#so im trying jot to do thag too

[schizochasm]

I feel like I'm speed running a heart attack.

I st4rv3, I've been pvrging a lot lately, I overuse caffiene, and I have several stress related disorders.

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so he like held my waist (?) today anx ok lef me back up

so im trying to loke my body more #recovery and oart of thag is like going out of my comfort zone for clothes so i got some soagetti strap tamk tops that r tight and kind of cropped as a way to like help w that. i got tbem like right before break so ive really jusy neen wearimg them at gome but its jelped wkth my confidence alot and i feel soupa sezay. ok so i wore one today skd them hooosie ovef bc cold but i got too hot so i took it off ( we were under rhe covers duh too jot) and wjem we were just chilling he put his hamd om my waist and i was a pittle scared ir wad fonna make me want to die but it was actually rlly noce 😭 hes so Man like wowow hes tall oOo tall man (hes a girl) but hes tall amd sometimes its nice to feel small amd safe and it jusy felt really like. idk stirdy?? like secure like he was holding me yk adn kt was groundinf AND HE ALSO DID THE THING RHAY PPL DO yl whem lile u holdin g hands and u run yr thimb over theirs repetitively he did thag but like reight at my waist fuys when i say i have mever felt so happy i mean kt ok realostically probabpy jot but like. it was really nice and im really peoud of like. embracing it (?) becaud it was really nice. now will i lay on top of him ? FUCK NO