#so even if you figure they've already been paid for that one book you might never see another one from that author again

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Well, it's always nice to start the daily dash catch-up with an immediate unfollow and three new blocks. That's so much less to catch up on!

[all-pacas]

This might not be something with many layers to it, but is there anything to say about how (for lack of better words) good of a mood Chase seemed to be in in Private Lives?? He's talking pretty nicely with the patient, fooling around with Wilson, going to the speed-dating with Wilson and House, going to Thirteen when his mind's going a mile a minute

i think he's … just kind of in a good mood! it's been about four months since teamwork, he's starting to move on a little. we know he isn't totally over things yet (and is currently avoiding signing his divorce papers), but he's moving on. wilson asked him to go speed dating, and wilson also has a little moment of divorce solidarity later on, so who knows, maybe they've actually been talking a little. wilson is giving tips.

i also think the events of the episode are kinda… tailored to be things chase enjoys, lol. he's always been smarmy and tricky, i think he kind of likes the fun of going speed dating and lying to everyone there (especially since it also takes the pressure off actually having to call anyone — we have no indications in s6 that chase is actually interested in dating yet). you know he'd love the chance to hang with house after work, and to scheme with wilson about house — how often does chase ever get to one up him? he's having a good week!

as for why he was nice to the patient… he always is, lol, even when he hates them: chase is in-universe notorious for his smarm and fake bedside manner. but also given all this on his mind, i can absolutely see why he'd be interested in her radical openness and honesty: cameron left him less for dibala than lying. he's currently trying to dissect and analyze the last three years of his life. of course someone that open and honest would interest him, although the idea of chase actually taking any lessons from it is pretty silly -- he's deeply closed off and hates opening up.

and he truly is trying to puzzle out the last few years. lockdown is a couple weeks away, and that episode makes it clear he's sitting on a lot of anger and hurt; we see in private lives that he's already/still pretty preoccupied with figuring out what went wrong -- there's a line in lockdown where chase admits he'd rather cameron never loved him because it means he didn't break them up (when he lowkey did). we see in private lives that he's already going down that path: there's a brief and very heartbreaking line where chase wonders if maybe cameron left because he never read her favorite book, he never paid enough attention to her interests. the last thing she said to him, per lockdown, was that he was ruined and poisoned. is he to blame?

his hotness crisis is pretty explicitly about cameron too: his argument to 13 being essentially "i pursued her, maybe she just thought i was good looking and never cared". but… if he paints cameron out to be uncaring and apathetic, then he can let go of some of his own guilt. it isn't his fault. it was always doomed. and… that's shitty of him, for sure. but i can see why it would be tempting. and easier. and make him feel better.

[kokomochi]

𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐈𝐃𝐀𝐘 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐒 | 𝐤𝐮𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐰𝐚 𝐢𝐳𝐚𝐧𝐚

"𝘪 𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘪 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘮 𝘶𝘯𝘭𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘺."

you've heard about future telling- but have you heard a story wherein you can see the future in your dreams? it's both a curse and a blessing, really. in this story, we're joining hands with hitto y/n into figuring out what her dreams mean- and if she's able to beat the clock into changing the future.

01. dreamer

have you ever had those instances where you just go about your day and then all of a sudden, you get a feeling like you have been to this place or you've seen the same assortment of roses yet you couldn't explain where?

or those times where you're just casually scrolling on your phone and then a wave of familiarity washes over you even if it's your first time encountering it?

this phenomenon is commonly known as deja vu- a feeling of having already experienced the present situation. (thank you google.)

let's take another example.

person a is walking along the streets of tokyo. just enjoying their afternoon, when all of a sudden they saw this shop that they haven't seen before, yet they feel like they've seen it but couldn't pinpoint when.

have you understood it now? great, let's move on to the next one.

this particular phenomenon doesn't really have a term, or they do, i'm too lazy to look it up and am not paid to do so so let's just work it out as it is.

it is when the saying 'dreams do come true' is used in such an odd way. because let's face it, the only dreams that will ever come true is when we're six feet underground surrounded with worms and insects.

however, in this specific case, we can either call it a mere coincidence or a cruel curse to put on to somebody.

don't know what i'm talking about? then, meet the star of the book, hitto y/n.

ever since she was just a small child, she's been given this 'gift'- or so, that's what her parents would tell her. a weird and odd gift, so she just calls it a coincidental accident.

