#so dramatic for no reason tho omg ? anyways

[kavehayati]

Okay after two years of torturing you all with my dumb k*veh rambling at least fifty times a day I’m gonna retire 😼🤞

[marsdql]

lovin’ me was never a sin — n.r﹙西村力﹚

snyopsis ៸ You are torn between falling in love with the enigmatic senior you were supposed to spy on and supporting your close friend from another school. ៸៸ -> masterlist

genre ៸ angst, romance┊ wordcount ៸ 3,5k content warning ៸ miscommunication, dishonesty, emotinal conflict, little toxic, immature┊ not proofread┊lowkey not happy with this one but wtv ៸ ៸

“You need to check him out for me, y/n!” screamed Giselle, your best friend— from the other line. “Okay, okay. So tell me more about this guy and I’ll see what I can do. But you better pay for tteokbokki next time!” you replied. “His name is Ni-ki, he’s only a year older than us, a hot senior.. anyway! I’ll send you a picture of him. He looks a little like you not gona’ lie…”

“Okay, I’ll update you when I see him. Unlike you, my class starts early so… I’ll see you later Giselle.” You hung up the line, placing your phone in your bag as you rushed to school.

You could barely walk in the snow, your shoes soaked because you refused to wear snow boots. ‘That’s it.. I accept my defeat, I’ll be late to my first class after winter break’ you thought to yourself, staring at the path ahead of you and letting out a dramatic sigh.

Before you could finish your dramatic act, you spot something that isn’t white like the snow that’s surrounding you—a tall slim guy struggling in the snow just like you. Though, there was something about him, He looked…. Familiar? That’s when you realized.

You quickly pulled your phone out of the side of your bag, putting your arms in an awkward position as you tried to open and close your bag. You reopened you and Giselle’s chats to check the photo she sent you of the guy she requested you to “keep an eye on”. Just as you figured, there he was, it was him, Nishimura Riki was right infront of you.

Lost in thought, your body shifted closer to him, making him side eye you weirdly. You kept getting closer and closer—until he finally said something. “Uh, do you need anything?” His voice low but deep—making you come back from lala land. “what? What! No.. hah no.. I was just approaching you because I noticed you’re also late to school! Why not walk together right?” You blocked your ears as you spoke, not wanting to let yourself even hear what nonsense came out of your own mouth.

“…Alright.” He said, both of you continuing your walk to school in silence—mostly because you didn’t known eachother but also because of how awkward your only conversation was.

“That’s it for class, make sure to study for the provincial math exam, you guys have 2 days to study everything we’ve learned this semester. Class dismissed” your teacher spoke before the bell rang for lunch.

You walked out of the classroom trying to hold your excitement—excited to see your friends since you couldn’t in the morning.

To your surprise, when you message them asking where they are, they reply saying that they already went to the bus station to go to the mall food court… cafeteria alone it is..

You knew school wasn’t going to be fun when you come back, but you didn’t think it’s be this boring. Just as you were saying that—Giselle messaged you.

Giselle: did you see him?!

You: Yaaah, we were both late to class so we walked to school together. We didn’t talk tho.

Giselle: omg(!(!;$$;!(!!!! How was it? Omg was he hotter close up??

You: it was so bad… I embarrassed myself that’s the reason we didn’t even talk. He’s alright I guess… he’s like emo?

Just as you said that, a guy sat next to you. You switched you gaze to him—Ni-ki? Again? Speaking of the devil… You were quick to speak, “hey, why’d you sit here?” You questioned him, a smirk across your face, thinking that he must want to become friends after what happend in the morning—oh but if only you knew how fast that smirk was going to be wiped off your face.

He removed his AirPods, looking back at you with one eyebrow raised and his lips slightly parted. “Were you talking to me?” Your eye lids quickly turning heavy at the embarrassment you just experienced.

“What? No! I mean, yes! Do you understand Uhm.. math?” You made up, “what kind of math?” he asked, to which you quickly answered. “All. Everything. 11th grade math.” “Do you need help?” “Yes, but I don’t know anyone who’s good in math and.. you look smart..?”

You dodged a bullet of more embarrassment. Ni-ki believed it and requested helping you with the math you couldn’t even understand when the teacher explained it. Surprisingly, he could explain pretty well and you understood a few things.

He offered to help you more before the huge exam—adding his number into your phone so that you could message him whenever you have a question you can’t complete.

It had been days since your first incounter with nishimura riki—he helped you pass your math exam which was unexpected since you both never talked. It’s like you guys were destined to become friends.

Everyday you guys became closer. It went from only studying—to walking eachother to class—to hanging out at each others house. Giselle was aware of everything aswell, getting herself excited so that she could use you as an excuse to talk to him.

But you couldn’t lie, feelings started to grow the more and more you both hung out. He was perfect in every way. Whenever you’d go to his apartment that he lived alone in—everything was organised, the Colors all matched. He always smelled good, his hair was never greasy either. He looked good in everything aswell.

When he’d help you with things, he never once made you feel stupid. Everyone knew him as the cold senior but he seemed so nice with you.

Dinnng!

giselle: Are you with ni-ki?

you: No, he just left. Why?

Giselle: oh. em. gee. He’s at the same store as me and this guy but I don’t want him to know I speak to boys…

You: LOL? Why??

Giselle: because when I’ll approach him, he’ll think I have a guy already!!!

You: you’re suchaaa boopppp 🙄🙄

Giselle: homie hopper til i Die 😫

A few minutes later, you heard a knock at your door. You rush to open it—wondering who it is.

It was ni-ki, again. “Hey, I noticed how you’ve been stressing over all the exams coming up next week. So I figured after you left I’d go to the store and get snacks so we can chill and watch movies.” He said, looking down at you, his eyes softer than usual when speaking.

“Come in, ki! You’ll catch a cold.” You giggled as you pushed him inside then dragging him to your room. He was a tease but still had a soft spot inside of him. “Whatcha’ wanna watch? Let me guess, tru-“ “true beauty!” “I knew it.”

Everyday was something new,

- hey y/n, I got you lunch

- Wanna’ hang out tonight?

- Let’s go to the movies

- Did you hear the latest rumor about-

- Do you know how many teeth sharks have?

His excuses became worse than yours—he just wanted to hang out. As much as you wanted to aswell, you knew your feelings for him would just grow bigger. You couldn’t like him though, he was one of giselle’s target—you were just her messenger.

There was only one thing to do, ignore him, no matter what.

“Y/n, wait up.” You heard from across the hallway behind you. You knew that voice—nishimura’s. It was unforgettable—almost making you turn back, but you had to control yourself. You brought this apon yourself, you were only supposed to watch from far, not get close and fall inlove.

You saw him from a reflection, the stupid look on his face. He seemed like he felt dumb, chasing like a dog after you, and for what? You were the one avoiding him, why is he the one who feels bad about himself.

After a week of nishimura trying to get a hold of you, he eventually gave up. He blew up your phone many times knowing you’d never be able to explain your horrible behaviour in person. That’s when you decided to write him one and only message to try and get him to stop;

You: I don’t like you, please stop

It wasn’t normal for you to act this harsh, ever. You never behaved like this but you know deep down that him trying to get your attention just makes you think about him more. You made it seem in your message that you didn’t want him to text back, but really—you hoped he’d make an argument so that you could act clueless, just so you have an excuse to yourself, to message him a little more.

read yesterday

Fast forward, 2 weeks before the end of the school year.

It was soon to be exam week, but it was different this time—you didn’t have a miracle pop up to help you like last semester.

You were at the library, waiting for Giselle and your other friends from school—including some that go to giselle’s. As you were waiting, your eye kept shifting to the couch infront of you—where ni-ki was at.

You and ni-ki used to always study at this library, that’s mostly why you came here. He always kept to himself and stayed with the unpopular people���people you didn’t know, so you never had the chance to ask anyone about him. You knew nothing about him anymore. Your friendship with him ended as fast as it started—reminder, all. because. of. you.

