#smiley dazai

[ssaraexposs]

This Dazai's smile

[misty-moth]

Ikevamp has been bestowing its finest cgs on me each time I log back in 😭🙌

Dazaiii~ my darling, beautiful boi 🫰🫰🫰

[t4t-dazai]

uh ! dazai osamori? anyone? no?

[ID: black and white portrait of dazai in the artstyle from the game "omori". End ID]

[scr3wu9]

the romanticism in having a history with someone that can never be erased despite being on opposing sides the romanticism in never being able to rid yourself of the care for them that's shamefully rooted so deep inside of you the romanticism in physically needing someone to keep you from dying the romanticism in saving a person one hundred times over just so you get to be the one who kills them the romanticism in destroying the world when it doesn't end up being you

[akutagawa-daily]

Akutagawa daily 103/★

[vintageflowerangel]

S/O who loves to doodle on them

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐒𝐀𝐈𝐆𝐈𝐊𝐔 𝐉𝐎𝐍𝐎, 𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐏𝐎 𝐄𝐃𝐎𝐆𝐀𝐖𝐀, 𝐃𝐀𝐙𝐀𝐈 𝐎𝐒𝐀𝐌𝐔.

SAIGIKU JONO

JONO would immediately know what you're about to do, especially after detecting that strong scent of a marker.

He doesn't mind it whenever you'd draw on his skin, but he'll say a few annoyed complaints here and there.

Please tell him what you're drawing or writing. JONO doesn't want you drawing anything inappropriate onto his skin he has a front that he has to hold.

RANPO EDOGAWA

RANPO would always whine whenever you'd draw on his skin.

He will sometimes scribble on your skin as revenge, but most times, he'll draw cats and smiley faces.

RANPO would throw candy wrappers at you.

DAZAI OSAMU

Great, you created a war of who could draw on the other person the most with DAZAI.

It honestly amuses him whenever you'd draw on him out of boredom.

DAZAI would jokingly write inappropriate stuff on you, but it's all harmless jokes.

DATE: 6/29/2024

[jubilee40]

Prison Boyfriend/Penpal Series

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Prompts:

The reader is lonely (desperate) one night and after a couple of glasses of wine she decides to apply to be a prison penpal.

Or

Reader is a part of a good Samaritan organization that helps reform prisoners.

This series will be a combination of my ideas and your requests.

This series will most likely have more smut, dark content, and angst then fluff.

All of the fics will be in a Modern World AU

THIS IS A WORK OF FICTION

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ATTACK ON TITAN

EREN YEAGER

LEVI ACKERMAN

REINER BRAUN

BUNGO STRAY DOGS

OSAMU DAZAI

FYODOR DOSTOEVSKY

YUKI FUKUZAWA

JUJUTSU KIASEN

TOJI FUSHIGURO

SATORU GOJO

SUGURU GETOU

RYOMEN SUKUNA

KENTO NANAMI

MY HERO ACADAMIA

KATSUKI BAKUGOU

IZUKU “DEKU” MIDORIYA

KEIGO “Hawks” TAKAMI

TOMURA SHIGARAKI

TOYA “DABI” TODOROKI

KAI “OVERHAUL” CHISAKI

JIN “TWICE” BUBAIGAWARA

TOKYO REVENGERS

MANJIRO “MIKEY” SANO

KEN “DRAKEN” RYUGUJI

NAHOYA “SMILEY” KAWATA

SOUYA “ANGRY” KAWATA

RAN HAITANI

RINDOU HAITANI

HARUCHIYO SANZU

WAKASA IMAUSHI

HAKKAI SHIBA

SHUJI HANMA

[leaderofthemafia]

You look a bit too sad my dear!

He's growling. Again.

(@gnawingonribs)

Shh... It's only a matter of time before @when-life-gives-you-lemon-bombs figures out how to craft 'cursed ink'. His insatiable curiosity for the unseen forces of life and death will ensure it.

[night-dazai]

i am in desperate need of a "childhood friend!reader" with Dazai (pref. m!reader), where they know his trauma n stuff and take care of him where he falls short (self hygiene in general). so they like take care of him after oda does n he leaves the Mafia, giving him a bath, washing his hair, changing his bandages, etc. and a bunch of unspoken words (with a couple of kisses? 👀)

Dazai X gender-neutral Reader

Fluff, little kisses and an overall bad-to-good feel.

