank you to @forensic-boi and @androidwithangerissues they make me want to do that...)

Name: Neil (Jefferson) Miller

Age: 24

Sex: Male

Blood type: O-

Nationality: American

Ethnicity: Don’t really know

Sexual Orientation: Pansexual

Current status: Single

Birth date: 17 March, 2008

Birth place: Canada

Current residence: Detroit

Occupation: Forensic scientist

Hobbies/Pastimes: Drawing, watching shows, reading

Past History

Hometown: Chelsea, Quebec

First Memory: When he was in crèche, he remembers something about someone changing his nappy, he remembers the rattle (a red and yellow stuff, with tiny letter cube…)

Most important childhood event that still affects him/her: When he found out he had a secret big brother.

Why/How?: He grown as a single child, always thought it was only his parents and him, but one day he found out that his father had a first son in France years before his own birth. He felt something break in him. It had an influence on how he could entrust people.

Other memories/events that still affects him/her and why/how: When his parents separated and, years later, when they came back together. It wasn’t a traumatize, he just kind of didn’t care, it’s their life, their problem. But it influenced on his own life, how he moved to Detroit.

Biggest disillusions from childhood: Figured out he couldn’t even trust his own parents.

Physical Characteristics

Height: 1m73 (5’7)

Posture: Most of the time, he his a bit bend, his shoulder a bit lower.

Build: Thin? Slightly in shape, but don’t ultra muscled, not too thin, pretty much average.

Skin: Pale and scattered with tiny freckles on his face, his shoulders and his arms, not really hairy

Hair: Dark ginger-Brown? Straight (even if, sometimes, when he wakes up with his hair all curled, something in his family, his brothers have it too…), short/half-long hair, shorter in the back of his head, quite longer in the front, parting on his right, sometimes he put a barrette to see in front of him

Widow's peak? Subtle

Ears: A bit small, pointy

Eyes: Grey-green, he has natural dark bags (thanks to his father) and a red line in the bottom of his eyes (due to his constant lack of sleep)

Nose: Pointy, a bit turned-up?

Mouth: Tiny, not too wide, but his lips are full, especially his lower lip

Face shape: a bit round-like, but he has a squared jawline

Expressions: his resting face is mostly a deadpan face, but he has of course expression, he can smile, and be angry (if he’s angry, he’ll never frown, he looks like he’s about to cry when he frowns…)

Describe their smile: even if it’s 100% sincere, his smile looks fake. Also, he has dimples when he smiles, just after the corner of his lips.

Hands: Not too long, with slender fingers

Feet: As his hands?

Tattoos/Scars? A thin triangle with a four leaved clover on his right arm and a line form on his left arm, looking like a fox head

Glasses/Contacts? He wears glasses when he works, draws and reads

Left/Right handed? He is a right handed, but since he was a young boi he wants to be a left handed, so he worked to be an ambidextrous. It’s not an easy task, but he can barely write and doodles

Distinguishing features: Somewhere, around his left knee, he has some stained, as several bruises or burn marks, it’s his birthmark. He also have a lot of moles, natural tiny teeth and a bit sharp, he seems younger than he actually is

How does s/he dress or what do they typically wear? Hoodies and round collar sweater, large, mostly dark or light colours (nothing too flashy, black or light grey), dark slim jeans, biker boots, ankle boots (like doc martens), socks with patterns, sometimes a military-like cap

Other outfits one might find in their wardrobe: Parka, large check shirts, some old geeks/band tee-shirt, …

Jewelry: Kind of guy to have too much silver rings and wristbands

Other accessories: His two ears are pierced, all along.

Weapons: His words are his best weapon

Health: Good, rarely ill, just allergic to a lot of thing and asthmatic

Hygiene: He loves showering so, every day he’s showering (or bathing if he has enough time)

Characteristics

Are they generally balanced or clumsy? Somewhere between the two, but more balanced

Describe their walk: Sure, quick, if he walks it’s to go from a point A to a point B

Unique phrases/words: “Geez”

Do they curse, and if so, to what extent? They curse, often, but rarely insults someone, it’s more like “Shit… I drop this” or “Geez… I’m late”

Voice: Clear, a bit croaky?