A few minutes later, you spot Giselle and her friends walk in. “Omg! Y/n!!! Long time no seee! When was the last time we hung out? March break? It’s been sooo long.” Said one of the girls as she ran to hug you. “Hii ellie, yah it’s been a while heh..” you replied. Giselle watching in amusement and joining in “okay get off her, I wana’ sit next to my cutie y/nnieee”.

“Hey, Giselle. Psst, Giselle” Whispered Ellie. “What is it?” “Who’s that guy from across us? Don’t make it obvious, just pretend you’re looking at the painting behind him..” You realized she was talking about Ni-ki—and without thinking, you talked back—“that’s Ni-ki!” You said in excitement, as if you were waiting to get a chance to talk about him.

Giselle looked a little shocked at your tone of voice who seemed to be said with a little more enthusiasm than intended. “Yeah, that’s Nishimura Riki” she told Ellie. “Wait, wasn’t that one of the guys you wanted to try and hook up with?” Hanni questioned, another girl who was at the table.

Your ears went from big to huge the second she asked that question, wanting to know her thoughts about ni-ki now. “Oh yah, but he’s too.. I don’t know he’s too mysterious. Need’ me a frat boy like Lee Heeseung or Sim Jaeyun. Plus, he’s leaving soon.” What? He’s leaving? “Where is he leaving to?” you asked, to which she replied “Japan, his homecountry.”

You stared at him from across the room, analysing his every move, hoping he’d look back at you.

You waited until all your girl friends left—obviously, ni-ki still there—studying to make sure he gets well. Unlike you, he got all the hard subjects second semester—and being a senior Doesn’t help it.

You stood up, feeling a little weird. You were the one disrespecting him, yet you’re the one going back to him. You had your reason for what you did, but it was never a valid reason.

You walked towards him, his gaze still focused in his books. As you got closer, he instinctively looked at you, following a long eye roll from him.

You thought he was going to speak, maybe ask what you want from him, but he didn’t say anything— he just, stared at you.

“I-im sorry, ni-ki.” You mumbled. His eyebrows furrowed, “don’t you think you’re a little late?” He said, chuckling to himself, all the memories coming back to both your minds. “I-I know I was wrong, I swear I had a reason! It seemed important to me back then but—I realized now how stupid it was and I’m just sorry, okay? You don’t need to forgive me but—“

“Y/n” he interrupted you, taking your wrist and sitting you down next to him. He let you adjust in place before he leaned in, his lips slightly brushing your ear, “if you’re so sorry, then explain everything.”

“No.. I can’t say it, it’s just—personal.” You couldn’t tell him that your friend liked him, that’s like … betraying Giselle! “Fine then, whatever.” He spoke, his voice turning cold.

You and him sat there in silence. He went back to his work as you just sat there. He didn’t order you to leave, he didn’t leave, you didn’t excuse yourself either. You figured to just open your books and pretend study again—just so you could sit a little longer with him.

You started drawing random doodles on a paper to make it seem like you were working, it’s not like ni-ki would take a glance at your papers anyway, right? He didn’t care.

You started thinking to yourself, ‘how could you I ever tell ni-ki why I acted like that? I miss him so much. Why did Giselle ever have to lay her eyes on him?’ Not realising that you were actually writing down your every thought onto the paper until ni-ki shifted a bit in his seat, making you come back into reality and quickly scribbling on everything you wrote.

the day of flight xxx

It’s finally summer. But it feels as if a rock has just landed on your head. You won’t see Nishimura anymore in the hallways, you won’t see him for a while actually. Deep down, the thought made your heart ache. Matter of fact, you don’t even know when he’ll be leavi-

Notifications — INSTAGRAM -> Choi Soobin posted a photo: Goodluck in Japan, Dude!

Now? He’s leaving.. now?! Before your brain could process anything that was happening, you jumped from your bed, took your keys and sprinted to the car.

As you walked into the airport, you realized what you just did. You just drove to the airport for ni-ki—the guy YOU ghosted—the guy that gave you a chance to speak after doing him so wrong, yet you still chose not to. There’s no going back anymore.

You were able to track his flight on this app you had, so you know he still hasn’t boarded his plane yet. Though, one thing you couldn’t track was—his gate number.

Luckily, the world was on your side today—spotting Soobin just as you were thinking of plans on how to find Ni-ki in the huge airport. You sprinted towards him. “Soo-SOO-SOOBIN!” You panted, attempting to catch your breath after running. “NI-KI..! GATE? WHERE” You questioned, your hands gripping his shoulders aggressively—unable to form a full sentence.

To which he respond with, “woah, ‘wonder what you’re doin’ here.. calm down, Gate B3” “THANK U”

you ran all over the airport, you asked 3 different workers, just to find his gate. It’s too late to make effort now, but you couldn’t imagine riki leaving without you seeing him again and giving a proper goodbye.

After running around like a lost dog, you finally did it—you found him. He was sitting in the corner of lined seats at the gate in the back, near the window, his eyes glued to his phone.

You ran to him, the sound of your heels against the floor making everyone stare at you—including ni-ki who raised his eyes from his phone, surprised to see you.

“Ni-ki..” you muttered, your voice cracking a little. You didn’t expect yourself to get emotional so fast. “Ni-ki, I’m so sorry—Im sorry for everything. I know what I did was wrong. I’m sorry. Someone else liked you and I know I couldn’t like you aswell , I’m sorry” You continued, “I didn’t want to stay with you because I felt as if I was just playing a game since I knew we could never get together but now I don’t care anymore.. I’m sorry, I’m sorry” you spat out all at once. You didn’t even know if the words came out right from the amount of stuff you had in mind.

“Why are you saying sorry?” The black haired boy said as he chuckled, standing up and towering over you—slowly brushing off hair strands that sticked because of the tears that you ugly-sobbed out. You looked at him in confusion. “W-why—hic—why are you laughing?..”

he pulled you into a hug, his arms overlapping themselves on you. “Why are you apologising?” He pulled away slightly to look at you with a smile, “you can just say you like me.”

“By the way.. I saw what you wrote the other day in your notebook. You're so stupid..”

BONUS:

rikiwasntcatched: okay guys thanks she came to me and I think we’re inlove, it’s like some kdrama type shyt’

wonbinparkk: did it actually work?

partyneedssoobin: hell yah man. I’m telling you she was goin’ crazy when she saw me. She’s inlove with niki bro. Now all u gots to do is hide out for 2 days then say you’re comin back to Korea and boom problem solved

younghooney: hold up, kiki isn’t actually going to japan?

Rikiwasntcatched: she was so cute she was crying I was like gang chill I still love u or whateverrrrr I know I’m so handsome but no need to sob about it

partyneedssoobin: LOL we both won, I got Giselle and u got y/n from this incident.

wonbinparkk: who tf tells their bf about their old huzz? That’s like mad weird…

rikiwasntcatched: a win is a win what can I say. Movie night?

Younghooney: why am I being ignored

partyneedssoobin: chat my application to Harvard just got declined wtf

[jennrypan]

The name change was kinda unnecessary but slay ig,

Why is Lila the smartest person ever—? I-

“You mean when Gabriel Agreste became a hero.” ..Yeah. You should maybe call her out on that cuz?? It’s not..great. Idk— it not being funny shouldn’t be the reason you give pause. Anyways. Lila lowkey looks like a Spider-Man variant. It’s soo dope but I wish there was a lead up to her being this smart throughout the entire series cuz she seemed so dumb fr. But..Lowkey I fuck with her, shes a massive hater fr. Also..if Lila knows that Gabriel is Hawkmoth..she should.. out that to the world, while making herself out to be a better hero, like claim that Ladybug got corrupted or something and make it seem like her hiding Hawkmoths ID was apart of some evil plan or something. Idk. Like it’d be super cool, tomorrow I’ll.. explain more about that later cuz I’m cooking rn..

