#so i really fear that ostracism and harassment even tho I don't think its realistically something that will happen to me

[enid-coleslaw]

i know i know fear of being perceived but also not knowing how people perceive me is scary too

this is going to be a long one so too much for the tags but i really don't know how people perceive me, especially in regards to gender/identity/presentation and it scares me that i'll get harassed. but also this fear seems unfounded because people probably perceive me as a woman but also maybe they think i'm trans, which isn't an issue itself but if they are transphobic then theyll start yelling at me when i use the bathroom. i know how unrealistic this is: yes i have short hair and wear loose fitting clothing but i also don't think i read as masculine,, at most people may think im a tomboy or a girl who just isnt that feminine or whatever (if they're even thinking about that, which idk they probably aren't right?). i guess my biggest fear about this is i will make another woman uncomfortable somehow and that will lead to some transphobic attack. again i realize how unrealistic this is bc yes i wear loose clothing but im pretty sure some of my figure (i.e. breasts) are still visible and I dont have a deep voice and I dont think I have many physically masculine features...so why do I have this fear??