Describe their laugh: Conversely to his smile, his laugh always sounds genuine, it’s rare, but spontaneous and is those kind of laughs that make you smile

Describe their sleep patterns (light/heavy sleeper, no sleep, sleeps too often, etc): Sleeps early (sometimes, he chills a bit late), wakes up early

Describe their dwelling/house: Well, something between Norwegian style and Indus style, with plants. He’s the kind of guy a bit shambolic, but still maniac (like, he likes order cards or tidies colour pencils in shade)

Psychological/Personality Attributes and Attitudes

Intelligence Level: He would say “average”, but he was better than a lot of his mates at school

Known Languages: English, a bit of french

Character's long-term goals/desires in life: No idea

Character's short-term goals/desires in life: No idea

Secret desires: He doesn’t think he has any

How self-confident is the character? He seems confident, but he is not that much

How do they see him/herself? As a strange person, doesn’t understand himself

How do they believe s/he is perceived by others? Probably as a strange person, reserved

What is the character most proud of? His cat

What does the character like least about themselves? His lack of confidence

Is this character generally dominant or submissive? A submissive, even if he could act as a dominant, he’s still a submissive guy

Patience level: Very high, except in extreme stressful situation, at those moments he could – sometimes – just freak out

Does the character seem ruled by emotion or logic or some combination thereof? Hm… A combination? But maybe a bit more by logic

Most at ease when: He is with his friends

Ill at ease when: He is alone

Describe their sense of humor: Dark humour, sarcastic but also memes

If granted one wish, what would it be? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ be a cat ?

If they could be described with one of the seven virtues, which would it be? Patience

If they could be described with one of the seven sins, which would it be? Lust

Biggest Vulnerability (non physical): His fear to be alone

Optimist or Pessimist: Depends on his mood

Introvert or extrovert: Social introvert?

Greatest Fear: Being abandoned

Other Fears/Insecurities/Phobias: That someone breaks in and kills either himself or people he cares about

Character's darkest/deepest secret: He sometimes imagines how he could kill someone, detailing each step in his head, and wonders what his this boundary that prevent him to do it

[Part II]

[pixxyofice]

TIME FOR A SUPER DETAILED THING FOR ASAGAO!PIX BECAUSE I’M A TRASH BAG FOR THIS GAME NOW

Name: Pixie Annie Kohler Nickname: Pix Meaning of name: ...Pixxy. a Pixie, like those things that fly around magically? whee? Origin of name: Well I was trying to name my tumblr something and decided to go with “pixxyofflames” as in, a rewriting of Vulpix... Age: 16 Gender: Female Sexual Orientation: Asexual Biromantic Current status: ...Available and Alive? Birth date: 02/16/01 Current residence: Asagao Academy Occupation: Student Hobbies/Pastimes: Playing Games, Writing Stories, Drawing Cats/Humans/OCs Talents/Skills/Powers: Singing, Acting, Dancing Past History Most important childhood event that still affects him/her: Her first bullying event Why/How? SHE BECAME A SOCIAL OUTCAST AND WOULD CRY AT A LOT OF THINGS Backstory: Coming from a relatively well off middle-class family, she went to public schools for most of her life. As a third grader, however, a mix of a habit she used to have and the fact that she would cry easily led her to being shunned by most people and thrown out of a lot of friend groups. She turned to video games and attached herself to that, though due to this she was still emotional and was still made fun of. This lasted until her last year of middle school, where she begged her parents to go to someplace better.

They chose asagao academy, and Pix went there for her first year. Physical Characteristics Height: 5′1 Posture: Slightly slumped, kind of messy. Build: smol and skinny Skin: pretty pale white. Hair: reaches about halfway down her shoulders in length, mostly purple until the top, which is black. Ears: rounded, pierced Eyes: slightly lidded, green Face shape: slightly chubby, pointed chin Expressions: Tend to be neutral-frown, not exaggerated much when expressing others. Describe their smile: Sides of her mouth slightly go up, and she slightly shows her teeth. She tends to press her tongue against her teeth, too. Left/Right handed? Right-handed Distinguishing features: She has a lot of freckles Who does s/he take after; mother or father? She takes more after her dear dad. She has his hair color and general short gene... Style (Elegant, shabby, etc): A little shabby, though she tries her best to wear at least somewhat nice How does s/he dress or what do they typically wear? Wears a t-shirt and some sweats when on weekends, and during the weekdays she wears the asagao uniform, only with shorts instead of skirts. Other outfits one might find in their wardrobe: A few dresses, lots of graphic tees, lots of designs on t-shirts Jewelry: A few earrings, a necklace with a black and orange gem at the bottom. Characteristics

