#so it stews. Which yk . Exhausting.

[daydreamdoodles]

No more thinking ever!!!!!! (Proceeds to think harder and worse than ever before)

[berlinswifey]

HEYYYYY i wanna request Agent 00 x reader, angst to fluff. Something like the reader unplugging his setup while he's streaming bc he did or said something rude (can't think of something HELP). Yk how he's quick to defend himself or make a comeback? Yeah and there's just so much back and forth and quiet treatment but then reader n him forgive eachother and are so cute n mushy. ALSO I SAW UR POST AT DREAMCON!! THATS SOO COOLL!!

Hey!!! I will gladly write this for you💜💜💜

Left Behind - Agent 00

At first, it didn’t bother him much—he liked the attention, the constant texts, the check-ins throughout the day. But lately, it felt like a weight around his neck, pulling him down every time he glanced at his phone or saw her name on the screen. He was trying to work, and his phone buzzed again. It was Y/n, asking if he wanted anything to eat but him being busy, he never replied.

He had been patient, but the texts kept coming—one after another, each more persistent than the last. Suddenly the door burst open and Y/n walks in with a sandwich and two bottles of water. She placed on the little table on his right and expected him to acknowledge her, even if it was just a nod. She waved her hand in his face, tugged on his shirt, and even rubbed his neck, which he LOVED by the way. She huffed and walked over to his PC and unplugged the system. Finally, he snapped.

“What the fuck did you do?! I was editing my goddamn videos and now I have to start all over again! Can you just leave me alone for once? I’m trying to work here!” His voice was sharper and louder than he meant, his words stinging with frustration. I mean could you really blame him?

Y/n’s heart skipped a beat. She hadn’t expected that. Not from him. Not like this. “Din…” Her voice was quiet, tentative, like she was unsure of what she had just heard. “I—I’m just checking in. I thought—”

“I don’t need you checking in all the time!” he interrupted, his words harsh. “You’re so clingy, Y/n. It’s exhausting. Just—just give me some space for once!”

Her face fell, the warmth she always felt when they were together suddenly replaced by coldness. Her eyes welled up with tears, but she didn’t say anything. She didn’t argue or try to defend herself. She just stood there, in shock, as the words sank in.

Agent stared at her, his chest heaving, regret creeping in immediately. But it was too late. She turned away, her tears falling freely now, and walked out of the room, leaving him with a deep, gnawing emptiness in his gut.

For the next few hours, neither of them said a word. Agent tried to focus on his work, but the image of Y/n’s hurt face kept replaying in his mind. He wanted to apologize, to go after her and make things right. But pride held him back. And besides, she had always been the one to reach out first. She always fixed things.

Y/n, on the other hand, couldn’t bring herself to speak either. The words “clingy” echoed in her mind like a cruel, repetitive chant. She had never felt more small, more unwanted. She sat on her bed, staring at her phone, wondering if he would ever text her again. But the hours passed in silence, the space between them growing wider, the weight of his words pressing down on her.

As night fell, both of them were left in their own separate worlds—Agent, stewing in his regret, and Y/n, nursing the broken pieces of her heart. Neither of them knew how to bridge the gap they had created, both of them too proud and too hurt to make the first move. The silence stretched on, as fragile as the bond they once shared. And for the first time, neither of them knew if things would ever be the same again.

NEXT DAY

The silence between Agent and Y/n stretched on for hours. Neither of them had reached out, both waiting for the other to be the first to apologize. But as time passed, the weight of the argument settled heavily on Agent’s chest. He couldn’t shake the image of Y/n’s tear-streaked face. The words he’d said felt like lead in his stomach.

He sat at his desk, staring at his phone, his thumb hovering over her contact. He wanted to send something, anything—an apology, an explanation, a sign that he was sorry. But he was afraid. Afraid that what he had said was too much, too harsh. That Y/n wouldn’t want him anymore.

On the other side of town, Y/n sat on her bed, her phone still clutched tightly in her hands. She stared at the screen, willing it to light up with a message from Agent. Anything. But the hours passed, and her hope began to dwindle. She had tried so hard to be everything he wanted, to be supportive and understanding, but all she had gotten in return was that word—clingy. It stung, more than she cared to admit.

