#so like. having half a dozen mutuals and sub-100 followers. i feel like i can just. vent sometimes.

[lurkiestvoid]

sorry guess I wasn't done but like.

the ability to feed my child is literally basically a big lever in Elon's big fuckin baby hands right now. That's... a whole entire Thing in and of itself that is sending me whole into space.

and he fully intends on throwing that lever, is announcing his intent to pull that lever, and short of our own military intervening it's just ... going to happen.

my wife's going to be forcibly medically detransitioned with that lever.

and, we'll be rawdogging these hyperinflated ego-tarriff'd grocery+medical prices with two whole dependents, one of which is a multiply-disabled senior, with suddenly zero income or support.

I feel like I'm not asking much to just be allowed my own corner where I grieve this shit. I have no platform to speak of, I'm not directing any kind of discussion, and my grief (nor how I occasionally may need to laugh about it) isn't any indication that I'm either not taking this seriously or am taking it too seriously.

I'm just a person, yelling into my personal void. Sometimes I may be wrong or hypocritical or over-angry or cursing a lot. It has no bearing on anything beyond me, at least not anywhere near the weight of 10k+ note posts.

Anyways. I don't have really any of my own art shared here, but this week I'm probably going to be cranking that out as much as possible so I can open up emergency commissions and, y'know, have any kind of work to show for it. I've primarily always been a physical artist and mostly just dabbled with digital, but canvas and paint costs money, so. let's get this bread I guess

I can't figure out how to articulate exactly how I feel about this, but maybe I can generally outline the vague concept of it:

- Trump makes massive sweeping changes

- people obviously react in "oh shit" fashion for a variety of reasons

- The gargantuan Funding Freeze gets "paused" by a Judge

- there is a surge of "see? Y'all react too quick, this is what's supposed to happen, it'll get tied up in the courts it's fine" posts across social media (with a simultaneous rise of 'see? Dems/libs exaggerated as usual' posts in Regressive +/ Authoritarian chambers)

- the White House 'walks back the text' of the memo but insists its effects are in full force and will be enforced (???? lol????)

- the courts are ??? scrambling (lol of course they are, how??? can they enforce??? when the whole government just says "lol nah"?? this was The Point Of Restructuring And Loyalty Testing And Everything Else)

- Elon Musk begins seizing literal control of entire internal US systems including sensitive info on all 2.3 million workers AND THE WHOLE TREASURY

- relative confused silence

- Musk is now 'prepared' to 'terminate all grants' himself

- truly and genuinely: what the fuck

- check social media

- 'this is all the Dems' fault and no one else's'

- close social media

[Day 13]