Do they curse, and if so, to what extent? She tends to curse... quite a bit around pals. This stemmed from middle school. She also swears around non-pals, but not as much. Write a piece of dialogue that this character might say (can be between someone else): “I really love this game. I mean, it’s just a few creatures fighting each other, but the creatures are so fucking adorable, especially this one. I fucking love this one.” Voice: in the words of a pal: Kawaii voice. soft and cute... Describe their sleep patterns (light/heavy sleeper, no sleep, sleeps too often, etc): She sleeps a bit heavy, as long as she does fall asleep. On the weekends she sleeps a LOT during the day and wakes up at like. 2 in the evening. oops.

Psychological/Personality Attributes and Attitudes Character's long-term goals/desires in life: She wants to become a writer of some sort! She’s already got an idea for the first book! She just needs to plot it out... and write it... Character's short-term goals/desires in life: Get through high school, get friendos, look c Secret desires: To be able to draw like Shane does. How self-confident is the character? NOT VERY!! SHE HAS THE WOR ST SELF IMAGE!!! How do they see him/herself? Chubby. Weak. Emotional. Crybaby. Too small. How do they believe s/he is perceived by others? A bit annoying. Laughs too much. later on this changes to something like ‘a weird friend, laughs a lot, loves to be creative’ What is the character most proud of? HER WRITING SKILLS What does the character like least about themselves? Her past, and her slight chubbiness in her stomach. How do they express themselves? Her drawing and her writing. Is this character generally dominant or submissive? Submissive. Patience level: Very high. Doesn’t snap often. Does the character seem ruled by emotion or logic or some combination thereof? A combination thereof. Wants to be mostly logical but tends to be a bit emotional Most at ease when: Cuddled under blankets, playing games Ill at ease when: In a loud room Describe their sense of humor: a combination of puns, memes, and actual fucking jokes. Mostly puns though. If they could be described with one of the seven virtues, which would it be? Justice If they could be described with one of the seven sins, which would it be? Sloth Optimist or Pessimist: Introvert or extrovert: Introvert Greatest Fear: Everyone’s going to abandon her and she’s going to die Character's darkest/deepest secret: She believes she doesn’t deserve kindness from the nb table. Doesn’t even know this herself. Minor Secrets: She’s a middle class kid, her full name, she’s a furry, Favorite...

Color: Pink Clothing: Anything with Nokemon on them Place: Her room Food/drinks: Macaroni and Cheese, Strawberry milk Music genre: whatever videogame music counts as Subject in school: Chemistry Animal: Cats Least Favorite... Clothing: anything really itchy Place: her elementary school Food: VEGGIES Music genre: heavy metal. hurts her ears. Subject in school: MATH Where does this character like to hang out? In her room Where is this character's dream place to live? Someplace in a forest, near a town she can drive to, where almost nobody bothers her except for friends she invites.

Relationships with Others (Non-Married) Relationship Skills: None ATM due to NOT BEING IN A RELATIONSHIPS Lusts: N/A Crushes: @ asagao!jirard Girlfriend/Boyfriend(s): N/A Other lover(s): N/A First crush: Indigo from Blazing Symbol: Awakening Did it last? .... Why or why not? HE’S FICTIONAL, HELEN Best Friends: Asagao!Alto Friends: Hana, Shane, Jirard, PBG, Susan, Chorus Club, some of Theater Club, Paul, Satch, Jimmy, Luke, Ian Hates: Mimi Dislikes: Jon, Shane Rivals: Jimmy, Luke, Ian Pets: back at home: Orion, Pandora (German Shepherd/Husky mixes) at school: Flame (Ginger tabby) What kind of person would s/he consider to be the perfect partner? Someone who is kind and won’t judge her for her habits. Someone she can be cute with. Someone she’ll be serious with.

What If If this character were an animal, what would they be? A (Black) Cat. Why? BOI SHE LOVES CATS If this character were the opposite sex what would they . . . Do? Around the same things. He’s still Pix, even if a male. Say? A lot less things, maybe a bit less sweary. Feel? A LOT MORE BULLIED AND LESS CONFIDENT BECAUSE OF BEING ‘LIKE A GIRL’ What would/does this character do if confronted with someone identical in personality? She would like them, if a bit annoyed by the self-image thing. She likes people similar to her!