“D.A.Z.A.I.!” your voice louder than a human at this point , anger boiling you shouted his name only to meet with him running out of the bathroom holding a towel to his waist all wet and bubbly with soap “WHAT !” his voice laced with worry. 

You hold out the empty bottles and trun pointing at the 12 bottles on the floor “it has been 2 days since i left you alone “ you took a deep breath seeing his all smiley ��Please.. Dont drink so much “ you said and turned to clean his mess while he went back to at least wash the soap off him .

Coming out he sat down on the couch as per your hand gestures and waited like a puppy with a towel while you settled on the couch and dried his head “Why do you drink so much ?” your voice calmer and softer. 

Shrugging his shoulders he said nothing “Fine now after i am done with your hair, the files Kunikida asked me to finish up “ he said getting up. Dazai who was quiet till now spoke “ what will you do i went back to Port Mafia “ hsi voice was low but you heard it . 

You feet stopped moving you turned looking like a ghost “ no.. why would you ever ..” you started “ oh ..wait does the direct-” “ no like I go back “ he said this time looking straight at your eyes which were filled with horror. 

Dazai knew what you went through and you knew what he went through, you were each other's saviours and only campion “ no” you said sternly and walked up to him. Hand holding his chin up firmly “ no never if you go back I am coming “. 

The dry-bandaged man looked at you with wide eyes, even if he did not express many emotions you could read him like a book, and you knew he wanted to cry “I will never let you back into that hell hole alone that's it“ you said kissing his lips and walking back to do your chores “oh I dropped the files on the bed finish them “. 

Dazai just sat head hung low, feeding him, bathing him, cleaning him or nursing him, loving him and caring for him. He did have one person who did all that “ sleep let me read you something “ you would say pushing the injured man on the bed while he thought about how lucky and blessed he was to have someone like this again. 

Every time you fuss about him getting hurt or every time you complain how his bath routine is shit “ Is miss him yet i feel fine … is it wrong “ his mind thought making him break into tears. Dazai made sure never to cry in front fo you, he did not want you worrying more but he felt he did not deserve this . 

As his mind was thinking all “ unwanted stuff “ which is what you always said about his thoughts you suddenly held his chin up and crashed your lips. This time it was not a peck but a full-fledged kiss as you dug your tongue in Dazai joined holding your neck and pulling you onto his lap “Go. Do.your.work “ you said breaking from the kiss and flicking his forehead. 

Smiling Dazai nuzzled against your neck “ Thanks Oda i know how to respond to love, I will try my best to stay on the good side “ 

[destinyisastar]

So, you like dogs?

Summary: You seem to be way too happy at the agency, Dazai and Atsushi (mostly Dazai) make it their goal to find out why.

Tetchou x fem reader*

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You walk into the agency more happy than usual, and Dazai seems to be the first to take notice. You're humming a sweet tune to yourself, you gladly take the paperwork that is offered to you by Ranpo, and you're the first to offer to go shopping with Yosano. 

What could be going on with you?

“Hey, Atsushi-kun, do you think anything about Y/N is different today?” whispers Dazai to Atsushi who is doing the remaining paperwork his senior gave to him.

Atsushi takes a quick glance up and sees you happily doing paperwork. 

“She seems fine to me.” Atsushi says and goes back to doing work.

Dazai stares at you, “No, no” Dazai puts a hand over his mouth and moves closer to Atsushi, “Look more closely, she seems way too happy to be doing paperwork.” 

Looking up once more, Atsushi does see what Dazai is talking about.

You're all smiley, which Atsushi does find a bit strange, especially with the mountain of paperwork you’ve been given. You seem to be doing it with ease.

“Maybe she’s happy because she just wants to be?” Atsushi tells Dazai.

Dazai shakes his head,” I don’t think so and for that reason I will make my life goal to figure out why she’s so hap-” Kunikida smacks Dazai in on the back of his head, “Will you get to WORK you sack of bandages!!”yells Kunikida,” Stop bothering Atsushi and get back to your own reports.”

Dazai rubs the back of his head,” But Kunikida look at Y/N.” he whispers.

Kunikida takes a glance at you.

“I see nothing wrong with her,” Kunikida looks back at Dazai,” Instead of watching her like a creep you should be doing your WORK!” exclaims Kunikida.

He goes back to his desk, while Dazai continues to stare at you.

