#so Vox always has this nagging anxiety that he is not nearly as important to Val as Val is to him | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

hypervoxel · 8 months ago

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The first time Vox said, "I love you," to Valentino, it went horribly wrong, because Val laughed and made a joke about how often he's heard that as a sex worker (especially now that he's in Hell and has become a walking talking aphrodisiac that Vox was currently high on). Vox is now so self conscious about his feelings and has never voiced them that way since. In Val's mind, he told Vox to only say that if he means it, but Vox hasn't told Val he loves him ever again, so Val certainly isn't going to be the one to say it first.

#Vox and Val also experience love and attraction very differently. not incompatibly tho. i mean they're not healthy by any means #but they make their toxic cesspool of a relationship work. for them.#voxval #anyway i will find a way to work this detail into my fics. but it is the basis of like a dozen of Vox's Issues #where Vox is like 'i can't let the people i trust most see me vulnerable' even tho it literally would not be an issue #because he confessed his love once to Val and Val laughed at him and acted like Vox was the same as anyone else he'd fucked #(bc Val was not ready to admit that Vox had wormed his way into Val's heart. Val doesn't love easily‚#he finds sex and desire a whole lot more readily than any emotional notion of love—but Vox is one of the few people he would say he loves)#so Vox always has this nagging anxiety that he is not nearly as important to Val as Val is to him #(doesn't help that Val rants to him all the time and whatever is going on with Angel Dust this week)#and then of course. Vox confessed to Alastor and Alastor rejected him very soundly.#and. what are Vox and Val doing if not making their relationship issues with other people impact their relationship with each other?#staticmoth

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