#so its all metaphor u see! all fun n games until someone is so repressed he waits until he proposes at the age of 24 to hv sex

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WYLL SEXUALITY (GREY ACE BISEXUAL WITH PREFERENCE FOR GNC INDIVIDUALS) AND GENDER (TRANSMASC “BLADE”, HERO, HEROINE, MAN, WOMAN, NEITHER, GENTLEMAN, HANDSOME WOMAN, PRETTYBOY, BABYGIRL, WARLOCK, CHAMPION, KNIGHT, DUKE, DUCHESS, DEVIL, WARLOCK, WITCH.)

an explanation of how i view the devil/darkness and “the blade” as symbolism about safely roleplaying sexuality and gender passions thar scare you (and ur asshole dad)

all the companions are bi/pan CRY ABOUT IT, however out of all the narratives, wyll’s narrative to me is the one that plays the most with sexual and gender “roleplaying.”

wyll comes at u and tells u his dnd character is human warrior, male. this is a persona he made up to cope with the fact he has an abusive, negligent “guardian”—whose dark magic he was always probably drawn to. (mizora rip bastard shes not dead but i wish she was Gone And Not Here)

his farher is might makes right, the baldurian tav can call the flaming fist a bunch of arseholes and blowhards. his father expects ten hundred percent from him. and when wyll is drawn to “darkness”, hes scared n punished for it to the point hes kicked out of the city he sold his soul to save

darkness in fiction is almost always evil. but thats not really true. and even in bg3 where killing all goblins is “righteous”—halsin says there are things in this world outside the boundaries of what we know. darkness, especially when writing and interacting with characters of color—is natural, good, a birthright

and the devil and sin? that which we are taught to be tempted by, and “owned” and “damned” by? are things that belong to US as queer people to reclaim the power of no-rules no-protestant limits of sexuality and gender under oppressive ideologies and gods which seek to harm our authentic, fucked up selves, in all the right and wrong and HUMAN ways

wyll’s father is ashamed of him for being queer, and soft. (metaphorically)

wyll is unique in his transness in that his father didn’t care what gender he was, as long as he was SUCCESSFUL, and worked IMPOSSIBLY HARD, and was perfect and stone tough in all ways.

seeing his son tempted—first by fantasy, then magic, then demons, was too much to bear.

the BLADE and “heroism” is a safe way to “couch” temptations, violence, vanity, pride, joy in temptation, and also his need for love and attention for his “goodness”, all things he was not allowed to have.

if he’s good—if he’s “one of the good ones” maybe his father will forgive him. maybe he can still be loved. maybe hes not as much of a monster as he feels he is.

in another world, perhaps, he can identify in every shade and saturation, every color of the rainbow, every light, dark, sunrise, twilight and shadow. he can be devil and angel alike and all exist in one brave, strong, true, authentic, heart

but the game doesnt allow that, makes u fill in the blanks of this lonely teenager banished, to sad adult “hero”, who still feels unworthy. even when he saves his father in a way his father would never save him