You look up from your stack of papers to see Dazai staring at you.

You give him a smile and a quick little wave and continue humming to yourself.

Just what is going on with you?

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As the work day comes to an end you still have a smile on your face.

You pack up all your items and head to the door with glee. But what you don’t notice is a Dazai and annoyed Atsushi following close behind you.

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You are sitting on a bench at a nearby park with your phone in your hand, you seem to be waiting for someone.

While Dazai and Atsushi are sitting behind a bush, with Dazai staring at you through the shrubs. 

“Dazai I still don’t know why we have to do thi-” 

 Dazai cuts him off,“Shush now Atsushi, we might finally get some action around here instead of the never ending boredom.” 

Atsushi does have to admit, it has been quiet as of lately. But maybe quiet is a good thing.

“Atsushi look!!” 

A man in uniform makes his way towards you. He has flower petal tattoos under his left eye and a smile on his face.

You stand up from the bench with a wide smile on your face, “ I missed you.”  You wrap your arms around Tetchou’s neck.

 He smiles down at you, and kisses your forehead.

Your smile grows wider. “How about one here,” you point your finger to your lips.

With a smile he puts his lips on yours. The kiss is sweet, a type of “ Hello, I missed you ” kiss.

His hand reaches yours and pulls them to his mouth, giving your knuckles a tender kiss.  

“I missed you more.”  he tells you sweetly. 

You look into his eyes, “Let's go home.”  

Tetchou takes hold of your hand and you both begin the journey home.

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Behind the bushes is a very jaw dropped  Dazai. 

His eyes stare at both of your figures, till Atsushi slightly pushes him. 

“ A DOG!!!!”  he turns to Atsushi , “ SHE'S WITH A DOG!!” 

Atsushi is taken aback a bit. “ Dazai, I don't think that guy was a dog.”

“ NO, A HUNTING DOG!!” 

“ A hunting dog?” 

“I can’t believe this! My belladonna is with a mutt!!” Dazai cries out with a hand on his chest.

This new found discovery will be talked about.

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The next day you return to the Agency with a smile.

Dazai has his hands clasped together, staring at you intently.

“Dazai, why are you still staring at her?” Atsushi asks.

He continues to stare,muttering, “ a dog,.... dog,... dog,..... dog,.. a dog.”

Atsushi takes a deep breath and goes back to work.

Dazai abruptly stands up and walks towards your desk and crouches next to you.

You look to your left,” Oh, hi Dazai, how are you?”

Dazai grabs your hand, “ My sweet, sweet, belladonna,” he rubs your hand slightly with his thumb,” I had no idea you,” he takes a deep breath, “ you…”  he looks into your eyes, “ that you liked dogs.” he whispers.

“I’m sorry, what did you say Dazai?” 

“YOU LIKE DOGS!!”

You take a moment to take in his response, “ Well, dogs are nice pets, so yeah, I like dogs.”

Dazai stands up once more and puts a hand to his forehead dramatically and shuts his eyes, “ Even hunting dogs?”

Your face turns red.

“Dazai will stop bothering Y/N and get your ass to work!!” Kunikida yells to him, “And what's this talk about hunting dogs?”

“Should I say it or should you say it, Y/N?” Dazai smiles at you.

“ Hunting dogs a-are a good type of dog,” your face is still red, “They make for nice trackers and they are g-good company.”

“Yeah, I bet they make good company.” 

“ Alright that's enough, Dazai don’t you have other people to bother?” Kunikida tells him.

“Nope, I just want to talk to Y/N about her dogfriend.”

“Dogfriend?” Kunikida questions.

“Nothing to worry about Kunikida~kun”, He pats Kunikida on the back, “Everything is all covered here.”

Kunikida looks between the two of you, he sighs, “ Just finish your reports.”

After Kunikida leaves to go about his business, Dazai takes a chair and sits right next to you.

“So,” he puts a hand on his cheek, “you like dogs?” smiling at your red flustered face.

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Why is math so hard?????

