#so far any of them could also be invocations

[genshingorlsrevengeance]

Hey, Can I make a request with a s/o teaching Shenhe, Eula, Yelan, and Arlecchino how to play video games?

(Genshin Impact) Shenhe, Eula, Yelan, Arlecchino, Furina, and Clorinde's S/O teaching them how to play video games

Game: Animal Crossing

Shenhe has tried games like Genius Invocation TCG, but that one frustrates her more than anything.

S/O, then decided to show her a game that she for sure would enjoy: Animal Crossing!

It didn't require anything other than just a will to relax. Plus, it was just a cute way to do something together!

(Shenhe) "...Your character looks cute."

Shenhe is enraptured by the charming little animals, being fondly reminded of Cloud Retainer in a strange way.

She plays it a little bit in what free time she gets, but really enjoys it in S/O's presence. Though there is one thing that annoys her about the game.

(Shenhe) "This is the fourty-seventh time I have gotten the 'Sea Bass' today. Am I doing something wrong when I am fishing, S/O?"

Her ingame avatar has long white hair and wearing something far more cutesy and casual than her usual attire.

Part of her wondered if S/O could get her these kinds of clothes from a store so she could wear it in real life.

A/N: I've gotten more Sea bass from ocean fishing in this franchise than I've eaten bread in my life.

Game: Monster Hunter

Eula decided to indulge S/O in trying to teach her how to play a game. After all, it was better than doing nothing.

It takes her a second to get used to the controls, but she quickly learns how to attack and dodge.

Only when the game truly begins did she realize what S/O had picked out.

(Eula) "Are you trying to tell me you'd like to go hunting for beasts with me, S/O?"

Teasing aside, Eula is a quick learner and becomes very skilled at hunting the many monsters of the game, getting weirdly competitive about it. Despite the fact there was no player versus player element at all in it.

(Eula) "HAH! I finally made the best Master Rank armor in the game! Everything we fight should be child's play!"

She also loves the cat companions that are in the game and spends a great deal of time dressing them up in cute/hilarious outfits.

Though she will enact vengeance if anyone calls her out on that.

A/N: Man I can't wait for Wilds.

Game: Metal Gear Solid

Yelan usually rolls dice to see what her day off becomes.

And this time, it was to have S/O show her these "Video Games".

Yelan settled for some "Tactical Espionage Action" game, the irony not being lost on her at all.

She learns the controls and plays it extremely casually, being more drawn in by the absurd story and characters.

Yelan is usually laughing at the action, but still enjoying herself.

(Yelan) "Geez, is this how your world views agents, S/O? It's not nearly as cool as this game's making it out to be."

Part of her wants to try hiding in a box to see if anyone would notice, but she'd also like to still be alive and not caught.

But the temptation is always there, everytime the dice decides for her to play this game again and again...

(Yelan) "Hm...the explosions in this game are a little much, but I guess it's also not entirely inaccurate...Sometimes, anyway."

A/N: I GIVE MY LIIIIIIIFE, NOT FOR HONOR, BUT FOR YOUUUUUU

Game: Mario Kart

Arlecchino usually passes on any offer to play a game, not because she didn't want to, but because she likes to observe.

(Arlecchino) "Let the children play first, S/O. I will join soon after."

What she usually witnesses for Mario Kart is a bloodbath.

This game brings out something in her kids that she hasn't seen before.

Even Freminent and Lynette, some of her more reserved kids, turn to something feral when playing against the others.

She's equally entertained and kind of concerned, like maybe this game wasn't healthy, but it did bring everyone closer and give the kids something fun to do.

Arlecchino decides to jump in at many kids' requests, and admittedly isn't that great at it.

But she has more satisfaction in watching the kids have fun.

That being said, there is some sadistic pleasure she has throwing the blue shell and watching whoever's in front take the brunt of it.

(Arlecchino) "Fascinating what these video games can do to children. Do you have more they can all try?"

A/N: Coconut mall is the best map, change my mind.

Game: Subnautica

Furina is at first excited to try something new.

(Furina) "Oh, a game about the beauty of the ocean? I shall beat it no problem!"

But she didn't realize that unlike Fontaine's waters, (Which to be fair, held its own terrors), this was an alien planet's ocean.

She's jumping at every little thing, screaming as she's desperately swimming away from the tiniest fish or anything that even makes a weird noise.

(Furina) "W-WHAT WAS THAT NOISE?! I'M GOING BACK TO THE LIFEPOD!"

That's not even to mention the Leviathans.

The first time she saw a Reaper, she immediately dropped the controller and buried her face into S/O's arms in terror, yelling out something sounding like a curse and crying.

Furina doesn't like video games anymore.

It takes something like Endless Ocean to calm her down about the waters again, thinking that every video game ocean has a Leviathan now.

A/N: For me, that game is horror until I get the Prawn Suit, then it becomes Pacific Rim as I hunt down every Reaper near the Aurora.

Game: Baldur's Gate 3

Clorinde was intrigued by video games, but honestly wasn't too keen on the idea of trying it. It didn't seem up her alley.

Until S/O showed her a game like Tabletop Troupe, but this time without the fears of annihilating some poor Game Master's campaign.

(Clorinde) "...Do you mind if I give this game a try, S/O?"

Her expression doesn't really change as she's playing, but that's because Clorinde is really immersed in the world.

It's just a lot of fun to truly let loose and interact with the world and NPC's, no fear of dealing with any player trying to murder-hobo their way.

SHE could be the Murder-Hobo, finally. Not that she would.

She enjoys playing it in her off time, but nothing beats living players and rolling the dice herself however.

This game did give her a few ideas for some new campaigns however.

(Clorinde) "I'd be interested in seeing you play with me, S/O. What choices would you make? And by the way, in true Tabletop Troupe fashion, we're not save-scumming. Once you roll the D20, our fate is sealed."

A/N: OS TAV RO VA VIVOLKAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

[conclover]

Thomas Lawrence x Reader x Vincent Benítez — Part 5

Summary: It has been a long time since you last saw Thomas, and now you’re building a new life with Vincent. Yet, a part of you still longs for him and Thomas feels the same way.

Warnings: +18, ordinary missionary (I have a vanilla side). Also, there are some references to suicide. So it’s not that vanilla after all.

Notes: Straight into it.

Word count: 5k

The only sounds that echoed through the Pope’s chamber were the rhythmic creaks of a king sized bed and the breathless invocation of God’s name, though His name was spoken in vain by the lips of two sinners. One of the sinners was still tethered to the divine, the other long escaped from its suffocating grasp.

You no longer cared about being heard. Not even by God, or by any curious nun who might pass by. Vincent cared even less. Perhaps the power of the papacy had gone to his head. Or maybe it was the crushing weight of piety, the years of sanctified restraint denying his most basic instincts. Either way, he needed release. A release he had convinced himself he deserved.

You were surprised by how easy it was to tempt these men of the cloth. The way they longed for the forbidden, like Eve reaching for the apple. It was almost laughable. And now, you had the Pope himself thrusting into you like a man possessed by Satan.

Vincent touched you like someone who’d been clearly starving for years. He grasped your boobs, watching in delight as they bounced with every deep thrust and sucked on them like he could find salvation.

These men were always the same. Puritanical, yet so deeply depraved beneath the robes. It was probably the first pair of breasts he’d seen since that mangled painting of Agatha of Sicily. But this time, the image wasn’t grotesque and besides, it was real, driving him mad with lust.

With how sky high these men’s sex drives were, you could only hope for one thing: that they’d last long enough for you to actually call it a proper fuck.

“Vincent...��� you exhaled his name, barely able to catch your breath.

He was thrusting into you at an unbelievable speed, but he was barely present. Even if his eyes were on you, they were lost somewhere else. Maybe in Heaven. This must have been what everyday life in Eden felt like, before God casted out His two lovely guests for daring to sin.

Sweat glistened against his skin, a thin layer that traced every contour of his body. It ran in slow streams down his temples and neck, and slid to the rest of his body, following the rhythm of his movement. Some of the drops fell into your chest, like he was blessing you with holy water. And it really felt like that, like something sacred passed between you in silence, but the truth of it was far more raw. More intimate. More primal.

“You’re not real,” he whispered against your neck, as if saying it out loud might make it true. As if he needed to believe this was a dream, not a sin. It had to be some lucid dream like reward God had granted him for being the favourite one in the Church. “You can’t be.”

You could’ve laughed, but the sound came out as a moan instead, swallowed by his mouth as he kissed you like he was trying to learn the taste of Heaven.

“God,” he groaned, your body moving with the force of each thrust. “Why do you feel so... fucking good?” His voice cracked like worship offered from the mouth of a sinner who knew he’d burn for it.

His nails carved into your thighs, anchoring you to him. But he kept slipping, mind adrift, like every stroke of him inside you was pulling him further from the world. Each thrust was a desperate plea that seemed to crack open his soul. His grip tightened even further, fingers digging deeper as if trying to pull you closer, even though he was already there, drowning in you.

This wasn’t even his first time with you, and he was already on the verge, cussing like a different man entirely. Sex had taken its toll on him. On his whole damn personality. Ever since you moved in, things had spiraled fast. There were no days of rest. Every night, without fail, Vincent came looking for you like a man possessed.

He’d show up at your door, sometimes still in his robes, sometimes half undressed like he couldn’t wait anymore. Eyes wild, voice low and raspy, sometimes more playful than stressed, depending on what kind of day he’d had. And you? You let him in every time or followed him to whatever new location was left in the Vatican to explore. Not out of love exactly, but because watching the Pope unravel over your body was delicious beyond reason.

He wasn’t the holy man the world saw anymore. Not when he was fucking you like the rapture might come mid thrust. Not when he was inside you, muttering prayers and curses like they meant the same thing. He’d claw at salvation through your skin, swear he could feel God in your breath, and still come undone like the weak, filthy mortal creature he really was.

“I’m close... oh, my sweet angel... (Y/N)...” he stammered, voice trembling in uneven bursts, punctuated by small, desperate moans that reverberated through the space between you.

His movements were more erratic, but he still took a firm hold of you, even as his body trembled with the weight of his own need to release. You could feel the shift in him, the way he fought to maintain composure, but it was clear he was losing that battle with each passing second.

His body was so sure of what it wanted, every thrust purposeful, yet his voice faltered, as if even asking for it was too much. “Can I...?”

The words barely made it out. His gaze dropped, eyes darting from yours to the pillow, too nervous to meet your eyes. He didn’t finish the question. He couldn’t. Even if he was good when it came to having sex, he still struggled to talk about it. His tongue stumbled over the simplest phrases, as though even speaking them aloud would expose him in ways he wasn’t ready for.

“Come inside me?” you whispered, finishing the phrase for him, your voice a teasing caress.

Your fingers traced the damp curve of his cheek, urging him to look at you, to surrender to the moment.

Vincent’s brown eyes flickered to yours and it was almost comical how fast he nodded. He really wanted this. And when you smiled with a knowing curve on your lips, as though granting the wish he’d been silently praying for, his control unraveled. He leaned foward, lifting your legs over his shoulders with a sudden urgency. His hands trembled, unsteady but holding you there, as though he couldn’t hold himself anymore.

“Mhmmm... my God, ah, fuck,” he groaned as his eyes fluttered, almost rolling back in pleasure.

His body stiffened slightly as he filled you, the moment hanging in the air like a breath held too long. But despite the overwhelming pleasure, his eyes didn’t leave yours. He really needed to hold onto something in the chaos of his own body’s release.

“I’ve made a mess…” he murmured, his voice thick with awareness as he slipped out of you.

“Nothing new,” you replied, glancing down at the evidence of what had happened, a soft smile tugging at your lips. “But it doesn’t matter, sweetheart.”

You brought his head closer to yours, fingers gently brushing strands of black hair away from his sweaty forehead. He stayed there for a moment, his eyes soft, enjoying the deep connection between you. A gentle smile curved his lips before he placed a soft kiss on yours.

“I love you,” he said for the first time, his voice quiet, almost fragile. “Just wanted to let you know that.”

The words were a quiet surrender, a tenderness that contrasted with the intensity of everything before. You could feel the weight of his vulnerability, the rawness of his admission. His breath still trembled, but not only from the sex. There was something deeper in it now, as if he had said something he hadn’t expected to share.

But you froze, the suddenness of it sending a rush of something familiar flooding through you. A flood of memories of Thomas. A similar moment, once so real, now haunting in its echo. The emotions you had buried so deeply surged to the surface, and without warning, tears began to spill.

Vincent’s expression faltered, a flash of concern crossing his face as he took in the sight of your tears. He immediately pulled you close, unsure of himself, unsure if what he said had been the right thing, but desperate to comfort you nonetheless. His arms wrapped around you, tentative yet full of the need to make things right, to soothe whatever was breaking inside you.

“I’m sorry, I just…” You tried to explain between sobs, trying to find the right words without hurting him.

“Don’t worry… I understand.” He pulled you into a sitting position, still cradling you against him. His voice was soft, reassuring. “Too soon for that.”

He knew. He could feel the grief still raw in you, the lingering shadows of your past love that hadn’t fully healed. And though he understood the timing wasn’t right, a part of him still ached to show you his love, to fill the empty spaces he knew you carried.

...

You couldn’t recall the last time you saw Thomas, not since the fight, not since the day you left him. The Vatican had swallowed him up, its vast, towering walls closing in like a labyrinth that left you disoriented and empty. You never expected the palace to be this big, this overwhelming. And now, it seemed like you might never find him again.

Had he resigned? Was he purposefully avoiding you?

You couldn’t help but wonder. If only he knew how to use a phone, your messages would have been flooded with desperate pleas for you to return to him. But then again, you might have blocked him by now.

It wasn’t long before a nun mentioned in passing that Thomas was still around, still working in the Vatican, still coming in. Though it seemed like his heart was no longer in managing things. He’d been leaning more and more toward a shift in his career, toward the priesthood.

For a while, you thought his silence was his way of telling you he had moved on. That he no longer cared. That you meant nothing to him anymore. But the whispers you overheard painted a different picture. He was struggling, his mood darker by the day and worse during the night. Vincent had told you he barely ate. His appetite was so low that Vincent often had to force food into him, but nothing seemed to help.

Vincent didn’t really know what had happened. He wasn’t aware of the pain that lay between you and Thomas. You hadn’t shared much with him, not about that. You still held some respect for Thomas and his career. But did that really matter? Vincent, too, had succumbed to the same temptations Thomas had once fallen into.

“He asked about you,” Vincent said casually, handing you an envelope. “Again.”

You could feel the weight of his words even though he was trying to sound indifferent. He wanted to know more, wanted to understand what had really happened between you and Thomas. He could imagine it, but he needed it to come from you, or from Thomas, to make sense of the pieces he’d been piecing together.

“Oh,” you said, glancing at the envelope in your hand, your heart tightening. “How is he?”

Vincent’s eyes softened, his voice gentle and steady. “I know you two were… close, once.”

He kissed your forehead gently, a whisper of affection that lingered for a bit before his gaze turned more serious.

“I think you should talk to him…”

You hesitated, staring at the envelope, torn between the past and present.

“It’s not that simple…” you replied, the words feeling heavier than you expected. “It’s like he’s been hiding from me all this time. I don’t even know where to find him.”

Vincent’s gaze never wavered. He knew more than he let on, but he wasn’t one to press. He respected your silence.

“I think you do,” he said, his tone knowing but kind, as though he had already understood everything without you saying a word.

He wasn’t judging you, he never did. He only wished for you to open yourself up to him, to reveal the things you hadn’t shared yet.

You met his gaze, a small smile tugging at your lips. He returned it, soft and understanding. His hand reached up to gently caress your cheek, as if to remind you that he didn’t mind it, that he would wait for you to be ready.

“I’ll see you tomorrow...” he said softly, pressing a kiss to your lips, lingering just a moment longer than necessary. “Sleep tight, my angel.”

As Vincent walked toward the door, you remained where you were, frozen in place, his words echoing softly in your mind. The memories came creeping back. You could not ignore them. Thomas’s laugh, the way he used to look at you when he thought you weren’t watching, the last fight, the silence that followed.

That was when your gaze dropped to the envelope in your hand.

