#so im like 'hey can you please talk more quietly; mom is working upstairs and talking to ppl rn; can we talk in the family room'

[the-breloominati]

[ssamie]

two. sea of strangers

oikawa tooru x fem langa!reader

(hq x sk8 the infinity)

warnings: spelling mistakes, swearing, 2k+ words, u have langa’s blue hair sorry

gen masterlist.            “snow” masterlist.

"its really hitting me now!" reki exclaimed as he dramatically draped his arms around her frame "you're really leaving?!" he exclaimed as he eyed her countless luggage with distaste. 

"yes reki.. im sorry" she said as she held him tightly by the waist, keeping him upright as he slouches against her torso 

"man, you're really embarrassing" miya muttered out with a sniffle as he attempted to poke fun at reki. "crying and all.." he muttered as, he too, tried to contain his tears. 

"you're one to talk! you're gonna go all red if you hold your tears in!" reki exclaimed as he ruffled miya's hair through his hoodie 

miya grumbled but finally succumbed and fully latched himself onto her back, clinging desperately as he hides his face into her hair "if you leave you're gonna be demoted from heroine to slime" he meekly threatened as he weakly punches her shoulder 

"hm, then we won't be on the same level anymore.." she muttered back as she placed her hand on his head to comfort him 

"exactly.. so you shouldn't leave." miya huffed out 

"sorry miya.. but i have to" she frowned and met eyes with her mom, who simply gave her a reassuring smile in return. 

"there's really nothing we can do but hope for a safe trip" cherry chimed in as he plucked miya and reki off of her "it will be quite a loss but, she won't be gone forever" he said. 

"yeah, but behave out there, rookie" joe mused as he slung his muscular arm around her, making her stagger a bit "dont want ya getting into accidents and shit" joe laughed as he ruffled her hair with a soft smile 

"yeah, we'll visit you after you've settled" shadow said as he jogged over to them, just having finished helping nanako carry her bags 

"hey.." he whispered to joe as he nodded towards reki. joe immediately understood and pushed her towards the redhead. "well go on then, have one last hug with your dearest best friend" joe mused "maybe a kiss as well" 

y/n huffed as she covered her warm cheeks and sheepishly walked towards reki. "um.." she mumbled out, suddenly finding the words get caught up in her throat. "the plane boards in five minutes.." she said 

"i know" reki replied with a sad smile. "what should we do for those remaining minutes? i really don't know anymore" he chuckled 

"um.. what about.." she trailed off as her hands hesitantly met his. "..this?" 

reki blinked and immediately followed along. a smile slowly crept up on his lips as they do their signature handshake. she gulped as the heat on her face worsened by the second. by the time their hands would meet to make an infinity sign, she was fully ready to drop it and leave. 

though unexpectedly, reki pulled her to his chest and squeezed her tight, holding her by her waist with one arm, while the other reaches out to caress her hair. 

"bye, y/n." reki whispered, his lips dangerously close to her ears, making her already flustered state worsen. 

"i'll make sure to see you again. don't find a new partner while you're gone, alright?" he whispered 

though his tone was laced with slight doubt and desperation. she held her hand over her beating chest and nodded. 

"i'll never find someone like you, reki." she said with a tone of sincerity. "let alone someone better." she whispered with a love filled smile. 

reki smiled back and fully engulfed her in a bear hug, swaying their bodies back and forth as he dug his face into her neck 

she gulped and slyly covered her cheeks with her hands. she was most certainly in the verge of overheating from too much joy that had her heart pounding and her palms sweating. 

"oi, oi! don't leave us out!" joe chimed in with a laugh as he slung his arms around them both. "yeah, stop hogging her you slime!" miya hissed at reki as he greedily wrapped his arms around her waist

"hey, i'm the best friend! you're the slime in the situation!" reki hissed back 

soon enough, y/n was getting suffocated under five men who thought it was a great idea to stack themselves on top of her. "can't.. breathe.." she squeaked out as she tried to gasp for air

nanako watched their exchange with a smile of amusement. though they had to move along as to not miss the flight. "y/n, its time to go" nanako said with a smile as she grabbed her daughters hand. she waved at the boys one last time and walked away, with y/n beside her. 

"BYE Y/N, REMEBER OUR PROMISE!" 

"BYE REKI! I WILL!" 

"stop screaming at the airport!" cherry smacked reki's head with a scolding glare 

"ouch! sorry, geez!" 

"ah, the air here in miyagi is very different, huh?" nanako hummed as she looked around the empty streets surrounded by trees and bushes

"i guess so." y/n replied with a nod as she walked past her mother and entered the empty home.

the huge truck filled with their furniture and belongings was parked by their new home, with the men carrying them inside. nanako frowned and followed her inside. y/n simply walked quietly to her new room which was situated upstairs. 

as she arrived, she scanned the room, eyeing the bed on the corner and an empty closet on the other side. "hm." she hummed as she further inspected the place 

nanako watched in anticipation as dread and nervousness filled her nerves. "d-do you like it, sweetie?" she asked, her voice lightly shaking. 

"its okay." y/n replied as she dropped her bags on the floor. 

nanako sighed in relief and patted her on the back. "the movers are gonna help me fix this place up, so why don't you look around the neighbourhood for a bit?" she suggested 

"i might get lost" y/n said. nanako shook her head and handed her her skateboard "no you won't, it's a pretty small town!" she said "and if you do get lost, just call me or ask around, okay?" nanako mused as she urged the girl downstairs and out the door 

"but mom-" y/n couldn't finish, seeing as nanako had slammed the door and was waving her goodbye through the windows

"bye~ have fun~" nanako mused as she waved 

y/n looked back at her with a deadpanned expression and sighed. she got on her board and skated along the smooth concrete, looking past the fairly big houses and few cars driving by. 

"hey hey iwa-chan~ i came to pick you up for practice like the good best friend that i am!" a distant voice cooed out

"shut up shittykawa, it's seven am. you're giving me a headache." another voice, this time more gruff and annoyed, said. 

y/n hummed in curiosity and looked ahead of her. they were quite far, but their loud arguing could be heard a block away, so she didn't have that much trouble. "a ball?" she muttered to herself as she looked at the ball tucked in between the brunette's arms

"weird.." she mumbled before speeding up, not wanting them to see or interact with her in the slightest. 

"hm? are there new neighbours?" the brunette asked. "obviously dumbass. they moved in just a while ago i think." the other replied 

"ooh~ i wonder if there's a cute girl that-" oikawa cut himself off as he felt a gush of wind fly past him

he curiosly turned around, but was only met with a quick dash of something blue. "what is it?" iwaizumi asked him, confused as to why his friend suddenly stopped in his tracks for apparently no reason at all. 

"did you see that, iwa-chan?" oikawa asked him as he pointed to the next block, trying to show him the person, but all that was visible was them turning the corner and disappearing from their sight. 

"there's nothing there." iwaizumi said with an unamused glare "are you messing with me, shittykawa? it's so early in the morning please give me a break" he sighed 

"no i'm serious! there was someone there! i saw something blue!" oikawa defended with a shriek 

"shut up.." iwaizumi grumbled in exasperation 

suddenly, oikawa gasped and excitedly hit his arm. "do you think it could be aliens?" he whispered with narrowed eyes, while iwaizumi simply stared back at him in distaste. 

"shut up!" 

"school already?" she asked with a look of dread as she listened to her mother talk about her schedule as they sit on the dining table. 

"but its hard to make friends.." y/n grumbled out with a grunt 

"yes, sweetie! we have to get you settled in as soon as possible so you'll be more comfortable" nanako explained "plus you can make friends with kids there so you won't be alone all the time, don't you want that?" she asked 

"you and reki became friends pretty quickly, didn't you?" nanako mused "so i'm sure you'll be fine!" 

"reki.." she mumbled out as she stared down at her food with a sad frown, a gloomy aura suddenly surrounding her as she silently sulks. 

"ah crap, maybe i shouldn't have mentioned him" nanako muttered to herself, starting to sweat bullets as she tried to rack her brain for what to do. "a-ahm well!" nanako cleared her throat and shot y/n a shaky grin. "you're a very pretty girl! im sure people will be the first ones to approach you!" she said 

"so you won't really have to do any of the work" nanako reassured her "they're normally very interested in transferees especially since you're foreign." 

"okay then.." she muttered out, though she was still unsure. "im gonna clean up now" she said as she stood up from her seat and made her way to the bathroom 

"sure, but wake up early tomorrow okay? i'll help you get ready!" nanako called out, only to receive a faint 'okay!' in response. 

once she heard the bathroom door close and the water start running, she let out a huge breath of relief and slouched back on her chair. "AGH! i accidentally made her sad!" nanako exclaimed as she pulled don her hair in distress 

"should i call reki? her friends? what do i do?!" she shrieked out. she then looked over to the photo of her husband and sulked 

"help me oliver!!" 

"okay, hasegawa y/n-san, you're in third year class 6" the assistant told her with a kind smile "its on the third floor and the room by the stairway. it should be easy enough to find." he said "unless you want me to guide you?" 

"no, i think im okay." she declined with a quick bow "thank you though." 

"come in!" a voice called out from inside 

she kept her face straight and as she followed the directions, up until she reached the classroom she was assigned. "3-6" she read the sign. she then knocked on the door and waited patiently for the teacher to let her enter. 

she followed and slid the door open, closing it behind her and walking to the front of the class, all while keeping her eyes trained on the floor. 

"is she american?" "dang, she's pretty!" "i hope she sits with me.." "what's with her hair?" "as long as she doesn't steal oikawa-senpai, im fine with her" 

she could hear all of their murmurs, though she simply chose to ignore it, not wanting to interact with them as much as possible. she gripped the strap of her bag and raised her head to face them, keeping the monotonous expression as she side eyed the teacher for permission to speak. 

he then nodded and urged her to go. "mind telling us about yourself?" he asked 

"my name is hasegawa y/n." she said, keeping her eyes straight ahead and briefly scanning a few students 

oikawa and iwaizumi looked up and watched her in curiosity. they were seated at the very back, watching her every move. iwaizumi wasn't super interested, only a bit curious about their foreign transferee. although oikawa is overflowing with both interest and curiosity. not only was he happy to have a cute girl as a new classmate, but he was quite sure he had seen her from somewhere before. 

"..." the class was silent as they waited for her to say more, though was only met with nothing. 

"that's it?" the teacher asked, slyly urging her to say more 

y/n looked over to him and back at the class. "i came from canada and moved to okinawa to here.." she said 

"... anything else?" the teacher swetadropped. she then furrowed her brows and asked, "why? is it bad?" 

"no, you're good." the teacher responded as he waved his hand dismissively. 

oikawa chuckled in amusement, making iwaizumi look over to him with a raised brow. "what?" iwaizumi asked 

"nothing, she's just funny" oikawa replied with a grin 

"alright, you can sit in between rika and iwaizumi, seeing as it's the only vacant seat left." the teacher said 

y/n nodded and scanned the room, looking for the people he had mentioned. she merely blinked as a girl with long black hair, which she assumed was rika, excitedly waved at her. 

"hasegawa-chan! come sit with me!" rika exclaimed with a smile. y/n followed and squeezed through the rays of desks, sighing once she sat down on her assigned desk. 

"..." she gulped and nervously pulled out a book and turned her head down, feeling multiple eyes bore through her. 

but by far, the most eerie and intense stare she had received was from rika, who was not so discreetly peering at her over her book, watching with sparkling eyes as she stared. 

"hi-" y/n couldn't even finish her sentence as rika excitedly perked up and shook her hands. "hi! I'm orimoto rika! you can call me rika though" she whisper shouted with a grin 

y/n blinked in surprise and gave her a wobbly grin, "hi, rika-san.." she muttered "um, you can call me y/n if you want.." 

"okay, y/n-chan!" she replied with a gleeful grin "hey, wanna join me for lunch later? it must suck to eat lunch without anyone. you can join me and-" 

the teacher abruptly cleared his throat and shot rika a pointed look. "orimoto-san, i know you're excited but please save the talking for later" he said. "right! sorry sensei!" rika laughed sheepishly as she retreated back to her desk 

y/n side eyed her one last time before looking back down at her desk, bringing out a pencil and messily sketching on the paper 

"hey" the boy beside her whispered 

she glanced at him and blinked in confusion. "im iwaizumi, nice to meet you." he said with a curt nod of acknowledgement

she didn't immediately respond but quietly inspected him "nice to meet you.. iwaizumi-san" she said. she smiled to herself as iwaizumi nodded once again and simply went back to minding his business. 

iwaizumi was chill. nice. 

she had mentally agreed with herself that she did in fact like iwaizumi. he was very different from reki's overall 'vibe' but it was comforting in a way. 

now.. the boy beside him.. she still wasn't sure if she should just ignore his overwhelming presence or give him a fake smile to satisfy him. 

"yahoo~ y/n-chan~" oikawa cooed with a flirty wave "hey~ im oikawa tooru" he introduced with a smile as he leaned over iwaizumi's desk to get closer to her and wave once again 

"..." she side eyed him and quietly nodded, opting not to respond as she slouched down to hide her face behind the book she was doodling on

beside her rika spluttered and watched with wide eyes as the girl blatantly ignored the oikawa tooru, himself. it seems not only rika had seen the interaction, or the lack of it, more so. 

the girls near her either gasped in genuine surprise or sighed in relief, having found that the new girl was in fact not a threat. 

iwaizumi, however, was simply snickering and trying to contain his laughter as oikawa stares blankly at her with his face as pale as a ghost. 

it seems everyone was enjoying themselves. she sighed and simply rested her head on her desk, wanting nothing more than for class to be over. 

"hey, eat with me later, okay y/n-chan?" rika said with a smile 

y/n looked up at her and simply nodded, blowing the stray strands of hair away from her face as she stares at the ticking clock on their wall. "i wonder what reki's doing.." she mumbled to herself 

she sighed and sat up straight, keeping her eyes on the teacher who was mindlessly continuing his lecture. 

under her breath she mumbled, 

"i wanna go home." 

i added a random 'oc' but i used rika from jjk's name lol. there's gonna be two more i think, but they're not that important lol, just some filler characters ig 

sorry for the spelling and grammar mistakes :<

[oboevallis]

Heyy can you do one where all the kids in quarantine start asking questions to Amelia like where do babies come from and why does he only drink milk or maybe Bailey is about to drink one of the bottles Amelia pumped or maybe asking why does she feed him from her breast. I hope you have a lovely Christmas

vows

im so sorry for responding to this so late, i kind of steered away from the prompt but i hope you like it nonetheless, hope everyone’s doing well and staying safe

“Auntie Amelia I’m bored.” Bailey sighed walking into the kitchen.

“Why don’t you read a book?” Amelia suggested, as she washed the dishes in the sink.

“I don’t like reading.”

“Why don’t you go play outside then?”

“It’s raining.”

“Oh.” Amelia looked outside the window to see the rain falling harshly, she hadn’t realized it was raining. “What are your sisters doing? Could you play with one of them?”

“I don’t want to play with them.” Bailey dramatically sighed once again, and grabbed the utensils on the counter to put them and the drawer.

“Your still mad at them?” Amelia chuckled recalling the fight a few nights ago.

“Of course I’m still mad! Wouldn’t you be?”

“I think forgiving is a powerful thing.”

“Well, I’m not forgiving them.” Bailey pouted, crossing his arms across his chest.

“Suit yourself.” Amelia sighed, not in the mood for the children’s fights. Crying then erupted through the baby monitor, she went up the stairs her nephew following behind.

“Why does he cry all the time?” Bailey asked as he stepped into the room with his aunt.