Have a good day!💕

[the-fallen-collective]

Venti’s kinlist gonna make rentry’s for some kins, so several of them will have links

Therian: ☆ Selachii (all sharks) ☆Raccoon ☆ Midwestern wolf (ID) ☆ All foxes (ID) ☆ European shorthair cat (domestic) ☆Otter

Otherkin: ☆ TBH creature ☆ Kitsune ☆ Fae ☆ Siren ☆ Vampire (ID) ☆ Seraph (ID) ☆ Cryptid ☆Spacekin ☆Starkin ☆ball jointed doll ☆ Thrones angel ☆ marionette ☆ Demon ☆ Concept of irredeemable villains ☆ concept of emptiness ☆ Candy gore

Fictionkin: ☆Ticci Toby (creepypasta) (ID) ☆Kim Dokja (Omniscient reader veiwpoint) ☆ Nikolai Gogol (bungō Stray Dogs) ☆ Grian (hermitcraft, evo, yhs, life series) ☆ Shi Qingxuan (heavn officials blessing) ☆ Yumeno Kyūsaku (bsd) ☆Sigma (bsd) ☆DDLC (conceptkin of entire game) ☆Glitchtrap (fnaf) ☆ Bloodmoon (the sun and moon show) ☆ Paimon (genshin impact) ☆ enderman (minecraft) ☆ Lazari (creepypasta) ☆ Cozy Glow (my little pony) ☆ Ocellus (my little pony) ☆ Mizi (alien stage) (ID) ☆ Tobias Schneien (ghost eyes) (ID) ☆ Grell (black butler) (ID) ☆ Ui-chan (loli god requiem) ☆ Marko (lost boys) ☆ Mark (fnaf au tormentor) ☆ Security Breach (conceptkin of the whole game) ☆ Samara Morgan (the ring) ☆ Aiura Mikoto (saiki k) ☆ Charlie (charlie the unicorn) ☆ Nimona (nimona) ☆ Poison Ivy (harley quinn tv show) (ID?) ☆ PM Dazai (bsd (beast?)) (ID) ☆ Julia Argent (carmen sandiago) ☆ Elizabeth Afton (fnaf) (ID) ☆ Candlehead (wreck it ralph) ☆ Rascal (glitter force) ☆ Jack Kennedy (dsaf) ☆ Elijah (oc) ☆ Genesis (oc) ☆ VHS Kris (partner’s oc) (ID) ☆ Adrian (dr. smiley’s funhouse) ☆ White No Face (tgcf) ☆ Alt Miku (vocaloid) ☆ Honey Lemon (big hero 6) ☆ Hiro (big hero 6) ☆ Gregoriah (regretavator) ☆ Main timeline Kris (partner’s oc) (ID) ☆ Chila’s Art main character

Songkin: ☆ Houdini In Chains ☆ Loli God Requiem (song +music video) ☆ Rabbit Hole (song +music video by Will Stetson) ☆ Confessions of a Rotten Girl (song +music video +rotten girl miku) (ID)

Copinglink: ☆ Avagado6 art ☆ Sunset Shimmer ☆ Edgar Allan Poe (bungō stray dogs) ☆ Muichiro (demon slayer) ☆ Rui (demon slayer)

Otherhearted: ☆ Qi Rong (heaven official’s blessing) ☆ Will Wood’s music ☆ Double Trouble (she-ra)

Kinsidering: ☆Rainkin ☆Computerkin ☆ Alessa (silent hill) ☆ Cinderpelt (warriors) ☆ Janet Hodgson (the conjuring 2) ☆ Nezuko (demon slayer)

FNAF kins

FNAF 1: Freddy Bonny Chica Foxy

FNAF 2: Toy freddy Toy Bonny Toy Chica Mangle (ID) Balloon boy Puppet Toy cupcake

Withered: Withered Freddy Withered Bonny Withered Chica Withered Foxy

Shadows: RWQFSFASXC (ID) Shadow puppet Shadow BB

FNAF 3: Phantom freddy Phtanom chica Phantom foxy Phantom mangle (ID) Phantom puppet Springtrap

FNAF 4: Nightmare foxy Nightmare fredbear Nightmare Nightmare mangle (ID) Nightmare cupcake Nightmarionne Jack o bonnie

Sister Location: Circus baby (ID) Ballora Funtime foxy (ID) Minireena Bon bon Ennard

Rockstars: Rockstar freddy Lefty

Mediocre Melodies: Mr hippo

Security Breach: Glamrock chica Eclipse Tangle Dj music man Helpi

Pizza Simulator: Scrap baby Helpy Security puppet

Other: 8 bit baby Arctic ballora 8 bit cupcake Fredbear Bloodmoon Grimm foxy

[ssaraexposs]

"Such a cute and polite kid. I wonder what he's saying":

The cute and polite kid:

[ravencincaide]

 If only you’d hold my hand 

Summary: A year ago you would have cried from joy seeing the positive sign on the pregnancy test, now you are torn. If only Dazai was there, holding your hands, as you were making the most important decisions of your lives.