“I should’ve stopped him years ago.” ..Correct. Anyways Plagg should be giving Marinette the meanest side eye rn cuz she just believed Gabriel and he used the wish and they didnt accomplish SHIT- also Natalie, you were like him for a good long while so.. you really dont have a leg to stand on?? Hm— also Marinette. Adrien didnt have a father when his mom got sick. Let’s be so fr—

“Adrien is all alone.” GIRL YOU, ALYA, NINO, NATALIE, KAGAMI ARE RIGHT THERE!! AHHH— You and the class had that all little fairy tale nonsense talking abt how Gabriels the dragon you need to save Adrien from and now?? ..stop playing with me..

Natalie just confirmed what I said and its just..I like that Marinettes devastated for Adrien, it’s sweet but even after this she just..doesnt tell him? It kinda. Ruins the love square for me fr cuz the power dynamics fucked. Also.. Natalie joined in on imprisoning the Kwami, they should hate her i think?? Like— I like Natalie, she had potential but..she just— ughhh. She just barely realized what she was doing was fucked up, Im sure she loves Adrien way more than Gabriel but I wish they had her showing that way more?

I love that theyre fighting quietly lmao. “Natalies on our side.” …Finally. .Natalies so pretty..Im getting distracted.

UGH ADRIENS SOO CUTE. Anyways. You cant tell Adrien what transpired but you should be able to tell Chat considering..hes been your partner from day one? ..moving ooon. WHY IS LILA SMART?

“Adrien will have no one left.” ..which is why..youre here..and Nino..like I LOVE Natalie being Adriens mother figure but she really needs to be up front with him..like yeah obviously the truth would hurt him but lying to him and him finding out would be way worse. Anywho

This scene was lowkey wild— it had no reason to be that unsettling lmao. This fight sequence was really fucking dope though. Mkay so..Marinette just erased the part about her being Ladybug so..Lila knows about everything else? Which I adore for the drama of it!! I have thoughts about this I’m just tips for it.

GOD SHES SO UGLY WITH BLONDE HAIR EW- I FORGOT HOW NASTY SHE LOOKED, EW. Also lmao Lila tweaking out is still so funny, why is she insane— chill girl damn. Alix is just soo pretty omg. (Also more ideas is sooo— YEAHHHHH. I cant wait for this to be dramatic as fuck. Ill write it tho cuz i dont trust the writers.)

Oh it’s Chronobug idk why i heard chromo. Also..how does Tikki know what happened and Plagg doesnt? I— to hell with you. Making a rewrite and Plagg also knows cuz..ying and yang mf >:( like they know bits and pieces but not exactly everything. Alsoooo did she tell Chat about the new Hawkmoth? Also..not every miraculous needs to be with their holder? Like just the main five.. whatever. Also Plagg being so chummy with Marinette despite how she’s lying to Adrien doesn’t sit right with me. Like NO ONE is in Adriens corner fr…tomorrow Im fixing that I’m feeeling ways about this.

“We— I mean you..I mean Gabriel Agreste has..” UGH DRAMAA PLEASE.. and the fact that Adrien just lost his father and he has to comfort Ladybug AGAIN cuz they dont know each others identities..Ima scream. “I cant even tell you about it.” WHY???? ITS CHAT— YOU- Anyways. It’s not like old times cuz she has more secrets to hide and she has way more holders to call upon and now Alyas her actual partner ! Also ew..Blonde Lila..go away. Thats the scariest thing about her, shes fugly—

Anyways gonnna rewatch old episodes while i still ahh we my buzz.

[sk1fanfiction]

(ch. 21/107) -- CASS !!! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'VE DONE THIS TO ME 😖😖 this chapter was insane, i was on the edge of my seat the whole time, inching closer to my laptop like i wanted to insert myself into the story to see it with my own eyes. from the opening i was like "omg, harry's fucked" this is why you don't follow the ghosts of your dead mother, harold ! the claustrophobic space would've driven me over the edge personally, harry is a champ for staying as long as he did. it is also insanely in character for voldemort to keep harry's glasses close to him so he could "see" in the pitch black dark of the room, what a bitch. the whole confrontation with voldemort was just so *chef's kiss* with both harry AND ruby, they're both such spiteful little cretins i love them, they make voldemort so angry without even having to do much. i absolutely love it when voldy says he sees lily in ruby bc we all know everyone says that about harry with their parents, but i feel like it's very rarely said about ruby. one of my favourite moments was definitely moody calling tom dumbledore's "assistant" that had to have humbled him (also tom and dumbledore giving each other knowing looks, and tom "looking for approval" from dumbledore and all is so cute actually, that's his forced adopted son right there). we got the malfoy breakdown bathroom scene too, woohoo !! (i loved the wet cat comparison, he's such a fucking loser). also, got literal chills when ruby started "sweet talking" and placating malfoy and she's like "am i dumbledore? am i fucking tom riddle? well this is shit..." like girl... you've been amongst manipulators for way too long, you have become them 😭 anyway, get you friends like ron, hermione and anthony, they're so loyal and unhinged it's crazy. speaking of unhinged, i appreciated barty jr making an appearance ! poor ruby tho, getting chased by a madman, getting abandoned, stumbling upon voldemort's office, getting told your twin is dead and then getting saved all at once AND during exam season? yikes, i do not envy you girl. but hello? the ending scene?? you go bella, take charge girl?! but also, release tommy, what is my guy doing there? how did he get drugged?? 😭 can't trust teenagers(?) early twenties guys with nothing anymore (i forgot his age and cannot do the maths rn). YOU ARE SO CRUEL MAKING ME WAIT A WEEK FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER UGH !!

Insane was what I was going for, so I'm glad it delivered!!

This is indeed why you don't follow the ghost of your dead mother (especially when a Seer warned you not to chase ghosts). I thought the glasses were a nice touch (because Voldemort is a petty bitch if nothing else).

they're both such spiteful little cretins i love them -- spite is the Potter special. And, yes, a compliment from Voldemort (but at what cost).

Tom definitely doesn't fw being called Dumbledore's 'assistant' (he prefers colleague) and you know they were having a whole secret conversation with Legilimency.

Full disclosure, half the reason I sent Malfoy to Durmstrang for a whole three years is because personally I find him a little boring until HBP and the assassination plot and specifically the bathroom breakdown (the loser trait adds some dimension).

"am i dumbledore? am i fucking tom riddle? well this is shit..." like girl... you've been amongst manipulators for way too long, you have become them -- exactly, exactly, you get it. This is what happens when you get Sorted into the manipulator House, hang out with the Headmanipulator and do an exchange year with Lord Voldemort Junior.

Speaking of, yes, definitely get you friends who will break into Voldemort's headquarters to save you with zero plan. (I'm glad it was obvious the Death Eater chasing them was Barty Crouch since none of the characters mentioned his name). Ruby's going through to say the least (+Dumbledore and his dramatic timing).

Diary!Tom's about 19 right now (since he was 16 in June 1943/April 1993). I was thinking to myself I couldn't remember his exact age a while ago as well and had to check my character wiki. I'm not sure whether it's wilder that he's now older than I was when I started writing this fic or that he's gotten up to so much bullshit in such a short timespan.

Anyway, how Bellatrix and Tom wound up in that situation (along with everything else that happened 'off-screen') will be revealed! (Also Chapter 22 is 95% done but it's definitely coming on time).

[dizzyjelly]

My Perfect Girl

Word Count: 1.2k

Summary: your friends leave you feeling more insecure than you already were, but Ellie comforts you and yells at your dickhead friends

Cw: body insecurity, mentions of feeling/being fat+ugly, troubles eating

You struggled to breathe as you lied in bed curled into a ball, crying your eyes out. Your crying fit had been a result of a rather hurtful conversation with your "friends." Your body faced the wall as tour hands came to cover your face, your palms wetting with tears. Time passed, you didn't know how much, but you'd heard a voice behind you and the bedroom door creaking open.

"Baby? What's going on, what happened?" Ellies voice was laced with concern and worry as she rushed to your side, rubbing your back.