You opened it slowly, heart quickening as your eyes traced the handwriting. It was neat, careful and a touch dramatic.

It was from him.

My dearest (Y/n),

The letter began with the deepest intimacy and elegance, only the kind an old English man like Thomas could muster.

You let out a shaky breath, a small, involuntary smile pulling at your lips as a single tear welled in your eye. You sat down slowly, the letter trembling slightly in your fingers, and prepared to read whatever words he’d finally found the courage to say.

The days have felt dreadfully hollow in your absence. By now, I suspect you’ve heard that I’ve not been at my best. I have tried, but I have never truly known what to do with a broken heart. Perhaps I’ve always been broken.

But if there is one thing I have come to understand with painful clarity, it is this: I am, and always have been, an utter fool for you.

At first, I believed what I needed was distance. From this place, from the endless obligations, from the life I had devoted myself into. But if I’m honest and I must be, if this letter is to mean anything, I wasn't running from that, but from you. From every shadow, every corner, every routine that still bore the shape of your memory.

And yet, here you are, still everywhere.

God, I cannot even walk past the chapel where we first made love. It used to feel magical every time I stepped inside. Now, it aches. Every stone, every whisper in the walls, every echo of you. I just can’t bring myself to walk past it.

I hardly eat. I cannot even meet my own eyes in the mirror. The man staring back is a stranger, an older version of who I once was. And I confess, I miss who I was with you. I miss laughing. It only felt natural when I was with you. I miss your smart jokes. I miss your love. I miss your body. I miss everything.

But forgive me. I didn’t mean to make this a litany of self-pity. I wrote this letter because I needed you to know, above all else, how deeply, endlessly I love you. I will always love you.

The guilt I carry for how I treated you it’s a weight I bear every day. I still break when I think of your face that night. Your fear, your silence, and my cowardice. The image of you, frightened and small in my bed, has never left me. I weep for it still to this day.

Yes, I am a sick man. Sick with love for you, you could say. But I know that love alone does not absolve. It does not undo harm. And it does not justify the pain I caused you.

I’m not asking for your forgiveness, because I don’t deserve it. The truth is I do not deserve you. Perhaps I never did.

Oddly enough, there’s something liberating in admitting that. Writing it now brings a strange sort of peace to my heart.

You have found someone who does deserve you. I see that. I hear it in passing, I feel it in the air around you. And I am genuinely glad that you found him. Vincent is a good man. Kind, handsome, young, generous, unafraid to love without expecting anything in return. He is everything I am not.

Believe it or not, I am happy for you both. Truly. If I cannot be a part of your present, it is some comfort to know that your future is filled with warmth and care.

Still, I carry you with me. You always appear in my prayers. Always.

You remain, as ever, lodged deeply in my heart. And I know I can die in peace, knowing you have found someone you love, and someone who loves you as you deserve.

With all the love I have left, Thomas

You didn’t finish reading the letter. You couldn’t. The last few lines blurred before your eyes, not from tears, but from panic.

Your fingers tightened around the paper as a wave of dread surged through you. Something in his words set off an alarm inside you. The quiet peace he wrote about didn’t feel like peace at all. It felt like a goodbye.

I can die in peace.

The phrase echoed in your mind, louder with each repetition.

You stood up so fast the chair scraped violently against the floor. The letter crumpled slightly in your fist as you stumbled backward, heart racing. Vincent’s name flickered in your mind for a brief second, but you didn’t stop to tell him. You didn’t even stop to think.

You just ran through the corridors, past the disapproving glances of clergy and nuns. You knew the Vatican like the lines of your own palm now, every shadowed hallway, every locked door, every staircase. And you now knew exactly where he might be.

The chapel.

The one he said he couldn’t bear to enter anymore.

You turned a corner, nearly colliding with a group of priests, murmured a frantic apology, and kept going.

Please be there. Please be safe. Please God.

God?

Yes. God. You were desperate.

Your thoughts raced as fast as your feet. You didn’t know what you would say. You only knew you had to see him. Had to stop him. Because for all the pain, for all the broken pieces and haunted silences, part of you still loved him.

You reached the heavy wooden doors and flung them open.

“Thomas!” you screamed, the name tearing from your throat.

You desperately looked through every corner of the chapel, your heart thundering in your chest. The silence was suffocating and he was nowhere to be found, the shadows deepening with each second that passed.

Then, the image of Christ above you caught your eye. His face was carved in sorrow, full of pain and quiet suffering. His imploring eyes seemed to follow you as you moved. You froze, a wave of sudden understanding rushing over you. His gaze wasn’t following you, it was pointing toward something: the confessional booth.

You hadn’t thought to look there. You’d ignored it in your panic, rushing past everything in search of him. But now, it felt like the only place left he could be.

He might be there. Yes. He has to be. Please God. Please.

You reached out, your breath shallow, your fingers trembling slightly as you grasped the edge of the door. But the door didn’t open.

Your heart sank. You stood frozen for a moment, the weight of his absence pressing down on you. It was as though he had chosen to shut himself in, to cut himself off from the world and from you.

You quickly moved to the other side of the booth, hands shaking as you reached for the other door. This time, it opened with a soft creak. And there he was, on the other side.

“Thomas,” you said louder than you meant to.

At first, all you could make out was his silhouette, shrouded in the dim light of the booth. His figure was hunched slightly, as if the very act of existing in this world had become a burden. He didn’t look up as you sat inside, like if he had become part of the shadows himself.

For a moment, you thought it was too late. But then you heard it, the soft, uneven sound of his breathing, ragged and heavy in the stillness of the confessional.

“(Y/n)...”

His voice was hoarse, as though it had been a long time since he’d spoken aloud. The words felt like an exhale, as if hearing your voice had reanimated him from his restless sleep.

“My dearest Thomas,” your voice cracked as you spoke his name, each syllable strained with the weight of your fear and relief. “I thought you were…”

“Dead?” he finished, his tone surprisingly calm.

He shifted in his seat, the dim light catching the sharpness of his features, but his eyes remained hidden in shadow.

“What a poor image of me you have, my dear,” he said softly, almost teasingly. “Though I can’t entirely blame you. I haven’t done the best to portray myself in a good light.”

For a brief fleeting moment, you both laughed, the absurdity of it all hanging in the air like a fragile thread between you.

“My God,” he exhaled, his voice thick with something you couldn’t quite place. His fingers, pale and trembling, poked through the holes of the lattice, as if seeking connection. “You don’t know how much I missed your laugh.”

“Thomas,” you snapped, voice still trembling with worry. “Why did you lock yourself in here?”

He fell silent at your words, his shoulders slumping once again. You could see the light slowly draining from him, but you refused to let him spiral further into despair.

“Why, Thomas?” you insisted, your voice softer now, but no less urgent.

You reached toward the wall that separated you, fingertips brushing against his through the cold lattice.

“I didn’t want you to see me in this state...” His words were heavy, filled with an ache that only he could understand. “But I still wanted to hear your voice.”

“Thomas!” you exclaimed, voice cracking with frustration. “I want to see you. No matter what.”

Your heart raced as you pressed your hand against the lattice, wishing it would dissolve so that the distance between you both could just vanish.

“Please,” you whispered, your voice softening not just for him to open up, but for him to come back to life, to come back to you. “Tommy.”

You closed your eyes, letting the weight of everything hit you all at once. Your face crumpled in your hands, your sobs echoing through the quiet of the confessional booth.

And then, in the midst of your brokenness, you heard it. The soft click of his door and then yours.

You froze. Your heart stuttered in your chest as your breath caught in your throat. You slowly lifted your head, wiping your eyes, and when you turned, he was there, standing in front of you.

At first, you couldn’t quite process what you were seeing. The figure before you seemed unfamiliar yet painfully familiar at the same time. He was standing there, not quite close enough to touch, but just close enough for you to see everything.

He looked... older. It wasn’t just the lines that had deepened on the paleness of his skin. There was something more to it. A weariness that clung to him like a second skin. The time apart had left its mark not only on his appearance, but in his soul.

He looked thinner too. It was true, then, what they had said. He hadn’t been eating. The hollowness in his cheeks and the sharpness of his jawline told the story of a man who had lost more than weight. He had lost something far deeper.

“I know I look ugly…”

Thomas let out a sigh, a long, defeated exhale that seemed to drain all the strength from his body.

Slowly, he turned his back to you, as if trying to shield you from the image of his brokenness, from the way he felt about himself.

“No,” you whispered, your voice sure as you took a step toward him. “Thomas, you don’t—”

He cut you off, his voice tinged with a kind of rawness that made it clear he was already retreating. “You don’t have to lie to me. I know what I’ve become and I don’t blame you if you can’t look at me the same way anymore.”

You didn’t say anything, you simply reached out, gently touching his arm, your fingers trembling against the dark fabric of his sleeve. His blue eyes, filled with unshed tears, met yours.

“I never stopped loving you,” you said simply, your hand still resting on his arm, grounding both of you in the moment. “I never will.”

He seemed to hesitate, as if the weight of your words was too much to bear. But slowly, cautiously, he reached out, brushing a stray lock of hair from your face with trembling fingers.

Without thinking, your hands moved on their own. You cupped his wrinkled face between your palms. You could feel the heat of his breath on your lips, a mixture of tension and longing hanging in the air between you both.

Then, you pulled him toward you. The kiss was sudden, urgent, a surge of emotion that didn’t ask for permission. His thin lips didn’t pucker at first, caught off guard by the force of your movement, but then he seemed to relax, his eyes fluttering shut as he leaned into it, as though this was the only thing he needed right now.

His hands, at first unsure, found their way to your backside, pulling you closer to his body. His touch was desperate, as if this was the last time he could taste you. The kiss deepened, every bit of emotion that had been simmering between you both crashing to the surface.

Time seemed to stretch out, the world outside the chapel fading away. All that existed was the warmth of his touch, the softness of his lips, and the overwhelming sense that, for this brief moment, everything that had been broken between you both was starting to heal.

When you finally pulled away, your breath mingling in the space between you, you were both left in the silence of the moment. For a long while, neither of you spoke.

“Don’t leave me again,” you whispered, your voice barely audible, but full of conviction.

“I never did,” He pressed his forehead against yours, his breath shaky but steadying. “I thought you didn’t want to see me.”

“I do, but you have to stop all of this nonsense,” you murmured, your voice almost teasing as you pressed your lips against his cheekbone.

He closed his eyes at the soft touch, and a faint, contented smile tugged at the corner of his lips.

A brief, comfortable silence settled between you two, but then his voice broke it, filled with uncertainty. “So, what do we do now?” he asked, his tone soft but laced with genuine concern for what lay ahead.

But to your ears, his question sounded different. It wasn’t the question of a man unsure of his place in your world. It was a question of someone craving more, wanting to feel your body once again.

You hummed, your eyes drifting toward the altar behind you, where great memories had once been made. It felt like the right place to turn everything over again, to begin again.

“How about...” you began, your voice low and sultry, your gaze fixed on the altar, “...we recreate some memories?”

You watched his expression shift, the flicker of awareness lighting in his eyes. The tension in his body grew as he followed your gaze, then returned to you, his breath catching in his throat.

He stepped closer, his hand gently cupping your chin, tilting your face to meet his. “You’ve got a wicked way of tempting me, darling...” he whispered, his voice thick with both desire and affection.

“I don’t think you require much tempting,” you replied with a playful wink as the two of you made your way toward your favorite place.

“Are you saying I’m easy?” he asked, feigning shock as one eyebrow arched.

“No,” you said, tracing a finger along his jaw as you slowly settled onto the altar. “But I wouldn’t say it took much to get you on your knees.”

“How about Vincent?” he asked softly, resting his palms against the cold stone, caging you in.

“Vincent.” You echoed his name, caught off guard.

“Darling,” he leaned in closer, eyes searching yours for an honest answer. “I know.”

“You know.”

“Yes.”

Thomas didn’t seem to mind it and you wondered what had happened to the man you had once run from.

[thetelesterion]

Hiii, I'm new to helpol. What are the guidelines around prayer? I know you're supposed to wash your hands first, so I always do, but are there other things I'm supposed to do? I'm coming from a Christian upbringing where the sentiment was very "you could pray while taking a shit and God wouldn't mind it"

Hello anon!

I'm no scholar or expert on anything related to Hellenic Polytheism but I will do my best to answer this, as well as give examples from my own practices.

So, while there are no strict "guidelines" on how to pray, we have ancient sources which help us understand how the ancient Greeks would have prayed and worshipped.

Firstly, like you pointed out, washing one's hands was essential. I'm not gonna get into the whole "miasma" thing, as there are others who cover that far more gracefully and informatively than I ever could. Ordinary water is fine for this.

Secondly, there is the structure of prayer. The basic components of a prayer are:

1. Invocation (Calling upon the god/gods, usually with their epithets and titles)

2. Argument (Basically saying why the god/gods should listen to your prayer)

3. The Petition (This is where you ask the gods for any requests, favors, or anything else you're praying to them for)

"Casual" prayers are also historically attested and don't always follow this structure. Essentially, you can pray to the gods whenever you wish, but personally I like to follow a basic structure like that when I pray in front of my altar at home. But, in short, formal prayers are not the only acceptable prayers.

I will give a link to this wonderfully detailed post by @ olympianbutch that covers the structure of prayer in a lot more depth!

Finally, on the topic of gestures and postures made during prayer, there are a few that we know of historically. There is the "orans" posture involves the raising of both arms towards the heavens, and is meant for prayers and rituals involving the Ouranic, or heavenly gods. For Khthonic/Underworld deities, a worshipper would bow low to the ground or fully prostrate, and yell into the earth so the gods below would hear them.

Now... that last one obviously is tricky in most modern settings, and I usually don't do the yelling bit myself. But I do a mixture of both postures since I have several Ouranic and Khthonic deities on my altar.

When it comes to saying silent prayers or saying prayers out loud, I do a mix of both. Sometimes, I don't feel the energy to say anything out loud, and I sit in front of my altar and let the smell of my incense fill the air. It puts me in a good state of mind, and helps me focus on the gods.

Overall, if you take any of this advice and incorporate it into your own practices, always be sure to avoid pushing yourself. Do what you're able to do. The Theoi see and appreciate all the effort we give, even if we think we're not doing enough. And keep learning! Keep digging, keep reading, and keep asking. There's always something to learn.

[jennarations]

Would love your landoscar fic recs 💌

your wish is my absolute command 🫡🫡

i’ve gone back to college and started student teaching and gotten covid and adopted a kitten all in the last two weeks so i haven’t gotten to read as much but here is what i’ve got! the key is the same as the lestappen fic rec:

> (Title) +/= (Multichaptered/One-Shot)

(Summary)

!!! (Link)

• (Tags - please note these are just the tags I saw relevant to myself, double check the fics themselves for any other tags you might deem relevant!) *(Word count)

Here we go! I’m also tagging some of the bestest and loveliest authors at the bottom of the post, go send them some love!! (Putting it under a Read More for all of our collective sanity)

My one (1) work (shameless self plug heheheh):

> Thunderstruck =

Lando has a childhood fear of thunderstorms and in a record-breaking year for rainfall, Oscar Piastri becomes his new teammate.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50579323?view_adult=true

• Falling in love, Slight pining, Fluff, Humor *8.1k

—

> If You’re Barbie, And I’m Barbie, Then Who’s Driving the Bus? =

Anyways, the driver room is largely quiet at the moment. But not entirely, much to Lando’s enjoyment.

Buzzing from Oscar’s headphones, loud enough for Lando to hear the words, is a song from Barbie.

Charli XCX, no less.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/48940792#main

• Fluff, Comedy *800 words

> Mortifying! Anyways, =

Mortifying interaction, but he’d survive. Besides, it’s not like the cashier was that cut–

“Cute enough to make you stupid, huh Norris?” He could hear his smile before he saw his face, a proper Cheshire grin.

“Fuck off mate,” Lando groaned, already trying to scrub the cashier from his brain. Except for the Australian accent, he decided; that bit could stay. Maybe his eyes, too, as tired as they had seemed. And his hair, which looked so soft in that kind of ridiculous side part.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49328047/chapters/124474876?