Eventually, she set her phone down on the nightstand, wiped away the last of her tears, and let out a shaky sigh. Maybe it was over. Maybe she had been too much. Maybe they weren’t meant to be.

But then, just as she was about to close her eyes, her phone buzzed. She froze, heart racing.

It was a text from Din.

Din🥰-

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean what I said. I was just frustrated, and I took it out on you. You’re not clingy, I’ve just been a jerk. I don’t want to hurt you, Y/n. Please, let’s talk.”

READ 11:45 pm

Y/n’s breath caught in her throat. The words hit her like a wave, both relieving and painful at once. She stared at the message, her fingers hovering over the keys, unsure of how to respond. After everything, could she really just forgive him? Could things go back to how they were?

But then she remembered their good moments—the laughter, the comfort, the connection. She remembered how much she loved him, and how much she hated the distance that had grown between them.

Her fingers moved quickly over the screen, typing, deleting, typing again. Finally, she sent a simple reply.

MyFuture❤️-

“I’m sorry too. I didn’t mean to be overwhelming. I just… I don’t know, I thought you might need me. But I get it now. I don’t want to make you feel like you can’t breathe.”

READ 11:47 pm

Din🥰-

“Open the door”

Confused, she stood up and went to her front door and through the peephole and saw a bouquet of roses and some dreads. She flung the door open and held onto him. She didn’t want to let go and neither did he.

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Done!

I don’t like this though, I feel like to could’ve been better lowkey. YALL LET ME KNOW THOUGH!!!

[bthump]

Do you have any mundane hcs about Guts/Griffith/Griffguts? Like, what's their favorite food, if there's anything they like to do besides fighting, if there was a spot they liked to meet when they were friends, stuff like that. Personally I like to think that Griffith loves reading even for non-practical reasons, especially epic poetry/novels and heroic romances (maybe he even sleeps with a copy of Berserk's version of The Iliad under his pillow à la Alexander the Great lol).

I agree with you about Griffith lol, I always imagine him as a bit of a nerd lowkey. Actually to be specific, I headcanon him as a chronic insomniac who gets most of his reading done at night by candle light or whatever. I feel like he's the type who wants something to focus on because he doesn't like his mind wandering while trying to fall asleep, so he stays up til he's exhausted and gets like, a few hours of sleep a night for a few nights in a row then goes to bed early and gets 10 to make up for it.

So there's one mundane headcanon I guess.

Idk I don't tend to really think of details like favourite foods and stuff lol, I'm not a very creative person so all my headcanons are like, specifically extrapolating from canon. But I might have a few that sort of fit this ask.

I know I heard this somewhere else but I really like the headcanon that the shift in how Miura drew Griffith's hair, the way it got more wavy later on in the Golden Age basically, is because Griffith got access to haircare products lol.

I think Guts cooked a lot. I imagine them out in a camp somewhere, you'd probably have one person cooking for a group a lot, yk not particularly organized but if someone's making a pot of something their friends all share it, and I like to think Guts was often the one throwing meals together, bc iirc he cooked for him and Gambino when he was a kid. (And relatedly but not relevant to the ask, I also think Casca never was and couldn't really cook to save her life.)

Griffith could also cook but never really had to.

I also headcanon Griffith as a terrible singer. If the Hawks ever sang marching songs or folk songs around a campfire while Judeau played the lute or whatever, he'd just smile and listen.

I think during after-battle parties, which the Hawks threw all the time, Guts and Griffith had a predictable routine of getting 4-5 drinks in and leaving the main group to go sit and talk together, and have definitely fallen asleep on each other.

lol I think the only time we've ever seen Guts doing something fun just to pass the time is when he was gambling with the Raiders shortly before the Doldrey battle. Plus he knows a lot about them, as we see in the Campfire of Dreams monologue. So I think Guts probably hung out with them a lot more than we get to see, maybe more often than he hung out with the other Hawk captains, besides Griffith.

But given the choice I think he'd always choose to hang out with Griffith instead, and he has chronic watching-the-door syndrome when Griffith's not around because he always lowkey wants to see him. Classic crush behaviour.