“Because he’s a baby. That’s how he communicates with us to let us know he needs something.” His aunt told him as she picked the baby up from his crib.

“What does he need?” Bailey asked following his aunt once she left the room again.

“He needs to eat.” Amelia answered as she carefully walked down the stairs with the baby.

“He eats a lot.” Bailey remarked once they got to the kitchen. Recalling all the times in a day when his aunt would excuse herself to feed Scout.

“Yeah, well that’s what babies need when their this little.” As much as she loved her nephew she would do anything for a few minutes of someone not asking her a million questions.

“Do you remember when Scout was in your belly?” Bailey asked, as Amelia warmed up her sons bottle that she had pumped earlier in the day.

“I do remember.” The neurosurgeon nodded as she walked over to the couch with her baby, and sat next to her oldest niece.

“How’d he get there?” Bailey asked as he jumped onto the couch.

“Be careful.” Amelia scolded as he had jumped onto his sister.

“Sorry.” The boy apologized to Zola. “So how’d he get there?”

Amelia looked between her niece, nephew, and baby unsure what she should say. This was definitely a conversation they should of been having with Meredith, and it worried her that Meredith may never have the opportunity to do so.

“Yeah it doesn’t make sense.” Zola remarked as she contemplated for a moment. “Mom says you have to be married. You and Link aren’t married though.”

“Oh, umm yeah. Well t-that’s true. Sometimes though it’s okay if your not.”

“How’d he get in there though?” Bailey asked again.

“Well, that’s not really important right now.” Amelia said, trying to shut down the conversation.

“Are you and Link going to get married?” Zola asked, thinking back to the previous statement.

“I don’t know.” Amelia honestly answered, she had been thinking about it much more recently.

“Why are you and Owen not married anymore?” Zola asked.

“It just didn’t work out for us.”

“I like Link better than Owen.” Bailey remarked, Amelia had to stifle her laugh. “You should marry him.” Amelia simply nodded trying to contain her smile. She talked awhile longer with her niece and nephew, and once her sons eyes started to droop she brought the baby into his room. As she walked up the stairs Link and Ellis were coming down as well. Amelia couldn’t help but smile when Link interacted with her nieces, it made her excited for the possibility that one day they could have a daughter of their own.

“Hey Link.” Zola greeted in a sing song voice as the man and her sister walked into the living room.

“Hey Zola.” He reciprocated in the same tone; chuckling.

“I have a question.” Zola smiled once he was situated in the couch.

“I may have an answer.”

“When are you and Auntie Amelia going to get married?” The question made Link freeze, sure he’d been thinking about it a lot lately. The two had never discussed it though.

“Oh, I don’t know.” The ortho surgeon laughed nervously.

“Well you should, she wants to get married. She said so, that she wanted to marry you.” Bailey added into the conversation, Zola pushing him with her foot.

“Stop making up lies. No one likes to be friends with a liar.” Zola reprimanded; crossing her arms.

“Wait what did she say?” Link asked curiously, sitting up intrigued.

“We were just talking about babies and marriage and Owen with Auntie Amy.” The oldest girl informed

“What was said?” The two kids then said ‘nothing’ in unison.

“If you guys go upstairs please be quiet, Scouts asleep.” Their aunt said as went down the stairs to see the kids going up. The kids nodded, communicating they understood. The two kids all looked at one another and as a group quietly walked up the stairs. “Well that wasn’t weird.” The neurosurgeon chuckled as she made her way over to where her boyfriend was sitting.

“The kids just being kids you know?” Link chuckled nervously; wrapping his arm around his girlfriend.

“Why are you acting so weird?”

“I-I’m not acting weird your acting weird.”

“Did the kids say something about marriage to you?”

“Um yeah they did.”

“Don’t let that spook you. It didn’t even really mean anything. They were just asking questions.”

“So you don’t want to get married?”

“Do you?” Amelia asked nervously playing with the skin around her finger.

“I mean I’ve been thinking about it. Have you?”

“I mean a little bit but everything’s crazy right now. We have bigger fish to fry at the moment.”

“Yeah your right.” Link nodded leaning back against the couch. The two sat in comfortable silence as they scrolled through their phones. “There is something I want to discuss though.”

“And that would be?”

“What happens to the kids, if Meredith, umm like if she doesn’t make it.” Amelia hesitated as she thought about it. She knew Meredith’s main priority were her kids but at the moment they were trying to figure who her power of attorney was going to be. At the moment she knew her kids were safe under the care of their aunt, but Amelia didn’t know if Meredith wanted to be permanent.

“I honestly don’t know who gets custody. She decided that stuff before I really knew her, I’m assuming it’s her friend Cristina or one of my sisters. If she asks us do you want to take them? Because I’ve been thinking about it, and I do want to take them, and I totally understand if you don’t want to, I mean you barely signed up for one kid with me nonetheless four.” Amelia rambled quickly, visibly nervous.

“Amelia I’m fully aware what I’ve signed up for. I love Scout so much, of course I want him, I’m slightly offended you’ve said that. Of course I’ll take care of these kids with you if it comes down to that.” Link took his girlfriends hands into his own. “I’m in this, and I’m not leaving you. And we can figure the marriage thing out as we go.”

“God, how did I find such a perfect guy?” Amelia laughed in disbelief before she went in to kiss him.

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Rose Coloured Glasses - Part 14

A/N - OMG its been a while.... again!! Im so sorry i promise i’ll try to update quicker. 💕💕

Having no work meant i had no reason to wake up early....i slept in until 10am then went downstairs to grab some cereal and a cup of tea which i took out into the backyard being as it was a nice day out.

Andy had text me just before 9am saying good morning, so i quickly shot a message back to him. I checked my emails and quickly scrolled through the news before deciding to go shower and start my day of doing absolutely nothing!

The day had been dragging so bad, i had already cleaned the house top to bottom and done the washing etc and it was barely lunchtime! I never thought id say this but i missed work.

It was nearing 10pm when i heard my front door being unlocked, i had a sudden rush of fear until i remembered i gave Andy my spare key.

"Hey" he said quietly as he dumped his coat on the arm chair. I looked up from where i was laying on the sofa watching some cooking show.

"Hey, how are you?"

"Tired" he scoffed before climbing onto the sofa squeezing in behind me so he could hold me close.

"How'd your meeting go with Joanna?" I asked stroking my fingers up and down his arm.

"Erghh" he moaned as he buried his face in my neck.

"That good huh?"

"Jake told us Ben had been bullying him, thats why he didn't tell anyone when he found his body. He thought he'd get the blame.... then Laurie brought up the stuff about my dad....Jacobs now pissed at me for lying to him"

"He'll get over it, he's probably just lashing out...."

"Maybe" Andy nodded "then i went to talk to Duffy, i needed to know if they were still looking into Patz.... i asked her if she could get me a copy of his file"

"She gonna help?"

"I dont think so. I thought we were friends you know? But turns out she didnt agree with me" he said sadly.

"Really? I thought you guys we're friends"

"Apparently we're just work colleagues"

"Im sorry you've had a crappy day" i turned to press a kiss to his lips and he smiled down at me.

"Its getting better now"

"Yeah?"

"Yeah"

"You eaten? I could make you something..."

"Not since lunch, but i'm good i just want to hold you" he mumbled with his head buried in my neck, a loud rumble from his stomach made us both laugh.

"Okay so maybe i'm a little hungry"

"I'll go make us something" i chuckled as i slipped from his arms and headed to the kitchen.

"You're the best, i love you" he called out making me turn to him with a smile.

"I love you too".

Over the next few weeks Andy and Laurie tried to make Jacobs home life as normal as possible. They hired him a tutor, his 2nd grade teacher who had now retired....It had kept Jacob occupied.

When he wasn't working on school work he would be in his room playing computer games.

I had been spending a lot of time at the Barber house after Andy told me he felt better with me around, i also became good friends with Laurie. We'd often make lunch and evening meals together before Andy would drive me home. He would sometime stays the night if he didnt have to be anywhere early, It was nice just to have some alone time with him.

Laurie had decided to go back to work today so i had offered to help Andy get dinner ready. We were nearly finished with everything when Andy noticed the time.

"Laurie's usually home by now, i hope her day went okay" Andy said quietly as he wiped off his hands.

"Maybe she just had a lot to catch up on, she's been away for a while"

"Yeah maybe, i'm just gonna go check on Jake. You okay here for a few minutes?"

"Im fine, go" i chuckled shaking my head. Andy pressed a quick kiss to my lips and headed upstairs to check on Jacob. After a few minutes i heard Andy come back downstairs and head out to the front porch, Jacob came into the kitchen giving me a quick smile.

"My dad said to help set the table"

"Thats great, this is nearly ready" i smiled at him, Jacob had been a bit quiet around me when we first met but he was  more comfortable around me now.

"You okay?" I asked noticing that he seemed a little moody.

"Yeah, its just my dad...."

"Oh no, what did he do?"

"Got pissed at me for playing video games online"

"He's just looking out for you Jake, he knows how all this works. What they look into, the things that can go against you. I know you probably think he's being over the top but he just wants to protect you"

"I know, it just sucks" he said sadly.

While Jacob set the table Laurie came rushing in.

"Hey mom" Jacob greeted her with a smile.

"I'll be right there" she replied before rushing upstairs. Jacob shrugged and continued to set out plates.

When Andy didn't come back inside i went looking for him, Laurie had come back downstairs looking like she had been crying... what was going on?

As i walked outback to the yard i saw Andy standing in front of the garage door.

"MURDERER ROT IN HELL" had been spray painted in huge black letters.

"Oh my god...." i gasped holding a hand over my mouth, no wonder Laurie had been upset "Jesus christ Andy....."

"Im so sick of this shit" Andy mumbled under his breath as he tried to scrub off the hateful words.

"Have you got another brush, i'll help"

"You don't have to....."

"I want to" i smiled up at him, Andy pressed a quick kiss to my lips and then went to find an extra brush. We scrubbed for what seemed like hours and we still couldn't get it off, the letters faded to a dull grey but you could still see what it said.... at least it wasn't as visible to anyone passing by on the street now though.

I reheated some dinner for me and Andy and we sat down to eat together, Jake had gone up to his room like usual and Laurie had gone up to bed to read (i think she just wanted to be alone).

"Laurie seemed like she was struggling with everything today" i said quietly to Andy taking a mouthful of my beer, he nodded slowly picking up his own beer.

"Yeah, she was told not to go back to work..... they can't risk being associated with her"

"Thats rough, that would have been a great distraction for her for a few hours"

"It would have been good for her but i get why they done it. This whole thing with Jacob hasn't just ruined his life....."

"I know" i reached over taking Andy's hand "but you're handling it great"

Andy scoffed looking at me with a smirk.

"Im a mess....."

"You're not a mess, you're strong for Laurie and Jake, you support them through all this bad shit"

"Then i fall apart when i'm with you" he scoffed.

"But thats okay, they don't need to know that and i don't mind..... i'm here for you"

"I love you"

"I love you too" i smiled before taking a another mouthful of my beer "so, what was in the file...." i pointed my bottle towards a file Andy had placed on the table.

"Duffy came through on that Patz file" he cracked a smile.

"She did?..... huh maybe you guys are friends after all".

"Maybe".

The following day Andy and Laurie were meeting with a specialist in genetic inheritance and behaviour to discuss Jacob, Joanna had suggested it was a good idea just incase they tried to use everything with Andy's father against Jake. While they were gone i stayed with Jacob at the house while his tutor came by. I was sat on the sofa watching a rerun of Friends to pass the time when my phone vibrated in my pocket. When i looked at who was calling i was surprised to see who it was.... Frank.

"Hello?" I answered quietly so i didn't disturb Jacobs lesson.

"Hey beautiful, how are you?"

"Im good... how are you?" I hated how his voice still gave me butterflies!!

"Not too great, i miss you"

"Frank....."

"I know, i know. You're with Andy now.... i... i missed my chance...."

"Frank are you wasted?" I asked catching the sound of his slurring.

"No baby of course not"

I sighed shaking my head, if he hadn't been drinking that must mean he was high.

"Look i cant talk right now...."

"Can i call you later?"

"Im not sure thats such a good idea"

"Please? i just wanna talk"

"Fine, i wont be home til after 9pm...."

"Thats fine i'll call you then"

"Okay, bye Frank" i quickly ended the call tucking my phone in my pocket, that phone call should be interesting.

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[tylerwritez]

11:10 p.m. Tuesday June 29

Hey guys

As I type this I'm a little scared since my parents are arguing downstairs pretty bad... I had to try n brush my teeth quietly so I could stay outta it except my toothbrush is ELECTRIC.... they probably know I heard it all.

Well... I didn't hear it all. I couldn't make out half of it. They just both seemed agitated and angry and my mom called my dad a motherfucker and was on the phone with soemone saying bad stuff about him and the whole time he was saying she was lying and it was just really nasty to have to hear...

11:18 p.m. Its weirdly quiet now. But I'm scared. I'm scared. I want none of this. I don't want them to feel so fucking... upset. I hate that. Oh no. Oh no. I feel like I'm about to cry. But I won't. I won't cry because I'm stronger than that. I won't cry.

Oh shit now they're talking about me... but it sounds like my dad's on the phone with someone and my mom is gone, probably smoking/drinking in the garage. They're pissed I'm not packed yet. Damn, they really can't stand each other.

My mom is faking abuse????

It's hard to tell what he's saying from up here in my room...

It's my responsibility not to be upset about this anyways, okay? I'm just worried that shit will go down... or that my sister is hearing all this.

FOOTSTEPS... MY DADS... SCARED. SCAREDSCAREDSCARED PLEASE DONT GO UP THE STAIRS PLEASE DONT GO UP FUCK

Okay I misheard he just turned on the A/C... didnt go upstairs to my room. Man my ribs hurt. Probably from binding. they hurt so much I cant sleep on my side tonight :( oh well.

12:56 a.m. update: GODDAMNIT I TRIGGERED MYSELF BY LISTENING TO THIS FUCKIGN SONG AND NOW I HAVE SELF HARM URGES FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK HELP HELP ME HOW DO I STOP I HaVE NO REASON TO CUT I JUST GOT TRIGGERED TO WANTING TO DO IT...

1:20 a.m. update: I think I want to be sick again. I look at all this work I've done and I think to myself, why did I have to do this all alone? Why is there still so much ground to cover? It's not bad enough. I should be sicker if I want help.

I think I WANT to fall back into my old habits so I can get help.

That's. Weird.

I'd tell y'all about my day but I didnt really go out. We went to the mall and I l1fted some stuff. Easy peasy. I'm listening to music... I packed some more so lots of music... youtube...

I didnt do much today. This entry looks lazy but my day WAS lazy. It's super hot here... I have a fan RIGHT NEXT TO ME RN and I'm half naked and that's like. A normal temperature. If I were to move away from the fan (and its 2 cm away from me) I'd die of heatstroke.

Here's the song I'm listening to:

I'm alone, in the dark. I don't know. My brain keeps going back to the same memories over and over and over and forcing me to live through it all and forcing me to feel all of that and my physical form can't handle it and I start to twitch and spasm.

Actually I noticed I'm kinda prone to weird movements... this physical vessel is weak. I stim (sometimes on purpose, sometimes not on purpose), I get shiveries, my arms start to tremble if I put any weight on them and keep em in the same position long enough, and MEMORIES make my physical self RECOIL, my ribs hurt a lot..... I'm so weak. So so weak.

I dont know how I'm supposed to feel about that? I dont WANT to be weak in any way. But I mean... it makes sense.