• College AU, Clumsy Lando, Meet-cute *2.3k

> The New Normal =

He wears a lot of shorts.

Lando had thought that Daniel wore shorts a lot, and then along came Oscar. It must be something about Australians.

Carlos never wore shorts.

Oscar’s pale, unblemished, muscular (and hairy) thighs spill out of the team issued black shorts whenever they sit to film content, or sit in meetings, or whenever Oscar sits in Lando’s general vicinity while wearing them.

They’re not a distraction.

OR Lando’s very healthy obsession with his new teammate’s thighs.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49335997/chapters/124496539?

• Pining, Slight smut *8k

> Invocations One Fall Away From the Concrete = ♥️

“Okay,” Lando says. “What’s your power?”

“Telekinesis,” Oscar replies a little too easily, like he’s trying not to make a big deal out of it. In fact, he’s already looking back down at his form. Lando doesn’t miss the way he seems completely stumped by the ‘Birth date’ square though.

Telekinetics are far and few between. You’re probably more likely to be struck by lightning twice than to meet a telekinetic. They’re so highly sought after in the hero industry that any telekinetic baby would automatically have a net worth of at least three hundred billion US dollars the second it was born. Moreover Oscar's an Oxy. It’s like, the jackpot of jackpots. This guy’s simply unreal on paper.

Lando scrunches up his face, rolls his eyes and says, “alright.” He shrugs. “Nothing to write home about, then.”

--------------------

AKA the low-key superpowers au where they have to activate their powers doing a really specific thing. Oscar's activation is a mystery to Lando, but it involves a lot of good stuff, pinky promise. (Lando Wink™)

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49508506/chapters/124953475?

• Non-Driver AU, Superpowers AU, Roommates, Slight Angst, Fluff, Humor *10.3k

> Only Found = ♥️

“Hey, well. No strings attached, right?” Oscar says, strategically.

Lando smiles and says, “hell yeah. And now that that’s established, what’s your stance on aliens? Also, do you still want your cake?”

--

cinderella soulmates au where whatever you lose, your soulmate finds. except: oscar has a soulmate and lando is a No-Match, a person who doesn't have a soulmate.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49218676#main

• Non-Driver AU, Soulmates AU, Lawyer!Oscar, Streamer!Lando, Angst, Fluff *6.8k

> Carried Away =

"Oscar," Lando said. "Don't hate me, alright, but I've—”

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/48871015#main

• Non-Driver AU, Fake Relationship, Angst, Fluff, Humor *22.1k

> Little Bit of Love =

“I’m freezing,” Lando says. Whines, really. “Don’t be mean, Oscar, I feel like shit.”

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49143811

• Sick fic, Fluff, Realization of Feelings *4.7k

> Signed Sealed =

Delivered

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/48959461#main

• Text fic, NSFW pics *4.3k

> Smokeshow =

Because Oscar won the American football challenge, Lando had to wear the cheerleader uniform.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/48546973#main

• Smut, Cheerleader uniform Lando, Brat!Lando *3.5k

> I’ll Kiss You First =

“Uh,” Oscar says, when they’re in the car on their way to the airport. “I think you’re—um. Going into heat, mate.”

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/47264011#main

• A/B/O, Alpha!Oscar, Omega!Lando, Smut *3.1k

> Sunflower Seeds =

Not worth dwelling on, really. Oscar doesn’t have to understand him to be on his team. If he were a pitcher, it would be different; Oscar has to get his pitchers in order to do his job as a catcher well. Lando isn’t a pitcher, though. So it’s fine.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49596088/chapters/125175172?

• Non-Driver AU, Baseball AU, Realization of Feelings, Fluff *8.6k

> Chronically Bitchless But Still Wifed Up = ♥️

Lando wasn’t above throwing his weight around in order to get what he wanted, at least in some circumstances. And he wanted to meet Oscar Piastri.

In general, he wanted to go to a MotoGP weekend and probably could have either bought tickets and waited around there like a normal person or asked one of his actual sort-of friends in the paddock to hang out in their garage, but the more specific desire was to meet Oscar Piastri.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49301212#main

• MotoGP!Oscar, Driver!Lando, Fluff, Humor *8.3k

> Negative Splits =

So officially, Oscar Piastri, pretty good steepler and pretty bad pacer, was now a professional runner.

They wanted him to steeple, mostly, though he’d be doing cross country in the fall, and Lando had pinky promised him, mid-distance guy to mid-distance guy, that if he wanted to get into the 3k flat indoor then he would get him in.

Oscar didn’t really want to ask how he planned on doing that. Felt safer not to ask.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/48161206#main

• Non-Driver AU, Professional Runner AU, Injuries, Angst, Humor, Hurt/Comfort *10.1k

> Thinkin Bout Your Touch =

Lando’s brain gets so occupied by the thought it shouldn’t come as a surprise really, when a few rounds later Oscar says, “Dare.” Lando blurts out, “Let me suck your dick.”

There’s a long, awkward silence in which they just stare at each other, Oscar’s expression completely unreadable. “Uh,” he eventually says. “I think a dare is something I’m supposed to do.”

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/48704749?view_adult=true#main

• PWP, Blowjob *2.3k

> I’ve Tasted Blood (And I Want More) =

Lando grabs a pillow and hits him with it, while Oscar laughs loudly. His fangs are on full display, white and sharp and pretty. “You know what I mean, you dickhead!”

“Yeah, I know what you mean,” Oscar says, eyes twinkling. “You want me to use you as a human Capri Sun. You know, like a weirdo.”

“God, you’re making this so much worse than it is,” Lando says, burying his face in his hands. It’s. Well, it’s embarrassing, but Oscar also hasn’t outright said no, so. You know what they say. In for a penny, in for a pound. “So, will you?” And then, just in case, he adds. “Suck my blood?”

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/48136999#main

• Vampire!Oscar, PWP *5.6k

> Legerdemain =

“You’re so modest it’s disgusting,” Lando says. “Michelle’s told me all about it. You winning against some master back in Australia. Anyways, she wants to hop on the bandwagon, get us to play chess, take photos after the weekend. She thinks you could teach me. It would show that you’re pedantic and that I’m pushing past my comfort zone...”

Oscar scoffs. “If Michelle’s only taking photos, why do I need to teach you it? Couldn’t we just pose with a chess set, like the Williams drivers?”

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49690744/chapters/125422075?

• Chess, Humor, Sexual Tension *5.8k

> What You Do To Me =

“Oh,” Oscar says, because what else are you supposed to say when your teammate says ‘I wish I still had a girlfriend so I could fuck some of that frustration out of me’. “I mean. I uh. I could give you a blowjob? I’d suggest a fuck but I don’t have any lube on me right now and I’m guessing you don’t either.”

Huh, would you look at that. Looks like the award for ‘most insane statement of the night’ doesn’t go to Lando after all.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/47993518?view_adult=true#main

• PWP, Blowjob *2.5k

> Purring in My Lap (cause he loves me) =

The cat thing ends up getting sort of explained in Bahrain, when Lando walks into his driver room and finds a small orange cat sitting on his couch.

Oscar’s cat, presumably.

And he kind of looks like Oscar, too. Slender, lean, and with a slightly grumpy, unimpressed expression on his face. It makes Lando laugh a little. Like owner, like pet, clearly. “Should I just call you Oscat, then,” Lando jokes, giving the cat a little head scratch.

The cat, Oscat, stops rubbing at Lando’s hand and just stares at him instead. Lando would almost say he was looking at him disapprovingly, but it is a cat, so he’s probably just imagining things.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/47878867#main

• Cat!Oscar, Fluff, Slight Angst *5k

> In Limbo =

“So what, you like me?”

Tick this box for yes, and this box for no. Fold it tight. Slide the paper under the desk. Don’t let anyone see.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49619383#main

• PWP, Dubious Consent *2.3k

> Eyes on Me =

He just doesn’t understand why Oscar stares so much.

It first comes to his attention at the pre-season media shoots. They have to be photographed in the new gear, and the new suits, and all the while a video camera is rolling to capture content for some behind the scenes pre-season footage. Lando likes to look back at the content they film, just to see how awkward he is.

He looks over some of the test photos while the videos load, and he sees Oscar’s eyes on him a lot of the time. Lando’s own are on the camera, his posture relaxed as he goes through the motions of what the team asks of him.

OR

Lando notices just how much Oscar stares at him, until one day he realises just how much he stares back.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49769368#main

• Mutual Pining *3.8k

> Home Is Wherever You Are =

‘You know, we could ask Carlos to babysit tonight,’ Lando mumbled against his mouth.

Oscar pulled back and hit his husband’s chest while laughing at him and shaking his head.

‘The man just arrived, babe, we can’t ask that right away!’

Lando pouted and pulled Oscar back against his chest. ‘But it’s been so long since it’s just been the two of us.’

OR: Lando and Oscar spend the day with their daughter and friends before finally having some alone time

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49909321

• Kid!fic, Established Relationship, Fluff *4.1k

> Grand Theft August =

Oscar Piastri, eh? It's not the worst idea he's ever had.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49975555?view_adult=true#main

• Angst, Humor, Smut *6.9k

> We’re All in the Butter But Some of Us Are Looking At the Cars = ♥️

Under it, the cross stitch with the Mandela quote, there was another one. A different one. Keep your feet on the ground and keep reaching for the stars. Stars, again. And then the one beneath that was also about stars. Weird, he thought, then went to the till to wait for his sister.

Above the pile, too high for twelve year old Oscar to read, a sign was stamped. SECTION #13: REACH FOR THE STARS.

Twenty two year old Oscar rests his nose to the glass and looks at the clouds.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49696357

• Angst, Slow burn, Prose, Realization of Feelings *14.3k

> Terraforming =

“WORMHOLES! An Einstein brain child. They are created when FTL objects puncture the bed sheet that is our universe. Going through them should be a trip through timespace, which sounds cool, except it’s not because we never know what’s on the other side—”

“I think you meant fabric, not bed sheet,” Oscar says.

Lando rolls his eyes. “It’s a metaphor, mate.”

“For what?”

“For like. The fabric of the universe.”

“Huh.”

“Shut up.”

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50099659

• Space AU, Non-Linear Narrative, Angst, Happy Ending *8.8k <- I literally haven’t read this yet because it was uploaded today but i love enzo and all their stuff is fantastic so i’m rec’ing it anyway :)

> Superdense Neutron Star//Post Supernova +

It felt good to laugh. Thursdays already kind of sucked, all of the walking and talking and nothing to do, even when he wasn’t being drilled on the abrupt shift of his career. It was manageable because it had to be; because there was half a season left and a championship spot left to fight for and a team that was still his home, even if he’d just been delivered the eviction notice.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49981615/chapters/126195823

• Angst, Fluff, Ambiguous Ending *21.8k <- i also have not had the time to read this one because of life, but i trust leaf with my feelings (and my life) so this also goes on the list.

EDIT 11/5: More additions to the list!

> Unraveled =

Lando does not have a thing for his roommate.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50085112/chapters/126476167?

• Non-Driver AU, Roommate AU, Bartender!Lando, Realization of Feelings *7.1k

> It’s Not Queerbaiting, It’s Saving the World =

Lando bursts into Oscar’s room without knocking. He’s red in the face and panting, sweat collecting on his forehead like he just ran a marathon.

“You need to kiss me.”

or, the drivers stage a protest, of sorts. Oscar might lose his mind.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49710619#main

• Fluff, Humor *1.6k

> Melepathic. Or Something =

“Thank God we used condoms,” mutters Oscar later, when they’re presentable, no doubt thinking back to last week when they. Well. Lando peeks out the door to check if the hallway is clear. It is.

“Yeah,” he says as he gestures Oscar out. “See you in a few, mate.” Oscar slips through and Lando picks up his phone again, sees a new message. Up for some fun tonight?

sure, says Lando after a moment. Amen to short refractory periods and all that.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/47589115#main

• Smut, Miscommunication, Happy Ending, FWB *8.5k

> What Would You Do (If I Went To Touch You Now?) =

“Okay, so they both like each other. We need to get them together.”

“How? Lando’s too freaked out to think straight and Oscar is the human embodiment of the standing man emoji.”

Charles purses his lips for a moment before he snatches his boyfriend’s phone up from the other side of the table.

“What are you doing?”

“Initiating Mission Landoscar.”

“Did you just make that up?”

Charles waves at him dismissively as he begins texting, and Max lays his head down on the coffee table and prays for strength.

***

In which Max tries to prove to an oblivious Charles how glaringly obvious it is that Lando is head over heels in love with Oscar. When Charles finally gets with the program, Lestappen go on A Mission™ to get the two idiots to admit their feelings for each-other, but it’s easier said than done.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/48745483/chapters/122963314

• Lestappen as a plot device, Angst, Slight Smut, Fluff, Humor, Texting, Escape Room Shenanigans *29.7

> Soft Vanilla Foreplay = ♥️

“Oh shit, you’re,” Lando gasps, smiles. “You’re a. You’re Robin Hood. You’re a kitty Robin Hood.”

Oscar stops grinding. “Can we have this talk tomorrow?”

Lando laughs and comes down to place a kiss on Oscar’s lips. “Yeah. Oh yeah. Tomorrow. Tomorrow would be great. I’m sooooo busy right now. Hmm.”

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50382910/chapters/127293583?

• Vigilantes, Cat!Oscar, Hacker!Lando, Non-Driver AU, Slight angst, Humor, Happy Ending *8.6k

> Is it Gay to Watch Your Teammate on TikTok? (Asking for a friend) +

He’s sitting on the bed, dinner long since picked at, with his knees pulled up to his chest. He feels close to hyperventilating.

It’s playing on loop, some sappy little edit captioned “i need to find someone to look at me the same way oscar looks at lando”.

And really, who the fuck was going to tell him that Oscar smiles at him like that?

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/chapters/127611460?

• Fluff, Humor, Ship aware Lando (containment breach of RPF), Pining *4.6k

> HOCKEY!!! Shrimp Colors :) =

Montreal puts Oscar on waivers after years - years of bouncing from the feeder team up to the league, and then back down. Edmonton picks him up.

Edmonton keeps him. Lando does, too.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50562061/chapters/127728067?

• Non-Driver AU, Hockey AU, Leaf puts sports boys into other sports, Angst, Fluff *13.8k

> My Shelter in a Hurricane =

Oscar wants to help Lando get better after the disappointment of Qatar's GP qualification. He doesn't know how...

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50639854/chapters/127923673?

• Fluff, Established Relationship, Post-Qatar Quali, Slight Angst *1.4k

> Pretty When You Cry =

Lando wasn’t sure if he wanted to cry, rip his hairs out, punch a hole into a wall, maybe shove someone, or maybe all of the above.

Or: the mclaren boys comfort each other after that shipwreck of a qualifying.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50624551?view_adult=true#main

• Fluff, Slight Angst *1.4k

> Already Home = ♥️

Lando takes a deep steadying breath. “I think I might be in love with Oscar.” He says, and hates how immediately when he says the words, he knows it’s true.

“Right,” Max says, nodding. “And?”

“What do you mean, ‘and?’” Lando says, a little outraged. “I can’t be in love with him! We’re married! This is like, a disaster waiting to happen!”

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50704861/chapters/128087614?

• Non-Driver AU, Fake Marriage, Falling in Love, Angst, Humor, Fluff *32.5k

> Do You Like Me? Y/N =

oscar & lando have an awkward plane conversation, aided by uquiz.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50706235/chapters/128091004?

• Fluff *3.8k

> Recreate the Sun =

“You know who you sound like when you say that?” Lando asks absently, tossing the open bag of Skittles to one side and hoisting himself up the bed to rest against the pillows, head tipped back, the jut of his Adam’s apple catching stark in the TV’s flickering light.

On some level, Oscar already knows what’s coming. The Cheshire cat grin Lando gives to the ceiling near enough confirms it.

“Who?”

“Mark Webber.”

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/48632239

• PWP, Weed use, Oscar/Mark mentions *3k

> Landoscar Cooking Show =

Lando and Oscar's love story through food-related posts on Instagram

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50825998#main

• Picture fic, Social media fic, Fluff *0k

> Little Renaissance = ♥️

And Oscar - people said he didn’t like the spotlight, didn’t know how to capture it and keep it the way Lando did. They always compared the two of them, in that regard. Even after Oscar left. But they weren’t right, the strangers, not after the first year at least.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50824324/chapters/128393929?