How the Character is Involved in the Story Character's role in the story (main character? hero? Villain? etc): If asagao academy was unaltered, she would just be a side character that hana bumps into while they’re on their way to class, but if it WERE to be altered slightly, alto and pix show up at the NB table soon after Hana and Mai join, and Hana and Pix become somewhat friends. Scene where character first appears: (going with slightly altered) Alto slams her hands down on the table and slides into a chair she brought over. Pix is spotted scooting a chair up, but not talking as much as alto is. Relationships with other characters: Friendly! ESPECIALLY with jirard, her crush... Where, how and when did s/he first interact with other characters: She was pulled into the drama club by alto before they became friends, and met Jon as that WEIRD AF PRODUCER OF THE SHOW and because sorta friends with him. Sorta. Background Story: Explained in Backstory. Additional Notes on This Character: In super!au, she’s a shapeshifter that shapeshifted a panther and lost control over her form, causing fear in her family and causing her to feel even more isolated before she was shipped to Asagao.

[lpfreakification]

5/22 thru 7/15 Plan Of Attack

Welcome to the Summer of 2017 XP (long post ahead).

lets start with math. i really thought i would be done with math class for the rest of my life in my sophomore year of college. nope. this class was available for my “level”. meaning, im willing to take this class again because im weak and the other classes seem either boring, uninteresting, or hard. im 75% excited for math because i want to make use of my pens and pencils for note-taking. when the teacher goes over stuff or if i finish problems early, thats my opportunity to doodle >X)

now for the 2nd round of Death + Dying (D+D). im saved tomorrow because the new D+D teacher is stuck in the Himalayas doing a research project. there wont be a night class tomorrow because of that. still, he left us the syllabus for this Wednesday’s class to come. while on the topic of being saved from that class, i get to go home early tomorrow and shower for Tuesday’s class and work.

im not sure how Philosophy of Love will go yet. all i know is that this class is a Writing Intensive requirement which i very much need. this will be my third attempt taking a Writing Intensive class. (the 1st was Writing Comedy which i withdrew cuz it was too difficult for me and the 2nd was Shakespeare which i ended up hospitalized). the hard part is getting to work straight after class.

for transportation needs, the dad will drive me (and pick me up?) to the Monday and Wednesday classes. i will be taking the train to downtown on the Tuesdays and Thursdays. on Tuesdays, the mom will pick me up and drop me off at Falcos. Thursdays, ill take the train back home.

Friday is my only day off D:

Now that school is starting, work will be extra tiring to balance. meaning, ill be exhausted from work while i go to school. not much time for hw (and to shower, yikes), depending on how much they will give me. i do got that huge 4-5 break in between classes on Mondays and Wednesdays that can work. also got thursdays after class too.

i want to doodle and internet too within those hours. i think i may be having a style crisis again. its very inconsistent with any utensil i use. i want to find the right combination of utensils for the JeanMarco Month event that starts on the 7th. though i dont have many ideas to practice on, ill just use the OCs as victims of intense experimentation. i have to keep on trying. i must. i should go to my “outfit feels” tag to doodle from the pics ive saved. that usually gives me a boost of drawing energy afterwards because i acquired something new. i really want that rush of drawing energy so badly.

SUNDAY THE 21ST

today was a lucky day for me to miss work in order to prepare for tomorrow. i packed up my many pencil cases, a notebook, the Jeanmarco sketchbook, the watercolors, a folder, and the doodle notebook. more things will be packed like snacks and stuff. *tries on my backpack* moderately heavy. theres a tad bit of space that annoys me between my back and my butt. i need the backpack to sit on my butt firmly because i have a big butt. idk if im even explaining it right.

anyway, i bought a bunch of new things from Jetpens that will arrive on Tuesday. it was more than 150 ive spent + the 100 bucks i paid off Paypal Credit. i can survive the week with 96 bucks + 23 bucks in tip money. *looks at my box-full of pens* i think im starting a collection of pens. *looks at the box of pens again* damn, i wish i can fit that box in my backpack. *looks at what i ordered* lots of pens. the one im excited to get the most is the ballpoint pen sampler set with a variety of sizes.

after i finish this round of One More Light, thats when ill shut down for the night. (im on Battle Symphony/Invisble rn). i wont go to sleep just yet. imma go play video games and maybe doodle some more (who knows). ok, im semi-gtg.

nite y’all