I'm hoenslty really fucked up.. I need therapy like right fucking now but WE ALL KNOW IM NOT GETTING ANY OF THAT :)

Oh the strife that comes with trying to be a decent son and more accurately, oh the strife that comes with being afraid of telling g people that you need therapy... and being afraid of therapy and therapists in general.

If only we could erase the past.

I don't WANT to be a living breathing memory of a boy who's dead now, or a funeral sad about the man he could've become.

... I keep looking around my room and seeing how BARE it looks and it really cements the fact that I'm moving cos my parents are getting divorced and its fucking OVER. Like woah. Just when I finally thought I could maybe get a family,,, it's all torn apart.

I wonder how long they loved each other... and how long they stayed together for us.

Fucking hell. Fuck. FUCK. this is so unfair. I thought maybe... I thought that since they stopped being so scary and mean... I thoguht that since... well okay. They stopped being total dickheads to me and let me express myself more and now things are so much better and as long as you catch them in a good mood... you have parents.

....

Now? I wonder if any chance for me to rebuild our relationship and become a normal family has been taken away.

Fuck, why do I care so much about Parents anwyays? It's too late now. Even if they got back together and started being decent toward me like a real true family, that doesnt undo everything else.

Fuck, but I can never tell them that. They proabbaly think to themselves that hey, at least they did a good job with Kid Number 1... I dont have the heart to tell them its complicated.

I know whoever reads this is gonna think I'm some ungrateful brat. But trust me... I've been through some stuff. The ian you know today is a fucking hellhound. The dog of god, not the lamb of god.

I'll explain later. I'm too tired now. Here, take this post.

1:37 a.m.

Goodnight

Oh shit no not goodnight, Ariel messaged me, one sec

[naturallytom]

Meet the Parents (Ben Hardy x reader)

a/n: I just had a lot of inspo for this so..here it is! I’m gonna make this into a tom fic too probably to be posted while im at work on sunday so keep an eye out for that but in the meantime,,here’s this!!

warnings: language, nervousness, mentions of sex

please leave feedback/reblog!

gif not mine! 

Butterflies swirled around in your stomach as you kept your eyes on the road ahead of you. Your hands were getting sweaty and you were sure that if you needed to take a turn right now your hands would slip off the steering wheel. Nerves were consuming you to the point that not even the soft music from the radio could keep your mind off what was about to happen.

“Nervous, love?” Ben asked, a small smile on his lips as his green eyes glanced from the road to you. Despite the gps telling you to stay on the highway for a few miles until your exit and the fact that you knew where you were going, you kept your eyes glued to the empty highway lanes as if it was packed with cars.

“How’d you know?” You breathed out, a small smile forming on your face as Ben chuckled.

“Well, love, you’re gripping the steering wheel so hard I think you’re gonna break it if you don’t relax your grip a little bit.” He grinned, making you laugh lightly and relax your hands. “What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours?”

“‘S just..I’ve never exactly brought anyone home to meet my family before and I mean I told them you were coming but they don’t even know it’s you that’s coming! And you’re older than me so what if that comes up and-”

“Babe I’m not that much older than you.” Ben chuckled. “Besides, it’s not your fault they don’t know who I am. Plus, it’ll be kinda nice going somewhere and meeting people as myself and not as someone who’s been in movies.”

“That’s the thing, though. They’ll probably recognize you the minute you step through the door. And I don’t know what their reactions will be.” You whined, making Ben chuckle again.

“Think they’ll be good reactions?” He asked, rubbing his thumb over your thigh lightly in an effort to help you relax.

“Think it may be overwhelming and I don’t want you to be overwhelmed.”

“You’re too cute.” He smiled. “We’ll deal with that if it comes to it. Don’t you worry about that, my love.”

You smiled and glanced at him for a second, before turning your attention back to the road and getting off at the right exit.

On the way to your house, you gave Ben a mini tour of your hometown, pointing out where you went to high school and where you and your friends would go grab food after school or after a performance you were in.

It was the usual mundane things, but Ben looked out the passenger side window and listened as you told him the significance of whatever you were telling him.

Finally, after trying to push off the inevitable, you pulled up to your childhood home.

Turning off the car, you sighed, grabbing the keys and unlocking the back of the car before turning to Ben.

“You ready?” You asked, making him nod.

“Are you ready?” He checked, holding one of your hands in his own, running his thumb across your knuckles.

“As ready as I’ll ever be.” You smiled softly. “Let’s get the things from the back and head in.”

The two of you grabbed your bags from the trunk, Ben closing it behind you and following you through the garage, pausing at the door to allow you to open it.

“Hi mom, hi y/sd/n!” You greeted, giving them each a hug as your mom opened the door.

“Hi honey, oh we missed you! And oh! You must be Ben!” Your mom smiled, her and your stepdad shaking his hand while you took your shoes off.

“Yeah, yeah I am. Nice to meet you both.” He spoke, his accent throwing your family off.

“Wow a British boy!” Your mom grinned, making you roll your eyes.

“Mom, really?”

“You’re right. You two go get settled and we can talk more once you’re back. Taking the basement?” Your mom asked.

“I think we’ll be fine in my room.” You replied, gesturing with your head for Ben to follow you upstairs.

Both of you set your bags down as Ben noticed some of the baby photos hanging on your walls.

“Awww look how cute you were!” He cooed. “Haven’t changed a bit, love.”

“Wow thanks.” You replied sarcastically, a smile tugging on your lips as he pressed his lips to your forehead.

“You’re still so cute, you know that.” He mumbled against your head.

“Thanks, baby.” You smiled. “We should get back downstairs. Get the interrogation over with.”

“They seem lovely.” Ben commented on the way downstairs, your fingers laced together with his.

“They are. They’re just a lot sometimes.” You told him honestly.

“There they are!” Your stepdad announced as the two of you sat down on the stools at the island counter.

“So,” Your mom started. “How did the two of you meet?”

“I bumped into him on the street while I was abroad.” You answered, smiling at the memory. “It was one of my first days in London and I was so lost and trying to find my way I didn’t notice him coming and we just bumped into each other.”

“Sweet. Ben you look familiar. Do I know you from somewhere?” Your stepdad asked, pausing the dinner making process.

“Erm, maybe Bohemian Rhapsody and 6 Underground? I was in both of those movies.” Ben answered, this time you ran your thumb over his knuckles under the counter.

“Holy shit, no way! y/n and I watched both of those together, we loved them.” He gasped.

“Thank you.” Ben smiled. “They were both a lot of fun to shoot.”

The conversation flowed lightly until you ate dinner, Ben saying nothing but good things about your stepdad’s cooking.

“Can I help you clean up?” Ben asked after dinner, your mom and stepdad shushing him and shaking their heads.

“No no, go sit down. You and y/n can pick out a movie.” Your stepdad said.

“Nothing scary!” Your mom added, making Ben chuckle before he joined you on the couch, wrapping his arm around your shoulders.

“They do that every time we have guests. Nice of you to ask, though.” You told him quietly, referring to him asking if he could help clean.

“‘S what I do.” He shrugged, grinning when he saw what was free on demand. “What about Bohemian Rhapsody? It’s free.”

“Shut up.” You giggled, cuddling into his chest. “We’re not watching that. We’ve all seen it.”

“Hmm fine. What about…Isn’t It Romantic?” He suggested, you nodding in response right as your parents came into the room.

“This sound good?” You asked, waiting for everyone to agree before hitting play.

You ended up falling asleep, curled up against Ben’s chest until you were woken up by your mom whispering.

“Have you two had sex?”

“Mom!” You groaned, making Ben jump from your sudden movement and making your mom roll her eyes.

“Scared me, love. Thought you were asleep.” He gasped.

“‘M half asleep. To answer your question, mom, no we haven’t but it’s none of your business anyway.” You mumbled. “Is the movie over?”

“Just finished, yeah.” Ben responded, a light tint of pink still on his cheeks.

“Perfect. It’s sleep time. Goodnight everyone.” You cheered, grabbing Ben’s hand and bringing him upstairs after he said goodnight as well.

“Sorry about that question, she does it with all of us.” You told him, kissing him softly.

“‘S fine, love. You saved me from answering it. I probably wouldn’t have lied.” He chuckled, making you smile. “Who knew you could lie on the spot like that?”

“Hey bold of you to assume I want my mom knowing shit about our sex life!”

[gearprideproject]

Wren's Backstory part 1

Hey everyone! Here it is! Part of it anyway. So I typed this all up and you guys would not be live how long this sucker is in fact, it's 3,737 words long! It takes up like 6 pages on Google docs, so this is a bit of a doozy. Is it worth it? I sure hope so! But after writing this I have decided I like it so much that im gonna keep writing it. How many parts? I don't know. Like I really don't know. However what would a post here be without warnings so here we go! In this chapter there is: blackmail, murder, death, bargaining using someone's life, gang's, a child witnessing their parent die, and misgendering to cause here wren is a girl. Wren is only a little kid and has yet to like realize that they are non binary. So yeah. Uh there is a dead body that does get taken away cause someone dies. But other than that you guys should be good! Enjoy!!!

Wren grew up helping her father with his work as a scientist/engineer, learning to cook and fight from her mother. Her mother, Laina insisted that while she may be a lady and therefore must know how to do the housework, she must also be able to protect herself. After all there were plenty of cousins that she must beat at the family reunion held at Aunt Stacy’s ranch. of course, learning to fight gave her an edge, and once she joined in at age 5 she easily beat all the others in the little kid area. this would sometimes lead to some grandparents joking them that they were raising a son instead of a daughter. Her parents always laughed that off and said,

"You just say that because she's stronger than the boys. We don't see a problem with her being able to stand up for herself. in fact, it makes us feel better that she can keep herself safe,"

As the years progressed and she was almost 9, they went to the ranch, but Stacy pulled aside Liana, "Liana i know that mike has been receiving some, concerning mail from your local gang leader, and I understand why you are trying to ignore it, but I really am worried for you all. I checked my future and I saw a few futures ahead of you. one: you guys move and come stay here with me. this far out the gang can be apprehended by the law, and you guys will all be safe. the boys would be glad to have you, and George can take Mike into town with him for work."

"Stacy that is awfully kind of you, and i know you have more than enough room... but Mike and I discussed this, and we don't think if we run that we can stay this close and not get followed. we would have to bring it up with the government, and that is not something we would like..." she trailed off. Stacy understood of course. she had looked into the future and while this was the safest, she knew that they would be against it. "Liana, this is the only one where you all get out alive! I refuse to lose my baby sister to something i know i can prevent! please Liana, just run away!" she begged. She was the oldest, and the most successful. she had inherited the family ranch when their parents died due to gang activity in the city. She had held them all together. she had gone to agonizing lengths to protect everyone. She refused to allow this to happen.

"Stacy, can you tell me the other options? I just want to know." Liana looked at her big sister and gave her puppy dog eyes.

“Fine. I'll tell you. the second option is..." and so with the children running around in some strange customary greeting and the other adults unpacking, Stacy explained what would happen in two months. this of course worried Liana, but even though she had managed to hide it from everyone else, Wren caught on. "Mom? What’s wrong?" Wren asked while Liana was tucking her in. "Is something wrong?"

"No, sweetie." Liana replied sweetly. "There’s nothing wrong. Nothing you need to worry about anyway."

"If you're worried, then I'm worried. Pleeeeeease tell me?" Wren looked up at her and Liana couldn't help but give in.

"Well okay. Your father has been receiving some, letters from some bad people. and I was talking with Stacy earlier and she told me some things about the future that are going to be really hard to talk about."

"But you need to. So tell me. I'm a big girl i can take it. I beat all the boys." she says with a smug little grin.

"Yes you did. well... I suppose this can be our secret, because if I told your father he would freak out, and we can't have that no can we?"

"No!"

"Exactly. So... you know that some bad people are going to try and use him for something wrong. They want him because he's really smart, and they want him to work for them. And there's a very high possibility that I won't be there. And I know that if I'm not there to keep your disaster of a father in line he'll just fall apart. He needs to be fine though, so he can keep you safe. So darling, if I am unable to, will you take care of your father for me?" 

"Of course, Mom! But why won't you be there with us?"

"Well... if we don't run the best case scenario involves me getting, removed, and in order for your father to be able to keep doing what he must to keep you safe, you'll have to make sure that he doesn't blame himself or do something stupid. okay?"

"Okay. But Aunt Stacy didn't see anything super bad right? Cause I'll fight the bad guys for dad and you."

"Wren," Laina said sternly as she gripped her shoulders, "Promise me that you will not fight. These bad guys will have weapons and they will remove you too. Promise me that you will stay invisible and stay away"

"Can I watch?"

"I... It will not be something you should watch, but if you really want to no one will stop you. Although it will likely become... not... pleasant. I would prefer if you didn't come and watch but if you really want to, then slip out of your room quietly and invisibly okay?"

"Okay. I promise I'll be quiet. wait... if the bad guys come and you leave...does this mean that i'm gonna have to cook and take care of the house and Dad?"

"Yes, if you'll take over for me by doing that i would feel much better about your survival because we all know how your father cannot cook to save his life."

"Okay mom!" Wren beamed at her. "I’ll make sure Dad doesn't do anything stupid without you," was her reply with mock seriousness.

"What would I do without you,” her mother replied with the same tone, "I suppose I'll have to up your house work training. Since right now, we all know you guys are disasters without me" Laina smirked at her daughter.

"Yeah! Wait ..." Wren wrinkled her nose in confusion "did you..."

"Don’t worry about it sweetie. Now go to bed. It’s too late." Laina reassured her as she tucked Wren in bed

"Night mom." was wren's sleepy reply

"Goodnight, Wren" was Laina's soft reply as she slowly closed the door and exhaled. Now that she had dealt with Wren she would have to sort out the rest of the family. Laina smiled softly to herself as she murmured, "At least they will be safe. She promised that they would be safe..." before quietly continuing down the hall to her and Mike's bedroom.

It was only a few weeks later that Aunt Stacy’s words came true.

 People burst in the windows and grabbed her and Mike. Laina clung to her sisters words though 

"In about two months the people sending you letters will break in. You and your husband will get caught, Wren will not. She will see invisibly her father attempting to get out and your final telepathic shout. You will die, but sister they will live and be safe. I promise you that if you die they will both be safe."

She knew this would happen, and she had already come to accept her death. She had already finished off all of her family business, and Wren was told what to do. She knew that her family would make it. And she just hoped that they would forgive her. She was held in the kitchen, while the leader had others bring Mike in the living room to talk. Soon she heard booming voices and saw a small flicker of movement from upstairs. She knew that it was Wren sneaking down to see what all the commotion was about. Laina just had to hope it would all work out.

Wren however did not like being woken by shouting. it was the third time this week and she was tired. she couldn't sleep so she decided to go sneak down far enough to see what was going on. She went out already invisible since she remembered her mom telling her that if she woke up to shouts to only come out if she used her power. Now, normally the shouted conversation had one side that sounded sticky, suggesting that her father was on call. But these voices she just knew were from people sitting in her living room because she could hear them very clearly. So she decided to creep downstairs and listen poking her head around the stairs. She quickly saw the not so pleasant conversation taking place downstairs, and she did not like it.

"Mike. really. we need you to do this. If you don't we will kill your family. It’s all up to you. Some random strangers die and your wife lives, or your wife dies and you still have to kill the strangers. I think you have a kid too, don't you? A daughter right?" this sent Mike into a rage as he surged forward at the big guy in charge.

"I swear if you touch her i'll make you regret it! Leave my kids alone! She has nothing to do with any of this!"

