#so have the longest drabble i've written in literal years

[caitybellfics]

Weekend WIP Game

Thank you, @whimsymanaged, for the tag, I am sorry it's taken me so long to do this ha ha!

Rules: List your WIPs below (if you only write one fic at a time, feel free to include future WIPs/ideas!) then answer the following questions. Then, tag as many people as you have WIPs (or more).

1. WIP List:

Do I include Drabble series I haven't quite completed? Do I include unposted fics? Original works I write on the side?

Damn, this is hard!

I'm just going to start and see where this takes me...

Here we go:

Chapter Fics Currently Being Posted:

Petals (Dramione, Fae AU, Fated Mates) - Petals just kind of ... happened. It was meant to be a quick five-chapter fic, but the chapters kept getting longer and longer and all of a sudden I have a 90,000+ fic on my hands. Definitely the longest chapters I've written for a book/fic. I tend to like to keep chapters no more than 7k long, but Petal's average is something like 18k. I have no explanation other than it felt right.

Sacred Blood (Dramione, Mafia AU, Alchemy instead of magic) - I absolutely love Mafia Romance, and so it was natural for me to be inspired to write a DHr Mafia fic. This story took a back seat while I got Petals out of my system, unfortunately, it's been a hard year and Petals has taken an age to finish. But I can't wait to get back to my murder bbies.

Wings ... and Other Romantic Things (Charmione, Second Chance Love, Mystery) - A little romcom-esque romp. Hermione is forced to work with Charlie (an ex-fling during the war) when local Veelas are being attacked. Charlie and Hermione must solve the crime and catch the attacker, all while past feelings come back in full force.

Drabble Series In Progress:

Think Of Me (Dramione, Pierced C*ck Draco, Curious Hermione) - I have literally one more chapter to this raunchy, crack fic. I swear I will get to it soon!

Games (Dramione, Panville, Bluna, Theo/Padma, Cho/Dean, Ginny/Harry, Ginny/Seamus, Magical Sex Toys) - I get this one requested to finish a lot (you filthy heathens). I have five more pairings to do!

Ferrets and Fun (Dramione, Ferret Animagus Draco, Fluff/Humor) - I adore Ferret!Draco. Truly. There is no real plot in this drabble series. Just whatever inspires me. I should write another installment of his shenanigans soon ...

Lucius Malfoy and the Eternal Struggle of Being Him (Dramione, Lucius POV) - Same as above, no real plot, just dramatic Daddy Lucius watching his son be in love with Hermione. He's not bad in these, just extra!

Fics I am Currently Writing But Have Not Posted:

Magic Finds A Way (Dramione, Jurassic Park AU) - This fic is an absolute delight. I am actually really proud of it and all the parallels I've made to the original JP book and the films. But it will probably be a while before I post it :(. It's gotta be almost completed before I start to post and it's got to be absolutely perfect to me.

Demagogue (Second Gen, OG MCs but descendants of Dramione, Hinny, and Voldy) - This is my Magnum Opus. And like Magic Finds A Way, will not be posted until I feel it is perfect. But it's a twisty one, with lots of action, mystery, and pining romance. I can't wait to start posting about it.

The Perfect Alpha (Dramione, A/B/O) - I go feral for A/B/O, so while I'm surprised I haven't written more of it (only one little drabble), I am also not surprised. This fic is a lofty one, and my ambition for it has caused it to be put on the back burner. :(

Sad Eyes: The Expansion Series (Dramione, Theo/Padma, Blaise/Luna, Panville) I have three spin-off short chapter fics based in the world of my Sad Eyes fic. All feature a different pairing, tackling different types of trauma and how they heal after the war.

Curses of the Sand (Panville, Adventure through Egypt) - I started writing this fic for a Panville fest but fell behind due to school. I love the story and setting and pairing, so I will definitely be posting it at some point!

2. Which of your WIPs is currently the longest?

Petals at 92,642.

3. Which WIP do you expect will end up the longest?

Demagogue. POSSIBLY Magic Finds A Way.

4. Which WIP is your favourite to write/the most enjoyable to write? Why?

Too difficult a question. I love all my fics for different reasons and it really depends on my current mood and place in life that decides what I want to work on. I'm going through a rough time right now, so I would have to say Petals because Hermione is also currently struggling and it's nice to not feel alone in that regard.

But, I daydream about Demagogue and the Sad Eyes Expansions the most, I would say.

5. Which WIP do you find the most intimidating to write? Why?

Magic Finds A Way. I am worried no one will care about it since it isn't the typical Dramione fic. It's science that has been twisted by magic and dinosaurs ha ha. And if it "flops" I would be devastated because I have literally worked so hard on the parallels between it and the OG materials and media.

I guess the same could be said about Demagogue. It's my baby, my most precious creation, and if no one reads it because it's second-gen and OG characters, with the main pairings fandom likes just being sided characters ... I would probably leave fandom lol, I'm being dramatic but also not really. I am not sure how I would take it if no one gave it a chance.

6. Which WIP do you experience the most self-doubt about. Why?

Oh, well, read my answer to the question above!

7. Which of your WIPs will you seek out a beta/sensitivity reader for? Why?

Magic Finds A Way. I have two betas that have read the OG Jurassic Park, and also have a fandom friend helping me with the French Draco speaks.

I have the same betas for every chapter fic I write. They both encourage and rip apart my writing to help me flesh out every single aspect of my stories.

Drabbles? You get what you get 🤣 from me.

8. Have any of your WIPs been struck by the curse of writer's block?

I don't really get writer's block. I know exactly what I want to happen in all of my story ideas, but I do have periods of time where I am physically unable to write whether that be irl drama, my health, or a busy work schedule that leaves me exhausted.

9. Which WIP has your favourite OC? Tell us about them?

Demagogue! Yes! So, In this fic, The Cursed Child does not exist and my MC is named Hallow and she is the abandoned daughter of Voldemort, adopted by Harry and Ginny after the war.

10. Which WIP is the sexiest?

Well, that depends on what you like 😉

Creature fucking, particularly wing kink? Read Petals.

You into egregious smut? Read my Games series.

Sharp suits, hand kinks, and men who would literaly murder anyone who touches you---that does it for you? Sacred Blood is your jam.

When I finally post my A/B/O, I am sure it will take the cake for spice.

11. Which WIP is the angstiest?

Oh my gosh, Sad Eyes. Hand's down.

12. Which WIP has the best characterisation (in your humble opinion)?

Demagogue. But, for a fic I am currently posting/have posted? Sad Eyes.

13. Which WIP has the best scene setting (in your humble opinion)?

Magic Finds A Way - Isla Nublar (dinosaur island, like come on!)

Curses of the Sand - Egypt

Petals - Faerie Realm

14. Which WIP have you worked the hardest on?

Magic Finds A Way

Demagogue

Petals

15. Which WIP do you have the highest expectations for? Why?

I've kind of already said why, but Demagogue and Magic Finds A Way.

16. Do you dream about any of your WIPs?

Yes ha ha.

17. Do any of your WIPs have particular complexities that your other fics don't?

They all have different complexities and characterizations of the characters we all know and love. I try to change things up with every fic!

18. Which WIP is the funniest or has the most humour?

Lucius Malfoy and the Eternal Struggle of Being Him cracks me up. I love Lucius. And though Sad Eyes is about healing trauma and all that, I think there are some pretty funny moments and quips in that fic.

19. Do any of your WIPs contain outside POVs or a deep dive on a character other than the main ship? How are you finding that process?

Lucius Malfoy and the Eternal Struggle of Being Him, Lucius' POV.

My Sad Eyes Expansion fics as well as my Games series are both diving into pairings I have never done before nor see often or at all!

Petals has POV parts from Narcissa's and it's a really cool way to create an even bigger picture in the aspect of court politics within the fae realm. It makes the stakes seem greater than just Draco and Hermione being mates, etc.

20. Tell us one thing we don't know about one or more of your WIPs.

I have a song for every scene of anything I write. Most of everything I come up with is inspired by music. If you ever ask me what song helped me write a scene/fic/drabble, I will definitely have one to share.