You sniffled as you turned to face her, tears still streaming down your face as you picked up your phone and opened up your grouochat then handing it to her. Your breaths were ragged and quick as you watched her read, hee brows furrowed in worry quickly arched with anger as she did.

Y/n: guys I feel like I look bad today *image attached*

Ryan: wdym

Rosa: yeah u look the same lol

Y/n: idk like I feel ugly and like fat :(

Ryan: I don't see any difference 💀

Rosa: ong you look like u always do

Ryan: yeah ur just being dramatic lmao

Rosa: she probably just wants attention to be really honest

Ryan: omg you're right tho, fishing for compliments haha

Y/n: guys stop I'm not kidding.

Ryan: come on yk were right

Rosa: yeah just calm down bro

Y/n: whatever I'm done talking to you guys.

"What the fuck." Ellie muttered under her breath.

"Ellie, I look terrible and they're just making fun of me." Your bottom lip quivered.

"Baby, you don't. I promise they're just being assholes for no reason." She tried to reassure you, rubbing at your arm up and down.

You turned away from her, facing the wall again as you cried harder. You couldn't believe a word she said, you just felt insecure. It wasn't the first day you've felt like this, but it never got easier. It was days like these where you couldn't even bring yourself to look in the mirror, shower, or take care of yourself in general.

She let out a deep sigh, bringing a hand to rub your back gently, occasionally combing through your hair with her fingers. She looked at your phone again, then stood to leave the room.

"I'm gonna talk to them." She stated before exiting and calling the group.

Your friends picked up and were confused, seeing Ellies face instead of your own. It's not like they didn't recognize your girlfriend, but they wondered why she was the one calling them.

"Oh hey Ellie." Ryan greeted with a smile.

"Hi. So what the fuck is wrong with you guys?"

Rosa laughed a bit, her brows furrowing.

"What are you talking about?" She asked.

"Whyd you guys say that shit to Y/n? Seriously what kind of fucking friends are you?" She asked in return, as if it was obvious.

"Oh come on, she knows we were kidding!" Ryan argued.

"Yeah, she's probably being dramatic anyways." Rosa chimed in.

"I bet you're only asking because she told you to." Ryan spoke smugly.

"Um, no actually I'm asking because clearly she's upset and you guys are just being assholes. And if she knows you were joking why'd I come home to her crying, hm? Terrible fucking jokes by the way." Ellie argued, feeling angrier at your friends poor reactions.

"She was crying? Oh shit, sorry." Suddenly Ryan seemed to feel bad.

"Yeah you fuckin should be, she's probably gonna be worked uo for days now. Great fucking job you two." And with that Ellie hung up, as she couldn't bear to speak to them any longer.

She shut off your phone and set it at the bedside table, sitting down and glancing over at you as you let out a heavy sigh. You silently cursed as your stomach grumbled.

"Babe, you hungry?" Ellie asked, leaning down to rest her chin on your shoulder.

"No." You lied, shaking your head.

"Ok, well have you eaten today?" She asked, already sure she knew the answer.

"No." You were quiet now, feeling ashamed at your inability to care for yourself, how you know you should be.

"Alright well come on then, let's put something in that belly of yours." She tried to turn you around, take you to the kitchen.

But you wouldn't budge, tears falling from your eyes once again as you shook your head furiously.

"No! I-I'm already fat enough I don't need to eat anymore!" You protested, believing everything you said.

"What? Stop it, that's nonsense and you know it. Come on, just come have something. Please." She frowned as she held your hands in her own, it hurt her to see you so upset.

"I can't." You choked out and she pulled you into a hug.

You immediately leaned into her relaxing touch, wrapping your arms around her back as you nuzzled your head into her shoulder.

"Baby, you can. I know you can, you're stronger than you think. And your body is perfect" She pulled away, holding your face in her hands as she peppered kisses over your face, "I love every part of it, and you. You're amazing and your brain is just lying to you." She reminded you.

"Love you too." You responded, sniffling and leaning your forehead against her own.

You finally followed her to the kitchen, still hesitant but you'd get past that. You sat at the table and watched as she made pasta for the two of you, mainly because she knew it was your comfort food. A smile made its way to your face as she brought over two bowls, giving on to you. Ellie smiled ten times as big as you did, rubbing her thumb over your cheek fondly. It made her happier than anything to see you smiling after you'd had such a tough time that day.

Once you finished eating, Ellie insisted on doing the dishes. You felt bad for not helping out, but she reassured you that she was more than happy to do it herself. She told you to go sit down and pick a movie, and of course you did.

You'd selected something happier, usually you two watched horror together but tonight you just didn't feel like it. You sat with your knees pulled to your chest, a fuzzy blanket engulfing you as you waited for your girlfriend. She was sitting beside you in no time, pulling you into her side. You hummed contently, leaning into her touch with a smile as you leaned your head on her shoulder.

About halfway through the movie, Ellie placed a kiss to your forehead then placed a hand on your chin to make you look at her.

"Is my girl finally feeling better?" She asked.

"Mostly, thank you for helping me." You smiled before leaning in to give her a kiss.

"Of course Baby. You tired yet?" She asked, looking at her watch and noting that it was getting late.

You just nodded before placing your head back on her shoulder and closing your eyes. She chuckled a bit at you, rubbing your side lovingly then letting her head fall against your own as she waited until you fell asleep before carrying you into your shared bedroom. She laid you down then climbed in next to you, pulling you in. You let out a small groan as you hiked your leg over her own, wrapping your arm around her stomach.

A/n: sorry ik it's kinda short! Hope u still liked tho :)))

[sarroora]

Hola I got my hip surgery today so I'm stoopu doopu in the hospital currently and figured I'd yeet some medical headcanons at you 😁

We know T.C. canonically hates hospitals and I feel like it's probably because someone he was close to died in one (yay sadness)

Also related the gang has to practically drag him to the doctor to get him treated for anything and sometimes they have to go get Dibble to help wrangle and contain him

Chooch and Fancy are both hella dramatic when they get something as harmless as a cold or stubbing their toes a little too hard, they're both slight hypochondriacs lmao

Meanwhile Spook is the opposite of a hypochondriac he could dislocate his shoulder and he'd be like 'nah like I'm fine man don't like get all Worriesville about it pops,' (except when he's sick)

Also Spook doesn't get sick often cos he's got a beefy immune system but when he does get sick it's BAD and he looks like a dying Victorian child that one scene in CGaL be like

Brain gets injured constantly and half the time he has no idea how, that boy's definitely got some form of nerve damage that prevents him from feeling pain like he should so sometimes he'll just come back with a gash in his arm unknowingly and T.C.'s just like 'OH MY GOD'

Dibble has had to have major surgery at some point and didn't tell the gang and oh BOY was T.C. OFFENDED when he found out

Anyways yeah so far so good I'm chilin and I'm gunna start doing EVEN MORE TOP CAT ART N FICS N THINGS because I will be BORED

Yoooooooo it’s done? I wish you a speedy recovery!! 🙏✨🙏✨ (are they givin you the gud stuff there lol jk jk)

And YES

MY TC BUDDY PLS GIMME THESE HCS ANYTIME I NEED EM

“We know T.C. canonically hates hospitals and I feel like it's probably because someone he was close to died in one” Yep, and that’s why I headcanon hospitals to TC are more associated with morgues than recuperation.

Chooch and Fancy totally be little drama kings when they’re sick. And they love being taken care of.

And yes Spook. Asdfgjlkl OMG Spook. He severely understates any pain or injury. And being struck with something annoying like the flu or a cold just makes him curt and snappish.

His time away from the gang in CGaL is taking a toll on his health tho and he’s becoming very thin and gaunt :’(

Brain’s HC is spot on - and whenever he gets an unfortunate case of catching fleas, T.C has no choice but to give him a full bath. It makes him feel guilty, because Brain is very iffy with water. When he was younger and still new to the gang, the first time T.C. had to get him in the bath, Brain began to cry, and T.C. felt horrible. They discovered that for some reason, Brain is very uncomfortable with the feeling of water on his head. Since then, they try to give him a bath without getting any water on there.

