#so i can’t visit mom’s grave on her bday

[nervousyoungtwinfantasydog]

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girl PLEASE give us all ur yom headcanons i'm BEGGING

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(ignore the grammatical mistakes please and thank you you know my engish sucks)

happy ones where they are alive and happy ok

so MS didn’t run away and stayed there and they went to her mom’s house and did all the preparations for her dad’s funeral and they stayed with them for some time 

at night MH gets nightmares from all the things they had to endure but HT is there for her (he doesn’t get that sever nightmares anymore the way he got them in the past)

they want to move as far away as possible from gwangju so they move to a little town in the countryside where distant relatives of her live there

those relatives give them a lil place to stay and it’s a lil house but it’s their house

lots of handholding while they walk or even sit they love to hold hands (and rub with their thumbs either the back or the palm of their hands) and he loves to play with her fingers too

he loves to surprise her with random gifts but not the materialistic kind. all sorts of stuff: composing new songs for her and (spoiler) their 3 kids and he loves to pick up wild flowers and do stuff for her and of course also buy her little things because he knows she’s not the materialistic type but he loves to just give her stuff since he always wants to impress her like it’s their first time meeting 

she’s an okay cook but he cooks better so he mostly does the cooking and they share the household duties but he really wants to do so much for her and she won’t let him do it all alone so they tease each other about it

he doesn’t enter the song festival but he does mini concerts just for her in their living room or outside in front of their house at the porch and later on he even sings in front of others when there are little festivals that the town there celebrates

don’t know how medical studies work but i guess he finally starts to finish his medical learning there at a really little clinic and after years of working there the guy who’s in charge retires so HT becomes the head of that little clinic and she works there as the head nurse (but really it’s not much work like most of the stuff is easy but since it’s the only clinic in that part of the countryside people do go there to get treated) 

every month they send a lil money to her mom/grandma and to JT and MS 

june 23rd is his birthday. he tells her i love you and she tells him that back. i mean they already said it millionth of times with their gestures and their promises and how they treat each other but this is the first time they say it out loud. they celebrate his bday together at home and she cooks for him and it’s quiet but lovely and full of embarrassing moments and happy and crying moments too. she gifts him a shirt and it became their tradition that on his bday she gifts him a shirt with a prayer sewn in there (by her)

after 3 months of living together (august) they go to seoul and sign the papers to legally be married but this time they go with her mom, grandma, MS. (JT is still recovering but HT has now a better relationship with him and talks to him once a week on the phone)

they have 3 kids: the first is a girl, 2nd is also a girl and the last is a boy. sdkfhlkajsdlfkadsf

she notices that she’s pregnant in september and she’s happy but also scared because what if she will make their baby suffer and that their baby will resent her like she resented her father for a long time. and she doesn’t want that for her baby. HT finds her on the floor crying after he comes home and (they promised to tell each other everything) she reluctantly but truthfully tells him that she’s pregnant. and that she’s scared and happy of course since it’s their baby, but really scared. he reassures her that even tho they will not be perfect parents and make mistakes they will raise their baby with lots of love and care and he wants to raise their baby together. after that they both cry and he feels so many new emotions that he composes a new melody that he will play for them in the next months and years.

he talks to the baby in her belly and she names all their kids because she’s the only carrying the baby in her belly

nov the 1st is her birthday and their special date day. he already does everything she tells him to do but on that day he’s even more committed. he buys her a maternity dress and also gets her her fave butter bread and flowers and other stuff. he wrote parts of the lyrics for her song so he sings it this time for her with the lyrics. she cries. like a lot. 

they are still visiting orphanages and doing their duty to help the kids there

(it’s getting long so for now lemme stop there and maybe there will be part 2 of only happy headcanons another time)

sad ones (between ep 3-12):

this was in ep 10 after he gave her her bro’s shoes and they talked a bit and they are still bloody and dirty from everything so HT takes a washcloth and basin from the bathroom next to their room in the hospital and goes back to her. he asks her to stay still and he washes her face clean from the blood, tears and dirt and he does it so tenderly and really carefully and she starts crying again because of everything and she just lets him clean her face and he also takes her hands and arms so he can clean them too and after she’s clean she takes the basin and washcloth and takes it to the bathroom and gets a new one and does the same for him too. they don’t say nothing at all and just look at each other and after that shower and this time they sleep in the same bed side by side and he holds her in his arms till they both fall asleep

in ep 11 when he returns all bloody and dirty and a mess she's the one to take the  washcloth and basin and cleans him and by doing that thinks *I love you I’m sorry I’m glad you came back and are here with me* and this time he’s the one to cry and she cries too and he takes her hand and puts her inner palm to his lips and gives it a long peck and just looks at her

sad ones (after her .............. you know)

so after what happened to MH, HT stopped playing the guitar. *whenever I think of you, I can’t help but sing* well he won’t play or sing at all anymore. his guitar was still in that room in the church with the rest of their belongings and the priest kept it there till HT came back to get them and HT broke down in front of the priest. after that he took their things and for a few years he left the guitar at MH’s mom’s house. after her mom died he took it with him and put it hidden away in a closet where he lived in seoul. only after he finally found out what happend to MH and she came back to him he took it out, finished the lyrics of her song and played the guitar at her grave.