Also wrt favourite food, I don't have any ideas for Guts but I'd like to think that Griffith's is something really peasant-y, rather than anything fancy he gets as a nobleman. Like idk, rabbit stew his mom used to make or something. Idk anything about medieval food, but I love everything that sort of belies Griffith's image amongst the nobles and connects him to his core humanity.

Idk, that's about all I can think of for now. Thanks for asking!

[thethirdwheel404]

Med Series Rewatch (#12)

S3 E12: Born This Way.

Episode description: Dr. Manning and Dr. Choi are faced with a tough decision.

Literally when are they not.

Okay, last episode ended with the first Ava/Connor kiss, so this episode should be a rollercoaster of emotions.

let’s get into it.

- okay, already we’re starting in connor’s apartment, so cue ava walking in bc they slept together?

- i think its hilarious that her casual clothing is.. a flannel. like lmao idk

- it is so unbelievably funny and stupid to have a one night stand with someone you work closely with. i mean come on

- never forget that dr. ava bekker has a fish tank

- this is exhausting. the tentative back and forth is so fucking exhausting

- another bit of evidence. ava is never not confident, and especially not to this extent, and she never follows connor’s lead. so, the fact that she is standing back and waiting for him to make the decision? stupid.

- it screams that she is having a moment of anxiety, which is why she isn’t up to make the decisions in the exchange.

-to be clear: what i’m claiming here is that the only reason ava actually got with connor was bc she was having a moment of anxiety because he was the only person she had built a relationship with after living in this city for six months.

- when connor says that he has plans you can see her fold in on herself. this stems from a place of anxiety

- remember when they did surgery on the panda? that’s when the show peaked

- ava in her lab coat will never not get me. especially with the gloves, running towards a patient (very hot)

- connor still looks kinda looks like a mess but ava is immaculate here like what dude out of your league

- ava asking the family questions (ik this is standard doctor stuff but showing worry, interest, all that jazz)

- okay, see here! here! ava calls connor out, saying that his procedure is too invasive. before, ava’s procedures where invasive, which everyone used as evidence to her being super cold, but now, we see that she purely does what she deems best for the patient at hand

- also, once again, the concern ava feels. you can hear it in her voice. we forget this part of her way too often

- the smile on ava’s face when she gives the family good news. god wept

- and then more concern when connor tells her they need to put him on ecmo

- the reason that ava is frustrated that connor didn’t go with her decision for their patient care is because she truly believes that if they don’t go with her treatment, he will die. don’t make it anything different. don’t argue she’s frustrated because he’s not listening to her. don’t make it anything about their relationship. she puts their patients care first and foremost

- there’s a stark shift in her demeanor when in the room with the parents vs. her alone with connor. in the room, you can see she’s stewing. she’s sucking on her teeth, she’s holding her emotions. she has control, she’s a professional. out of the room, she has full reign to be as mad with connor as she wants, which she does.

-AVA RAN INTO THE ROOM AGAIN WITH THE LAB COAT AND GLOVES AND IDK IT JUST HAS ME FEELING SOME KINDA WAY

- the way ava acknowledges everyone in the room (the nurse just informed them that the drug was running, ava nodded. just a little thing but yk)

- ava shaking her head at this sad, sad man (connor, who is floundering for a solution and misplacing his anger)

- their entire relationship is misplaced anger

- the fact that the last shot of the scene has connor in the foreground looking over the bed and ava watching from the door but ava is the one in focus - some cool cinematography points

- IS THIS THE EPISODE WHERE MAGGIE GOES TO JAIL

- med really went all over the place

- JUST THE AMOUNT OF CONCERN ON AVA’S FACE. im gonna say it again. look me in the eyes and tell this women is a psychopath. the med writers are fucking insane

- and when the parents ask ava if she disagreed with connor’s treatment decision, she has every opportunity (and right, frankly) to throw him under the bus and undermine him. but still, she says “it’s a complicated situation.” like. she never ever makes it personal, or loses her head. especially not to a patient. and she doesn’t have to defend connor. he’s made a lot of mistakes, and taken it out on her a bunch of times. yet she’s still nice to him, when he’s not even in the room

- it’s insane

- this is also the legendary scene where she comforts the family. there’s not a lot that i haven’t already said. this is the scene that most exemplifies ava’s humanity, the way she seems to feel, at least residually, what these parents are going through (since she obviously hasn’t gone through anything like this herself [unless.]). the way she kneels down, and gets on the family’s personal level.