Benny is every doctor’s dream patient. He does his best to stay still and quiet whenever he’s being checked or worked on. And he purrs the whole time. He’s the complete opposite of T.C in that he doesn’t hate hospitals and has no associated trauma with them.

I can’t WAIT for some TC fics and stuff and fill my inbox with chats and HCs anytime!

[egirlgarak]

just saw wicked. ultimately fine, even quite well done at some points, but there literally was no reason to make a 1.5hr act of a musical into 2.5hrs. like really we needed to go back through and cut out half of those overdone emotional beats.

just me rambling under the cut, if any of u guys have seen and have thoughts feel free to chime in :)

the group numbers were absolutely electric though. fantastic costuming and every ensemble member was interesting to watch. though maybe i would not have been looking at them so hard if ariana was at all compelling for the first half of the movie 🧍‍♂️ like where was the dramatic through-line. what kind of emotion are you trying to convey girl.... it was all just a wash of that dead eyed ig girl vibe. (cynthia too, lowkey.) no surprise, no joy, no loathing. the first time i actually felt like there was a Person there was when she leaves the dance hand in hand with elphaba. which is great if you are a lesbian galinda thruther!!!!!

also is it just me or did grande sound like she was heavily parroting kristen's approach to the role. i thought "i don't listen to her music, maybe she literally just sounds like that" before leaving the theater so i spent the last 30 minutes flipping through her discography and am lowkey realizing her voice is not memorable or distinct in anyway 🥴 but i do have to acknowledge- regardless of a lack of personal style- she does have a really solid instrument and i still enjoyed listening to her! also i can very easily understand why she would be adopting a chenowethian style for this thang. but still.

also forgot entirely how ethan even met grande before he left his wife for her and the jumpscare of seeing him was so overwhelming omg. unfortunately tho i did think his few moments were significantly more compelling than ariana 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️

[thedivaking]

Presenting~

My fav George iii depictions🌟

George iii from Queen Charlotte (obviously)

Ahhh, he need to be protected🥺. He's perfection!

Hamilton's King George..

He's absolutely hilarious, sassy and adorable. He's the reason why I made this page 😄. George's songs are always stuck in my head~ lol.

George iii from Prince regent.

I love how they showed his slow decline in mental illness. And he was such a fun granddad to princess Charlotte too, nonetheless.

And his catchphrases🤣🤣 omg.

What what what! Female politician!

I'm the one who's supposed to be confused.

"If I fall and break my neck here, you'll be celebrating"

Also when he rushed to queen charlotte when the doctors brought him to her. Ahh.

Horrible Histories George iii.

Well he was f-f-f funny.

I love every bit with him~ especially when he was on his little wheelchair during George iv's song. (They see me rolling, they hatin')

King George from "The Madness of King George.

Perfect, but should have been a different actor, idk. Him and Lottie's chemistry is too cute. As always 😫

Honorable mentions~

George from John Adams~ Perfection!

George from Washington spies~ I love his craziness, haha. But they overdid it.

- "NOT NOWWW BILL!!!!"

From Young Mr Pitt~ Kgiii was so happy go lucky, and I'm happy for him💛.

Kgiii from Mrs Fitzherbert. Very much hardworking, lol. Anyways, love that, king👏. And not to mention dramatic. "You have always opposed me. You were happy when the colonies left me." (What you want him to do, Kgiii. Sing you'll be back with you?) (The answer is yes by the way.)

I think it would be possible if it was Jim Howick tho. Then he'll make the song about himself.

[camillesblogsposts]

hi !! ur say yes to me !! is so !! unbelievably good !!! i love love LOVEEE UR READER !!!! i rarely see readers that are just so kind and girly, it honestly warms my heart to see u write reader. also, i love reader and ellies dynamics, the way both of them are completely misinterpreting each others perspectives and how they both cope COMPLETELY different from each other. how ellies pushes but reader always pulls back if that makes sense,, i also really like how u depict ellie !! ellies characterization i feel like is very accurate, she doesnt seem like the type to react very well w a reader who keeps “leading” her on (not that anyone would, but the way u wrote her was just very ellie-like, like how brash she is but her rare moments of vulnerability where u can really see her soft spot for reader like when reader visited her and when ellie got angry at her after patrol, just shows how much she cares tho shes not great at expressing it) anyways, thanku soso much for writing !! they are an absolute treat to read, have a good day mwah ! <3<3

How… are you real…. I love you so much omg I know this is so silly and dramatic but I teared up reading that LOL. It’s so nice to see people really understand and like what I’m going for. Like you understand it so well??? Ellie 100000% thought that she never in a billion years had a chance with y/n and she was so bitter and insecure about it. Like, she doesn’t even fully understand her feelings herself but she has been completely enamoured by you since she met you when you were just kids. She’s so scared to lose people and she views herself as a danger. Being able to see you alive and well is the only thing that keeps her sane, even if she has to make you cry every day to keep it that way. Y/n is so full of light and kindness and Ellie doesn’t realise that she is allowed to be surrounded by that. Yes she’s a bit of a cunt but she has her reasons!!!!!! I really hope you send more messages omg this made me so so so happy!!!! I’m really glad you like y/n as well, I kind of just try to write her how I imagine me in that situation hahaha. Ellie simp for life .. ALso!! I forgot to add, YES AFTER PATROLS!!! Girl Ellie hyperventilating fr she is SO SO TERRIFIED of anything bad happening to you she would keep you on house arrest if she could

[quodekash]

os2 x eclipse ep2 part 2 of my silly little commentary

oh thats weird, why is the cafe for all worker hosting the competition?

(huzzah i am funnie)

seriously tho, youd think aye would recognise them

YAYYYYYY WAT WONNNN

SANI TAKING PHOTOS GHRDFJBG I LOVE HER

SHES SO PROUD OF HIM

"this is my first short film. sorry- our first. it's a story of what we face in real life. Thank you to all my friends for always supporting me. Thank you to my advisor, Teacher Sani. If you hadn't asked me that day, I wouldn't have made it here today. I also want to thank my family. Even though they don't really approve of me making movies, they secretly transferred me money in the end. Thank you."

EVERY SENTENCE HE SAID WAS ANOTHER REASON TO CRY

HOLY HELL IM NOT OKAY

OMG

hell yes imma add this to the collection

"even though your movie is not very perfect, i could see the power and sincerity in it." "thank you" "keep making films. dont give up." "i wont" HIS LITTLE SHRUG- I CANTTT

BGRHEFJDBS

HES SO HAPPY

ITS MAKING ME HAPPY

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

PROBABLY TOO MUCH

BUT ITS FINE

THIS JUDGE GUY IS SO COOL

IM GONNA CRY

I LOVE THIS GEHIRKBSG

FIEWUKJSBDGFEKJBSDGFOU4EJWBNFIOKNEWDSPIGNVPIERKDSFPIN4EWSDPIGNVPEORIDNSGOPVIENBRPISDGNVEORIJDSBGNPIO34JBWENGPIVE4PRIKGHJBOPEIRNFDOIBJN THE HUG

HES SO HAPPYYYYY

IM SOBBING

SANIS FACE-

NAMO LITERALLY SEES EVERYTHING

HOW DOES HE SEE EVERYTHING

HE ALWAYS KNOWS

the lights went out

finally

here it is

aye's about to be dramatic

and im probably gonna scream and cry (in a good way)

GUITAR CHORD STRUM THINGY GHDRBHT

YUP

YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP

YAYYYY

im giggling and sobbing at the same time

HES CRYING AAAA

im so glad im watching this now instead of last night bc its so much easier to scream out loud

AND AKK'S GONNA START SINGING TOO, RIGHT???