he regularly visited her mom, granny + myungsoo and also had a good relationship with his bro and even the stepmom

i think he was questioned for a long time and in custody of the soldiers and once he came back he meticulously searched every tiny spot in the woods for signs of her but he found nothing

it was confirmed that (when he enternd the restaurant in the time skip) it was already november. and november the 1st was her birthday....... and his birthday was on june 23rd (a month after their wedding day and her death) ....... he spend it in agony

he has her passport picture in his wallet and there is a picture of her in his room too 

he rented a lil room in gwangju and got her stuff moved there from the share house she was living in and he regularly helped her mom by sending her money the way MH did when she was........ you know. and he send money to MS too. 

after 2 years he decided to finish his studies because he remembered that she told him he would be a good doctor so he did  it more for her than himself and moved to seoul.

he does the medical visits to the orphanages each year 

deep inside he had known she died

he only talked about her with MS and JT and once seok chul regained consciousness he talked to her about MH

don’t even wanna talk about the triggering stuff that he did to himself/the trauma/ptsd that he has because of her death/the situation they had to endure

anyway share your headcanons too pls thanksssssss

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Saw some of my cousins for the first time in at least 10 years. Some are married with kids and another on the way. What I saw was, life, death, and my late relatives all around my great aunts casket. I couldn't help but think about my grandpa. He's getting older and his 81st bday is on the 19th.

My granny is dead and I have long talks with her. I know she's waiting for my grandpa too. Probably in my selfishness I want my grandfather to stick around to see his great grandchildren. I want him to be proud of me. Couldn't help but realize I can't take life for granted. I have to call him up and tell him I love him and since he's moved to GA, I miss the shit out of him and our long geeky talks. I miss watching biographies and science documentaries and debating about theories. We both love to argue. 😂👌

So I'm in the car jonesing for a drink.

What I really want to do is visit granny's grave in Connecticut like she wants me to... And drink Gin over it. 😂👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼Oh and pour a bit on top of. Me and granny both appreciate a good drink. I know if she were alive we would both be drinking and act goofy. I miss the shit out of her. We are so much alike and family always say I look just like her. 🤣 Lmao!

I know what Erik wants me to do. The biggest issue is fear. When the time comes I have to remember that Erik and granny are always in my heart. I have to think about them and my grandpa before his time is up. I need to have what I can't with Erik.

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I wished I had my Mother here not to just give her flowers but for her to just hold me in her arms for a very long time. I love u Mother. I miss u so much. Your babygirl. I lost my mom before she turned 55, I’m going on 80. She had a stroke. Sugar Skull Houston Astros Shirt.I was 18 .I dod get to the grave, when I;m in City of Cambridge. Sam Rob my heart hurts for but rest assured she is always with you. She watches and guides you in everything you do. Me too!she has been gone for a very long time and so has my Daddy too! Mist my kin is gone. But i have very many blessings my hubby past to. So to all of them.

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I would give anything to be able to drive and see my mommy. I sure do miss her. And I get angry when I hear or see people talking mean or being disrespectful to their mom. You know they say you don’t know what you have until it’s gone! Blessed are those that can step outside of that and realize it while their mother is still alive! All the extra love they can give while the mother so desperately needs it! Thank u. U have touched my heart. I was shopping the other day and a young girl of about 13 was arguing with her mom over a pair of 45$ headphones and she told her mom that she couldn’t wait to be 18 so she could move away.

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O stepped up and said excuse me..I couldn’t help to over hear. But u may not believe it now…but ur mom is best friend. She will always be ur best friend and ur #1 fan. Love her while u have her. I don’t have mine. And I wish everyday she was her on Earth. I saw the 2 later and they were laughing as mom paid for the headphones.  A week before Mom died she said she wanted roses every week from me. I was so grateful to be there with her through her bad times and when she passed and I know she probably wasn’t serious but to this day I visit her every week and bring her roses, Going on eleven years and I miss her soooo much!

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When we meet again she will laugh at me and all is good, I kept my promise to her and gives me a chance to still talk to her and makes her smile in Heaven! Thanks for sharing this! Me too it pisses me off when I see them mistreating their love ones I miss my mom too but glad I was there when she needed me the most. I agree with you. Modern generation are more into material stuffs than the traditional parental bonding. Michele Dorcelien Moneski Spohn I’m so sorry u was treated that way.

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Thanx for sharing. That’s a shame u were treated differently and never told who or anything about your bio mom. U have a right to know. I feel like u do. Especially with your health conditions. Honey u are not wrong! Not at all. I wouldn’t kiss her butt either. U are so amazing that u love and respect the woman that raised you. Shows u have a beautiful heart and soul. But seems like she couldn’t get u a cake for ur bday. That’s mean. Their not expensive. She just didnt. I’m sorry. Every child deserves at least a cake or cupcake on their bday to celebrate their birth and place in the world.

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I hope I’m not offending you. It’s not my intention…but I wonder if she knew your birth mom. Do u? I mean for her to be so different towards u I can’t help but think….darling I hope and pray you have wonderful birthdays now. Sugar Skull Houston Astros Shirt. Celebrate the day u took ur place in this world. U are a amazing beautiful person and I’m positive the only reason ur birth mom couldn’t raise u was very extreme. I’m betting it was her only choice. I pray u recover very strong and healthy the best u can. I’ll keep u in my prayers.