the young girl would always dream about something so vivid that she'd wake up in the middle of the night because of how realistic the situation had become. must be terrifying for a five year old child if i do say so myself.

but these 'dreams' would only appear to her once.

now, you might be wondering, 'she's just having vivid dreams, what's so special about that?' well, it's not only about the dreams that made her special, but it is what happens a week after she had dreamt it.

let's take one of her more tamed dreams. when y/n was three years old, she had dreamt about her mother having a small bump on her stomach. and when she woke up, she didn't question it of course, thinking that it was only some weird dream that she had and went on to play with her toys.

a week has passed after she had dreamt that, her parents sat her down in the kitchen and happily announced that she's going to be a big sister to a little brother.

of course, little y/n didn't think much of it and was more than happy that she's going to be a big sis.

it wasn't until five years later that she had another one of those weird dreams. eight years old hitto y/n was sleeping on a futon next to her brother's as she tossed and turned that night- what could she possibly dream about?

a week later, she, her brother and her parents got into a car accident which resulted to them passing away- leaving y/n alone to raise her brother until authorities came and separated the two seeing that she was in the right age to be sent to a boarding school in hokkaido.

the eight year old herself didn't know what was happening and why they always happen a week after she had seen it in her mind, but she always played it off as a mere coincidence- an awful one at that.

and so, when their papers were finalized, she was sent to an all-girls school in hokkaido where a teacher took her in. leaving hitto kakucho to stand beside the orphanage director and watch as his sister was taken away from him.

"don't worry, kakucho. you'll be seeing her every christmas, don't cry."

it was rather harsh for the adults to separate them from each other seeing as they were the only family that they have, but the orphanage was unfortunately full- there's no room for a capable eight year old to stay there.

"don't be sad kaku! big sis will make sure to bring you lots of gifts when she comes back! i promise!"

young y/n was surprisingly able to keep that promise of hers and visited him every christmas, hands filled with gifts and heart swelling with joy, overly happy that they finally got to see each other again after an entire year of not seeing the other.

and even until kakucho got adopted by a lovely couple who happily took him in, and would've taken y/n if she accepted, she still took time out of her holiday to visit him and spend the rest of the winter season with him and his new family.

"hmm? why did i refuse? well, i've actually made really good friends in hokkaido- you should meet them someday!"

that was the last time that she has had a dream so vivid that she didn't think much about her weird childhood as she grew up.

hitto y/n is now eighteen and is basically a spitting image of her mother.

living in hokkaido, a completely different prefecture and city from her brother, came with some perks that she'd always brag to her little brother- like knowing how to cook tasty seafood meals.

her brother would always find it annoying on how she'd insist on cooking dinner and would serve them king crabs and all, but he still enjoys her cooking. finding comfort in them that he couldn't find in what his foster parents are giving him.

the (h/c) haired girl would always do that whenever she visits, always.

today marks the first of january, the first day of the year 2006- and for some random reason, it happened again.

for the past decade, she was able to sleep soundly on her futon, not waking up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night or not getting headaches whenever she wakes up- she was doing well.

but today was different apparently, because y/n has been having the same dreams for a week, which is really rare for her to have since she would always get random and senseless things to dream about.

unlike the other vivid ones that she had when she was a kid, this one's a little blurry- only making up small features of someone who she appeared to be talking to.

a guy with striking purple eyes and the most beautiful blond hair that she has ever seen, almost reminding her of the snow that would fall onto the city of hokkaido.

nothing else happened in that dream of hers, it was just her and the mysterious guy.

"y/n, aiko's making hot chocolate. get your ass back inside or else you'll catch a cold." (e/c) eyes met with dark ones, giving him a grin as she stood up from her position and brushed off the dirt from her pants.

kakucho clicked his tongue in annoyance and urged her to come in before he'll close the window and leave her all alone in the fire escape to freeze. just because the snowfall stopped, doesn't mean that it wasn't cold.

"i'm coming- don't close it!"

no science book has ever managed to explain what her little 'visions' mean, and she doesn't care. after all, every vivid and weird dream that she had happened when she was little- must be her overly-creative mind acting up again.

this dream is no different to what she would always have on regular nights. maybe he was just a random character that she had seen on a movie that she watched. what ever reason there is, it's nothing but a dream.

a simple dream and nothing else.