LOOK AT HIS FLIPIN FACE AAAAAA

YES

YES

YES

GIUERKDSBJGREUVJB

IM SCREAMING AND SOBBING AND LAUGHING AND DYING AND GIGGLING ALL AT THE SAME TIME SOMEBODY HELP

GFUIREBGNIUEFRBAAAAAAAAA

im sobbing

hes such a good singer

i love first's voice so much

WAIT I ONLY JUST NOTICED THAT LINE

"if you dont like it, if you're not okay, let me know. ill stop."

the freaking PARALLELS

IM SCREAMING SO LOUD RN

THE FREAKING FLASHBACKS

WHAT THE HELL

IM DYING

GIRHDKBJGFBJTKRDFAAAAAAA

IM NOT OKAY AND THEY ARE THE REASON WHY

ITS THE EXACT SAME SCENE

EPISODE 10, 3/4, IT'S EXACTLY THE SAME AS THAT

AND THAT SCENE HAPPENS TO BE ONE OF MY FAVOURITE SCENES

SO I AM COMPLETELY DYING

BUT ITS LITERALLY THE EXACT SAME SCENE

THEYRE SO SILLY

I LOVE THEM

AAAAAAAAAAAA

WELL NOW ITS EXACTLY THE SAME AS EPISODE 11 WHERE THEYRE LYING IN BED

ITS THE SAME FREAKING THING

THESE FREAKING PARALLELS WILL BE THE END OF ME

oooo graduation blessing

"people say that life is like a journey. i want you to keep going forward to reach each of your destinations or goals." I LOVE HER

"keep going forward without knowing if there's light at the end of the tunnel" SERIOUSLY KAN, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO KEEP VOICING MY FEARS, ITS RUDE

"of course. you guys have done it before. you have walked out of those dark shadows." TY SANI THATS SO SWEET IM CRYING

THUAKAN MOMENT

PLATONIC WATSANI MOMENT

OMG

Y E S

YES YES YES YES

THIS IS LITERALLY EXACTLY WHAT I WAS HOPING FOR

I SCREAMED SO LOUD

THEY HUGGGGGGGG

"thank you for never letting go of my hand" WHAT THE HELL THE PARALLELS- NOW ITS THE SCENE AT THE START OF EPISODE 10 WHERE AYE FAINTS AND THEY GO TO HIS HOUSE AND THEY FALL ASLEEP AND THEY FALL ASLEEP HOLDING HANDS AND AYE SAYS SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND HOLY HELL

THIS IS THE GREATEST FREAKING EPISODE OF ANYTHING EVER OH MY GOODNESS

my face hurts from smiling so much in this episode

SERIOUSLY, THE PARALLELS ARE INSANE

EVEN THEIR EXPRESSIONS ARE EXACTLY THE SAME

"i love you too. shortstop." AAAAAAAAAA

damn, they end with what they cut out of the actual show

i love them so much

oh, look at that, theyre ending with what the actual show had to cut out

anyway WHAT THE HELL THAT WAS INCREDIBLE

EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT WAS PERFECTION

MY NEW FAVOURITE EPISODE OF ANYTHING EVER

AND PUENTALAY NEXT WEEK???? GIUERJKBDG

oh look at that i used up all 30 photos again

how the hell is anything real rn

THEYRE GONNA BE DADS?????? WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL

WELL

THAT WAS SOMETHING

im gonna go cry for the rest of the day, peace out

[sankyeom]

i agree children of divorce WAS AND STILL IS one of the top smau in enha tumblr im not even kidding so u can imagine how devastated i was after reading it and lurking around on ur lovely blog that u have not written anything for hee else I WAS DEVASTATED and ive been waiting AND THE OPPORTUNITY FOR IDK A YEAR! AND IT IS RIGHT THERE but sadly (for now 15.06) hoon is winning so im gonna yet myself, im not hoon hater lik don't get me wrong i love him my cutie but best friends to lovers is so heejake coded TO ME at at least

fr tho that smau changed my brain chemistry forever LIKE THANK YOU, i reread it every few months and it always gets me!! AND THE WAY U WRITE OMG ITS SOOO GOOD!!!!!

so in my head ur awesome brain plus hee plus a longer fic = A MASTERPIECE

yes this is serious to me, wishing u all the best im just being dramatic and i will read the fic anyway but yeah 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

that is so kind and extremely generous of you to say!! i really loved the relationship and characters i wrote in children of divorce so i’m really happy that you enjoy the fic so much 🥹🥹🥹

honestly i see best friends to lovers as something jakehoon coded for some reason???? idk i feel like they’re both more shy but with people they trust/are close friends with they really let loose and are more extroverted which feels SO best friends to lovers

there’s still around 5 days left for the poll so i guess we’ll see who it ends up being!! but just because one person wins the poll doesn’t mean i won’t ever write best friends to lovers for the other members 😉

THANK YOU AGAIN!!!!! you’re so sweet and i’m so happy you love children of divorce as much as me 🥰

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

FR THO, like atp we need just a filter for asks 🙄 It's nice to interact with your favs

I might post my writing out of boredom, because I have one written already, but I feel like if I post it I'm not gonna be able to post regularly. Just because I lose motivation, and die 😭

ALSO ARE YOU IN MY WALLS OR SMTH? I WROTE MY ART COMMENT THINKING OF MY DRAWING OF CHOSO 💀 I keep staring at it I love it sm I CANNOTT, rumor has it if you come into my room you might catch me pecking a kiss onto the page. God I love Choso sm, hes on my mind all the time, like atp I'm gonna charge him for rent 😭

Srsly tho, I didn't mean to draw him. I've been thinking of him so often that when I started drawing in my sketchbook, it just.. Turned into him. I don't even really be drawing men (I find it difficult, I have a really feminine style 💀) but I did it, and he looks a little cutesy rather than smexy, but for some reason it fits him??

Someone please end my suffering, well it isn't suffering, but I'm so obsessed with him 😔💔 I don't mind it, until my friends tell me I'm annoying cause I keep talking about him (Honestly they're sick in the head and need help, which I will NOT give cause this is so fake of them. I'll remember these moments when they call me at 9 pm again 😒)

BUT FR HELP, LIKE WHY DID MY FRIENDS KEEP ME UP UNTIL 5 AM?!?! I WOKE UP AT 3 PM, SO I'M TIRED. Gonna have to take a nap to even it out 😞 My dentures are tired yk? My bones ache from being awake 😢 (I love being dramatic)

But get to work. My forehead is cold and in need of ekisses 🤞😋 (I keep reading what you said because it makes me giggle, you're so funny 😭🙏)

GAHHJJSJAKKA, Im literally squealing like a little girl over all the romantic things in all of your stories omgomgomg. I NEED SOMEONE TO TREAT ME LIKE THIS, Standards have been risen impossibly high 💀

XOXO 👽 (Might nap after this, I'll let you know 😽)

oh yeah if i don’t write a whole smau before posting it i would never post regularly LMFAO that’s how it was with my first smaus …. shivers… BUTTTT who cares about posting regularly post ur writing 😈😈😈😈

yes i’m in ur walls if u hear scratching its just meeee! but no i get it the choso brain rot is REAL and debilitating… just a brain full of choso…. omg how silly u mostly draw women and i mostly draw men… i think the only women i draw is like rei and shoko LMFAO

YOULL RMBR THOSE MOMENTS WHEN THEY CALL AT 9PM LMFOAOAOAOA…. UNTIL 5AM??? i’d die like i’d simply pass away i fear.

i am glad u like the… romantic… aspects of my writing bc …. i suck at writing the romance parts i fear anyway i hope u had a good nap if u did nap !