"Of course we'll leave her alone! I’m not a monster. I mean, we will have to do something if you don't do what we want, but still! No harm to either of them if you work willingly." The boss man grinned creepily at mike, showing off a row of rotting teeth. Mike seemed to be considering this, but Liana knew that this could not happen after all her sister had warned her, "Your  husband may try to keep you alive, but more harm than good will come from your life. He will make bold rash decisions that will hurt them both more than if you had died." so Liana did what any good telepath in this situation would do, and took matters into her own hands. "Mike," she began, "Please don't take up his offer. It will just lead to more pain and death on your end. remember when Stacy talked to me two months ago? She warned me of this. Do not take up the offer. please Mike." Mike seemed to be swayed by his reply, "and... will you both be... safe? Please, Laina, I need to know." Liana replied to him swiftly, "Mike i promise to you, i will die tonight but in the end you and wren will both wind up safer by it. so please do not be rash." "if you say so. I will do what Stacy seems to know is right." "thank you" the others apparently were unaware of laina's abilities otherwise they might grow suspicious of mike's long silence. but they must have just chalked it up to him deciding because the boss started getting impatient.

"well Mike? a pretty good offer don't you think?"

 "No actually. what kind of choice is this? create new technology that will kill people, but don't worry your family will be just fine? you are crazy."

"maybe I am, but either way they will die, and you will do this. it really does not matter." the boss shrugged

"You are horrible people. I could not face my family again if i did this. so go ahead and kill me." Mike said with a calm surety. he knew they would not kill him, they needed him alive after all.

"you are a fool mike. do remember who holds the power in this situation" and with that he snapped his fingers and Laina was brought into the living room by his people. 

"Mike, I could let her live. but clearly you are not getting this through your thick skull so I must insist that you think of our offer again. I will give you one more chance." Mike and laina locked eyes and she whispered into his head, "do not give in." Mike looked at her with pain in his eyes and she knew that this would kill him, but he had to say no.

"my decision stands. I will not create these chemical bombs that you plan on using!"

" very well then. This decision is all on you now. we offered you a way to keep her alive, because we are humane, but you refused. You must really hate each other if you can just offer her up without a second thought. Marty, if you will?"

The sound of a gunshot rang through the house as Laina's voice echoed in her head before she slumped to the floor. 

"Goodby Mike, Wren. I love you both so much."

Mike was heartbroken. how this was the best scenario he had no idea but he knew that if he refused again they might take wren to, and she had only spoken of her death. besides. he refused to lose them both. so he looked at him and said with only a hint of a waver in his voice. "if you promise to leave wren alone, as long as she can either stay or leave and still be safe, I will do it. but you need to swear on your life that no harm will come to wren in any way. do you understand?" Mike looked directly in his eyes and the boss man grinned.

"of course. no harm will come to wren. in fact she can do whatever she wants with her life as long as she doesn't try to ruin our plans. the same goes to you of course. I will send the details and some bracelets. the both of you will have to put them on, but they will guarantee your safety. and before you ask, no we are not bugging your house or tracking you. as long as we get what we want we don't really care."

"fine."

"I will send the cleanup person for your wife in the morning. she will get a burial of course, but we can't have the authorities getting suspicious. they will also clean up the windows and whatnot. actually, they will get here in a few hours, can't have the cops getting suspicious. I'll have them bring the stuff for you with them. also, any materials you need will be covered by me, just let me know what and how much. everything else will be covered in a letter. goodbye." and just like that they all left as quietly as they came. soon wren climbed down the stairs and went over to her father, now completely visible.

"dad? what, what's wrong with mom?" her voice had a slight tremble to it as if she were afraid of the answer. "Shes gonna get up right? please say shes gonna wake up daddy." Wren's tears started to fall and her father looked at her and sighed, looking so very tired. a long pause of silence filled the air before he spoke. 

"wren sweetie, i dont think shes gonna get up again. she's dead and even though she said that this was for the best, I just wish she didn't have to. i... I hope you can forgive me wren, i just knew I had to keep you safe, you can leave and go stay with your aunt stacy or your cousins... this place may not be super safe for you..." 

"no. I'm gonna stay with you. mom asked me to take over for her anyways since you can't cook at all."

"true. So you want to stay? even though your dad is about to have to do some bad stuff?"

"yeah. you're my dad and family has to stick together. besides mom said that we're disasters without her, so we need to prove her wrong!"

"of course sweetie. want some ice cream? there's a few hours till the guys who will clean up the windows and take your mom someplace where she can get ready to go... away."

"yeah! and i'll always be here for you okay dad?"

"Okay. I'll be the best dad to you to. I'll make sure you stay safe."

"i know! now ice cream!" Wren yelled before sliding off of her dad's lap. she looked at her mom and whispered, "we'll be safe mom. I know we will. I'll watch dad for you" before scurrying off to the kitchen. several hours and bows of ice cream later, the cleaners showed up. the one that looked like the boss headed over to mike and handed him a massive manila envelope before pulling out a box and opening it. inside were two bands of some silvery substance with the gang's logo imprinted on them.

"they're magic" he began "they will offer additional protection to what you have and they will ward off anyone who even thinks to hurt you. they also grow to fit you so you don't have to worry about losing them."

"alright. thanks. now then-wren."he nudged her awake, "wake up sweetie. I need you to put this bracelet on okay sweetie?`` Wren woke up slowly, blinking her eyes owlishly. "okay dad." she yawned, "are these the people that are gonna take mom away?" she asked before another yawn forced its way out. 

"yes. there will be a burial of course, right?" he asked looking at the cleaner. behind him, the windows and broken locks were being replaced, while pieces of blood and glass were cleaned up.

"of course. we are simply moving her out of your house and into our area. we will get everything set up for you. the boss was very happy about you joining us." that gave mike pause, 'why is he so happy... that can't meant anything good' he thought, but at least everything will be fine.

"alright. now which one wants to put on their bracelet first?"

"oh- oh, dad! can i! can i!" this gave the cleaner a good chuckle, '' I was not expecting such enthusiasm" he commented. 

"well she just wants to put on the cool shiny thing you brought."

"dad! that's not true! you told me to wake up and put it on. so what if it looks super cool?"

"see told ya." Mike chuckled "she just wants the cool bracelet"

"well you can put on this one kid" the cleaner said and held out a bracelet. "here, let me help you"

"thanks mister!" Wren said happily as she held out both of her arms "which one should it go on?"

"hmmm. how about... the right." he said "okay!" "well here we go..." he said before clamping it onto her right wrist. colors shone and magic crackle but soon the light show died down and the cleaner turned to mike. "alright big guy. your turn" he said before pulling out the other one. mike held out his right arm and the cleaner clamped it down on his wrist. a light show similar to wrens filled the room before quickly dying down. "alright then. I'll go help clean up. if you ever need any help, then just ask for me. I'm usually around. and i can help watch your kid to." he said with complete sincerity. "well okay, but who do i call for? do i just say ,'the cleaner guy that looks like he's in charge of the other cleaner guys?' because that does not sound like something i can say." the cleaner grinned. "well normally you have to earn someone's name with trust. just ask for 'the head cleaner' and if they ask which one tell them 'the only REAL one' they'll know who i am." "alright... thanks head cleaner." "not a problem. you have all the files, here's the letter," he said as he pulled out a small unassuming envelope,

 "so unless you have a desire to say any final goodbyes that can't be heard by the general public, or you have any burning questions, i'll need to pack up your lovely wife."

 "mr. head cleaner," wren said as she tugged on his sleeve, 

"what's the symbol on the bracelet? and is it removable? cause what if i need to take a bath and stuff? and... is mommy going to be safe?" she looked up at him eyes wide with curiosity.

 "well kid," he began as he sunk down, "your mom will be fine, we just don't want her on your floor. the bracelet can be removed but only by you, and even then only willingly. so bathtime shouldn't be an issue. and the symbol is the sign of the gang i'm in."

 "are we in the gang now? cause mom told me that I shouldn't be in a gang.."

 "well kinda? this just means that you are under our protection since your dad is going to help us out with some stuff. but I promise you won't have to do anything bad even if you join."

 "okay mister. be nice to mom okay?"

 "I will" he said before he stood up and walked over to mike and the still body of laina

. "alright man, i gotta take her. you done? or do you need a bit more time?"

 "no, i'm-i'm alright." Mike said wetly as he wiped the tears from his face. "gotta be strong for my kid now right?"

 "if you need more time i'm not going to judge you. heck, when my family got killed i cried like a baby and refused to come out for a week. but i did. and even if the world seems a little gray, the world can still have lots of colors in it, you know? so what I'm trying to say is... it's okay to be sad about this."

 "thanks." 

"no problem man. so... should I go?" 

"no. I'm good. you can- you can take her." Mike said shakily 

"alright man." said the cleaner before handing him the letter and using his ability - telekinesis- to lift up the body of his wife, of wren's mother, of laina, and gently placed it in a body ag that he levitated outside. soon the cleaners were done and the cleaners left. sunrise came a bit after that, and the new day saw the outside of the house as the same as always. the inside however, would never be the same.

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Hello! So this is part one! Please let me know what you think or if I missed anything! Love you guys!!!!!

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Part 1: Chapter 5 ( pt. 1 Ace and Jade)

2017: March 19th 2017

Jade: 25

“You keep me decked out the lastest, taking me to knew places, got me calling me friends like damn he’s the greatest, thought love was overrated, somebody lied im faded, and the way you make me feel you got me elevated, I don’t questions, you come round in that two seater, telling me that you ready to go. i dont ask question, go out telling me you got all this money to bloooow, run it up, run it up” I sang, driving round in my all black Jeep Wrangler. I had been out running errands with my bestfriend Mia, and My friend Myiesha, and I had just got home. Ace and I had moved to buckhead in the cut. Ace didn’t want to live in a neighboorhood. Our house was an all glass house, you could over see the city at night, it was beautiful. I never had to worry about working but I stacked any money Ace gave me, just in case we really needed it. I seen Ace was gone, so I just pulled into the garage. When I walked in the house, I got undressed and got myself situated, to start cooking dinner. I turned on my music as I started to get in the shower to wash my hair, and shit. “Alexa play Pull up by G-Herbo”. I walked into the bathroom. I sighed and seen Ace had been doing coke again. Lately he’s been doing more than smoking weed and dringing lean, he started popping pills, and snorting Cocaine. I quickly trashed the shit. “What the fuck Ace!” I cleaned off the table and throw whatever pills he had in the trash. I got in the shower and began washing up. I jumped at a sound that sounded like glass breaking. “Alexa pause the music” I said. I quietly and quickly got out the shower. I threw on my long sleeve romper, and put on my uggs. My hair was dripping down my back soaking my romper. “I know his bitch is here, I followed her” I heard a voice say. “She probably upstairs” I heard a deeper voice say. Shit like this never really happened but Ace prepared me for anything. I grabbed my book bag that carried Ace and I’s passports, spare property keys, a band, a bullet proof vest which I quickly put on and 3 guns, with extra bullets, and a safe phone. I grabbed the other gun under the bathroom counter, I tied the knife that was in the medicine cabinet to my arm. I heard them checking every room. The only way out was downstairs. I had my car keys downstairs, and I also had a spare key under my car. I quickly turned on my location tracker for Ace. I heard our room door bust open. I was hiding in the closet. My breathing was getting faster. “Check everywhere, shoot on sight” I heard the voice say. I clocked the gun back, and took the safty off. He opened the closet door and with out hesitation. I pulled the trigger, I shot him in the chest and he fell back, shooting back at me as I run off. The other dude, grabbed me by my hair. I grabbed the knife and stabbed his side. He instantly let go. I ran to the stairs,

I tripped down the last steps falling to the ground. “Shit!” I yelled out. The guy who grabbed me was big, he started shooting from upstairs. I ran to kitchen grabbing the tiny remote from the drawer closes to the garage, I opened the garage. “Fuck” I said to myself. I seen, it was another guy. He smirked. “Hey princess”. I backed up and walked into my house. “Damn it!” I yelled. I left the gun on the counter. I ran back in the house and locked the door to the garage. The big nigga was dragging the guy I shot down the stairs. He looked at me and pulled the trigger the bullet hit my arm “Uhhhh!” I felt my eyes water. Jade snap out of it, Jade! I thought to myself. I snatched the gun off the counter. and I ran out the back door, as he was shooting. I ran around the house till I got back to my car in the garage. The other guy was kicking at the garage door. I ducked down and grabbed my spare key off the bottom, I hit the unlock button and got in, he turned around and we made eye contact. I quickly turned my car on and put it in reverse. He pointed the gun at me, and started shooting. I sped backwards down my drive way, and pressed the button. Instantly the house blew up. I drove 5minutes down the road when I started to get light headed from losing blood in my arm. My steering wheel was bloody and I could feel myself going in and out, I tried to pull over but my body was weak. I felt my car hit a tree and I blacked out.

I woke up and heard a beeping noise. I was squinting because of the light in my eyes. I groaned at the headace I had. “What the fuck?” I said touching the stiches on my forehead. “Baby?” I heard. I looked and seen Ace in a chair near me. “Where am I, what happened?” I asked. He smiled at me. “You was dope baby, you got shot in your arm, I followed you on the Find My Friends app you sent me, you had a little crash into a tree, I got you out and brung you here to the underground hospital” He told me. He kissed on my face. “I love you soo much man, Im sorry for putting you in the situation, but you handled it like a G, thats my baby” He said. I softly smiled. “Am I okay?” I asked. A middle age women came into the room. “Hello Jade, I heard so much about you. How are you?” She asked me. I shrugged. “You tell me” I said. She looked between me and Ace. “Um your fine, we pulled the bullet out and sewed your wound back up, we would normally give you percocet but we have to give you something not as strong” She said. I looked at her crazy. “No offense when I say this but bitch this shit hurts” I said. She nodded with her hands in defense. “I can’t give you the pills because your pregnant Jade” She said. My eyes widened. “Huh?”. Ace shook his head. “Nah, she can’t be, Im not ready for no kid man, maybe you got it wrong” He said. She shook her head. “We ran your results Jade, you are pregnant, you need to go to a real doctor to get a second opinion but I read them twice, to make sure you had no infections from the wound” She said. I felt tears fall from my face. I was scared as fuck. I was not ready to be a mom, I didn’t even want kids, Ace and I we never used protection, I wasn’t on the pill, we just assumed I just was never going to get pregnant. Ace went through his pocket and started popping 3 pills of X. He looked at me. “What?” He asked. I shook my head still crying. We aint ready for no kid, Ace is a damn junkie, he put my life in danger. “We can go to the clinic to handle this, when we leave once we go to the doctors to see if this shit is true” He told me. I wiped my tears and turned over in the bed.

A week later:

I had scheduled an appointment with a doctor at the hospital near by. I was anxious and nervous I just wanted to know. “Jade Thomas?” The nurse called for me. I stood up. “You can follow me” She said. I followed her to the back. “You can go in the bathroom and pee in the cup and meet us back in here. Dr. Moss will be in with your results” She said before leaving. I peed in the cup and went back into the office. My leg was shaking, and my hands were sweaty, I was scrolling through IG for about 20minutes. “Okay Jade?, Hi Im Dr. Moss” Dr. Moss said. “Hi” I said. She closed the door and pulled up a chair. “So your lab results came in and you are pregnant, I will use the monitor to see how far long, so you can get undressed, and put on the gown. I will see you shortly” Dr. Moss said before leaving out. I started crying as she closed the door. I got up and got undressed and into the gown. “Okay, You ready? Are you okay?” Dr. Moss said looking at me with concern. I was still in tears. “Im just not ready for this” I told her. She nodded slowly. “Once you see your baby you will feel more ready. Lift your legs up on these step stoops for me. Im going to do a transvaginal ultrasound to see the egg” I nodded as I put my feet up and she put the monitor inside. I heard a intense beating sound. I looked at the doctor. “What is that?” I asked. She smiled. “Your babys heartbeat” She said. “Thats your baby, its like a little bean, but it seems you are 7 weeks pregnant” She said. I started to feel overwhelmed but in a good way. “My baby?” I asked. She smiled and nodded. “Yes, we can schedule you another appointment at 12 weeks okay?. And don’t be worried babys are a gift from above” She told me. I nodded. “Your little bean seems to be due around December. 9th this year” She told me. I smiled. “A winter baby, like me” I told her.