Tagging: Look, I have too many WIPs to tag, so I am not even going to try. I also think this challenge has already made the rounds since I am so behind on doing it. So I don't want to bother anyone by accidentally double-tagging them!

[jaelijn]

Fic Writer 2023 Review

Based on this. I always want to do annual reviews but then don't get around to them and then it feels weird doing them in February, so here we go for once. Under a cut because long (There's 30 things and I ramble. Not sorry.).

1. What’s something new that you tried in a fic this year? How did it turn out and would you do it again?

I suppose that I wrote a fic from Blake's POV counts. I didn't have a big plan for trying something new for Whumptober this year, but I always find myself doing it because everything starts to feel stale if you write 30 fics in so short a timeframe. So the POV was supposed to be what I tried with that fic, but the fic got away from me a bit, so in retrospect the unusual (for me) POV feels comparatively insignificant. There was also more Jenna this year - I think I'm getting there, so yes.

2. How many fics did you work on this year? (They don’t have to be finished or published!)

I have no idea. I have a very long list of WiPs that I am sure I have added a sentence or two across the year, or maybe I just opened them, fixed a few typos and closed them again, and then I have a few handwritten things that I haven't typed up yet. But *at least* it's 35 published things (31 of which are Whumptobers) and the longfic, so 36. Put like that, it sounds terribly prolific.

3. What’s something you learned about yourself as a writer?

I enjoy creating without expectation - immersing myself in the longfic with no idea when it will be done or how long it will get was terribly freeing. The downside is that I also realised that I'm not really intrinsicly motivated to post and share anymore, or at least that thought generates no positive pressure at all because scales. It would be really easy for me to never post another fic right now, but I'm not stopping writing.

4. What piece of media inspired you the most?

Always and ever, Blake's 7. There's nothing else that makes me want to write right now.

5. What fandom(s) did you write for this year?

Accordingly: Blake's 7

6. What ship(s) captured your heart?

Avon/Vila. Though they had me already.

7. What character(s) captured your heart?

See above.

8. Did you write for a new fandom or ship this year?

No. Since a lot of my writing, Whumptober aside, went into the longfic, I didn't do much experimenting - not even during Whumptober, really.

9. What fic meant the most to you to write?

Longfic aside, because as ongoing project that obviously matters, possibly Wet Towels, because it feels like I nailed a tonal direction I want to go in with my Avon/Vila.

10. What fic made you feel the happiest to work on?

By far, the longfic. Some of the Whumptobers were just the right kind of painful, but the most joy creating - yes, the longfic.

11. What fic was the most satisfying to finish writing?

Impending Destiny. I know I keep harping on about this fic, and maybe I'm the only one who thinks it's the best oneshot I've written this year and everyone else hates it, but it was so intense to write and so satisfying.

12. What fic was the most difficult to write? Did you finish it?

I did a few "second takes" on Whumptober this year, so I guess those and no, but then again the second take wasn't difficult, I just wasn't happy with the first and haven't touched those since. Fic I stuck with, possibly either Ghastly Aftermath, because ouch (it's difficult to write while you're crying at your own writing, all right?) , or Mistaken Trust because the final scenes were difficult to get right.

13. What fic was the easiest to write?

Nothing strikes me as particularly easier than the rest, really, but then what published writing I've done has been mostly in my comfort zone either way. So I guess all of the ones that weren't difficult?

14. What were your shortest and longest fics this year?

With Every Single Kiss has literal drabbles, so that, though all of the drabbles together are longer than my shortest oneshot. Longest is the ongoing longfic (duh) currently sitting at approx. 91k.

15. Rec a fic you wrote or posted in 2023

I am once again begging you to read Impending Destiny, lol. But if that isn't you're cup of tea, try Mistaken Trust or Spun Gold.

16. What were you go-to writing songs?

I didn't have many, this year. There's usually at least one or two, but I had a weird year with music, I feel, with few new songs that I really fell in love with, so there's been lots of playlists on shuffle and there's no song I could point to.

17. What were your go-to writing snacks?

I don't really snack when I write for fun, and I've had to cut down on my chocolate intake, so unless it's a chocolate praline, none.

18. What was the hardest fic to title?

Is "all of them" an answer that's allowed? I guess I could say Free Fall, not because of the fic, but because it was the first Whumptober and I was trying to figure out the "title format" for the rest of the Whumptobers. (I don't know if anyone has noticed that the Whumptobers have had title formats for three years now, but either way...) Other than that, the no-longer-so-untitled longfic was the one I put most thought into titling, but I'm not telling yet.

19. Share your favorite opening line

So... the thing about Whumptober is that it makes you *incredibly aware* of opening lines, or the format of opening lines. I try not to start all of them the same way, but I also tend to... slip into self-referential facetiousness doing that, in that all of them become funny when considered side by side.

I suppose "Avon was high." and "When the rebel forces of Carin IX finally managed to fish Avon out of the river, he was drenched to the bone." still amuse me (Spun Gold and Wet Towels, respectively).

20. Share your favorite ending line

Now I have to open all of them again, haha! Uh, let's do a not-Whumptober for once:

But lying curled up in the embrace of his most trusted companion, his link with and buffer against the world, Avon sometimes wondered whether it had been a curse at all. (The Price, from R&F #7)

21. Share your favorite piece of dialogue

Uh... spoiler for Impending Destiny, but I keep it vague and not post the whole thing?

��Whoever said that love is the most powerful force in the universe was a bloody liar,” Avon spat, “or a colossal fool. [....]"

22. Share an excerpt from your favorite scene

Oh for... just... just read Impending Destiny, okay?

23. Share the final version of a sentence or paragraph you struggled with. What about it was challenging? Are you happy with how it turned out?

Oof, I guess the final lines of Mistaken Trust. It would have been so easy to just let them hug and kiss but Avon resisted and once that line was there I had to do something with it that didn't feel unkind to Vila in a plot that... wasn't kind to Vila. I think I managed the balance and once Avon had said no I didn't want to go back to the easy ending, but it wasn't easy to get right.

24. What’s something that surprised you while you were working on a fic? Did it change the story?

... Impending Destiny. It was supposed to be a fix-it fic!!! It's... not a fix-it anymore. The shift was so striking that I made a tumblr post about it.

25. What did you use to write? (e.g. writing programs, paper & pen, etc.)

Word and paper & pen, very occasionally a note app on my phone. All of the Whumptobers had a paper version before I typed them, but I've only written snippets of the longfic on paper. I enjoy not writing at a screen every now and then, but it *is* slower.

26. If you had to choose one, what was THE most satisfying writing moment of your year?

I don't know, because my writing has been so unevenly balanced (very slow but steady progress for most of the year and A LOT of writing in September/October). I suppose finishing the Whumptobers again? Or perhaps when I realised that the longfic was going to be longer than BDaS without it feeling forced.

27. Did you do anything special to celebrate finishing a fic?

No. Once the longfic is done, maybe I will.

28. How did you recharge between fics?

Recharge? What's that? Or rather: between fics? What's that? Hahah.

I know what I would have *liked* to do, which is read a fanfic once in a while, but there's not much new out there to my taste these days. I guess watching other shows counts. I have resorted to rewatching B7 as final measure.

29. If this were an awards show, who would you thank?

The numerous people who kudosed, the few people who commented, @oxideblack for the incredible art and for the appreciation of my fics from their circle of fans, @quordleona03 for the inspiration, and @comarum and @foreignobjecticus who know why.

What’s something that you want to write in 2024?

Ah, it would be nice to finish the longfic this coming year. But I'm not making any plans. With how I feel about the sharing & posting, I'm counting it as a win if I don't lose my motivation entirely.

[greenerteacups]

Fic Masterpost

Oh, boy. Okay. Here we go.

I have written literally hundreds of thousands of words of fic, and this is where you can find it! Consider this a kind of annotated bibliography.

Harry Potter

Lionheart

Harry Potter, Draco Malfoy/Hermione Granger | 300,000 words and counting

How Draco Malfoy met a girl on a train, ruined his life, started a war, and ended one.

