#so i probably won't be around but ... lurking as usual~ hehe

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COMMON MISCONCEPTIONS

tbh I don't really know how other people perceive him, so it's hard to say ! but i'll do my best . . . he's a very complicated character, and i think in times past, he sometimes wasn't seen that way at all. he was seen as more of a simple 'comic relief' or just a typical sort of... protag... guy....... idk. people ( ooc & ic perhaps ?? ) may not always take him seriously as a complex individual because of his tendencies to act playful and/or blasé -- which is understandable !! but recently i've gotten more chances to really show his depth of personality and write him in situations that i feel better showcase him, so !! i don't think he gets misconceived too often now. . . but i'd have to know how he's perceived to really be sure of that, and i don't rly know what's in other people's heads, so JSJAJ idk!!

AN IMPORTANT HEADCANON

one thing about Tai is that he needs a little competition and/or conflict in his life for to him to feel 'stable' and fulfilled. he kinda gets... aimless, bored, anxious, lethargic, and de-motivated when life is too easy, carefree, or relaxed. he always feels like he has to be useful to matter to other people; he fears deep down that if he's not being of use, they will forget about or leave him and he's most useful when solving or working on a problem. this is likely the result of constant chaos in his life and struggling for most of his life, and something he should work on healing from so he doesn't have to live that way, yes . . . but it is what it is and it's not changing anytime soon asjjaj

i suppose he's 'lucky' because in most of his verses, those things are just a given; even when his life is otherwise going well, there is always going to be some element of conflict, fights and resolutions, to be had, and so he rarely if ever has to face this issue ??? but it's an interesting facet of his personality...

A USELESS HEADCANON

he's not officially a vegetarian, but he doesn't eat a lot of meat. he really likes the flavor of most meats: he just doesn't ( ideologically ) love eating animals, and felt that way since childhood. that realization kids eventually have of 'wait... I'M EATING A DEAD BABY COW???' was something he never really got over . . . . . . plus it's better for the environment & stuff not to eat too much meat, and even in verses like crime verse where he's a bastard who sets things on fire -- ironically, he'll still be like 'HEY! BUT DON'T LITTER!' LOL. but he's still gonna eat it sometimes, 'cause he isn't bothered ENOUGH to completely give up the tasty flavors. asjjaj so he will eat meat sometimes -- especially if he's out, like at a restaurant. but it's a relatively uncommon meal for him, especially if he's just cooking for himself at home. . . . he LOVES fish, though. i mean, he still feels a little bad about eating it, but sashimi and chirashi are his alltime favorite entrées, and fish in general is one of his most favoritest meals. so he can't give up fish; he just can't do it asjjaj.

POTENTIAL TRIGGERS

su/c*de can, potentially, be a triggering topic for him: depending on the manner in which it's brought up & discussed. his mother took her own life, and this tragedy had a very, very profound effect on him. so much of who he is and what he believes in relates back to trauma related to his family, this being a huge one of those traumas. (he also had a close friend die in the same manner.) it's not a topic that can't be breached, but there are certain things that will trigger distress, anger, or another uncharacteristically strong wave emotion from him: for example, a lack of empathy towards s- victims, or making jokes at their expense. he also really doesn't like talking about his mom's death, not with anyone-- and if pushed to 'open up', he will become very disturbed that the topic isn't being dropped. so far in his life, the only person he's really talked about it with is his father . . . and even then, the conversation is strained and difficult. the only other person i can imagine he would have spoken with it about is Ara, in the crime verse, because they are so close, and her own difficult upbringing & struggles with her mothers mental health would have enabled him to open up to her... and her alone. otherwise, his mother's death is a door that stays very firmly locked and shut off from people. it takes a really extraordinary amount of trust and comfort with another person for him to open it.

SOMETHING YOU ENJOY ABOUT (WRITING) THEM

everything tbh, if you haven't noticed he i s my little meow meow. my blorbo. my silly rabbit-- no but asjajja i haVE SO MUCH FUN writing him because he's such a complex characters, and there is a motivation behind everything he does: i write him with a LOT of intention. nothing i type for taiyang is without reason or explanation. you can ask the most basic question like 'what is his favorite color' and i can write a novella about it. i can write a novella about anything and everything when it comes to tai which is kind of... nice i guess asjaj although it can be tiring!! but knowing him inside and out makes writing him super easy. and that just comes from the fact he's one of my oldest OC's, so there's pretty much no stone unturned when it comes to him... i've been roating this blorbo in my mind so long, i've thought about nearly everything before!! other muses of mine, i tend to have to do deep digging & thinking to figure them out sometimes. which isn't bad at all!! ... it just takes more work LOL. but tai is so easy now!!

SOMETHING YOU WANT OTHERS TO KNOW BEFORE WRITING WITH THEM

this goes for all my muses but it's so important that i HAVE to repeat it often: my muse is not me!! his opinons are not mine!! his actions are not mine!! his opinions of your character aren't mine!! he is a CHARACTER with his own self-sustained motivations, likes, and dislikes. of course, it all comes from my brain, but in the same way that i can relay what someone else said, but that doesn't mean i'm describing myself or co-signing it: i'm just repeating their words. in fact, there are times where i strongly disagree with what he says or does. because of the fact that he can at times be confrontational, or blunt, and he expresses his 'own' opinions, i cannot rp with anyone who isn't completely understanding of that fact !!

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