After my appointment, I got in my car, and drove home. After the explosion and my car crashing. Ace moved us to his second home in Austel, He got me another Jeep, all black matte. When I got home, I seen he was already there with other cars. “I can’t even roll in peace, everybody notice me, I can’t even go to sleep. Im rolling on a bean. They tried to me eight, got my knees like “Jesus Please” He don’t even believe in Jesus why he got a Jesus Piece” Kodak Black- “Roll In Peace” blasted from the surround sound speakers. “Ohhh give me that dub bitch!” I heard Ace friend Baby G yell. I walked around the living room and seen Ace friends playing poker at the poker table. Ace was snorting coke on a metal tray near the poker table. I sighed, he was turning into Davis. “Ace!” I yelled. He wiped his nose and smiled at me. “Hey babydoll” He said, he was high as hell. “I been calling you” I told him. “Oh man baby I been with my niggas!” He said pointing his friends. He dug into his pocket and lit a cigerette. “You had a great day with your fine ass in them leggings girl, you going to keep me some ass tonight baby. Ima eat you up” He said grabbing me and whispering in my ear. I lightly pushed him back. “Ace can we talk privately?” I asked. He smirked at me and bit his lip. “Aight pretty face” He sighed kissing on my cheek. I moved my face away and brought him in the kitchen. “I went to the doctor” I told him. He inhaled the cigerette. “Aight so what the say?” He asked. I inhaled my breath, and exhaled. “Im pregnant” I said. He nodded. “No prob, baby will just get that shit taken care of tomorrow” He said shrugging. “Im not getting an abortion Ace” I told him. He lightly laughed. “You trying to be like O and Naomi? Man J stop playing lets just go there tomorrow get rid of the shit and buy more plan b I guess. I aint pulling out and I ain’t putting on a condom fuck that shit. You mine, I like to feel my shit” He said. I palmed my face. “Ace I said Im not killing our baby. I heard his or hers heart today and I realized I created a life, I can be a better mother than my mom or aunt was to me. I can actually have a family, a family with a man I love” I said to him with tears in my eyes smiling. He shook his head. “Do that shit by yourself then J, Im not raising no kid nigga. You aint bout to complicate my life J, shit fuck that man”. My heart dropped. “So you going to leave me to raise our child by myself Ace?” I asked shocked at his reaction. He shrugged. “You know what fuck you Ace, fuck you all this money, all this shit! Fuck you! Im soooo done with you!” I screamed. All his friends looked at us. I ran upstairs to grab my some of my shit. “So you going to leave me?” He asked. “Are you going to step up and be a man, or choose them drugs and bitches over your family?” I asked him. He sucked his teeth and waved me off. “Man we should of just stayed bestfriends, Ima be good nigga, shit bye” He said. “Fuck you Ace, you just like Davis crackhead ass”.

Ace age 25:

2 months later:

“East8 bringing the war to our homes, I aint letting that shit fly, we need to kill them assp” O said. I nodded. “You right” I pulled out some lean and drank a little bit. He grabbed the bottle from me. He sighed, “So Mom asked about you” Omari said. We was at waffle house just kicking shit. “Oh okay cool” I said zoning out. He sighed looking at me. “Bruh man you wilding Ace, you aint talked to J in 2 months, checked on your baby none of that” He said. I shrugged my shoulders. “How is she?” I asked. Omari looked at me. “Shes doing good, you can tell shes hurt ya know but shes happy. I think” He said. Since Jade left, I been depressed just dealing with shit different, fucking hoes and doing drugs, handling business with my gang and shit. “You been thinking about getting clean?” Omari asked. I looked up from my phone. “I ain’t no junkie” I said. Omari kept looking at me, he grabbed my phone. “Aye yo chill” I snapped. He clenched his jaw. “What you gon do? Huh? Shoot me motherfucka?” He said. I balled up my fist. “I brought you here to talk Ace, you spiraling man, Dad would not be proud” He said. I sucked my teeth at him. “Man dad dead fuck you” I told him. Omari grabbed me by my shirt. “If you wasn’t my brother I’d fuck you up” He told me. I smirked, “And you be dead” I told him. He pushed me back down. I fixed my shirt. I heard heels clicking over to our table. I looked up and seen it was our mother Traci. I felt the rage in me grow. “The fuck you bring this bitch in here for!” I snapped. She glared at me. “Bitch, I am your mama” She snapped. “Psshhh man you sent me to jail and never came to see me or defend me! You turned me in, you aint my blood!” I yelled. I looked at Omari. “Fuck all yall” I said. “Sit down” Omari said through clenched teeth. “Yall got 5 minutes” I stated. “Im sorry Ace, I was not thinking clearly I realize now I was wrong, I abandoned both of yall and Im sorry” She said. I shook my head. “Aight thats it? I got a btich waiting for me” I said. “O says you ended up with that Jade girl and your about bout to be a daddy, Congradulations” She said softly smiling. I stood up and grabbed my phone. “Well Im not, Im out” I said, I walked off to my car. “Ace!” I heard O call out. I turned around looking at him. He swung his fist and started fighting me. He grabbed me and brought me up to my car. “You out of the game until you fix your shit! I can’t have you fucking up my shit, OUR shit! Fucking grow up, you aint my brother. I don’t know what monster you fucking created but you need to get your shit together. Im tired of cleaning up your mess Ace. Don’t come around, until you get some help nigga!” he yelled. I spit the blood from my mouth in his face. “Fuck you O” I said. He punched me in my stomach, and in my face before walking off. I spit the blood out on the street.

I got in my car and drove home. I with throw my liquor cabnet and chugged down some Hennessy.

“Looking like a trapper when I walked in the building, That mean I got something expensive. Know my frames, they’re killin’

All these hoes I’m killin’

Nigga came from dope dealing

Dirt bike, four wheeling (woo)

Come up in the street I’m peeling (skurr)

Come up in the street I’m peelin” I was rapping to Bankroll Fresh drunk as hell, and high as a kite. “Knock, Knock” I heard the door knock at the door. I grabbed my gun and looked through the peephole. I seen it was La-La she had been coming over lately. “Wassup bitch” I said to her. She rolled her eyes. “I heard you was down so I decided to bring in a friend her name is Diamond” She said. I smirked. “Oh you freaky freaky” I said. She nodded. “Anything for you Ace baby” She said kissing me. One thing lead to the next and I was messing with both girls, I was feeling the high, but shit started go left. I started seeing hallucinations everybody I killed. “Bruhh what the fuck!” I scrambled for my pants. “Ace you good?” La-La asked. I shook my head. My breathing intensified. I grabbed my cars keys and ran out the house. I grabbed my phone, and called X. “Wazzam Ace, you know O aint want us fucking with you”. “X man you got to help me I think Im spazzing off everything, Im seeing dead people” I said. He sighed. “Aight bruh where you at?” I grabbed my gun nervous as hell, paranoid like a motherfucker. “In my car man X hurry the hell up man” I said.

16 minutes later X showed up. He knocked on my window. “Ace, come on man” He said. I got out the car. “Man I’m tripping out man, Im losing my shit” I told him. He nodded. “Yeah you need help Ace, I know this place you can go to get help” He said. I sucked my teeth in. “I just need this shit to cope X thats it” I said. He sighed. “Man Ace look around everybody not fucking with you, J left you, O not dealing with it and soon ima be done too cause you fucking up fam” He told me. “I miss my girl, I aint gon hold you. I feel bad as hell man, I fucked up but im just cool out and get me some help for a minute. Ima be back” I told X. He nodded. “You need it, we got J. She gone be good” He assured me. He followed me back to my crib. The girls was gone. I looked at the coke on the table. “Aghhhhh” I yelled as I flipped the table over. I started punching holes in the walls and shit. X ran in after me. “Bruhh you wilding” He said. He shook his head. “Pack your shit I know a place you need to go to”.

7 Months Later: December 3rd, 2017

The past seven months, I been good. I went to rehab in L.A. took therapy. Ready to get back to bussiness. Ready to get back to my girl. Ready to be a Dad, an just make up for all the shit I did to J. My therapist told me it was going to be a long road to forgiveness from J. Also she asked me to forgive my mom, forgive my past and be a better version of me. When I dropped down in the Atl, the first thing I did was sale my property. Get me

A new crib, get a decorator to design me a gender nuetral nursery for J. She can add to it or recreate it if she likes. I turned in my Lambo and My Maserati for a Range Rover and an Escalade. I grew my hair out, and got it braided. I been back for a few weeks now, it was time to make my apology rounds. I showed up at Omari’s. “Ace! Hey little brother” Naomi said answering the door. “Uncle Acey!” Rain and Ocean yelled. They was right up underneath Mimi following her around in there little pajamas. “Hey my little niggas” I said. They each gave me a hug. “Yall keep growing man!” I said. “Im a big boy now, I get to go to pre-k” Rain said. Ocean nodded. “Yep me too!” I pretended to be shocked. “What?! No way” I said. “Go get daddy for me” Naomi told them. They ran off. “How are you?, you look good!” She said hugging me. I smiled. “I feel good, I been in L.A went to rehab and therapy” I told her. She nodded. “Hows J?” I asked. She smiled. “Good, she recently moved out, and into X and Heiress place for now, but she is getting her own place out in Alpharetta” She said. “Well I bought us a house, hopefully we can work shit out and be a family” I told Naomi. She kind of looked away. “Um Ace, Ima be honest with you. Jade is not going to just up and go with you. She’s 38 weeks pregnant. She’s been doing this by herself. You can’t up and decide now that you got the help you need that shit is all sweet well its not. You left when she needed you the most, she has no family relatives. That was fucked up, Im happy you got help so now you can be a father to your daughter, and maybe later Jade will forgive if she even lets you see your child” She straight up said. I looked at her. “A daughter?” i asked still tooken back by that reveal. I assumed I was going to have a son for the longest. Naomi nodded. “Ima work hard to get my family man. I just was dealing with alot of demons” I said. She nodded. “I get it Ace, this aint no easy way of living. I had to develop tough skin to even kill a man to protect my family but we do what we got to do to survive” She told me. “Daddy uncle Acey is right there!” The twins yelled in my brothers arms. He put the boys down. “Follow me in our basement” He simply said. I followed him down. “You can sit on the couch” He told me. He sat across from me looking down and then up at me. “You look good man, you look clean and healthy” He said. I smiled. “I got some help, got my shit together” I said. He smiled. “We missed you, I aint gon lie, niggas been ruthless without my number 1. Assasain, the gang been running cray, you know Jade just had her baby shower for her daughter, yall having a little girl” I nodded. “Yeah Mimi told me, Im scared as hell to have a little girl” I said honestly. He shrugged. “The toughest most ruthless ones always have the little girls, it softens them up” He said. “She been going through alot, just been crying most days. She misses you but wont admit cause you said some file shit to her. You got alot of work to do bro” He said. Naomi rushed down the steps. “Um Jade called, her water broke” She said. Omari nodded. I stood frozen. “Show time, lets see if you really about to change” He said. I followed him up. “We will meet yall later, just go to her Ace. Ima send you the address” I rushed out the house and to the hospital.

I rushed into the lobby. “Jade Thomas? Her water um it broke or something” I said breathing heavy. “Are you family? Or the father?” She asked. I nodded. “Yeah shes having my baby” I said proudly. She nodded. “Maternity ward, B25” She said. I quickly went to the elevator. When I got off I looked around for her room. I seen B25. I just busted in. I seen Jade looking very pregnant, and her best friend Mia. “Ace? Ace why are you here! You can go” She said fighting back tears. I shook my head. “Im here J, I um Mia can we talk please” I asked. She rolled her eyes. “Your 39 weeks too late Ace” She snapped. I pulled out a band. “Mia please give me like 10minutes damn!” I yelled. She looked at Jade who looked annoyed wiping her face. She just walked out. “J, baby. I was a fucking dumb ass for abandoning you. I know you needed me and I foolishly needed you. I left to get help. I went to Rehab and shit. Ima new nigga J” I stressed. She nodded. “I just need you to be here for our baby right now Ace. I can’t do us right now. I can’t allow myself to let someone else I love leave me again. That really fucked me up” She cried. I was a hard nigga with her being my soft spot so for me to cry with her, I really felt her pain. “I um, Ima do what I got to do to prove myself” I chocked trying to act cool. A nurse walked in. J was making a face. “Time for baby, your cervix is ready, Daddy put on your gear” She handed me my scrubs and went to put them on.

12 hours later:

“Hey Nova” Jade said smiling at our daughter. Nova Leigh Jones was born 6lbs and 12oz at 4:43 am December 4th 2017. I used to be crazy as fuck, hard as hell not caring ass nigga. Jade had my heart no lie but my daughter, my daughter got my whole world.

[onpurposebreezy]

CHAPTER 33

LORI

 Did he want to break up with me? I thought suddenly. The thought felt like bomb went off in my body and there was hole where my heart once was. I looked up at Cody, meeting his sad eyes as he seemed to look right into my mind.

"Do you want to break up with me?" I asked, voice cracking with every word.

"No...no, Lori. I don't want to. I just want the best for you. I want you to be sure that this is what you want and that you are not settling for me because I'm the first guy to really give you any romantic attention. After seeing you with Miles last night, it really made me wonder if I am holding you back from something or someone who could be better for you. Kim told me all about Miles, yesterday. She was hoping you would give him a shot because according to her, you're the only one he has connected with and opened to. She said he was working up a nerve to ask you out. At the time, I felt bad for this kid, knowing you were with me and he would never get the chance to have you the way I have. Then I came home and saw what I saw. It was then that I realized, you deserve someone your age. You should be with someone who can show you off, brag about how beautiful and amazing you are, that can take you out in public without worrying who you might run into. You could be with someone who Kim can know about and go on double dates and have fun. You shouldn't have to suffer through secrets and lies just to be with me. You do not deserve to be hidden away like a bad secret from Kim. Maybe you should take some time, think about what I'm saying, and think about if this is truly what you want."

I was crying at this point. I wanted him to shut up and hold me, tell me he wants me and that no one else can have me. I hated this -- hated the fact that this was happening, and he wanted me to date other people instead of him. All just so I wouldn't have to hide and sneak around. But Cody was all I knew and wanted. I had never had any interest in a boy or man like I did him.

"I only want you," I said as tears streamed down my face, "I don't want to give anyone else a chance or whatever else you said. So what if we have to hide and sneak around. I know it's not ideal and that sometimes it sucks but it's worth it if it means I get to be with you. You're the one I look forward to seeing, hearing, touching every day. I have never felt this way towards another person. But you know what -- whatever. If you want to break up with me, just say so. Don't give me this shit," I stood up and made my way to the door, done with this conversation and needing to get away.

"Lori, that's not what I want, that's not what I'm trying to say..." he called after me as I walked out the door, wiping the tears from my eyes as I headed to my room, ignoring his attempt to quietly call out for me.

2 MONTHS LATER

 I am now 6 months pregnant and I am carrying my baby well not hiding it like I used to I found last month what I was having which is a girl Kim is excited she has already started buying baby clothes I even heard that Cody is happy it’s a girl. Me and my mom was back on good terms but not my dad he still didn’t wanna talk to me so my mom had to sneak a little to talk to me.