Notes: Oh, honey. This is my baby. The longest fic I've ever written, the currently running one, and the one I'm most fond of. A Gryffindor!Draco AU that retraces all 7 books. Slowburn Dramione (SLOW, slow burn, a simmer, currently more like a suntanning) with Golden Quartet vibes. I pre-write all the books and then release them in weekly updates, kinda like a serial publication, so you always know when your next hit is coming!

Volume I, "Green and Golden," composed of Years 1-3, finished early in 2023. It's currently releasing Volume II, "Son and Heir," which just finished the first act of Year 4.

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The Climb

Harry Potter, Severus Snape & Harry Potter | 22,000 words

"...in the event that I, Lily Evans Potter, and my husband, James Potter, become deceased," read Albus, "I do hereby name Severus Snape as sole legal custodian of my son, Harry James Potter, until such a time as he comes of age." He folded his glasses on the table. "Fuck," said Severus, with feeling.

Notes: An unexpected brainworm that I had while compiling a Severus playlist for Lionheart, which rapidly spiraled out of control. It's a "Severus raises Harry" fic, which I never had a taste for until I started writing this — I realized there was so much more juice in the narrative idea than I'd realized. I like how I use voice and style here; I think I made a real leap in technique between SWHTWW and this one.

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Other

the scenes which hold the waking world

Six of Crows, Kaz Brekker/Inej Ghafa, Matthias Helvar/Nina Zenik, Jesper Fahey/Wylan van Eck | 70,000 words

Thirty million dollars for a secret. That's the payout for Kaz Brekker, the most dangerous, ruthless, and talented extractor in the dream industry — if he can manage it. But to have a chance, he needs the best. That means finding a team willing to attempt the impossible: a knife-wielding cat burglar, a college dropout with perfect aim, a sullen ex-Navy SEAL, a drop-dead gorgeous former Soviet spy, and the estranged son of their rich employer. If they can avoid killing each other, they'll go down in history. If they can't, none of them may wake up again.

Notes: This was my first novel-length fic, and I'll always have a soft spot for it. It's an Inception AU with the vibes of Leverage meets Ocean's 11, with a side of psychological trouble and codependency. Read if you like spy movies, heist stories, or dangerous criminals whose Achilles heel is being unable to stop talking shit to each other.

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someday we'll linger in the sun

Black Panther: Wakanda Forever, Namor of Talokan/Shuri | 40,000 words

As the legends have it, after she earned the blessings of Bast, the Princess Shuri took a god for a lover. The legends say less about what happened in between.

Notes: Another drabble that spiraled wildly out of control. (You may notice a theme.) I watched Black Panther over Christmas break and thought, "Wow, that's an incredible storyline that didn't actually happen, wish someone would write it." Technically unfinished, but I think the existing chapters serve as a complete story. Unfortunately, no plans to come back to this one; I might mark it as finished at some point, because it feels settled to me.

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it's a western, henry

Dimension20: Fantasy High, Riz Gukgak/Fabian Aramais Seacaster | 10,000 words

Nobody fantasizes about kissing goblins in the moonlight, or taking them out on ice cream dates after class. Especially not beautiful half-elves on the bloodrush team, who could have anybody they wanted (and probably do). It's the beginning of a bad joke. A goblin and a half-elf walk into a tower... And the goblin ends up slain on the floor while the half-elf walks out with the princess.

Notes: My first fic, which started as a writing exercise. A character study in fantasy race relations and a love story between a nerd and a jock in which the jock is the anxious one. Working title for a while was "it's not easy being green," before I found the fancy Siken line. I still think there's some good humor in here, and I like rereading it from time to time.

[carochinha]

19 Questions for Fic Writers!

I got tagged by @storybookprincess, thank you so so so much!!!

1. How many fics do you have on AO3?

Roughly... 16. That's not bad. Quite a respectable number!

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

328,674

Damn. That a lotta word. Wild to think a third of those words are from a single fic huh

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Bit of a lot of things. Hunter x Hunter and Daiya no Ace are my big ones, but I've also written for Kingdom Hearts, Haikyuu, Black Clover, Project Sekai and....... Homestuck.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

"A Very Hisoka Wedding" stands head and shoulders above anything else at 1,143 kudos, which is legit insane. This fic isn't close to being my best. It isn't close to being my most innovative. It isn't even the longest! And yet it has more Hits, Kudos and Bookmarks than anything else I've ever written. Wild. Following that, we have "(Country Roads, Take Me)Home for the Holidays" at 365, my actual magnum opus so far, "Kiss Me Once, Kiss Me Twice" at 321, a short Black Clover ficlet that somehow keeps getting love, "Weekend at Leorio's" at 295 and "Pink Love" at 256.

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I used not to respond to comments, but in the past couple of years I've been trying to respond to every comment I get. I like getting responses to my comments when I post on other fics, so I also want people to get that happiness. Besides, it's only polite!

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

...what is angst, signed, a permanently happy ending girlie.

Anyway it's probably "Quadratum Has Pocky", a KH drabble I wrote for Pocky Day which did not leave me with a lot of space for happy endings.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Literally all of them LMAO

But I guess "Red Eyes, Take Warning", my HxHBB fic this year gets special mention by giving Kurapika, the fandom's tragic boy, a happily-ever-after.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Sometimes. Home for the Holidays got a couple of comments once we got to the spicy part about how I should have tagged which character topped. That was wild. I'm talking like, HUGE paragraphs.

But not usually, no.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I did once! It was the vanillaest M/M ever written, but I sure did write it!

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I do really like inter-sports-anime crossovers. I once wrote a Haikyuu x Daiya no Ace ficlet that was quite fun!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not since I was 15 doing it myself translating my terrible Digimon fics into English lmao.

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Favourite is a complicated word. All-time, however, isn't.

I've been an Akuroku girlie since 2005 and by GOD I will persist.

(the ship I most wish would become canon, however, is also from KH, but it's Soriku, which I've never even written about.....yet)

14. What’s a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

My Hunter x Hunter Praxis AU.

Huge AU, spanning five years, each of which focusing on a different set of characters, with highly specific references to a highly specific university culture from my country that like two people reading would understand. It's also technically a Reincarnation AU.

Yeah I'm never getting that written.

15. What are your writing strengths?

Apparently, characterization and making my character actions and plots seem believable in the context of canon. Which is good, because I really do strive for character voice matching the original, so I'm happy with this assessment by my readers LMAO

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

DESCRIBING ACTION.

If I ever have to write an action scene, I just don't. There is no combat in my fics, not because I dislike it, but because I can't write it lol.

17. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Have done it. Will continue doing it when I find it appropriate. Helps when the POV character also isn't supposed to understand the language, because then you're just on the same page :D

18. First fandom you wrote for?

Digimon Adventure my beloved <3

(the fics themselves are also beloved, because although they're bad, I can see where I came from and how that shaped me into the writer I am today. My bad fics are a part of me and my journey just as much as my 100k word epics are.)

19. Favorite fic you’ve written?

Pausing + looking off into the distance.

You do realize this is an impossible question?

All the fics for me are... connections, within myself and with the people around me. Writing each one was a battle of finding the right words within me, the joy of sharing little snippets with friends, asking for help and bouncing off ideas. Listening to music and building the plot in my head as I walk, thinking about it as I fall asleep. Pouring my longing, my affection, my grief, and my hopes into these words, trying to connect with whoever will read them.

So I guess I'll say it's "All The Things He Said". It's the first fic I wrote for Daiya no Ace, a fandom I knew no one in. And I needed a beta. Trying to find that beta actually led me to finding one of my best friends, so I'm very thankful to this fic.

Anyway, tagging people! I'll tag @wingsonghalo because she had to read my bad Digimon fic and @tomioneer because of all I said in the last question!

[thrill-seeker-vn]

I posted 1,090 times in 2022

775 posts created (71%)

315 posts reblogged (29%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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@manonamora-if

@king-of-autumn

@hauntthebodies

@narrativefoiltrope

I tagged 919 of my posts in 2022

Only 16% of my posts had no tags

#not if related - 424 posts

#thrill seeker if - 133 posts

#ro asks - 101 posts

#ch: n - 96 posts

#ch: oli - 90 posts

#anon - 84 posts

#ch: hannie - 83 posts

#ask aalaa - 74 posts

#lovely anon &lt;3 - 45 posts

#&lt;3 - 42 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#we were like reviewing our tor as we go into another work year and she had been showing our plan for the next year and as we're talking she

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Please don't write another IF. You're already lazy enough writing this one.