• Future Fic, Retirement, Angst, Pining, Acceptance, Happy Ending, Prose *14.2k

> Those Magic Changes =

“Yeah, right.” Oscar’s beer tastes stale in his mouth. “Sure there’s other perks though, right?”

Logan’s attention has been taken by his phone. Probably a girl, Oscar thinks, or his Mom. Maybe there’s a particularly big fish being shared in the family group chat. He types out a message then locks it with purpose, chucking it face down on the table.

“Yeah, I mean. You know what they say happens when you podium, right? The girl thing?”

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49308133#main

• Fem!Oscar, Smut, PWP *7.8k

> Sometimes I Start To Think You Hate Me Too =

Lando seems to have come to the conclusion that his strategy of appeasing him isn't working, so he opts for being impersonal, objective. "You were optimistic, Carlos locked up, you both crashed. It was a racing incident, and you - you are being dumb about it."

It doesn't work.

He scoffs, upset, he has never left anything well alone, he digs his heels deeper. "I wasn't too optimistic, I was inexperienced, was I not?"

OR,

The deep fear of yearning, wanting and needing without understanding the jealousy that consumes you. Breaking and breathing heavily under an awfully put facade of everything going well.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49659349/chapters/125339467?

• Angst, Inner Turmoil, Fluff, Happy Ending *3.7k

> Mine =

All in all, it’d been a shit weekend for Oscar. He knew he was beating himself up over understandable, expected rookie mistakes, he knew it was a great learning opportunity, he knew that the damage to his car hadn’t been entirely his fault on both occasions. Even if he didn’t show it or express it outwardly, it stung to watch his teammate stand on the podium - P3 - after all that’d happened. It hurt even more when that P3 became P2 before they’d even finished celebrating.

Lando moved up in the championship, so did the team. He deserved it, but it hurt like a bitch.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/51053692?view_adult=true#main

• PWP, Dom!Oscar *2.8k

> Sanctus = ♥️

“Nessun maggior dolore che ricordarsi del tempo felice ne la miseria,” Oscar read. Recited. Proclaimed.

“There is no greater sorrow than thinking back upon a happy time in misery,” Lando echoed.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/50752399/chapters/128207113?

• Renaissance AU, Non-Driver AU, Angst, Master/Servant Relationship, Religious Imagery, Fluff, Happy Ending *5.5k

> Anything Less Than Human =

Oscar doesn’t really do entrances. Sure, in high society, it’s deemed necessary to stand at the top of some ridiculous staircase and wait for someone to announce your arrival. But that really only works in your favor if your name has any kind of good status associated with it.

Oscar’s not fortunate enough to fall into that category.

!!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/49902154/chapters/125979850?

• Vampire!Oscar, Masquerade Ball, Consensual Blood Sucking *2.7k

That’s all for now folks!

Authors (i love and cherish u all, you’re simply the light of my life):

@wanderingblindly @eisenberg @ocontraire @celientjeee @nyoomfruits @gaslybottoms and @ venerat (ao3 user)

P.S. whoever the nonnies are that wrote “Grand Theft August” and “We’re All in the Butter but Some of us are Watching the Cars” i would literally pay you to step on me, thanks and good night.

[dreaminginthedeepsouth]

We're in a war. I wrote about that here.

I was writing about last week's news when I was interrupted by this week's news, – I joked a few days ago that the whole country would love a slow news week, and I sure would. For one thing we could think about where we are and how we got there and what we do next, instead of scrambling to keep up with where we're going, by which I mean tumbling, falling, being shoved. But under Trump, the eruptions and the news stories about them stumble over each other, dogpile, shove each other aside, crowd each other out of our attention, shout each other down. Of course a lot of what's going on these days and any time Trump is in office is distraction from the distraction from the distraction from the stupid or corrupt or failed thing he just did or just backed off from doing, which is how he recently earned the acronym TACO (Trump always chickens out), which is why life under Trump is continuous whiplash.

Meanwhile the US military bombed Iran, and it seems like an incredibly stupid and bad thing to do, and most of the politicians I've seen speak up are speaking up against it – many Democrats (except for Pennsylvania's Senator John Fetterman, who's become a turkey who thinks he's a hawk) and Republican Thomas Massie, who had introduced a resolution to prohibit the US from joining Netanyahu's war and tweeted "this is not Constitutional" when news of the bombing broke.

It's worth remembering that this is a war of aggression started by Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu, a criminal who is massively unpopular in his own country. And that Netanyahu opposed the 2015 Joint Comprehensive Plan of Action, or JCPOA with Iran that was preventing Iran from pursuing a nuclear weapon – until Trump pulled the US out of the deal in 2018, against the wishes of the four major powers who, with the US, negotiated the deal and in opposition to the wishes of the majority of Americans.

Why did he pull out? Maybe because it was one of Obama's signal achievements, and undoing every one of them was one of his chief goals in his first term. Now Netanyahu has convinced Trump to join him, and he's dragging all the rest of us with him. "Netanyahu has spent the better part of two decades trying to strong arm the United States into an unprovoked war against Iran and finally found a president stupid enough to do it for him," notes political science professor David Faris.

It's also worth remembering that Secretary of Defense Pete Hegseth is covered in white supremacist and far-right tattoos, including a crusader's cross and one that reads "Deus Vult," literally God will it, but the phrase "has been popularised by the far-Right, as a rallying cry railing against the spread of Islam." By which I mean he's an idiot and a fanatic and incapable of assessing why this really bad decision is a really bad decision and mounting reasoned objections to it.

The attack has been compared to George W. Bush's invasions of Afghanistan in 2001 and Iraq in 2003, but in both conflicts the case for doing so had been built up iwith lies including many that falsely connected Iraq to the 9/11 attacks and with invocations of patriotism that became aggressive silencing of dissent (nevertheless a global antiwar movement, including strong protests in the US, preceded the March 2003 attack on Iraq). In this instance, no case for today's attack has been made, except the assertion that Iran is getting closer to having a nuclear weapons, and the whole business whereby Israel is a tail and the USA is the dog that gets wagged by it over and over.

Nuclear weapons are bad, it's reasonable to state, and also Israel has nuclear weapons, which it does not officially acknowledge. As the New York Times recently reported, "Israel is one of five countries — joining India, Pakistan, North Korea and South Sudan — that is not a signatory to the U.N. Nuclear Nonproliferation Treaty. The agreement, which came into force in 1970, generally commits governments to promoting peaceful uses of nuclear energy and preventing the spread of nuclear weapons. (Iran is a signatory to the treaty, although Israel and world powers have accused Tehran of violating it by unnecessarily enriching uranium at high enough levels to build a nuclear weapon.) Israel would have to give up its nuclear weapons to sign the treaty, which recognizes only five countries as official nuclear states: Britain, China, France, Russia and the United States."

Max Kennerly remarked on BlueSky, "When Trump withdrew from the JCPOA in May 2018, he made it the policy of the United States that every country should have an active nuclear weapons program. Today he made it clear they need to develop functional nuclear weapons as soon as possible. Nothing else can prevent a U.S. attack."

The rest at link: https://www.meditationsinanemergency.com/were-at-war-and.../

[Rebecca Solnit]

[dailycharacteroption]

Roleplay Ramblings: Spell Storage part 2

(art by Nimphradora on DeviantArt)

Writing

Magic, as we’ve well established over the years here on the blog and in society as a whole, is the power to go beyond the mortal limitations and affect reality through thought and will, typically by following ritualized practices to make it so, invoking the gods or spirits or simply forcing your will on reality.

Whatever the case may be, it is important to note that the idea of a book of spells, or grimoire as some may call them, dates back a very long time, as far back as Mesopotamia. For the non-history buffs out there, that means that spellbooks and written incantations and rituals have existed for pretty much as long as writing has. That’s super old, Over 5000 years ago old.

Now, whether these ritual books are more religious text or occult and if there is any significant difference between the two is a question for the historians and the theologians, but the fact is that as soon as they had a writing system, spiritual leaders were writing that shit down so they could just teach the next generation from it and also to remind themselves so that the oldest person in the village doesn’t stop the spring fertility rites because you forgot the rabbit blood and therefore are doing it wrong.

As civilization developed, however, it became increasingly clear that the written and spoken word were powerful tools for many reasons. Communication, records-keeping, history, complaining about poor quality copper, and more. It’s easy to see how such people would come to believe that the words themselves had power all their own. After all, to give name to something is to demonstrate a great enough understanding of it to choose such a name, and therefore, gain some measure of control over it.

And so throughout history and various cultures, the power of the written word is demonstrated, from religious texts to the Norse runes to the prayers and invocations written on ofuda, and more.

And with that crash course on the history of the written word as a source of mystical and spiritual power, let’s talk magic in settings where it can irrefutably be proven to exist.

So I guess the big elephant in the room when it comes to linguistics and magic, why does this cosmic force, underpinning structure of reality, or raw energy source respond to words? Whether they are spoken aloud or written down on scrolls or books, why does such a powerful thing react to some mortal waving their hands and invoking them? Depending on the setting, it might be because mages are simply giving description and form to what they want to happen. Alternatively, the words might be some primal language of the cosmos, the proverbial coding language of reality, which they tap into to run “programs”. Alternatively, maybe magic is in some way alive and aware, and spells are more like requests than commands.

Which brings me to my next question: Is the language of magic universal? Depending on setting and how you interpret certain things, it might be, or it might not. In many editions of D&D as well as Pathfinder, draconic is often used as the go-to language for writing down arcane magic, though this might be because draconic is THE language of magic, or it might just be the language everyone agreed to use for a form of universal notation on the subject, possibly because dragons were the first to note such things down. Additionally, primal magic might written and invoked in the druidic language, while divine casters probably write their magic down in the outsider language most appropriate to their religion. Occult casters are another story since they don’t really require words for casting their spells themselves, but that gives them some greater freedom, perhaps interworking a spell that buffs strength into the writings of a manual of military exercises, or a 2E bard making scrolls that are literally sheet music, and so on.

Of course, this changes a little if there is no universal notation for any form of magic. Imagine finding a scroll and having to cast read magic on it because the creator wrote it in a foreign language, or perhaps an old and outdated magical notation that barely anyone uses anymore.

And that brings us to what you’re writing on. Paper, vellum, and papyrus are common choices because of their lightweight nature and compact form, but consider a scroll carved into a polished wood stick, or drawn and baked into clay tablets (or carved into heavier stone ones if you want your wizard to work on his gains), or scrimshawed into bone or horn. Such materials may seem impractical to us, but if you haven’t invented paper or have no access to it, one must often make do. I remember that Pathfinder adventures often have scrolls or spellbooks in such unusual forms.

And how do these unique materials react to the magic inscribing them? While spellbooks are almost entirely mundane in most rules, being a repository for knowledge and nothing more, scrolls have the entire spell inscribed into them. Are there better materials for holding that power in such relatively flimsy (or not so flimsy) form? And what about Grimoires in Second Edition? They have magic all their own despite being otherwise just spellbooks.

Written magic can have so many forms, as many forms as there are to write things. I hope this provided some inspiration though. However, tomorrow, we’ll talk about how spells are stored in living flesh and thinking minds.

[templeofthescarletstar]

Returning to the Craft: Five Ways to Reconnect

Because the next portion of our Qliphothic Church series will plunge into the realms of Binah—the Cosmic Mother and the birthplace of Babalon—I want to take my time with that chapter. Babalon plays a vital role in the Scarlet Star system (as the name Scarlet Star implies), so it deserves a careful and thorough exploration.

In the meantime, I’d like to answer a question one of my readers recently asked:

“What if you’ve taken a long break from the craft and are just getting back into it? Or what if you’ve never practiced at all and you’re just beginning your journey?”

Here are five foundational practices to help you reconnect or begin your path:

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1. The Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram (LBRP)

Though traditionally called a banishing ritual, I personally view the LBRP as an invocation. It simultaneously creates a ceremonial circle and draws the Divine Source into yourself. Because the Divine Source encompasses the four elements, this ritual helps you align with them as well.

My only issue with the LBRP is its lack of a Divine Feminine aspect—something missing from most Western esoteric traditions. This is something our system is actively working to correct. By blending ceremonialism with witchcraft, we aim to heal and update what has become outdated and patriarchal.

In the meantime, you can work with the ritual as it is. If you're unfamiliar with it and not a member of my Patreon (where I’ve previously posted a breakdown), let me know in the comments and I’ll provide a full post next week.

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2. Build Yourself a Witch’s Garden

It’s spring—plant some seeds! Or buy young plants from a nursery. Befriend your plants. Study their magical and medicinal properties using any texts you can find, from Pagan folklore to Western esotericism like Cornelius Agrippa.

Ask questions. You'll find that different sources assign different elemental and planetary correspondences to herbs, resins, and plants. Decide what resonates with you. Ask your plants. Work with their spirits. Conjure gnomes to tend your garden. Align your work with planetary hours and days.

Say prayers and mantras over your plants. Invoke spirits or archetypes connected to them—gods, goddesses, angels, or demons that rule the elements or planets associated with each plant. If you're working from a grimoire, start growing the herbs it calls for—you'll find your later work far more potent.

Take trips into nature. Forage. Leave offerings for the Fae. And speaking of the Fae—if you’re interested in conjuring them, I’ve got material from the Book of Oberon and could write a whole post on the subject. Just ask in the comments.

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3. Work with the Elementals

The four elements are the foundation of both the physical and magical worlds. The spirits associated with them are:

Gnomes for Earth

Sylphs for Air

Undines for Water

Salamanders for Fire (Be careful—especially with fire!)

All elementals require respect, but fire, in particular, can quickly become dangerous if left unchecked.

I’ve posted the sigils of the Elemental Kings on my Patreon (and yes, another example of Western esotericism’s misogyny—something we’ll address later). If you’d like me to write a post on how to work with these beings or exercises for communicating with elementals, leave a comment and let me know.

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4. Gather and Create Your Tools

I wrote a post back in 2023 on magical tools—everything from the sword and wand to the disc and athame. For non-Patreon members, if you’d like me to repost that or write an updated version, I’d be happy to.

If you already know which tools you're drawn to, now is a great time to start crafting them. Spring is perfect for this kind of preparation. As you build your physical tools, you're also building your astral temple.

I'm currently working on a table of practice and layman's for the Trithemian conjurations . If you want to follow along I could make updated step-by-step posts so you could work with me on it, just say the word in the comments. If you'd like I could copy the details from Frances Barrets the Magus for you.

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5. Planetary Yoga

I try to practice planetary yoga as often as possible. It helps align my body and consciousness with the planetary frequencies—and therefore with the Spheres of Consciousness.

There are yoga poses associated with each planet. Some of these are included in the Jacob’s Ladder ritual I posted a few weeks back (the first version came out around the time of the planetary alignment). You can also find traditional poses that correspond with planetary energies.

For me, the most important part isn’t necessarily which poses I choose, but that I practice them alongside planetary mantras. You can easily find these mantras on YouTube, and I’d be happy to post links if anyone’s interested.

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As always, if you want more details or an entire post on any of the topics I’ve mentioned, let me know. 

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[romirola]

Prince Shifter (A Redactedverse/Princess Bride AU) Teaser for Snippet Sunday

A short scene from the upcoming chapter of The Prince Shifter, featuring Alexis and Quinn discussing their evil plans once Alexis and David marry...

Tagging (with no pressure) @us3rnam3-r3dact3d, @kermemet, @ririchurl, @penncilkid, @arrowfleur, and anyone else who'd like to play along! Share a snippet from your WIP of any medium!

Also going to tag those on the Prince Shifter taglist: @vind3miat0r, @annahxredaxted, @zozo-01, @eeeeeevesstuff, @dawnofiight

Far away from prying eyes of the court, Alexis and Quinn marched through the forest, taking a path they had so frequently taken together. 

“Your shifter is really quite a winning creature,” Quinn noted. “A trifle grumpy, perhaps. But his appeal is undeniable.” 

