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#so here I am. back to being trapped in less than six metres squared again
david-watts
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3 years
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terrible idea of mine to not kill myself on tuesday or whenever the fuck. mistake on my part
#don't click on the see all you'll regret it btw.
#I had to write a poem today. because I have a big english project due tomorrow and that was an option to do
#and I honest to fuck should not have chosen it because h a h a h a
#'write something about lockdown' ok! fourteen lines ain't enough to truly capture how lockdown was for me!
#imagine going from 'fine I'll pretend to be invested in uni until I can raise the funds to leave' and then it just
#I can't leave.
#I spent TWO DAYS cleaning out a room of this house just so I wasn't sitting on my bed all the damn time
#which is a major reason I get yelled at and nothing I do gets taken seriously
#if I do it on my bed it's not real work
#like for example! trying to work today! I wasn't 'doing anything'
#I got stabbed in the arm with a needle and still wrote that poem and a bit more and what did you do?
#like honestly I don't mind that my m*ther did her uni work in there it's just
#not only was anything we did in there undermined
#like 'hey be quiet we're in a class rn' and THEN she decides it's the best time to loudly have conversations or turn the radio way up
#and it's obvious that she was doing it deliberately when we needed quiet because afterwards she turned it down
#that happened a couple of times before when I would record things for school or whatever she'd deliberately make noise it felt like
#but anyway
#the room is back to where it was. I can't use it.
#so here I am. back to being trapped in less than six metres squared again
#which sounds like a lot but take into consideration that that's three by two metres and it's LESS than that
#and because SOMEONE refuses to go to therapy
#even though I refuse to go to therapy it's because I know it won't help me right now
#all therapy did was 'you need to plan things!' and she would ignore the plan set in place to yell at me despite the fact I was working
#and my m*ther always 'had a migraine' whenever I said 'hey this weekend we NEED to fix that room'
#it developed on saturday morning
#that's the reason I did all that work myself! I just snapped!
#but anyways. she refuses to go to therapy despite the fact she really needs to get over the fact that grandpa hoarded things
#and also to not lash out at anyone trying to touch things in there
#she won't listen to us. definitely not me. even though I have more experience than her with this sorta thing
#ahem cleaned out a different room?
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