I don't really know what to say to this one. But, then again, I don't really owe you any sort of explanation. You have no idea who I am or what I've been through these last few months, so I really don't know where you get off of that you can speak to me so harshly.

I have very little time to myself, and I am making this IF for free. Between this, I've been helping my Ukranian family seek refuge here. I am paying for their stay. I'm working and studying, too. I get very little free time for this IF. I understand if you don't want to read it, or any of my other WIPs, but I don't think you have the right to talk to anyone this way regardless. I do not owe my time to you. I am not your personal content machine.

If you think you can do better, I truly encourage you to try. Maybe you can take this stick out of your ass while you're at it.

71 notes - Posted April 18, 2022

#4

I’ve collaborated with the incredible @aikhako again for N’s birthday celebration! They've, of course, blown it out of the water yet again!

One thing I'm excited to announce for this celebration as well... I have finally moved the demo from inkle to twine! I have edited chapter 1, so it should hopefully flow better now!

You can play the game from this link. Hope you guys are having a great day!

Also, make sure to check out Aikhako on insta, they post more often there!

75 notes - Posted April 12, 2022

#3

this is so funny to me.... i love blade so much but he really went out and spoke about their trauma and was like 'and i.... yeah me too i guess!'

91 notes - Posted November 10, 2022

#2

5000 views and 2500 plays celebration!

Hello everyone! I actually can't believe it, but today, we passed 5000 views and 2500 browser plays for Thrill Seeker!!

First of all: thank you guys so much. I literally wouldn't be here without you guys. The support I've gotten from you amazing folks is staggering. I really want to thank ALL of you for supporting Thrill Seeker, you guys are so lovely and to be honest, the love I've gotten here has gotten me through some really tough times. The friends I've made here are absolutely wonderful.

I love talking to you guys, seeing your art and hearing your theories, and I love hearing what you look forward to. Thank you for listening to my ramblings and being so lovely!! I'm so happy to have people like you engaging with Thrill Seeker and I appreciate every single one of you.

So, to thank you all, we're going to have a little celebration!!

Until then I’d just like to do something fun for you all! Ther are three There will be three prizes for everyone who wishes to participate

1st prize: Portrait of your MC and preferred RO & Longer Drabble created with your preferred RO

2nd prize: Medium length drabble written with your character & smaller portrait of your preferred RO

3rd prize: Option to create your own character who, although small, will play a role giving information to the MC & moodboard of preferred character

To win, all you have to do is reblog or comment on this post (not like!!) and you'll be in!!! This will be open to anyone until about mid September, so you all have plenty of time!

I hope you guys enjoy!! Thank you guys so, so much for sticking with me and giving so much love to Thrill Seeker!

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93 notes - Posted July 26, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Your favorite IFs? I don't remember if you have already answered something like this and I'm looking for something to get addicted to.

I've actually been looking for the post I made about this exactly, but here's a bunch more!

@reincarnation-if - A RESURRECTION STORY, BABY!!! I love the author AND the story, I'm totally obsessed with it!! The demo isn't out yet, but I literally can't wait!!

@manonamora-if - I cannot recommend this author enough. Check out her IFs here. I don't even know how to begin describing how amazing she is-- it seems like she can literally do any genre!

@attollogame - I'm sure everyone knows this incredible if but, if you don't, definitely check them out RIGHT NOW! They're going to celebrate their two year anniversary soon, so this is the perfect chance to read the work and find out more about this awesome game!!

@jaunefleurwrites - another one I mention a lot. But she has so many amazing WIPS and IFs and I'm not sure if all my audience knows about it!! You can check Jaune's masterpost for all their amazing IFs (my favorite is definitely A World Without You!! There's just a certain warmth in Jaune's writing that I absolutely love!)

@magiciansvoyage - Yet again someone who shows up on the blog a lot-- I'm getting my favoritism out of the way, don't worry. Arlo is such a lovely writer and person, and Magician's Voyage is easily one of my favorite ifs. Arlo's writing is so immersive and I love fantasy, so easy rec from me!

@parkerlyn - The Nameless is literally one of the best IFs out there and you are missing out if you're not reading it. They are also celebrating their second anniversary soon so send them some love!!

@anathemafiction - If you're looking to buy an amazing, immersive game, this is the one to get! It's fully released, incredible quality, and you can download it on mobile or desktop. I would definitely recommend checking them out!

@thefallendivine - I love betrayal stories. You play as the heir to heaven and hell, but your family has been killed by your peers. You're in a situation where you're not sure who to trust anymore. I absolutely love these kinds of stories!! I think if you like Thrill Seeker, you'll enjoy this is!

@sevensdeadly-if - You get to interact and romance the seven deadly sins. How much better can it get, man??? Is there anything more I need to say to sell it?? Chapter one was released recently, so an excellent time to read it.

@nextinline-if - Are you looking for an if with DRAMA?? ROYALTY?? A STORY THAT MAKES YOU LOOK WITHIN YOURSELF, THAT MAKES YOU WANT TO BE A GOOD RULER??? then look no further than this amazing game!! Constantine has my heart and I will love him till the end of time, so if you do play, pick someone else, because he is MINE!

@lifesupreme-if - There are defiitely not enough sci-fi if's out there, and this story is based in the world of Cyberpunk 2077, so it was an automatic win in my eyes.

@when-life-gives-you-lemonssss - This is nothing like Thrill Seeker, and I love it. It's a cute slice of life with a bunch of awesome ROs. I love domestic games, and this covers all the boxes in the cute game checklist!

@whenbodiescollide - when i saw the synopsis, it immediately caught my attention. the entire aesthetic of the blog plays in so well with the story that i can't recommend it enough!!

@vendetta-if - another awesome synopsis bro. I love revenge stories, and this is probably the best IF you're gonna find of it, baby!

@lacewing-if - Their if doesn't have a demo yet, but I already love the premise. Keith has my entire heart and I can't wait until I can get to romance him properly LIUHDFSSDFHUI

@thehunt-if - Another concept I love a lot-- you play as a hunter for supernatural beings!! But then!!! YOU GET POSSESSED BY SOMETHING YOU HUNTED, AND NOW YOU HAVE TO WALK A MILE IN THEIR SHOES!! i cannot stress how much I love this hehe

@hummingbird-games - Moreso a VN, but still such a cute game and I just love it sm!!! The art is so gorgeous and it's just so nicely done!!

@if-whenthesunrises & @if-mirrormine - both are excellent stories!! The lovely author is on a hiatus right now, but I would still recommend checking out their work!!

@unwilling-souls-if - The premise is just so insanely good I can't even explain it. Check it out and you'll get it, LMAIUHDSFUHDFIU. Xander-- watch out. I'm coming for you.