Me and Cody haven’t spoken to each other over a month when he tried to speak to me but I shot him down and he haven’t said 2 words to me and to be honest I wish he would try again I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss him cause I do. But with Cody when I ran into him in the hall he looked different.

I hadn't noticed it that he looked like he hadn't slept in days and so depressed. I hoped it had nothing to do with our break-up. I realized then I hadn't really seen him closely since we broke up, he apparently been at work according to Kim. I never questioned it, but now I wondered if he really went to work or if he went away to keep distance between us.

Me and Miles started dating and right now we were almost halfway through the movie when we ran out of popcorn and Miles left to get more. I was zoned in on the movie when he returned and placed the popcorn between us again. I grabbed a handful and readjusted in my seat before I realized his arm was now around me. I turned my head to look at him, he was paying attention to the movie. I slowly sat back against his arm and leaned toward him to get comfortable. I guess this wasn't so bad, but it felt weird...but not like, a bad weird, just a different weird. This was going to take some getting used to. I turned back to the movie, wondering if I would ever get used to being with someone other than Cody.

The movie ended, and I sat in the theater with Miles, waiting for everyone to leave before us. Miles asked me what I thought of the movie and I told him how much I enjoyed it. He grinned, pleased with himself. He gave me a half hug as his arm was still around me. Finally, after waiting a few moments we stood and stumbled over popcorn containers and drink spills to leave.

"I had a good time tonight," I told Miles when we reached my Jeep. I leaned back against the driver side door.

"Yeah?" he asked, "I wasn't sure if it was too cheesy for a first date, typical dinner and a movie theme."

"Okay, the theme is a bit cheesy, but it works. I really enjoyed the food and the movie was awesome,"

"Great. I'm glad. So..." he trailed off.

"So?" I asked.

Miles leaned in toward me and placed his hands on my hips. I looked up at him, wondering if this was going where I thought it was going. We hadn't kissed since the night in the pool. I didn't think he would build up the nerve to do it again. I reached up to place my arms around his neck and gently pulled his head down to mine.

"So?" I whispered, wanting him to make the next move.

He took the hint and met my lips with his. He tasted like buttery popcorn was the first thought that went through my head. I wanted to laugh but managed to keep it to myself. His lips were soft, and his kisses were sweet and kind.

I waited and waited. We continued to kiss for a few more minutes before breaking apart. I looked up at Miles and his face showed he was happy with our kissing.

"I should probably head home," I gestured to the Jeep behind me.

"Oh, yeah. It is getting late. I'll see you tomorrow night," he kissed me once more before we parted ways.

I pulled up to the house the same time Kim did she was looking around just like I was there was at least 4 other cars in the driveway.

“Who’s here?”

“Cody’s friends most likely a very rowdy bunch, I’m not staying I need to drop my books off and change and get the hell out of there are you staying?”

“I'll just be in my room” we went walking in and the smell of hot wings and weed. Once we walked into the livingroom it was 4 guys 3 girls and Cody they was playing video games football video games and talking and laughing.

“KIDS ON THE HALL” a guy yelled and everyone looked at me and Kim.

“I’m not a kid dick neither is preggos over here and there’s no smoking in the house”

“Says who this is my house I make the rules run up stairs with yall”

“Don’t be rude hey Kim” a lady said walking to us hugging Kim.

“Hey Sarah, Sarah this is Lori, Lori this is Sarah”

“Hi”

“Hello, so your Lori nice to meet you” Sarah said and smacked Cody upside the head.

“Quit it bitch”

“You’re the bitch bitch I hate him if yall are hungry feel free to eat”

“No I ate already”

“Im going to change so I can go” Kim walked away leaving me standing there with Sarah who smiled at me like she knew me or something.

“Do we know each other?”

“Oh no I know about you Cody told me about yall you broke his little heart who knew he had one right”

“I did what?”

“Sarah leave that damn girl alone and come sit back down with me” I left the livingroom and went upstairs and stopped by Kim’s room and leaned on the door.

“What’s wrong huh? You haven’t been yourself in a while tell me”

"I don't know," I shook my head,rubbing my belly, "I think...,"

I stopped, what was I supposed to say? I couldn't tell her anything about Cody. I couldn't tell her that I was heartbroken. I needed time to come to terms with everything and figure out how to see and live with him every day without wishing we could turn back time. I hated how I felt, I wanted to simply disappear for a while. I wanted to go home. I wanted to talk to my mom and have her take the pain away, to make things better.

"I think I am homesick," I told her, it was slightly true. I did miss my mom. I would give anything to have her here and helping me. I couldn't tell her about Cody either, but I could pretend my issue is with another guy without her pushing me towards him like Kim would.

"Aww," Kim wrapped her arms around me, embracing me hard, "I'm sorry, Lori. I never thought you would be homesick. It never occurred to me. I have my brother, and he is here for you too, but he isn't your mom. Maybe you should call her," she suggested.

Maybe I should, I thought. I smiled at Kim and thanked her for the talk. She was a good best friend. I left her in her room, returning to my room to call my mom. I got a bit of a talking to when I told her the baby was a girl and why I didn’t tell her sooner but overall the conversation was good. I told her a bit about Miles, school, and how much I missed her. She told me she wished she could visit me, but money was tight. I understood but still wished the same thing.

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Orphaned (Chandler Riggs x reader)

TRIGGER WARNING MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING!!!!

Word count:3654

Requested by anon

(I originally had this on AO3 but I edited it)

Summary:You lose your parents and little brother in a car crash and become very depressed and anorexic one day the pain and stress is too much so you attempt suicide.

Let’s begin where this started All of this shit It was December 14th, 2014 Was the day that car crashed, killing both of my parents and My little brother, I was moved in with my brother I remember everything So does Chandler my boyfriend, yes I’m dating Carl from the walking dead anyways Here is the night it happened.

I was in the car heading home from Dance class it was freezing outside and it was dark Considering it was 8:30 We were going down a road to our house I was Scrolling through my Instagram checking my likes on a video I posted of me practicing my solo I saw one comment from my boyfriend Saying “This solo is almost as beautiful as you. I love you!” I smiled when all of a sudden I heard screams “Mommy!"My brother screamed then All i felt was pain and All I saw was blackness I hear glass shatter and i felt something hit me The ground I felt pain everywhere and I felt warm liquid all over me blood I felt it on my lips and I tasted it It felt like the world stopped all I saw was darkness All I heard was Sirens and Muffled talking Then My mind went back to my dance class today I Had ballet and then Pointe and then solo work I though back to pointe They where playing the song Ocean eyes By billie Ellish and I though about chandler the entire time Those beautiful blue eyes I hear people yelling to make sure I was alive I felt someone touch my neck "She’s alive!"I hear a muffled voice yell People pick me up and put me on something "Sweetheart can you hear me"Someone asks "Y-Y-Y-e-e-e-s-s"I say Quietly "Ok sweetheart I need you to think of someone One of your friends or family members and say there name"She says "James"I say quietly "Ok And what is your last name and Your relationship to james"She says I felt something enter my arm something cold "L/N and Brother"I say quietly "Ok anyone else you would know"She asks "My boyfriend"I say quietly "Ok and what is his name"She asks "Chandler Riggs"I say quietly "Ok sweetheart is the iPhone 6 with the purple and black case on it yours?"She asks "Yes"I say quietly I felt her grab my hand gently and open it with my fingerprint "Call his mom Its late"Another doctor says "Ok sweetheart we are going to put you to sleep now Ok"Another doctor says "Ok"I say I felt something cold go into my bloodstream so cold it burned I felt light headed and I pass out

(Chandler’s pov)

"Chandler!"My mom calls out I get up from my bed and I walk down the stairs she is at the table Tears in her eyes "Go get dressed"She says "Why?"I ask "Y/N’s Family got into a car crash and Y/N is the only one left alive"My mom says Chocking on a sob I stand there in shock "Is she ok?"I ask frantic "They said she has a few broken bones and a broken rib"She says "Ok is she in the hospital?"I ask She nods I run upstairs and go get dressed I change into some jeans and a throw on a jacket and some shoes I grab my phone and I run down the stairs "We may be gone all night So get Grayson to school!"My mom says "Chandler grab my keys"My mom says I grab her keys "Tell Y/N I said get well soon"Grayson says "I will!"I say running out the door and to the car

(Your’s POV)

I open my eyes to see bright lights and medical equipment all around me And When I look to my side I see Chandler I smile still a little tired He smiles back his eyes puffy from crying "How ya feeling?"He asks moving some hair away from my face "Everything hurts and tired"I say "What time is it?"I ask "2:00AM"He says  "Why are you here You need sleep"I say Yawning "Are my parents ok?"I ask He gives me a synthetic look And looks at his mom He cups my cheek with his hand "Baby Im so so so sorry But they didn’t make it"He says It felt my heart shatters He kisses my head I let my tears fall "I’m sorry baby girl"He says "Wheres Jackson?"I ask "He didn’t make it either"He says quietly "No"I whisper I felt like i was dead The only person I have left is someone I hate and despise God I hated my brother he was always out with friends or with girls but I guess it was my only option 

(Present time)

A lot has changed I died my hair black and I pierced my nose and I got a cartilage piercing and I stopped dancing Something I have been doing since I was 2 I stopped Because of one fucking night!  and I started Cutting Every time I cut it felt like that night of the crash and I would just want to cut more It was my stress reliever anyways I Put on my jacket I was wearing Black torn at the knee jeans a black shirt and a dark green jacket with Black combat boots and Eyeliner with some mascara and  I grab my backpack and I rush down the stairs It felt like my stomach was eating itself I was so hungry I haven’t eaten a full meal in around 3 days I did grab a banana and I cut around 2 inches off it And I eat it I throw the rest of it away I hear My phone go off Chandler’s Calling me I answer it and I Put it on speaker "Hey baby Im pulling up into your neighborhood You ready?"He asks "Yeah I am"I say "Ok bye"He says I hang up the home and  I walk outside And I see Chandler pull up in his car I hop in the car "Morning baby"He says He kisses my head "Morning"I say He brushes his thumb against my lip "Still there?"I ask I now have a scar on my lip and by my eyebrow "Yeah Just a little"e says He kisses my lips "I love you"He says "I love you too"I say He begins to drive Holding my hand while he does Brushing his thumb on my hand He turns on the radio and Tag your it By Melanie Martinez is playing "Running through the parking lot He chased me and he wouldn’t stop "I sing quietly Chandler chuckles "You’re so cute"Chandler says I smile "Hey uh what do you want for your birthday"He asks My birthday was in 3 weeks I shrug "Maybe Just some gift cards"I say "You still going to get your belly button pierced?"He asks Chandler doesn’t knows I cut And I don’t want him finding out or Im not telling him "Probably not"I say "Why?"He asks I push on his belly button and He laughs and twitches "See it tickles"I say "Yeah your right"He says We pull up to the school and He parks the car and turns off the engine I hop and We walk to the front door hand in hand We walk to our lockers which are next to each other I grab my Textbooks and we walk to class We sit in our desks and the bell rings

(35 Minutes into Class)

Memories of the car crash Take over my mind I raise my hand "Yes Y/n?"My teacher says "May I be excused?"I ask She gives me a sympathetic look "Of course"She says I stand up and I walk out of the class and into the bathroom Luckily my eyeliner is waterproof I begin to cry I sit on the toilet and I push my jeans down exposing my thighs with atleast 12 cuts on each some are fresh and some are fading I pull a razor blade out of My pocket and I place it on my thigh I And I begin to cut I make 4 more cuts the blood drips down my thigh I remember the day I looked in the mirror after the crash I had a huge gash on my forehead and a cut on my lip by my eye and I had a huge gash on my stomach along with a few broken ribs I wipe my tears and I pull my jeans up putting the blade back in my pocket I walk back to class wiping my tears while walking back To class

I walk back in and I sit down

(After school)

F6irst, lets quickly talk about lunch Chandler and I walked outside to the picnic tables We sit with chandler’s Friends We sit down and chandler pulls out his lunch "Wheres your lunch"He asks "I Forgot it”I say “Here you want half of my sandwich"He asks ”Im not hungry I ate a big breakfast"I say I was starving but the thought of eating almost made me vomit

Anyways chandler drove me home “You wanna come in?"I ask "Sure"He says We both walk inside "James!"I yell "Not home as usual"I mumble we walk up to my room and we both lie on my bed I take off my boots Chandler makes off his shoes I lay my head on his chest "Im tired"I say I hear my phone go off Chandler hands it to me James is calling I roll my eyes  and I answer It "Hey Y/n Im not gonna be home tonight I have work till 10:30 and then Im staying over at Miley’s House"He says "Ok"I say "Alright bye"He says I hang up the phone "You wanna stay at my house?"He asks "Please"I say He smiles "Ok on the way we can get Smoothie king"He says I did want a smoothie But I knew I would probably throw it up "ok"I say I stand up and I grab a small overnight bag from my closet "You wanna help me pick my outfit for tomorrow?"I ask "Hell ya"Chandler says I smile I show him a shirts "That one"He says I put it in my bag and I put another pair of Black jeans I put some clothes for tonight in there and I put my makeup bag in there and a couple of toiletries "Ready?"He asks I nod I grab my bag and We walk downstairs I grab my house keys and We walk out of the house I lock it back I hop in the car and chandler drives to his house but first we stop at smoothie king I get a berry blast and he gets a mango smoothie We pull up to his house We walk inside "Mom Im home!"He says We walk to the stairs which are in the kitchen "Hey mom can Y/n stay the night her brother has to work"Chandler asks "Of course!"Mrs riggs says

We both walk up the stairs I place my bag down and Chandler wraps his arms around my waist and kisses me I wrap my arms around his neck He begins to slowly pull up my shirt I slap his hand away I pull away And I lay my head on his shoulder "Sorry I just Im not really ready"I say "Its ok Its ok"He says he kisses my head "Hey its ok if your not ready"He says "Come here why don’t you go get changed into something comfy and I will turn on youtube"He says "Ok"I say I grab my clothes from my bag and I walk into his bathroom I brought some pajama pants and a sweatshirt I change into that And I walk back into his room He is lying on his bed and I climb in next to him "You know what I should get you for your birthday"He says "What"I say "That cartilage earring you wanted at the mall"He says "The arrow one"I say he nods I smile "Perfect"I say I cuddle as close as I can with him and we watch  youtube on his T.V We were watching shane damsons Newest video "In 1 week it will be the day Jackson and My parents died"I say I burry my head in the crook of chandler’s Neck "Its ok"He says gently he kisses my head "Did you take your anti depressants?"Chandler asks He knows I have been diagnosed with depression be he doesn’t know I cut or starve myself "No I forgot"I say "What am I gonna do with you"He chuckles I peck him on the lips and I lay back down I end up closing my eyes and falling asleep

(1 week later)(I know lots of time skips)

"It’s Been Two years get the fuck over it!!!"My brother screams at me "That was our parents!!! Our 4 Year old brother!!"I scream "So fucking what maybe they should of learned how to drive!"He screams "That car came out of no where!!"I scream "Well, maybe they should of been going faster"Miley his girlfriend says "Yeah, and this isn’t something you should be Slitting your fucking wrist for!"James says I take a step back "Fuck you both!"I scream I run up the stairs and I lock my door "Get the fuck Over it Emo girl! They’re gone get over it and whore around with your boyfriend!"James yells I choke on a sob I had to now I had to I walk into my bathroom Grabbing my blades And My painkillers After the crash, they gave me painkillers I never took them because I was saving them, I sit on the floor and I wanted people to know I wanted them to know I wanted Chandler to know and James, I take a picture of the bottle and the blades and I post it on Instagram with the caption