Pairing: Dazai x fem! Reader

Prompt Sweetober 1: Handholding

Warning: heavily implied abortion, cursing, hurt-kinda comfort? 

Enjoy

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A year ago you would have been crying in joy. You would have bounced around the room in pure happiness, dancing and screaming. You would have run through the mafia base towards your lover's office and thrown your arms around him before pulling him up into a celebratory dance. You would have laughed and cried tears of fear, happiness and longing as you worked towards remodeling your bedroom for your future bundle of joy. And he would have been right there beside you, with you, holding your hands and kissing your stomach. Dazai would have clung to you like gum, holding you in his lap during paperwork or have you sit in the chair beside him during meetings. Your hands intertwined underneath the table.  You would have sneaked glances at him only to be met with warm chocolate eyes staring right back at you. Warmth only you’d know.

 A year ago you wouldn’t have hesitated to keep it. 

Now as you sat on the cold bed in the empty bedroom you were not so certain. The room was large, fitting both a king sized bed in one end, a private bathroom with a walk-in closet beside it, and a full office in the opposite end, through a wide doorway with no door. Equipped with a large wooden desk, several bookshelves and a couch with a smaller table right beside the doorway. On the table stood an empty vase- the flowers had long since wilted and not been replaced. There wasn’t much in that end of the room besides dust. You rarely sat at the desk anymore and Dazai had been too busy to come to your room in weeks. It was days since you last saw him, not having the energy to get out of bed and seek him out. Unsurprisingly he didn’t come to visit you either. 

You turned your attention back to the pregnancy tests laying innocently on the bedside table. There were three in total, each one holding a positive indicator; one a smiley, one a plus sign and one two lines. What was supposed to be joyous news felt just like a chain around your neck. You knew you had to make choices and you knew you had to do them fast. But you didn’t know if you were ready for it. If you didn’t have Dazai’s support then you’d effectively be a single mother. You’d be bringing your child not only into a world of darkness but also a world of struggle. It took two to make the baby and it was supposed to be a joint decision yet here you were attempting to solve everything by yourself- again. 

You took a deep breath and stood up. Throwing over a black coat you wrapped it tightly around yourself before leaving the room, heading towards the opposite side of the building. It was early in the morning, sun had barely risen in the sky yet already there was so much commotion. Staff, both mafia and ordinary people employed for mundane tasks such as cleaning and cooking, were rushing around the base to get things in order. Pouring tea and coffee by gallons for early birds preparing to leave for missions, and late owls returning back. Bandages here, reports there. Someone was hitting the printer to get it to print faster, while another was crying in the corner over a pile of broken guns. 

The ordinary commotion-filled existence. 

You made your way quickly through the hallways. The smell of coffee made you feel nauseous, all the running was making you dizzy and yelling was giving you a headache. Still people made sure to step out of your way as you passed and only a few attempted some small talk, which you waved off apologetically. Once you turned a corner towards Dazai’s office, you could see several mafia members outside, their eyes flickering from the watch on their wrist to the paperwork in their hands. They were waiting for their turn to speak to the boss.  Brushing past them you reached up and rapped your knuckles against the wooden door. Growing impatient you knocked again.

A moment passed before a stern ‘enter’ echoed out into the hallway, making the mafia closest to you move towards you  intending to enter with you. You didn’t spare them a glance as you entered your lover's office, closing the door firmly behind yourself in their face. They were waiting before- they wouldn’t die from waiting a little longer. 

You took a deep breath as you eyed the dark space. The window was closed with the curtains and the only light came from a small lamp stationed on the large oak table directly opposite the door. The massive oak desk was the only thing separating you from Dazai. There were no chairs in the room aside from the one Dazai was using and a single couch in the very corner to the side, partially hidden behind a bookshelf. You knew from before that behind that bookshelf was a smaller room with a fireplace, a tiny glass table and that ugly green couch you used to always complain about. You wondered if it was still there, half longing towards the velvety material. Or maybe it was the memory of laying crammed together with Dazai on it, naked and sweaty, that you actually missed. 