There are way too many talented authors to mention in the word limit, so let me know if you want a part three!! Thank you for the ask Eva <3

339 notes - Posted August 23, 2022

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[strictlybecca]

fic stats!

rules: give us the links to your fic with the most hits, second most kudos, third most comments, fourth most bookmarks, fifth most words, and fic with the least words.

please excuse me bc i was not tagged in this, but i saw this pop up on my dash from some of my non-mutuals and i was OBSESSED - so i did not wait my turn, i've just gone for it :)

most hits: yes, there is a chain and no, you're not on it (schitt's creek) a patrick/david fic i started when there were literally 15 fics for them on ao3 - it's patrick and stevie's text chain for all of the episodes of season four and i still feel smug about some of the things i managed to predict. i think it has the most hits of anything because it was there at the Beginning on ao3, it's got the most chapters, and i did accidentally leave it unfinished for like two years. (oops.) [but it has an incredible podfic!]

second most kudos: the best made plans are your open hands (911) for a fic that kind of walloped me upside the head and made me write it in like... a single evening, the reception on this has been SO sweet!!! an au where maddie takes buck with her when she leaves home at 18. i call it my 'happy healthy buckley verse' and i even have some more headcanons for it in the tag i have for it. in my mind, nothing ever really goes wrong for these two in this verse; it's my emotional support au.

third most comments: i only wanna be alone with you (schitt's creek) another patrick/david fic, this one written for a challenge. (a deadline always increases the likelihood of me finishing a fic.) this is probably (?) the ~sexiest thing i've ever written and it is... like not that explicit lmao. it also had a prompt that made me want to jump out of window bc my secondhand embarrassment threshold is practically zero - but i managed to write something that even my poor little soul could read and enjoy. [technically, 3rd most comments is the previous fic, but this one isn't far off in 4th place.]

fourth most bookmarks: deliver us unto each other (the old guard) this fic is my favorite child. i just think the stuff i love writing and the stuff i'm good at writing collided in this fic in a really lovely way and i'm so stinkin' proud of it. i felt feral while writing it lmao. it's about nicky's complex but deeply earnest and loving relationship with god and how his love for joe actually reaffirms his faith!! plus some great nicky + nile bonding.

fifth most words: i fell heavy into your arms (as the world turns) this is not my favorite of my luke/noah fics but i am very glad one of them made it on the list because all of my longest stuff is for this fandom and i miss nuke an unreasonable amount. those big bang prompts could pull 30k from me, no problem!!! this one's an au where noah is a detective and he has to solve damian's murder - and holden is a suspect :(

and least amount of words: Commandeered (h50) god this one was written so long ago it's still got an uppercase letter in the title 😬 also back in the day when i was still posting individual drabbles as their own fics - i've learned better! this fic represents my intense mcdanno phase, which still lingers in my heart like poison. (or a bomb.) genuinely a delightful prompt tho - an au where danny is the navy SEAL and steve is the jersey transplant. i honestly think i pulled this one off pretty well! they still sound very much like themselves.

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i'm sad none of my sparty fics happened to make it in, since that was an Era unto itself but all of these delight me, so!!! here you go!!!

i tag: @cluelessheroes @functionalnihilism @angryfightingjew @woebegone-kenobi and literallly anyone else who wants to do this. you, yes you. i mean it!!! i promise you, if you do this and just pretend like i've tagged you to do it i will EDIT this post and tag you in it like you've always been there. i don't care if we're not mutuals DO IT!!! (sorry this was fun i really liked it and i'd like everyone else to have fun too!)

[rrxnjun]

ok. i was gonna reply to ur comment but it got a bit too long of a rant HAHAHHA sorry😭

but girl i will never stop raving about ur fics istg like something about the way you write and your characters always seem to hit home for me like i always seem to connect with your characters. you make their emotions and the scenarios they're in so vivid and raw and IBFIWRFO i eat it up😭😭😭

i never used to like reading angst but you execute it so well that i'll literally love it when you do it (e.g. fics like two people, when nobody's watching, potential) IDK MAN it physically hurts my heart I FEEL THE EMOTIONS OF THE CHARACTERS MAN IDK

when nobody's watching: when the reader's looking at renjun thru the years from her perspective when the reader wants to reach out, I WANT TO REACH OUT LIKESJFGOWRG WHEN RENJUN SMASHES THE BOTTLE AT THE PARTY YK????

two people: the way you describe jeno and y/n's suffocating one way relationship, I UNDERSTAND THE READER!!! jeno is perfect, he tries to fix the relationship but IT JUST DOESNT WORK THAT WAY the relationship was way over before he tried to fix it and ITS SO REAL!!!! the inner turmoil the reader went thru and the slow changing feels for mark WAS JUST- UGH *chefs kiss

potential: man. where do i even start with this fic. it's a storyline that i never knew i needed to read in my life. like bar u don't understand, potential had me in despair for the next 4 days. i can understand chenle's pain, y/n's confusion, their complicated love for each other. i don't think words can describe how special this story is to me.

this.... became a lot longer than i anticipated and IM SORRY FOR RAMBLING ON ABOUT THE SAME THREE FICS OVER AND OVER OSBFOWRGO but seriously tho, i genuinely love everything you put out, keep up the hard work💗

(i think this is the longest ask i've ever sent lol)

i treat writing as my therapy session so maybe thats why the characters are always so raw- NO but omg this is such an honor bc i really focus more on the characters than the plot i think and i really try to develop them really well and stuff and i focus a lot on the feelings and emotions so >:((( i am so happy that you like that about my writing !!!

the paradox is that i HATE reading angst. like if its in a long fic where its mixed up i dont mind and i think its important to have angstier parts in a long fic too but if its a drabble and its angsty i just won't read it LMAOOO

when nobody's watching was such a spontaneous fic istg i wrote it in what. two days? at uni LMAO. i got the idea when i was like,, watching this guy from afar and then i realised i ALWAYS DO THIS like i always have those silly crushes on ppl and never tell them bc im scared but i care so deeply for ppl that dont even know i exist 😭😭😭 but also i find that i used to change myself a lot to fit into social circles and even tho uni was really lonely for me at first that i kinda let go of that the same way renjun did so it was definitely cathartic to write :,)

honestly to this day idk how i even managed to write two people. like i think its the only fic i have thats about adult mature ppl LMAO all my other fics are like college aus and shit. like where did all of that pain and angst even come from ???? but i am so glad u liked it, i didnt expect ppl to enjoy that kind of fic >:((

DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON POTENTIAL why are my best fics always the most spontaneous. its literally like in my top 5 fav fics ive ever written so i am insanely happy that you like it sm !!! <33 chenle's character in this fic is insanely personal to me also :,) the readers and his dynamic is also one of my favs ive ever written,, idk idk theres just something about this fic...

i am really honored to recieve this in my inbox its so sweet of you and i definitely appreciate it a LOT hope you dont mind me rambling about the fics i just enjoy talking about my writing :,)

[wheremermaidsdwell]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Tagged by the lovely @lavellenchanted

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

45! My teen fic is on FF.net and will not be moved over, I have some lost fic from my time on livejournal, and I have 25 vids on my youtube (a couple have been cross posted to AO3)

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

153,461 I never wrote long fic before How Not to Drown so this is unsurprising. Most of my stuff is 1-2k.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently I am deep with the Stranger Things brainrot and writing nothing but Hellcheer. But historically tons of MCU/Comics and Star Trek. I also have written a good bit of Blindspot fic and had my tent set up in Critical Role before Hellcheer took over.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

How Not to Drown Stranger Things Chrissy/Eddie , unsurprising as it's my longest fic

Far Less Alone Critical Role Keyleth/Vax, fills in a major canon point, only surprising due to how late I was to the fandom. Content wise unsurprised.

Butterflies Critical Role Fjord/Jester Jester POV introspective fill in fic. mildly surprised but then so many people love Jester and this is like 100% cuteness.

Afloat Critical Role Fjord/Jester Fjord POV that takes place literally like 36 hours before Butterflies lol. Surprised honestly! Fun fact this almost got a masturbation scene! Ended up keeping things pg.