"The last 2 years have been hell for me, I lost my parents and My little brother Truth is I started Cutting and starving myself Today is the anniversary of my parents and brother’s Death and I can’t fucking do it anymore, I can’t Antidepressants or Happy movies don’t do it @Chandlerriggs5 makes me happy But I can’t keep pretending to be ok I’m not ok I will never be ok 1 night changed my life 1 night! And I want everyone to know I’m doing this because My brother is a asshole I’m a social outcast and I hate pretending So this Is Y/N Y/M/N Y/L/N saying Fuck you universe I’m leaving this shit”

I post it and take off my bracelets I grab my blade and I just cut I don’t even care where on my wrist I just cut All I saw was blood on my wrist I grab the pill bottle when I heard my phone go off chandler I ignored it and I took a handful of pills and I shove them into my mouth swallowing them I felt lightheaded and I fell unconscious

(Chandler’s POV)

“Answer the phone Y/n!"I say Holding my phone to my ear It goes to voicemail "Shit"I say My mom pulls into the driveway I get out of the car and run inside "James!"I yell He walks into the foyer "Chandler what’s wrong"He asks "Wheres Y/N?!"I say "Upstairs"He says I run up the stairs followed by James I run into Y/N’s Room I kicked open her door and I ran into the bathroom I saw her lying on the ground bottle of pills in her hand I rushed to her side "Call 911!!"I yell I feel her heartbeat And I take off my flannel and I tie it around her wrist I sit her up "Come on baby girl Please stay with me Please"I beg I shoved 3 fingers down her throat causing her to gag and throw up She coughs and coughs "Come on baby Breathe Breathe"I say Before I knew it the ambulance was here they rushed her to the hospital My mom and I followed in the car

When we got there They took her in for surgery And then we got the news That made me almost kill James

"All she had in her system was pills nothing else. And I have never seen that many cuts on anyone. Do you know why she would do this?"The doctor says Im sitting there in shock "She lost her parents 2 years ago along with her little brother"My mom says "Alright well She should be waking up soon So follow me"The doctor says We stand up and follow him Into a room and I saw her she lied there Her skin pale as always Her piercings are out "We had to take out her piercings for a x ray"He says I nod He hands them to me I sit in the chair next to the bed and I place them on the nightstand And I hold her hand Running my fingers through her hair "Its good she is alright"My mom says "Yeah"I say Her wrists wrapped in a bandage "I never knew She always said she was fine She always told me she took her antidepressants and that she ate"I say "Maybe she was scared to tell you"My mom says "Maybe"I say barley above a whisper The door opens and James and Miley step in "She alright?"He asks I nod "They said she had nothing in her system except for the pills"My mom says "I just got off the phone with my aunt y/n is gonna move in with her"James says "But she lives In California"I say Looking up at James "Its better than her being here"He says "But that's halfway across the country!"I say "Well Chandler What else do you expect me to do"James says "Actually take care of her Every single time she comes home your gone every night your gone!"I yell "James I thinks its best she stays here her friends are here Chandler’s Here if we make her move it will make it worse"Miley says "Well Im not quitting my job just because my sister is a depressed brat"James says I clench my fist fighting punching him in the face "She can live with us"My mom says I unclench my fist "Yeah she can I will take care of her I will make sure she eats and that she is happy"I say James Bites the inside of his lip looking angry "Fine"He says Rubbing his head I hear a quiet cough and I turn around to see Y/N opening her eyes I sit back down in the chair and I grab her hand Running my fingers through her hair

She coughs again "Chandler"She says quietly "I’m here baby girl I’m here."I say "Am I dead?"She says quietly "No Baby girl your gonna be ok, I promise"He says "What happened"She asks, "They pumped your stomach baby girl, why didn’t you tell me?"I ask "Because I was afraid"She says Weakly She looks at James "I hate you"She says "You did this to yourself"He says "You made me do this to myself"She says I glare at him "What did you do to her"I demand "I told her the truth! They’re dead, she should just deal with it!"James says "You’re not the one who was in the crash"She says strictly

3:00AM

It was 3:00Am everything they gave Y/N to eat, she Threw it up She was asleep And she was so cute, I pulled out my phone and I took a picture of her for instagram with the caption

"She is Ok. She is gonna be ok, she is moving in with me and Right now they are trying to keep her food down And if you where wondering, I didn’t know she cut I didn’t know she had anorexia I never knew I knew she was depressed, but If you can go give Y/N some love that would be great @ThatBitch5” I posted it and I grab take her phone I open it and I open her instagram I take a picture of her and I put the caption “She is ok” And I post it I kiss her head and I lay my head On the bed I close my eyes and fall asleep  

1 Week later

Y/N’s POV 

Chandler picked me up, bridal style He closed the car door this his foot and Carried me inside as His dad carried my suitcase inside I hid my head in his neck, avoiding everyone around me, I wanted to be dead I still do I don’t want to be here Chandler carried me upstairs into his room and placed me on his bed he kneels down in front of me “You know I love you, right?”He asks I shrug “I do Y/N I do And I stopped you because I can’t live without you”He says “Theirs over 7 billion people on this planet you can find someone else”I say He opens his mouth barley like he was going to say something But he just kisses my head then sits next to me “You are perfect and beautiful in every way and your pass does make it any different I want you and only you..I love you so much Y/N”He says I try to stay mad at his but I can’t “I love you too”I say he rests his forehead on mine and slowly he says “You are the best thing to ever happen to me Y/N without you I don’t think I would be who I am today”He says He runs his fingertips over my bandaged arm “These are beautiful they happened should they have happened no but they did and you are gonna recover from it I believe in you”He says I smile Biting my lip to hide back tears I throws my arms around his neck and hugs his he hugs back then picks me up and again pulls the comforter back and sits down against the bed frame cuddling me in his arms he strokes my hair and hums quietly My eye lids fall heavy and a fall into a peaceful sleep

[hotcocosharing]

Glory Days Part 16 (IM RP AU- Shun & Midi)

Part 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / 9 / 10 / 11 / 12 / 13 / 14 / 15

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Toshiaki’s POV

“BOYFRIEND?” The term startles me yet I’m smart enough to know that it’s come out in a panic rather than a legitimate truth. Eriko’s father? Here now? The salt and pepper coloured hair older man shoots me an unimpressed, downcast look as I’m not sure what to do or where to go from the tight situation I’ve been thrown into. “Mr Sato?”, I ask offering hand out to greet him with a firm shake. There’s hesitation in his return of the gesture, yet once it’s done, I futher introduce myself hoping that the short yet elaborate lie I continue to play along with is believable. “The name is Toshiaki. It’s nice to finally meet you sir - Eriko told me so much about you.” Just as I can tell that something is about to start to escalate - animosity sky rocketing between the father and daughter duo, I clap my hands, rubbing them together and nod to give myself the confidence boost I need. “Perhaps, the three of us could head upstairs - it would be more comfortable and we could talk; civilly. Like adults.” Midori’s POV “I’m the reason you’re smoking? Oh c'mon - give me a break.” It’s the first thing that I’m about to spit out as my eyes roll at Shun’s behaviour. He’s acting like an unnecessary over protective boyfriend and if I wanted someone like that around me - I’d have not broken it off with Ryoichi. “I.. I went to my mom’s store and then to my place - but Eri was there with some guys and I snapped and lost my cool and walked out hoping to blow off some steam but then I went back and no one was there and now I’m here; because I thought you could help. Why are you going to start keeping tabs on me?” Snatching the cigarette box from Shun’s fingertips, I hold them and the lighter I managed to aquire behind my back, taking a step away with every one Shun takes forward toward me. “..and yes”, I roll my eyes back hard not wanting to explain a question I’m constantly trying to avoid, “that was Ryoichi Hirose. I honestly have no idea what he’s doing here and fine - to get the story straight with this stupid argument we’re having Ryo and I dated - for like 6 months, 2 years ago. I’m sure you have ex-girlfriends and I don’t see myself getting irate over that fact.” Shun attempts to remind me again of apparently how drunk I was last night but with how everyone’s been talking to me today - treating me - acting as if I’m a 4 year old that has no grasp or concept of her life I feel like screaming. “YES, OK! I’M AWARE THAT I WAS OUT OF LINE LAST NIGHT BUT I DON’T NEED SOMEONE WHO ISN’T EVEN MY BOYFRIEND REMINDING ME!”, I manage to take a short breath - just enough to let my voice catch up to how I’m feeling before I ramble off again, “…why, you would have rather of been the one to come collect us from the store instead of Toshiaki? So you could what - make a move and if I was to reject you have a shot at Eri. Please.. Shunichiro stop acting like an over protective stubborn child - I came here for your help, not to argue.” Watching as he crosses his arms over his chest and refuses to speak, I drop the cigarettes I’m holding on a bench close to me and allow myself to leave - I’m not hanging around for an argument or for someone who wants to treat me as if I’m a kid. The walk home isn’t any better. Wolf-whistled at, cat called, snickered towards; I’m just happy to see my dorm’s front door and enter without a care - startled to see the guests who are seated. “Mr Sato? I um.. I didn’t know you were coming to see Eri”, I explain with a small smile; a litttle caught off guard by the fact a parent is present on campus. Having seen my own today - I wasn’t expecting to see anyone elses. “…and Toshiaki; what a surprise. You’re the third guy that’s been here today for Eri - she get sick of the other two that were here making breakfast for her in the morning already?” Grabbing underwear, a dress and the shoes that I’ll need. I throw my phone on charge beside my head and head for the shower. Maybe beneath the water, no one would hear me if I started to scream.

Eriko’s POV It scares me to death- Not the events from the last 48 hours or going on dates with stranger or being yelled by my best friend twice in a day. No, there is only one man I cannot face who is now standing in my room with Toshiaki by my side after Midori drops the bomb of news that clearly forces my father to politely ask my boyfriend to leave and give us some space for family matters. My confidence or social experience could never be enough to prepare me for the man who barks at me five seconds after the door’s shut. I’m told that Midori’s parents’re so disappointed at our inappropriate and childish behavior at such age. There is simply no color left to be drained from my face as I freeze with my head down like a little girl in trouble, listening to my father’s lecturing and sending me an ultimatum in person. Expecting my heart to pound fiercely or tears flushing out like it’s the end of the world, I only find myself numb and exhausted, maybe a calm before the storm as one would say. The vibration of my phone has pulled me out of my thoughts and see a text from Toshiaki: “I’m just outside the door if you want an ear or … a shoulder.” Dragging my feet to the door and resting my forehead on it, “Hey, ummm….thank you but I … really am not in the mood…. I’ll just sleep it off.”

I could hear his breathing through the thin door, placing a hand on the wood in hope to touch the man who’s only centimeters away. I am in no condition to face anyone else, not with my pride or dignity down the drain and Toshiaki Kijima is the last person I want to see right now. Defeated, useless, failure, wasted and slutty- the man has seen enough. When his heavy footsteps fade away, I crash onto my bed plug in my earphones and pull the sheets over my head, not caring for the world till the next sunrise.

Waking up to the warm morning sun that shines brightly through the blinds, I poke my head out and giving my eyes few more seconds to get used to the light. Midori isn’t here and perhaps it’s easier this way. I think we have been in each others lives long enough to know her half unintentional venting and exploding with my father’s presence won’t put our friendship to an end but a pause doesn’t sound too bad for now.

“Kagari?“ ”I’m hurt if you’re on first name basis with Riki.“ As curious as I’m, the clock is ticking. “Sorry,” I begin, trying to find better words to phrase what I’m about to say. “I… something else came up and I need to do last minute shopping which honestly isn’t going to a fun date for you.”   What I’ve said brings a sly grin to his face, “Try me.”   Eight hours later, we are unpacking boxes and suitcases of my belongings in an apartment studio in the Tokyo University Komaba campus. Thanks to the informative and efficient Shinichi, I for once have reached my father's order way before the deadline. Promising him I’ll thank and make it up to him another time, we’re satisfied with pizza and beer for the night. “You surprise me.” The man in glasses pulls out a cigarette from a packet and light it, slowly inhaling. “I thought you’d book to a hotel room or high end service apartment.” Not at all offended, I slightly smirk. “Even a trust fund kid got rules to obey. I do monthly reconciliation report to my father’s secretary and there’s limit on how much I’d spent until certain goals are met.“ Shinichi raises his brows, the flat fills with the aroma of his mint tobacco, pizza and beer yet making me feel like home or at least how I imagine home feels like. "I do freelance work too just no one ever bother asking.” I shrug then comes Shinichi next question that I haven’t heard since Truth Or Dare in junior high- What my type is. He isn’t exactly thrilled to hear Rikiya fitting my first favorite but a cheeky smirk spreading across his handsome face as he happily acknowledges himself as my second favorite, he slips his glasses up the bridge of his nose beofre his slender fingers wiping at the corners of my lips. One question leads to another, what’s it like to be a fashion stylist? My hobbies? My favorite food, songs, movies. Something changes in me, an undetermined but fitting feeling which I couldn’t quite put my finger on. After all the moving around and endless beer in his system, Shinichi falls asleep on the floor while I lay quietly next to him and strokes the redden cheek of the Mathematics major. My mind drifting miles away then the uneasiness of living alone finally creep under my skin, wondering what Midi is doing and whether she has read the hurried note I’ve left along with business card of the store manager I’ve known since a kid in such a rush without explaining why I’ve moved out. “You are more than welcome to work at our stores than serving women who walk around half naked all day. Love, E.”

Officially living on the other side of town, I’ve taken the advice every mature adult and create a visible distance with Midori.

