#so cheers to me being a delulu to fictional characters

[sirensea14]

Oh, how much i want to really hug him right now

His scent would be comforting for me.

No matter how many times i cry, hell is always here. When will it end?

Wips are delayed for days. School is terribly rushing us, especially with numerous group activites. And im stressing out cuz its either my parents would or wouldnt allow me to go to a classmate's house for the purpose of practice and mv shooting.

Im sorry I'll be delaying a bit, tho i will try to post or do any of my wips as much as i can.

Current wips:

Smiling critters bigger bodies logo

Smiling critters' bags

Full body of BBI KC

And an ask for KC

Ive been pretty sure that i wont be happy to my bday this year and it seems i was correct, or possibly not too cuz its still not the day yet. Still, i wont be able to enjoy the food much due to our fucking school, school and school. I hate this hell and the government's pretty much rushing us all students as well as the teachers.

[suicidalgamergirl]

Lovely Admiration for Astarion from FangGirls

So I purchased a new Bluetooth Keyboard for my iPad. It lights up and has 7 different colors to choose from. Normally, I want to continue my fic as my OC runs up to the Vampire Ascendant and lives in his lavish castle with him.

But I am distraught by terrible writer’s block and lacking a chance to play the game cause I’m not dropping 600$CAD for a PS5 system. I bought two books of the D&D lore based on vampires, one of them will come this Tuesday. Also picked up a book based on Critical Role.

I’m kinda am confused with my admiration of said vampire. I find he’s quite the attractive bad boy and I see AliExpress selling art that claims “I Can Fix Him.”

Seen in the beginning of his origin run, he wants to take everything from Cazador. He wants to become the Vampire Ascendant. He wants complete control of himself and never fall to become a vampire pawn.

Then people say as Tav should not let him ascend. He should not continue the cycle that his sick sad abusive master had on him. Staying as a spawn is the good ending for him.

Did they actually play the game?

When you first meet him, he’s caught you in a bind, ready to slash your throat in wanting the scarlet liquid for himself. Once he understands the situation, he is reluctant to join your party.

I’m not saying Ascendant Astarion is a bloody bastard. Then again, Spawn Astarion was a new awakening for him, thanks to the tadpole implanted in him. He’s eager to do anything he wants, like finally walking into the sun and salivating on other creatures for their blood. No more rats for now on.

He was never a lawful good character at the start. Becoming the Ascendant Vampire is true to his coy nature.

Then there are fans who reflected that Astarion is a survivor. For defying the abuse from Cazador, fanggirls reflect themselves onto him. And that’s OK.

If I ever do purchase a cameo by Neil, I was hoping to use it for mental health reflection. Yeah, I got the letters off Etsy. I used them to read and cheer myself up, knowing a fictional vampire will always have my back.

I know he’s quite a busy man. So I know he won’t do it. Under these scars I pray, like a shooting star in the rain.

Anyways, I’m ranting again. I dunno why I read this. I am using my fic to escape reality at times. I must sound really pathetic for voicing my opinion of the Ascendant Vampire. I just hate when fanggirls say he’s evil. As in he kicks puppies for a living.

Sure, you can call me out for being a n00b. I don’t know any better. That I’m using previous vampire encounters on my admiration for The Pale Elf.

But it stings that some people will think liking Ascendant Astarion means you suffer from a mental illness. I do like him and I have a mental illness for 20+ years. I find it insulting to be called “delulu”. It makes me want to defend a fictional character, despite I’ll never have an encounter with him.

So yeah. This is my rant. Don’t like it? Don’t follow me.

-V