“ What do you need?” Dazai asked you, finally breaking the silence. There was no malice in his voice but no love either. You wondered how long ago he stopped seeing you as his partner and lover and more as a responsibility. You wondered if he’d speak the same way to your child too. The feeling of melancholy grew deeper as you moved towards him, staying silent until you stood right beside him. 

“ Dazai we need to talk” you said, placing your hand on top of his hand, halting his writing. His fingers twitched slightly underneath your touch, his grip tightening on the pen. He didn’t let it go. You watched the drop of ink gather in the same place in the report, growing bigger and bigger. 

“ It can wait, can’t it?” he barely spared you a glance as his hand twitched again, eager to continue writing. You wondered when things had come to this- when the childhood adoration turned into obligation- when love dulled to the point reports were more important than you?

“ No it can't.” You let a bit of urgency slip into your voice, praying that it would tug on whatever strings in his heart that still held warmths for you. Instead of his attention, you got an exasperated sigh. 

“ Y/N I have a meeting in five minutes” he motioned his second hand towards the paperwork as if you had somehow missed the pile with reports, another pile containing files on mafia members, a third pile with the cost and pay slips, a final pile with upcoming missions that were yet to be assigned. 

“ Then cancel it!”  

You watched Dazai close his eyes and take a deep breath as if you were asking the world from him. You didn’t back down, staring intensely at him, not breaking your concentration even as there came another knock at the door. When neither of you answered, the door opened and a senior member entered the office, a report in one hand while his second was frozen on the doorknob. He was clearly not expecting to see you in Dazai’s office. 

“ We’ll speak at lunch” Dazai finally stated as he shook your hand off his own and turned back to writing. With his other hand he motioned for the mafia member to come closer, indicating where to place his written assessment before he’d be giving the brief summary in person. As the man's eyes flickered to you, you could feel your cheeks growing warm. 

You were overstaying your welcome. 

Raising your head higher you headed for the door, pausing only when you were about to step outside. “ Please don’t be late, it's really important, Dazai. I won’t have the opportunity to discuss this another time” your glanced back at him, hoping to see any kind of confirmation that he’d be there to meet you for lunch. When he gave you none you walked back out into the hallway leaving the door opened behind you.  

You did your best not to feel humiliated. 

Heading back to your room you paused only long enough to catch one of the ordinary staff and inform her that you and Dazai would be eating lunch in your room today. You were also careful to request a very special meal for you both, avoiding ingredients you knew made you nauseous or could be harmful for the growing being in your stomach. Wife-tales or not, until you made your decision you intended to be extra cautious. 

Once back in the silence of your room, you moved towards the bed and laid down. There were about six hours left until lunch and your intention was to try and sleep at least four of them away. Five hours later, sleep had still not come. At hour six you were newly showered and dressed in a gorgeous little black dress that clung to your chest, a big bow drawing all the attention, leaving the rest of the material to hang loosely around your stomach and all the way down to your knees. Over it you had a simple black bolero. Your hair was up in an elegant bun with a handful of strands framing your face. You had even gone so far as to apply make up, the lush red lips matching the dark red of your fingernails. 

The maid you had spoken to earlier was giving you envious glances as you sat at the small glass table. A light lunch was placed in front of you accompanied with a glass of plain water for you and a small bottle of champagne for Dazai. 

Either to celebrate or to drown sorrows in. 

The maid left the small wagon not too far away with the rest of the things you requested before she trotted out of the room. The time was 12:30 and Dazai was nowhere in sight. You did your best not to glance at the clock every minute, not to count seconds in your head. 

As the clock finally hit two PM you stood up, tossing your bolero into your empty seat. You headed back to your bed and the bedside table, opening the top draw. You pulled out your wallet, documents and car keys before pushing the positive pregnancy tests into the draw. 

Tears strung at your eyes at the sight of them. 

Turning your face away you took a steadying breath, half hoping that Dazai would burst through the door with a flustered look on his face, apologies pouring out of his lips. But the door remained closed with no sight of your lover anywhere. Unable to take the waiting any longer you headed out of your room and towards the garage where your car was parked. You sat there for another half an hour in hopes that he’d call or text you. When nothing happened you let out a scream of anguish, a combined feeling of anger and betrayal fueling your actions. 