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Kellic

Ugh. Today's going to be the first day at my new school. School's stupid. I literally moved from Michigan all the way to San Diego Ca , after my dads death. He died in a tragic car accident 5 months ago. My mom thought I'll be good to get away from all the memories we had with him there and start new. Plus I lived in a small town, where everyone knew eachother, so everywhere I went people always said "Sorry for you loss" or give me looks of sympathy. I didn't want that anymore nor did my mom so we moved here last week and I start school today. I'm a junior in high school and I'm 16, my birthday is in 2 months and 14 days. So dats good. I decide I should get out of bed now, since my alarms going to start playing Nirvana any second now. And there it goes. "Won't you believe it, it's just my luck. Won't you believe it, it's just my luck. Won't you believe it, it's just my lu-" "yeah yeah I get it Kurt" I said as I turned around to turn my alarm off. I sat up on my bed and took my blue covers off. "Time to get ready for hell" I mumble. I walked to my closet which was on the right side of my poster covered room. I decided to just wear some black skinny jeans and a black v neck because why not. Gotta make a good first impression, right? I set my clothes on my bed and walked over the my bathroom which was connected to my room, thank god, and decided I should shower. --skipping shower-- I stepped out the shower and got a towel off the rack and put it around my waist. I plugged my phone on the charger and put my music on shuffle,and bear tooth started to play. Bear tooth is the shit. I then plugged my blow dryer in and put it on the high setting since I only had 20 minutes left and I had to hurry. I blow dried my hair which took me about 5 minutes and ran a brush through my raven black wavy hair. I unplugged my blow dryer and put it away along with my brush. I walked out the bathroom with the towel still wrapped around my waist and went over to my closet again to get a pair of black boxers. I found some and slipped them on. I unwrapped the towel off my waist since I now had my boxers on and walked back to my bed. I gathered my clothes and walked back to the bathroom to put them on. I decided I should accessorize because why not? I got one of my necklaces and a black hat. I unplugged my phone off its charger, got my black jansport backpack, slipped my black toms on and walked down stairs. "Hi mom" I greeted her as I sat down on the table. "Hi honey, hurry up and eat I have to drive you to school in 5 minutes or you'll be late" she said as she walked upstairs probably to change. I walked over to the kitchen and got a plate from the cupboard. I walked over to the stove and saw that she made French toast and eggs. I got a piece of French toast and ate that while I waited for my mom. She came down stairs right when I finished my toast. "Kellin go put some color on I don't want you wearing all black and you know that" she said I groaned and dragged myself back up stairs. I walked to my closet and got out a brown cardigan. I put it on and dragged myself back downstairs.  "Okay I'm done" I said "Good now come on we have to leave your already late" she said and walked out the front door to the car. I heard her start it up so I ran to the kitchen to get my spare keys, phone, and backpack. --skipping car ride-- "Bye sweetie have a good day! Call me if something bad happens" she said as I closed the door. "Bye mom" I called back as she drove away. I'm 10 minutes late on the first day of school great. As I was walking I saw a group of 4 guys each smoking a joint. Now I know the schools druggies. "Hey kid" I heard one of them call. I turned around and saw a tall one with saggy brown hair, brown eyes and a lot of tattoos. To be completely honest he's intimidating. "You new here" another one asked with piercing blue eyes, black hair (much like mines), and lots of tattoos. "Y-Yeah" I said tying my best not to stutter but failed miserably. "Cool! I'm Austin" he said pointing to himself "That's Andy" he said pointing to the one with the really blue eyes "That's Josh" he said pointing to another tall one with brown hair "And that is Ronnie" he said pointing to another tall one with a bunch of tattoos and bleached blonde hair. "What's your name Kid" Austin asked me, they all gave off an intimidating vibe they are actually nice. I think. "I'm Kellin" I said without stuttering this time. "Cool dude, what grade, how old, and why'd you move here?" Ronnie asked "I'm 16 almost 17, a junior and I moved here because my dad died." I said calmly. "Aw sorry dude, do you want me to walk you to the main office?" Austin asked again, I'm starting to think he's the most social out of all of  them, or maybe the other ones just don't want to talk to me. "That'll be great, thanks" I replied as we started walking to the front of the school's blue double doors. Austin opened the door and said "After you" with a bow. I chuckled and replied with a quite thanks. "Well today is the schools most popular guys birthday, did that make sense? Anyways he's a senior you'll know who he is when you see him." He said in a monotone as we turned to the right. I'm thinking he probably doesn't like him. "Well here's the office Brendon is working today, so just tell him your name and last name, and grade and he'll give you your schedule and a map of the school. Then he'll ask you if you want someone to walk you to your classes, say yes and tell him you want Austin Carlile to take you." He said "Okay got it." I said as I was stepping in the main office. And immediately a guy with a big forehead came up to me. He gave off a friendly vibe, he's also probably that Brendon kid Austin was talking about. "Hi! I'm Brendon how may I assist you!?" He said awfully cheerful. "Hi I'm new here and I need my schedule." I said in a monotone because honestly Im tired and just want to be in bed right now. "Oh your the new kid! I have your schedule right here. Do you want me to call someone to show you around?" He asked still cheerful "Yeah Austin Carlile please" I said then not even a second later I hear him on the intercoms telling Austin to come to the main office. Then like 2 minutes later Austin comes in. "What's up beebo?" he asked Brendon doing some sort of handshake with him. "Oh nothing much but can you please show.." he paused and looked at me "kellin" i replied. "Oh yeah can you show kellin to all his classes please?????" He said "Yeah sure come on kellin" Austin said at he took my schedule and read it over. We walked out of the main office and said "So we have all the same classes just not p.e and your free period, so just stick with me and you'll be fine" he said right when the bell rang singling that 1st period is over and 2nd period will start. "Watch this" he said and stood against some lockers. I did the same because why not. Actually I just did it because I don't want to die in the crowd of people, or get lost. Suddenly all the chatter stopped and everyone stood either on the left or right side of the hallway. Then two kids (most likely freshmans) were unrolling a red carpet in the middle of the hallway and two girls one with half red and half black hair and one with both halves of her head shaved were throwing black flower pedals everywhere. Then all of a sudden the lights went out and music started playing. Classical music. Then 4 guys came out. They all looked Mexican and intimidating. But the short one with the shoulder length curly brown hair caught my attention. He had this charming smile and gorgeous brown eyes and if you look closely you can see a cute little nose ring on him. The four of them started walking on the red carpet while everyone sang happy birthday to the one with the shoulder length hair. He's probably the guy Austin was talking about. "Happy birthday dear Vic Happy birthday to you!" They all screamed. Thank god now I know his name. He was walking towards forwards closer to where I am and then my schedule fell out of my hands. Oh shit. I tried to reach out for it but it was to late. He stepped on it and almost tripped and if it wasn't for his friends then he would've fell face flat. The hallway went quite and all eyes were on me. I looked to my right where Austin was and he looked at me with fear in his eyes. "Who's fucking schedule is this!" He screamed with venom in his voice and hatred in his eyes. Everyone stood still. No body moved. The lights turned on. But no one made any sort of movement it's like everyone held their breaths. One of his friends got the paper from off the ground and read my name out loud. "Its Kellin's, Kellin Quinn Bostwick." one with spikey hair said. "Who the fuck is kellin" Vic said then he saw that everyone was looking at me and he turned his head slightly to look in my direction. He walked closer to me with so much hatred in his eyes. With a few more steps he was now in front of me and he pushed me against the lockers even more than I already was. "So your new here right?" He asked rudely. "Yeah" I responded quietly not stuttering, I was trying to keep my cool but fuck he's so close to me and he's so cute I could imagine him kissing me against the lockers and then w- Stop Kellin now is not the time to be thinking about this, your literally about to get your ass beat by the short Mexican in front of you. He went closer to me ears and whispered "I'm going to make you life living hell" he said with so much venom in his voice then he finally looked into my eyes. If looks could kill then I will be dead right now. He put me down but once he did I was met by his fist to my face. Then he walked away and everything turned black......

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Home - Part 22

A/N - So this is the last part my lovelies! (Well there will be an Epilogue) i just want to thank everyone who has kept with this til the end and for all the love you’ve shown. 💕

"Buck, i cant stop looking at them" i smiled down at my two boys laying side by side in the hospital cot.

"I know, their perfect" he beamed before turning and kissing me "you did so good baby"

"I didn't do anything, i didn't even know what was going on!" I chuckled, when they took me down to the OR the babies heart rates dropped suddenly and they had to give me a general anaesthetic and get them out quick.....when i woke up again i had my two boys.

"You did everything! You carried them for the last... what, 8 months? You've kept them safe and healthy"

"I guess i did do that, I've got the stretch marks to prove it" i rolled my eyes.

"we still need names, we can't just keep calling them 'the boys' you know"

"Mmmhmm okay but can we talk about it after i sleep?" I asked covering my mouth as i yawned.

"Sure doll, you get some sleep"

"You'll watch them?"

"Of course, Steve will probably be in here in a minute he was so excited" Bucky shook his head and laughed.

"Okay, Just let me sleep for an hour and wake me up okay?"

"You got it".

When i woke up again i looked over to see Bucky sat with his eyes closed, both boys sleeping on his chest. He wasn't asleep just resting his eyes, his thumbs gently stroking over their tiny legs as they slept soundly. It was the most beautiful sight ive ever seen, i couldnt help but reach for my phone and snap a photo.

Yes im gonna be that mom who takes photo's of everything! Don't judge me!

"What are you doing?" He asked opening one eye and looking at me suspiciously.

"Taking a photo of my boys" i smiled "i told you to wake me up in an hour Buck, how long did i sleep? Its dark out!"

"4/5 hours" he shrugged casually "enjoy it while you can doll, you wont sleep well for a while"

"Unless they take after their mama and like their sleep too? God i hope they do!"

"Their gonna need a feed, you feeling up to it?"

"Yeah".

Bucky got up and carefully passed me one of the twins while he kept the other close to his chest and sat back down.

"His so tiny.... i feel like i'm gonna break him" i said as i lowered my gown and tried to get the baby to latch onto my breast "He latched on straight away.... oh my god this is so weird..."

"Thats my boy" Bucky winked making me laugh quietly so i didn't disturb the baby.

"So names..... i was thinking Steven and Samuel as middle names? Both of them are important to us" i said looking down at the baby in my arms.

"I love that idea, they'll love that too"

"Is Steve gonna Cry?"

"Probably" Bucky chuckled knowing what his friend was like.

"Okay and first names?"

"How about Thomas....After your dad? I know you miss him" Bucky suggested.

"I really do, i wish my mom and dad were here to see this" i quickly wiped a tear away "Thomas Samuel Barnes?"

"I like it doll"

"Me too" i smiled looking down at the larger of the boys in my arms "i think this is Thomas"

"Okay and now for this little man"

"How did we not decide on names before today?" I shook my head.

"Because we've had our hands full with the girls and Jack's case.... we thought we had more time" Bucky shrugged before getting up and switching out the babies.

"I don't really know what names i like"

"Me either, i didn't think it would he this hard to name them" i said as i got comfy with the next baby.

"You know just before the girls went to bed i heard Allie talking to the bump again.... how do you feel about Theodore?" I asked raising an eyebrow questioningly "thats what she called one of them.... we could call him Theo or Teddy for short?"

"Theodore Steven Barnes? It kinda works" he nodded "for the record i'll probably never call him Theodore"

"It doesn't surprise me babe, the girls rarely get called by their full names either"

"Thats true"

"So are we agreed?"

"I think we are" he grinned as he got settled with Thomas again.

"Did Steve come see them while i was sleeping?"

"Yeah but only for 10 minutes, i didn't want to disturb you.... plus visiting hours where nearly up. His coming back up later with the girls though, then his gonna take them home and watch them til we're aloud to go home"

"Sounds perfect, i miss my girls already"

"Im sure their missing you too"

"Their probably too busy with Auntie Becca to care" i smiled over at Bucky who was shaking his head.

"Okay Teddy is done, can you take him please.... i think i need some more pain relief"

"Sure doll" he laid Thomas in the cot and took Teddy from me before sitting back down to winding him.

I held a hand to my stomach and winced as i pressed the call button for the nurse.

"Your gonna be feeling that for a while doll, your gonna have to take it easy too. Let me help you with things"

"I'll be fine...."

"You will take it easy and let yourself heal"

"But Bucky you cant look after the girls and newborn twins on your own! I can't just sit around and do nothing...."

"You can and you will, Ive already spoken to Steve and his gonna come stay with us until your better"

"Okay, its not like he isn't always there anyway. I sometimes wonder if he actually lives with us and i just don't know about it"

"You don't mind that Steve's around alot do you?"

"Course not, i love Steve"

"Good, you'd tell me if you had a problem with it?"

"You know i would"

"Ms Y/L/N, how you feeling?" One of the nurses smiled as she walked into the room.

"I need something for the pain, other than that im good" i smiled at her.

"Okay lets see what i can do about that".

It was about an hour later when Steve walked in with Becca and the girls.

Steve came straight over to me and placed a kiss on the top of my head, Rosie was cuddled up to him but held her arms out to me as he leaned down.

He let her down to lay beside me and she instantly cuddled up to me.

"Hey mama, how you feeling?" Steve asked.

"Im doing okay, sore.... but its worth it"

"Their beautiful" he nodded looking down into the cot beside me we're they both slept.

"Congratulations you guys, their beautiful" Becca smiled hugging Bucky before getting a closer look at the babies.

Brooke and Allie stood with Bucky looking down at Thomas and Teddy.

"Girls, these are your baby brothers" Bucky said quietly to them and they smiled.

"Their so tiny"

"What are their names?" Allie asked turning to look at Bucky.

"Well this one, this is Thomas" he pointed to the bigger twin "and this is Theodore" he pointed to the smaller one, Allie gasped and looked up at me.

"I knew it!.... i knew that was his name!"

"Okay can i hold one now?" Steve asked practically bouncing on the spot making us laugh at him.

"Sure Steve, hey Buck why don't you let him hold Teddy first?"

"Sure doll" he carefully lifted Teddy and placed him in Steve's arms "this is Theodore...."

"I know that Y/N just said so"

"Theodore Steven Barnes"

"What!? Are you serious?" He said his eyes going wide.

"Yeah pal"

"Guys...." he said with tears in his eyes "i dont know what to say"

"Told you he would cry" Bucky chuckled and Steve gave his his best bitch face.

"If i wasn't holding Teddy id kick your ass"

"Yeah whatever pal"

"Language! Uncle Steve!" Brooke said with wide eyes as she turned to look at him.

"You said a bad word Uncle Stevie!" Allie added making us all laugh.

"Yeah Uncle Steve you said a bad word! Don't be saying bad language words around my kids"

"God your such a mom already"

"Y/N?" Allie said walking over to the side of my bed.

"Yeah babe?"

"Does this mean your our mom too?"

I looked over at Bucky who shrugged with a smile, i knew he was telling me it was my choice what i told her.

"Yeah Allie, i'm your mom too..... if you'll have me?"

"Really??" Brooke asked coming to stand beside Allie.

"Yeah"

"And... can we call you mom?"

"You can if you want to, whatever your comfortable with" i smiled brushing a piece of hair back from her face.

"Im gonna call you mom" Allie said casually before running back to her dad who was smiling as he listened to our conversation.

"You guys are gonna make me cry again" Steve said sniffling from the chair in the corner.

"I think i might join in this time too" Becca added quickly wiping a tear from her face.

After spending the longest two days in the hospital the boys and i were finally aloud to go home. It was the best feeling being back home, knowing i had Bucky and all my babies under one roof and plus Bucky and Steve had been amazing.

They wouldn't let me do much though.....They'd even carry me upstairs!! I was now managing to walk around by myself, slowly, but i was on the mend.

Sam and Wanda came to visit us the day we got home, Sam had actually cried when we told him Thomas's middle name.... even though he tried to hide it.

Wanda had sat cooing at the twins for hours and saying how much she couldn't wait to meet her little bundle of joy.

I was sat in bed just finishing the feeds, Bucky was next to me holding Teddy, the girls were asleep on the bottom of the bed, we'd been watching Aladdin and they had all fallen asleep halfway through. I smiled as Aladdin and Jasmine were singing about 'A Whole New World' realising my whole world was in this room, i never thought id be this happy.

"You okay doll? You seem a million miles away" Bucky asked pressing a kiss to my lips.

"Yeah, just thinking about how lucky i am that i met you. You've made me the happiest woman in the world Buck.... you gave me 3 beautiful girls and my handsome boys, who already look so much like their daddy by the way!" Bucky chuckled as he laced his free hand with mine "i love you baby"

"I love you too, i couldn't ask for a better mama for our kids" he smiled bringing my hand to his mouth and kissing my fingers "marry me?"

"What??...." i looked at him with wide eyes "did you just...."

"Yeah" he nodded with a huge smile on his face "make me the happiest man in the world and say yes?"

"Are you sure...? I mean i dont want you asking just cause we're having a moment...."

"Doll, this isn't just me being in the moment i promise" he said leaning over to the drawer in his bed side cabinet. When he turned back to me he had a black velvet box in his hand "ive had this for a while, i was just waiting for the right time"

"Buck...." i gasped feeling my heart racing as he opened the box to reveal the most beautiful ring id ever seen.

"What do you say doll? will you marry me?"

"Yes!! A hundred times yes!" I smiled with happy tears as he slipped the ring onto my finger and kissed me.

"Its you and me doll, always"

"I think i'm okay with that".

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