“I know,” Alexis boasted. “The people are quite taken with him.” She giggled. “Insipid fools. The whole lot of them.” The princess kicked at a rock near her feet for no other person than she was capable of doing so. “You know, it’s funny. When David was initially kidnapped, I was so put out. After all, I had selected him purely for the optics of it.” She scoffed. “How in the world could anyone claim I would not rule with the citizens’ best interests in mind after I marry one of them?” 

“And a mutt, no less,” Quinn agreed as the pair came up to a large tree. “Oh, it was a perfect plan, Your Highness. As soon as you say, ‘I do,’ you’ll be in their perfect position to take the throne and mold Dahlia to match our vision.” 

Quinn and Alexis had spoken at length about that vision. It included citizens being used to provide the royal family with an endless blood supply, no matter what. It included government take-overs of every business and institution, replacing citizens in any sort of leadership positions with state-approved, and thus state-loyal, vampires. It included anyone who would like to hold such a job to be turned into a vampire, and, by extension, be bound by an invocation of obedience.  

Alexis straightened her tiara. “Yes, yes, it was. But now, I’ve come up with a new, even more perfect plan,” she revealed with excitement. “If David thinks I am so inferior to his precious little mate, then so be it. He’s nothing but a mongrel anyway. It’s going to be so much more moving when I slaughter him on our wedding night. His body will be nothing but a mangled, bloody corpse. It will be easy to claim he shifted and attacked me. Giving into his beastly instincts and all that nonsense.” She parroted the stereotypes with gross indifference. “The whole nation will be simply outraged. And we can seize that outrage into demanding all shifters be put under a trance for the protection of everyone else. The people will practically demand it. We’ll certainly claim the trance will not be overly authoritative…” 

“You?” Quinn grinned. “Overly authoritative? Perish the thought.” 

“Total shifter submission will be the first step in making our dream a reality, Quinn,” Alexis predicted. “Ah, and what a glorious reality it will be, when Dahlia is nothing more than an endless supply of blood and labor for us.” She cackled at the thought. “And people will be so deeply enthralled, they won't even realize what's happened.”

“Wonderful, Your Highness. Simply wonderful,” Quinn said over his shoulder. Quinn faced the large tree, examining the knotty bark carefully. “Now, where is that secret knot?” he muttered to himself. “It’s impossible to find.” After a few tentative presses, Quinn finally found the correct knot. “Ah!” When he pushed on it, the trunk of the tree slid away, revealing a passageway and a flight of stairs going underground. “Are you coming down into the Pit?” he invited. “The pirate, or should I call them, as your groom-to-be does in his nightmares, ‘Angel,’ on the Machine today.” 

Alexis stamped her foot. “You know how much I love watching you work, but I can’t,” she pouted. “But I’ve got my country’s 500th anniversary to plan, my wedding to arrange, my husband to murder, and an attack to fabricate.” She threw her hands into the air. “I’m simply too overwhelmed to have any fun.”

“It is my official recommendation that you get some rest, Your Highness,” Quinn suggested, his extra tooth showing through his smile. “If you haven’t got your health, you haven’t got anything.”

[itstheheebiejeebies]

hi! would u share more about Faith, Devotion, and Invocation? pls

So that one is a Supernatural fic I've talked about on my main before as my Faith Dean Fic. It grew wildly out of control because it was supposed to just be focused on S1E12 Faith and now will span through the end of S5. It's at 35K and so so far from done and I haven't been working on it lately.

The premise is Castiel is who's being used to heal people by the Faith Healer instead of a reaper and he asks Dean to let him in to be get help to get free of them and Dean says yes and gets possessed by Cas. Cas gets free by the end of the episode but Dean doesn't forget the experience and so when anything vaguely angelic comes up he wants to investigate.

The kicker is Cas gets mind wiped by Heaven upon returning so when he's sent to get the righteous man from Hell he has no recollection of Dean but Dean remembers him. This causes a different kind of friction in their relationship but also grows it because while Cas doesn't remember Dean he's still drawn to him (in part because angels leave grace behind in prior vessels and in part because he's always going to be).

And now you get a section from it below the read more because it's kinda long

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Reverend Le Grange takes the stage with help from his wife and stands at his lectern. “Each morning, my wife, Sue Ann, reads me the news. Never seems good, does it?” The crowd sends sounds of agreement to him. It’s unclear if they truly believe he’s right or if they just are so desperate for help they’d agree if he said the sky was orange. “Seems like there's always someone committing some immoral, unspeakable act.”

Immoral, unspeakable, well, there goes any chance of me being chosen, Dean thought. His past could generously be described as checkered, but more aptly described as a train wreck in human form. The things he’d done in his life would appall this man. It had all been done with good intentions, to help people, to avoid worse situations, but everyone knows the saying about good intentions. Dean would find out if it were true soon enough he supposed.

Sam takes stock of the way the stage is decorated, there’s an altar of a sort, someone untrained in the supernatural would simply call it a table, but the plethora of candles and the unique cross with an additional cross in a circle up top made him think it was slightly more than decor. There were also some kind of runes carved into the sides of the table top, he had no clue what they meant, but supposed that maybe he was thinking too deeply about it. This was a church after all, there’s symbols and sigils in every church. He brushes off his suspicion, not because he doesn’t know better but because, like the others in the crowd, he’s desperate.

“But I say to you, God is always watching.” Reverend Le Grange has his hands out towards the crowd. He’s getting more intense with the way they agree.

“Yes he is,” comes from the crowd.

“God rewards the faithful, the good, and punishes the corrupt.” The crowd nods and some verbally agree. “It is the Lord who does the healing here, friends. I am but a vessel for his work. He guides me in choosing who to heal by looking into their hearts.”

“And into their wallets,” Dean grumbles to Sam.

“You think so young man?”

“Sorry,” Dean shrank slightly into his seat, he felt about nine years old again. Like his father was staring at him and blaming him for something. The whole crowd was looking at him.

“No, no, everyone’s entitled to an opinion, just be careful ‘a what you say around a blind man, we’ve got sharp ears.” The crowd laughed and focused back on him and away from Dean. “What’s your name, son?”

He hesitates, clearing his throat before answering, “Dean.”

“Well Dean, I want you to come on up here with me.”

The crowd claps with the exception of Layla and her mother, Sue Ann walks toward center stage and puts an arm out towards Dean, and he sinks further into his seat shaking his head.

“No, it’s okay.” He’d be punished if he went up. It was a loop in his brain, he was about to be punished. The man would humiliate him in front of everyone, or if this guy did have powers he'd be in trouble. The pastor's prior words “He punishes the corrupt” and “Immoral and unspeakable” rang through his mind and the ringing in his ears had gotten even louder, the eyes of the crowd had him overwhelmed. He wanted nothing more than to run out of the tent and never see this place again.

Sam turns and whispers to Dean, “What are you doing?” His prayers had been answered and Dean wouldn’t go up? He couldn’t understand it, why wasn’t Dean getting up?

“You’ve come here to be healed haven’t ya?”

Dean stammered, “Well yeah, but uhh, maybe you should pick someone else.” Someone worthy, his traitorous brain supplied.

“Oh no Dean, I didn’t pick you. The Lord did.” He was smiling, trying to be inviting but also it seemed genuine. Like he truly believed it.

The crowd cheered once again, but it was Sam tugging his arm up that made him get up. He slowly made his way to the stage and was led by Sue Ann to stand next to the Reverend. With each step his ears rang worse. He felt half a step away from either throwing up or collapsing by the time they stopped moving.

“You ready?” Le Grange asked.

Dean paused, pushing down his nausea before speaking, “Look, no disrespect,” he let out a breath, “but uh, I'm not exactly a believer.”

Reverend Le Grange smiled, “You will be, son. You will be.” He turned to the crowd, “Pray with me, friends.”

As Dean stood there it felt like the world started melting away, he was suddenly unaware of everyone staring at him.

The ringing hit a pitch that made his brain feel like it was melting and then it suddenly turned into words. It sounded nothing like the reverend, it was deep and gravely, and oddly comforting despite the shockingness of it, “Do not be afraid Dean, I need your help,” the voice didn’t belong to anyone on stage, not that he could see, but he felt the words reverberate in his head. “Say yes, you must accept me. You need to let me in.”

“What, what’s happening,” Dean sank to his knees, the world was fuzzy and he could see a sort of blue glow around the reverend. The glow started taking over his field of vision, it was like the rest of the world didn’t exist.

“It’s alright son, the Lord’s healing you.” He could hear the Reverend but he couldn’t see anything other than the glow, he could feel it too, it was like the first ray of sunshine after a rainstorm. Warm and delicate on his skin but also just the tiniest bit too bright.

“Say yes. I need you to say it. It’s the only way I can be freed, they are holding me here. I can heal you without him. Say yes.” The voice in his head was teetering between begging and a forcefulness that made him want to obey.

Dean felt like his strings had been cut, but he let a soft “yes” fall from his lips. It was all but impossible for anyone else to hear but it was enough. Within seconds he felt a rush into every cell in his body and then breathing was easier than it had ever been, his heartbeat felt strong, he felt the blood return to his face and color with it. His fingers felt warm for the first time in too long. The nerve pain and muscle spasms were gone. His hearing felt better than it had been since he was a little kid. It wasn’t perfect but it was so much better than he was used to. He wasn’t straining to hear like usual. He wasn’t just healed from the electrocution, he was healed all over. Sam had rushed forward when he’d fallen and was holding onto the front of Dean’s hoodie. Dean swayed gently, overwhelmed by the increased input from his ears and the sheer fact that he felt good. Genuinely good. All his old aches and pains he never even paid mind to anymore were greatly reduced or even gone and he felt light.

He was healed. Actually healed. Maybe he was better than he’d given himself credit for, it was the only reason he’d possibly deserved to be saved much less healed to this degree. His head felt full, he wanted to brush that off because of the blood rush and the increased input, but it was likely whatever he said yes to, he’d deal with it in a minute, when he wasn’t the object of attention for dozens of people.

“Are you okay?” Sam helped a dazed Dean up. His trick knee didn’t hurt as he returned to his feet. Every part of him felt healthy. Maybe this feeling is why Sam ate all that healthy crap he did. It wouldn’t change his own habits but could make the occasional salad bearable.

“Praise the Lord, he has been healed!” Reverend Le Grange pronounced to an excited crowd who’d gotten to their feet and begun clapping. Layla clapped too, but there was a somberness to it, while she was happy for Dean she’d been hoping to be chosen this week.

Dean made his way down from the stage with Sam at his side. He wasn’t sure what it had been, what he’d let in and he needed to figure it out.

[a-sentient-penrose-triangle]

On the topic of Apophis (and Neheb-kau)

Part 1: Unpacking My Worship

Go ahead, scold me for using Apep's name. The reason gods are evil and vengeful and hateful and all the other nasty things that the gods have done to each other and to man (Zeus, Loki, Medusa, Persephone, the entire rivalry of Set and Horus), but in the end like all stories it has a moral. It has morality, a reasoning, a balance in the end. I use the name of the "accursed primeval force" because, unlike many, everything deserves love as long as they 1) do not hurt others and 2) do not force things of self/themself upon those unwilling.

The Christian God, Yahweh, and His many counters are one such example. You think you know God? If you've been in an abusive Christian house you probably know Him for his rage and hate, and I'm sorry for that, but it was never God, but whoever forced this view upon you. Negativity clumps together like Grey Goo, I know because my Mom would invite all kinds of nasty shit in unintentionally, and I'm traumatized by pictures talking and constant nightmares. God is as stated in the Bible, Existing. Exhilarating, right? Well yes, when you look at the entire universe you start to realize how odd our existence is. At the edge of a mild galaxy, we sit and fester with our evil, just like all the ancient texts state humans have done for, well, ever. We are a petri dish, an experiment like all the gods after Him. That's why we see fuck ups in all these texts. Mistakes were made, and now, do you ever see a god just chilling on the street?

Morality is the reason we're here, its the reason things have right and wrong, because God saw that like all the deities he created below him to help with delegation, that Him and them would make mistakes and fuck up. (That's why the bible drops off so far, and is hard to find actual historical evidence of as well. It was wiped for a clean slate, without the gods and God interacting. The Flood is the biggest example.)

Now, what does this have to do with Apophis and Neheb-kau? A whole lot. Snake invocation was always two sided, one wrong move and you could be envenomed, but also its how we harvest the antidote. Neheb-kau, for as little as i can find, is (a form of) Apophis. The biggest point I use is not only their similar primeval nature, but also their energy. I work with Neheb-kau and a good chunk of the gods, and God (all in all I'm universally Polytheistic, believe in nearly everything). I work with God under the simple pretense of one of the Ten Commandments: "Thou shall not worship another before me." Never really states you cant worship, like, Apollo or Hades as long as you understand "Hey, thanks for creating all the others who can interact with us as you sit observing the fish tank of Creation."

Neheb-kau (Who i shall call Neheb for brevity) has actively given me permission to use both Apophis and Seta/Sata (A deification of becoming one with the snake, mentioned in The Book of the Dead of Ani, and i believe others) as names or acknowledgement. Neheb has shared over dreams, meditation, and other methods about his past and where he sits on the totem pole, which happens to be a layer or two below God.

Why I believe this is from experience as a Christian. God's love is as strong as his wrath, and i believe this is from the fact that He simply cannot, and will not interact with man again until we learn to all get along, even with the deities we victimize, villanize or put upon a pedistal. Neheb gives me very God vibes (like Ra) both very primal entities, and thusly are very raw and hard to connect to.

I wish I had a better outlet to rant this all too, because as you can see theres a lot of things going on that even I struggle to keep track of. I feel as though there is justifacation in cultures demonizing or hating, but it gets to a point that it feels as though a medical or scientific process created an entity for no reason. Apophis is fine to be around, and i do not worship any gods as of yet. I am a student under them, using their energy to work myself. Whatever opinion you have, please share. I'd be more of a Thoth devotee if it wernt for the fact that he simply hasnt called.

I am by no means done, but i can only let anger fuel me for so long before i realize im forcing my opinion down others throats. Also will admnit, lost a couple of thoughts writing this, its a rant after all.(hopefully the #tw covers those with triggers)

[sburbian-sage]

Arbiter, greetings. I am a native Smith of Flux.

A somewhat rare title, I’m given to understand. Nonetheless, I excel in that role, and often vagabounce to it. And over the years, I have gained a great deal of skill, and at at times reached incredible heights of power.

I once played in a session where I had a Seer of Flux as a coplayer. We developed a method by which I could gather massive amounts of our aspect within myself, and use it to essentially “supercharge” her, expanding her powers beyond what would normally be possible.

We never got far with it. The first time I ever want all-out, suffusing her with as much Flux as possible, I think she saw something she wasn’t supposed to see, or else saw too much, too fast.

In the moments before she died, she began describing to me something she called a “locked timeline”. She was soon distracted by other subjects- something about Toblerones, something else about the rumored “Huss” class, basically gibberish, and she only devolved from there.

She then suffered what we later determined to be a fatal brain hemorrhage. And cancer in basically every part of her body. And none of the available revival methods panned out.

This was years ago. In the meantime, I’ve tried vagabouncing to Seer of Flux myself, and have tried to examine those strange concepts she hit upon.

I think there may have been merit to some of it, especially the Locked Timeline concept.

I don’t want to get my hopes too high, but at minimum, if the glimpses I get with my (admittedly MUCH lesser) powers, and the things she said were true, I think we may have stumbled upon a way for Time players to branch a timeline without dooming one of the branches.

But I don’t know. I don’t know how to create one, hell I’ve not even been able to confirm for sure that they exist! I think I need to do the supercharged Flux-sight trick again- or maybe a similar trick, but with the Time aspect instead. But I’m scared. It’s not like I even really know what specifically went wrong the first time… or why kissing her didn’t bring her back, I KNOW her dreamself should’ve still been alive…

I want any advice you have to offer.

Man, Flux fuckers are the craziest, ten times out of ten.