[sunlightandsuffering]

I’ve just read RIP Luv and i had to come here to say you nailed down the angst. I felt so angry at both Eren and Mikasa so many times and their sheer stupidity. But also I could understand their motives and where they were coming from and so I’ve thoroughly enjoyed reading their messiness. I’ll say that Mikasa is incredibly toxic and she needs a lot of therapy. And I’d say that they got together so soon, like Eren should’ve awaited at least to see her actually confronto by her family first before breaking up with Hisu. But should is the keyword here, the easiness with which they got together even though they were in a relationship is, the way I see it, an integral part of their codependence, and it’s not out of place. Ideally, in a healthy relationship, she’d first break up with Porco, and tell her family what she wants without any expectations from Eren. And Eren probably wouldn’t break up with Hisu on the spot, but she’d see his love for Mikasa and do the breaking up herself. However they never had a healthy relationship and I stress my previous point of their toxicity and codependence as the rule of their very mesy relationship. And if it had gone healthily from one moment to the next it not only wouldn’t be believable, but it wouldn’t be them. Which is why I think you also nailed the way they got together, on Mikasa’s whim and insistence and Eren’s devotion to believe her even when he had every reason not to. And for my final point: JESUS CHRIST that first depiction of Porco “dropping her off like a forgotten bag” WAS AMAZING. Peak angst and description here. And I’d turn up on the angst even more to still have Porco be like the is or even worse when he starts dating Mikasa. She dates him out of desperation, he treats her badly, and it’s a double edged sword: she wants to hurt Eren by being with a gig he hates, but she also thinks she deserves to be hurt by a guy like Porco exactly because of the way she’s treated Eren for so long. Porco mistreats her and uses her and she despises it and what it does to her, degrade her, but she loves to see Eren’s protective rage and concern in his eyes whenever porco drops her off drunk and full of his cum dropping down her thighs with her hair ruined and clothes disheveled, just for Eren to see her stumble into the apartment like this. She hates herself and the way she feels degraded and I’ve Eren’s attention on her. Forgive me if this part is too dark or angsty but I’d say Porco being nicer made things easier for Eren in the end when they could’ve been harder for deeper taste on angst, and it fits Mikasa’s problematic character. anyways, great job and great fic as always! Loved reading it! I was waiting for months reading and rereading those drabbles here and was delighted to see I knew some of them by heart while reading the fic! Thank you so much!!

OMG BABE I LOVE U ! THE MOSTEST FOR THIS VERY IN DEPTH REVIEW LOL!!! omg y'all give me too much credit 😂 but i have so many things to say back!!!! For your last point tho I honestly hadn't even considered that!! ANd now I very sadly wish I did lol!! It would have made so much sense and it would have been even more deliciously dramatic!!!!

I think if I can recall correctly my decision to make Porco a better guy was so Eren wouldn't murder him ahahah. And I also think because I didn't want to make it quite that painful for Eren, like ur totally right, nothing would sting more than her showing up fucked out of her mind with someone else's cum dripping down her thighs, I wasn't sure if it was too far and she wouldn't be redeemable anymore. Nice Porco was basically me softening the blow ahahaha 😂

But yes, poor bb boo Mikasa does need massive amounts of therapy lol, she's very toxic and I think u are right they're very codependent and Eren has always been her crutch. To that end though I totally agree with you about how unhealthy their relationship is 😂😂 I literally just discarded her breaking up with Porco he's such an afterthought he's not even a consideration lol. Meanwhile Eren has the actual good sense to break up with Historia, Mikasa doesn't give a fuck she's like give me my mans back. BUT IM GLAD THE ENDING MAKES SENSE AT LEAST! I really struggled with how to get them back together in like a believable way that wasn't too fast and for a while, I was like well maybe there needs to be some big event that forces it but in the end I kept writing and I was like no, these bitches just want to be together, let them be together, Mikasa won't let it be prolonged!

I actually deleted a whole scene where she was trying to seduce him again lol and I had planned to have that little arc go on for longer, but honestly it was feeling too unserious and more BTL Mikasa than angsty FWB Mikasa lol so I was like no, it's ending!! THEY JUST NEED TO HAVE DRAMATIC TEARFUL MAKEUP SEX AND GET TOGETHER DAMN IT!!! And thus, we have their very messy ending lol!

BUT IM HAPPY U ENJOYED THE ANGST, AND VERY PLEASED THAT U THINK I DID A DECENT JOB!! I haven't agonized over a fic like this in a hot minute lol so I appreciate the reassurance 💗💗🥰🥰

[virtue-and-beneviolence]

Hiii, I saw your self-ship ask event and omg, it's so cute! Anyway, I wanted to ramble about me and none other than Ran Haitani (doing so makes me really happy and warm) Thank you so much for doing this event :")

I'm allergic to showing the people I like/love that I like/love them. So this means I can be kinda "tsundere" in a way as a panic response when someone notices that I like them? It goes a little like this:

Person: "Aww, you did [favor] for me! Are you going soft for me?"

Me: "I only did it because I had nothing else to do." (lying)

You can already see how that'll go with Ran lmao. I feel like he'd just smile and say "If you say so~" because he can see right through me.

I'm the type to do something drastic when I get really angry. While me and Ran are both generally calm people, he's the calmer one of the two of us. I'm all rational and reasonable until I get angry which is why it's Ran who has to hold me back.

I don't know what to do with myself when someone shows romantic interest in me. If someone is trying to hint that they like me in that way, I will act like the most dense motherfucker ever. Giggling at the thought of Ran being entertained at first and then getting frustrated the longer it goes on.

I'm likely to write/make art about the people I love. (I may or may not have written poems and created concept playlists about Ran) That's one of my love languages along with Quality Time and Acts of Service, I guess. I never show the poems and artworks to my muses, though. I would die before I ever do that lol. I think Ran would have a knack for finding my work and knowing when it's about him. I'll never hear the end of it.

I'm down for just sitting in silence or napping together which I bet Ran would be very happy to do. I feel like we can both stop caring about being interesting when together alone and just exist.

I don't have a playlist but the songs that give me the most Ran feels are:

Don't Delete the Kisses - Wolf Alice

Tokyo Love Hotel - Rina Sawayama

R.E.M. - Ariana Grande

That's all, thank you!

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A second birthday special! Happy birthday!

□ Ran adores your playlists and lets you curate the music on every drive you take together. Sometimes he listens closely to the lyrics and will tease you if there's a chance you're playing it because it reminds you of him.

□ Ran doesn't snoop. He doesn't! But sometimes he does drop a sketchbook/notebook and he happens to notice a doodle of a person that looks suspiciously like him. And sometimes he likes to pull poem books off the shelf to take a peek at any loose leaf sheets poking out.

□ He wishes sometimes that he could express his feelings that way for you, but he opts instead for tugging you to bed to cuddle and nap. You can usually guess he's found something when he gets EXTRA physically clingy <3.

□ Ran also loves quality time, I think it might be one of his top two love languages. You know, he's such a gossip lol. I think he loves to spend chatty time before naps, arms wrapped around your back, tugging you to half lay on him,,,

□ I feel like Ran loves PDA and doing silly grand gestures that he knows fluster you. Eventually he gets a feel for the lines he cannot cross, but honestly, here and there, his antics (a little slap to your ass in front of the guys or a big dramatic sign and flowers to pick you up at any public transport or event.

□ He will scoop you up and leave kisses up and down your face and you'll be blushing FURIOUSLY and you probably pull him by his hand to leave as quickly as possible because such histrionics are probably uncomfortable for you (same tho)

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Consider Ran (before you're together) having a week where he get's frustrated with the chase. And you part on rocky terms. But through it all, my god he's really genuinely grown so attached to you and he needs to find a way to fix stuff. For ease, lets assume he has some myspace/discord portal to see what you're listening to and he finds you listening to don't delete the kisses on repeat. He leaves a note in you bag the next time you see him, he leaves a note in his weirdly neat handwriting:

"Get over it and take me out.

It's meant for you.

-r"

It's the most romantic this he's done and that he may ever do but shit. Maybe it won't be too hard to hit him up at least....casually...right?

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Come make my day, tell me about your self ship, and get some hcs of your own.

[stickyspeckledlight]

speckled dabbling in LnD?!?! id love to hear abt what u think of rafayel hes my fav (=•u•=) (no rush tho)

ohohohoho, rafayal...