Grid (there should be an accent but i don't know how to do it. It's norse) Thor Comics Thor/Sif. Pure PWP. Unsurprised thorsif fandom starved lol

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I didn't used to but have been since encouraged to do it and I am enjoying talking to people and it's nice to have back and forth and apperciate them more i think. I used to worry about inflating numbers but apparently people expect it in most fandoms so I have literally nothing to worry about.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably Wishing, which is Oscar POV Jane/Oscar Blindspot porn. You could say it's a PWP but it's also Oscar inner monologue on love and duty and loss. My other Blindspot drabbles are all angsty too. I'd have to go read them all to figure out which is which though.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Bruh I write so much fluff. So much. How Not to Drown is pretty fucking happy for how much shit they go through. Butterflies is probably the other one that is just SWEETNESS

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Nope. idk I've never been in a hornet nest fandom and I keep to myself.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

So much lmaooooooooooo. It's mostly just very emotional and pretty vanilla honestly. Extremely explicit though. Also I don't like writing talking during sex so mine will usually have minimal sex dialogue unless there's a reason for it. Maybe someday I'll write some real dirty talk but god. super chatty characters when they're supposed to be fucking is a pet peeve.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I don't think I've written a crossover in years. However, I RPed for a long time and THERE I wrote so many crossovers. Sif was great for crossovers.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not that I know of!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, but Maps of a Compass Rose exists in the same verse as a fic of @intosnarkness 's and the universe is an AU that started from a game with our at-the-time rp group.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Thor/Sif probably

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I want to finish my Briarwoods prequel fic (unposted. I do not post fic unless it is finished). Unfortunately (fortunately) Hellcheer has eaten my soul so that's not happening anytime soon.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I'm good at dialogue and character voice

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Fleshing out descriptions.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

If it makes sense i'd probably do it, but i'd add floating text translation and end note translation or something and if it was more than a sentence that could be explained through context clues i might find a way to indicate it but not write it. (i have not had this problem. i did on my rp account sometimes but that could float translate or put it in tags since it was singular words or phrases)

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Gundum Wing

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

How Not to Drown. Obviously. how else did I fucking write that much lmao Partially BECAUSE of the length i am very proud that i finished it.

[singingrass-archive]

05 NOVEMBER, 2022. Following reports of gunfire at 21:09 hours, unknown male is discovered in a Los Angeles motel room with gunshot wound to the chest and is declared dead by first responders at 21:13 hours. Coroner’s report states as follows:

Caucasian male; estimated age early 50s; height 6’7” (200.6 cm); weight 240 pounds (109 kg). Ginger hair, cropped, grey at temples. Short beard. Tattoo, right forearm: rifle identified as an Accuracy International AW50. Tattoo, right wrist: text, all-caps, sans-serif: WHERE YOU GO, I FOLLOW. In poor quality and appears to be home-made. Tattoo, ribcage right: text, two lines, cursive: Hounds don’t lose sleep / over the opinion of sheep. Tattoo, left shoulder: graphic crest depicting a three-headed dog engulfed in flames. Colors: black, red, orange, yellow, grey. Possibly military insignia. Tattoo, chest left: a banner wrapped around two poppies. Banner reads, all-caps, sans-serif: BUT I HAVE AN RENDEZVOUS WITH DEATH. Colors: red, brown, green, black. Most tattoos at least twenty years old except for wrist tattoo, which appears to be less than five years old. Back riddled with scars, shoulders to buttocks; count varies (178; 189; 182). Scar age varies; some fresh, some healed, some old. Old abdominal scar, below and to the left of the navel, appears to have been caused by a sharp, round object; possibly broken bottle. Six elongated scars along right hip and thigh; incompletely healed wound over right knee. All at least twenty years old. Old scar tissue at the tip of each finger; possibly burns; no fingerprints. Dental records do not exist. DNA testing does not match anyone with prior offenses or arrests. Found with several identification papers (3 driver’s licenses, 3 passports, 6 different identities); all determined forged. Contents of stomach are canned kidney beans in tomato sauce. Evidence of sertraline, THC and large amounts of modafinil and morphine in blood, suggesting recent use of cannabis, painkillers, antidepressants and wakefulness-promoting drugs; possibly self-medicating. Evidence of prolonged substance abuse and possibly 2-3 decades of smoking. Cause of death: bullet through heart at zero range. Scene of death, evidence of gunpowder residue on right-hand fingers and angle of wound suggest suicide.

17 APRIL, 2021. Last known contact is made with the individual known as the Mercenary. Decades after his disappearance, a small handful of people will reveal themselves as having been his former contacts. This, reportedly, is the last day anyone has ever heard from him. It will appear no more than ten people worldwide knew the individual known as the Mercenary personally or met him more than once in the course of their lives.

15 FEBRUARY, 2013. The individual known as the Mercenary appears to go completely radio-silent for four to six months (exact dates remain unknown). This is presumably due to injuries sustained past to falling (or being pushed) out of a third-story window in near the marketplace of Istanbul, Turkey.

22 AUGUST, 2001. A computer and life hacker known only to be part of Anonymous deletes multiple records of the existence of a single human being; both digital and hard copies. This includes military, police, hospital, school and birth records. The man without a name, otherwise known as the individual known as the Mercenary, ceases to exist on any legal capacity.

Regardless, he has been known to be operational since mid-1990s. Not much is known of the man save for the following testimonies and rumors: 1) his appearance: ginger male, hair grey at the temples; monstrously-built (presumed to tower approximately two meters); bearded; freckled; 2) his being a native English speaker, though his origins are unclear as he has been witnessed using a variety of both North American and English accents fluently. He has been witnessed speaking French, Arabic and Hebrew in varied degrees of proficiency; 3) his supposedly strange speech patterns: fragmented, detached, clinical; military. He has been known to go through great lengths to avoid acknowledging both himself and others (be they clients, marks or otherwise involved in his operations) as people; 4) a presumed military history in an English-speaking country’s special forces (though this has never been proved or confirmed in any way); 5) the variety of services which he allegedly offers: security, reconnaissance, extortion, espionage, kidnapping, assassination; and the crimes of which he is accused (though none of these have ever been confirmed nor denied): namely the assassinations of several worldwide politicians. He is wanted by the CIA, MI6 and Interpol; but has also been allegedly cooperating with the CIA and the Mossad (thought his, again, has never been confirmed nor denied). In over twenty years of known activity, he is suspected to have assassinated roughly six hundred people.

Allegedly.

23 JANUARY, 1997. The individual known as the Mercenary abandons the base of operations he has been living out of for the past three years . He sets his pigeons free. He no longer has a permanent living address or direct means of contact. Instead, he travels the globe, relocating himself every two weeks; often staying in motels and trailers as to avoid signing any contracts or using any of his countless false identities. He uses pay phones as a means of communication with his contacts. In the future, these pay phones will be exchanged for burner mobile phones, replaced every two weeks.

Identities will be replaced every two weeks. He will pay handsome amounts of money for high-quality forged documents. Firearms and other weapons and gear will be purchased anew for every assignment and destroyed upon its completion.

His whereabouts and supposed crimes and other actions before nearly impossible to track hereon.

02 OCTOBER, 1996. Bulgarian politician and last communist prime minister of Bulgaria, Andrey Lukanov, is assassinated outside his apartment in Sofia, Bulgaria. The lone gunman seen at the scene flees, never to be seen again.

A Swiss bank account, registered under a hedge fund registered under a hedge fund registered under several other hedge funds, registered under multiple false identities, increases by several hundreds of thousands of dollars.

04 NOVEMBVER, 1995. Notorious left-wing prime minister of Israel, Yitzhak Rabin, is assassinated. Religious fanatic Igal Amir is charged with the murder and found guilty shortly thereafter.

The individual known as the Mercenary gains possession of several rare and experimental Israeli firearms; namely the M89SR sniper rifle. He is also awarded several hundreds of thousands of dollars by various proxies that may or may not lead back to some or another Israeli intelligence agency.

02 NOVEMBER, 1995. Colombian politician Álvaro Gómez Hurtado is reportedly murdered by ‘gunmen’ while leaving the Sergio Arboleda University. His supposed assassins flee the scene, never to be seen again.

The individual known as the Mercenary comes into possession of several tens of hundreds of thousands of dollars. He has never owned this much money before in his life.

01 AUGUST, 1995. The individual presenting himself as Hellhound ceases to do so as it is deemed too telling of his history and past associations and potentially incredibly dangerous in the right (or wrong) hands. In its stead, the man without a name begins referring to himself simply as the Mercenary. He works self-identifying words like I, me or mine out of his speech. He no longer thinks of himself as a person.

16 MAY, 1995. Now presenting himself under the callsign of Hellhound, the man without a name completes renovation of the tuberculosis wing of the North Brother Island Hospital. He makes it his base of operation, communicating with his contacts in the mainland via carrier pigeons he raises in a big coop. He is no longer in contact with anyone who knows him by his legal name. He continues accepting objectives and performing them to the best of his abilities. He burns all his fingerprints off on his kitchen stove, unable to control the tears that accompany the pain; but simultaneously smiling.