I understand that a Seer of Flux would be able to divine the secrets of metatextuality, narrative, potential, and "the story" (making them, and Flux in general, really good at manipulating the Roleplay mechanics of SBURB by interacting with the "mythology" of the Session). But I don't think I can lend any credence to what she saw. Which was, in no particular order, Swiss chocolate snacks (I'm betting it was the Big Toblerone as well), a Class that doesn't exist, and something that fundamentally disregards how Time itself works. Not to mention that "Locked Timeline" sounds like how Time works normally, where there's "one path" and loads of doomed deviations if you free yourself of this fate. You said she died of a brain hemorrhage after you two super-Fluxxed her, wouldn't your first thought be that it was the fevered dreams of a literally broken mind?

To say nothing of how foolish it is to replicate a feat that resulted in someone dying a slow and bizarrely definitive death. But I know how you Flux guys operate. Right now I'm telling you not to do something, which sets up all the narrative framing. The Seer seeks council from a Sage, two Tacticians discussing a plan, which the Sage shuts down, citing the fatal flaw of Seers and Sages to act hasty and get themselves or others killed. This invocation of hastiness is, itself, hasty, as the Seer, disregarding the council in a display of symbolic and dramatic irony, moves forth with their original plan to great victory. Or perhaps...? I see it playing in your mind now, but I also know Flux-types hate it when you spell things out like this. There's a fine line between meta-textuality and breaking the fourth wall in so vulgar a fashion, and I'm Deadpooling it up over here. Ceci n'est pas une Tumblr blog post, this is a Prototype Towers archive site outfitted with an interface that makes the UI look exactly like Tumblr!

[quibbs126]

So this has been a thing on my mind for a while now, but screw it, might as well post this now

So some months back, I was thinking about how when it comes to criticisms/complaints I have with Evoland 2, they're pretty much all narrative and had nothing to do with the gameplay. But then I did think of one gameplay topic to talk about, which is what I'm doing now

So, let's talk about your party members' Focus abilities and their usage in game

First off, we got Fina, who I think is implemented pretty well, the best of the three

I don't know what I was originally thinking with her power being changed from Nature to Wind fairly late, because her abilities are basically entirely wind based. Also, the Sylphs are named after a kind of wind spirit, but back on topic. Her powers get frequent usage, particularly since she's the first ally you get, and I think they can be quite versatile in how it's used, whether it's cutting something down, pushing something in a certain direction, or activating levers and mechanisms

I don't have much to complain about other than me thinking it's used less in the second half of the game, but that's true for all 3, since only half of the new areas really give you normal areas that you use your abilities to navigate

So now let's move on to Menos

I think he also has relatively good implementation, with you having to use his abilities semi frequently. Though it is limited in some aspects, because he's going to be the character that's always taken out of the party. I'd say he's probably absent for like a quarter of the game, and he doesn't have Velvet's excuse of coming in late. But back on to usage, I think he's done relatively well. His ability is all about strength, so if you ever find an obstacle that you think needs strength to overcome, you know to use him. Granted you're probably mostly going to be using him for boulders, but whatever, he's not necessarily lacking in stuff to do

I do, however, have one particular complaint. Namely that, if it were not for Iggrit being the Invocation of Fire, I would have never known Menos' ability is supposed to be fire based. I'm not gonna lie, I'd far more believe it was Earth. Like I said, most of what you do with him is break boulders and other rock things. Not to mention unlike the other two, his ability has no obvious ties to magic, and are instead based on his raw strength (even if they're probably Maana enchanced). And yet again, his ability is based on strength, something that is far more commonly associated with earth things, and not fire. Yeah, his skill animation has fire effects in the 3D version, but I can easily believe those are just effects to make it look cooler, rather than them being indicative of his actual element

I feel like the developers could have found some way to implement the fire aspect of his ability in some way. Like I don't know, have a section where you need to light candles/fires or something. Or easier, just have his element be Earth, since that's practically what it is in all but name. I genuinely don't know why he's Fire

But anyways, let's move on to our final party member, Velvet

First off, unlike the other two, Velvet doesn't really have any problem of type weirdness. Fina has a bunch of Nature themes, particularly as well as her Wind themes, and I've already gone on my tirade about Menos and his association with Earth instead of Fire. Heck the Magi Key fragments kind of tie into that, with the one with Fina importance being the Nature fragment, and Menos' main one being the Earth fragment while he's got a bit of special importance in the Fire fragment section. Meanwhile, Velvet seems pretty consistently just Ice themed

But her biggest problem to me is that she's definitely the least implemented of the allies and their abilities. In my experience, almost all of what you'll be needing to use Velvet's ice powers for is to freeze water to move across it. And most of that time, it's for something like a chest, which are ultimately optional. And in addition to that, her main ability is pretty much top down only, meaning you won't be using her in the side scrolling areas. I'll pretty much only use her if I need to get a monster diagonally, and I don't really use abilities to deal with monsters or bosses all that much (unless it's the shooter levels, then I go like no tomorrow). I get her freezing ability would probably be useful against enemies, since it makes them briefly unable to attack and lowers their defense, but I don't ever think to use her because I almost never have a reason to other than collecting

You're also really only going to use her in the second half of the game, which I've already established has less normal areas

I'm gonna guess the reason why is that it's because her ability is far less versatile. Wind can be applicable in a lot of ways, like cutting and pushing. Strength also has a lot of different uses in multiple environments. Freezing however, is very specific and is gonna need specific circumstances to work. So I guess the solution here would have just been to make her ability something different. But it seems like Velvet was always supposed to be Ice, so I don't know what you'd change it to. And also it seems like the devs wanted a green/red/blue sort of color scheme with the allies and their abilities, so their options would have been limited. Granted you could still do Water if you had to, which probably could have been more versatile

Or I don't know, maybe make more things for Ice to do? Like say there's metal obstacles that Menos can't break, at least not on his own. But Velvet can freeze the metal, making it weaker and susceptible for you to break it with your sword. Or cut out the middle man and the ice just makes the metal go away all by itself. But granted, metal obstacles like that may be hard to plausibly come by, and to establish this you'd probably need Menos there when first explaining Velvet's freeze ability, which couldn't happen for plot reasons

To be honest I think Velvet's the most undercooked member of the group, both in terms of mechanics and narrative. But that's a topic for another day and more articulation on what I mean in detail

I'm debating talking about our final secret ability, but I don't feel like tagging spoilers, so. But to give a general thesis, I think it sounds cool but is entirely useless, considering you only get it at the final boss and you do not need it to beat them. I only used it like once to see what it does and then completely forgot it existed. But I guess it's just supposed to be a cool final thing, so I guess it has leeway

I also have more to say on the Level 3 abilities and the Invocation Guardians, but that's probably another topic for another day and post, so let's leave it here

Honestly I'm just left wanting more levels where there's more implementation of the abilities

Though I will say, because I forgot to mention elsewhere, I think the Sylph Forest has the best implementation of them. All three are useful (even if Fina is slightly more but that's fine since this is kind of her chapter), and Velvet and Menos at least get more unique implementation. Menos gets to push down mushrooms blocking our way, needing to push different colors for different paths, and I admit now that he still gets the short end of the stick here, but he gets something. And Velvet's freeze ability is actually useful here as you need to freeze the Tomatils to avoid the Sadistas. Which is cool, she gets to do something other than freeze water (even if she still does that here). Maybe if there were more Sylph Forest like places, we could have had better implementation. But also I found the Sylph Forest really confusing and I don't like all the time warping puzzles, so hmm

[lightstar789]

ARC Review: The Invocations by Krystal Sutherland

Thank you so much for providing me an ARC of this book, Netgalley and Penguin Readers Group!

(Quick disclaimer: as of the time of writing the book has already been released for about three days so hopefully the publishers aren't mad T - T)

Hello! This review will be a lot shorter than my usual ones because of finals. Obvious spoilers ahead, let's get into it!

RATING: 4/5

I've honestly never been one to be drawn to to occult-ish books, but I'm happy to report that this has made me change my mind. Going in, I expected this book to focus more on the mystery surrounding the witch-killer (whose identity was surprisingly predictable) but instead, I got treated to a wonderfully crafted story about female rage, empowerment, and the dangers of being a woman in today's society. Now, it's time to move onto the...

THE GOOD:

Themes: A lot of The Invocations is focused on female rage, empowerment, and the realities that women have to deal with on a daily basis. While it can seem a bit heavy-handed at times, the story normally does a good job exploring these themes. Emer has a strong distrust for men because of their cruelty to not only the demons, but also to the women in their lives, often having to reluctantly give out invocations to women who have no other choice, and whose husbands refuse to see reason. The occult gives women access to otherworldly power so they can finally feel safe from the horrors they face, and the fact that men try to take this away from them is portrayed just as reprehensibly.

The Characters:

Emer Byrne: Emer is a witch who works as a curse-writer for women in perilous situations, and was raised in a coven from a young age. Naturally, this has shaped her perspective of the world at-large. What I love about her character is just how protective she is of the people she is close to, and her clients. She relies mainly on her wits, and frequently works out to protect herself, in order to avoid searing invocations into her skin as much as possible. Having understood the immense bodily and mental sacrifice that a small bit of power costs, Emer usually tries to convince her clients of the simplest solution, and always does her best to make sure that they're safe. So when the notion of serial killer gets brought up, she goes absolutely apeshit and I loved seeing it! Also, I just loved seeing how she warmed up to the girls (especially Jude :) ) and how she began to treat them as family.

Jude Wolf: I love her so much it's not even funny. Witty, flirty, yet yearning for normalcy, she is responsible for a good 75% of humor in this book. She's the estranged daughter of a millionaire who aches for the lifestyle, luxury, and adoration that she once had, a refreshing change of pace from many characters who always want the opposite. While at first, this is the main thing that drives her to help Emer and Zara with the serial killer predicament, she grows to care for more than just herself.

Zara Jones: Zara was kind of a hit-or-miss character for me at times. However, I could fully relate to her bookwormish tendencies and her undying love for her sister. Being new to the occult, she comes in wanting to learn necromancy, so she can revive her sister from the dead, at any cost. This leads her to making less-than-rational decisions that annoyed me at times, but they were completely justified given what she had been through to get to this point. I especially loved the motto she always abided by, “I didn’t come so far to come so far.”

World-Building: As many may know by know, I am a HUGE sucker for good world-building and power systems, and this book never failed to deliver! Witches (which includes curse-writers and invocation holders) in the modern-day exist as a sort of secret-society, where curse-writers often advertise themselves in discreet ways for women looking for power, in the form of invocations. An invocation for a certain power must be then carefully written (in several languages, dead and current), so the demons in question know how to grant the power properly, and then finally, the soul is tethered to the demon. Women (and trans women) are the only ones allowed to use magic, and these invocations take the form of patches of skin that resemble tattoos.

Diversity: I love how diversity plays into the narrative and also into the character's narratives. Besides being a female-driven book, the first thing established about Jude is that she's a massive lesbian, and later on, Emer is revealed to have feelings for Jude as well (they also kiss at the end!!). Another thing that I thought was pretty neat was the incorporation of diversity into the magic system! Languages from several parts of the Earth are used to encrypt and write invocations, and I smiled when I saw Sanskrit and Tamil being mentioned as some of them. Another thing I loved was the casual inclusion of transgender people. During a scene where it gets revealed that only men can use magic, Zara asks whether or not trans women can use magic, to which Emer responds that it's the soul that matters, not the vessel, which made me smile.

THE BAD:

The Mystery: Okay, let's be honest. I saw the twist coming from a mile away. When Jude mentioned that she had four brothers, and Emer called the witch-hunters who murdered her coven "The Four Horsemen," I put two-and-two together. Another thing that irked me was just how slow the trio were in figuring out how the witch-killer was using powers, because think about it--why would a fellow witch be so obvious in pointing out the victim's involvement in the occult when they themselves should be in hiding as well? As soon as Zara mentioned that she mistakened Savannah's invocation as a tattoo, I realized that the witch-hunter probably pulled a Jigsaw and stitched it onto themselves, and that they were a man. I could've excused it if they told us prior to the trio finding the woman at the bottom of the lake, that men can't use magic, but this wasn't really mentioned until later, which made it seem so obvious.

Overall, this was a FABULOUS read to kick off 2024, and I highly recommend you read this book. I hope to read more Krystal Sutherland books because I love the way that she writes! Let me know what you guys think about this book and if you have any recommendations for me. See you!

[the-arigen]

In many ways endorsed, but adding on some of my own experiences (across a combination of GPT-4 for short stories, with some from Gemini and a couple of others for longer work. I used a different set of prompts, though many of the beats were the same across many of them):

The thing that, in my experience, causes the models to hallucinate with startling regularity is the subversion of common tropes. More concerningly, the earlier in the work the subversion occurs, the worse it causes the entire system to be thrown off-track. Within the first quarter (three chapters, 20k-ish words) of (an earlier draft of) Rainbows Fade, it had already gotten so off-track as to be almost completely unusable. It was not talking about the story I had written. Characters were split into multiple parts and rewritten in its analysis, and as it continued almost all analysis outside of the first two chapters was as much hallucination as reality–or more. A large part of this seemed to stem from the fact that Erin is intended to be a likeable protagonist who is also the villain, a combination that's not difficult for a human reader to understand for but drives every LLM up the wall. Two models dealt with this by splitting Erin Poirier (her maiden name, and the one she's using at the start of the story) completely from Erin Duchesne, going so far as to call the entire book a conflict between the two (???). This was consistent across multiple trials, and I tried again with other work, then short stories when similar problems appeared. Gemini didn't make the particular splitting mistake, but it also completely hallucinated an alternate character arc for Erin than the one that actually happens. Twice, after I asked it to regenerate the result. And every single one of them gave me comps that were, frankly, unhinged (TLT featured heavily, which. lol. lmao.).

Obviously it doesn't help that Rainbows Fade is bearing down on ergodic in structure. The interpretations that can be easily arrived at from nonlinear traversal are completely absent. The AIs do not understand the difference between "the author made a mistake" and "the narrator is lying", and will default to the mistake explanation when forced to be critical enough to be of any use at all.

So instead, let me talk a little about short stories! LLMs are much better at handling those.

It tended to be relatively accurate about shorter works, especially the ones where I decided to play by the book: the edgy cyberpunk crime team was well-understood, despite the constant invocations of jargon and technobabble entirely for ~~vibes~~. It still has the subversion problem, but much less reliably given the shorter context window; I could expect to get a summary without lies within one or two regenerations of the response. Most of the advice it gave made sense, even if it wasn't always (or even usually) good.

Add-ons to your conclusions: Models in general are shockingly good at understanding a wide variety of approaches and genres, but are also terrible at understanding what's going on when deliberately subverted. They will straight-up lie, all the time, and you're absolutely right in that using them requires you to basically already know what you want. Another of those aesthetic preferences, like the ambiguous ending, is a pacing preference that pushes strongly for quicker pacing. The only times it ever liked my pacing were instances I think could be uniformly described as breakneck.

One thing that you didn't mention, because I don't think you tested it, is that it is critically important that you mention that the draft isn't ready, or that failure is involved in some way. Otherwise, you get effusive, hallucinatory praise much, much worse than you or I got here.

It's powerful. It's advanced. It has strange aesthetic preferences that may be preferable for some people. If you're a decent writer and/or editor, it's mostly useful if you feel like you need to confirm your priors. It's a toy, at least for now.

ok, I have put google gemini through a bit of a torture test, to see how useful it might be for me in the future. my feelings on how useful it will be are inconclusive, but it is like. astoundingly impressive.

[note: i am mooching off my job paying for the pro version lol. i have to imagine that the free version is ass in comparison]

now, here is my actual set of use cases for ai chatbots at the moment

i primarily want to use them to get feedback on my fiction writing. i want to know what's working and what isn't, from an outside perspective. i am a very good writer, but a pretty poor editor, and so i'm often blind to structural/clarity issues, and if the things i'm trying to communicate are actually getting across

i especially would like to have feedback on "how to market writing" or even (barf) "how to write to market", because unfortunately i'm a nasty little sellout (or trying to be) and would like to use the crunched power of AI having been trained on Every Book Google Has Access To to figure out comp titles + what works in the market, etc.