I haven't spent too much time with him yet; again, main story is cockbocking me still, so i haven't seen all main story or event things with him (i still need to finish the event stories for the current event lmao), therefore, I do not have the whole breadth of this man.

THAT SAID.

BRO WHAT A BITCH I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

he's so silly and like, bratty, but in a cute sort of way yknow. if i met him irl i would probably get impatient and pissed off with him, but through the screen? hell yea brother lemme see all your antics!!!

i've been pretty foucsed on caleb stuff...and zayne, surprisingly (mostly because he's like. most of what he says like "why are you up so late at night get some sleep" is like a snap back to reality moment for me and I'm like, bro, zayne, you're so good at making me put my phone down, that is why he is the goat, but also zayne is very silly but this post is abt rafayel not zayne)

anyways, i haven't done his tender moments and stuff, but even so....THE INSTANT I AM DONE WITH GRINDING OUT CALEB RANK HE IS NEXT. again, he's just so silly. i love him. it's less of a "omg smooch me" sort of love, more of a "hey broski i wanna see what kinda out of pocket shit you'll say today."

i've also seen some snippets of his memories, and i have to say...

"SHARKS ARE EATING THE GRASS FOR FREE." like bruh it's like the instant i feel that my interest in any of these characters might just be from the infatuation of going thru a new game, they instantly say the perfect out of pocket shit to make me fall in love.

LIKE BRO. HE DID NOT JUST LIKE. FORCIBLY ADMIT HIMSELF INTO A HOSPITAL OVER LIKE, TRIPPING OVER A PAINTBRUSH, CALLING MC TO COME TO HIM BECAUSE HE'S MOPING THAT SHE HASN'T COME TO SEE HIM LATELY, AND GOES "OH GOD ITS BEEN 800 YEARS" AFTER GIVING YOU THE SILENCE TREATMENT; AND THEN WHEN MC IS LIKE "ok yea I'm sorry lemme make it up to you here is this fresh fruit i got" HE TURNS HIS NOSE UP TO IT BC ITS ONLY JUST AN APPLE AND HAS THE GALL TO MAKE YOU PEEL IT AND FEED IT TO HIM?????????????? LIKE. BRO THIS IS SO ELABORATE JUST BECAUSE YOUR CRUSH HASN'T COME BY TO DO BODYGUARD THINGS. HE IS SO DRAMATIC AND SILLY; AGAIN IF I KNEW HIM IRL I WOULD LIKELY GET SICK OF HIS BULLSHIT BUT I LOVE THE BULLSHIT THROUGH THE SCREEN LIKE YES LEMME SEE YOU DEMANDING WE TREAT YOU LIKE THE QUEEN YOU ARE (also like, he's definitely got to be a pillow princess, y'know...)

speaking of bodyguard. he just. makes you his bodyguard. just like. "yea be my bodyguard? ok ty byeeeeeeeeeee"

he's definitely an artist for sure; he marches to the beat of his own drum, and if the world's got a problem with that, well, they'll just have to start drumming to his beat.

also i was playing the crane with him (farming achievements) and i love how confident he is that he can get the plushies; which is really funny because he did not get a single one during that session lmao.

also the free outfit they get you where's he's like a butler or something has no reason to slay that hard. bro has some serious style. as he should as the main twink of this game (which is also funny bc he's the smallest of them all, but still 6ft; the LaDs men are all so huge lmao).

anyways, love raf, he's like a cutie pie to me. main story is currently still trying to get me on the xavier train, but pretty excited to see whatever deep scary lore is behind this boyo. apparently he's a mermaid or something but idk much beyond that. i skipped his anecdotes at the time because i didn't feel like reading, and tbh i do not fuck with the LaDs prose that much (I'm sure it's better in Chinese, but the prose of the EN localization is leaving much to be desired; it's not horrible or unreadable or anything but it's just like, a lot of fluff before getting to the character dialogue and stuff. maybe this is a taste of what it feels like to be a booktok girlie? lol)

[unsadgalriri]

February 2, 2025

Today is Ariel’s 1st birthday. I’m not spending it with her, but I did get to spend it with her yesterday at Disneyland. Everybody came to celebrate: my fam, Alex’s fam, and Andrea’s sisters. Well I woke up early, but I could NOT get Alex’s bitch ass to wake up and start getting ready. Girl we were supposed to be there at 9 and we didn’t even leave until like 10 lmfao. I mean, I woke up at 7 and I would’ve BEEN ready by 8 but by the time I shat and showered, I could still hear Alex’s alarm ringing and I knew that bitch wasn’t awake. I literally called him before I jumped in the shower to make sure he was up. It be so frustrating trying to wake that boy up sometimes. Anyways he finally woke up. And we got ready and left really late, but I was in such a good mood and I was like, not trying to kill the mood. So everyone ended up leaving later than 9 lol, but everyone got there wayyyy before us. So like, we go to Starbucks, get our drinks and snacks, leave, hit the road and boom. We’re vibing. The drinks are good. I had an edible. Music is poppin. Ugh Go Back by John Summit sounded so good that drive. We were super excited to go for whatever reason. So we’re about to get on the 5 and the police starts a traffic break and we’re like fuuuuuuuuck. Cuz I was like, um why they not flashing their red light it was just blue and yellow. And they weren’t chasing nobody. Then boom, soon as we merge they break traffic and Alex and I are front row. I’ve like, been front row for a traffic break before, but it was a regular one. Bitch they break traffic and it’s a man sitting on the center divider on the freeway be fr. So Alex is like should I get closer and I’m like bitch no what if he has a gun or something and we’re right in front. So we keep our distance. Long story short they arrest him. We keep going and we finally get to Disneyland and bitch why is the line to park so long. We didn’t get into Disney until like 12:15 and we got there at 11:30. So we’re already in a bad mood, and then there’s like no plan for the day. So I’m like bitch why did I spend all this money for. And the edible didn’t even hit 😭😭 There were so many cute people tho omg. SO. We left Disney for DTDisney to go eat and drink cuz the drinks at Star Wars were so bad and expensive. Also I saw Justin DelaCruz and I was gagged I wanted to tell Diana but then Alex was like, nah she finna wig out. So I didn’t. We went to Céntrico in DTD and the drinks were eh and the food was ass. But okay. The whole reason why I wanted to write this. I’ve been getting looked at so much lately. Boys be staring. And I’m starting to stare back. But like my confidence is growing so much. And like, there was this server there who kept walking back and forth running food and we KEPT LOCKING EYES AND STARING. Like multiple times. And I had clocked that I thought he was cute. And I told Christy, Alex, and John. I was like oh he’s cute and we keep locking eyes. AND FINALLY WHEN I WAS READY TO STOP HIM, HE STOPPED COMING. FUCK MAN. Wow. But I learned something valuable that day. I really don’t have nothing to lose if I go up to someone to tell them that I think they’re cute. Like nothing. It could’ve been something and I’ll never know. I’m not even being dramatic, like that was a real ass life lesson right there. I was beating myself up about it all day. I just wanna see him one more time…

I don’t even be going up to people like that. I just really liked what I saw. I know it’s in me. I know I’m charming. I know I’m cute. Like today, Maxine was gassing me up and saying how I’m so cute and probably have boys coming up to me, which some do. OTHERS DONT. I think I’m just really pretty and people are scared of that. I’m not a bitch either. I’m so pretty, so smart, and so cool. And like, I’m so young. I can have ANYTHING I want. Anything. And I’m gonna use it. The other day I was out with Cher and she was flirting with guys and getting us free drinks and stuff. I need to start doing that too. I wanna start meeting people and forming a huge social circle. I can do it. Anyways, if I want something, I have to go for it. Nerves are a SCAM. I can do anything. That boy could’ve been mine if I wanted. I’ve met so many hot guys and I can have them. I just need to wear my smile more. That guy was so fucking my type. It’s okay. Moving forward, I learned my lesson. I’m done with school too girl UGH. LOWKEY, our political climate is scaring me, but we’ll see what happens. Maybe we won’t even make it past the next four years. I pray my family stays protected.