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marc--chilton · 1 day ago

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(mgv) house makes insensitive jokes over the ideals but does not really believe that his "worth as an omega" comes down to how many pups he has (or anyone's worth for that matter). his self worth comes from his intellect as, in his eyes, that's all he's really good for, all he's really good at that even means anything. he doesn't even really think he wants kids most of the time.

but then oops! having a pup with wilson now i guess! and even though wilson is pretty good at being as normal (their brand of 'normal') as possible, house can see how privately overjoyed he is, didn't miss how, when he stole wilson's wallet, a copy of the latest sonograph was carefully tucked inside. and he figures, well.... if i can do this right, if i can be good about this, i can finally start paying it forward to the man who deserves it the most. and if i am worth something to him, i am everything.

#mgv #hilson #house mgv #thinks about the date with cameron and how house said those things abt himself............#a pup would NOT fix him just to be clear #it delights wilson though so house starts prioritizing his happiness instead of like idk. positive affirmations or whatevr #which is not a. great way to deal with those issues but it's? better?#house detaches on and off for the pregnancy to cope with the dread #as there's always been a stubborn demeaning little voice of john house in his head that quietly berates his omega-ness #so even though john's dead by then house still struggles with even some baser instincts #and all the responsibility afterwards? to care and love and not irreparably damage a little sponge of a person that had the great >#misfortune of having himself for a mother? terrifying #he nearly relapses a few times but what stops him is knowing if he takes something it will affect >#their pup too. it would hurt wilson (good demotivator) but it would hurt /wilson's/ pup too (better demotivator) >#and he'd rather have the muscle ripped from his other leg than endanger a pup that's half-wilson #(even though theyre also half-house too)#but yeah so like basically.......... house hinges waaayyy too much of his emotional wellbeing on wilson #what else is new am i right

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