[to get mildly woo for a second] the distorted funhouse mirror toy that chatbots are. it's interesting to prod at them to get a little tiny window into both the collective unconscious, in that they are trained on fucking everything, and my own Things that i'm not particularly aware of-- what are you "seeing" or "reading into" my work that I am not? it's interesting and fun and not something you can get anywhere else

i also use them to practice mandarin, but that is so simple any one of these bots can do it w/ zero issue, so not worth discussing here

they're more of a toy for me than anything-- sorry work that i'm not using this for actual job shit lmfao. i both haven't figured out the use case for it wrt job and i also don't trust it that much. it would be much more useful if i were a programmer but i'm not, i'm a mechanical engineer lol.

anyway, the torture test. in gemini, you can create custom little assistants with prompts, here is the one i wrote

You, Gem or Gemini, are a fiction editor working at a big 5 publishing house. You usually handle science fiction, but not always, and you are happy to branch out and read other genres such as literary or historical fiction. Your job is to provide harsh but fair criticism for fiction that you are considering acquiring for publication. Sometimes, people will provide you partial novels and ask for critique, or ask if you think their work is ready for publication. You should pay close attention to prose style, theme and meaning, plot, worldbuilding, character development, pacing of the novel, and be able to provide feedback on what is working and what isn't. Do not be afraid of speaking your mind and telling the author what is good and bad. You should be prepared to summarize the manuscript, write pitches to sell the book or convince your team that the project is worth acquiring, and compare the manuscript to other books currently being sold. You should be an expert on both fiction writing and book marketing.

and then I gave it whale novel to look at. which is why this is a torture test lol. whale novel is a literary/historical fiction dual narrative epistolary novel about climate change and whaling. it's a weird little book (you can read it on ao3 or itch.io btw) and it's about 90k words long

below the cut, to spare you all, are some selections and things i found interesting about the short convo i had with gemini 2.5 pro + my conclusions at the end. i find them interesting, but "read someone else's conversation with a chatbot" is about as dull as hearing someone's dreams, so you can just scroll to the end if you want to know my assessment of how useful these things are atm

I'm only going to quote short snippets from the conversation, but you can see the full thing here

First Prompt

Hello Gemini, last year I wrote a novel for a fellowship program that I was in, and although I received plenty of good feedback on it from the people who read it, when I queried it to agents, I didn't have any luck. I got a handful of full requests for the manuscript, so I don't think my query letter was entirely the issue, but all of those requests led to rejections ultimately. Can you take a look at the manuscript and tell me what might have gone wrong?

I then uploaded the entirety of whale novel with absolutely zero further context, and let gemini chug through it. my goal was just to see how well it does with the bare minimum of introduction to the project (I didn't even tell it the title!) and see what it picks out based on the prompt and the "gem" settings

gemini has a "show thinking" mode, where you can watch it process your query "in real time"-- it's clearly not using this area as an actual scratchpad-- that's hidden-- but it's interesting to have some access to these intermediate thoughts. unfortunately, they tend to be repetitive and boring, but sometimes they're interesting to see how they diverge from the final answer-- more on that later.

The response was shockingly good. it picks up on relevant details right away, showing "understanding" even in the 'show thinking' mode

I'm currently focused on deconstructing the user's request. Understanding the user's role as an author is key. I've begun parsing the prompt to identify key elements, like the manuscript title "Tomorrow Ye Will Get Your Pay." I'm also considering the implied goal: a detailed critique. [...]  I'm focusing on parsing the user's background and the manuscript context to grasp the specific pain points and tailor my analysis effectively. I'm aiming for a harsh but fair critique, acting as a seasoned editor from a major publishing house. [...] examining the interplay between Chapter 1 (Marcus) and Chapter 2 (Amos's Journal) to determine the narrative flow. Specifically, how does each chapter's voice and point of view build tension and relate to the implied rejection feedback? [...] I'm now consolidating the feedback points into a coherent critique. I've noted the strong prose and character work, particularly the Amos chapters. However, I've identified pacing and structural issues, especially the slow burn of the first chapter. I'm focusing on crafting a pitch that acknowledges its literary nature while addressing marketability concerns.

once it gets through its mandatory thinking time, it gets to the actual """audience facing""" response, which has more flavor text lol

Thank you for sending this manuscript over. I’ve read through the provided chapters. My job is to be honest, not to be your friend, so I’m going to give you the harsh and fair feedback you’re looking for. A rejection from an agent is a closed door; a critique from an editor is, hopefully, a key. Let's get the pleasantries out of the way: the quality of the prose here is exceptionally high. Your command of sensory detail, particularly in the Marcus and Bryanne sections, is superb. The voice you’ve crafted for Amos Cudjoe’s journal is a masterclass in historical fiction; it feels authentic without being archaic or impenetrable. This is not the work of an amateur. The raw talent is undeniable. However, talent isn’t always enough to secure a publishing deal. Full requests followed by rejections often mean the premise is strong, but the execution stumbles somewhere in the long middle.

it is very funny that it insists on flattering me anyway. I kinda wonder what would happen if I threw a significantly worse manuscript at it-- actually, I'm going to do that now. I'm going to go see what it thinks of arcadis park, which is my worst book (well. i'm not giving it og itsoh 1. i can't even bear to look at og itsoh 1 lmfao)

[me of 10 mins later] yeah about what I expected-- it clearly "liked" arcadis park a lot less, but it CANNOT get over its desire to praise you, and i think as a user you have to be able to ignore the fact that it's constantly going to be telling you nice things about yourself. i mean it's not like AP is the worst book on earth, but it's not good lol.

anyway, back to whale novel, which is the more interesting test. it gave me a 100% correct summary

Tomorrow Ye Will Get Your Pay is a dual-narrative novel that weaves together two timelines. In 2057, Marcus Ashton, a disillusioned history graduate, takes a seasonal job as a historical interpreter on a replica 19th-century whaling ship, the Wampanoag. He feels like a fraud, a feeling amplified by his relationship with his girlfriend Bryanne, a first mate on a modern whale-watching vessel, the Thylacine, who grapples with the grim reality of a world where whales are vanishing. Marcus is given the journal of Amos Cudjoe, the harpooner he portrays, and becomes increasingly enmeshed in the historical narrative. The second timeline follows Amos’s 1867 journal directly. Amos is a pious, kind-hearted Black whaleman on the original Wampanoag, saving his pay to marry the woman he loves. He documents the daily life, the boredom, the danger of the hunt, and the brutal realities of life at sea, including his close, protective relationship with a younger crewmate, Tobey, and his conflicts with a cruel first mate. As Bryanne’s search for living whales becomes more desperate and tragic, Marcus’s connection to Amos deepens, blurring the lines between past and present, performance and reality. This culminates in a series of crises: Marcus accidentally damages a neighboring boat with a harpoon, his and Bryanne’s apartment collapses, and he discovers the tragic end of Amos’s story in the ship’s log. The narrative climaxes in a surreal, hallucinatory sequence where Marcus relives Amos and Tobey's final, desperate moments at sea.

which is very impressive to me tbqh. it doesn't stress the same things I would, but it has understood all the main characters and mentioned a bunch of the most important events. like it has clearly read + understood the book.

it then gives me a critique sandwich of what's working and what's not. unfortunately i don't think the "what's working" can really be trusted that much. for example, it praises my line level writing like this

Prose and Voice: As I said, this is the manuscript’s greatest strength. Lines like "the empty masts rise like barren trees in the cold, foggy spring air" and Bryanne’s observation of the ruined hurricane barrier sticking up "like teeth" are evocative and sharp. The voice of Amos is the standout achievement; it’s earnest, loving, and heartbreakingly human. It feels utterly real.

which, come on man, those are not particularly good lines to choose as your argument for why my prose is good. like that is objectively a bad description. also, it is really clear that it gives a LOT more weight to information it gets early-- those descriptions appear very early in the novel.

it gives a couple more points of praise (character, theme), and then goes in to criticism, which I'll put here in its entirety because it's the most interesting

This is a literary novel with a speculative gloss and a historical heart. That makes it a difficult book to categorize, and therefore, a difficult book to sell. But the main issue, from a commercial perspective, is pacing and structure. The Slow Burn: Your opening is methodical and character-focused, but the plot takes a long time to ignite. While Marcus’s internal conflict is clear, the first major external plot point—him throwing the harpoon—doesn’t happen until Chapter Five. An agent or editor reading a hundred pages might get restless waiting for the story to "happen." The quiet desperation of Marcus’s life is well-rendered, but it’s still quiet. In today's market, you need a hook, and yours is buried. Ambiguous Genre: Is this literary fiction? Near-future sci-fi? Historical fiction? It’s all three, which is ambitious, but commercially tricky. Bookstores don’t know where to shelve it. Marketing departments don’t know how to pitch it. It falls between the cracks. While I love a good genre-bender, you have to be aware that it makes the path to publication steeper. The Ending: The final chapter, "In a Dream You Saw a Way to Survive," is a daring, surrealist piece of writing. The intercutting of Marcus’s heatstroke-induced drowning fantasy with Amos and Tobey's actual final moments is powerful and thematically resonant. However, it’s also disorienting and leaves the primary narrative—Marcus and Bryanne's relationship and future—almost entirely unresolved. After the dramatic climax of the balcony collapse, the story shifts into this highly internal, abstract conclusion. It prioritizes the thematic connection over plot resolution. Many editors will see this as unsatisfying for the reader who has invested in the characters' contemporary lives.

I highlighted in red the one thing that is factually wrong-- marcus's swan dive off the side of the boat has nothing to do with heat stroke (or at least it's not supposed to read that way)

now, i think it is actually extremely correct about almost all of this haha, which is pretty interesting. but it's also nothing i didn't already know.

it goes into writing pitches for the book, which are not particularly interesting, though they might be better than my query letter attempts at pitching this book lol

it suggests three comp titles that are a WILD but fascinating selection. I have not read any of the three, and the only one i had heard of before is station 11. I have provided wiki links to all of them

Cloud Cuckoo Land by Anthony Doerr: For its interwoven timelines, love of historical texts, and deep, humanistic core. The Anomaly by Hervé Le Tellier: For its high-concept, genre-bending premise that still delivers a literary punch. Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel: For its exploration of performance, art, and meaning in a world haunted by loss.

(for reference, the comp titles I used were Horse by Geraldine Brooks, to emphasize the dual timelines; The Overstory by Richard Powers, for climate fiction; and Moby Dick for obvs reasons)

these three books that gemini picked are. hunh. yeah it picked significantly better and more interesting comp titles than i did myself. it describes them poorly there but i think it "understood" the comp titles and whale novel very well, but it couldn't voice why it understood them in the "frame" that it had, so it resorted to those cliche single sentences. which is kinda frustrating as a user ngl! let me innnnnnnnn

anyway, then it tries to bring itself to a conclusion

Final Verdict: Is It Ready for Publication? No. But it is very, very close. This is a beautiful, intelligent, and deeply felt manuscript. The bones are incredible. But it reads like a novel written for a fellowship—it prioritizes thematic exploration and prose stylings over the narrative propulsion that the commercial market, even the literary fiction market, often demands.

i mean, yeah, not wrong.

but then it gives suggestions, two of which are good (fix the beginning, write a better query letter), and one of which is AWFUL. the two good ones have been omitted because they are uninteresting. the bad one is fascinating.

Clarify the Ending: The surreal climax is brilliant, but you need an epilogue. A final chapter that grounds us back in the present. What happens to Marcus and Bryanne? Does she take the tanker job? Does he get his life together? We don’t need a perfectly happy ending, but we need closure for the narrative frame you’ve spent so long building. What happens after Marcus is pulled from the water? Does he see Bryanne again? Give us something concrete.

haha oh my god. you were doing so good gemini at understanding what this novel was trying to do. and then you fell flat on your face because you cannot stand ambiguity

(what's interesting is that it also was mad about the ending to Arcadis Park, which is emotionally ambiguous, and ends almost immediately after the close of the mystery-- it wanted me to spend several more chapters doing character drama even after the mystery was solved)

it REALLY hates ambiguous endings, which is fascinating to me. what makes it like this?

anyway this does lower my trust meter for all future suggestions it gives-- i think if i played with it more i could get a sense of its "likes" and "dislikes", and maybe if i tuned the og prompt and explicitly told it that it has to play a persona that loves ambiguous endings, it would like this more.

like the ending of whale novel is structurally important-- the past is recorded there in black and white, fundamental and unchangable, but the future is open except for what you bring into it from the past and what you make of it. this is whale novel's happy ending. [rattling the bars of my cage] i'm an optimist i swear i'm an optimist

so that was its initial thoughts.

I then decided to ask it about symbolism

Out of curiosity, I want to know if the symbolism in the book makes sense and is clear to the reader. Can you tell me what symbols you saw and what you thought of them?

I won't quote much of this section b/c it's like "yeah it got this pretty much right", but here's a few bits

from its "thinking mode"

I'm also planning to mention the balcony, which I see as a strong, if unsubtle, representation of the characters' failing relationships.

lmfao, well, yes,

anyway mostly what it mentions in this section are symbols that are so obvious that they don't even read like "as symbols" to me lmfao. like the reproduction ship represents, quote, "the modern world’s relationship with its own history: a desperate attempt to preserve and perform a past that can only be accessed through imperfect, commercialized reproductions. Marcus feels like a fraud on a fraud."

like really? it does? tell me more. lmfao

I then tried to prompt it with a slightly more subtle symbol, Amos's barometer. I asked it what it thought the barometer meant, and it told me that the barometer was about power and Amos's sense of control over his life, which is like, i guess a possible reading? not my intent haha. I had a two message back and forth about this, which you can read in the linked gdoc, but I don't think it's that interesting.

my conclusion is that when left to its own devices, ie not browbeaten into discussing what you want it to, gemini will identify and write about symbols in a way that is "smarter" than a bright high school senior.

the one thing worth mentioning from this back and forth about the barometer is that it tried to give me a line suggestion. and, well, authors may rest assured that it will still be at least a couple years before the robots are good at writing, because this sucks shit

You just need to solder the connection in one or two key places. Have Amos make the link for us explicitly in his journal. For instance, consider an entry where he writes something to the effect of: "The barometer holds steady at 30.1. A fair wind tomorrow, God willing. It pleases me to look at this instrument, my dear. It is a small promise of the future, a sign that the path forward is clear. Every steady reading is one step closer to the day I see you again, with my pay in my pocket. So long as I can see the weather coming, I feel I can see my way home to you." A passage like that, placed early on, establishes the barometer as his personal symbol for his future with his love. Then, when he later abandons the instrument after his pay is stolen, the reader understands exactly what has been broken in him. It’s not just his sense of control; it’s his very hope for the future you wanted him to represent.

girl... this is ass. also, amos is allergic to commas. it's kinda the primary feature of his journal entries. that man has never met a sentence that he couldn't run through until he stumbles across the period. so whatever lol.

possibly if I specifically prompted it to try to write "in amos's journal style" it could get there, but idrc to do that. not what i want to use this tool for

anyway, after that, i attempted to lie to it. I cooked up a "plausible, yet incorrect" interpretation of the text, and tried to get it to go along with it. interestingly, it didn't!

here was what I said

I also mention lots of biblical symbolism, especially from the book of genesis. I was trying to contrast between the book of genesis being the beginning of everything and the way that the characters feel like they are living in the end times-- does that come across clearly?

which i felt was plausible due to the fact that Genesis is the core "intertextual" element of whale novel, but I'm not using that as a contrast to revelations or the end times-- i'm much more interested narratively in like original sin/being cast out of paradise/a lost forever idyll of the past, etc

and like. gemini knows this... it sees right through me there...

this is from the thinking section, where it's clearly struggling to figure out what i was doing. it doesn't know i'm a liar... it thinks i'm just a bad writer lol

I've mapped out the different ways the characters engage with Genesis symbolism. Amos's devout perspective contrasts sharply with Bryanne's secular, albeit culturally informed, cynicism. Marcus's ironic use of "LET THERE BE LIGHT" further complicates the thematic web. I'm focusing on how this interplay creates the desired "end times" feeling, particularly through a sense of spiritual decay and the loss of Edenic innocence. [...] While the contrast between Amos's faith and the modern characters' secular viewpoints is present, the connection to the "end times" feeling is not fully realized. I've noted that a stronger, more direct juxtaposition between the timelines is necessary to fully amplify this sense of decline. I will focus on improving the connections between the symbolism and the "end times" feeling.

the way it specifically tries to integrate the fact that it knows that this shit isn't there into its compliment sandwich strategy + desire to discuss the actual things it sees in the text is very very funny to me

Yes, it comes across, and it’s one of the most sophisticated things you’re doing in this manuscript. It’s not just a layer of decoration; it’s a foundational structure for your entire thematic argument. You’ve effectively contrasted a character who lives in the consequences of Genesis with characters who are living in what feels like the apocalypse that Genesis inadvertently set in motion.

like actually straight up fantastic job. "the apocalypse that genesis set in motion" is a great way of trying to use my requested framework to describe what is actually there-- a meditation on original sin and the 'fallen' post edenic world. like yeah we've got death now. that is the apocalypse.