- I... okay listen. I absolutely HATE the parallel they pull her between the line “I believe whenever you do something out of love, it can never really be wrong” and connor. especially because they show him when she says that line. and yeah, there’s obviously a connection that can be drawn between the meaning of that line and her sociopathic behavior in s4 and s5.

- it honestly feels like when writing s4, the writers hit so much of a wall they just googled the most ‘iconic’ ava moments and thought ‘how can i use these in the worst way possible?’ That’s honestly probably what they did (ava’s first interaction with connor - ‘you better watch yourself,’ this moment). There is no nuance to her character in s4. it is astoundingly terrible.

- lets move on

- THE WAY CONNOR LOOKS AT AVA HER MAKES ME FUCKING SCARED. HE HAS NO EMOTION ON HIS FACE. I know that we’ve been screen capping ava throughout this series but can someone find pictures of connor looking at ava bc, i need yall to remember how weird he looks

- like, no shade to connor, but just the emotion is undecipherable, but it is in no way a good one

- ava getting concerned (and looking slightly embarrassed) when she sees connor watching her by the door. obviously yeah she’s gonna feel weird you just caught her in a very uncharacteristic moment, outwardly expressing comfort. fucking back off

- i am so fucking protective of her and i demand he no longer look at her. it’s banned

- sam abrams looking at sarah’s dad’s head ct and asking if he’s a criminal. oh boy 

- from a writer’s perspective, the storyline with sarah’s dad is actually pretty good

- ava ran into the room with gloves and lab coat again, if anybody wanted to know

- for the record, want it to be noted, ava was the one who realized that it was an issue with the machine again, so you could say she fixed connor’s mistake, again. so.

- connor making a big deal about handing the reins over to ava (if he really was selfless he wouldn’t have made a whole big thing, he still has an enormous hero complex)

- handing off control was very hard for him. boo hoo get some fucking humility I think they sell it at walgreens

- sarah fucking walking across the ed like she’s going to war. dramatic

- med really said pedophiles deserve rights with this ep huh

- anyway

- the way ava smiles

- the way she smiles when she turns him down. CAN WE TALK ABOUT THAT? SHE TURNED HIM DOWN. in the aspect of the story i cannot remember why she turned him down, but hey, i’m happy

- and it only further proves my story that the hook up came from a place of anxiety, and this is her realizing how silly that decision was. and her smiling was her laughing at herself for making such a stupid decision

- ALSO. LET’S TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT THIS DECISION, THE DECISION TO TURN HIM DOWN, HAPPENED IN THE SAME EPISODE WHERE SHE SAID ‘IF YOU DO SOMETHING FOR LOVE, IT’S NEVER REALLY WRONG’

- like she literally says ‘last night was a mistake.’

- honestly, it’s fucking hilarious. connor deserves nothing

- and the confusion on his face when she walks away. hilarious

- if you wanted to take this the reesker route you could argue that the idea of ‘a decision of love’ was ava coming to terms with her slight little crush, though i don’t know how clean it would be if you argue that she panicked and told herself those were feelings meant for connor. idk, i’ll have to think about it further

- watching sarah let herself be betrayed by both herself and the people around in the story surrounding her dad will never not be hard to watch

This was a very good episode, character wise, for all the reasons stated above. It just hammers home the point of how strong a character Ava was. Key word, of course, being ‘was’. My conclusion over the last two episodes is that this specific sexual encounter with Connor was born out of a moment of anxiety from Ava. I suggest that over that last few weeks or days she has been experiencing some amount of anxiety out of having been living in Chicago for six months and only having one interpersonal relationship. So, that idea kind of built where she told herself the reason she only had one relationship was because she was in love with him. Then. after going through the story with this kid and comforting his parents, she realizes that she never actually loved Connor and maybe has a thing for someone else. I’m glad that I keep coming up with more ideas for this character, I was afraid the initial theory was somewhat of a one-off, but this only proves the idea of the complexity to Ava’s character.

I’m sure it’ll get worse from here, though.

as always, thanks for sticking through

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