The clock shone 14;36 and you knew you couldn’t possibly wait any longer. 

You turned on your vehicle and pulled out of the garage, heading towards one of the few operational abortion clinics in the city. The entire drive your eyes were shifting towards the phone, sincerely hoping that Dazai would call you. That he’d ask for you, beg you to come back and plead for a chance to talk about it. You fantasized him grasping onto you, on his knees with his face buried into your stomach whispering sweet promises about doing better. Promising you that things would go back to the way they were. 

Yet as the phone remained silent and the clinic drew closer you understood that it was not going to happen. Dazai was not going to call you, either because he didn’t care enough about you compared to work, or because he actually didn’t want the child you made together. The thought stung and filled you with a sense of confirmation that you were doing the right thing, for all of you. 

Still it was a heavy decision and one that left you crying for longer and harder than you ever had in your entire life, uttering meaningless apologies, followed by curses towards yourself. You cried and cried as you arrived at the clinic moments before it closed, as you met your doctor who was the first to tell you about your pregnancy, and then after the appointment when you sat in your car, with those bloody tears that still wouldn’t stop falling. You stayed there alone in the parking lot as hours ticked away, one by one until darkness fell. Only then did you finally start the car, driving back in a daze, running red lights and stopping at green ones. It was good there was little to no traffic. You managed to get back safely though you didn’t know how much point there was in that. You didn’t know what to expect when you got back or if you wanted to go back. Still you gathered your things, locked your car and headed back towards your chambers, not once glancing at a single mafia member which passed you by. 

For once none of them tried to talk to you. 

Entering your room you were startled to see Dazai sitting on the edge of your bed, the opened bottle of champagne in one hand and the plastic package containing baby carrots in his other. On top of the bedside drawer laid three positive pregnancy tests, not how you left them.

Your eyes drifted away from Dazai and towards the table where the food from your earlier lunch still stood untouched. The bolero you carelessly tossed in your chair was now hung over the back of it. If you stare long enough you could almost envision your few-hours-younger-self sitting in that chair, your head in your hand as you stared out of the window into the bright blue sky. Naively hoping and praying that he would keep his promise, that he cared. 

So foolish. 

“ Y/N, is there something you want to tell me?” Dazai asked as he finally stood up, leaving behind the champaign and carrots, and walked over to you. You stubbornly refused to look at him. From your perspective there was nothing more you had to stay to him. “ Y/N?” 

A bitter smile tugged on your lips as you turned and stared blankly at him. There were no tears left in you to cry. Just a bitter numbness that ached away at your very soul. “ It’s too late.” you whispered, as Dazai took your icy hands between his own warm ones, raising them to his lips, blowing softly onto the fingertips. There was a gentleness in the action you forgot he was capable of. 

Oh if only he’d held your hands like this just a few hours earlier. 

[littencloud9]

chuuya being all smiley like LOL FYODORS DEAD!!! and dazai going through a mental crisis at the same time is so funny. what is wrong with them

[reallyromealone]

ROMEALONES KINKTOBER LIST

ROMEALONES KINKTOBER LIST

DAY 🎃ONE 🎃 APHRODISIAC - tighnari

DAY🎃 TWO 🎃 MARKING - Doma

DAY 🎃THREE🎃 BREEDING -Aizawa

DAY🎃 FOUR🎃 COSTUME - Dazai

DAY 🎃FIVE🎃 DADDY KINK - timeskip!kemma(canon)