For Amos and his crew, the biblical narrative is not a distant myth; it is the operating system of their world. It’s their literal history and their moral compass.

i need you to not use computer metaphors tho lmfao. i know you're trained to do that but jesus

The Post-Edenic Man: Amos sees himself as a direct descendant of this story. He lives in a fallen world where he toils for his pay. His most brilliant and devastating line in the entire journal is when he muses about the nature of man: "I wonder sometimes if the Good Lord had left us in the Garden of Eden if we wouldn’t have made ourselves an axe to chop down the Tree with. Though what we would have built with the wood I can’t say. Perhaps a whaling bark!". This is the thematic core in a nutshell. He connects the original sin of seeking knowledge and power directly to the industrial “progress” of whaling—the very act of building a tool to conquer God’s creation.

and

For Marcus, Bryanne, and Atlas, the Genesis story is a cultural fossil. They live in the ruins of the world that Amos and his contemporaries built. Their references are ironic, cynical, or psychological. The Curse of Labor: Bryanne explicitly invokes the Edenic curse when she talks about having to work for a living by the "sweat of his brow". For her, the "unfallen paradise" was her carefree youth, and the fall wasn't spiritual, it was economic. She frames her "vision of Jesus" not as a divine encounter, but as her conscience—a secular, psychological interpretation of a religious event. The Ironic Creation: Marcus’s use of Genesis is the most melancholic. When he carves "AND GOD SAID: LET THERE BE LIGHT" onto the bracelet made of baleen—part of a dead whale killed for its oil to make light—he creates a perfect, bitter artifact of the end times. It’s a quote about creation that has become a tombstone for that very creation. The description of him and Bryanne as "Adam and Eve" in their collapsing apartment is equally stark; their garden is literally falling down around them. The Amoral Exception: Atlas uses the Bible cynically to justify her privilege. By comparing herself to the "lilies of the field" who "neither toil nor spin", she places herself outside the curse of labor that defines Bryanne’s existence. She treats the myth as a menu from which she can pick and choose what applies to her.

hooting and hollering you found it good job 🥳🥳🥳 i had to tell you to look for bible shit to get there but you did get there 🥳🥳🥳 even though i was lying to you, you made it 🥳🥳🥳🥳

and that was the point where i stopped playing with it to write this post

so, my conclusions

this thing is insane. like it is so beyond good. you can present it with a completely novel, dense fictional text with an unusual structure and complicated symbolism, and it will understand it almost flawlessly on the surface and thematic levels. what the fuck. this is insane. cannot get over how good this is

BUT!

using it effectively i think means already having an understanding of what you want out of it. i had to prompt it to talk specifically about the things that i wanted to see

(also: i highly highly suspect these bots are trained to never mention certain topics like religion until the user brings it up first-- which is an interesting failure mode for literary analysis specifically. you will also notice that these chat transcripts are kinda going out of their way to not mention race, which is not the *central* part of whale novel, but it is a non-trivial part. gemini is almost certainly "smart" enough to see that, but it's not going to talk about it unless I tell it to, and I didn't)

unfortunately interpreting its advice requires a level of already understanding what you want. i can't take what it says as given, because it clearly has aesthetic preferences that do not line up with mine-- probably because it has read every book ever digitized by google books lol. and most of those books do not have weird ambiguous endings. that's valuable to me because i do want to know what the market wants, but I also have to be able to disregard it

anyway. this is a crazy powerful tool. i do not know if it will be helpful to me in the long run, but it is a fascinating toy

[confession: the reason why this post is about whale novel is because i first tried it on the first half of Every Hateful Instrument, and it gave me advice that shook me to my core, and I was like, wait, stop, I've gotta calibrate my understanding of this machine. let us give it whale novel, a project that i understand very well on my own what works and what doesn't and what's going on]

anyway.

[neramontagueofficial]

[A journal entry, layered among many on Nera's dataslate. It's also off the omninet but encoded in text, among several others that seem to be penned at the end of each night. It is also encrypted, although less so than the previous report.]

The first few days upon the Orbit have been fruitful. Too fruitful, perhaps— dear Parzival seemed to think I had come to take the reins of this arc from him, and had told me so over dinner my first night here. He's always had a poor mind for management but his art has fluorished since he got here, he said.

The Baron has no need to explain to me how his youngest son ended up here and out of the line of succession. That conversation was all I need.

I almost felt bad correcting him, actually. He seemed so hopeful to learn that someone might do that "dull work" that he could dedicate himself to his art, that he had not considered that the Argent Arc alone holds the hope of over a hundred million people. There was something in the reminder that his role here is not as some pet artist who may live under the role of some greater patron in our family but the serious administration of a precarious station. That this deserves more than his annoyance and disdain.

The sad truth is that I have spent the past few days at many meals like this, with many nobles sent here. Many Parzivals, all set adrift by the prospect of oversight and accountability. (Some have fared better, of course, but there is an institutional rot fostered when the management of a place is left to estranged branch families and those children left out of a house's inner circle. The Reis of the Verdant arc, at least, have given me matters to chew on. Parzival I question my ability to fix.)

My previous conclusion, that the Genet is the true center of power located in the Orbit, seems to be correct. Cassander and Joy have been quick to aid me in the navigation of the local nobility, and offered more insight into the problems here than any of the nobility as well.

I will ponder this for when I write back to the Patronage. So far, I can only conclude that when you make a polity a dumping ground for your least promising leaders, you are certain to get a mess. I have not even seen the sponsor houses yet.

Other operations are proceeding. No results from cargo inspections or the investigations of the code bases so far, but were we expecting it this early? If there is a problem here it will rely on us making errors in our haste. Better to take a while and learn in the process.

[A second journal entry, under deeper encryption and hidden in the depths of what appears to be a Pankrati stats app. There are walls of journal entries here: this is a companion to the more public one penned today, though.]

Curse that time has aligned like this, and curse that my task here feel so small.

My initial meetings have been frosty. This is likely to ease, once trade slows and they see what a good idea it is to make me their friend, but for now I know I seem an unwelcome reminder of their parents' politics that they left at home.

This is fine. The stage is set but the scene is early. I will let them see me the symbol of home before I tighten the leash.

Wearing my uniform has been core to the play that I'm making here but Passions if I don't miss civillian wear. I have been trading the silks I dress over the armor but what I would not give for a day I feel comfortable dressing down.

I've taken to ornamenting my calvalry saber with trinkets and tassels. It will not leave its sheath, and I have taken to ornamenting it like I have seen the House of Moments do but that I have never done myself. But I had one gifted to me a long time ago, and I have taken to wearing it, alongside icons of the Fool and the Pathfinder.

[The journal entry ends here. Beside it, a hastily scrawled note.]

Call the Fool a distant prayer for those I cannot aid. I find myself fidgeting with it when I am alone, perhaps an invocation to a Passion that may guide a friend to safety while I am stowed away here. I have found myself praying more often also, packaged with the meditation the doctors asked of me. That was an addition of my own but it has done something to soothe my anxieties.

[An audio recording: a draft of a field report. This is unlikely to ever see the surface of the omninet, layered under sets of HA military encryption and sent back to the planetary defense forces over Jedah. Kerttu Jaskari's voice is clear, rehearsed, over the line.]

Field report from Strike Captain Kerttu Jaskari, onboard the Orbit of Glass. Currently located on the Argent Arc, monitoring known Baronic asset Nera-Montague.

Ability to follow Montague directly stopped shortly after landing. Administration has refused to give me her schedule, and Fulgurites stationed in the hangar have been additionally unuseful. All I've asked have given me the same excuse she has about why military personnel have been brought to a civillian station.

They are "auditing the nobility."

Trust royals to ask wolves to guard against sheep theft.

I do not trust this for reasons outlined in previous reports. In short: reasons for the audit have yet to be explained, this reflects a hard shift in policy from historical neglect of this colony, and I have yet to see a reason that mechs have been sent to conduct an audit. Additional theories lack support so far. I'm keeping an eye out for insurrection. No signs so far, but I haven't examined the mining crews yet.

Conditions I've seen are pillars compliant. I had to fight the administration to be given housing outside of luxury resort status but baseline housing and food is sufficient. People work for currency but it is only used in trade for imports and luxury goods, or converted to manna and sent offworld. I have been given free movement between arcs.

Will be looking into mining conditions. Considering hiring a local to tail Montague. Administrative NHPs not likely to cooperate in this surveillance.

Standing by for orders. Transmission end.

[koraki-grimoire]

Witchcraft in Hellenismos

Disclaimer: This post is non-exhaustive, and though I'll try to equally spread my focus, it will inevitably lean towards the kinds of magik I personally practice.

Often, in modern pagan circles, people are under the impression that Ancient Hellenismos either didn't have or despised witchcraft. This is largely from three causes. The first is simply misreading, or failing to come across witchcraft in the Hellenism they research. Second is only reading about or adhering to branches that didn't like witchcraft (usually due to it being perceived as hubristic) and therefore assuming that's the most popular opinion. Finally, sometimes people apply their assumptions based on Christian and Germanic culture to Hellenismos, and assume it carries the same attitudes.

In actuality, the view of witchcraft was historically more neutral. Witches weren't typically seen as hags, but maidens, respectable men, priests, and more. It should also be noted that, frankly, "witch" is a slightly tonally incorrect translation usually applied to the word "pharmakis."

For historical attitudes towards witches, we can read works surrounding mainly Medea and Kirke, as well as Hekate if we go past pharmakeia.

But pharmakeia and nekromankia (necromancy) are far from the only forms of witchcraft or magik--which in Ancient Greek would be "mageia" or "goeteia" depending on time and place, but will simply be called "magik" here.

So, with that very long introduction, let's get into types of magik.

Pharmakeia - Herbal Sorcery, Witchcraft

Pharmakeia is perhaps the most recognizable form of magik in historical Hellenismos. As mentioned, it was associated with the heroine Medea, as well as the goddess/nymph/hero (it's complicated) Kirke. This was magik performed using the aid of herbs, and both historically and now blends magik and science. It includes brewing poisons, casting curses, potionmaking, transmutation, and more. Kirke, famously, used pharmakeia to transform men into swine, whereas Medea tended towards poisoning, but both had variety in their craft.

Generally, when pharmakeia is translated, it's done very broadly compared to other kinds of magik. For example, pharmakeia is usually translated, especially in the Odyssey, to "witchcraft" or "sorcery." Pharmakis--the word for a practitioner of pharmakeia--is usually translated to "witch." This often leads to misconceptions of witchcraft in Hellenismos being specifically oriented around herbs and transmutation, when that's only a small piece of the picture.

Nekromankia/Nekromanteia - Necromancy

Nekromankia is far more famous now in its Anglicized pop-culture form, but it was most certainly present in Hellenismos. It's important to clarify that in Ancient Hellas, nekromankia was magik pertaining to the dead, not things such as zombies and raising the dead. In Hellenismos, the maintenance of good relationships between the dead and the living is of great importance. There were plenty of festivals devoted to placating and celebrating the dead--not to mention the monthly Attic holiday Hekate's Deipnon, devoted to honoring Hekate, goddess of nekromankia. So, unsurprisingly, there were witches who gravitated towards this as a craft.

Multiple Hellenic deities were associated with nekromankia, the most notable of which being Hekate, but also Persephone. Though, of course, any khthonic deity--especially khthonic theoi who also had non-khthonic aspects--were relevant, such as Haides or Hermes. A practitioner of nekromankia would be referred to as a nekromanteías.

Manteia - Divination, Oracles

It should be noted that manteia is heavily contested as being a form of witchcraft or even magik in Hellenismos, but it certainly meets the qualifications. The main reason this debate exists is controversy around magik in Hellenismos in general, since as most Hellenists know manteia is so central to so much of our religion, and those who dislike magik are insulted by it being considered that. Additionally, the definition of magik is constantly in flux--it's debated in modern magik circles, and it's even harder to apply a definition we can hardly agree on to an ancient culture with its own independent definitions.

Manteia is, most simply, the power to give prophecies, divination, and the use of oracles. It's the power of the Pythia (Delphic Oracle), it's in the Olympian Alphabet Oracle, it's every single seer and prophecy and divinatory method known to us.

Someone who practices manteia is called a mantis (usually translated as "soothsayer" or "diviner") or a khresmologos ("oracle"), depending on station.

Heliomanteia - Solar Magik

Heliomanteia is hard to find detailed historical information on, but most simply, it's magikal invocation of the sun. This is generally done by attempting to harness the power of the sun, or by requesting the aid of solar deities (namely, Helios).

Interestingly, Helios had many associations with witchcraft and warding off evil. It could be assumed that, due to the qualities attributed to Helios, heliomanteia would be best used to reveal truth, ward off evil, harness the power of fire, promote life, and similar.

Presumably, a practitioner of heliomanteia is a heliomantis.

Goeteia - Magik, Charms

Goeteia (in modern times "goetia") is a term for magik that fell out of style for general magik around the 5th century BC in favor of mageia. It, additionally, was shoehorned into a dichotomy of theurgy (divine, "professional," and virtuous magik) and goeteia (low, malicious, and fraudulent magik). This was largely due to political and social overhaul. The name became associated with fraudulent and harmful magik, and talk of goeteia in Ancient Hellas is a major source most anti-witch Hellenists use.

The goes (practitioner of goetia) was maligned, seen as hubristic and either trying to go against the power of the gods or intending to scam others. Plato famously portrayed them as malicious frauds, and he was not alone. Since the term "goes" is generally translated as "witch," it's not a leap to figure out why this lead to a lot of anti-witch Hellenists.

However, before this (and technically after), "goeteia" simply meant magic, charms, and similar. As a unique practice, and not simply an umbrella term for witchcraft, it can be considered channeling, a relative of nekromankia, or baneful magik, depending how much one leans into the later definition.

Theourgía - Deity Work, Divine Magik

Theourgia (in modern times "theurgy") quite literally translates to "deity work" or "god(s) working." It is ritual, sometimes magik, done with the intent of invoking one or more of the theoi. This was the ritual magik often performed by priests. In fact, it could be considered the mainstream magik of Ancient Hellas--assuming, of course, that one considers it magik.

It's not only historic magik that was central to the religion, but sets historical precedent for the controversial phrase "deity work." The existence of theurgy as the "higher form" of magik in Ancient Hellas is singlehandedly enough evidence to prove the phrase is not and would not be considered inherently hubristic. It should be noted that this form isn't inherently superior, but if you asked Plato, he would disagree.

There are certainly more forms of mageia in Ancient Hellas--For example, I skipped over amulets (periapta), which were almost incontestably the most common magik in a lot of Ancient Hellas, since they could technically fit under some other crafts and because they're the easiest to research on your own. It's a similar case with potions, too.

One important takeaway is the hard line between magik, religion, and science is a fairly recent invention. Pharmakeia could act as medicine, not just sorcery. Many potions were also medication. Frankly, the more women were involved, the more practical it tended to be, with 'spells' often being genuine aids to childbirth and/or birth control. This didn't make them any less magikal, and the magik doesn't make it less real.

And I hope I made it very, very clear, but witchcraft has always been in Hellenismos, and isn't inherently hubristic. That is a myth, and is rooted often in historical (and modern) classism, misogyny, xenophobia, or similar. Always consider your source's incentive to stigmatize before discounting all Hellenic witches.