#snurt rants

[snurtsnurt]

shit y’all I am yearning. It’s. It’s bad. It’s really really bad.

[snurtlicious]

you know what i keep seeing anon hate on my dash and it's pissing me off. if you're going to send anon hate to someone, please just send it to me, because I can fucking take it unlike some of the people that you send it to.

you people who do shit like that make me so upset. preying on someone who is already down on themselves and telling them to kill themselves is the biggest bullshit.

[snurtsnurt]

damn I hope nobody ever see my notes app ever. I have all my secrets laid out to rest there like a graveyard. Or a baby’s crib.

[snurtsnurt]

so so so tired of finding only smut fics under a character tag

[snurtsnurt]

akdhkjafgahjfhaskjsdjakldjajdlksafhjasfjaksd stupid stupid punnett squares all the same and yet all different what have i ever done to you punnett square that you treat me so rudely with no compassion and no understanding

[snurtsnurt]

Hey so what's with the TMNT fic? Like...I need to know so bad what prompted that

Uh. Uhhhhhhhhhhhh

Ok ok so short answer? I don't know, man. I wrote that, what, 2, 3 years ago? That's forever ago in my mind.

Long answer? Well...

TMNT was one of my very first fandoms Ever. I was reading fanfics about those guys back when I thought I couldn't write anything because the things I did write were.... eh, they needed a lot more work. So then, way later, I come back to the fandom cuz there's new stuff!

New content, new art, new fanfics, new ideas: quite the revival. I'm sucked right back into my old favorite and this time, I can write. I'd been writing small things here and there, honing my abilities, and caring way less about the what ifs that used to stop me before.

So I get an Idea and I decide to roll with it. A trope that I read once, in some other fandom, no clue where from, but I remembered it at the time and I thought, hey that could be really cool if I flipped it like this. So I started writing, and that's when I learned the lesson that if you want to roll with an idea you actually need a plot? And not just an idea? And to roll with a plot you need to stick to it and actually write it? And not just do the exciting part and then forget about it?

And so the story goes, I drifted out of the fandom once more and forgot about that particular WIP. Much later, I was reading through my WIPs for fun, as one does, and I ran across that one and remembered just how thrilled I was about it and I thought screw it, might as well post it, maybe someone else will be inspired by this and finish what I never did. Maybe someone will like it, who knows. Won't know until I send it out there, y'know?

Anyways the point is it was an exercise in... something or other, and an experience I learned from! But like... what prompted it's creation? No clue.

I've since been actually working on some longer stories, on and off shifting from one to the other. As interest wanes from one I can switch to another and juggle them back and forth until eventually one or the other will win in this snail's race and be finished! Hopefully.

Anywho that's my rant of the day thanks for the ask and please never remind me about that fic ever again. (joking) (i just wasn't expecting to hear about that fic ever) (i was so surprised to get an ask about it)(it's been a while since I thought about that fic and I still get semi embarrassed about it tbh) (also you mentioning the fic means you've seen my ao3??? 😳) (i mean i know the link is literally at the front of my blog but 🫣)

[snurtsnurt]

Fully believe everyone should have a Thing they are obsessed with/have a collection of that is also really obvious to the people around you

[snurtsnurt]

Y’know what makes me mad? That every job I’ve seen has this need for the workers to always be looking busy. Even when there’s no work to do!!!

like, buddy. That’s. That’s LIFE. There is not always something to do. Why are you getting mad that I’m not doing anything when there’s NOTHING TO DO.

I have a mental list of my responsibilities. I fulfill them faithfully. You pay me to stand/sit around for hours on end after that list is completed in CASE something happens, in CASE a customer comes in here and then I get to work. But until then? You want me to… what? Futz about and pretend I’m doing something just because it makes you angry that you’re paying me to be here when there’s nothin to do atm?

[snurtsnurt]

Ive got the job with the degree I earned and I see my family often and I have the freedom to do as I please this should be good this should be good so why is there this burning pit in my stomach

[snurtsnurt]

don't you love it when your mom asks you to do a task for her that is essentially a whole ass job description but she treats it like she's asking you to do a chore? Like if she were referring to a professional for this she'd have to wait 2-4 weeks for results but since it's me, just her daughter, I need to have it done by yesterday of course haha sorry lemme just drop everything I need to do to work on this immediately, my apologies boss i mean mom haha

[snurtsnurt]

Wow. 23 years and you still don't know what your son likes and decided to bring to his birthday all the things he doesn't like and had expressly told you time and again he doesn't like them. YIKES.

[snurtsnurt]

The problem with that splendid advice, is that if I'm NOT panicking and nervous and overthinking, then I'm simply apathetic and don't care about getting the grade I need.

[snurtsnurt]

stress stress stress stress BIG stress okokokokokokokokokokokokok its aaaaaaalllllll gonna be fiiiiiiiiinnnneeeeee......... itsallgonnabefine finefinefinefinefine

[snurtsnurt]

ajdsjhgdajhdkjagdadsj theres so many things i wanna do and so many things I gotta do and so many of those things do not intersect in the venn diagram and I've got so little time for ANY of those things that I might just go insane folks. I just might

[snurtsnurt]

I just spent. three hours of my life. working on one goddamn stupid problem THAT IS ONLY WORTH THREE FRICKIN POINTS AHJGJHGAHJKGHGDFGJHAKHASKJHKALHJKSA

[snurtsnurt]

i think this guy’s flirting with me. Its weird

so I work in a lil locally owned convenience store as a cashier and like two weeks ago this eccentric, kinda funny guy swept into the store on a quiet evening and got a lotta stuff “for his mom”. He asked a bunch of questions about me and told funny jokes. when he asked for sausage recommendations (sausages are one of the things our store is known for) I shrugged and told him what my dad likes cuz I don’t have a preference. So he bought two of those and then left one for me “for my dad”. (Really unusual)

He appeared again today. Same time. Just burst in ten minutes before closing and got a bunch of stuff really quickly. I wasn’t in the mood for talking so when he asked what kinda candy I liked/recommended I shrugged and said all of em. He rememe red my name from two weeks ago. This is only the second time I saw him. Anyways he asked a bunch a questions again today and left another sausage “for my dad”. (At this point my face is saying “wtf”) My boss was standing next to me and saw the whole exchmange and when he left she chuckled a little and smirked.

so yeah tha’s kinda strange. Was he actually flirtin? I’m not quite well versed in those affairs so I can’t tell for sure but it was weird. I’m not used to flirting. I don’t need anyone flirtin with me right now, I’m too busy.