DAY🎃 SIX🎃 SENSORY DEPRIVATION - Toji fushiguro

DAY 🎃SEVEN🎃 PET PLAY - CYNO

DAY🎃 EIGHT🎃 SOMNOPHILIA - SHANKS

DAY 🎃NINE🎃 DIRTY TALK -ITACHI

DAY 🎃TEN🎃 DRY HUMPING - SEBASTIAN

DAY 🎃ELEVEN🎃 CAR SEX - Eddie Munson

DAY 🎃TWELVE🎃 FACE SITTING - Smiley

DAY 🎃THIRTEEN🎃 LINGERIE - kuroo testuro

DAY 🎃FOURTEEN🎃 COCKWARMING - Kyoya ootori

DAY🎃 FIFTEEN🎃 MONSTER - Sidon

DAY 🎃SIXTEEN🎃 CORRUPTION - Pantalone x

DAY 🎃SEVENTEEN🎃 DOUBLE PENITRATION - NAGA! Sephiroth

DAY🎃 EIGHTEEN🎃 SEX TAPE - Illumi

DAY🎃 NINETEEN🎃BRAT TAMING -Crewel

DAY 🎃TWENTY🎃 BODY WORSHIP - Mikey

DAY 🎃TWENTY-ONE🎃 SOUND KINK - KINUKIDA

DAY🎃 TWENTY-TWO🎃 SHOWER SEX - NOZEL

DAY 🎃TWENTY THREE🎃 PHONE SEX - GOJO

DAY 🎃TWENTY-FOUR🎃 THIGH RIDING -MUZAN

DAY 🎃TWENTY-FIVE🎃 SPANKING - lucifer

DAY 🎃TWENTY-SIX🎃 HUMILIATION - overhaul

DAY 🎃TWENTY-SEVEN🎃 CUCKHOLDING - LEVI AND ERWIN MODERN AU

DAY🎃 TWENTY EIGHT🎃 AGE DIFFERENCE - ENDEAVOUR

DAY 🎃TWENTY NINE🎃 FOOD PLAY - Beelzebub

DAY 🎃THIRTY🎃 TOYS - ASOMODIUS

DAY 🎃THIRTY ONE 🎃 AFTERCARE - BRUCE

[himimosa]

poker face

You carefully observed the man in front of you. He had this innocent smile of his that you would like to pinch at a usual time, but not now... He wasn't cute at all at the moment, no... maybe just a little. You carefully observed the curve of his lips, wrinkles around his eyes that were caused by his smiley expression, and last of all his eyes... The frequency of his blinks, the movement of his pupils, and the colors of his iris... You couldn't see a damn thing...

"It has been over 2 minutes dear, you have to make a decision now..."

"Shut up" you mumbled. You kept wandering your fingers between the two cards he held towards you. With a sudden move, you grabbed one, but you didn't pull it. You were expecting the tiniest of change in his eyes, an instant sparkle or doubt. But no, he wasn't even looking at the card you were holding, instead he was looking into your eyes, and there wasn't any change with him... Only his smile widened a bit more...

"Is it your last decision?" he asked.

"He must be bluffing, no he definitely is bluffing" you thought. "The card I am holding must be Ace, the pair of the card on my other hand... He is trying to making me believe that I am holding Joker, but I am holding Ace, I know..."

In an instant, you released the card you have been holding and grabbed the other quickly, turned it towards yourself. When you saw the ridicilous yellow, blue and red colors of dancing Joker; you felt like a bucket of boiled water poured down from your head...

"It's my turn. Mix it as much as you want love" Dazai chuckled.

You wanted to cry and kick the ground like a child but you held yourself. You and Dazai were playing one of the oldest and easiest card games of the time: Old Maid, with poker cards. The winner was going to choose the place where the other will treat them a dinner. The thought of free meal was enough for you to show your competitive side, but not enough to beat your poker-faced boyfriend...

You hid the cards behind your back and started to mix them. You thought closing your eyes while holding them towards Dazai, if you didn't know which cards you were holding, Dazai wouldn't be able to read your expression right? You gave up on that idea quickly, Dazai would mock you a lot if you have done that...

You decided you mixed the cards enough, and held them towards Dazai. Ace was on the left, and Joker was on the right. You frowned and loosen your brows a few times, you were trying to adjust your expression into a stern one. Dazai giggled at you "You are so cute love.." And without even hesitating he reached for the left card, but didn't pull it. You felt your face getting paler, your eyes were on Dazai's fingers that now were helding the Ace card. Dazai didn't move at all, you couldn't wait any longer: "If you're gonna pull, pull it now" You knew your voice was trembling with frustration, but you couldn't help it. There was nothing to do, it seemed like you have lost already...

When Dazai released the Ace slowly, your eyes widened. When he held and pulled the Joker, you couldn't help but let a scream of happiness. Fair or not, you didn't care.. Since the beginning of the game, Dazai pulled a wrong card the first time! None of his enemies would be able to make Dazai do that, it was only a power you held! A power that makes Dazai go soft for you and brings you the victory-

Dazai mixed the two cards behind his back and held them towards you again: "Dear, you know the game isn't over right? It's your turn..."

this man would make everyone lose millions on poker, but he would pull a very obvious Joker card to see you smile...