08 APRIL, 1994. The man legally known as Galway Morgan vacates his Harlem apartment. He does not rent a new one nor does he leave a forwarding address. He has not spoken to his family in over a year.

He takes whatever little belongings he owns on two bus and one boat rides to North Brother Island. Formerly housing a hospital, the island located in New York’s East River has been abandoned since the 1960s. He quits attending his mandatory psychotherapy and anger-management sessions. Without a legal address, no one is able to force him to attend them anymore.

30 OCTOBER, 1993. Galway Morgan quits his job at the docks to work freelance private security fulltime. He commits his first paid kidnapping (of a young child on behalf of her wealthy father in the midst of ugly divorce proceedings). The objective is successfully complete and he is rewarded handsomely.

The extreme aggression previously observed by his varied psychiatrists is so deeply internalized that he no longer demonstrates aggressive behavior outwardly; but still demonstrates a lack of ability to trust others and increasing apathy and detachment. Psychiatrists suggest a diagnosis of dissociative disorder (caused by PTSD and depression). He also rapidly loses all interest in any form of sexual interaction. 1995 will be the last time he has sex with another person.

13 JUNE, 1993. a friend from work and a former Us Marine suggests that Galway moonlights in private security as a second income. Galway performs his first freelance assignment and finds himself a hot commodity due both to his military history (omitting the injuries sustained during active duty and the deteriorating mental state that ensues) and professional approach. This is the first time he presents himself under a false identity, for no reason other than common sense. He finds strange joy in being addressed in names other than his own. He accepts more assignments in the near future (soon thereafter referred to in the more neutral objectives), presenting himself under different names each time.

The extraordinary aggression he has showcased since his injury during Operation Desert Shield and the loss of his teammate (diagnosed as the main source of aforementioned aggression) is beginning to subside. He becomes less sexually promiscuous. Many people know him by many names.

15 OCTOBER, 1992. UK citizen Galway Morgan moves to New York, New York on a work visa. He situates himself in a small apartment in Harlem and works as a crewmember at the New York Harbor.

Still attending mandatory psychotherapy, Morgan persist in demonstrates high levels of aggression coupled with sexual promiscuity. In the United States he is arrested multiple times for aggravated assault. He often partakes in bar fights and has been known to physically attack at least one of his psychiatrists.

28 JULY, 1992. Morgan has been reportedly growing increasingly distant of and aggressive towards his family. He leaves his hometown of Whitley Bay in the north-eastern coast of England and begins travelling south.

02 MARCH, 1992. After more than a year of physio- and psycho-therapy, Colour Sergeeant Morgan, Galway is honorably discharged from the Special Air Service. He still requires crutches to support himself as he walk and is diagnosed with chronic pain on account of his injuries. Some of them will never fully heal.

Sergeant Morgan demonstrates highly aggressive behavior along with complex PTSD and clinical depression. He is fed a cocktail of painkillers and anti-depressants and is obligated to attend weekly psychotherapy sessions and anger-management support group meetings. Weekly physiotherapy sessions are not mandatory, but the sergeant attends.

16 JANUARY, 1991. Stabilized, Sergeant Morgan is shipped back to England. He undergoes several surgeries and appears to be suffering of shellshock. He reports being in severe mental agony caused by the death of his teammate.

06 JANUARY, 1991. Enemy counter-attack on Hellhound One and Hellhound Two deemed unfortunately successful by means of Scud missile. Hellhound Two dies instantaneously. Hellhound One sustains moderate shrapnel injuries; namely to right thigh, hip and knee.

11 AUGUST, 1990. Hellhound One as sniper and Hellhound Two as scout makes their first confirmed kill.

They, and many other SAS members, are introduced to modafinil by Iraqi soldiers. One pill can induce complete wakefulness and full functionality for forty eight hours in an adult male with little to no side-effects.

02 AUGUST. 1990. The Counter Terrorism unit of the SAS is shipped to Iraq to fight in the Gulf War, known at the time as Operation Desert Shield.

Though considered a team of overall six soldiers, all three strike units of the team (Hellhound One & Two, Hellhound Three & Four, Hellhound Five & Six) are capable of operating completely independently. Hellhound One and Two can spend weeks manning a single position.

05 NOVEMBER, 1989. Corporal Morgan is visiting his hometown of Whitley Bay on leave. He and his little brother, nine years old, are up on the roof of their mother’s apartment building, watching the fireworks over the harbor. Corporal Morgan holds his brother as the boy sits atop his shoulders. They both ooh and aah at the lights exploding over the ocean.

03 JUNE, 1989. Private Morgan graduates from basic training . He is transferred to train as a sniper in the Counter Terrorism unit. He is introduced to Private James Beaumont and the both are paired as sniper and scout. They are to spend every waking moment together. They do this for the following eight months.

They are assigned the AW50 as their primary firearm. Beaumont makes jokes of monster-sized men being assigned monster-sized rifles. He means Morgan. Beaumont is only 5’8.

Private Morgan is assigned the codename Hellhound One while Private Beaumont is assigned Hellhound Two. All Counter-Terrorism snipers are known as Hellhounds. Their outfit’s insignia depicts a three-headed dog engulfed in flames.

05 NOVEMBER, 1988. Galway Morgan breaks up with Gillian, packs his bangs and leaves to volunteer for the SAS. He is processed and sent away for basic training, where he demonstrates leadership, quick learning and natural marksmanship.

01 SEPTEMBER, 1988.Galway graduates from high school. This has been no easy feat while still keeping his job with the fishing crew --- but he will not allow himself to quit. A high school diploma is a requirement to join the SAS and/or British Armed Forces.

20 DECEMBER, 1986.Galway moves into his own apartment out by the docks. He is sixteen years old.

05 SEPTEMBER, 1986. Galway quits his work at the butcher shop and picks up a summer job with a small fishing crew. They go out to sea every morning. Galway hauls his own weight in fish several times a day. He finds his body changes quickly. A few short months later, he is built like a brick wall. He is no longer bullied at school. Neither is Ewan.

Shortly thereafter, he is asked by Fiona to move out of their home. With him now able to fight Patrick back, she is worried for the integrity of the family. Galway cannot resent her for it.

06 JULY, 1985. Puberty hits. Galway grows to the height of 6’7, his weight not quick enough to catch up. He is teased even more often than before, but not bullied as much; his height is somewhat intimidating. He can no longer fit within doorframes without bending jod knees or back.

12 MAY, 1985. Galway has his first same-sex sexual experience when a delivery boy working for the butcher gives him a blowjob at the storage room. He will continue to have several sexual encounters outside his relationship with his girlfriend, Gillian Murphy, with both men and women.

18 OCTOBER, 1984. Galway quits his job delivering newspapers and starts working at a local butcher shop.

27 MARCH, 1983. Galway has his first sexual experience at the age of thirteen with local girl Gillian Murphy. She lives in his neighborhood and attends school in the same grade as Galway.

19 JANUARY, 1983. Galway listens to The Clash for the first time at the local record store. He can’t afford to buy a record, but spends hours listening to anything available by the band. Later that day, he smokes his first cigarette.

24 MAY, 1982. Fiona marries Patrick O’Doyle and takes his name. Galway remains the only Morgan in the family. They move into a new home and their quality of life improves somewhat. Galway keeps his job delivering newspapers as he and Patrick do not get along well. He is rebellious and suffers the occasional smack-around.

05 NOVEMBER, 1980. Whitley Bay celebrates the 5th of November with fireworks over the harbor. Galway watches them from the roof of their apartment building. Fiona tells him, every year, that the fireworks are there especially for his birthday. This is the year he no longer believes this story; but he is still happy when she tells him.

16 AUGUST, 1980. Fiona Morgan has her second baby boy. Patrick O’Doyle is registered as his father. She names him Ewan Carol O’Doyle.

In order to help support the household, Galway begins working as a newspaper delivery boy.

03 JANUARY, 1975. Fiona takes on a third job in order to support her only son. He often accompanies her to her various jobs as she often cannot afford a caretaker; but he appears to be perfectly fine with this. The two are very close. Fiona adores her little boy. She has grand plans for him.

05 NOVEMBER, 1970. A healthy male baby is born to one Fiona Catherine Morgan at the Royal Victoria Infirmary, Newcastle Upon Tyne, England, at only sixteen years old. She claims not to know the name or whereabouts of his father. She names him Galway Kenley Morgan.

[maraudersftw]

2021 in review: fanfic writer edition

Thank you for tagging me in this @missgryffin 🧡 So excited to share some of my writing stats and experiences from 2021 instead of actually getting any writing done because that's totally how you deal with a block 😎

Tagging (if you haven't done this already): @the-dream-team @efkgirldetective @joyseuphoria @sunshine-marauders @blitheringmcgonagall

BY THE NUMBERS *as of 12/25/21

words written: 380,779

words published (AO3): 376,777

# of published one-shots: 11

# of completed multi-chaps: 5

# of one-shots in progress: 0

# of ongoing multi-chaps: 3

# of fic ideas waiting their turn: impossible to tell 😂

longest work: Deception and Disguise (108k+ words)

shortest work: Heartbeats (2,865 words) ((barring HodgePodge drabbles))

most chapters in a fic: 31 (Room Service)

highest # of kudos: 717 (Room Service)

highest # of hits: 22,002 (Room Service)

top 3 fics by kudos: Room Service, HodgePodge, Set Ablaze

top 3 fics by hits: Room Service, HodgePodge, Deception and Disguise

BEHIND THE NUMBERS

most challenging fic to write: Room Service (because of situational blocks), Retribution (for the themes)

fic that came easiest to write: Set Ablaze

most true-to-the-outline fic: Room Service and Set Ablaze

most unlike-its-outline fic: Fashion Disaster because there was no plot

favorite reader freak-out: James's power reveal in Retribution (totally understandable)

most controversial scene: J/L fight scene in Room Service

hottest ask box topic of the year: guesses on James's and Lily's powers in Retribution

most loved OC: LOL I don't have enough OCs for this 😂

most hated OC: Same as above, although I guess Jonathan Jenkins!

favorite things about writing our heroes: Their love. I literally don't know what else to say, because the thing that makes Jily Jily for me is how madly and ardently they were in love with each other. Writing that love in 100 different scenarios never gets old

favorite villain to write: Haven't written many, but I'm excited to try Voldemort

favorite marauder to write: Sirius, hands down!️

most i've cried while writing a scene: Writing chapter 3 of Retribution was very emotionally taxing because of how much Lily was going through in those scenes, both physically and mentally

most i've laughed while writing a scene: Basically all of Fashion Disaster

smuttiest smut scene: Chapter 2 of Set Ablaze

favorite jily kiss i wrote: I think I'd say the kiss in chapter 19 of Room Service because of how much pining and longing it followed. It was quite the "finally!" moment

Quite fond of the unexpected Ret kiss as well!

hardest trope/thing to write: Jily/OC - this is something I've never written, and I don't think I have it in me to really dive into such a dynamic in any fleshed-out sort of way, simply because it physically pains me to write them romancing someone else T_T

easiest trope/thing to write: I always find that sexual tension comes to me the easiest, as does any smut that follows said tension. Spiralling thoughts/emotions/feelings are also my favourite things to explore

proudest fic moment: posting chapter 7 of Retribution because it had been living inside my head for a long time

any fic regrets? No regrets, actually. I try to see my progress across fics as I write them over time so that I can look back and see how far I've come as a writer. The only fic I've gone back and edited was Deception and Disguise, and only because there are scenes I wish I had added the first time

2021 fic habits to break: uhhhh don't start too many projects at once

2022 fic habits to make: MORE!!! PLOTTING!!! I tried this with RS and found that it really helps structure the story better

[kim-ruzek]

11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 20, 21, 27, 30 for the fandom end of year asks!

I would like you to be Very Aware that I suffered trying to pick just these

Cíara!!!!!! Have I told you recently that I love you? Bc I do, so so much!!!! Thank you for asking, I've been dying for ask game interaction all day! (And I am Aware how much you must've suffered but y'know you never have to hold back 👀)

11. favourite OC you met this year

ALLY. Alice Trudy Ruzek, full stop. I love her so so much, she's been a delight to create. I still can't believe I only created her in February! Although back then her middle name wasn't Trudy which is kinda mad to me? Bc it fits so well-- and it's thanks to you that it's Trudy!

But for an oc who isn't mine-- Flo, every day. I love her so much too, I love thinking of the girls friendship and their parents. Honestly that whole bunch I adore?

12. longest fic you read this year

... Second Chances, for sure. I think it would've been unintentional, had I kept up and not gotten ill!! I think as well, like... Usually I read fics from odd fandoms that always generates big fics (marvel ect) just to read to pass the time but this year I haven't read any because any time I usually would, I reread one of your fics!!!

13. shortest fic you read this year

Probably a drabble written by you!

14. best fixit you read this year

...is it too vain to say my own fic? Bc all the ways a heart can break and also girl code duty/ self preservation only lasts so long... I love those an indescribable amount.

And I've already mentioned second chances, which would be my actual answer, if not my own fics! (Yes, there's a theme, yes it's that my reading this year has been chocked filled with cíara's work, I'm nothing if not predictable!)

15. favourite headcanon of the year

Does the Hoover count as a headcanon? Bc the Hoover. Those dms are still my favourite to read over, and I've never looked at a hoover the same way again!

But for a headcanon people other than us will get, it's the Kim and Adam were sleeping together fwb style in late S4 until Nicole gets rapwd and throughout S5 after they hook up at the end of an episode.

But honestly? All the hcs I've made/seen from others are my favourites. Everything cíara and I have come up in our dms definitely for sure. But these characters,,,, they've been my favourite to get to know and expand upon.

16. best BTS (behind the scenes) moment of the year

It didn't happen this year, but I discovered it this year-- the Jesse kicking Paddy where it hurts video bc it Gets me every time.

For something that happened this year-- any and all bts pics of the burzek fam with lil Makayla bc cuteness!!!!

20. Favourite character of the year

My badass Kim Burgess. Adam is a close second, I mean he's the one who got me initially interested in cpd but,,, Kim. Kim is my baby.

21. favourite ship of the year

Burzek. Burzek, all day, every day!

27. Best fandom moment of the year

There's a lot of different ways I can take the wording of this one, and bc I've had so many treasured memories in this fandom this year, I'm gonna give a few answers.

Firstly: talking about the fandom as a whole-- when Stella was getting hate and literally all of us here was approximately enraged.

Secondly: another fandom as a whole moment, but us not responding to what others are saying but the show itself-- when the bts pic of paddy with painted nails was released and we all went bananas.

And thirdly: Cíara. There's no other way to sum this up, bc there's so many moments. The moments we first met, the moment we first came up with the Hoover, the moment we realised we were both into Rheese and Burgstead, the braincell... Honestly, my experience of meeting and getting to know cíara, experiencing this fandom alongside them... THAT has been the best fandom moment of this year. Hands down.

30. fandom resolution for next year

This is something I was hoping to get asked bc I have fandom resolutions I've been wanting to share!!!

Come January first, I'm going to be rewatching all of cpd (and possibly fire, although I might just do a Sylvie and Stella rewatch (so S3+)).

I'm also going to be writing my fanfiction again, getting back into the groove of things.

While rewatching, I'm hoping to do episode reviews, or maybe season ones!

Which leads me onto my next resolution-- to do my meta posts about how I would change each season. And my meta posts where I'll ask the fandom to tell me specific things I can't change in a season and tell me how I'd do it (so for season six for instance, I'd still have to have the Antonio storyline ect).

And finally! I've got some ideas for event weeks/month for the fandom and various ships so I'll be planning those. The one that's more concrete that I can talk about bc I know I'm doing it is in June I'll be doing a pride month event with wlw pairings (an idea I had ages ago from Abby!)

Anyway. I'll stop rambling now. Thank you for asking cíara!!!! Also fun fact for everyone else-- I would've been done with this a lot quicker had they not been making me Emotional with sweet words. ❤️❤️❤️